Friday–Saturday

My trip was okay.  Lots of rain to drive through and that helped slow things down travel wise.  So I was on the road longer than I wanted to be.  I didn’t know it ahead of time but I needed to run cable so this person could get on-line.  I had to go buy cable and then I found out after the fact we were surrounded by the impossible.  Wooden risers  next to duct work on 3 walls and the 4th wall was all brick.  The maintenance guy was off and they had one of his helpers assist me.  That guy was a clock watcher and kept counting the minutes until he clocked out.  He wasn’t interested in helping me, he wanted to leave.  He also wouldn’t climb a ladder because he was afraid of heights.  I told him so am I but since only one of us has balls, I will climb the ladder!  I shouldn’t say this but he was a fucktard!  Completely useless except for getting me tools.  Sadly due to the construction of the building and the fact that I didn’t know how to get out of this situation, I left it for the maintenance guy to figure out, when he gets back on Monday.  I don’t mind going back to help out but this is clearly a job I couldn’t do by myself.  Had the construction not been an issue, I would have run the cable and the job would be done.  I get satisfaction when I am able to help people, it makes me proud and feel very good. 

I skipped lunch and decided to tough it out until I left.  Then I would drive to the buffet we like so much.  I did just that and wouldn’t you know it Friday was seafood night.  Crap, it was one of the worst meals I have had in a long time.  I did get my bread pudding though.  Then I got another disappointment when I went to pay.  Yep, that’s right they don’t take American Express.  So I had to pay for this meal out of my own pocket.  I didn’t ask ahead of time so it’s my own fault.  That just ticked me off.  However, the company didn’t get away with not paying for my meal.  I stopped and got my partner something on the way home and used my AMEX there.  It will just look like I ate very late, which I did.  His meal was way cheaper than what I shelled out at the buffet, so it all works out.  Plus they bought my gas so I really don’t have any complaints other than the darn rain and slow drivers.  I got home at 7 and that is way later than I wanted to.  I left at 6am so it was a super long day!

Saturday I woke up early, fed the children and got dressed.  Took my medicine and out the door I went.  Got my ears lowered or in simpler terms I got a hair cut.  I left a note for my partner that I went to get my ears pierced, just because I knew he would have a cow over it.  I really want to have my ears pierced but I’m afraid it would telegraph too much and my employer might not like it.  Lord knows I don’t want to make any waves.  Plus I think 41 is a bit old to give in to such a fad, but it’s something I have wanted for a very long time and I am just not used to the word NO. 

Came back home after my hair cut, me and my partner had some fun (you can figure that out…wink…wink) and then decided to take a nap.  I didn’t get much sleep because my phone kept sounding off and he was wiggling.  After a couple hours I decided enough was enough.  A friend of mine kept calling, which is why the phone was sounding off.  So I called her only to find out that her husband is in the hospital and nearly died from blood clots in his lungs and leg.  He had them for 3 weeks and just got treatment for them this week when he had a breathing attack.  Talk about lucky!  Then after chatting with her for a bit, we decided to grab breakfast which was lunch for both of us.  Picked up some cat litter and cards, came back home for a bit.  Loafed in my chair and watched some TV.  My brother started texting me about the time I was ready to dose off.

So there is just no rest for me.  We went out for supper to get a pizza.  I had to pick up a new keyboard/mouse combo for my partner.  His went south on him.  He spilled soda on his keyboard like 2 months ago and it just now decided to act up.  Strange.  I tried all I knew but there is/was no fixing it.  More money gone!  Damn.  Then the sad part, came home to pay bills and found out that I don’t have enough money to make my car payment.  It normally comes out of the check at the 1st of the month but no worries it can come out of the check towards the end of the month.  I had 2 hospital bills show up.  One was for blood work that was done earlier in the year and the other one was for when I had my foot looked at some 4 months ago.  If I didn’t have to pay them I would have had plenty of money for the car and then some left over.  I changed my withholding so I get an extra $44 per check, which will come in handy.  I’ve told myself that money will go to savings – maybe some day I will get ahead.

