Ah Sunday

I’m feeling pretty good today compared to how I was feeling yesterday.  I still feel a little under the weather but not enough to affect my performance.  Hopefully this theme will continue.  I wanted to buy some soup at the grocery store but managed to forget that as well as Ham flavored baby food.  I was a little slow to get out of bed but I also turned in late.  I just wasn’t feeling tired so I kept watching TV and then I looked at the time.  I had taken my pills but it was like they weren’t working fast enough.  Eventually I did manage to turn everything off and fall asleep.

Slow to rise I made it out of the house a little later than normal.  Missed my usual friend at Steak N Shake.  I had their Spicy Chicken Sandwich.  It was really good but it was on the spicy side.  I just felt the need to switch things up a bit.  Tired of the same old stuff.  I had to have an Eggnog shake to cool my mouth down. 

Made it to the grocery store and did my shopping.  Had 5 minutes to spare and was in line for my haircut.  That went really fast.  Then on to Target to pick up a couple things.  They have baby food but didn’t have Ham flavor and by then I had forgotten all about looking for soup.  Next stop was the gas station and then finally home sweet home.  The best impulse buy I made was 4 Butter Rum Muffins.  Damn they are so good and I can just feel the pounds packing on as I eat each and every bite but they are just too good to look at.  I’ve only had 1 but they probably won’t last long.  I will also be looking for them next week.  A grocery store best find!

I managed to spend way more than I wanted to.  I should have put somethings on credit.  I’ve given though to taking one of my cards that has a 0 balance and just start using it to pay for everything and locking my debit card.  I’d get a cash back reward but I would also have a bill to pay.  I’m mulling it over.  Not sure that this is something I really want to do but I do see the perk.  I like the feeling of paying cash when I can it’s just one less bill I have to worry about. 

Just took a stroll down memory lane.  I was looking for a legal document and found a bunch of pictures of myself taken through the years during school.  I snapped copies of them so I can keep them on my phone.  I got a couple photos where I was quite the handsome stud.  Never knew I looked that good.  I also found some report cards from when I was in grade school.  They talked about a self confidence issue  I always lacked self confidence, I think it’s from the physical abuse I endured.  Then lump in my sexuality and presto you have quite the mix.  I am much more self confident today than I have ever been.  There are moments when I have doubts but I think that is normal for everyone from time to time.  It was nice to see the old me.  I didn’t find the document I was looking for.  Ah, well just means I will have to look in other places.  If it’s here I am sure it will turn up eventually.  Probably when I no longer want it. 

Remember me remarking about my brother?  Well I found a photo on-line via his wife’s social media presence where he is looking at a new born.  I think it’s her son’s kid but I have no idea.  One would think that if I was an uncle that someone would tell me but then again this is my brother were talking about.  I don’t want to be an uncle but if I am then so be it.  I’m not a fan of kids. 

I woke up to find that I had someone interested in me.  I took a look and he was okay.  I was going to match with him this afternoon but when I went back he had un-liked me so there went that.  I honestly don’t have high hopes for the on-line thing.  Getting out in person I think will yield much better success.  Stay tuned because that is coming in due time or so I keep telling myself.  Doing nothing, changes nothing!

The cat kids are all doing fine.  They want their dinner so I will be climbing the stairs in a bit to get them fed.  I need to shave and make my dinner, which won’t be pizza for a change.  I’m still waiting on the blood work results and feel good about them coming back tomorrow.  If I don’t hear anything then I will be calling for sure on Tuesday looking for answers.

Here’s hoping that it’s a great week for all of us.  First full week of 2020.  Back to Business.  Take care and be well.  Talk with you all again soon.  Thanks as always for your visit. 

Kindness of a stranger

Happy New Year everyone!  I hope that 2020 is going well for all of you and that there is plenty of good and positive things on the road ahead. 

On the work front, we moved back to our new permanent spaces on Thursday shortly after lunch.  It was a hurry up and pack type event.  We had rain/snow in the forecast for Friday so everyone just opted to get it done.  The rain/snow never came and I’m okay with that.  I had work piling up while I was in the process of moving.  My new office was filthy and I cleaned one of the cabinets where it looks like someone shot their load in a couple of them.  It was just outright disgusting.  I said nothing and just kept on moving.  I had to do a minimal setup so I could get back to work but I took my sweet time.  I finished cleaning and unpacking yesterday.  This morning I woke up with a sore throat so likely something I cleaned had germs on it.  I’m not happy about it but what can you do? 

Our new guy was really getting tired of his corded headset, so I used my power and weight (what little bit I have) and talked with the right people.  I got him a Bluetooth Headset.  He was talking about buying one and I figured why should he shell out the money for one when we have them in house.  I called him up and told him that I had news so good he would want to kiss me.  He was elated and said that he would have kissed me if I was there in person.  Funny thing is that he was getting ready to make a purchase.  I blew him away.  I’ve gone out of my way to make him feel comfortable and at home.  The headset thing should have been handled by our boss but I know that spineless wimp would have made excuses and he probably wouldn’t have gotten one.  So since I knew how to work the system and make it happen, why not do it?  I wouldn’t do these things for just anyone so it’s a good thing for him that I have a crush on him, but I know he’s taken.  I see no reason to share that news with him as that would probably change things between us and that is the last thing I want to happen. 

