Time to start looking

Did you ever wake up in the morning and feel that something wasn’t quite right but you couldn’t put your finger on it.  It has happened to me in the past but this morning the feeling was super strong.  No matter what I did I couldn’t shake it.  Then I did the unthinkable and went to see if my job was posted on the internet.  Guess what?  It was, the same exact ad that I answered several months ago.  Apparently they are looking to replace me because they aren’t happy.  I mean what other conclusion do you draw from that?  I thought maybe I’m getting a helper, but why would you need management experience and a degree to be a helper?

I compared the ads side by side and they are exactly word for word the same.  So it’s my job for sure.  It’s been posted for about 10 days.  So this is a recent decision.  My 90 days will be coming up next month so I am surmising that they want to get rid of me within that period. 

Once I found my job posted, that cinched it for me and that feeling of something being off, well I figured it out.  I talked it over with my partner and a friend.  Both of which have very different reactions but the best advice is to update the old resume, get it back in circulation and bide my time.  If I find something great, if not at least my resume will be in circulation and hopefully I can get a jump on things, so that I don’t have to go through unemployment again or if I do it will be a very short period. 

I am deeply saddened by their actions but I figured out shortly after I started this is not an ethical place to work.  It’s a family business where they like to gossip, back bite and general figure out how to screw people over.  That is unless you are part of the clique and I clearly am not.  I love my job still but I hate my boss he is an ogre and I wish he would die quickly!  Micromanaging doesn’t get anything accomplished.  

The access that I was missing, well it’s still missing.  We talked about it this morning but he still has yet to fix it.  I’ve asked two times.  I don’t think I need to ask every day but a friend of mine said don’t give up, ask every day otherwise they could turn the tables and say that you didn’t follow up and therefore the job wasn’t done on time and that could be a reason to fire me.  Truth is I work in a right to work state, so no reason is needed by either party.  Employment is at will with no contract, union or any other protection.  Basically you have to look out for yourself.

Here it is almost 8:30 and my evening is shot.  No time to up date my resume or even look for a job.  However, tomorrow night will have to be different.  I absolutely have to get a jump on them.  What I don’t understand is why this is happening?  I mean I’ve done everything I have been asked to do and done it the way they want it.  So the whole thing is rather perplexing.  I’ve been told that you could cross them on one day or do something they just don’t like and then they make up their mind that your gone and that is exactly what happens. 

What a cluster fuck!  Well I hope things are going better in your world.  Stay cool and be well.  I will talk with you peeps later!