Made it to another Comedy Wednesday

Very happy that tonight I will get to see all of my regular favorites.  Hopefully there will be many laughs.  Things have been a little rocky this week, so a laugh or two will help out. 

Yesterday I was working on my home machine when all of a sudden it locked up.  So I issued a reboot command and it just took its sweet time.  I was doing all of this remote, so it’s not like I could help it along.  When it came back up I lost access to my encrypted drive that has passwords and other important docs on it.  Think of it as a safe deposit box  The only way in is a password and it wasn’t taking what I was giving it.  Then I noticed I lost an external hard drive where I save some of my porn to, I wasn’t too happy about it.  However, being away from home there was very little I could do, until I got home.  The problem was fixed easily.  Someone had apparently knocked the external hard drive off of the stand it was on.  I picked it up, plugged it back in and powered on the machine.  Everything came up like it was supposed to, but it had me sweating the whole time.  Porn not such a big deal but the legal docs and passwords, that would have really crippled me.  I was able to guess and get the master password changed so I have access to all of my stuff.  Technology is a wonderful thing but only when it works.  I say that all the time and it is VERY true.

I also got a letter in the mail from AT&T and found out that apparently they think I stopped subscribing to something so my home phone is going up $17 per month.  Uh, don’t think so.  I called and had to talk with 3 people but I got things back to where they should be  Then I found out in 2 years copper landline phone service will be no more in my area.  Everyone will be forced on to VOIP.  I am not exactly jumping up and down about that.  They tried to get me to convert to UVERSE and I will admit now I am thinking of it more and more.  It sounds really nice.  I asked about up time and they tell me it’s a 99.9% up time baring any cable cuts which are beyond their control.  Perfectly understandable.  They have a feature on the phone that if service is interrupted it will fail over to a number that you pre-determine.  Plus you can have the phone ring at home and at I think 2 or 3 other destinations – all at the same time.  So no need for Call Forwarding but they still have that.  I checked pretty much all of my areas of concern and they were all addressed.  Now the only thing left is to bite the bullet and go for it.  They will give me 30 days to try it and if I don’t like they will switch back to the way things were before.  Wonderful but if copper is going away I really am stuck.  Right now you have to bundle phone with either internet or tv in order to get it.  When we get closer to the 2 year mark, they will offer phone as a stand alone service.  It is a money saver but for me it would only be $13 per month.  If I moved Internet the savings would be greater more like $33 but I would lose speed.  I will bring this up in a few months when my present promo offer expires with the cable company.  If they can’t match or beat the offer then I will switch.  For now still leaving everything the same.  Hopefully, it all continues to work as it was designed.  I will admit changing to a new whole house DVR would be nice and being able to record 4 shows at the same time and watch them where I wanted would be kind of cool.  Right now I’ve got my old fashioned TIVO, which does 1 show at a time and more often than not, it doesn’t change to the proper channel so you miss the program.  I understand that the person I spoke with is in it for a commission so she will tell me what I want to hear in order to win my business.  I almost went for it today but figured wait, the push to get people to switch is on and will be on for sometime, I might get a better deal by holding out.  Plus I am getting close to being on-call and I have to have something that works otherwise I get to live in the office, which wouldn’t be fun. 

I got a call from a friend of mine yesterday evening just when I was ready to do some self pleasuring.  Damn no peace.  Anyway he told me that he just got the worst review in his career.  We worked together before and he is 100% company and he works some damn long hours.  He just doesn’t know the meaning of the word relax or quitting time.  So for his boss to give him such a review totally caught him by surprise and honestly me too.  However, from the way things have been going the writing has been on the wall that his boss wants him gone.  She is now taking steps to make that happen.  He will have to go on a Performance Plan and if expectations aren’t met within 6 months then they will walk him out.  He plans on beating them to the punch and finding a new job.  However, the big problem that he has is that he is an older gentleman, and not many employers will be attracted to him once they figure out how old he is.  Even though your not suppose to discriminate based on age, employers still do but they do it in such a way that it skirts the law, so if you complain you won’t have a leg to stand on.  I feel bad for him and know what it’s like to work in a toxic environment.  This is all because of events that occurred that were outside of his control with vendors and 3rd parties.  He preformed at his very best, which is nothing unusual.  It just sucks when you are doing something you like and are comfortable but your boss hates you.  Work turns into a chore and soon you find yourself not motivated to go in and when your there your mind is focused more on what your boss is doing or where the next land mine is going to blow up and you can’t do your job.  Plus his employer is very short handed right now, so he is doing the work of 4 or 5 people – which he should be praised for.  There are two sides to every story and I am only hearing his, not that I doubt what he is saying for one second.  But it would be interesting to hear the other side of the story.  I also told him to ask for examples of the behavior that his boss is referencing.  He actually already did that and the boss can’t recall any incidents.  That right there tells me that she just wants him gone.  A good boss would have examples ready to go, figuring that the employee is savvy enough to ask.  I told him put all of that in writing, send it to his boss and give a copy to HR and demand that it be put in his personnel file.  That will help give him an edge.  Plus I told him he might want to talk with an attorney to see if there are other steps that he should take.  He doesn’t want to mess with it and figures it’s easier to move on.  I’ve been down this road before and unless you have specific documentation you are pretty well screwed.  I wish he would take my advice but he won’t and there isn’t anything I can do about that.  I hope it works out for the best.  Were supposed to get together over the weekend to grab a bite to eat, so that should be interesting. 