On a professional level the new guy is killing it compared to the lazy incompetent piece of shit we used to have.  He seems pretty comfortable in processing the off boarding and I am keeping a close eye on his work for a tad longer but I am just about ready to cut him loose on that front.  Then we move on to bigger things.  I keep joking with him that once he is fully trained they won’t need me.  I should probably stop saying that because it could become a self fulfilling prophecy and that I don’t want.  I need my job despite the complaining I do.  We have a couple more days of piece and quiet before boss man returns on Wednesday and then it will be back to the normal bullshit. 

On the home front life here is normal as normal gets.  The cats are ruling me and I am letting them.  Momma is doing pretty good.  We got her blood work done this morning.  She was such a good girl.  Only a minor meow on the way over and a little chatter on the way in but hey it was cold outside I would chatter as well.  The tech that did the work charged me for a different panel of work, which I think will capture more than just her thyroid.  It cost slightly more but I paid the money.  I figure everything happens for a reason and perhaps this panel will be the tip off and unlock the mystery as to what is truly going on with her.  Hopefully it won’t be anything terrible.  Her weight is up slightly which is encouraging.  Plus she is still eating like she is pregnant.  All the time food and water.  She is up multiple times during the night.  She sleeps for a bit then grazes and comes back to sleep again.  She seems more like her normal self.  I do hope that I get answers and that I can stomach whatever news comes my way.  I expect the call tomorrow but Monday at the latest. 

I didn’t take my sleeping pills last night and was up most of the night.  It’s okay because today is Saturday but this isn’t the way I wanted the night to go.  Plus that doesn’t help my health and could be why I feel so lousy today. 

I did venture out this afternoon and grabbed a bite to eat at Cracker Barrel.  Something about their soup is so comforting to me and it seems to cure my ill or so I think.  I got to see a hot table of boys and then a hot buss boy.  The table next to me had a small family and they were gathering to celebrate Christmas.  They started unwrapping presents towards the end of my meal and it was kind of enjoyable to watch.  I think they felt sorry for me because I was alone.  I suppose that shows on my face along with the other emotional wounds I have more than I know or want it to.  At any rate it took forever to get the bill and finally the waitress told me.  Someone already took care of your bill, so your good to go.  I was surprised.  I have no idea who took care of me but I do appreciate it.  That is the kind of things I like to do for others.  Sometimes I make it known and other times I let it be a surprise.  I never thought in a million years it would come back to me.  That made me feel really good. 

I grabbed the mail and some cat food then headed back home.  So I need to start the chores and I am going to relax a bit more.  Might as well make the most of the weekend and the time I have because sooner rather than later it will be back to the old bump and grind.  I just hope I feel better tomorrow and that I am not getting sick as I think I am.  I still have my knot in my back and looking forward to Thursday because I plan to book time with the massage therapist.  Perhaps she can get rid of my unwanted friend. 

Thus far 2020 seems to be okay.  Funny thing is I am wondering about how my brother is doing and if he is happy.  I’m not knocking on his door to find out as that will just open the proverbial can of worms.  Every time I have anything to do with him I wind up getting hurt and I just can’t afford that.  Still he is blood family and I think it’s only natural to wonder about him.  I am probably not even on his radar, if I am he’s not reaching out. 

Before I go a quick legal tip.  If you sign any legal documents be sure to write the year as 2020 and not just 20.  Reason being is that someone could alter the document and write in digits behind the 20 so an example they could make it 2019 or 2017 and that could cause problems.  I read this on social media and it took a minute to soak in but I’m passing it on as a good will gesture. 

I shall talk with you again soon.  Take care, stay warm and be well. 

Last Day 2019

I had a bumpy evening last night.  Momma decided to stop eating.  I opened about 5 cans of food and no matter the flavor she would sniff it and turn up her nose.  She was drinking water though and quite frequently.  I knew something was up.  I wound up giving her a small amount of fluids.  I let her rest for a couple hours and then went at her with some Ham baby food.  That did the trick.  She ate a couple spoons of that.  To supplement I gave her an appetite stimulant so that we keep the progress moving forward. 

As you can well imagine I was worried sick.  I kind of feel like she keeps trying to check out on me and thus far I have been successful in preventing it but eventually it is going to happen.  I hope that eventually means a couple years from now but I have a feeling were talking much shorter term. 

My phone battery had a mishap in the middle of the night and was making noise.  I got up to fix that and that woke Momma up.  She was at me for food.  I gave in and opened a can and she did a reasonable job on cleaning the plate. 

Of course I was up for an hour and had some cookies & milk then I was finally able to go back to sleep.  This knot in my back is slowly working it’s way out but it is sure a pain. 

Woke up this morning and fed them, then went back to bed or tried to because I am working from home today.  They ate.  I got up an hour later and had to feed her again as well as get breakfast for me.  Seems that appetite stimulant is working overtime. 

I made it through the morning, not exactly sure how.  Take away or interrupt my sleep and I sure to feel it.  I also don’t want to function. 

Thought conversation I came out to my co-worker this morning.  He was asking some questions and I just opened the door.  His reaction was as I expected.  It didn’t phase him at all.  He also said he never suspected.  So that kind of felt good being able to open up a bit more.  Cats out of the bag now and there is no going back. 

