Working it out

So it looks like I will be gone for 1 week, which is kind of a relief.  The boss doesn’t want me out of the office that long.  Probably because he is waiting for me to work on his personal computer.  Anyway, this trip is going to be a bit of a cluster and a semi-waste of time.

I was asked to “manage my time” .  Funny thing is I remember that in school and I always did exceptionally well with time management.  I may not remember everything but I know how to manage my time.  :)  So I can start out at the first place that I know will take a week.  If I don’t see progress after two days, then go to the other place that is 5 hours away and knock out the 2 days worth of work there.  Then drive 5 hours back so I can catch a flight on Friday.  Yeah, like I said a cluster!  I don’t like it but I will do it his way because he is paying the bill.  I was told that I can always go back.

The thing I don’t get is that the 1st place I want to go, is the place that he wants this up and running like yesterday.  Now all of a sudden it can wait.  WTF!  Make up my mind.  I really hate it when your given a direction and then mid way it changes.

My travel arrangements are pending but I am hopeful that I will have something tomorrow.  Being gone a week, I know that everything at home should (crosses fingers) be okay.  The place will be a pig sty when I get back, but I can deal with that.  Just as long as everyone is alive, well and happy to see me. 

I got my new keyboard all hooked up.  I like having no wires but I really wish I could have duplicated my setup at home.  That would require the purchase of two desktop sets (keyboard & mouse).  I like the mouse I have but the keyboard well, it’s okay but there is one better.  I’m still happy because I got what I wanted. 

I am looking forward to airplane rides, free food and hopefully it will be good, not to mention sleeping in a hotel.  I have already checked and if it works out like I think, I should be able to stay exactly where I want.  The only thing that would make the trip better is if I got the Impala back for a rental car.  We shall see.  For sure I will need the GPS, I just hope we don’t fight!

I’ve pretty well given up on work today.  It’s the last 1/2 hour and everyone that matters is gone so no one knows that I am screwing off and I like that!

Think about all of the extra time I put in the last time I travelled, working until the wee hours of the morning.  Then I ask for time off to see the doctor and I have to use my vacation but I am a salaried employee.  Funny I am treated like an hourly employee.  There is no remuneration or compensation for going the extra mile, it’s appreciated but that is it.  It won’t get you anywhere here.

Funny story, I ordered two desktops from Dell.  They weren’t supposed to show up until tomorrow.  However, when I got back from lunch I had 2 monitors and 1 desktop.  I called and turns out FedEx delivered the other desktop to my old employer.  Yeah, were like 3 blocks apart.  I sure hope everyone in IT got a good look at the package, so now they know where I work.  I guess it’s time to notify security!  FedEx is going to fix it but it will take 24 hours to get the misdelivered package and then redeliver it to me.  I guess the driver was used to seeing my name associated with my former employer, because I did all of the ordering there.  Look like he will actually have to read the address now. :)

Wow, 15 minutes until freedom.  I should tidy up my office and prepare to go el homo.  Tonight’s meal is Italian Sausage, home made Potato Chips and the last slice of Lemon Pie.  My mouth is watering already, just thinking about the pie.  Food is one of the many things I look forward to and can’t seem to get enough of.  Speaking of which, I am supposed to go to lunch with an old friend from my last job.  I thought about phoning him and asking him to bring along my computer.  I hope that works out, it will be good to see him again and catch up.  Hopefully, none of the ears from here will follow me.  I would like to be able to speak freely w/o any worries.

So that’s my story for now.  I am going to run so I can prepare to start my evening.  Stay cool, be well and I will talk with you peeps later!

A little storm

A little storm blew in today.  I got tied up by a stupid printer and spent most of my day on the phone with tech support at HP.  I like HP but I still say those letters stand for HUGE PROBLEM!  Damn modern technology!

So my work is backing up, no more goofing off.  I tried to get my travel arrangements today and was told try again tomorrow.  Okay, so I am not the only one busy.  We had a couple people walk out from one place.  Every other place is hiring and needing accounts created or PC’s ordered.  It’s just k r a z y.  Plus I’m going to travel, yeah hate to see my in box after that trip.  It should suck.

I’ve been unwinding tonight with some music.  Check out this video, I like the song but the video is entertaining, especially if you’re a gay man.  Just watch it from start to finish and you’ll get it!

Take care and be well.  I will talk with you peeps later.

2nd day of relaxation?

Well the boss is in today.  Thankful that I am out of the line of sight.  He passed by though and looked perplexed as to why I was sitting in an office.  Just please don’t ask me to move.  I just got comfy!

So yesterday one of the girls said that when she prints her printer smells like it’s burning.  I said let me look at it when you have time.  It was close to 5 when she had time, so I looked at it.  She needed a new drum.  I found it for $81 but she went around me and got permission to order a new printer.  Really!  Yes, they are going to throw away a perfectly good printer because it needs an $81 part.  No wonder this place is headed for Bankruptcy!  They spend money hand over fist on all of the wrong crap.  As long as my paycheck continues, I honestly don’t care.  I am just appalled at the amount of waste here.  I thought my last employer was bad but they would never do something like that.  To get a new printer your printer had to be dead or next to death and beyond repair.

