I woke up a little after 6a thanks to my internal body clock and my external noise maker (aka Gator). Breakfast was had by all. Medication was dispensed but clearly I wasn’t paying full attention because I found a heart pill on the floor this afternoon. We went back to bed for a bit and come 8:30a I was getting back out to go grab breakfast and grocery shop.
Caught up with my regular friends at Steak N Shake. There my usual waitress who I like and she knows me pretty well. Then an older gentleman that I talk with for a few minutes.
After my belly was full I went on to the grocery store where I was later than normal and because this is Super Bowl weekend the place was booming. You could clearly tell when you walked in the door the store was catering to Super Bowl Parties that are happening. Platters of cookies, large displays of chips, they were over loaded on Bananas of all things. The prepared food section was next to empty but I did manage to grab a sandwich for lunch this week and 2 beef burritos. I got a couple of other things that I shouldn’t have but I am catering to my sorrow/depression. Some ice cream and brownies. Picked up a new dinner for 2 by Stouffers Chicken Ranch Pasta. Not sure if I will have that tonight or a Burrito.
Anyway I arrived back home and got everything put away. It’s super warm out today were close to 70 but it’s only going to last today and tomorrow. Then winter moves back in and on Wednesday we have snow. I took advantage of the weather knowing how much Momma loves the sunshine (as I think all cats do). I scooped her up and we went outside for a walk. I made sure the sun was beaming down on her and I know that she enjoyed it, despite not feeling well. She always wonders if I am going to dump her when we go outside. I always tell her the same thing. Who ever owned you first made that mistake but I will never dump you or give up on you.
Speaking of Momma, her breathing has slowed down. She is in the normal range but I think she is getting closer to the end. Perhaps I am misreading the situation but that is what my gut tells me. She crapped in her own bed and I was there and quick to clean it up. There wasn’t anything left behind but I still rotated the blanket to a fresher side to remake her bed. She got right back in and snuggled up. I gave her a tiny dose of fluids last night. I did some research on kidney disease/failure in cats. The small amount I gave her was consumed rapidly by her body, a larger dose would have taken some time but also could have caused problems. I freshened up her water dish and we spent the bulk of the day together.
Tomorrow is going to be hard. I so don’t want to leave her but I also know that it’s necessary. I no longer think there is a decision to be made as it’s going to be made for me. Doesn’t mean it’s going to happen tomorrow. As you can tell by reading this I am like a helicopter with her and closely watching her. I pray that when she passes if I am not around or I am asleep that it happens quickly and without any pain or suffering. She is still eating, not much but something is better than nothing at all. I picked up more baby food just in case I need it.
Here’s hoping that I can hold myself together and make it through the week. I also hope that I am fortunate enough to get to spend another week with her. I also hope that her breathing remains under control and that her body continues to respond to the drug therapy.
Looking back over today the most special time was the time we were in the sun. She is a purr monster. She runs that motor so much I am surprised she doesn’t need an oil change. I’m glad that I was able to be there to make this special moment happen. I know that she appreciated it just as much as I enjoyed spending it with her. Thinking that this could be our last walk in the sun has me tearing up again.
I’m going to log my expenses, surf a little bit and then head back up. Time for a shave, dinner and more time with the fur monsters. Gator is extra clingy today and I think she knows more than she can communicate but I’m listening and taking it all in.
Hope you had a great day. Talk with you all again soon. Best wishes for a great week ahead.
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