I’ve been talking about Life Insurance.  Tonight I filled out an application for my partner for a $20 thousand dollar policy.  It is just under $100 a month and if they accept him it will be a miracle.  While $20k won’t get me very far it will sure help out.  I hope they accept him and that God allows me the money to be able to pay for it.  I also hope that I don’t collect my money anytime soon.  Some life insurance is better than none at all.  If this company rejects him, I will look for something else.  He’s an insurance company’s nightmare because of all of the conditions he has, medicines he takes and well most places want big money to insure what they consider to be a ticking time bomb.  I figure sadly that I will bury him, meaning he will die before me.  I really wish that when the time comes we would all go together – that means him, me and the kids.  That won’t happen unless the house burns down in the middle of the night and well we have an alarm and the smoke detectors are very sensitive, just as the fire department they have been called many times for smoke from my partners cooking. 

Presently my partner is in the Emergency Room.  His catheter is giving him problems.  It sounds like he as a UTI because he is complaining of burning when he goes.  However, I’m no MD so we will let the hospital sort that one out.  I am headed upstairs to get some cake and watch TV.  I’m going to call it a night.  I’m tired and I know that just as soon as I lay my head on the pillow he will text me, so once again I won’t get any sleep.  I just hope they can process him quickly so he gets home.  I’ve said it before and I will say it again…he is a horrible patient.  Doesn’t matter if he is at home or in the hospital when he is sick or needs care you really don’t want to be around him.   There is also a chill in the air and I’ve been cold pretty much all day long.  I am fighting breaking out the long sleeves but another cold day and I will reluctantly give in.

Take care and I will talk with you peeps later!

Gay

I was thinking the other day that I really haven’t blogged much about being gay.  What exactly is there to say?  Sexuality and who you are attracted to as well as what things turn you on are just one of many parts to a persons life. 

Gay people are like straight people, black people, Hispanic people.  We are all human beings.  We have wants, needs, desires and we all are individuals who act and feel differently – which is part of what makes us unique as people. 

Being Gay is something people come to accept and deal with.  Some people can’t accept it and never deal with it.  Other people just can’t imagine how they will go on and decide to end their lives.  Like I said in the 1st paragraph it’s just one of many parts to a persons life.  Taking your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.  Believe me, I had my struggles with my sexuality and coming out to myself.  I thought life was over and not worth living.  However, when your younger you think in the now and not in the future.  Kids can be cruel.  However, kids turn into adults and with a little time and knowledge most people open their minds and are accepting that your different from them.  It’s not like you have to walk around with a sign on your forehead or wearing a shirt…keep back 200 feet gay person.  In most cases people will either figure it out or if your very straight acting they will never know.

If your lucky enough to figure out your sexuality when your in your teenage years and can come to terms with it, you can have a lot of fun.  Going away to college changes things.  You will find more resources and of course more guys who are just like you.  Not that you have to have sex, but trust me you will want to.  I never went to college but have lived in a college town and wow the guys look amazing!

So what I am trying to say is that you should just be yourself and be honest with yourself.  As long as you love yourself, everything else will fall into place with a little time.  If your reading this and thinking about taking your own life or need to talk with someone, please call the Trevor Project at 866.488.7386.  If your not in a crisis situation and want to talk, leave a comment with your e-mail address I’m happy to talk with you.

I remember coming out to a friend and saying if you have any questions, I will be happy to answer them.  So they asked who is the man and who is the woman?  Well the answer to that question is we are both men.  What they wanted to know is who takes it up the ass.  Don’t dance around with words, just ask your question.  The answer to that, in case your curious we both like it.  Like the rainbow and it’s many colors, we are all unique.  Some gay people like sports, others like to hang out at bars, some like leather, some like to stay home and drink beer.  Gay, Straight, Black or White we are all people and what you get into sexually is your business.  If you choose to make that public, that’s your choice.  Coming out is a life long process because you have to do it over and over again.  The first time, just like sex is awkward but if you get a good reception you will feel like a million bucks.  Warning that all people won’t understand and it could potentially have negative side effects.  Once you utter those words “ I am gay” you can NEVER take them back, so my advice is proceed with caution.  Bottom line is live your life regardless of what you like.  Just because someone comes out to you, doesn’t mean they want in your pants.  They want you to know something very personal about them and they trust you, so be accepting and open.  Nothing has to change in your friendship or relationship unless you want it to.  They were gay yesterday before they told you and they will be gay tomorrow and the next day.  There is no praying the gay away, no conversion therapy and no need for either.  You are who you are and no one can change that no matter what!

