Munday Again

Another Monday and tomorrow is the start of August.  This year is gaining some traction as we enter into the 8th month.  Only 4 more to go before the year is done.  Seems like just yesterday it was February.  Time really does go faster the older you get. 

I’ve been waiting all weekend for a response to the note I sent on Saturday to find out if I should be making a call for a service person to repair the broken item.  If so I’d like to coordinate it with my trip on Tuesday or delay it for another day this week so I only wind up making one trip to the office.  Turns out the person I sent the email to is out today and won’t be back until tomorrow.  I know for a fact they saw my message.  Now I am on the fence about tomorrow if I should just stay home or plan on going in.  I like the idea of getting an extra hour of sleep and honestly Wednesday would be a better day for me to go in, so I think I might have just solved my own problem.  Thanks!

After getting out in the rain over the weekend, I expected my vehicle to be dirty and need a wash again.  Turns out it looks like nothing ever happened to it.  That’s the ceramic glaze and the $23 car wash I paid for.  It keeps the vehicle looking fresher longer.  I will go back but I don’t know that it will be that often.  $23 is a bunch of money to spend.  They have a car wash club and it’s a little cheaper.  You can get a wash as many times as you want in a month but honestly.  They pack them in and Sunday morning at 7:30a there isn’t anyone there.  It’s the perfect time for a wash. 

The grass guys got the jump on things and showed up at 7a just after I rolled out of bed.  That’s too early to start being noisy.  I’m sure the neighbors really appreciated that.  I’ve got no control over when they show up and this is the first time they have been that early in a very long time.  I see they added a 3rd person to the crew.  Not one of the guys is appealing to me and that’s just as well. 

I did a bunch of Amazon shopping yesterday morning.  It was early enough in the day that I got some of my order delivered yesterday.  The rest of it is coming today.  Never fails after I order something I always either forget something or have a need for something new.  Keeping in that fashion, my GFCI outlet in my bathroom went out yesterday.  I would turn it back on and it would trip.  I gave it time to cool off but still no luck, it still tripped.  Damn things are great but when they go south they turn into quite the pain.  I ordered two so I have a spare.  I swapped out one in the garage last year.  It’s not that hard but it’s not something I look forward to doing. 

Part of my order yesterday was more of those disposable Zebra Fountain Pens.  I wanted to write in green ink so bad.  Turns out every pen works fine but the damn green one.  I tried and tried but I can’t make it write at all.  I ordered 3 green ones to be delivered today, I hope at least 1 of them works.  It’s odd that every other pen works but not green.  It’s the principal of the matter. 

Yes, I am still writing and it’s still fun.  I have taken a few breaks but last night I couldn’t go to bed until I finished the story I was writing.  I have no earthly idea when I will ever have enough time to type them all up.  I might just try scanning software that can help me out to make the job easier.  I enjoy typing but writing by hand seems to allow me to put more thought in and it just feels better.  Not to mention my penman ship keeps improving as I continue to move forward.  It’s all fantasy.  The guys that I really have it bad for I manage to write more about.  There are some truths in every single story but the bulk of them are made up and things that I have kept bottled inside for years. 

I’ve got another great sandwich for the day I go into the office, if I can hold out that long.  The rest of the week will be sandwiches I make myself, unless I decide to eat something else.  I can’t skip lunch or my sugar will drop.  I have been not eating sweets at night and just jumping into writing.  I’ve got a freezer full of Bomb Pops in different variety's that I need to get busy on.  Nothing like thinking about a hot dude and eating a popsicle.  LOL 

Tomorrow is going to be a hellish day for me since it’s the 1st of the month.  There is more work always lurking and waiting for me.  I never ever look forward to the majority of it.  Regardless of difficulty but I do loath the more complex tasks.  I’d rather do quick and easy all day long than complex any day of the week.  I’d be a much happier person, no doubt. 

Take care, stay hydrated and cool.  This whole heat wave will blow over eventually.  Until then AC and H2O are my best friends.  Back to the fun!

Eventful Saturday

Howdy, I hope all is well and that your staying, cool, hydrated and are safe.  I rolled out of bed this morning at 5a.  Had breakfast, fed the cats, got showered and dressed.  Then drove to work.  I replaced the part that I needed to, but that didn’t fix the problem.  I tried a few more things which took up hours.  Finally I realized we need to call a tech, I’ve done all I can do and it’s not working.  I dropped that news via email to a Manager and am waiting to hear back.  The last thing I wanted to do was drive to work on a Saturday but I don’t like to work with an audience around.  The lobby of the building felt really cool and nice.  I walked over to the thermostat and it was set on 73.  Damn that’s really nice.  I was back home by 10a. 

I grabbed a donut, had a soda and took a short nap.  The cats were all over me.  Got my haircut shorter and it’s going to itch growing back but it will take a bit longer to grow back so that’s the nice part.  Came back home because my sugar was dropping.  I ate a sleeve of Oreo’s and had another soda.  That helped. 

I managed to crank out two stories today and it’s almost 9p.  I want to start on another.  My purple disposable fountain pen went dry on me.  I grabbed a comfy rollerball and damn if that didn’t go dry on me as well. 

We had some wicked storms here, thankfully no damage that I know of.  The house smells funny again.  I’ve noticed the odor was faint over the last few days but it seems stronger since the rain moved in.  I went to a few spots in the house, everything upstairs is dry.  I am eager to get to the basement tomorrow and check to see if I can feel anything wet in the ceiling.  I hope to not find a problem but the gutters need to be cleaned again. 

Once the storm passed, it was still raining and I went out to grab cat food, the mail and a bite to eat.  I stayed local as much as I didn’t want to.  I didn’t want to leave the cats alone in a storm.  They appreciated that I was home.  Both of them were all over me.  I’ve passed out my fair share of attention.  They are both fast asleep right now but I expect they will be waking up soon as were nearing our normal nighttime routine. 

Last night I started and finished a story.  I am not terribly happy about the way it turned out so I will probably do a rewrite or maybe just serious editing when I type it up.  I watched some porn, and this morning I remember what happened last night. 

I was a little upset this morning when I got the Apple update for Twitter.  It’s now a Black X and the name has changed to X.  I heard Apple had some app store problems because they require a minimum number of characters for their apps.  However, I didn’t encounter any problems.  I’ve opened the app.  That’s where I get a lot of porn news and see some hot videos and photos.  Just saying, if your into gay porn that’s a great resource.  Most of the porn stars have accounts and they post clips to promote their OF accounts. 

While I was at it I made my rounds on social media and am all caught up.  Turns out even thought I skipped most of the week, I didn’t miss much of anything.  Kind of funny how that worked out. 

Yesterday I pulled the trigger and put in for a full week of vacation, I am waiting for approval but I don’t expect any problems.  I haven’t made any plans yet.  Once I get the green light I am going to call to check into dumpster rentals, see what exactly you can throw in and the cost, how long I can have it, how many times they will empty, etc.  If the stars align I plan to do some serious house cleaning.  Kind of chip away at it each day.  It won’t be that much fun but if it happens I imagine a lot of things that I have wondered where they went I will find.  I fully expect to find some dead mice and/or nesting material, the exterminator already told me that months ago.  If this happens then I expect to be better suited to move if I so desire.  I am conflicted about keeping this place but it’s a lot of house for one person and the maintenance it needs along with repairs, I know I will sell it at a loss but I expect for an even break if I would sell, maybe walk away with a little bit.  A friend encouraged me to fix the place up and then sell, I’d get maximum value, I could list it instead of taking a low ball offer from a company that flips houses.  The difference is that I could walk away with probably 200k versus breaking even.  The place is worth about 300k and I think that is crazy.  Nothing in this neighborhood is really worth that amount of money but it’s what the market value is right now. 

I expect that I will probably just sit on my lazy fat ass during my time off.  Eat out, get work on the car done.  I am considering buying a new one.  Just paying the rest of the loan off early and then jumping right back into debt.  I think that the payment will be less because of the equity I have in my present vehicle, my credit score is better now than when I bought my current vehicle and I am certain I would qualify for top of the line lowest interest rate.  However, I think about how uncertain the future is and the fact that what I am driving now still has very low miles and is in really good shape.  I should just hold off longer.  I think that is the way I can get maximum value out of the investment.  Sure I’d get less in trade in when I when I got to that point but think of all of the cash I would be able to horde and tuck away, that will all earn interest and I would be in even better shape.  Then again I think hell you could drop dead tomorrow why not live life in the fast lane and hope that you don’t crash.  My worry is either my job would go south, the house would fall apart, the cats would get sick or I would get sick.  All of those things are possible, not that anyone of them is going to happen but I really do a great job of looking at the dark side of things just before I am considering making another financial commitment. 