After that phone call that seemed like it would never end I was talked out and tired.  I took care of getting ready for today, medicating the cats, etc. while I was talking.  I even brushed my teeth.  Multitasking is just a given for me, when it has to be done.  After we hung up, I watched a little TV and then went to bed.  Sound asleep and 2am the UPS hiccupped and that caused my sound machine to change from Ocean sounds to Rain.  I woke up instantly figuring that the power went out but no, just a burp.  I had to get up to change it.  I needed to use the bathroom, but opted to go back to bed because Marv would be upset.  I was right he just talked and talk about it.  Then I couldn’t fight it any longer and had to get up.  He yelled at me again and finally we were off to sleep.  Thankfully he didn’t wake his brother otherwise it would have been double trouble.  They know how to work together and how to work against each other as well. 

Here we are at Wednesday.  Just wrapped up from a Team Meeting and of course change is the recurring theme.  Now we have to answer the phone a specific way, people are going to think I am a recording and they may hang up on me, but I will follow the rules.  There are many other changes but they are minor in nature.  Next meeting in 2 weeks and major changes will be talked about then.  Change can be good or it can be bad.  The nice thing is that on-call is changing next month so we don’t start until 11pm and are on until 7am.  So it should be mostly quiet.  Except for weekends those are still 24 hour days and your on until 7am Monday morning.  Again should be mostly quiet but you never know when something major will go wrong and you will be flooded with calls.  Just the joy of being on-call. 

So now it’s back to work and I am counting down the hours until I have to go back out in the cold and drive amongst the many slow people who are mostly in a slow hurry to get home.  I hope that tonight will be very enjoyable.  Then we are on the downhill slide of the week and a 3 days weekend is approaching – so I am super pumped about that.  Even though my Monday is already planned out for me, I won’t be here and that is a good thing in my book.

I hope that your all staying warm and doing okay.  Talk with you again soon. 

Crisis Averted?

Yesterday I read a very interesting article about passwords.  You can find the article by clicking the link  http://www.nytimes.com/2014/11/19/magazine/the-secret-life-of-passwords.html?_r=0

My first thought is why would you share your password with a complete stranger, even if they didn’t know what it was to or what your user name was.  If your in such a giving mood why not pass out keys to your house and twenty dollar bills.  My second thought confirmed something I have thought all along.  That is I wonder what other people use for passwords and how they remember them.  Apparently we all use something that is special to us, which is great but can make for a weak password.  As an example my late partner used a letter combination from a poem, shortly after he passed I found myself using the same letter combination for some of my passwords. 

Security and passwords are something we are constantly educated about at work.  Plus if you follow any type of IT publication, webcast, etc. they will often talk about security and passwords.  I find that the use of a password manager such as Lastpass works best, you remember your password to get into Lastpass and then let it generate all of your passwords.  They recently introduced a password change feature which is supposed to make it easier to change your passwords within the program.  I have yet to try this out.  However, I will tell you for any type of financial access I let this program choose my passwords for me.  I make them long and they use all sorts of special characters and numbers, which is great for a secure password. 

We would all like to think that we are using a secure password but so many of us, are not if this article is correct.  I mean get a small window into a persons life learn their spouses name, children’s names, pet’s names and maybe their favorite sport or a favorite past time and viola you have their password.  For me personally, I don’t use any of these because they are insecure and easily obtainable.  You never know who might turn out to be a rogue hacker. 

I figure this topic comes with perfect timing in that it’s a new year and probably a good time to either change your password or convert to a ore secure password management system.  Passwords of course pretty well rule access to your on-line world.  So this presents a new dilemma if you drop off the face of the earth, such as with the 9-11 Disaster.  I never thought about it until last year when went to make a supposed free will on-line and used a service called Rocket Lawyer.  They think of these things and ask you to spell out what your password is for e-mail, Facebook and other sites or at least for you to specify where a list of your passwords can be obtained, so that your digital life can be closed out.  I was fortunate in that when my partner passed away we were close enough that I already knew most of his passwords and those that I didn’t well I found a list and also used a program that was on his pc at the time to obtain the remainder of the list.  He registered for many sites that I wasn’t aware of, so this list helped me communicate the fact that his life had concluded and inform others that he passed away.  While it wasn’t an easy task, I was happy to be able to pass the word on as I know he would have wanted me to.  If I didn’t have his passwords, well my life would be a little bit more complicated. Because he was in Bankruptcy I didn’t have to worry about logging into credit card sites or informing creditors that he passed.  Those wonderful people are getting paid because I have kept the case a live so that I can retain ownership of the house. 

