09 January 2020

Emotional Rollercoaster Continues

I’ve noticed over the last couple days that Ms. Momma looks to be retaining fluid.  This morning one of her front paws is noticeably larger than the other.  She seems pretty normal with the new attitude that she has exhibited.  However, she shouldn’t be puffing up like a marshmallow. 

She could have congestive heart failure which is causing this or it could be an allergic reaction or probably a million other things that I don’t want to know. 

I was all over the place on how to move forward.  I went to work and called the vet.  They had an afternoon cancellation so I am leaving after lunch and headed home.  We will see the doctor later this afternoon and perhaps figure out what in the world is going on with her. 

I still have the instinct that something isn’t right and if off as well as the though that I am going to lose her.  I’m so scared and really wish I had someone in my life to lean on.  I know that all I can do is see what the vet has to say and then make an informed decision based off of the advice I get.  I’d love it if we could figure out what is going on and fix it without draining my wallet or hurting her. 

I did look at photos and one paw has been larger than the other or so it appears.  However, I haven’t noticed that one paw was like the size of a large dog and the other tiny, which is how it appeared this morning.  She didn’t seem to mind at all.  She ate a little bit and then curled up.  I gave her some belly rubs which she opened up for and enjoyed.  Not sure if she was acting or if she really enjoyed them. 

I’d love to get off of this rollercoaster but I still want my Momma.  Not sure if that is going to be possible but being all over the place doesn’t help me.  My other fear is that I lose her that Gator or Marv will be quick to follow and I don’t want that either. 

Stay tuned for further updates.  Not sure if I will be up for posting again tonight but that kind of depends on what I hear. 

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