Kind of in a talkative mood tonight.  Don’t really want to go to bed and I sure don’t want to get up early tomorrow to get breakfast before the crowd hits.  I’ve got laundry to take care of , house cleaning as well and the dreaded trip to the grocery store.  I am doing the dishes tonight before bed, as usual.  I just want to keep going.  That nap I had kind of gave me an extra boost.  I might skip breakfast out, get out in the afternoon.  It all depends on what time I wake up and how I feel.  It’s going to be another hot damn day and there are more storms on the way.  The majority of my lawn is dead but I’ve seen it bounce back with a good soaking.  The grass guys still come cut it all dead or alive until they either hit their end of season period of I think it’s time to stop.  We still have several months to go but it will be here before you know it. 

Enough babbling, you take care I’ll talk with you again soon. 

 

Amnesia

Happy Friday. It’s going to be a hectic day for me and it’s going to be a late day. I am not looking forward to it. I’m also going to the office tomorrow, at least that is the plan right now. Parts came in and I have a repair to make. I’d rather work without an audience; things tend to go much better for me. Not sure if I will get up early and go in or do it later in the day. I’ve got a haircut in the afternoon and I’m for sure not missing that. My hair is getting bushy. It’s still short but it needs to see some clippers really soon.

I had my talk with the boss yesterday. He didn’t mention my little mess up and I didn’t bother to bring it up. He said that he’s noticed a positive change in me and he appreciates it. Yeah, whatever I’ve got him bamboozled. Ever since my little mistake I have been a bit more attentive and selective in my words. I’m still pissed about my performance score and shitty pay raise. I am not hanging on to that because it’s only going to pull me down. However, I am not forgetting it either. The change he sees is probably the same thing you see in my posts. I am a bit more alive and upbeat. That’s due to writing, I feel like a different person.

Speaking of which I began to type the forty-page story out. I am presently on page 31. I also wrote a fresh story last night that is only like 13 pages. I brought it to an end in time so that I could carry out my normal evening before bed tasks. I managed to some how forget to take my pills, I was too focused on dick and writing. It consumes me so much and I don’t want any distractions. The phone goes on DND and I just go to a happy place. I do make time for the cats but I’ve kind of neglected them a bit.

Mora has only grown closer to me. She needs to be brushed again and I plan to tackle that tonight. She got a trip to the basement yesterday and she was on cloud 9. She did some exploring but she followed me around for the most part. Then I had to pick her up to get her upstairs.

I was in the bathroom and taking care of paperwork, if you get my drift. I got dizzy and fell towards a wall. I didn’t know what in the world was happening. I paused for a minute, got a little scared but went back to finishing up the paperwork. Everything was fine after that. I had dinner and like I said wrote a story.

Bedtime came, I felt pretty good. I was looking forward to watching porn and taking care of business, I’ve not had the stamina or energy all week long. I was very eager to get that taken care of. I remember I watched Eric Rey & Travis Stevens scene. I wanted to see the ending so I skipped forward. After that I don’t remember a thing. Try as I might the rest of the evening is a complete blank. I don’t even remember getting in bed. It’s scary but I think I am just a bit too absorb and addicted to writing and my brain is working on overload. Things might be starting to short circuit. I am going to try to pace myself and get to doing other things. Although, I have already started dreaming up a couple stories to write.  I wonder if this is what it’s liked to take a ruffie?  It’s just so strange that I can’t recall a thing despite trying.  

I am going to try to finish typing the 40-page story, then take a break and head up to be with the cats. Relax a bit. The hell at work doesn’t start until later in the day so resting up and taking a break is probably a smart approach. As per usual I have knocked out my morning tasks.

Here’s hoping for a relaxing but productive and enjoyable weekend. I will be staying hydrated and cool. The baking of summer is still continuing. We have Heat Warnings and Advisories out for my neck of the woods. Still, it’s nothing compared to Arizona and I am so glad I don’t live there. Even the cactuses are dying, I saw a story on the morning news.

Take care and be well. Talk with you all again soon.

The record so far.

Last night I brought a close to a story that was a whopping 40 handwritten pages long. I took forever telling it to help draw it out and add character to it. There was drama and sex. I don’t know what it’s going to translate to typewritten and I tend to make some minor changes when I type it out. Having the computer read it back to me is hot. The entire story was a huge turn on for me and it’s about a guy that I have a massive crush on. It’s all just my version of a dream but it’s a hot dream. It’s so hot that I wore myself out writing it. I was exhausted when I got in front of the TV. I started watching porn and fell asleep.

I had mixed feelings about falling asleep. It’s good that I can turn my brain off, but I had other plans that I really wanted to accomplish. I got another good night’s sleep. More bad dreams but this was about work and it was strange. It’s like I was trapped in the Matrix and couldn’t get out.

Rudy and Mora were so good yesterday. I gave them each some attention. Mora being Mora wanted more than what I offered. I got her to settle down and I passed out some cat nip as a reward before I went to bed.

In usual form Rudy had me up early. I couldn’t go back to sleep but I tried. He came and laid on top of my chest. He looked so cute once he settled down and lowered his head. He was sleeping. After 30 minutes of trying to go back to sleep myself I gave up. My brain was on. Now I am fumbling on who to write about next. I’ve got a list but just having a hard time picking from the list. I kind of want to start on typing up what I finished last night. Ah paralyzed by choice the story of my life. I’ll figure it out.

Today is my last day of free time. Tomorrow is going to be a full work day, a busy day at that and one that I do not look forward to at all. Today I celebrate my work anniversary, 9 long years at the same place. I made it. I’m quite proud, my longest record is 5 years at one place. I’m shooting to make 10 here. Not sure if that will happen but it probably will. I’ve got my first meeting with my boss since my little fuck up on the call last week. I hope he didn’t hear me and doesn’t bring that up. I’m nervous but going to play it cool. If it comes up then I will worry about it. Otherwise, I am going to let it go. I did some looking last night and thinking of taking a week after my birthday. I won’t want to come back I know but the boss is after me to use my time. I will still have 4 days that I need to use before the years is up. 2 of those could be for my next, next Dr. appointment in November. I always want to take time in the winter as well. I try to roll over 2 weeks if I can because you never know what the future holds. I am sure that if I have my way, I will wind up just under 80 hours of carry over but only time will tell.

I dread going outside today, it’s really hot. I just need to push the trash bin out to the curb. That is an afternoon task for sure. Hoping that I won’t be so incredibly tired tonight when it’s time for bed. I’d like to enjoy some porn and then I’m happy to fall asleep. Since I am not looking forward to tomorrow my insomnia might act up, depending on how I feel I may or may not take some extra medicine to help ensure a good night’s sleep.

Peeking out the window I’ve got a vine that is trying to take over the side of my house and deck. I will need to tame that this weekend. The neighbor has weeds in his back yard and lots of grass that should be mowed. I’d love to see him shirtless pushing that mower, sweating up a storm and showing me his body. I don’t think that will happen but hey a guy can dream, there’s no charge for that.

Here’s hoping that the rest of the day is great and doesn’t go by terribly fast but fast enough. I am not as thirsty today and my sugar was for sure elevated yesterday. Pizza is gone. Not sure what is for dinner tonight. I also polished off that sandwich, the secret ingredient I found was pimento spread, aw that worked so well on the sandwich and paired well with the bread and roast beef. I will be looking for another one of those on Sunday when I am back to do grocery shopping. Right now, a nap sounds really tempting.

Stay cool, hydrated and don’t do anything that I wouldn’t do. Talk with you all again soon.

Today’s model’s Eric Rey & Travis Stevens.  Photo credit CockyBoys!

Sick but better, so I think

 

  Morning everyone! Yesterday on the way into the office I kept my usual routine and drank a Mountain Dew. It’s something I do year-round. Nothing like a cold soda on the way to work. I enjoy it but it’s really the best in the winter when it’s freezing outside, I’m inside a nice warm vehicle. The cool liquid in my mouth and then flowing down my throat, it just feels good. I’m weird I know it but hey it’s what I like. Normally I drink diet or sugar free but having just bought sugar Code Red Mountain Dew I had that instead. It was nice. I was about at work and the can was still full, I had to chug it and made decent progress. Got in the garage and then swallowed the last bit. Yeah, it sounds filthy dirty and sexual but it’s what I did, I took it all. Got out and headed into the office.

I’ve got this nervous habit that I like to shake my leg. At this point I had been sitting at my desk for an hour. I began to shake and thought nothing of it. After about a ½ hour my stomach got queasy. I figured it was from shaking my leg, like I was getting sea sick or something. It got bad and I thought for sure I was going to hurl but that never happened. I kept working away but at a very slow pace.