Got more questions?  Leave a comment and I will get you an answer!  Take care and thanks for stopping by.

Traffic…

It was a huge mess when I left work and I stayed an extra 1/2 hour.  Traffic was all backed up, cops directing traffic and people were moving at a snails pace.  I don’t know about you but when a cop motions me on, I take off on a pretty good clip.  I don’t do 5 miles per hour.  They want to move traffic as much as you want traffic to move.  I mean we don’t exactly have all day.

On my way home I called to see if someone wanted Jack In the Box, but there was no answer.  I kept calling and calling.  Home, Cell and back and forth.  Nothing.  I thought sure he was dead.  He didn’t sound good at lunch time.  I almost got a ticket I was driving so fast.  I kept trying and then an incoming call.  Honey were you trying to reach me?  Yeah, what are you doing.  Oh, I was taking a shower.  Funny he just did that last night.  Normally it’s a couple days in between.  Phew, I just started thanking God that he was still alive.  A huge weight just lifted off of me and I was so relieved.  I don’t mean to be a pain in the ass but damn answer the phone or tell me your taking a shower before you get in.  I understand totally but my blood pressure doesn’t.

Speaking of having all day, there is this nice Italian lady I work with who is from Brooklyn.  Man she has the biggest knockers I have seen.  I don’t know why but my eyes go straight to her chest and I’m 100% gay.  I’d still like to give them a good honk, just to see what it feels like.  If there was ever anyone who should have a breast reduction, it would be her.  She is so sweet.  From a technology point of view she is a huge pain in my ass, but I like her. 

We had Burger King for supper.  I know not exactly healthy.  I’m stopping at Hardee’s/Carl’s Jr. tomorrow for Breakfast.  Been craving that for days and tomorrow I’m giving in.  Not sure about lunch but I do know the company is buying that plus gasoline.  Have no idea about supper tomorrow night.

Tonight after we finished supper the door bell rang.  I don’t usually open the door, unless it’s someone I know or it’s a police officer.  Otherwise, I assume your selling something and the sign on the door says it all… NO SOLICITORS!  However, I made an exception tonight because one my partner was yelling at me and two the kid on the other side was cute.  He asked me does Evan live here.  I said no but wanted to say yes and then say Evan is right here in my pants.  I figured he was looking for a long lost friend or maybe him and Evan had a thing.  All I know is we have lived here for 12 plus years and no one before us was named Evan and neither one of us is named Evan and that includes the cats.  So sorry but Evan doesn’t live here.  You could see the sadness on his face when I told him no, but he smiled at me and said have a good night.  He turned and walked away.  Nice looking body, if I do say so myself.

Once again tonight I am wiped out.  I mean ready for bed like now.  I get to drive for a couple hours tomorrow and it’s supposed to rain.  Fun!  I’ll have my phones with me, plus I’m bringing along my police scanner – it will help break up the boredom of the long drive through cow fields. 

I hope that I get to come home early and have another jump start to the weekend.  That would be awesome.  I’m afraid I will hear from the boss tomorrow.  He told me he was having problems with his new keyboard.  Kind of strange.  He changed the batteries and moved the receiver to a different USB port but it’s still acting up.  Okay, so he said get me a new one.  I did exactly that.  He is the type of person that wants instant results, all of the time.  So I had it shipped next day to his home.  I worried all day long that he would stroke out when he saw the cost for shipping.  It was more than the keyboard.  Hardly worth it but if I would have used 2nd day or Ground he would have been on my ass.  So, I talked with his assistant and she said don’t tell him.  I hadn’t planned on it but the vendor I used puts a packing slip in and that shows the prices.  So she said blame her, say that she said ship it overnight.  I mean he could have gotten off his lazy ass and driven to a store and picked it up there but no he has “people” and he used that privilege.  I did select the cheapest next day option that the vendor had but still it’s a small fortune that could have gotten him 2 keyboards and 2 mice.  Hopefully he doesn’t make a fuss over it but only time will tell.

I’m putting this little entry in because I most likely won’t have anything to enter tomorrow, since I will be on the road.  The next update will probably come over the weekend or worst case Monday.  I hope I get a good nights sleep. This weekend I hope for total relaxation so I can get refreshed to face yet another week.