The only good thing that came out of it is that my new keyboard was finally ordered, so I am expecting it before the end of this week.  I sure hope it arrives soon because I really don’t like the one I am typing on now.

I’ve got another one for you.  But this one kind of makes a little better sense.  One of the computers out in the country was in the shop.  It has tons and tons of viruses.  The only way around it is to reload Windows.  They told them that they would have to rebuild it, like you rebuild an engine.  It would cost well over $200.  So they are throwing it away and I ordered a new machine.  I can understand this one a little better because most of the equipment around here is very old.  Were talking back to the days of Windows 98 and Windows ME.  Thankfully the oldest OS on computers that I can find is Windows XP.  However, we do have a server running Windows NT, big surprise it’s not being backed up.  That is on my list of things to fix, when I am traveling.

Last night we went out for Mexican food and I ate way more than I should have.  I still had room for one more Burrito but decided to call it quits.  That was one good meal and I am ready to do it all over again now.  The food tastes so good, like nothing else and it’s super cheap.

Tonight we were going to have Tacos but the chef changed the menu to Cat Fish Nuggets.  They should be good, but I have no idea what we are going to have with them.

Last night Big Boy woke me up with his breathing.  He was coughing and gasping for breath.  To look at him this morning you couldn’t tell anything was wrong.  I listened to his lungs and they sound okay.  I have him his medicine and a belly rub.  He was happy as ever.  He really worries me.  I don’t like to think about the end, but I know that he is approaching it faster than I want him to.  Now I have no idea how much time we have with him it might be 6 months another year or it could be hours.  It’s just anyone’s guess.  I just don’t understand why this has to happen to such a sweet boy who didn’t do anything to deserve this.  Makes no sense at all.  I try not to think about it but it is really tough to shake.  I love him so much!

Well I’ve had a couple interruptions but they were minor, easy things to take care of.  I like that.  I’d like to have another relaxing evening and maybe even more time to watch TV.  Part of that depends upon how my day goes here and what chores I have to do at home.  Dishes will be on the list because we are having something fried and the chef always dirties more dishes.

At least today I am not hung over.  I got to bed on time and got plenty of rest, despite having to get up in the middle of the night and being woken up by Big Boy.  I almost forgot to blow out my new candle before bed, but thankfully my brain was still functioning enough to know to take care of that.

Well on to another task that will make me look busy, when I am really loafing! I’m enjoying it now because my time is coming and it’s going to be hell.  Sort of like the calm before the storm.

I hope your doing well, staying cool and out of trouble!  Take care and enjoy those around you, life is so precious.  I will talk with you peeps later!

Bored, Tired & Ready 2 go home

Through modern technology I am able to blog from work.  Yep, I am sitting at my desk on the clock with not a thing to do.  The boss is away, at least today – hopefully for the rest of the week.  Only time will tell.

So I walked in this morning and the door was locked.  That has never happened to me.  First time I had to use my key to unlock the door.  I was surprised to see people in the office when I arrived.  Normally when folks arrive they unlock the door so when I schlep in I can just turn the handle and walk right in.  We have so many new people that they probably don’t realize the door should be unlocked.  No worries I got in, so that is all that really matters.

I really am soaking up today being a down day.  I hate not having anything to do but that will all change soon enough and I will be busier than I want to be.  Lots of equipment on order, waiting for it to arrive.

I placed a couple orders this morning to put the finishing touches on what I will need to take care of WIFI next week.  Yeah, the arrangements are still pending but I am hoping to leave on Sunday or Monday.  As soon as I know something for sure, I will blog about it.

One of the new people told me they came in over the weekend and sat in my office.  They just love the view so much.  I wanted to say jealous much?  I didn’t though.  Normally things like that would set me on fire, I hate it when people are in my space when I am not around, especially if they move stuff in my space.  However, it didn’t bother me at all.  Most people here close their office doors as night and those that lock, are locked.  Not me, my door is wide open.  Everything that needs to be locked up, is. That way there is no worries of anything growing legs.

I talked with my brother last night, he is sick.  I don’t get it why so many folks this summer have been sick.  Summer is usually a ticket to freedom for me when it comes to being sick.  Fall, Winter and Spring are my bad seasons.  Summer, nope not a problem.  That is not to say my allergies have not gone nuts because they have, but I am managing.

Anyway, I told him that I would be gone for some where between 1 and 3 weeks.  Man he was really surprised.  I told him that is why I need his help with Big Boy & medicine.  I’m pretty sure if I am gone for 3 weeks and the big guy doesn’t get his medicine that it won’t be a pretty site.  Skipping 1 or even 2 days is the most that I would want to go, it’s the most that we have gone.  Well that is until the first time I traveled.  My partner did his best but there were more than 2 missed days.

So much to think about and plan for when you figure in travel.  A lot of the stuff I do like dishes, trash, cleaning are things that my partner can’t do because he has issues with mobility and balance.