Finally, I had to get up and walk around. That seemed to help me feel a little bit better and I wasn’t shaking my leg. I was on my feet and away from my desk for about an hour. Stopped to chat with a friend. Then my phone started going crazy (as per usual – it knows when I take a break). I had to head back. Got to my desk and that sick feeling washed over me again. I felt it the entire time I was putting yesterdays post together.

Then it was lunch time, maybe some food would make me feel a bit better. I had a Diet Soda for lunch – Strawberry Dr. Pepper. That made it worse, I think. I ate slowly consuming a hard-boiled egg and ½ of the sandwich I brought. The sandwich was fantastic – Roast Beef, Lettuce, Pizza Cheese on some multi grain bread with some special seasoning I had no idea what it was. I was a bit better but didn’t want to push my luck. Well, I should have because, just before I was leaving the office my sugar dropped. I hadn’t eaten enough. I downed some potato chips (salt & vinegar) they were really good and it helped. I drank all of the water I had and used the rest room. Packed up and left. Just as I got on the elevator, I felt like I was about to pass out. I didn’t. I slowly walked to my car and the humidity smacked me in the face, as expected it was way worse than the morning. That helped to shake the sick feeling.

I got in the car, set the GPS’s and navigated home. I felt so sick but what I failed to mention is I took an anti-acid pill just before I left. That was starting to take effect and I felt better. I kept the AC on full blast and it was a bit much so I turned the fan down. Then I had some moron riding my ass (not in a good way) he gave me the impression he wasn’t above playing bumper cars. I can’t go faster than the car in front of me, any moron knows that. I had limits and I was respecting them for my safety. Finally, traffic in front of me opened up and I was well over the posted limit doing 75 in a 55. The fool passed me on the right, just missing a car as he changed lanes. That was almost a deadly move for all of us. Then he jumped on another car’s ass, they slowed down a bit, knowing full well what they were doing. He just got closer to the point where if the car in front would have braked checked him, he would have wrecked for sure. Dangerous. I had a chance and I took it, passing him up. I got up to 85 to put some distance between us and I finally got away from him.

Driving to and from the office is always an adventure and it really depends on the pulse of traffic how eventful it’s going to be as well as the mood of the other drivers. I was glad to be home, safe from crazy fools on the road.

Mora & Rudy were waiting for me and I had to get some food for Rudy he was hungry. Got him calmed down and then Mora and I went to the bedroom where I got more comfortable. Then returned to the kitchen to put away the left overs from lunch. I sat on the couch, wanting to go back to writing but still not feeling the best. I watched some TV. The more I watched the more an exhausted feeling came over me. I couldn’t stop yawning. I was watching some Family Feud Clip and boom I was out like a light. Rudy was on my lap and Mora was next to him. They were both passed out long before me. I woke up to Rudy licking my hand. Damn I was tired but that felt kind of good. I saw the time and opted to try to eat.

I skipped the left-over pizza and went for some frozen pasta a Chicken Bacon Ranch bowl. I felt way better but was cautious. The first time I had this I really liked it. Every time since it’s tasted like crap. It had been at least 6 months since I had it last and gave it another try. I bought it fresh when I was at the store on Sunday. Nope still tasted horrible. I ate ½ and pitched the other ½. Then I opted to go back to writing. I camped out at the table so the cats wouldn’t be climbing all over me. Rudy was behind me looking out the door and Mora curled up next to my chair. They just love being around me and I really like that. They love me and it shows. I think it’s just because I’m the guy who passes out the food.

Anyway, a couple hours went by and I opted to move back to the couch. Both cats followed me. Mora wanted attention and I gave her some. Then she went to her cat tree, Rudy was in the bed next to me. Back to writing. Before I knew it the time to stop and get ready for bed had passed. Mora knew this and she started getting in my face. I said a few more minutes, please. I wrapped up my story to a stopping point. Then concentrated on my normal before bed tasks. Without fail when I got to brushing my teeth, they both started begging for cat nip. What a sucker I am. I gave in because they had accommodated me and been through being alone all day and were good – so I think.

I started to watch a little TV and it wasn’t long before I was exhausted. My brain turned off. I still had the desire to write but I focused on the TV and then got up and climbed in bed. My room was cat free until I did that and then like magic, they both appeared and joined me. I said goodnight to them as I turned the TV off. That’s the last thing I remember until I woke up at 2a from a bad dream. Used the bathroom and then back to bed. Rudy started in early and I had a ½ hour to go. I rolled over and he stayed on top of me. He fell asleep on me and I passed right back out too. I woke up to the alarm clock and I was really out of it but I felt oddly refreshed. That was the best sleep I had in a while. Horrible dreams but a great night’s rest.

Got started with the morning, started work. I can’t get enough water this morning. Very thirsty. My sugar is probably out of whack. If it continues to lunch, I will do a spot check. I’m also tired. I am done with my morning tasks. Done with my normal web surfing. Tested out a couple pens. Ready to go back to the paper.

This isn’t sponsored but if you’re really looking for a smooth writing experience and you’d like to try or like fountain pens. I highly recommend the Zebra Disposable Fountain Pens. A photo is below and you can pick them up on Amazon. I bought them as a test and 1 out of my pack was defective (the green one) but all of the others appear to be working. It’s the pen that I write with the most when I am crafting a story. They are super comfortable, the pen glides across the paper effortless, no skipping and I feel like I am writing with velvet. No writing instrument I’ve used to date compares to this.  It’s truly a unique experience that is most enjoyable for me.

I’m kind of proud of myself that I was able to get to and stick with a stopping point last night. My brain disengaged and I had plans to watch porn but honestly, I was too tired so nothing happened. Sleep was the most important thing. That’s how I know I am getting older when sleep sounds more appealing than sex. I am itching to get back to writing. Last night was unique I took extra time to set up my story, drawing out the plot longer and longer. I am to the point where the story is getting sexual and that is the part that I love to write the most. I also managed to think of a couple of additional guys to write about so my list of subjects increased and it will be a little longer until I run out of guys. Here’s hoping that I can continue to control my brain, switching it off to allow for sleep. Evening is the best writing time, I put my phone in do not disturb, avoid all contact with it but still keep it close in case someone should call. It’s great to just escape from reality and get into my own world.

I’ve got a meeting in about an hour. Then an organization I am a member of is having a meeting this afternoon and I’m really interested in what that is about so I plan to join. Unless something else comes up my day is wide open. It truly is the calm before the storm. Friday is going to be absolute bedlam; we have a mass exit and I am going to be running with my hair on fire.

Booked a haircut for Saturday and pondering my options for dining out. I am also considering jumping back on a dating app again. That thought has been rolling around in my brain for a couple weeks now and I like everything else, I just keep putting it off. I think maybe since I am a bit more upbeat my profile will reflect that and maybe I will be more appealing. I am not jumping on this today but maybe by the weekend.

Stay cool, hydrated and be well. I’ll talk with you all again soon.

Man Candy Photos in this post from Falcon Studios – Model :Dean Young – Scene : Dean Young rides Mr. Deep Voice.  Movie: Endless Summer

My obsession

Hey there, hope that your day is going well. I had a bit of a rough night. It started with me writing (of course) and I set an alarm on my phone, so I knew when to take a pill. I accomplished that task. Then I set a 2^nd alarm so that I would know when quitting time was. I had a bunch of things to do before bed. Mora knew and she tried to help me, but I wouldn’t have it. She kept up, finally I looked at the clock and panic set in. Then I ran around scrambling, do this, do that, go do this. Forgot I needed to shave, it was just a huge race. Then the trash was full, take that bag out, put in a new bag. Then Mora & Rudy wanted their cat nip.

I was exhausted. I watched some porn and had some good fun, figuring that would for sure wipe me out and I would sleep. Nope wide awake. I watched some TV; I passed out without warning and woke up. That’s my clue, I got in bed and then my brain just started. I couldn’t turn it off. I kept thinking about writing, I wanted to change this, change that. I denied myself from doing anything. I got up took one more sleeping pill, waited a bit and that finally did the trick but my mind was still racing. I tried to sleep and magically I passed out. I don’t remember it.

I knew this morning would really suck because it was midnight when I got to bed. Getting up in 6 hours yeah who wants to do that. I forced myself, it was a bit of a struggle but my buddy Rudy made his famous morning biscuits and that did the trick.

My brain was back in the on mode, thinking of writing stuff as I tried to get ready. I managed to leave at a decent time. Then driving I think I hear the strange sound again. Finally, I said to hell with it. I turned up the music and just thought about my drive. Both GPS systems took me the same route – they don’t ever agree in the morning with which way to go. Coming home it’s always the same. Very strange.

