Peacock

Good Morning!  I hope all is well. 

I got the pen and refills all boxed up, shame that Amazon is making me return them each in their own box as they could have both fit easily in one box.  I’ve had some second thoughts about returning the pen but it’s honestly not what I was wanting.  I’ve done more browsing on Amazon and think that I see what I want and I could buy it but I am a little shy about it as I really don’t want to get my hopes up only to have them dashed.  Mont Blanc does have boutiques or stores but none in my area and I would need to travel to find one.  Unless you are absolute buying a pen sight unseen and only relying on pictures is kind of like buying shoes the same way.  You pay your money and take your chances.  If I didn’t have a recourse of a refund I would be pissed. 

All hell broke loose last night as I was trying to wind down from the day and I kept getting pulled back to have to login again and again.  Finally I got to a stopping point and just said time to do me. 

I had a hot dog for supper but wasn’t really hungry.  That’s kind of odd but I normally don’t get hungry I just eat out of habit.  There are times I crave food and seldom do I feel hunger but when I do I need to fix that asap.  I think if I waited for my body to tell me it was hungry before I ate it might be a few days.  My blood sugar would fall as well. 

Back to the fun for the final day.  I’ve got a crap task of deleting peoples old files.  It’s part of my normal job and I do it once a month but there are people that have been gone for years and years that fell through the cracks so now is time to play catch up.  Everyone seems to have a large amount of data that take around 20 minutes to delete so the process goes pretty slow but everyone once and a while I luck out and get someone who’s data deletes quickly.  Kind of like playing the lottery, you just never know. 

Last night I signed up for a subscription to Peacock TV.  They have a few things I want to watch.  My main reason for joining was to watch the old Roseanne series from start to end.  I opted for the more expensive tier to cut out the commercials.  It’s very nice.  They have what seem like endless choices in content variety.  Plus my local NBC station can be viewed through the app.  It’s presently blocked as my tv provider is in a contract dispute.  I enjoy Chicago PD and SNL (weekend update) and really don’t want to miss them.  Not exactly sure how long I will stay subscribed but I did it month to month instead of paying for a year in advance as I know at some point I will loose interest.  I’m paying so much for TV you’d think that I would be able to always find something to watch but seems like the more content choices I get the more difficult it is to find something good to watch. 

The toilet cleaner I bought has to sit overnight for 6 hours.  My stomach was kind of suspect last night so I didn’t put it in.  I am thinking of trying it tonight.  The thought of not flushing for 6 hours is kind of like when you go for an x-ray and they stay don’t move.  The first thing you want to do is move.  I’m sure my toilet has gone more than 6 hours without being flushed from just normal overnight non use but thinking about it makes me want to flush it.  Strange how that works. 

Both cats are now sleeping on their backs.  Mora started this and Rudy has picked up on it.  They both got into their new sleeping position for the first time together while I was getting dressed this morning.  It was so cute.  Took me back to the days of Momma’s family when the entire family used to do that.  They seem to enjoy it when they are younger but as they age they do it less and less.  Mora likes to get on her back when she is snuggled up against me on the couch and her legs dangle and I struggle to support her.  They can be so damn cute at times.  Makes you forget about all of the hell they cause.  I need to do a brushing and have been putting that off for a while.  I’ve had a couple messes to cleanup and each time I say I’ll brush them tonight then I forget or just am too tired. 

I’ve got one hell of a knot in my shoulder that has been driving me crazy.  I’d like to take a muscle relaxer and call it a day, I know that would knock me out but the question is what would I be like tomorrow?  I need to get to the UPS store.  That and the cat food store and post office are the 3 trips I have to make.  Otherwise I can linger at home.  I guess it depends on how bad it gets before I give up if in fact I do give up.  I think I will power through the day even if I have a largely boring task ahead.  I’m listening to some music which always helps to make the day a little more enjoyable and of course the police scanner is going.  Between the two they keep me company, but I usually only have the scanner going.

Who knows where my weekend will take me and what eating adventures I will go on but I look forward to getting some good food somewhere.  I’ve got a craving for Outback Steakhouse and want to go on a long drive but the more I think about it, probably not worth it in the long run.  I can get something pretty comparable at a place much closer to home.  We are getting a new Outback and it should open any day now but waiting for that to happen is like watching paint dry. 

I’ve got patience but it depends on what I am waiting for and why.  Certain things drive me crazy and want to speed it up already and other things I can just wait until it’s my turn.  It’s just odd how that works. 

Stay warm, be well and get your holiday shopping done if you have any.  I’m lucky I just have to pacify myself and two cats.  No one else to shop for but that also means no gifts to receive either.  What I’d really like is some hug therapy.  Just someone to give me a hug once and a while that would feel so good.  As an added plus a nice deep tissue massage for my upper back would be lovely.  I’d settle for the hug though.  This is the time of year when depression starts to flare and I really miss my family more than other times of the year and it’s a sobering reminder that I am all alone.  There is good and bad with everything I just try to make the best of it.  It would be awesome if somehow I would meet my dream guy but I’m not holding my breath, otherwise I would turn as blue as a smurf and who’d want to date me then? 

Take care!