Time for lunch.  Looks like all of the people that are quitting today are leaving well before the clock strikes 5p and I am so thankful for that.  It will make my job easier.  However, I got a laundry list of title changes that were submitted today.  I will be working tomorrow or late tonight, haven’t quite made a final decision yet.  It will depend upon how I feel and what I want to do.  So long as on the 2nd everyone’s title is correct no one will care either way. 

I hope it’s a great last day of the year for you. I also hope that 2020 is the year of positive change not only for you and me but for the world as a whole.  May there be great joy and happiness and that it far outweighs the negative.  Take care and be well.  Talk with you again next year!

Last Sunday of 2019

Here we are at the last Sunday of 2019.  Nothing terribly different about today than any other Sunday.  I am tired, thinking that I don’t want to go back to work and catering to the cats.  We had 2 Amazon drivers in the neighborhood and neither one had my package.  It’s still out for delivery and supposed to be here before 9p.  Here’s hoping they make it. 

I got a nap in with the cats.  Gator was in my lap and woke me for her lunch.  I watched a movie on Amazon yesterday called The Lion In your Living Room.  It’s all about cats and quite interesting.  I learned that cats don’t lap up water like dogs, rather there tongue corkscrews when the retract it to suck up the water.  It looks like they are lapping up water to me. 

Tuesday will be pay day but I will know all about my money tomorrow morning so I will pay bills on Monday night.  Need to get that out of the way before I started on my flurry of New Years Eve work.  This will be the 1st year that I have stayed at home and worked.  I don’t promise that I will make it to the stroke of midnight nor that I will get all of my work done on Tuesday but that’s what Wednesday is for.  Not that I want to spend my day off working. 

I got 2 Tombstone Pizza’s one I am having tonight and the other thinking of having on Wednesday.  I also picked up another holiday turkey dinner for 1 which was really good.  All of the Christmas dinner leftovers are gone.  So it will be back to the cardboard boxes for dinner.  It’s not the end of the world but a home cooked meal sure does taste very good. 

Shameless is on tonight and I will be looking forward to that.  Outside of that nothing else going on.  Still need to shave and prepare for the morning but not until I have my dinner. 

Momma has been by me for part of the day pacing back and forth.  She rises to greet me when I enter my room and is ready to start following me around.  She is being picky on what she will eat.  They have all learned if they turn their nose up at the first thing daddy will get them something else.  I am throwing away cans of food more than I want to.  I really wish they would snap out of this.  With me going back to work that will help some in that they won’t be begging for lunch.  I did get 2 boxes of gravy food for them because I know they will be going through it or so I hope.. 

Going to grab the laundry and head up stairs to put it away, as I wait for the Amazon driver to show up.  How exciting.  Just heard a shoplifting call on the scanner they said the person hit the loss prevention officer with a chicken.  Inquiring minds want to know is that a rubber chicken, a dead chicken, cut up chicken or a toy chicken?  You can sure hear something interesting things once and a while.  Sort of like a blooper on TV, you have to be there.

Take care and enjoy the last Monday & Tuesday of 2019.  I’m sure I will be back before the year is done to spew forth more of what is going on.  Talk with you again soon.

Electronic Hell

Today me and electronics are not having a good day.  I went out to breakfast and had to stop off at the bank.  When I came back out my remote didn’t want to work to unlock and/or start the car.  I had to use the door unlock code and then place the remote in a special location so the car would see it present and start.  That worked.  This isn’t the work of a hacker but rather I think either a faulty remote or a faulty battery. 

Then I came home and needed to print a document.  The computer took a super long time to see the printer.  I think this is a warning sign to stay away from anything electronic. 

I am switching car remotes and I have placed an order for a new battery via Amazon.  It will be here tomorrow.  Funny thing is once I got home the remote started working fine.  I’m still not taking any chances and think that changing remote controls is my best option.  Things like this have happened before and I checked the battery with a volt meter and it said it was fine.  I no longer think that despite that fact that it’s working again. 

I did make it to the post office last night.  My important letter was there and that is what required me to go to the bank.  I had to have a document notarized.  It’s for the $40 that the state has for my late spouse.  Despite the fact that I included everything they could possibly need they came up with one more thing, which I knew they would.  They wanted me to sign an affidavit saying that I had the right to claim the money.  Jesus State Law says that the spouse is entitled to the money and so does all of the supporting documentation I submitted.  However, it’s the government so don’t you know they don’t make anything easy.  I’m probably going to piss them off because they had a 3 page document that I retyped and condensed down to 1 page in very small print.  It says exactly the same thing their document does but removes big text boxes that I think look gaudy.  I guess I will know soon enough if I get another letter then I’ve made them mad and they will need me to jump more hurdles or if I get a check they aren’t going to sweat it.  Probably another month or two easy.  It’s not like it’s a large sum of money so I am not losing sleep over it but I won’t give up on it. 

