No good news today

My plan last night was to make it to bed early.  I accomplished that but, since I was all keyed up I was not sleep at all.  In fact it was like I came more wide awake.  It was around 4 AM before I was able to turn out the lights and call it a night.  Of course that early morning wake up call came way sooner than I wanted.

I got up took care of the kids breakfast and then went back to my room.  I gave it a couple minutes past the time we agreed upon and then I phoned the guy for my morning phone interview.  Normally recruiters call you.  Ah well.  We talked for about 15 minutes and I was told there would be 3 hurdles to clear.  I went through the 1st one already.  The second one was a technical phone interview and the third was an in person interview.  Seems simple enough for me.  I’m waiting to hear back that is if they want me to go through the second hurdle.

After that I was in no shape for any more phone calls.  I went back to bed with jumper.  That was really nice.  Problem is I slept in until 1 pm.  Crap I hate starting the day late.

I made my other phone call for the other phone interview, thankfully we didn’t schedule a time.  That went okay, I really don’t think I will hear from them.

Then I called the unemployment office.  Holy crap, I would have been so much better if I didn’t call.  Turns out my claim will expire at the end of the month, so 4 more weeks of benefits and then I am done with unemployment.  If nothing comes my way I will be headed to apply for Welfare and Food Stamps.  Not exactly what I want to do, but then I didn’t ask to be unemployed.

Now for the moment your all waiting for.  I called the charity, I got a live person which I never expected.  On most all of my follow up phone calls I wind up in Voice Mail Jail.  Anyway, they experienced a delay so no decision has been made yet.  There is a meeting I’m told that will take place sometime on Friday and they will make their selection at that time.  The guy said that he would for sure be in touch with me on Friday or at the very latest Monday.  O K sounds a lot better than a NO.  So now I continue to wait.  Ugh!

Talked with my partner, of course since we were talking about money that sparked some loud and tense words.  Then we got to talking about God.  Ah, my faith has seriously been compromised with all that I have gone through in the past 17 months.  I am wondering if George Carlin didn’t have it right that God is just an Invisible Man that doesn’t really exist.  I know that sounds horrible but right now I just don’t understand why this has all been allowed to happen to me.  It makes absolutely no sense.  Still I pray and ask for a job, hopefully God comes through soon!

We grabbed a bite to eat at a local buffet, that helped keep the cost down.  Then we made a trip to the grocery store.  Finally back home to recover.  I talked with a friend of mine to see what was new and then to my brother.

My brother yacked for over an hour.  I was seriously starting to wonder if he was ever going to shut up.  He was telling me all about his new job and how good things were.  Then in the next breath he was telling me how depressed he is that he will be going to second shift.  I told him be thankful that you have a job, if you don’t want it, I will gladly trade places with you.  Yeah, that kind of shut him up.  Then he told me about Mom.  They visited the eye doctor on Monday and it turns out her Cornea is going again.  Her vision is bad right now, but eventually she will be blind.  She could go through another Cornea transplant but that will take over a year before she would get her vision back.  Of course she is deeply depressed over that.

After that conversation, I really didn’t feel a whole lot better.  So I came to do my job search and update my log of contacts.  Suddenly this week there has been a whole lot more activity.  I’ve got recruiters e-mailing me, phone interviews.  Maybe things are looking up and I’m just too close to the forest to see the trees.  I just hope that the Charity job comes through, that would be awesome, even if it didn’t pay much as long as it’s more than the $8.00 per hour I’m making on unemployment I will be happy!

On to Bankruptcy, I received an e-mail from a creditor last night that said they really wanted to talk to me, how I was a valued card member, pouring on the compliments but at the same time reminding me that I was past due.  They have also been calling non stop for a while.  So I finally responded.  I emailed them and told them that due to circumstances beyond my control I had no choice but to declare and file bankruptcy.  I asked them to direct any further correspondence to my attorney and provided his contact information.  So today I got an e-mail response back that they were sorry to hear that and have updated my file.  They still desperately want to talk to me and asked me to call them right away.  Then in big bold letters it said not to e-mail back.  Wow, they just want to intimidate me and try to pressure me in to giving them money that I don’t have.  It was like I was telling one of the cats.  If I had money for them, I would gladly pay them but I can’t give them what I don’t have.  I have no plans on calling them and oddly enough I got a couple calls today but for the most part they have stopped.

I was telling my partner about that and he said, wow you gave them ammo to file a law suit against you to collect their money.  I told him let them sue me.  As soon as I file for Bankruptcy their local lawsuit would be superseded by the US Federal Bankruptcy Court.  So in others words they would just be throwing more money away.  They know all too well how the game is played, after all they do it every day.  It’s unsecured debt and even though I did promise to pay that was provided I had income and since I have no income and am barley scraping by my choice is pretty clear in not paying them.  So as a creditor they are pretty well screwed with no options but to pester me until my petition is filed.

So that sums up how things went for me today.  Nothing scheduled for the rest of the week.  Who knows what we will do.  I am sure there will be some sleeping involved and that is a very good thing.  I love to be asleep because you feel no pain and there is nothing to worry about.  Awake, well not so much that is when all of the pain and worry start.  I will talk with you peeps later!  Sorry for being so depressing, it’s just my world sucks!