It’s been a very nice day. I sat with the cats upstairs in my room. We took in some TV, napped a couple times. The phone did wake me more than once but I managed to fall back asleep.
I went up shortly after my first post and didn’t come back down here until probably about an hour ago. That’s some break. My fear is that I won’t sleep tonight but it doesn’t take a whole lot to wipe me out.
I had a Clif Peanut Butter Energy Bar for lunch. Not quite sure about supper but you know it’s coming out of a cardboard box most likely. Unless I decide to switch up and make myself a sandwich for supper, which is unlikely.
I’ve tackled a couple things at work since I have been back but it’s just a calm kind of day and it’s like after the hellish night I had, I am kind of appreciative of it. I don’t suppose we can make it two in a row but I know it’s possible.
Right now there is a lot of pressure at work for this project me and my co-worker are doing. My portion is done, I’m hoping that I don’t have to jump in and help him out but I’m not ruling it out. Every day I field questions for when will it be done from a new person. Lots of eyes on this one and it’s typical. We go through this the same time each year. I bust ass and get my part done as quickly as possible. My colleague moves like a turtle and just hopes it will all go away. I’ve had to jump in and help out the last couple years but I am taking a hands off approach right now.
Additionally, there has been no discussion about the mess I had to clean up for him last night. I don’t think that will happen. I know I probably won’t even get an apology but I honestly don’t want one. I want him to do him damn job and stop fucking up. If he can do that then we will be good but it’s been 3 years and I had high hopes at first but I have no hope right now. It’s like I have to babysit and I’ve caught way too many thing before they surfaced. Now I am not babysitting I just let it surface. My goal before was to save him and myself from anger or public humiliation but apparently he likes that sort of thing. He knows no one is going to yell, scream or otherwise kick up much of a fuss and thus he gets a free pass. Even I know that I can complain about it but there isn’t much that is going to be done about it because we have a spineless boss. I personally like to glide under the radar, the work gets done and life moves on. People know me but it’s because I am known for good reasons like getting shit done and being quick about it. I’ll help damn near anyone if and when I can. I don’t always get that favor returned but it makes me feel good inside and honestly outside of the paycheck that is why I work. Helping people to me is what it is all about, we all need help at some point in time and there is no shame in asking for help regardless of what kind or type of help you need and I don’t mean anything sexual by my statement. Not that your mind would go there but I’ve watched too much porn so my mind certainly did.
I am very bored right now and that can be a dangerous thing. I am going to try to work on some of my personal filing. I’ve got too much paper stacked up. I feel better when it’s put away. It’s not going to happen magically but I sure wish it would. Kind of the way I wish that a home cooked meal was waiting for me every night.
Hope it’s a great night for all. I am looking forward to Friday only because the weekend follows. Talk with you all again soon, be well.
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