Ah I am awake now but don’t really want to be so I will go lounge with the cats and probably take a nap.  I need to go back out for cat food.  They are all out of gravy type food and that will cause a problem if they don’t have it.  Momma is already putting me to the test.  I can’t afford for any of them to stop eating, if only out of spite.  The body does bad things to a cat if they skip more than one meal.  I am on the fence but will probably give Momma more fluids because she has slight shakes, which is a sign of a low thyroid level.  She is doing her best to keep on a brave face.  I don’t think she feels horrible just slightly off.  I kind of feel the same way.  My body is trying to get sick but something is fighting against it so I am on the borderline.  I think it’s coming and then nothing happens, been that way for a couple weeks now  That’s why I am so adamant about stocking up on sleep.  Besides that it’s hard to be depressed when your asleep. 

3 more days left in this year.  Then I get to hang up my new men calendars, which I always look forward to.  That will be short lived because it will be back to the daily grind.  But we do get a 3 days weekend in a few weeks because of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Day.  I am also going to take a day off because I have a dentist appointment.  I was going to ask to work from home but have since decided against that given the way my boss has reacted to the whole work at home thing. 

Well upstairs and to find something on TV to amuse myself until I get sleepy or decide that I should leave for the cat food store.  I’m having the last of the Christmas Day left overs tonight instead of going out.  I’ll get my breakfast out tomorrow, that is enough of a treat.

I hope that you enjoy Saturday.  It’s unseasonably warm here and we have rain in the forecast for today and tomorrow.  The weather sure has been strange for this time of year.  Not sure if that is an omen or not.  I am not a huge fan of cold weather but it does feel odd to not need a coat when going outside. 

Take care and we will talk again soon.  I appreciate you dropping by. 

Nap Time

Happy Friday.  It doesn’t feel like Friday.  I am sleepy and really want to take a nap.  I think I may indulge myself.  I mean my boss is so worried about perception and that I am not really working when I am home, why not actually be guilty of what your accused of?  Novel idea. 

My co-worker got me out of bed a bit early before I was ready to come downstairs to work.  I was up and watching TV but he called so I just started.  I don’t know why when we talk we both have a horrible yawning problem.  Me because I had a sugar cereal breakfast and him because he had yet to have his coffee. 

I do have to do some work today but it’s not much and I don’t plan on over doing it.  Light as I can get away with.  Boss man working from home today so he isn’t keeping tabs on anyone, he’s focused on going on vacation, which thank the lord he is going. 

Next week will be super busy so I am just taking it easy for now.  I will be back in the office on Monday or maybe since the boss man is out I will be at home, like he is going to know the difference.  He may have a spy so I might just go in to keep my word but I know I won’t want to. 

I’ve got to get to the post office today, there is an important letter waiting for me.  Plus bills and medicine.  I may need to visit the bank tomorrow which is why I am going to grab the mail a day early, kind of depends upon what is in the important letter, I may need to have something notarized.

Left overs were really good last night and I will have them again tonight.  Got to push the trash barrel out to the curb.  It’s really full so I am anxious for them to stop by tomorrow and empty it.  Then we start the cycle all over again. 

Momma had me a little worried last night, pacing around the house.  I’d give her food but she didn’t want that.  She was clingy and just couldn’t seem to get comfortable.  Eventually she settled down and got comfortable.  I was about to give her another dose of fluids but held off.  She wanted her belly rub this morning. Something that I haven’t done in quite a while.  She is such a sweet girl not sure how I got so lucky. 

No special plans for the weekend thinking about going back to the BBQ place I hit up last weekend and this time ordering a burger or a sandwich.  Outside of that it will be the usual nap, lounge, clean and laundry.  It will be nice when the 1st of the year hits because there isn’t anything worth watching right now.  I saw the old National Lampoon’s vacation movies last night.  They took me back in time and were entertaining but eventually I had to flip the channel.  I waited until Christmas Vacation was on and Clark had his break down.  I think that is the best part in the entire Christmas Vacation movie. 

Hope your enjoying the last few days of 2019, they are going fast!  Stay warm and be well. 

1 Holiday Down–1 Holiday to Go

I did go to dinner at my friends house.  They had Beef Tenderloin, Garlic Mashed Potatoes (way too much garlic), Sweet Potatoes, Corn Casserole and Peas.  It was an okay dinner.  No desert this year.  It was a good time and a great distraction & excuse to get out of the house.  I didn’t stay long considering that I have to work today.  They loaded me up with a goody bag and I have left overs that will easily make two if not three meals.  So that holiday is done. 

Momma got her mid week fill up yesterday evening with fluids and I also passed out plenty of food for her.  All in all things are going fairly well, despite my depression.

It was tough to get going this morning.  I was up at 5a my body said it was time to wake up and Gator was the first to alert everyone.  I tossed for a bit but eventually gave up and climbed out of bed.  Passed out breakfast for the furry 4 legged friends.  I grabbed some cereal and then had the desire to go back to bed.  I had plenty of time to kill, so Gator and I curled up in bed and she guided me off to sleep if only for an hour.  Then I got up and got moving. 

Working from home today.  Not much going on at the office, lots of people are smart and took the next two days off.  I would have done the same thing but for my dumb ass co-worker.  I would love nothing more than to kick back for two days and do nothing or whatever I wanted. 