So you might think of leaving a list of passwords behind or writing down your master password and leaving it in a safe place, so that when you pass away someone can get access to close out your digital life.  Of course you have to keep in mind that if anyone today finds it while you are alive it could easily ruin your life.  So for that reason I say leave it in a safe deposit box or some place in your home that is not all too common and a place where a burglar wouldn’t look for anything much less a password. 

If I happen to kick off, right now well my digital life can’t be closed out because I have yet to take the precaution.  I loved the form that Rocket Lawyer used they really did cover all the bases and you can create the document for free.  However, you can’t have access to the document unless you pay and well that to me is deceptive, so I didn’t use them.  Preparing a new will is on my list of things to do but I just haven’t gotten there yet.  Primarily because it requires two witnesses and a notary in order to be valid in my state.  You also can’t use anyone that is mentioned in the will so that really limits my choices and I will most likely have to have this done at work.

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Now on to the daily post and news of my life.  Whoop Whoop!

Yesterday sitting at work I began to itch, and I thought of course of the worst case scenario.  That was that I was allergic to the antibiotic that I decided to start taking.  What sealed it for me is when I saw a couple of red welt like marks on my penis.  That just spelled trouble – I mean hives I can deal with but when you invade the genital area you are really crossing the line and that is the part I have the most trouble with.  So I popped a Benadryl, one of the last ones I had.  I headed to the pharmacy to pick up some more.  By the time I got home I was ready to drop from the medicine.  I am such a lightweight when it comes to medicine – 2 Tylenol and 30 minutes you will find me curled up sleeping away.  Rather than take sleeping medicine I decided to pop another Benadryl to try to get the jump on the hives.  Thus far no breakout.  I stopped the medication.  Now that I think about it maybe I brought the allergic reaction on myself by thinking about it so much.  If I was truly allergic I would certainly have a breakout – the issue didn’t start in the genital region, it started across my upper body and then spread like wildfire.  I don’t know that I dodged a bullet but I do feel a little safer.  I just hope that whatever is hanging on in my body with an infection gives it up and it goes away.  I can say that I do feel better and well I was tempted to start the medication back up but I think I am better safe than sorry.  I mean you never know when an allergic reaction will result in the inability to breathe and if that happened while I was driving it could easily be curtains for me.  My children still need me and I need them. 

Last night Marvin slept with me and I was up and down because my body didn’t have the drugs it was used to.  Anyway, he was really affectionate and held my hand or wrapped his paws around my hand so that it couldn’t slip away.  He is such a good boy and a great sleeping buddy.  He usually waits until I am sleep before he abandons me, but last night he stayed a little closer than normal. 

Bear is back to coughing more so I have upped his meds in the hopes that we can clear things up.  I hate it when he coughs because his whole body shakes and it just looks uncomfortable to me, I can only imagine what he feels like.  He is really hungry and the medicine will only help to further that little side effect along.  He gobbles up a can and is ready for a 2nd one.  Between him and LB it’s like a never ending food party.  I believe they could both pack away three cans and still ask for more.  Bear would gain weight.  LB not a chance, he is as thin as a stick and stays that way despite him living the typical indoor cat lifestyle which is made up of mostly sleep and relaxation.  I would love to have LB’s metabolism and maybe then I could get rid of some of my extra pounds. 

In the realm of on-line dating well apparently I am really attractive to men in the Philippines  I think they want to latch on to me so they can come to America and then clean out what little money I have.  Maybe I am freaking out a little too much about this but you ready stories from time to time where someone is cat fished out of their money.  I have very little and don’t want to part with it unless it’s absolutely necessary.  I tend to avoid those people and not reply.  Most of them want to start an e-mail chat.  I can’t see building a relationship with someone that is that far away from me.  I want someone close.  I mean it’s find to have a friend 1/2 way around the world but it’s another thing to try to make a LD relationship work.  Some people can do that but I am not one of them.  No phone call from the guy at the pet food store and I don’t expect him to call.  I do expect him to string me along if he sees me in person but outside of that no real contact.  It would be far better for both of us if he would say that he isn’t interested.  I mean he didn’t have the time before and now that his schedule has changed and he graduated well it can’t be that he doesn’t have time, so it has to be that he is not interested.  Otherwise he would find a way to take 5 to 10 minutes out of his day to talk and setup a date.  Ah well, eventually he being Mr. Right, My Romeo and Knight in Shiny Armor will come along.  Until then I just have to keep up the search. 