Have a good night and a Happy Friday.  I will talk with you peeps later, as one of the girls is commanding me to get upstairs so we can curl up in a chair together.  Damn cats run my life and I wouldn’t have it any other way. 

 

Some tunes for Friday to put a little pep in your step!

 

 

Tired Thursday

As I suspected, I didn’t last long last night.  I was in bed by 10, which is a good thing.  Too bad I woke up at 5 and had to use the bathroom.  That stirred up the kids and they thought it was food time.  Except Jumper & Big Boy – they know me pretty well.  An hour later I was up and then it was really food time.

I don’t know what it is but I am so tired today.  I could just lay down and go to sleep.  That sounds better than eating lunch. 

Speaking of food, we have to work something out for tonight.  My partner has a catheter in and there is a very large collection pouch, so there is no way he can hide it.  He has a function to attend tonight but I think he will be staying home.  That is probably true for the weekend as well.  I guess it will be a take out weekend.  I thought of maybe picking up a pizza tonight, but I will probably have pizza for lunch tomorrow so now I have to think of something else. 

I did go shopping last night at Colorado Pen and picked up something for my partner.  They were offering free engraving of one line, so I took advantage of that.  No charge for shipping since the order was above $25.  It’s a good deal.  This will be his birthday present.  I told him he wouldn’t be getting anything due to finances.  I have had to pay more than a few bills for him and well I’m super dirt poor.  This won’t set me back much and I actually can afford it, so I figured why not.  He actually hates gifts – material possessions.  He would rather I save my money, yeah well we don’t always get what we want.

My fear of loosing him is getting stronger as he continues to get older.  His birthday will occur later this month and he’s not a spring chicken.  I have looked into term life insurance but they want so much money.  It would be like I was making two car payments.  Realistically I can’t afford it.  He has a small life policy from his employer but each year he gets older it dwindles.  There might be $3,000 there now.  That would pretty much be eaten up by funeral expenses.  My bigger worry is the house and paying the mortgage.  Now there is a payment I can’t cover.  If I had to sell the place, I would also have to break up the cat family.  I don’t want to do any of that.  I’d rather he just live until everything is paid for.  However, that is like sticking my head in the sand.  Realistically I would be in a financial crisis.  It’s like I am damned if I do and damned if I don’t.  No one can predict death and it’s something we are all going to have to face sooner or later (hopefully later, as in much later).  Trying to get ahead of the game and prepare for it is the ideal and smart thing to do. 

Suppose the shoe was on the other foot and I died.  They would take back my car.  There is enough money to pay off the one credit card I have.  I have no life insurance, not a penny.  So he would be totally lost – physically, emotionally and financially.  He could survive with the house.  The cats would be taken care of and probably eat a lot less food.  I can get an affordable term policy for myself but I feel it’s like throwing my money away.  I mean I’m young and unless I have a heart attack or an auto accident chances are pretty good that I will live for a while. 

Sorry for the gloom and doom but I just can’t stop thinking about this.  It’s like my worst nightmare and I know someday it will come true.  I will NEVER be prepared for it.  I think I am going to apply for something, even a small $20k policy would help.  Now the bigger question with his health will any insurance company insure him?  I don't know but I think I am going to find out.

So the machine is ready to box up and for me to take it to my car.  That is an after lunch project.  Like around 3 or 4ish.  I’ve got a machine a co-worker dropped off to look at, it’s a personal machine so I am not supposed to fiddle with it on company time, but if I don’t do that I will just be sitting here twiddling my thumbs.  All is quiet today.  When I leave tomorrow all hell will break loose and people will suddenly need me.  Ah, well I will survive.

Time for lunch and then my phone call home.  Ooh Ahh such an exciting life I lead.  Talk with you peeps later!

Got the answer

Well it took long enough but I finally got the answer.  Remember that cute guy, I know which one I talk about so many of them.  This is the one that someone had for wallpaper at a computer I was working on.  Well I got the answer who he is.  It would be Christian Grey from the book 50 Shades of Grey. 

In doing some quick research apparently this book talks about BSDM and encourages girls/women to try it.  Never mind them, he can whip me any day.  I think you guys will agree.

Here’s a photo for a memory refresher.

Now you remember, don’t you?  I’d go most anywhere with him.  Red Room, Blue Room or Bed Room!