Speaking of him, I checked in at lunch time and he is super sleepy today.  Doesn’t feel like doing much.  Sounds like we are going to go out for Mexican food.  I am always in the mood for that.  Maybe I can have some what of a relaxing evening or so I hope.  I still have to get the trash out, pack my lunch and finish laundry. 

I was hung over this morning, like crazy.  I took my sleeping pills late and was up later than I wanted to be.  I still managed to some how wake up from a nightmare 1 minute before the alarm clock went off.  Go figure!  It wasn’t until after lunch that I really woke up.

Funny all of these people passing by my office, seeing me type away.  They think I am working.  Got them fooled.  I just wish that I would get my new keyboard, I am so ready for change.

Speaking of which my job is still posted on-line.  I’ve done my fair share of looking but there really isn’t much out there.  All the more reason why I hope I can keep what I have and make it work, until something better comes along.  I want to avoid unemployment at all costs.  I simply can’t afford not to have a job.

Having a credit card again has helped me out.  My partner and my brother as well as myself all feel that I will over extend myself.  So far I have used it the way a credit card should be used.  Charge it up and when the bill comes pay it off in full.  Problem is that not having cash now and having available credit is all too tempting.  I do a pretty good job of managing but it would help a lot more if I got closer to my old salary.  Then I would worry a lot less.

That is all I can think of at the moment.  We are back in the oven this week, it’s SUPER HOT.  How hot?  Well I walked out of the house this morning in a white shirt.  With all of the heat it turned International Orange.  Ah, well it’s a good joke.  It’s really my new orange shirt.  My partner still laughs at me for buying and wearing it.  I guess because it’s so LOUD and I am not normally like that.  Take care, be well and I will talk with you peeps later!

Time to start another week

I am fairly well settled in my office.  I need some decorations and then I will be all set.  A nice neutral fragrance like coconut or vanilla would be nice as well.  One lady when you walk in her office it smells like oatmeal… more specifically Maple & Brown Sugar.  I love that flavor but can’t eat it because I am allergic to Maple and my nose would run all day!

This week I will be asking for my travel arrangements to be made.  I’m thinking that they will have me gone for 2 to 3 weeks.  I am looking forward to flying again, believe it or not.  However, the thought of being gone for so long kind of scares me.  I’m worried about my guy and my cat.  Outside of that all is well.

I finally remembered to look on-line and check to see if the place that I want to stay at has a laundry and it’s not listed.  I’m sure I will be able to find something, I mean every town or major city has a Laundromat.  However, I think I will have a problem getting them to accept American Express. 

This will be my first wireless network deployment, ever.  Lots of firsts with this job and I have a feeling that this won’t be the last first.  So I am a little nervous.  I mean if this project fails my job will as well.  Nothing like a little pressure.  I really wish that I could have done this differently, aka the right way with proper help.  However, I am sure that I will learn a lot from this.  I just hope I survive it all.

I don’t believe that I will be leaving until Sunday or Monday the 30th at the earliest, so I hope.  I’d really like to be here for this week and be given time to get things in order, pack and say my good byes to the children. 

I made the mistake last night of looking through the Yankee Candle Catalog that came in the mail some 3 weeks ago.  I had to have Scent No. 5 and Apple Pumpkin.  So I went to the mall to get them today.  No 5 is wonderful.  Apple Pumpkin well it smelled better in the catalog but it’s a nice change of pace.  I have such an addictive personality.  Thankfully I’m only addicted to good things like food, sex, electronics, candles, pens.  No drugs or alcohol for me. 

I did take some time for myself this weekend to do the things that I have been putting off and it felt good to cross them off the list.  I started a wish list for things that I’d like to purchase.  It only has 2 things on it right now and they can both wait for a while. 

I went crazy and bought a bunch of short sleeve shirts.  The best one is by Fila … it’s Orange and White.  No one and I mean no one will miss me in this shirt.  I look like a construction worker.  Hey that sounds like a costume idea for Halloween.  Maybe I can be a village person.  :)

My time has run out and my brain is scrambled like eggs at the moment.  So before I babble too much I will call it quits for now.  Take care and be well.  I will talk with you peeps later!

In Memoriam

I was browsing the net on my phone this morning, heard about the massacre in Colorado.  I checked the local news and sure enough it was true.  Very sad, a bunch of innocent people who didn’t do anything to anyone, they just wanted to have a good time and see the premier of Batman.  Little did they know that a crazy person with a gun would change their lives forever.

May God have mercy on everyone who is impacted by this.  Especially the victims and their families.

I am at a loss for words as to why this sort of thing happens.  Why people decide to hurt innocent people, who did nothing.  We have got to stop all forms of violence, it creates way more problems than it will ever solve.  Be it a fist fight, road rage, or a massacre. 

It is my understanding that the premier of the movie in France was cancelled due to this.  Now people will be a little apprehensive when they go to the movies.  Some people will stop going all together. 