Boss man sent out an email telling us to watch some educational videos and then thought we needed to have a conference call because were too stupid to read.  I mean it’s really simple watch the videos I think we all got it but he loves any excuse for a meeting.  Thank God he will be going on vacation soon.  I need time away from his ass because he is grating on my last nerve and it’s taking all I can to bite my lip and not blow up at him.  I did look for another job over the past couple days and there are openings out there.  It’s always nice to look.  However, I don’t think thigs have gotten nearly bad enough for me to jump ship quite yet.  Hopefully a break from him will calm me down and I will be able to recover from this. 

It’s kind of a crappy time of year anyway and I am not in the best of moods considering that I am alone.  However, it is my hope & desire that this will be the last year alone.  I probably said something like that last year. 

Well Gator is crying so I guess it’s time to pass out lunch.  I still have another boring conference call to sit through.  Then a meeting with the boss later this afternoon.  Otherwise, today is fairly quiet and hopefully will stay that way. 

I’m eager for the weekend just because it means I don’t have to work.  Next week will be a busy one for me with people leaving and being promoted, some how my boss has managed to overlook this.  I will be sure to remind him in our call this afternoon. 

Hope you had a great holiday.  I will talk with you all again soon.  Be well. 

Christmas Eve

Greetings on this the eve of Christmas.  Not much surprise but I didn’t sleep that well last night.  I had problems taking a nap today but I got one in.  I was up early as per usual to feed the furry family.  They were appreciative.  Gator came in after a bit of time passed and started meowing.  I said to her are you here to remind me to pass out medicine.  She meowed.  I think she would have meowed regardless of what I said.  So I got up and passed out medicine.  Momma & Marv were not happy about that. 

Then it was back to checking my phone and watching TV.  I tried to go back to bed and eventually fell asleep but it was several hours later.  I got a later start than I wanted but hey it’s not a big deal, it’s a holiday.  Started my day out at Cracker Barrel.  They have a special menu for breakfast & lunch, which I didn’t know.  Blueberry Pancakes weren’t on the menu but I managed to get them anyway.  Then I purchased a Cinnamon Bead fragrance tumbler.  They were marked 2 for $10 but I only needed 1 and got it for $3, I think something was wrong there but I didn’t argue. 

My next stop was at the Hallmark Store.  I used that $5 coupon.  Since Hallmark came out with their own brand of candles they stopped carrying Yankee.  They only had Cinnamon in the Hallmark Brand but it was a BOGO and at $28 I think that was a good deal plus I got my $5 off. 

Final stop was home.  I lit the candles as soon as I got home.  One upstairs and the other downstairs.  That’s also where I put the tumbler thingy.  I lit a Christmas Eve scented candle in my room.  It’s one of my favorite Yankee scents.  It does get to my nose but I still love it.  I let them burn for a couple hours. 

I’ve been parked in front of the TV all of the day, watching mostly Roseanne.  It’s on Amazon Prime and I started the series a few weeks back.  I’ll watch it all the way through.  It was really funny in it’s day.  I love The Connors it’s a great reboot of the show and I hope it goes on for a while.  John Goodman is a great actor.  I did take a break for an episode of Frontline about the Harvey Weinstein issue.  That was interesting.  It’s been bed, chair, couch – I’ve rotated through all 3 of them.  Marv likes it when I am on the couch because he gets to sit next to me.  Everyone has been whiny today, not sure why. 

I am in fact depressed as I do when the holidays roll around but I know it will pass.  I just have to get through tomorrow and then life goes back to a sense of normal for a while.  On the way to breakfast I got my invite to dinner tomorrow.  They are eating at 4p.  I honestly don’t want to go but I’m thinking it might be healthy for me.  I didn’t respond to the text on purpose.  I think it’s rude to wait until the day before to announce your plans.  Depending upon how I feel tomorrow I will decide if I want to go.  This way I can claim ignorance if I don’t go.  Then maybe they will pick up the fucking phone in the future.  I absolutely hate texting.  It does come in handy now and then but as a general means of communications pick up the phone.  The young hipsters just love it. 

I got a call a couple hours after being home last night for work.  Outside of that it’s been all quiet.  I suspect that will be the case until Thursday.  I do plan to work the remainder of the week from home.  Funny thing now my boss is going to work from home on Friday for part of the day and take the remainder off.  The less I have to deal with him the better.  Time away from him and his voice will do me good and I am looking forward to it. 

So there you have it my Christmas Eve.  It’s not the greatest but it’s also not the worst.  I just wish I had someone to spend it with besides the cats.  I had to come down stairs to get away from them because they were starting to bother me.  I will go back up and watch TV and eventually fall asleep, then a new day will begin. 

I hope that your having a great Christmas Eve and that tomorrow is a great holiday for you.  Stay warm and be well.  Merry Christmas!

Eve of Christmas Eve

It’s been an interesting day.  Had a little bit of a lull after lunch and then a million things came in at once.  I was busy and now it’s 30 minutes until it’s time to leave.  If I was counting correctly it would be an hour but I’ve done my time.  Got in early, had a short lunch and it’s time to reap the reward.  I can’t wait to be home!

Remember last week when the AC was on in my office.  Well my plan of upping the thermostats worked to solve that problem.  Today it is unseasonably warm outside and inside I am sweating to death.  It' was 79 by lunch time and now it’s at 77.  I’ve got a fan on and my door open.  I also turned down the thermostats a few degrees.  I’ve got 3 working days left in this building and then I am done and will be in my new home, which I hope I like.  I will miss having a window but it’s not the end of the world. 