So Monday is behind us and here we are in a Frozen Tuesday.  It’s really cold out here and thus far a quiet morning.  I hope the day picks up a little bit and that the day passes by a little quicker.  I am ready for Friday but I will settle right now for comedy Wednesday.  Nothing really on TV that I am interested in, so I turned to QAF and saw another 2 episodes last night.  Funny how I remember things going down and how they actually happen on the show.  The memory fades with time, even the best of them. 

That is all I have at the moment.  Stay warm and I will talk with you peeps later. 

SSA – not gay

I saw the show My Husband is NOT gay last night on TLC.  Wow, if I believed them then I have this SSA (Same Sex Attraction) thing going on but I am not gay.  My opinion and personal feeling is that these guys are living a lie.  While they can be content in their straight relationship/marriages they are hiding.  I say they are all gay!  Go get some dick guys and then tell me you have SSA and aren’t gay.  If you still think that afterwards then well maybe your just content to live a lie. 

I understand not wanting to be labeled as GAY or being afraid of being classed as such but it’s a label and it only defines your sexuality and NOT who you are as a person.  It doesn’t mean anything but that you like men and well speaking as a gay man, there isn’t anything wrong with that. 

I saw Looking and wow Jonathan Groff was amazing as usual.  I am kind of disappointed that he took drugs but I think this will be an interesting season and a short one at that. 

Before both of those shows, I managed to catch a live webcast of Lewis Blank (www.therantisdue.com).  He posts on Facebook just before he goes live and well I was lucky enough to catch the post and part of the show.  He always makes me laugh.  I kind of wish I could bring him to work with me for a week just to see his reaction at some of the stuff I deal with.  It would certainly be 8 hours of entertainment for an entire week, plus I’d probably make some new friends. 

My illness is all sinus related.  Last time it started with my stomach because I ate Gluten Free Oatmeal.  I took something to clear up the stomach issues and that always makes me sick.  It’s better just to let the stomach thing run it’s course if it’s mild enough.  My body is very picky and I know what works and what doesn’t.  I am having a psychosomatic allergic reaction in that I itch after taking the 2nd antibiotics but I have yet to break out.  I think it’s all in my head or it’s jus a winter itch – either way thus far no allergic reaction and I hope it stays that way. 

Sitting at the table this morning I noticed no movement outside, I thought that I had the day off because it was too icy and everything was closed.  Nope, our temps stayed warm enough that it didn’t turn to ice.  Well that is except for my subdivision and the poorly treated roads in my local area.  Once I made it to the Freeway aka Interstate everything was smooth sailing.  Made it to work 1/2 hour early which is totally a good thing!

I was kind of a klutz this morning and managed to continually spill my soda from the time I left the house until I got on the road.  So I was thinking maybe that is an omen for a sticky Monday?  Thus far all appears good, hopefully it stays that way.  I am looking forward to some nice hot soup and crackers for supper, along with a slice of cold pizza left over from yesterday.  Of course I have to take the trash out tonight, let’s hope the driveway is not a sheet of ice by then as our temps are supposed to be on the decline all day long and we will be into the freezing area by lunchtime.  I was also thinking they may let us go early but I have kind of put that out of my mind. 

Yesterday I lifted up the couch in the basement and saw where BLU had hidden all of the toys.  He was always playing with something.  I put everything out in the open and Momma has been playing up a storm.  I was bowling last night on the WII and she wanted me to play with her and her ball.  So I tried my best to do two things at once.  I was pretty good at playing with her but sucked at bowling.  I can never seem to get the ball to do what I want it to do.  It always manages to curve off to the right when I am pointing the controller to the left  I have a perfect move where I can throw a strike but I can’t seem to repeat it that often  I still have the high score and always will, until someone comes over an wants to play.  That I expect will be way down the road.

I managed to clean up some files and consolidate my office supplies.  I’ve got enough post it notes to last a lifetime.  The same is true with pens.  I love colors and office supplies so it makes sense that I would have a ton of that stuff.  I also found a rubber stamp which was very similar to what I just had made.  Ah well, they say the memory is the first to go and I forget what goes next.  If I would have known that I had that I wouldn’t have had something similar made.  Two I guess is better than one. 

Speaking of which did you hear about the guy who has two penis?  He wrote a book and I saw a photo of his anatomy on-line.  Wow I’d be interested in reading the book just to find out if he gets to have double orgasms and if he has to pee twice as much.  There are many questions I would like to ask him.  I don’t plan on buying the book but if it happens to get converted to an Audio Book I have 1 credit left on Audible and may use it for that. 