The bottom line is very sad but true.  You have to ALWAYS be on guard, watch for suspicious activity and go with your gut.  Even if your wrong, far better to be wrong than injured or dead.

In past posts I have talked about understanding the desire behind suicide.  I’ve felt like that before.  I have never had the desire to hurt a group of innocent people, especially children.  I don’t recommend suicide as an option to anyone but if you want to hurt yourself and your hell bent on it, then go ahead.  For God Sakes don’t hurt innocent people.

The world is a crazy place these days.  It seems like your never safe and always in harms way, even when your sleeping.  I wish the world would take a chill pill, get a massage and sleep it off.

My condolences to the victims and families affected by this horribly unfortunate and totally avoidable tragedy.  May God be with you all.

Thursday already

So I got the word today that the coast was all clear to move in to my new office.  Damn, that was a project in it’s self.  I suddenly realized that I have more stuff than I thought.  Still only 2 personal items.  Everything else belongs to the company.

The person who had my office before me was a bit of a slob.  I found hair and dust everywhere.  It’s not as clean as I would like but I made the best of it.  In the words of Sheldon Cooper “PURELL…PURELL…PURELL”. 

I am pretty well settled.  I need a couple things and got permission to order them though the proper channels.  Some stuff I was able to get on my own but other things have to go through a particular vendor and I have to depend on another person.

The best part is my new office came with a vibrator.  Yeah but it’s not exactly what you think.  It’s a pillow and you put it towards the small of your back and then flip the on switch.  Good vibrations await.  I stuck it in a drawer.  I don’t need a pillow or a vibrator at work, but then again there just might be a day when I wish I had either or both!

My days are hectic at best.  The clock struck 5 and I wasn’t even aware of it.  Days just go by in minutes.  Especially time away from the boss, that goes the fastest. 

I am fairly certain all of the products for my installation have arrived, I’m giving it a couple more days before I pull the trigger.  Looks like the week of the 30th I will be on the road again.  I will be explaining my situation and how I’d like to come home, even if it’s only for the weekend but I think I will be gone for 2 weeks.  Ideally I would like to do the big install, come home for a week or two and then leave again.  Looking at it from a cost point of view it makes sense to keep me there for 2 weeks.  Time will tell what happens.  I think that 2 weeks probably will be pushing it, to be safe 3 weeks would be best and I could always come home early if I got done. 

My biggest concerns about leaving are Big Boy and Jumper getting their medicine.  Big Boy needs it to live.  Jumper needs it so he won’t puke.  They are brothers and it shows.  I was telling Jumper the other night that Big Boy is going down hill and I wasn’t sure how much longer he would be around.  It was just us two in my room.  He snuggled with me for a little bit and then he demanded to be let out.  I found him the next morning by his brothers side, just spending time and hanging out.  I told him enjoy the time you have together and take care of him as best as you can.  Okay I’m getting a lump in my throat.

So I’ve asked my brother if he wouldn’t mind stopping by to help give the kids their medicine.  Damn, you would have though I was asking him for a million dollars.  He doesn’t mind stopping by once and a while but not every night that is too much of an imposition on him.  Never mind the fact that he works on the other side of town where I live.  It’s not asking a whole lot and wouldn’t take more than 5 minutes once he got here.  They are both easy to pill, as long as you tilt their heads up, otherwise they will spit the stuff out.

Crap, it’s getting late.  I have more to say but will finish later.  I’ve got to relax and get ready for FRIDAY.  Lots to do tomorrow.  My doctors office called my partner and asked me to phone them.  I suspect my results are back from the stool cultures.  Hopefully, all is well but I am on edge.  Plus I don’t know how they got my partners phone number mixed up with mine.  I will get that fixed tomorrow.

Take care, stay cool and be well.  I will talk with you peeps later!  A special hi to Will if your reading this. 

Moving

Wow time has gotten away from me tonight.  Nothing new, just another busy day in life.

On the work front I was told today that I am moving.  Yep into an office.  1st time ever that I have had an office.  It’s cluttered right now so they need to clean it but within a couple days I am hopeful to move in.  That will get me out of the line of sight and I will feel more comfortable, plus I can talk on the phone and not worry about the background noise or ears trying to listen in.

A co-worker that I have been talking with off and on wasn’t around tonight when I left.  I thought it was rather odd because she always stays very late.  I decided to give her a call and found out that she is no longer with us.  Holy crap.  While I was talking to her, I went in and looked at the server, her access has already been turned off and no one bothered to go through me.  See it’s little things like that, which irk me beyond belief.  It’s like I only get to do part of my job.  That honestly is the part of my job that I don’t like but it comes with the territory.

So I am talking with her and got an e-mail, another person is no longer with us.  Damn, they are just dropping like flies.  This place is very I say VERY unstable.  I guess that is how they get away with talking about growth in their ads.  The company is growing but only because they can’t keep help so they have to always hire.  Strange!

On a personal note my AC in my car went out last night.  Thankfully my new car warranty picked up the cost.  It was a bad O ring.  So a new O ring and some Freon and I am back in business.  It’s still not super cold like my partners truck but it’s at least blowing some cold air.  Compact cars don’t seem to have real good ac.  All the more reason to move to a mid size, but everything in time.