The pizza I made was over cooked and burnt but hey at least it wasn’t cold.  I ate most of two pieces last night.  I plan to eat the left over two pieces tonight and have them cold.  Burnt pizza isn’t an aroma for any house but it’s far better than burnt popcorn.  So I have that going for me. 

Most people are done and have called it a day.  Lots of people were out today but you couldn’t tell that by the morning commute.  I also almost got hit by this clown taking an exit a little too aggressively.  I mean it’s work I’m not going to kill to get in but going home is another story. 

Still no word on my “invite” but I figure if nothing comes tomorrow then it’s not happening.  At least if it is happening and I don’t have 1 day’s notice then I won’t be going.  I think it’s rude.  Sure I have no family and nothing better going but I still deserve respect.  I have mixed emotions about going but I kind of hope it all comes together, beats staying at home even though my furry family would much prefer that. 

I’d like to grab a couple new candles tomorrow, it’s another addition like writing instruments I have.  I’ve got a coupon for $5 off and I’d like to use it.  Mostly it depends upon how I feel when I get up.  I’ll either be motivated or want to go back to bed – there is no in between. 

Here’s hoping it’s a great holiday for you and me as well as the rest of the world.  Take care and be well.  Talk again soon.

Full of Meat

Last night I treated myself and went to a new BBQ place that I have been wanting to eat at for a very long time.  They have a cult like following.  It’s grown so much they had to move to a new location.  Finding that new location proved to be quite a challenge, I drove right by the place two times.  Holy cow.  The important part is I found it and had a great meal.  I ordered a Pork Plate and I got porked pork.  I was so full when I left that place and it was so good that I know I will be back. 

When you walk in you have to stand in a line, place your order at the counter and they collect payment, give you a # and then you get to scramble for your own table.  Your food is brought to you when it’s ready.  Their soda glasses are “to go” plastic and a bit on the flimsy and small side for the price they charge. 

They had a staff member that kind of resembled Josh from Corbin Fisher (a gay porn site).  Josh is one of my long time favorites, who has since retired.  So I had some nice eye candy to observe while I was chowing down.  Something about the salt they use and the smoking of the meat that just makes it so delightful. 

I wobbled out of there and made it to get cat food and through Sam’s.  I always do the self check out because I like it.  Well I had this tray of pastry's that was super plastic wrapped and the bar code wouldn’t scan for the life of me.  I fought with it and then said screw it.  I went to Member Services and they were able to help me.  I did think about leaving w/o paying because I was frustrated.  There was this lady who works there who was on her own time returning a bunch of stuff and she wanted to yack to the person working.  Holy hell Mary some of us have a life, move it along.  I know that security was probably on me thinking I would dash out the door but it’s not worth the risk of going to jail for a $12 item.  Temping but not worth the risk. 

By the time I got home I felt like a large blimp.  I got things put away and then had a hell of a time getting undressed.  That’s when it hit me.  I’ll bet you this new diabetes drug causes weight gain.  Sure enough I looked and that is one of the many side effects.  I’ve going to chat with my doc about that.  I want to get bigger muscles but not fat.  I can’t afford to be so heavy I can’t wipe my own ass or take care of myself and constantly out of breath.  Somethings got to give.  I like the lower A1C benefit but we have to combat the weight gain portion.  My eating habits haven’t changed and I doubt they will.  Of course the large meal last night didn’t help things. 

Welcome to Sunday.  I had problems going to sleep last night but eventually was able to catch a couple hours.  Up at 5 to kick Gator out of my room.  Then Marvin figured out I closed the door and he wanted out but not until I was back in bed.  Ah Cats you got to love them.  Speaking of which there is a new series on Netflix called Don’t F with cats.  Unless you can tolerate animal abuse don’t watch it.  I made it to the part where they were describing what happens to 2 kittens and that’s when I said F this I am NOT watching it. 

I digress after a few more hours of sleep I got going.  I still felt a bit sluggish from yesterday.  I am also sore from the massage I gave myself yesterday.  Going to get another one tonight to hopefully work all of this junk out of my body.  Got my breakfast, grocery store shopping done and then got the car washed and gassed up.  Finally at long last back home to be with the fam.  I worked in a nap, as per usual.  Got the house cleaning done.  Decided to re-open the basement to the cats.  It’s been off limits for a couple months because of the mold remediation I was doing.  Perhaps some air circulating will help things.  Momma like to come down to sleep once and a while.  Gator comes down when the vacuum goes on.  She runs sees the doors closed and the runs back up the stairs hoping the monster machine won’t get her.  It’s kind of funny and she isn’t in any danger but you can’t tell her that. 

So here I sit playing on the PC and getting ready to grab the laundry and head up.  Time to shave and get supper ready.  I picked up a Uno’s Supreme Deep Dish Pizza.  It’s a Chicago thing and they are the best ( I like their Sausage pizza but that wasn’t an option).  Problem is with Deep Dish pizza in my oven I have to turn the heat up and let it cook longer and just when I think it’s done I pull it out and it’s cold.  So I fuss and say I will never buy one again but it’s one of my favorite things so of course I will buy another one.  I need a pizza stone, you’d think I would have procured one by now as much as I love pizza but nope.  I’ll be adding that to my shopping list on Amazon.  I use the shopping list more as a private wish list and add things when I can afford them or to bulk up an otherwise empty order. 