I am finishing up watching for the umpteenth time Queer As Folk and have made it to the final series.  That show holds so many memories for me.  We (me and my late partner) used to watch it faithfully every Sunday when it was on from 9-10 the best hour of TV.  We would gather in the basement.  The sex scenes used to get me all revved up but it was the entire show that I enjoyed from seeing how different gay characters functioned in everyday life. 

So that is the recap thus far of yesterday and part of today.  I will talk with you peeps later.  Stay warm and safe!

Slippery Sunday

I was fortunate enough to wake up at a decent hour and make it out to breakfast and the grocery store before the rain started.  Our temps are a little warmer than the weather people thought they would be but we still are going to have an ice storm, as evening approaches by morning we should be slip sliding along.  In talking with some co-workers they think the office will close, but until I hear that we are closed I will proceed in.

I am feeling worse like the medication is wearing off.  I found an antibiotic for my late partner and decided to start taking it.  I think I might be allergic to it, but time will tell.  I looked it up and it looks like it’s related to a family of a drug that I am allergic to.  I think I remember taking it before and I was okay.  I suppose only time will tell.  I just don’t want to deal with the doctor unless it’s absolutely necessary.  I’ve been ill since October and it gets better then I get it again.  In looking at my mail order pharmacy I saw the retail pharmacy scripts that I got filled and notice the pattern.  Kind of sucks, but hopefully this will be the end of it. 

I had a nose hair that was bothering me and I finally got it trimmed and it feels like there is a small rock in my nose.  I think that there is a pimple forming and that is so uncomfortable.  Since I am telling you my woes I think that I pulled a muscle in my groin when I moved the printer and file cabinet.  My groin has been bothering me off and on.  I remember that I did this once before and it was horrifically painful.  I am not in that much pain but it’s uncomfortable. 

Got in and out of both the pet food and grocery store for minimal cost – only picked up what I needed.  Of course since I didn’t take a list I forgot a couple things but better luck next week.  I will be able to live. 

Have you ever heard of Martha Wash?  She is an awesome singer!  I was looking on YouTube last night and apparently she released a new album last year.  It’s all positive music, it really speaks to me.  If your looking for something good to listen to, check it out. 

I am really wanting a nap but I am holding out so that I will sleep tonight.  Plus there is so much good TV on tonight.  I am so looking forward to it, but really don’t want to deal with Monday. 

All in all, it’s been an okay weekend.  I got the title for my car wouldn’t you know it, they spelled my name wrong.  The bank new this back in 2009 but never bothered to get it fixed, so now it’s my problem.  I am sure it will cost me money to fix but I am going to look into it shortly. 

With the cold weather here, I decided to feed the Raccoon Family last night.  I put out two cans of cat food on the deck on a paper plate.  The whole damn thing was gone in 5 minutes of me putting it out.  I think they ate the plate.  Hungry?  Yeah I’d say so.  I am sure it’s difficult to be outside even if you do have a fur coat.  There are temps that are just too chilly for anyone or anything.  I’d love to invite them in but since they are wild that won’t happen.  I wouldn’t want them trying to swallow one of my cats. 

Visited Olive Garden yesterday.  Man that was a total mistake.  The soup was barley warm and there was something crunchy in it.  The pasta well it was okay but the tomatoes started to talk back to me.  I actually went for the soup, it was what I was thinking about.  Should have taken my first thought and went to Cracker Barrel and had something much more enjoyable with Corn Bread Muffins.  Ah, yeah that sounds good.  If I wasn’t in my sweat pants and it wasn’t so messy I would venture out.

Sorry for all of the depression and negativity in this post.  I am tired and don’t feel the best.  I hope that the weekend treated you well.  Talk with you all again soon.  

The Podcast

So after seeing that my Podcast needs to build an audience, I am going to list it here.  There are only 2 episodes up, but I plan on making more.  Go give it a listen, post a comment and subscribe.  Just click on the image below and you will be redirected.  Enjoy!

 

Oh what a night

I took my sleeping pills a little earlier than normal and they kicked in and I got an amazing night of sleep.  I had a wild dream but outside of that when the alarm went off I didn’t want to get up at all.  I wish I had more of those wonderful nights of sleep.  I will certainly try to recreate last night again tonight, not sure if I will have much success though. 