I parked and got out, then the humidity smacked me in the face. Holy cow, now I see why it’s great to work from home. It sucks out there and that was 7:20am. It’s going to be much worse when I leave. Today is one of those days where I will for sure miss remote start. Sitting on hot leather is not fun, even with clothes on. I’m glad the seats are ventilated so I get cool air in the summer and warm air in the winter. The heat works much better than the cooling but when I first got this, they were equal. I think I need some refrigerant and then things will be back to normal. The AC works it’s just not as robust in the seat as what it was when it was new.

I’m proud of the accomplishments I have made today. I look forward, as always to going home and seeing Rudy & Mora. Spending what I hope is a nice evening together. We seem to have a routine and they try their very best to keep me on track. I don’t want to pass out cat nip every night. Mora cries and carries on until I give it to her. Rudy is right by her side cheering her on. When I drop the first bit, who ever gets to it is in heaven. The other one is trying to pry their way in and steal what they can, meanwhile I am getting ready to make a second drop, then they both are happy. If I sat Cat Nip that’s enough to get them excited, then grab the jar and open the lid, that’s when the real fun starts. They can smell it and if I’d let them, they would empty the whole jar. I just grab a pinch for each of them. I know too much and Rudy will start coughing and Morea can get sick.

Nothing makes me happier than to know that I have pleased both of them. I often wonder if they think about when I am going to give them up, since they have been bounced around so much. That’s kind of what helped to compel me to step in. I knew that I could make that cycle stop. I do have thoughts of wanting to give them back but I know it would cause serious psychological damage to me and I know it would hurt them too. They are my reason to live, they know how to evoke every emotion possible from me. While they can’t talk, I’m learning their body language and signs, so in effect they are talking sort of. I really wish that cats, dogs and other animals spoke English or a native spoken language where we could carry on an intelligent conversation.

Not to dangle a carrot at you but I am also pleased with myself that I found this whole writing thing and dreaming up fantasies and desires to play out on paper, I am quite frustrated with the fact that it doesn’t seem to have an off switch. Like other interest I have. I can only watch so much TV, see so much porn, drive for so long, eat so much and sleep for so long. I get bored or desire a change. Writing however isn’t that way. I’m thinking about it in some form or fashion throughout the day. It’s become like a drug.

The good news is that my handwriting is getting better. The disposable fountain pens just glide like a rollerball across the paper, it’s like velvet of sorts. Quite an enjoyable experience. There is also no mess and they don’t skip like a traditional fountain pen.

I digress, back on point. I know that my personality has an addictive side. That’s why I don’t gamble. I could sit in front of a slot machine and feed it money until I was bankrupt, then borrow money and spend that as well. I don’t like liquor and I am quite thankful for that because I am positive, I’d be an alcoholic. I’ve had some minor and brief thoughts about trying drugs or smoking but the whole idea just turns my stomach. I lived through first hand experience and saw how drugs can literally change a person and tear them apart, it destroys people they are around as well as relationships, that’s the main foundation for my aversion to them. Sex has always been a huge turn on ever since I figured out what it was, what to do, how to do it and who I want to do it with.

I think my new found obsession is fun. It makes me happy; I don’t care about much of anything. I can easily skip TV and social media. I get pop ups on my phone from the apps, come take a look – I’ve only seen them when I was sick with COVID and didn’t browse for days. Social media is a drug, but I can take it and then leave it. I can’t skip the cats because they get in my fact and make me pay attention to them. While I am pleased, I just want to find a way to write and then turn it off. Not think about it, not want to do it and resume life as normal. I’ve written some stories in the past and it was fun but now I am incorporating guys I’ve had crushes on, guys that I know are straight and guys I know that I will ever have a remote chance with. That is where the thrill comes from. These aren’t just made-up characters, that’s what gives me my passion and drive. I feel like Marvin (one of my many late cats) must have, when we figured out, he was allergic to a particular medication. After the first dose kicked in, he just had to keep going, and going, can’t sit still, must move, have to move, moving is life. Until eventually he’s collapsed from exhaustion. It was like speed and the vet said he’s allergic, throw it away and never ever give it to him again. Oddly enough it was supposed to calm and sedate him. We did that and the drug wore off, he came back to normal and life went on.

My fear or what causes me some concern is, well I only have so many guys I can write about. What happens when I run out of them and all of the stories are written? Will I fall completely apart? Will I be lost? I won’t know for certain until I get to that point in time. Last night the idea hit me, write about porn stars that you like, that sounds like fun but normal average guys that I know or know of seems more my speed. Being addicted to writing, even if it’s sexual fantasy or erotica isn’t a bad thing. Not being able to turn it off and only wanting to do just that is a bad thing. Especially when it interferes with work or life. It’s fun turning myself on thinking up the ideas and it’s also super-hot! I hope that I can find a way to flip a switch and turn it off. I need to sleep, I need to concentrate when I am at work, that’s why coming in today was so critical. Changing my environment helps. I knocked out work that I put off yesterday this morning. I am at a huge lull in my day and its lunch time. Blogging is enjoyable to me as well but it’s got an off switch.

Speaking of which that is a great segway to wrap up this post. Time for lunch and I am eager to get to eating. Got some pre-made sandwich from the store with “pizza cheeses” on it and it just sounds good, despite the fact that I will probably finish off the left-over pizza tonight for supper. I’m a cheese lover for sure. Take care, stay cool, hydrate and try to keep out of trouble. I will try to do the same thing, but no promises. Talk with you all again soon. Thanks for stopping by!

A real turn on

This is a quickie.  What a huge turn on it was to type out the story I wrote last night.  Then have the computer read it back to me.  It just made me want to take the afternoon off.  I was so turned on.  Jeez and I’m planning to write another story tonight.  This is fun but it’s starting to get to me, trying to hold myself back.  I guess it’s a good thing I am going into the office tomorrow.  At least I can try to concentrate on work, that is if my hands not sore!

Lunch was oddly delicious.  2 hard boiled eggs, a Code Red Mt. Dew (regular with sugar) and a chocolate donut.  Mora tried to steal my donut and some of my soda but thankfully I was able to push her away. 

I’ve wanted code red Mt. Dew Zero or Sugar Free for 3 years.  I got tired of waiting and the regular version with sugar isn’t bad at all.  I was kind of surprised for a guy who drinks nothing but diet.  Regular cola soda tastes horrible to me. 

Time to go see the cats, think about my next story and relax a bit.  It’s been a busy day at the office and flipping between typing my story and work was a little bit of a challenge and difficult at best to concentrate but thankfully I didn’t make any mistakes.  It would have been horrible to type my story in a work document, that would play well for me. 

Hope you enjoyed the photos.  Talk with you all again soon!

Men on Monday - enjoy :)

- Sean Ford, gay porn star. 

 

- Sean O’Donnell, influencer, super hot!

Morning

Hi ho it’s off to work I go, because I owe, I owe, I owe.  Yeah it’s another Monday, but at least I am not on-call, thank God!  The weekend was quiet other than having to get up and do the testing yesterday.  I know the latter part of this week is going to be really busy, Friday in particular.  Lots of people leaving, going back to school.  That’s how I know that summer is almost done.  However, like most of the US were going to bake and fry this week.  Seriously hot high temps, some rain possible over night but scattered.  Sunshine all day, every day this week.  At least I am not in Phoenix, I feel so sorry for those people.  A/C has to run 24x7 probably and if it breaks your probably in a long long of waiting. 

I had another night of writing fun.  I told myself that I’d put my pen down at 8:30p and I was a little late but I did it.  I told Rudy, somethings are best left until the next day.  The story line was churning in my head and I was aching to go back and write.  However, I needed to get ready for bed.  Passed out treats and cat nip.  Mora has learned to start begging.  I ask her you want cat nip?  She cries.  Rudy joins in.  I said sit.  Rudy sat down but Mora started spinning in a circle.  I said no, sit Mora.  She was really crying and finally she sat down.  I passed out the goods and they both went crazy.  They are both so much fun, the majority of the time.  I trimmed Mora’s claws last night and she hated me for doing it.  They were getting pretty long and I figured I was just moments away from another injury so why not fix it.  I’m the one with all of the scars, itching and marks on my legs and I’m tired of it.  Especially the itching, it’s the worst. 

Watched some really hot porn and man I had a good time with that, especially with the stories I had written mulling around in my head.  After that was over, I watched the latest episode of The Righteous Gemstones.  Whoo-Wee Sucker!  It was awesome.  I am sad that next week will be the season finally but it’s two episodes back to back so I am looking forward to it.  I watch it because it’s really entertaining but  there are two hotties in it.  Adam Devine and Skyler Gisondo.  I know IRL they are both straight and in the show they appear straight.  However, I’ve got it really bad for Skyler, he just makes my mouth water.  Adam’s not bad either. 