Well kids, I want to relax so I have to run.  Everything else is pretty much status quo.  I can’t believe tomorrow is Wednesday.  It’s the day we get to talk about my performance.  That should be fun, that is if the conversation ever happens.  We will talk tends to translate to we might or might not talk.

Have a good evening, stay cool and be well.  I will talk with you peeps later!

Good Job–Really

It’s been one hell of a week!  I am glad we are at the weekend and I really wish it was still Friday night, so I would have another day to play besides Sunday that is around the corner. 

So on the job front….. Wednesday I was called to the bosses office.  He asked me to talk about all of the items that I had “pending” mean the ones where he said we will talk but never bothered to follow up.  Yeah, those pending items.  So I went down the list.  I never mentioned WIFI and I also never mentioned the Office.  I got what I needed and planned on getting out.  However, he had other plans.  We talked about WIFI and he wanted an alternative solution by the end of the week.  Thankfully I was already working on something so this wasn’t a surprise to me.  Then I caught him off guard and asked him what he thought of my performance.  He said well it’s been a rough couple of months.  I thought you son of a bitch, you’re the whole reason it’s been rough.  Anyway, his sticking point with me was the whole WIFI issue.  So I asked him to set that aside and then tell me how he thought I was doing.  He said he was very happy.  But reminded me that I’m still on probation.  Then he told me he wanted me to recount the entire conversation we just had in an e-mail to him so we both would have a record of it.  Do you think he had an ulterior motive?  I sure do!  But I did it and I’ve got a copy of it here at home.  I set him up in the e-mail and I don’t think he realizes it.  So fire me, go ahead, I imagine he will say something like I wasn’t happy with his performance.  Really, then I whip out the e-mail that he responded to that confirmed the details of our conversation.  Bingo got him dead center. 

Thursday was a complete disaster, everything that could go wrong did and it was only the 12th!  I hated to see what Friday the 13th would be like.

Turns out it was the best Friday the 13th I have had in a very long time.  I submitted my idea for WIFI and got him significant cost savings but it means I have to do all of the labor and installation work myself.  It means something that should take me a couple days with contractors involved will take much longer.  One site alone will be an entire week.  Plus I just found out they don’t have AC.  Awesome!  Anyway, he wrote back and told me to order the stuff I needed, he was pleased and even said good job.  Holy crap, I printed that out because it’s going in a frame (not really).  I figure that is the only time where I will see those words from him.  I sent some additional e-mails to him later in the day and he responded right away.  His ass-is-tant is also pleased now and suddenly seems to be treating me a little better. 

I feel like the WIFI thing saved my job.  I felt so good.  However, I am not delusional enough to think that we won’t continue to have problems and that I can stay in this job long term.  No way, no how, no chance.  I am still looking for a job some place where I can be happy, get better benefits and be treated a whole hell of a lot better.  For now I will ride this job and take every damn dime they want to send my way.

This whole situation is such a shame and so avoidable if the fucker I have for a boss would just leave me alone and not screw with me.  I don’t know why he is a son of a bitch but he is.

In talking with a friend I found out that the business isn’t as rosy as they make it to be.  They are extended in credit far beyond their ability to repay.  They are constantly being sued.  A group of former employees banded together and formed a class action suit against them.  They have cause and their case is pretty much in the bag, they will take them for a very large sum of money.  If things like this keep happening it’s only a matter of time before they go out of business or file for bankruptcy protection.  Plus each state where there is a facility is after them for violations and they often come in for surprise inspections, which they never seem to pass.  The place is more crooked than Washington DC.  Maybe that explains why my boss treats most people like they are shit.  I don't know but I do know none of us have ever done anything to deserve the treatment we are getting.  You know it’s time to leave when you Google the place you work for and nothing but bad PR and lawsuits come up.

So I will be much happier when I get to leave.  If he leaves first then I might consider staying but I have a feeling that a job offer will present its self long before he leaves the organization.  Blogging all of my thoughts is kind of dangerous but fuck I have to let it out.  I just cant stand that miserable.  Okay I will stop.

Moving on today was a goose chase over a refill for my fake Mont Blanc pen.  Turns out I found something in my own backyard that will work.  I had to add a spring from another pen to it before it would work, but damn I got refills – 4 of them for $1.12.  Now after all of the shit I have been though to find these fuckers I am so happy.  Now it’s my favorite pen to use.  That won’t last long but at least I am happy for the moment.

My left hand has been hurting.  Before you think I’ve been whacking my meat that isn’t it at all.  Besides that I am right handed! :) I twisted in some odd position when I was working in the office and it’s been bothering me since last week.  So I gave in and called for a massage.  I figured it would be a good way to cap off the week from hell.  I got 1 hour for $61 and she did it my way!  Total back, shoulders and neck for 1 hour.  It felt good but I am so damn sore and I know the morning will really suck.  I am going to take 1/2 of a muscle relaxer before bed and maybe even a hot shower.  Sounds good huh?

