The New Guy

Good morning

I am so sleep deprived.  My body woke me up at 1a and I didn’t get back to sleep until 4a.  Then I woke up at 6a and Rudy figured that was breakfast time.  He wasn’t a fan about letting me back into my own bed and once I got there he jumped on me and kept making biscuits as if to say, hey dummy were out of food time to feed us.  Eventually I just threw in the towel and got up.  That’s when I realized they were out of dry food and I felt bad. 

Both cats were on bug watch.  We had not 1 but 2 stink bugs inside the house.  Mora spotted them both and alerted.  I killed both of them.  One while I was on a phone call and the other shortly after the call wrapped up.  The first one had no odor but the second one made up for that in a very big and bad way!  YUK.  For the rest of the night Mora’s head was on a swivel and she was constantly scanning looking for the next bug.  She’s back at it again this morning as if this is going to be a regular thing.  It will happen again but it’s not a day to day thing nor do I want it to be.  What a great protector she is!

On the work front, the boss made the announcement to us yesterday about who was selected to be the new guy.  The good news is that I don’t have a crush on the guy so that is helpful.  Plus I already know he’s straight and married.  I just hope that he doesn’t plan on having any kids anytime soon.  He doesn’t start until May 1 so we have time to prep for his arrival.  I’m not thrilled with the choice my boss made and I’m not excited about training a new person.  We have worked together in the past since he’s an internal candidate and he’s very laid back and shows next to no emotion in his voice, at least that’s been my experience.  I hope that once he comes aboard that I get a little bit more enthusiasm or this process will really suck.  It’s exhausting enough training I’d like for it to be semi enjoyable for both of us. 

I was told yesterday that the announcement would be made to the folks who didn’t get selected.  I was thinking about the guy who reached out to me.  I opted to call him last night and we chatted for an hour.  It felt good to talk to him.  We tend to naturally get along which is why I was more excited for him to be selected, plus the fact I have a crush on him.  He doesn’t know that and our conversations have revolved around business and some personal stuff.  He was supposed to know who got the job but his manager held off and decided not to announce it until later today.  I told him who it was provided that he keeps it to himself.  Letting the cat out of the bag could get me into hot water.  Keeping information confidential is part of my job.  However, I felt like it was fair to tell him.  I gave him the option of knowing or waiting and he chose to know.  I mean I would too.  He didn’t sound nearly as upset about the decision as I had expected.  He’s looking at getting more education and keeping his options open.  You never really know what the future has in store for you.  I’ve got no doubt that he will climb and land in a role he wants, he’s still young.  He’s overqualified for his current position but everyone needs an income to pay the bills.  From some of the things he told me management thinks highly of him and they don’t want him to walk away.  I told him that in his location they searched for a long time to fill his role so I understand why they don’t want him to walk.  I’m sure we will continue to talk even if only periodically. 

That conversation took up the bulk of my evening and I felt better calling and talking to him.  It was refreshing to have a new person to chat up.  We both seem to have the gift of gab.  My gift comes from having feelings for him, just he doesn’t know that.  I’m sure if that came to light his opinion of me might change.  I’m super lonely, desperate which doesn’t help.  However, I have enough sense about me to not let the little head do the thinking for the big head.  Right now it’s just about having a friend and I use that term loosely because most co-workers are friendly and using you until they get what they want and then they are done with you.  Still I can use more true friends, I think that’s true for everyone. 

Thankfully I have nothing on my schedule today.  I am running on fumes and plan to take a nap which won’t fair well for sleep later on tonight.  However, I crave and need sleep – can’t run without it for terribly long.  When I was younger that was a different story. 

The house got up to 79 last night from the heat of the day.  I haven’t flipped the switch for AC but that will for sure happen today because were climbing fast towards 80.  Back into a hot spell before things cool off a bit then heat right back up.  Temps for March set an all time high for being the warmest in the US and I think were on par to break even more high temperature records. 

Hoping for a great day for all.  Thanks for stopping by!