Email jail

I’m stuck in email jail.  Working on importing a ton of mail and the PST file keeps crashing on me.  I figured out where the corrupt messages are and am staying away from them but because I am in a little bit of a hurry and want to finish this thing is being difficult.  I am on my 2nd time running scanpst which moves slower than a snail.  Yup, this is all work related and not exactly how I want to spend my time.

Momma is in the critical stage.  She stopped eating but I did get her to eat baby food for me this morning and this afternoon.  I also added in an appetite stimulant.  I don’t think it’s going to have much affect but rather to try than not.  She is open mouth breathing a little bit.  We have spend a good portion of the day where she was either in my lap or laying on me.  I want to take her over to the vet and get this over with but I told her I wouldn’t give up on her.  So I am getting a work out with my patients.  I have found more times than not during this process that if I can just wait and see, things work out.  However, I don’t have a lot of optimism.  She is still drinking water which is good.  I just offered her supper a bit ago and she didn’t want any part of it.  So we will try again later. 

I still need to go get cat food and make a Target run.  Between Momma and Work I am held hostage here.  If it wasn’t for love I think I would simply give up.  However, a promise is a promise and I do love her so there is no giving up, regardless of how tempting it might be.  I need to know for sure that I have done everything I can and given her every chance before we take the path of no return. 

I’m not an emotional mess which is kind of a surprise.  I am more frustrated and just want to climb in a hole and not come out for a while.  Gator is bathing her mother and showering her with some love, which I know Momma appreciates.  It makes me think that she knows the end is coming.  Marvin walk over to Momma and sniffs her and then runs away.  I guess he’s afraid she will jump up and smack him. 

This is all so exhausting and I know the end will come way too soon but I will have some powerful memories to reflect on and I know I will be able to have my mind at ease, still doesn’t make the whole process easier. 

Hope your having a great weekend!  Talk with you all again soon, back to email jail for me.