I think it was Thursday when I got home my partner told me not to yell at him.  He said that a cute guy would be coming back around 8pm to talk to me about pest control.  It’s with a new company.  The guy had some Latino in him but he was so damn fine and sweet, he just made you want to sign your life away if only you could have him.  Well, while he treated me well and I was enamored by his looks just before it was time to sign the contract and he was done with his sales pitch he said do you have any questions.  I said yeah, my job is presently posted on the internet, I could loose my job tomorrow and you want me to make a 1 year commitment to your company when I have no idea if I will have a job tomorrow.  Tell me how long is your sweet offer good for?  That’s when he said you can call me anytime and I will honor the price I am telling you.  Then he just gave me the contract, unsigned.  He said if you want to do it call me.  That was sweet but I would rather do him.  He left and my partner said what did I tell you, he was hot, right.  I said yeah he was but I can’t commit to something that I don’t know if I will be able to fulfill.  It is not like I would be able to file bankruptcy again, so it’s better not to sign.  Besides that we can go to Home Depot and get what we need and take care of the bugs ourselves.

The next day just before I got into the shower I notice a very large ant.  I killed it.  Then later that night our shy girl was bitten by something.  We have gone through this for the last couple years.  She has a welt on her ear.  Her neck and part of her back is all bit up.  She let me scratch her for a minute but that is it.  She isn’t really too bothered by it, like she has been in the past.  However, I know she needs a shot of prednisone and that will clear it up.  That costs money though and since she appears to be doing okay, I am saving my money.  That way it’s there for when I need it be it for her or something else.  It’s like it was a bad thing to say no to this guy but I just couldn’t enter into a contract, I hate them to start with.

Now if was an employment contract then I would probably be loving it. There would be some form of protection.

Well make it a good week and I will try to do the same.  Stay cool and be well.  Talk with you peeps later!

Thought today was it

So I really thought today was going to be my last day.  I was asked to turn over my results of the inventory that I did for three facilities last month.  I sent follow up e-mails to the boss on all of the outstanding issues but no response.  I suspect that he will continue to ignore me but I have to keep sending the e-mail or he will have an out that I dropped the ball and we wouldn’t want to give him a reason.

I know my days are numbered so I just try to make the best of things and help as many folks as I can.  Staying busy helps take my mind off things.  I brought home part of my stuff tonight.  There are just two items left and I need those until whenever my last day is. 

I tried really hard to get to the wireless issue, which is what I think has contributed to my demise but every time I tried another problem cropped up. 

I look to God to guide me and help me through this.  I am not exactly sure why I am experiencing this or what I should take from it.  Other than you really can’t trust anyone that you work with, no matter how they act to your face what they do behind your back is a different story.  I suspect that if they knew about my sexuality that would only make things worse.

The part I don’t get is the Jew Bastard is religious, how can you be so religious but treat people like they are crap.  I mean aren’t you a bit of a hypocrite?  All I can say is he will have to answer to God for what he is doing and how he is treating people.  That will be his punishment.

Apparently Jewish people are not forgiving, cross them once even the slightest bit and poof they will never forget or forgive. 

This whole situation has my stomach upset.  To make matters worse but it will give you a laugh.  I went to the bathroom today only to find that my pants split.  How embarrassing but I did the whole day, no complaints I just tried to stay seated as much as possible.  You couldn’t tell unless you were looking just under my crotch, so it’s not like it was a full split. 

Well I need time to wind down and relax.  That has to start now.  I got the resume up dated and I answered two ads.  Not too shabby for a nights work.  Plus I talked with a friend and worked on two machines.  It’s been a busy night.  I’m all keyed up!

Please pray for me, I really need it right now.  I can’t afford another financial crisis.  I just want a stable and enjoyable job that pays decent.  I don’t think that is asking too much.  Ideally staying where I am at would be fine but the treatment and culture would need to change. 

There is a food party on Thursday but the last time I participated I nearly starved to death because people don’t bring in much.  So I figure fuck them, I will bring my lunch and they can party until their hearts content.  I am not going to participate in their reindeer games.  Have a good one and I will talk with you peeps later!

Time to start looking

Did you ever wake up in the morning and feel that something wasn’t quite right but you couldn’t put your finger on it.  It has happened to me in the past but this morning the feeling was super strong.  No matter what I did I couldn’t shake it.  Then I did the unthinkable and went to see if my job was posted on the internet.  Guess what?  It was, the same exact ad that I answered several months ago.  Apparently they are looking to replace me because they aren’t happy.  I mean what other conclusion do you draw from that?  I thought maybe I’m getting a helper, but why would you need management experience and a degree to be a helper?

I compared the ads side by side and they are exactly word for word the same.  So it’s my job for sure.  It’s been posted for about 10 days.  So this is a recent decision.  My 90 days will be coming up next month so I am surmising that they want to get rid of me within that period. 