My partner is home!  No more peace and quiet for me.  He looks like he lost weight.  I guess they drained that much fluid out of him.  His next appointment is with the urologist next week.  Then he will have to go back to see his PCP for follow up.  His medicine has been changed around and is really screwy.  One minute it’s take this, then it’s don’t take it and now it’s get back to taking it.  Make up my mind already!

Guess who has two thumbs and is traveling this Friday?  Right, this guy!  I’m going back to the place where Christian’s photo was.  It will take forever to get there but it will be a nice drive by myself.  Just me and Pandora One.  Maybe a little help from Sync and that’s it.  They called today and had a computer crash.  I just got a new one in so I am getting it ready to go there.  No rest or goofing off for me – well maybe just a little bit.  Kind of depends upon how the day goes.

Not sure if I told you but we have a company paid trip they take everyone to FL for a few days.  I broke the news today that I couldn’t go.  Looks like I will get a couple days off with pay and it won’t count against me.  Nice :)  I figure if I went I might wind up sleeping with someone or getting into some trouble.  Besides that I’d just as soon sit home and sleep.  It’s a nice gesture but with my job still posted on the internet and the way I have been treated I really don’t want to get too close to anyone.  I like quiet and alone, stay off the radar and all seems good.  Maybe it’s just a fantasy but I like it.

I told the kids I wouldn’t be long so I’m publishing this and headed off to relax.  I am so ready to collapse right now, dead tired.  Damn Colorado Pen they sent me a catalog, now I want to give in to my pen fetish and buy, buy, buy.  I don’t know why I like them but I do.  It’s like a fat man and cake.  Oh, wait I am a fat man and I like cake as well.  Ah well, better to like than to dislike. 

I think the Presidential Debates should be interesting tonight and as much as I would like to watch them, got to stay true to my Flashpoint.  40 minutes of fun per episode. 

I will talk with you peeps later!  Be well.

Early Morning Phone Call

Normally late night and early morning phone calls are not good news.  However, I got a call this morning from my partner that was good news.  He is getting out of the hospital today.  They were going to bring him breakfast and then he could get in his truck and rive home.  I haven’t heard from him in a couple hours but presume everything is on track.

I thought for sure he would make his foot doctor appointment but told me to cancel it.  So I did.  Were finally going to have Sloppy Joe’s been planning on that for a while now but something always seemed to get in the way.  The hamburger that we had planned on using is bad, but thankfully we have frozen so I got it out to thaw. 

I fed the children this morning and told them that daddy would be home today.  He would feed them lunch.  They looked at me kind of funny as I cleaned up from breakfast, which is not something I normally do.  Kind of wanted to have the place a little clean when he comes home as a welcome home present.

I have caught up on most everything here at work.  Took me about an hour and a half and poof it’s all done.  Right now I am waiting on a couple folks to get back to me.  I am also looking for some packages that haven’t made there way to my office as of yet.  So I will have to go snooping to see if they were delivered.

Boss man I think will be out for the rest of the week, not too shabby. So it is relaxed here.  I turned in my time off form for taking yesterday off and got it back.  I was told don’t worry about it.  Nice!  No wonder people have vacation to burn if they give you sick time.  I don’t look for this treatment all the time but it sure is nice.  I could have stayed home today.  Who knew they would be so nice?  My partner wouldn’t have liked it but I could use the cuddle and sleep time.  Last night as rough.

You ever have one of those nights where your mind is racing and you can’t shut it off.  Well that’s what I was going through last night when I tried to fall asleep.  Hopefully, tonight it will be lights out and straight to dream land.  I can’t tell you when the last time was that I had a great nights sleep.

As for me well I am toughing out the sick part, I doubled up on medicine last night, this morning and again tonight.  Then I am going back to normal dosage.  Hopefully, I can kill whatever infection is in me so that I will feel normal again, I am looking forward to that.  Sleep would also help but there is no rest for me.

I have a relaxing evening planned to veg in front of the TV and be with the kids.  We shall see if that comes to pass.  We actually had some time together last night from 9 until 11.  Kind of nice.  I stayed up way too late.  10 should have been my cut off time but I can’t seem to shutdown.