That was over way quicker than I wanted it to be.  I grabbed a lantern/flashlight that I had charging.  Grabbed my paper & pen, turned on the lantern and went back to writing.  Rudy was curled up in my lap and not liking the light but he managed to fall asleep.  Every time I would turn a page he would wake up.  I finally got to the end of the story it was close to one in the morning.  Fuck I said, tomorrow is gonna suck.  Yep, it sure does.  I wanted to stay in bed.  Rudy got me up though and we got moving. 

I had an idea that I could use my scanner to convert my writing to words and that would make editing easier.  Turns out the free version of software that came with my scanner doesn’t recognize handwriting.  I tried it and just got a bunch of gobble gook on the screen.  It’s either pay for an upgrade, which I can try before I buy or type it in all by hand.  I am going with typing it all in by hand.  Not to string you along but I got an idea last night for publishing, that would give me more control than submitting to a site like nifty [dot] org so I’m thinking about it.  Like I put in one of my stories it’s very important to do all of your thinking with the big head and not the little one.  I’m horny and excited to put this all on-line but I’m thinking about how it could be traced back to me and embarrassment for me.  I’m not looking to expose myself or anyone else but the idea is just really hot to me. 

Last nights story was the longest to date 17 pages.  I use purple ink in a disposable fountain pen.  The rollerball I was using ran out of ink.  I switched to green ink in that and the refill is a bit stale, skipping and I don’t like the way it’s writing.  I might throw out the refill but I grabbed a spare pen built the same and put in black ink, which I hate.  It’s smooth as silk so I am going to try to write another story with that.  My goal for today is to convert the story from last night to typed format and save it.  Then start a fresh story from scratch tonight.  It will occupy my time, keep me from napping and I’ll also be right here at the computer in case anything should pop off at work.  Wish me luck. 

Right now I am going to check on some laundry, get some mouthwatering photos of guys together for a second post this afternoon.  I know that’s the reason why a lot of you stop by and hey it’s perfectly okay by me.  Sex always sells or at least makes people curious.  No harm in looking I hope that I help someone get off or at least put a smile or two on a couple peoples faces. 

Take care, stay cool & hydrated.  I’ll talk with you all again soon.  Here’s hoping for a great day ahead for all.  Cheers!

Fantasy is fun

  Happy Sunday!  I hope that your having a good weekend.  I don’t know about you but I’m certainly not ready for Monday.  Sadly it’s still on it’s way.  I just hope this week is better and calmer than last week. 

I was able to pry myself out of bed early and Rudy helped me.  I told him biscuits at 6:30.  He was on me and trying to wake me up, I had moved the alarm to 6:45 so I tried to ignore him but that didn’t work out to well for me.  We got in some loving and cuddling.  Morea chirped at me and I she got a nice belly rub.  Then I got up and passed out their breakfast.  Headed downstairs and started my work, I was done in 15 minutes.  Then back upstairs and out to the garage.  My tires had plenty of time to cool off and sure enough they were all low by 2 pounds.  I got that fixed.  Then back inside, washed my hands and threw on some clothes. 

Out the door for a quick road test, all is well.  I don’t hear the noise I heard yesterday which I believe was the under inflated tires.  Off to breakfast.  I asked for a Sausage & Cheese Omelet.  It wasn’t on the menu but my waitress figured out a creative way to get it for me.  I told her pork sausage not smoked sausage.  Damn if they didn’t make it with smokes sausage.  I sent it back and had it made like I asked.  Mean while I had a Cinnamon & Raisin biscuit with cream cheese icing.  Fuck that was so good.  My omelet came out and it was very good.  Super hot and I could tell it was rushed but hey I got what I ordered. 

There was a younger lady sitting by herself and soon an older lady came in and sat by herself.  Ah being single or at least eating alone sucks.  I’m used to it but I thought why not perk up their days.  I paid both of their bills in addition to mine.  I walked up to each of them and asked, Do you like magic?  The older lady said why yes who doesn’t.  I said good I made your bill disappear.  I walked up to the younger lady and asked her the same thing.  The old lady was yelling say yes.  She said no, not really.  I said well too bad.  I still made your bill disappear.  I waved at both of them and said have a good day.  Jesus I dropped $60 on breakfast.  I felt alive and really good like I haven’t in a long time. 

Then I dropped into the most expensive car wash in town at $23.  I got a wash and got all of the bugs off of my windshield.  It looks really nice and even if they did a ceramic glaze, the wash still isn’t worth $23.  You can join their car wash club and get it cheaper but I don’t go there that often. 

Off to the grocery store.  Where I got to say a phrase that I haven’t said in a very long time.  Hey I’ve got a coupon.  The cashier was so confused, she said a what?  I said a coupon.  She said we don’t hear that often.  I said yeah probably like the phrase I will be paying with cash.  The lady behind me chimed in and said cash, what’s that.  Exactly I said!

I wanted so bad to buy a lottery ticket but no one was manning the station that sells the tickets.  I thought about driving to a gas station but opted instead to just come home.  Things were going well and I wanted to keep it that way. 

I got in a nap, watched some TV.  Found a Bird on YouTube named Apollo.  He talks and it’s quite entertaining.  I was watching one of the longer videos last night.  Morea came to life when she saw him.  I thought she was going to leap off the bed and try to attack the TV.  I kept telling her no, it’s just TV it’s not a real bird.  I got her to calm down but she never took her eye off of the screen until the bird disappeared.  Rudy could have cared less, he was sleeping.  Now that would have been something to record but my phone was charging and Rudy was in my lap. 

Your probably wondering if I started drugs, got laid, found a boyfriend because this is so up beat.  Turns out it’s the writing.  Putting sexual fantasies down on paper in the form of an Erotic story really just does it for me.  I think on the fly about how I want the story to go, thus far it’s been me and one other guy.  This afternoon I wrote a scene with multiple guys, my longest one yet 13 pages.  I’ve got so much to type out on paper.  I am not done.  I made a list of guys I wanted to write about and that’s fuel for the fire.  It’s a short list.  I thought about writing a different version of the multiple scene I just wrote this afternoon and just making it me and one guy.  These are hot but oddly enough I don’t get physically aroused.  I get into the story and visualize it playing out as I am writing.  It feels good and my pens are getting quite the workout.  I’m working something else out tonight and that should be fun too or so I hope. 

Left over pizza will be the meal of choice for supper.  I had a donut for lunch and put out my meds.  Need to take up the laundry, take care of the litter boxes and catch up on social media.  I am itching to write my next story before bed.  I want to pace myself but I am so inspired and alive, I would have never ever guessed that this would be such a thrill for me.  I hope it doesn’t wear off but something tells me that it might.  I’m going to enjoy the ride for as long as it lasts.  Even if I never ever publish them just having them on paper is enough for me.  These are all fantasy's that involve guys that I have crushes on but they have never ever played out in real life.  If you were to read them you’d probably think otherwise.  I don’t mean to tease you but just wanted to let it out.  If I should take the plunge and post I’ll let you know where you can find them. 

As for now I am glad that it’s Sunday because it’s my last day of being on call.  That is the only thing I am looking forward to when we flip to Monday.  I will be going in on Tuesday, I know that won’t be a whole lot of fun but time to show my face.  It’s been 2 weeks already.  I hate being away from the cats but they seem to do okay without me. 

Well I should get moving.  Take care, be well, stay hydrated and cool.  Talk with you all again soon. 

Had some fun

Good Evening!  I hope that your Saturday is going well and that your relaxing, staying cool, hydrated and having some fun!!

Friday was a complete shit show for me.  My bosses boss set me up in a sense.  I ran some reports and I didn’t look at them close.  He kept asking for the same data for a couple days.  Apparently, the system produced different results.  I got an angry email asking me why and telling me how important accuracy is, because decisions were being made based on the results I provided.  I wanted to say look here, I just ran the reports it’s not my fault the system gave different results.  The queries were the exact same.  However, my boss jumped in and we wound up spending the afternoon on the phone with a vendor – two separate calls.  The first call they “fixed” it.  The second call was because everything just stopped working.  They got us back up and running but said that there is a problem with the program, they need to investigate to dig deeper.  Who knows how long that will take.  Mean while the Ivory Tower is waiting for their reports.  My boss explained that the system is broken and it will be a few days before we know more. 

Meanwhile I had sat down at my computer at 7:30a, never got up for a break, to get a snack, check on the cats or anything.  I was astonished when I saw it was 11a.  I wanted to step away then but that’s when all hell broke loose.  Long story short, I had to hold my bladder, pray I didn’t pass out from low blood sugar and kept on working.  It was 2:45p when I finally was able to stand up and then I just packed up for the day.  I was done.  I could handle anything else that came in from upstairs. 