I got a holiday turkey dinner for 1 in the fridge, just in case my friends don’t get around to calling.  I like to celebrate Christmas on Christmas Eve it just seems more fun to me.  That is when there are presents to open and parties to attend.  However, since it will be just me and the cats it really doesn’t matter.  I’ll likely eat it for dinner on Christmas Eve regardless if I get my invite or not. 

This week is kind of crazy only having to physically go in on Monday.  Then off for 2 days and working from home for the other 2.  The weekend will be here before you know it. 

I should get moving.  I hope that your happy, safe, well and that you have a great holiday season.  Merry Christmas!

Delivered

I managed to wake up at 5 this morning after going to bed a little early for a Friday night.  I was just bushed.  At the end of the week it’s all I can do to walk in the house, I am physically & mentally exhausted.  I suppose that is why there is the weekend, so you can recover to go do it all again for 5 days.  Who ever thought of this system of working for a living designed quite the torture technique. 

I had myself a Diet Coke and managed and watched a little TV.  Managed to fall back to sleep.  Woke up at 8:30a and got a shower, fed the cats their 2nd breakfast.  Then went out for breakfast of my own.  It was like my lucky day or something.  I remembered before I left that I needed to refill a prescription, so I got that request in.  After eating I stopped by the post office to gather my weeks worth of mail, there wasn’t anything good.  Then I got an alert on my phone that my medicine was ready.  The pharmacy was on my way home.  I went inside and the hot guy I like waited on me.  I got home and my Amazon package with my massager was delivered.  Wow!

I got myself a massage, I was a little disappointed in that you can’t vary the speed but it should do the job, if I use it on a regular basis.  Then I went to watch some TV and take a nap. 

Nap over with I decided to start on laundry and take care of a task at work that needed to be done today.  Knocked that out pretty quick.  Then updated my finances and presto here I am.

The mold smell has returned to the basement.  I can do all of the air treatments I want to but I think until the wood is replaced it’s going to smell.  I have treated the inside but the other 1/2 is the outside and that smell eventually comes in, hence why I have the moldy smell.  It’s an aggravation/annoyance but that’s it.  So I will work on finding something to cover it up.  Perhaps a nice candle or some scented air freshener beads.  There has to be something that will resolve this even if only temporary.  The air treatments last a couple days and then the odor starts to faintly come back and after a couple more days it’s like square one.  Ugh is all I can say.  Mold has consumed a lot of my time, cost me a lot of money and worry and I am at the point where I short of rip out and replace there isn’t much more that I can do on my own. 

Momma is still a food eating machine.  She is up my ass all the time for food.  Were out of the gravy everyone seems to like.  It’s packets of food with gravy and they lap up the gravy and leave the pieces of food.  They all beg but Momma has extra strong power and she knows I can tell her no.  I have some food that goes to waste because they decide to get picky on me.  At least she is back to as normal as I believe she will be.  The end goal is to keep her hydrated, which means all of the food she wants, plenty of water and of course intermittent fluids.  I was going to get blood work done but based on how well she has recovered I am in a holding pattern for now.  The others seem to be doing reasonably well.  I just hope it continues to stay that way.  

The days of the year of 2019 are limited.  This hasn’t been one of my better years but thus far at least there is no death.  I do hope that 2020 is a full on delightful year with lots of positive experiences in store.  I suppose only time will tell.

Speaking of time I need to get going to get some cat food and grab dinner.  Then it will be back here to relax.  Monday starts a week of on-call for me.  I only plan to go in on Monday.  Were off on Tuesday & Wednesday.  I will work from home on Thursday & Friday.  Still waiting on Christmas dinner details but I will be buying enough food at the store so that if I don’t get info I won’t be starving.  I may not have a gourmet meal but I won’t be hungry.  Boy Scout motto … always be prepared!

Frustrated

Yesterday I read that Brendan Dassey (who is the juvenile from Making A Murder) was denied clemency.  If there has ever been a case of a wrongful conviction this is it.  The system is supposed to be fair but somehow there was a huge miscarriage of justice done here in my opinion.  My heart sank when I learned the news.  This poor kid who is now 30 is stuck to life in prison without the possibility of parole until 2048 for a crime he didn’t commit and a confession that was coaxed out of him.  As I understand it his legal avenues have been exhausted and the Governor and a request for commutation of his sentence or Clemency is his only option.  I’m sure you can ask multiple times but much like a conviction at trial I would think that once you get a no your chances of ever hearing a yes are limited. 

I learned today that there were several interrogations that took place but the one that stands out is the last one in which he was coxed to confess.  Apparently they asked him 1500 questions over the course of 3 hours.  Keep in mind he was a juvenile, alone with no parent or attorney and he is intellectually disabled (meaning he doesn’t have full comprehension and understanding).  I think this was a form of torture designed to break him down and they had no plans on letting him out until he said what they wanted him to say, so eventually he broke and just said what they wanted to hear.  I think even an innocent and fully competent adult would eventually breakdown and confess to something they didn’t do given similar circumstances. 

