I had some time to rationalize things and think my idea through. While I really want to reach out to comfort the left behind boyfriend, I think that my contact (regardless of what method I use) would cause more questions and possibly not be well received.
It’s in my nature to want to help people. While I don’t know what it feels like to lose someone to suicide, I know all to well what it feels like to lose someone you loved be it a person or a pet. I could commiserate with him and tell him things that worked for me, it might work for him.
However, I’m afraid that my message just wouldn’t be well received because in the end I’d still be the weirdo that had a crush on a twink and followed him on the web. I get it, it’s creepy. That said, I had no malicious intentions and just lusted after someone that I knew I would never have.
I wish that I would have reached out to him, it might have made a difference but it might not have. Somethings you are just better off leaving alone.
Now that I have typed this out, I have to get my mind wrapped around the idea that I’m done.
Back to normal posting, hopefully!
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