Watched Tosh.O last night.  That was a great show.  I love Daniel Tosh he’s so witty and got a great sense of humor.  I don’t find everything he says funny but I do like most things.  Plus he is so sexy!  I wish he would lay his sexuality out on the line.  One minute I think he is gay and the next minute he is talking about girls and then I think he’s straight.  Just would be nice to know which team he is playing for.

Speaking of teams, NPH that’s Neil Patrick Harris is writing a book about his coming out and sexuality.  It is scheduled to be out in 2014 and I so look forward to reading it.  I’m sure it will take a lot of time to write and there will be difficult things to say but I applaud him for putting it out there.  No secret I have a huge crush on him!

Now that I have exhausted myself I am so ready for a nap.  Too bad there is no napping at the office.  I could always go to my car and curl up though.  Temptation never sounded so good.

Well off to see if I can’t fix my Google Calendar.  I’ve been at this for a couple days now and it doesn’t appear I am making much progress.  Take care and I will talk with you peeps later!

Ye old Update

I woke up and my head felt like a Basketball.  I decided to stay home with everything going on.  I tried to get some sleep but that just didn’t work for me.  Too many interruptions from cats, trash people, phones, work and home – there just is no resting!

I went to the hospital today and my partner was very surprised to see me.  The doctor stopped in close to noon and told me pretty much what I already knew.  He stopped taking his medicine for CHF and that caused fluid to start collecting in his lungs.  He lucked out as this could have also done significant damage to his heart but they found none.  They have given him medicine and flushed all of the fluid out of his lungs.  He feels better, sounds better and breathes better.  Pretty much back to a state of “normal”.  He is a damn crab ass.  The least littlest thing sets him off.  I grew tired of that and the fact that I was sick, so I left around 1 this afternoon.    The doctor was supposed to stop back in around 4 and discharge him, provided he would walk and test his body out.  It took a while but he got someone to finally help him and he did the test, all working okay!

I had plans to get something to eat when I left.  A bowl of soup sounded so good.  However,  it started to rain and I decided I didn’t want to get wet.  I came home instead.  Tried to take a nap but more interruptions.  I think I got in maybe an hour. 

I had the doctor phone in more medicine for me.  The pharmacy ran out and I couldn’t find a close pharmacy that had it in stock.  I was prepared to tough it out for a couple days but I got an e-mail after supper that told me my medicine was ready for pickup.  I headed over and got it.  The doctor said he couldn’t increase the strength but he could extend the medicine for another week.  Okay, I will take it.  I don’t think it will work but still I will take it.  If I am no better next week then they will need to switch things up and find a different drug.  In fact Thursday or Friday I may call the allergist to get a Saturday appointment to see if he can help me, depends a lot on how I feel.  I just know tomorrow morning will be hell – mornings are always the worst.  Sinus pressure – blood and junk pouring out of my nose, so not fun!

Okay so supper I went back to the Mexican place we were at last week to hopefully catch another peek at the cute guy but he wasn’t there.  I did have a nice meal though.  Considering I skipped lunch I will be having some desert here in a bit.

I had to help my brother update his resume.  I talked with my partner and now the evening is just winding down.  Nice but I am just getting ready to get started.  I will have to find a way to relax.

Oh I did go for cat food and saw the cute manager who just got his ear pierced.  He’s openly gay and looks really good.  Only draw back for me is he is a smoker.  However, it won’t stop me from looking at him.

One of the girls is chomping at the bit to get me to go upstairs.  I think she wants to watch TV with daddy.  I’m going to give in.  I need to take care of the litter boxes and then it’s off to have some desert and watch TV.  Who knows maybe I will get in to some trouble as well.

All I know is back to work tomorrow unless I feel worse.  I’m doping up tonight so hopefully that won’t be the case.  Sorry it took so long to get an update posted but it’s been one hell of a day.

I have no plans to go back to the hospital tomorrow and fully expect he will be home.  I do have to call and cancel his Foot Doctor Appointment.  Hopefully we can have supper together.  That hospital room was hotter than hell.  I complained and they brought a fan in, which helped but I am so glad I am home, can be naked and turn on the AC. 

We are at a critical point for me getting sick…. change of seasons.  It always gets me when I am working.  I am not sure why but it does.  Then there is winter and that just spells misery to me.  I am so glad I get a lot of vacation time because I think I will be using it as sick time. 