This case echo’s what I learned a few years back.  Never ever under any circumstances talk to the police.  Especially if they read you your Miranda Rights.  You need to have an attorney present.  The more you talk and think you can “explain things” the bigger of a grave your digging for yourself.  When they tell you anything you say can and will be used against you, they aren’t kidding around.  They will flip your words around quick.  Bottom line, keep your mouth shut until you talk with an attorney.  There are NO exceptions.

I pray that there is some relief instore for this kid who is now an adult.  This just breaks my heart.  I feel compelled to write a letter.  I actually had something pretty good worked up but threw it out when I thought you might do more harm than good, which is the last thing I would want.  I feel so helpless and I realize this isn’t my problem but it’s my nature to want to help people.  So instead of doing nothing I figured making a post about it to get it out of my system would be helpful, so here you go. 

Air Conditioning in the Winter

Yesterday I was working along making good progress and about 3:30p the AC kicked on in my office.  I checked with the person sitting in the next office over and they too reported chilly conditions.  Finally by 5p I had enough and decided to go home.  I came back this morning thinking that the issue would be resolved.  Nope.  AC still running full blast.  I looked at the thermostats in the office and they were all set low, I kicked them up and pressed the override button.  I fired up the space heater and the radiator heater in my office.  Finally after a couple hours were at 75 which is better than the 60 degrees when I walked in the door.  Now I am so sleepy and ready for a nap.  If only I didn’t have a window I would actually try to fall asleep.

I’ve worked on all of the stuff I normally do on Friday’s plus played catch up from a couple things yesterday.  Here we are at 10:30a and I am bored.  It’s going to be a long day. 

I need to talk with our new guy but I feel like I have been bothering him so I am waiting to see how long it takes him to reach out to me.  We have some work to do, but my guess is that he won’t call me, which is fine it can all wait until Monday.

There is a meeting and call this afternoon that we both need to be on it shouldn’t take more than an hour if that.  Not looking forward to it but it is what it is. 

Yesterday I asked boss man about working 5 days split up around the holidays at home.  He shot the idea down telling me I could have 3 days but that I needed to pick 2 and come in to the office.  What a Motherfucker.  He tells me I can work from home but when I take him up on it he gets all worried about “perception” and back peddles.  Spineless coward.  I mean over all he is an okay boss but it’s times likes these that he really pisses me off.  I also got my Christmas gift from him.  He thought it was wonderful but I think it’s lousy.  It’s a door dash gift card and not for a lot of money, like less than I have received in past years.  I would have much rather had a movie gift card but hey at least he thought of me.  I’ll think of him when shove it in the shredder.  Seriously, I probably won’t use it and will wind up giving it away or putting it in a drawer and letting it collect dust. 

It will be time to move back home, looks like they plan on doing it on the 1st Sunday of January.  I am not excited about that but I also don’t plan to come in.  If you want to move all of my stuff over well knock your self out.  I will miss the security guards, they are so nice, pleasant and friendly.  It something I look forward to coming in and going home.  The security in our building isn’t polite they are just there and they act like big brother.  I get they have a large facility and lots of people they are responsible for but geez at least being friendly goes a long way.  I won’t miss the poor climate control or the long walk to and from.  Secretly I don’t want to go back but I have no control over it. 

Ah so that is work. 

On the home front.  Amazon has disappointed me I was supposed to get my vitamins several days ago and they just showed up today.  I am expecting a neck/shoulder massager today and it shows that it will be delivered by 8p but it’s not even shipped yet.  I don’t think it will arrive today.  I really need it.  This knot in my back is driving me nuts and I would like nothing more than to get rid of it.  Maybe I will luck out and they will get it to me on Saturday or so I hope. 

I gave Ms. Momma some fluids on Wednesday.  She didn’t get much just a tiny dose.  She is still eating like a horse but she is holding her own and slowly returning to her old self.  She did some jumping and has sought me out for more than a meal. 

There wasn’t anything on last night so I found myself watching a full episode of Dr. Pimple Popper and I don’t know how I made it through the entire hour.  Marv had fallen asleep on my hand so I was immobile.  He looked so cute.  I took his picture and that woke him up for a second.  I got a dirty look and then he fell back asleep.  He is really something. 

Gator has a stomach bug.  She is still eating and drinking but I watching her as well.  She climbed up in bed with me earlier in the week and we slept together for a bit.  She also woke me up early this morning because she was hungry.  Funny how that works. 

I am looking forward to relaxing and doing nothing tonight.  Not much planned for tomorrow but I would like to make it to Sam’s to stock up on a couple things.  Plus grab some cat food.  Not sure if I will treat myself to breakfast, kind of depends upon how I feel. 

No word from my friends on Christmas Dinner yet.  My guess is they will wait until the last minute and spring it on me.  I’m holding out on purpose and being stubborn.  I recall they reached out to me a week before Turkey Day to get the details.  To me it’s just another day and it matters not if I go anywhere.  I know I can have a good time there but I can have an okay time with the cats. 

Ah almost 11.  I haven’t moved from my chair since I walked in the door so I guess I should get up and get some blood flowing.  Thinking about maybe crossing the street to check out my new digs.  Not sure if I will be that motivated but hey it will help pass some time.  I may also put that off until later this afternoon. 

Happy Weekend, I hope your warm, safe and having a good time.  Talk with you all again soon.  Be well.