Confused

I have an update for you.  Apparently my friend (maybe now former friend) is mad at me.  I sent a text message to him tonight after not hearing from him since Wednesday.  Here’s how that conversation went …

ME – Hi our convo earlier this week ended abruptly.  Not sure if your angry at me or if something happened to you.  This is odd and I’m very confused.  At a minimum I’d like to know that you are okay. 

HIM – Yes I am OK.

ME – Thank you

HIM – You’re welcome

Now I am reading in between the lines and making an assumption but it seems pretty apparent to me.  I’d love to know what I did to upset him so much but that may never happen.  I’m not going to ask and play a guessing game.  I’ve over analyzed the situation in my head and can’t imagine what in the world happened. 

I’d say we were/are close friends but this  bump seems to indicate differently.  I don’t know that we will move past this.  For him to fly off the handle and just hang up on me, then not respond to call backs and/or a simple text message asking if he is okay is not something that I would say he normally would do.  However, he’s a moody sob and crabby as the day is long.  When I think of that part of this situation it makes me angry.  I feel so disrespected, I would never do that to anyone.  If I am mad or upset, you will at least know why. 

Sadly he was my closest friend.  That saying familiarity breeds contempt kind of applies here.  He was tap dancing on my nerves for quite sometime and I suppose I could be guilty of the same thing.  I am down to 1 friend now and that friend has been distant.  Kind of feel like I got fucked and in a very bad way.  It just hurts.  I could issue a blanket apology but having no idea what I am apologizing for makes that difficult for me to do.  It matters not who is right or wrong – but in his eyes he only sees his way as the right way.  I mean I am stubborn but he takes it to a whole new level.  I don’t want to argue or debate as that will serve no purpose but to upset both of us.  

Even if we do eventually move past this, I will be circumspect and treat our friendship differently and probably keep him at arms length.  Not exactly how I wanted this to turn out but at least I no longer have to wonder if he is okay. 

Happy Friday!