Mora & Rudy thought for sure I forgot about them but they were overjoyed to see me.  The feeling was mutual.  I grabbed a junk food snack, got them some late lunch.  They settled in for a nap.  I had a couple more things to deal with at work and had to lug in the trash barrel.  Then before I knew it, time for supper. 

I had such an itch to write another story.  I had problems focusing on who I was going to write about.  Finally I settled on a former co-worker.  I sat on the couch and wrote my longest story to date.  A whopping 9 notebook pages long, some of that is double sided.  It took a few hours and the more I wrote the more I kept visualizing the events playing out in my head.  I never had sex with this guy, he was straight – married with kids.  He struck me as being the curious type and I did let him know I had feelings for him, but that was the extent of it.  I was so turned on as I wrote I just had to keep going and going.  I also wrote the story with a disposable fountain pen.  Man that made all the difference in the world.  I’m a rollerball guy but I have a couple fountain pens in my collection.  They just seem so messy and they skip I don’t have time for all of that.  Give me a good rollerball and I am a happy man.  A ballpoint that writes like a rollerball also works quite well.

Morea made sure that I took breaks.  I also put on my regular glasses, figuring it couldn’t hurt.  Well they hurt the side of my head from wearing them.  It was a great way to spend an evening and I was comfortable as I could be. 

Right now my new addiction is writing erotic stories.  I will need to get them typed up and transcribing them won’t be a whole lot of fun but just playing out the fantasy on paper is so addicting to me.  After I was done I wanted to go watch porn but honestly I was too tired, I was considering taking a muscle relaxer and wish that I would have now.  I didn’t because I am on-call and if something were to happen I wouldn’t be mentally alert enough, hell I couldn’t even tell you if I’d bother to get out of bed.  I used the heating pad and it helped a little but I am still having some pain. 

From watching chiropractic videos on-line my self diagnosis is that everything is compressed and jammed together.  I need a Y-strap adjustment aka The Ring Dinger.  That thing scares the hell out of me.  I’d be the one person who would either be paralyzed or injured from the adjustment.  It always looks like the persons head is going to come off but the majority of people say, that is what I needed all along.  That adjustment aside, I know that I could probably do with some basic upper back adjustments, they would probably hit the spot.  Thinking about it and typing it out doesn’t make it happen though. 

No surprise that I spent the bulk of Saturday in my room.  I got up and got going around 3p.  I kept hearing about this fabulous pizza place that everyone was raving about.  Well I went there and had dinner tonight.  It’s just average pizza, nothing wildly special to me.  I don’t see what all of the raves were about, unless I got the wrong thing.  Cost was average and comparable to what I typically spend for a pizza and a soda.  Service wasn’t the worst but wasn’t the best.  I kept seeing everyone paying in cash and I was nervous that they didn’t take credit cards.  That would have been a nightmare because I don’t carry much cash, my ATM/Debit cards are all locked up and I don’t carry them.  I only have credit cards with me.  Thankfully when they gave me my bill it said AMEX welcome here.  That’s when I knew I was home free.  I don’t have an AMEX but it told me they took credit cards.  Phew! 

My vehicle was making a thumping type noise.  Like my tire pressure was off.  It was the wrong time to check but I did so when I got home.  Everything said all of the tires were over inflated.  That would make sense for the noise.  I am going to let them cool down over night and check them in the morning.  I know I won’t want to screw with it but I need to.  Tire pressure is something I have become rather anal about considering how many sets of tires I have put on this vehicle alone.  They aren’t cheap and I want to get the most bang for my buck.

Got to get up early because I get to do after patch testing to make sure all of the systems are ready to go come Monday morning.  I figure I will get up at 6:30, which is a half hour early.  Knock out the testing.  Get dressed, check the tire pressure, head out for breakfast, hit up the grocery store and then I can relax for the most part.  I am working on laundry now.  I have been wanting to do it all week long just kept putting it off. 

Now I want to go back upstairs and write some more but just like last night I don’t know who to write about.  I don’t know that anyone will turn me on as much as that old co-worker but I’m sure I will find someone that will do the trick.  If not then I will just watch some TV and pass the night away.  Hoping for a restful nights sleep and perhaps this back pain to leave me alone. 

Take care and I will talk with you again soon.  Stay cool and hydrated!

Slip Sliding in the Shower

Happy Friday, I hope it’s a great day for all and that your weekend is even better!

I was so bored for the bulk of yesterday. I got in a nap, had lunch, got some work and knocked it out. Then the rest of the afternoon was just one great big lull. I called it quits around 3p and headed upstairs. That smacked me in the face with a reminder to get the trash out and I really didn’t want to but I forced myself.

I came back in and watched TV, just got interested in an old episode of Family Feud and an email came in from my boss’s boss. It was 4:30p and he wanted some reports. I just don’t get why I can sit idle for the bulk of the day and then when it’s almost the end of the normal business day work starts to pile in. After that I got more requests but my focus was on the reports. I knocked them out pretty quickly but it caused me to question why in the world he wanted these. One of them was on his boss and that just seemed rather odd and another one was duplicative in that I had ran the same thing earlier in the week. I suppose he thought he would get different data but the system only spits out what it knows and the data was the same. Lately there has been a huge focus on attendance reporting and they are using some of the reports that are provided as evidence to get rid of people, most of which are made up of contractors.

I have a feeling that today will be mostly quiet and I will have a lot of time on my hands. At least that has been that way thus far. I’ve knocked out all of my tasks for the day. I am just on standby watching and waiting. That will last for so long and I will retreat back to my room to take a nap. That’s when the phone will start going crazy.

Last night I was able to write another erotic story. I could easily do this on the computer but I wanted to write it out long hand. I grabbed a new pen, which failed on me multiple times. Good thing it’s a disposable. Still, I was a little angry because I paid for it to work. My handwriting can be good at times but recently everything I have written by hand looks horrible. I was at the kitchen table sitting in a wooden chair, there was no real support for me and it was kind of uncomfortable which I am sure contributed to why things looked bad on paper. Still, I pressed on. This morning my back feels like I actually did what I wrote down. It’s my mid-back and damn it sure hurts.

I have given though to publishing my stories on-line. I came across a site nifty [dot] org they have all sorts of stories if that is of interest to you. Part of me thinks it’s a good idea and the other part of me thinks it’s not. What I write is fiction and fantasy that I wish would have happened. It’s fun to let my imagination go a bit wild. This isn’t the first time I wrote stories like this, I did it when I was younger. I would get aroused by it but now it’s only mildly arousing and mostly for the fun of it.

I do have plans to take the handwritten form and transfer it to typewritten form but I am not exactly in a hurry. I also think about how funny it would be for me to pass away and for someone to come across what I have written, that combined with other gay/sexual items in my house would probably change certain people’s opinions of me, but I don’t give a damn. I am human, I have needs and desires. It reminds me of in Queer as Folk when Ted accidentally over dosed on GHB and his friends had to raid his house to get rid of all of the dildos and gay porn before his mom went over.

Other than that, I spent time with Mora & Rudy giving them love and attention. They also conned me out of more cat nip before I got in my shower. I was really surprised when I got out, I always go looking for them. Normally they are waiting outside the bathroom door in anticipation because they like to peek in the tub. They were laying perfectly still right where I passed out their cat nip and they just looked at me, like do we get more? Nope.

I also accidentally went surfing in the tub when my bathmat broke loose and was hydroplaning on the floor of the tub. Come to think of it maybe that is what has my back aching. Anyway, I got that sucker stuck down and was just trying to get my last uses out of it. I am putting in it’s replacement before I take the next shower. It’s served me well for many years. It’s supposed to last a lifetime but damn they just don’t make products like they used to. It was $25 and I spent the same on a replacement. It’s got some Gorilla Grip on it that isn’t supposed to break away and it’s held up that is until last night. The last thing I want to do is get seriously injured or worse die in the bathtub from taking a shower. I’m glad though that I have a safety measure in place with the Police & Fire Department so that if I did call for help, they would be able to get in no matter what. Honestly, I put that in place mostly because I expected that I would be checking out but I never told that to anyone, so consider yourself privileged.

My insomnia kicked in after having a nightmare that I lost my vehicle. I know exactly where I parked it and I couldn’t find it. I kept using the remote to find it and it made a VW start chirping but I don’t now nor have I ever driven a VW. I’ve ridden in several though. In the nightmare my car was for sure stolen. I was going on about how if I had a working modem, I could locate it through an app. I sure do miss the modem it gave me better insight to the vehicle, as well as remote start. However, I used it most to keep track of when an oil change was due. When I was working, I did use the remote start in the summer some but mostly in the winter. I’d leave the heat and heated seats turned on. Nothing like coming out to a warm vehicle on a cold day, especially when you’re sitting on leather seats. Same can be said for a hot summer day and coming out to a cold vehicle.