Take care and I will talk with you peeps later!  My work is backing up so tomorrow might be another one of those late posting days.  People actually seem to need me when I am not around.  Makes me wonder how in the world I would ever go on vacation if I wanted to.  Go figure!

One last thing and then I am really going, honest!  We got an update on my partners cousin.  She took a turn for the worst last week.  They stopped rehab therapy and had to do emergency surgery.  She had blood clots in her leg and lungs.  They are giving her a 50/50 shot but it really doesn’t sound good.  Her daughter seems to think that her mom is a fighter and will make it.  We don’t think so but are hoping and praying for the best.  Just in case you were wondering.  Some times there are daily updates other times we go days with no updates.  Kind of depends upon how things are going.  I know that she is back in ICU.  They put in a Gunther Tulip to help with the clots and have started her on blood thinners.  Just doesn’t sound good right now.  However, my partner made it through his stroke okay and they are related so maybe she can beat this after all.  Totally in God’s hands.  …Good night.

Update

So it’s Congestive Heart Failure – same old thing.  Someone stopped taking their medicine because they were going to the bathroom too frequently.  I told him but he didn’t listen.  Lucky that the fluid didn’t build up so bad that he stopped breathing.

He has a catheter in and is wanting to come home.  Funny thing is he tried sending me a text but all I got was Eric, Eric D.  Have no idea what he was trying to say, so I called and said who’s Eric?  He laughed damn autocorrect.

Sounds like I will be eating out tonight, regardless if he comes home or not.  I don’t plan on driving to the hospital if they keep him.  I need rest – lots of rest. 

That’s all I know now.  Back to work!

From the Doctor to the Hospital

So my partner went to the doctor, they did some tests and decided to send him to the Emergency Room.  The doctors office couldn’t find anything wrong, so I am told.  I think they found something but didn’t want to alarm him.

Anyway, here I am at work and he’s at the hospital.  If he gets out there probably won’t be time to fix supper, so that means we will probably have to eat out. 

I sent him a text message not to die on me, I’m not ready for that.  Right now it doesn’t sound too serious but he is still having issues with breathing.  He just sounds winded but otherwise he says he feels okay. 

He is afraid they will keep him.  I’m okay with that if that is what it takes for him to get better.  Just waiting to get an update and they are in no hurry in the hospital.  I’d go out there but there really isn’t anything for me to do.

I’m running a utility to clean up duplicate calendar entries.  Google Calendar Sync went crazy on me. 

Just got an update x-ray is done, now they are waiting on a doctor.  Wouldn’t surprise me to learn that he had Pneumonia.  Back to work for me.

Physically & Emotionally Drained

Hey there party people.  It’s been quite a roller coaster weekend for me.  Friday I got to leave work early as I planned.  I was working with a crazy maintenance person.  He was cussing to beat the band.  The funniest thing that happened was he hit his head and about a minute later, he said shit that hurt.  He is from Russia.  I am glad we got the job done because I just wanted to get away from him.  He wasted a bunch of cable – but we got the job done so that’s all that matters.

I left work at 3, went to Best Buy and got some iPhone accessories for my partner’s phone.  I thought I’d surprise him.  Yeah big surprise, one of the items I got was wrong so I had to take it back and get the right one, cost me more money.  I should have went with my gut and could have avoided a trip back. 

I headed over to another store while I was out to pick up some boxers and jewelry cleaner.  I like all different types of underwear but boxers seem to be really comfy and the boys can hang out. 

We went out to eat because I didn’t give him advance notice that I was coming home so early.  Steak N Shake for chili & burgers.  Not too bad.  Washed it all down with a shake.

Then it was off to the home improvement store to rent a carpet cleaner.  Yeah, I did this earlier in the month.  So this was more maintenance than anything.  I worked my ass off upstairs and my back is killing me for it.  My partner was having breathing problems, you’d think he did the work. 

I got him to bed to lay down, turned up his oxygen and kept checking on him over the course of an hour.  Finally he felt better.  I took a cold shower because I was hotter than hot.  I sat down with the kids and we watched some more Flashpoint.  Finally went to bed.

Woke up the next morning, took my partner to breakfast he felt better.  I thought things were looking up.  We went back home and I rested for a bit, watched even more Flashpoint.  Then finished up the carpet.  He was working on his computer. 