I was working on my computer after dinner and the door bell rang.  I thought that was a rather odd time of night for a visitor and wondered who it could be.  It was a sales person who once again thought the No Solicitors sign didn’t apply to him.  He was from AT&T trying to get me to switch all of my services over to Uverse.  They offer a top speed of 40mpbs and my cable company is giving me 100mpbs, now AT&T is cheaper but they are also slower.  Why on earth would anyone want to go from 100 down to 40 – makes no sense to me.  I did find out more about the installation.  I wasted as much of his time as possible and he gave me some information and I left him with the impression I would think about it.  The information went into the trash.  I did think about it and they could save me some serous money every month but it requires that you enter into a 1 year contract but the prices are good for 2 years.  If you lose your job or something unforseen happens you can place your service on vacation hold for up to 9 months.  You can also turn off a service w/o a penalty just so long as you maintain some service with them you won’t get penalized.  If you move to some place where they don’t offer uverse then the contract is null and void and they won’t try to enforce it.  After the contract expires, your rates go up but he said all you do is call in and we will put together a new package in order to retain your business.  So basically it works the same way as the cable company but the initial savings is greater and for 2 years instead of one, plus you are entering into a contract.  I have thought of switching the cable but right now I am happy with what I have.  It will give me bargaining power when my present offer expires with the cable company and it may in fact be the point at which I switch.  I will NOT switch internet for a slower speed, that would be stupid.   I did ask how they do the installation and was told they use the phone lines that are already in your house.  Sounds attractive but also sounds like it could cause problems.  I also found out that they provide you with a 6 hour battery backup for the phone, which is nice to maintain my alarm system and being able to call out in an emergency.  However, if something happens after that 6th hour your screwed – no way to call for help and no alarm system to report intruders or fire. 

In other news my password here at work is about to expire.  It’s always a challenge to think up a new password, mostly because of our security policy.  It has to be 8 characters long minimum and contain 3 out of the 4 – upper case, lower case, number, symbol/special character.  So all of my previously used passwords don’t work because they aren’t complex enough.  I am often mistyping my password and have come very close to locking myself out.  Plus there is the fact that I want everything to be the same so I have to change it on multiple applications – it’s just kind of a huge pain.  They last for 90 days and then it’s time to change it.  The same is true with the password needed to access your mobile device they are good for 90 days and then it forces you to pick a new password and you don’t get access to your phone until you do.  You also can’t reuse the past 25 passwords so they make sure that you pick something unique.  Security is very important and there is lots of valuable information that would be at ones finger tips if you hacked your way in.  So while I understand why the policy is in place I also see the flip side and it’s a huge pain in the ass. 

Being home for a couple days ill, hardly makes today seem like a Friday but thankfully it is.  So I can have a couple days of rest.  We are expected to have a nice ice storm Sunday night and into Monday morning.  Who knows maybe I will get lucky and have Monday off, but I think that is wishful thinking.  I am really over this bitter cold weather.  With such awful temps you would think we would have snow and lots of it, but nope it’s just cold.  I say bring on the snow like a foot or more so we can all have a nice holiday and be snowed in together. 

There is nothing really going on this weekend in the way of preplanned things.  There is the usual activity of laundry, cleaning house, wrangling the trash, cat food and people food.  Outside of that I will be bored out of my mind.  Yeah right.  There is always something to do but it doesn’t mean I have the gumption to do it.  The mandatory things will get done for sure.  In fact I think I will start with dishes tonight that is a nice way to jump start the weekend.  I had thoughts of visiting Sam’s before heading home – get some soda and a nice large pizza then some gas for the car and call it a day.  I may or may not do that, really mostly depends upon how I feel after I get the mail and maybe what the mail contains. 

I feel more of the after effects of the illness with a slight cough now.  My neck ache is gone thanks to last nights awesome night of sleep.  I still kind of feel worn out but I think some of that comes from boredom.  Speaking of which I saw one of my co-workers yesterday he was so bored he fell asleep at his desk.  He looked like he had a stroke but was just leaning to one side and fell asleep.  He caught himself and went to get a Mountain Dew to wake up.  Hell all he really needed to do is step outside for a second.  That nice cold air will wake you up and keep you that way.  I’m glad to see that I am not the only one bored to tears.  He surfs the internet and does it publically on his work machine and leaves pages up on his screen so it’s obvious that you know what he has been up to, not that it matters to me.  I’ve got my laptop because big brother doesn’t need to know what I am up to, all though it would be easy enough for them to trace down if they wanted to.

Well it’s almost time to go setup for a meeting and then I will be back here for a bit stuck to the phone and then I can finally change my password and deal with whatever else happens to come up.  I’ve got a piece of hardware that I am trying to track down, which is always not fun.  But the thrill of the hunt is nice. 

Happy Friday to you and I hope that you enjoy your weekend.  Talk with you peeps again soon.  Stay Warm!!

Did you miss me?

In case you didn’t notice I have been gone for a few days.  I left work Monday afternoon sick.  I went to the ‘Doc In The Box’.  Wow that is going to be an expensive visit.  When I saw the doctor and was describing what was going on, he said “your very pessimistic” to which I retorted “when you have had sinus infections all of your life, I think you earn the right to be pessimistic”.  Knowing that I had frequent flyer miles in seeing doctors, he said what does your doctor usually do.  I told him and he said sounds like a great course of action, then he told me the antibiotic he was gong to put me on.  I told him while I am not allergic to it, the pill does nothing for me I am immune.  I told him what worked and he gave me a script for that and said follow up with your doctor and left the room.  He was supposed to give me steroids but I was happy that I got the antibiotic.  Then I began the task of calling pharmacies to figure out who had it.  Found it again at the grocery store pharmacy. 