Once I found my job posted, that cinched it for me and that feeling of something being off, well I figured it out.  I talked it over with my partner and a friend.  Both of which have very different reactions but the best advice is to update the old resume, get it back in circulation and bide my time.  If I find something great, if not at least my resume will be in circulation and hopefully I can get a jump on things, so that I don’t have to go through unemployment again or if I do it will be a very short period. 

I am deeply saddened by their actions but I figured out shortly after I started this is not an ethical place to work.  It’s a family business where they like to gossip, back bite and general figure out how to screw people over.  That is unless you are part of the clique and I clearly am not.  I love my job still but I hate my boss he is an ogre and I wish he would die quickly!  Micromanaging doesn’t get anything accomplished.  

The access that I was missing, well it’s still missing.  We talked about it this morning but he still has yet to fix it.  I’ve asked two times.  I don’t think I need to ask every day but a friend of mine said don’t give up, ask every day otherwise they could turn the tables and say that you didn’t follow up and therefore the job wasn’t done on time and that could be a reason to fire me.  Truth is I work in a right to work state, so no reason is needed by either party.  Employment is at will with no contract, union or any other protection.  Basically you have to look out for yourself.

Here it is almost 8:30 and my evening is shot.  No time to up date my resume or even look for a job.  However, tomorrow night will have to be different.  I absolutely have to get a jump on them.  What I don’t understand is why this is happening?  I mean I’ve done everything I have been asked to do and done it the way they want it.  So the whole thing is rather perplexing.  I’ve been told that you could cross them on one day or do something they just don’t like and then they make up their mind that your gone and that is exactly what happens. 

What a cluster fuck!  Well I hope things are going better in your world.  Stay cool and be well.  I will talk with you peeps later!

The rest of the week

So the rest of the week flew by as I knew it would.  My vacation away from the boss is slowly winding down and Monday is around the corner.  Ick!  So he will be back in the office tomorrow and I only hope he leaves me alone. 

When I returned on Friday I learned that Black co-worker of mine with the fine body, was fired.  I knew his days were numbered and I think he did too.  He had to get fired in order to collect unemployment or at least to be eligible for it.  No one called me to turn off his access they side stepped me.  Which is nice in that I was not disturbed but at the same time it bothers me because that is supposed to be my job.  I would have taken care of it, friendship aside.  Business is business.  I could mention it but I figure why bother, it’s over with.

The part that really shocked me is his replacement will start tomorrow.  They posted his job on-line over a month ago and began interviewing while he was still working.  They fired him as soon as they found the right person to take over.  The sad part is this is like the third person in this position.  The manager I am told is a real bitch and she is not to be trusted.

The culture where I work is very dysfunctional, I know it sounds like I am paranoid but I really feel the office is bugged.  The guy that was let go and other guy were talking via IM and when the other guy went back to look at the conversation, there was a large part of it missing.  The company employee manual says that the company must know your passwords at all times.  My boss mentioned to me one day that I wasn’t including him on emails and that I shouldn’t send any e-mail with out making him aware of it.  That day I changed my password and it hasn’t been an issue since.  Coincidence, I don’t think so.

Knowing what the job market is like today, I really feel sorry for my old coworker.  I hope he is able to recover soon.  The part I don’t get is he contacted a recruiter who told him that he could place him tomorrow at a job and that was like a week ago.  He decided to pass and stick it out.  What a silly decision to make.  He wasn’t happy and if I was him and got an offer like that, I would have jumped at it.  However, hind sight is always 20/20.

From what I have told you and other friends, everyone kind of leads me in the same direction and says start looking.  I say nah, I’d rather stick it out.  The old guy said that he liked me so I think that is in my favor.  That is not to say eventually he won’t fire me but I know he has big plans for me, not sure what they are but I am told they exist.  So only time will tell.  If I sense that things are off or that my days are numbered, I will update my resume and start looking.  For now, I am doing good to concentrate and try to stay a float.

Saturday morning I got some really bad news.  One of our favorite restaurants closed.  The owner retired for health reasons..  I am so hungry for Pizza & Bread Pudding now.  This place was great.  I’d come in on mass transit on Friday, my partner would meet me and we would head up to this place for supper.  It was always a place that we looked forward to going to.  I am not sure what we will do now but I know there is more than this place to eat at.  The thing is the owners made us feel like we were old friends and they chatted with us at length on more than one occasion.  We had been going there for many years.  So it’s sort of like loosing an old friend.

Speaking of old friends Big Boy is still coughing and has started to sneeze.  I wonder if he didn’t pick up something.  He scares the crap out of me.  I am always thinking the worst about him.  He is truly always on my mind.  Just like my partner.  I don’t want to loose either one of them but I know one day it will happen.