Got ready and took the carpet cleaner back, headed to get something to eat.  Then back home.  I had to launder my partners bed clothes and all I wanted to do was sleep.  I took care of getting them started.  Took care of the trash and then I just collapsed.

I told him that he would have to sleep on his bed w/o a sheet because I was just too tired.  So I went to bed, about my normal time.  Woke up at 2am to hammering.  Guess who fell out of bed?

I spent about a half hour getting him up.  Then I had to wind down to get myself back to bed.  I had plans of getting an early start so I could have a nice relaxing evening but that changed it all.  I wound up sleeping in way too late. 

I got a shower and checked on him, he was ready to go eat.  So I suggested a local place and we proceeded to get there.  However, in trying to get into the truck he slid right out of the seat and on to the ground.  I tried to help him back in but he’s just a bunch of dead weight and I am so out of shape.  Had to call 911 to get the fireman to come and help him.

The only good news was one of them was a twink, couldn’t have been over 21.  Damn, nice to look at.  It was all of 2 minutes and they had him up, packed in the car and they were on to their next call. 

My bigger concern was how will he get into the restaurant and then back into the truck?  I mean we can’t have the fire department follow us around.  Well, it all came together.  He moved slow and I got out a walker for him but we made it.  Thank God!

All I wanted to do when we got home was rest.  I was once again exhausted.  At this point I had spent no time in front of the computer, having any kind of fun myself – it was all work and no play.

Had to finish up the laundry, then time got away from me.  I went to the grocery store, came back to put it all away and prepare for yet another day.  Jesus, so much for an enjoyable weekend.

The good news is I got to watch, you guessed it more Flashpoint.  I so love that show and especially  David Paetkau, who plays Sam Braddock.  Were only a year and a couple months apart in age.  Too bad he is in Canada, married and straight.  Ah, well I can look – right!

See what I mean, he is totally HOT!  Flashpoint from what I have read got a 5th season so hopefully that makes it’s way to Netflix.  Right now I am on the 3rd season.  I just can’t pull myself away from it.  Not just because of David/Sam but because it’s an intense show and I’ve got a love for Law Enforcement.

I drove in today, to get all of the equipment I took with me on Friday back.  Wish I was leaving again this afternoon and not coming back for a couple days.  Nothing far away, just local work.  Ah well, maybe I shouldn’t wish too hard because that could easily happen.

I came back to work to rest up from the weekend from hell.  Tonight the goal is total relaxation.  I’ve got to work on dishes and trash.  Outside of that all I want to do is be a vegetable in front of the TV. Spending time with the kids and thinking and doing nothing.  I would also like to make it a point to get to bed early.

No boss man today or tomorrow.  So things are calm here and honestly not a lot for me to do at this point.  I’m okay with that today.  Just make the day go by.  I’m ready for lunch and a nap.  Might just say I’m ill and leave early.

My partner is going to the doctor to get his breathing problem addressed.  Plus he is sick and that doesn’t help.  I’ve asked him to talk with the doctor about the kidney failure thing so we can hopefully get a better understanding of it.  The plain is to have sloppy joe’s for supper.

Funny thing is I was so excited and looking forward to the weekend, now I kind of wish it never would have happened.  I am a little depressed but mostly exhausted.

I hate seeing my partner go down hill.  We were talking about most of the guys he worked with.  How shortly after they stopped working they died.  He is one of the lucky ones in that he is collecting his retirement and getting to live.  I just hope that he doesn’t have any more falls and can get some what better.  I know he will never be 100% again but every little bit back to as close to normal as possible will help.  I’m not ready to loose him yet, don’t think I will ever be ready to loose him.

So there you have it, how I spent my weekend.  Now I suppose I should start doing some actual work, even though all I want to do is curl up and turn out the lights. 

I am feeling a little bit better but afraid that the stress from the weekend was not good for the body.  I’m on antibiotics for the majority of the week and all done with steroids.  My nose is still bleeding and I get hot once and a while.  Hopefully, next weekend will be better. 

Were in October already.  Damn!  2 more months left and this year will be history.  At work they are planning the annual trip to Florida of all places and it’s right after Turkey Day.  I haven’t told them but I won’t be going.  I have no desire.  We have a meet up later this month for dinner and drinks, I will gladly go to that but otherwise, I’d rather spend my time my way. 

You take care and I will talk with you peeps later!