I stopped by the Post Office, went to the grocery store pharmacy and then finally home around 2pm.  I fed the children, took out the trash and then was finally able to relax a little bit.  I started the medicine right away.

I stayed home for 2 days and today is my first day back.  After sitting through morning traffic I questioned myself if I made the right call.  Then I got here and everything just started to hit me – I was pulled in several different directions so I had that to deal with in addition to playing catch up.  Wow, finally I got my lunch and thought all would be well.  Nope I’ve already been interrupted once. 

The good news is that the Title Company finally came through with the documents so I signed them last night and they are on their way back via Federal Express.  There were spots to have them notarized, but they said to just sign them and send them back.  Oh okay.  I sure hope they know what they are doing.  I know a notary can sign after the fact but they usually don’t like doing that, I mean what proof do you that is actually my signature?  I will spend part of the weekend telling the different agencies I got involved that the matter has been resolved. I just hope I am not doing this prematurely.

I used the Xerox printer for the documents so the print quality is superb.  I have scanned the originals in so that I have a copy and I have signed up for updates on the package, so I should know when it’s delivered.  All of the bases on my end are covered. 

The children (cats) have been of great comfort to me over the past couple days. They love begging for food and LB decided to use Bears Pee Pad.  I hope that doesn’t become a habit.  I have yet to spy on them but will be doing that shortly.  I really miss them.  I am looking forward to the weekend and hopefully next week will be a better week.

The weather here is very cold we have had temps at 0 and in the single digits.  So it’s really cold.  Lots of dead batteries and road side assistance calls.  Apparently the cold weather affects your tire pressure and anything that is rubber on your vehicle.  So fan belts, radiator hoses, etc.  I am religious with maintenance on my car so I don’t expect any problems, still it’s nice to know that I have AAA just in case.  The garage at work is just secure covered parking.  There is no heating and cooling like at my last job.  At home I have insulation on the garage door so it helps to keep the garage at a much warmer temp.  Its a nice feature but does add a bit of weight to your garage door.  It’s an easy process – we (me and my late partner) put this in years ago and it’s been a life saver.  Now his truck is out in the driveway and he always had problems in colder weather.  I wanted to start it up but opted not to.  Perhaps over the weekend I will use it. 

I did venture out yesterday to get the mail and pickup a prescription.  I always seemed to run out of Sudafed and here in the states it’s a controlled substance since you can use it to make meth.  So in order to get a decent amount you have to have a prescription.  My doctor went hog wild and called in a 90 day supply which cost me $100.  I wasn’t prepared for that but I paid it and came home.  Wow I have enough Sudafed to last me for 3 months which will be nice – not having to run to the pharmacy every few weeks.  I’ve got refills so I will have to remember the cost before I fill it. 

I got a cable to hook up one of my late partners old professional microphones to my pc.  I had some issues at first but got them sorted out quickly.  It works like a charm and the cable was less than $20.  Pretty good deal if you ask me.  The microphone is not cheap.  I’d like to find a better stand for it but what I have right now works pretty well. 

In the world of on-line dating – the 5th has come and gone, no phone call from the pet food store guy.  I kind of figured that would be the case.  He I guess has good intentions but just doesn’t know how to tell someone he isn’t interested or he was afraid to hurt my feelings.  Frankly I would rather you be open and honest and if there is no interest, tell me rather than stringing me a long and having me waiting and hoping that your going to call.  Now if he phones, great but I don’t believe he will nor did he ever have intentions of doing so.  I think he was just trying to make me feel good.  Another guy reached out to me on a new app.  Apparently they limit the # of IM’s you can send through the app.  He was quick to want my phone number and well now we have used our # of IM’s up and they want one of us to pay to be able to talk with the other.  Sorry, he’s not worth that.  He lives far away from me and said that he may relocate for the right guy.  I just don’t think it sounds promising.  So I am not paying to join a site, been there done that and there really aren’t many benefits.  It’s like throwing your money away.  Much better to make a donation to a charity if that is what you want to do. 

An hour sure flies by fast.  It’s already time to go back to work.  I guess I should do that.  There is plenty here to do.  I have used up most of my time off, but thankfully we have floating holidays so I still have a decent amount of time.  Prior to this little incident I was going to have a 4 days weekend and take the Friday off before Martin Luther King Day. 