Talk with you all again soon, again have a great weekend!

Jinxed – Punishment

Good Morning!

Happy Thursday/aka Friday Eve. Last night left me very little time to myself. I did get to gulp down my supper and while that was happening work was coming in. Most things were what I call quick wins, simple stuff that is handled with not much effort. I did have an issue that I kept playing ping-pong with. Finally, after the 2^nd time it came back to me, I was hell bent on fixing the issue. Like a dog with a bone and that is how I entered into a time suck. It was one of those situations where I was too close to the forest to see the trees. Eventually it hit me and then after a couple hours I had the issue solved.

The whole time I was thinking I should ask for help and normally when I’ve done everything I can I do ask for help. However, after my little screw up with the mute button the last thing I wanted to do was ask for help. I was happy that I fixed it myself but a bit upset that it took me so long. However, I was quite pleased that I was able to solve the issue by myself. Not everyone would have stuck with it and tried to figure it out without throwing up their hands. I threw my hands up multiple times, said a lot of cuss words but in the end, I fixed it.

I had other plans for the evening and not working my night away. It makes for a long day and when morning rolls around it feels like I was just at work with no break. Thankfully I have already knocked out my morning tasks so the day is wide open. I hope that I am not bothered that much but I don’t want to jinx myself.

The cats bothered me a little bit while I was working but for the most part after they had their meal, they settled down for a nap. It’s like a cycle I can count on. They eat then they sleep. Not a bad deal. They got a reward before I went to bed. Mora was asking for cat nip and I gave in. She has become a slight bit chatty. I am still learning about them and it may take a bit longer before I figure them totally out. I wish I had them from day 1 so that I would be so in the dark to their mannerisms. However, I’ve got them now and I am learning, not sure if I will ever be fully up to speed but I think I have a decent handle on things. They both seem to love and appreciate me, mostly because I pass out the food, treats and cat nip. Still no basement escorts this morning. They still wait at the top of the steps for when I immerge. If it’s not both of them it’s one of them while the other one takes a break. They do work well as a team and despite the occasional fight they seem to get along very well.

As you can well imagine bed time came around much faster since I was focused on work. I was exhausted and it didn’t take long for me to climb in bed. However, early to sleep always means I will take up in the middle of the night. My little slip up came to mind at 2a when I was wide awake and I didn’t get back to sleep until 4a. Rudy kept me company while Morea was in her spot on my cedar chest sleeping away. I just couldn’t turn my mind off. It all started out innocently enough with a wake up to use the bathroom and then I came back to bed but there was no falling asleep. Rudy joined me and he wanted to play but I wasn’t in the mood for that, which didn’t make him all that happy. It’s the middle of the night I should be sleeping. If I was a cat, it wouldn’t bother me because I’d have all day to sleep but no such luck for me.

It wasn’t long before 7a rolled around and Rudy was once again greeting me with biscuits. We beat the alarm clock but only by 2 minutes. I wanted to just roll over and say to hell with it. However, I went through the motions. From working so long on my laptop my shoulders are really bothering me this morning. Muscle cramps. I am sure I just added some knots to my all ready over popular collection. I’d love nothing more than to get rid of them all and for them never to come back. Kind of like I want to win the lottery. I didn’t buy a ticket because I figured it would keep rolling, but looks like someone got really luck in California.

Here's hoping that today is better than yesterday. I am going to try to rest a bit. Need to remember to take out the trash this afternoon. I hope your day is grand and that you stay hydrated & cool. Talk again soon.

It’s not funny

Well it finally happened and I am a little embarrassed.  I thought my mic was on mute and it wasn’t.  I made a derogatory comment about the boss and everyone on the call heard me.  It was muffled so I was asked to repeat myself and that’s when I said I didn’t realize my mic was hot.  There was a cuss word in there as well and only one person has ever heard me use cuss words.  I really hope for my sake my boss didn’t understand what I was saying.  I asked a co-worker and he said I heard something and expiative.  I am convinced I am going to hear about it.  Not that I am going to get fired for saying it but I think it will become a big deal for me. 

From now on I will double mute myself.  I am still going to mouth off because that is how I vent.  It’s preferred that only I hear it but I have to say it to get it out of my system. 

My coworker thought it was quite funny.  I however did not.  I suppose that your all laughing and hey it’s okay.  That’s part of the reason why I shared the experience. 

I am frustrated at how my boss never truly listens (that might have worked to my advantage here).  He isn’t doing anything about my concerns about my colleague that I have to mop up after and he’s got no real clue as to totally what I do on a daily basis.  He has an idea but not the full picture.  I go way above and beyond.  That’s why it angered me that my pay raise wasn’t larger.  I expect that the environment won’t ever change but if I can get more money that makes it slightly more tolerable. 

I’ve been looking more today at big companies for remote work.  The jobs are out there but you have to know where to look and apparently I don’t.  I know there is a You Tube channel I can subscribe to (I forget the name) and you can buy a membership to this woman’s service where she gives you all sorts of leads, tips and templates.  She goes by Jazzy and her videos have shown up in my feed on occasion.  Of course when I really want them to they aren’t. 

I hear that longevity means nothing anymore and that the longer you stay at a company the greater your chances are that the market will pass you by.  Meaning that you won’t get the pay that you deserve and you could loose out on valuable opportunities.  I feel that I have paid my dues in the working world.  I want to get a job, hang on to it and leave when it’s time and never, ever work again.  That is my goal.  Thus far pretty successful.  However, I also don’t see a roadmap ahead for climbing any higher unless I would get promoted into management.  Given that my boss senses frustration I don’t think that he will be moving forward, I think I am probably stuck in my current role.  I’m actually fine with that but I would like more money, I mean that is the only reason why I work. 

Well I hope I gave you a laugh, even though it’s not that funny to me.  I am a bit worried over it but there isn’t anything I can do, short of calling my boss and falling on my sword and that’s just not going to happen.  I’ve done that many times and right now I just don’t think that is the right move for me.  I am just letting it go and if he brings it up then I will deal with it, otherwise it’s yesterdays news and life goes on. 

The work day doesn’t have many more hours left.  I hope that I am not bothered tonight but I will be keeping my laptop close by just in case. 

Have a good evening!

Bad timing

Good Morning and happy hump day!

The internet connection remains solid, which is kind of a surprise.  I don’t fully trust it so I am using carrier service from my cell phone.  I need to be sure I don’t miss an email since I am on-call this week.  We all know my luck isn’t the best and I can easily see where something would happen and I would be needed but because I didn’t get the email or there was a delay in getting the email I failed to respond.  I want to avoid that at all costs. 

Last night was a decent time with Mora & Rudy.  We watched TV via Roku.  If I didn’t have that device right now I don’t know what I would do, regular TV is so boring.  I do hope the Actors & Writers strikes are resolved quickly but thus far that doesn’t seem to be the case.  In any event both cats seemed to be looking for something more as I was flossing my teeth.  They were a bit chatty and I kind of figured they wanted cat nip. 

I cracked open the jar after I was done flossing and they both were really talkative then and right at my feet.  Rudy was across the room and he came running.  They were decent about me giving them each some, normally they fight after I put down the first bit.  One finger pinch is the amount I give to each.  They eat it up like it’s candy.  Then they double check the area to make sure they didn’t miss anything on accident.  No question about it the floor is always clean after they are done. 

I got comfy in my chair.  They leave me alone for a little bit I guess they think I need a break.  I use that time to my advantage.  I was watching something, both of them joined me and then the sleeping medicine I took was kicking in.  I was ready to get up and call it a night.  It was around 9:30p and that is a little early for me.  Then the damn phone rings.  It took me a minute to process what it was.  I had to kick poor Rudy out of my lap to get up and answer it.  It was a work call and I needed to take care of something.  I hated the timing but at least I wasn’t doing anything other than falling asleep, still not a happy camper.  However, wide awake now. 

I had to fetch my laptop from the living room, fire it up and get logged in.  I took care of everything and powered the machine off.  I kept my phone and laptop near me and Rudy joined me again.  We all got comfy and then I let the medicine do it’s thing.  It wasn’t terribly long before I was putting the phone back on the charger, the laptop away and Rudy was on the floor.  I climbed into bed.  Giving a quick pet to Mora.  I got comfy and then Rudy got on top of me and got comfy.  I turned the TV off and we were all off to dreamland. 