Preparing for the future I started looking at Term Life Insurance online.  It’s not too bad for me.  The premiums for my partner are out of this world.  My old job extended both of us a decent amount of coverage for pennies.  It’s a benefit that I can’t get with my present employer because they have an all or nothing benefit plan.  I don’t need medical, dental and vision – I’ve already got those.  I just need Life and Disability.  So I’ve requested information and quotes.  I know my home phone will be ringing off the hook with sales people trying to track me down.  Plus one policy that I started the application process for requires me to take a medical exam.  While I have nothing to hide, I really don’t want to go through that because it involves blood and will take up more of my time.  I’ve checked into places that advertise on TV and might be able to get something that will give each of us a small amount of money in the event one of us should pass.  I worry that if I fall out of an airplane my partner and kids won’t be able to make it.  I’d like to have some peace of mind knowing that there is a plan, instead of making it day by day and hoping nothing bad happens. 

Ah, life.  I bent over to pet one of the cats Saturday as I left and my new phone case on my work phone, just broke.  So I had to visit the phone store and they swapped it out.  They were kind of surprised that it broke but not nearly as surprised as I was.  Thankfully there was no damage to the phone.  I felt like saying, I will see you next month.  I think the same thing will happen again, I mean it’s plastic but it’s certainly wasn’t cheap, like $50.  So you’d think it would be a little more rugged.  If this fails again, I will look into a Life Proof Case.  That will be closer to $100 but they are military grade cases and your phone will survive most of what life can throw at it.

I am pleased as punch to learn that Daddy Jeff and Brent are honoring me all month long on their site because I run one of their banners.  It’s the Google shame counter.  Well I mean Google did shut down my last blog and it’s painfully obvious now that there is no getting it back.  If you’d like to check out their tribute to me visit them at http://googlebloggerclosesgayblogs.blogspot.com/2012/07/meet-one-of-our-many-supporters_05.html  Thanks Daddy Jeff & Brent!

Sorry to say it but it’s that time again.  I need to prepare for whatever Monday has in store for me.  I didn’t get a whole lot done this weekend but I sure did have some time to relax.  Thanks to Netflix for adding Lisa Lampinelli and Lewis Black to their line up.  It’s been a barrel of laughs!

Take care, stay cool and be well.  I will talk with you peeps later.

Let’s get physical

Went to the Dr. turns out they just wanted me to come in for a physical.  The blood work was perfectly fine.  I got my refills.

Wow this was the physical that I dreaded.  I thought we were talking a simple office visit.  They said physical when I checked in and I knew what was coming.

Yup, the old finger.  Jesus she shoved that thing in like she was stuffing a turkey.  I’ve had dildos larger than her finger and no problems at all.  It has been a couple hours and it still feels like her hand is in my ass.  It really hurt.  She used lube but that didn’t seem to matter.  I sure hope this feeling goes away soon, it’s not fun.

Then there was the cough test.  She squeezed my nuts like she was trying to crack them.  That hurt too but not nearly as bad as my ass does now.

So all in all I’m going to live.  Everything appears to be working well.  I’ve got to do some stool cards and they will look for blood.  Outside of that I am okay.  My blood pressure was high.  I wonder what it was after the finger test?  I’ve got to keep an eye on that here at home.

I had her look at my feet while I was there.  What I have takes a while to heal.  If it doesn’t clear up in a month or so then I should go see an orthopedist.  I’d just as soon see a podiatrist.  But whatever, I hope there will not be a need for either of them.  I just want my good old feet back soon. 

Crazy day at work.  I asked a female co-worker to lunch tomorrow.  I have been dying to get away from the office and she is sweet enough that I think lunch will be enjoyable.  We spent over an hour a couple weeks ago chatting in the office.  So I can only imagine what lunch will be like.  Still as a backup plan, I will be bringing my lunch.  Life happens and plans change so I don’t want to be left stranded with no food.  Boy scouts motto – always be prepared. 

Last night I went to order my medicine from Canada.  It’s called Entex PSE but in Canada it’s called Entex LA.  They used to sell it by prescription in the USA but it’s since been discontinued.  Turns out the place I used to purchase it from is no longer selling it because it’s now considered a controlled substance.  It’s Pseudoephedrine and Guiafensin, both of which can be purchased over the counter in the US or Canada.  It’s just mixed together in one tablet.  I don’t get it.  So I found another place that sells it and ordered from them.  I got an alert today that my card was charged, so apparently it’s on it’s way.  Here is hoping it makes it through customs.  You’d think I was ordering a shipment of Cocaine! :)

So as my luck would have it, Lawn Boy showed up today.  It is still a scorcher outside and I am sure he was all hot and sweaty, probably had his shirt off.  However, I didn’t get any photos because I was at work.  My partner told me about it when he came to pick me up.  I wished he would have snapped photos but he doesn’t get what I see in the guy and I guess he was too afraid that he would get caught.  Don’t use a flash and there is no way for him to know, unless he happens to be looking right at you.  DOH!  Aw, well I will get my photo another day.

So it’s early enough that I am going to spend some quality time with the kids.  Make sure things get ready for tomorrow and ice down the old foot.  Should be a nice evening or so I hope.  I am in front of a computer all day, funny how I come home and get right back in front of another one.  Plus it doesn’t help to have the electronic leash (blackberry) on my hip.  There is no escaping technology for me. 

Be well and I will talk with you peeps later!