I woke up around 2a and I was all alone.  Not uncommon.  Got up to use the restroom and then I got company.  Rudy was quick to join me and try to help me get back to sleep, there was no issue.  He wanted food and he begs me quite often.  I don’t give in unless it is close to a meal time.  Mora does a little begging but it’s so infrequent I think she might have asked for food 3 times since she has been here.  Rudy on the other hand is constantly at my side looking, asking and watching.  If there is someone at my feet it’s him, he always seems to be in the way just because he’s curious and eager.  They are both the same age but Rudy acts more like he is 2 years old and Mora acts more like she is 10 years old.  Play time they are equal but I am speaking of overall average.  In fact I used to get an escort to the basement in the morning.  They stopped that 2 days ago.  Not sure if it will come back but I kind of miss it. 

This morning when I woke up for good and gave into Rudy’s asking.  Mora was no where to be found.  I kept calling and looking.  I know she was in the house before I went to bed and it’s not like she could break out.  I started eating and so did Rudy.  I kept calling for her.  Nothing.  I got up to go look and there she was in Gator’s old bed.  I gave her a pet and told her come get something to eat.  She got up and came over.  Not liking the food at first and walking away, then she turned around and changed her mind.  They both love to hide on me and it’s in plain sight which really angers me that I can’t see them quickly.  This is a thing all cats love to do.  Sometimes I’d find one of Momma’s family under a couch but for the most part on average they were out and right in front of me, I just didn’t notice them.  Like the time I searched the house high and low for Big Bear.  Turns out his black fur and the dark blue large bed I bought him acted as camouflage and it wasn’t until I broke out a flashlight that I saw him.  I never liked hide and go seek.  Hiding I would always bust up laughing so no one would want to hide with me. 

On to what content took up most of my time.  I found a Charlie Puth concert that was on YouTube and it was recent.  See why I am glad I didn’t purchase tickets and go sit in the heat with all of the people.  The show was from Dallas and that was a while ago but hey it’s okay.  I found another one in Mexico and the set list appeared to be the same.  He did an okay job.  I think his early years his performances were much better.  He’s a little cocky and a bit too confident now, whereas in earlier shows he came off more natural.  This show I saw he was teasing the crowd like he was going to take off his shirt.  He didn’t but there were like 3 changes of clothes in his concert.  First he came out in some jacket and it looked like it was Winter.  Then it was more to Spring with 2 shirts on and by the end he was in just a T-shirt.  I suppose the heat builds rather quickly under the hot spot lights and I don’t know how those people take it.  I would pass out just because I am intolerant to excess heat, it makes me physically sick.  Anyway I had a good time and enjoyed seeing Charlie even if it was on TV and had commercial breaks.  I still think the world of him, he is quite talented and as he ages he just becomes more an more sexually appealing.  I wasn’t sexually attracted to him when I first discovered him but that has developed over time.  I know he’s straight and the chances of me coming face to face with him to be close enough to shake his hand are minimal at best.  Ah well one can dream.  I know I am not the only gay guy who wants him and he seems to know that he is attractive.  Here’s hoping for more good music from him. 

My least favorite subject, work.  I have gone as far as I can with morning tasks.  I am waiting for something to come in or for my only meeting at 11a.  I hope the day is quiet it’s been a bit busy the last couple days.  I could use a bit of rest if I can get it.  Thursday & Friday are meeting free days and usually more laid back days.  I hope that stays true. 

Well have a good day.  I am off to scour the web for news and smut.  Then when I get bored I will go back upstairs and probably take a nap or try to and then my phone will bug me and I will be right back here working away.  What a vicious cycle it is!  Cheers. 

Back

I was going nuts with a huge lull and trying to limit what I did online.  Finally, around 2:30p my home internet connection came back to life.  I stayed off of it for a bit longer due to meetings and work, but I just jumped back on and all appears to be well.  Here’s hoping that they won’t mess up the rest of my week. 

Here’s hoping it’s a good evening.  Take care!

Internet Problems … all week long

Good Morning!  I was looking at my phone last night and in my text messages I randomly check the junk folder.  I was surprised I had a message and turns out it was sent yesterday.  Turns out the cable company is working on “improving their infrastructure to provide a better experience”  and they are doing maintenance all week long during normal business hours.  They said that service might be impacted. 

My insomnia kicked in and I was up at 2a.  I just wanted to watch a little TV and go back to bed.  I got started with something and the internet went belly up and I had to go to regular TV and find something else to capture my interest.  2a is not normal business hours.  I was not surprised when I woke up that there is no internet connection. 

I am hot spotting it most likely all day long.  That sucks but I have 2 carriers that I can switch between.  I got Visible last year due to connection issues and the fact I wanted to jump into the dating scene.  It’s an unlimited plan for $30 and I have had it ever since.  The one guy at Cracker Barrel that I gave my number to never has called or texted.  However, I figure eventually I will give that # to some guy who will actually call me.  Today I use the line for business so I can tell work from personal calls, not that I get many personal calls.  My personal cell line has mad spam protection so unless your in my contacts your going to voice mail.  My personal line has a data cap of 4GB and of course as luck would have it today is the 2nd day in my billing cycle.  I wanted to switch to suck up a good portion of the data as my allotment as is goes unused since I have unlimited data on Visible.  In any case it’s nice to have a backup plan in place otherwise I would have had to throw on clothes and go to the office, being late and not having time to take a shower.  So long as the cellular connections don’t fail me I should be okay.  If I can’t get connected to either carrier then I am sunk and I think the odds of that are about as great as me winning the lottery.  What do you think? 

It was a peaceful evening here.  I had a Hot Pocket Philly Cheese Steak and it wasn’t the best.  That does NOT solve my craving for a Cheese Steak but it will do for the moment.  Then I had two cold crunchy beef tacos left over from Sunday at Taco Bell.  They weren’t bad.  Had some popsicles for desert.  I think that at some point Mora & Rudy both had contact with a popsicle because they are both very interested when I eat one.  They look at me like when do I get a lick?  If they did get a lick it would either be their popsicle or it hit the trash.  No way am I eating after either one of them, too much bacteria live in their mouths and I am sure I would catch something unpleasant, especially given the black cloud that seems to follow me through life.  It’s funny to watch them but I tell them both no.  They are also obsessed with smelling what I am drinking most of the time it’s soda.  I have a water bottle that has a finger loop on it and it’s made from some rubber like material.  They love to chew on it and I have to police that so they don’t do any damage. 

I got to brush both of the furry monsters last night.  Morea was being a bit extra for attention.  She loves for me to hold her while she lays close to my chest and just relaxes.  That is more weight than I can handle for a long time.  I don’t exactly workout or go to the gym.  My upper body strength is in good shape but I am no weight lifter.  I hold her for as long as I can and then I either get her to change positions or she wants down.  The 3 of us have our share of fun.  The two of them have more fun together without me.  I see it after they eat or just before bed.  Their energy levels peak and then drop.  They get some energy at different times and wind up playing with a ball, they both make noise when they play so it’s easy to tell.  Neither of them are loud unless they are fighting.  Even their purr motors are soft.  Mora’s you can hear just barely.  Rudy you have to really listen.  I could put my phone up to Gator and record her, people would always comment when I was on the phone what is that noise.  I will never have that problem with Mora or Rudy and their purrs don’t sound nearly as good as Gator’s when I have tried to record them.  It’s all good though, were all different. 

Confession time.  I didn’t use the heating pad last night.  I used an ice pack while I was watching TV.  My back feels way better but I am still very sore.  I plan to go at it again tonight targeting a couple different spots.  Massage Therapists always say use heat.  A sports medicine doctor that I had as my internist always told me to use ice.  It’s a pain but you will heal quicker he said.  I am always conflicted on which to use but I do like heat more than ice just because it’s a bit more comfortable.

Since today is Tuesday it’s back to meeting time since the Stupidvisor is back.  1st one is just before lunch.  2nd one is after lunch.  Last one is a couple hours later with a vendor.  I hope they all go really fast and the fuckery is kept to a minimum but I know that probably won’t be the case.  Calgon take me away!

Finally, you might be asking who’s that guy at the top.  He is none other than teen heartthrob Steve Burton.  He is known for his role on General Hospital but I saw him in other things and we grew up together. Meaning that were about the same age.  I don’t know him.  I have always had a crush on him, but I know he is straight.  Still doesn’t stop me from admiring his body.

Here’s hoping it’s a great day and that my internet comes backup soon and they don’t take all week.  I know some how that their improvements are going to be reflected in a rate hike in my bill eventually so I am even less impressed.  Everything was working fine and I was happy.  Ever since we have had this last round of storms the connection has been up and down more than it has in a very long time.  Normally it’s solid 24x7, perhaps we will get back to that. 

Take care, stay hydrated, cool and be well.