Oh, Shameless and Looking both premier on Sunday.  Shamless is first up and then Looking.  I am so excited and probably won’t want to go to work on Monday but it’s all about getting back in the routine, which I always struggle with this time of year.  Part of it is the fact that I am alone and the other part is that I am very lazy.  I hope that I get rid of whatever it is I have and that nothing else causes me to have to take time off for quiet sometime.  I don’t want to put my job in jeopardy.  I would have stayed home today but that would have required another trip to the doctor and me to get a doctors note to come back to work, plus I think there would have been additional paperwork to complete because I would have been on short term disability.  Doctors & Paperwork don’t mix well, so better for everyone that I am back. 

I am anxiously waiting for spring.  Hope all if well in your world and that 2015 is off to a great start.  Talk with you peeps later.   

Welcome to Monday

Welcome to the 1st Monday of 2015.  Now can we go back to bed?  I woke up feeling fine and moving around okay.  It was cold in the house so I had to throw another log on the fire (aka move the thermostat up a degree).  That took the chill off the house and had everyone nice and warm.  I went about my morning routine and even had time to change pee pads.  I left the house at my usual time and managed to make it to work a 1/2 hour early, which was totally unexpected.  While most of the volume is back I don’t think everyone is quite back yet.  However, the parking garage was full this morning and I had a little bit of a walk to the door.

All of a sudden in the last 45 minutes my nose has decided to take off.  It’s running a marathon and driving me nuts.  I am hoping it’s just allergies – i.e. the cold weather.  I took a Claritin and hope that it kicks in soon.  I am sick of blowing.  I feel a little funny – I get this strange feeling when I get sick.  This could be the start of something big coming on, in which case I will know as the day progresses or when I get out of bed tomorrow.  I really don’t want to be sick and was thinking how great I felt this morning.  I wish I had some nose spray here at work, that would really help out a ton.  You can believe that I will be bringing some with me on my next trip in the office.  Just for grins I checked my PTO and I am 5 hours short of having a full week.  It’s nice to know that I have it but I really don’t want to use it right now if at all possible for sick time.  I’d rather save it and take it as vacation.

I watched a really good gay movie last night on Amazon.  It’s called Burning Blue.  It’s about 2 Navy Fighter Pilots that “have an inappropriate relationship”.  The sad part is that it’s a true story back when Don’t Ask Don’t Tell was in the works.  Prior to that you could have an isolated incident – meaning 1 hookup with another guy and as long as you signed paperwork to certify that, then there were no real consequences.  There were some damn good looking men in this film, I was HOT when I watched it.  There were many sad parts and some death in the movie, just to properly forewarn you in case you decide to see it.  I paid $4.99 for 24 hours of HD Rental for it and it was money well spent.  A great nights entertainment. 

Next week I will be tuning into Shameless on Showtime.  I can’t wait to see the gang, in particular Ian who is one of the gay characters on the show.  Plus it will be nice to have a show that I look forward to seeing  Speaking of look – Looking will be back on HBO shortly as well.  Love me some Jonathan Groff – woof he’s a hottie and I would love to spend a lot of time with him.  So I will eventually be at the point where there are 2 shows on I think they will air at different times, if memory serves.  If not then I will TIVO one and watch the other one.

Well it’s been a little bit since I started this post and I am unfortunately feeling that I am in fact sick or in the process of getting there.  My nose is still running a bit.  I have started to sneeze and I feel hot.  All of which are NOT good signs.  I am ready to pack up and go home.  I will tough it out as long as I can.  I have steroids at home which I can start on, not thrilled about that but it will get me back in the game quicker.  I will probably need an antibiotic to clear up the infection.  As convenient as Doctor on Demand is, I think that actually being seen by a live human physician will probably yield better chances of actually getting an antibiotic.  If it comes to that I will visit an urgent care clinic. 

I had already planned on soup for supper most nights.  Tonight I am excited for Chicken Noodle, but I may be having it for lunch if I go home.  My nose feels raw and I am sure that sooner rather than later I will look like Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer.  Curling up and taking a nap sound appealing as well.  If the world could just stop for a couple of days while I recover from whatever this is, that would be awesome. 

I am semi thankful that this didn’t hit me straight out of bed, because I think it would look really bad to call in on the first day back from a holiday.  However, if I leave sick that isn’t so bad, plus god for bid that I feel crappy tomorrow it will help justify my staying home.  I am just totally paranoid about calling in or staying home because too much of that will cause problems and could lead to job loss – both of which I don’t want to happen.  My boss is understanding but I think that understanding is to a point. 

Well things are only getting worse, so I am waiting for a malware scan to complete on someone’s machine and then I am going to leave and head for the doc in the box.  Ugh I hope this doesn’t last too long, I am ready to get back into the swing of things. 

The Update Post

Happy Sunday!  The New Year is going well for me.  Unfortunately, that means that tomorrow is back to work.  Ugh.  I honestly would love to be able to stay home, especially now that the weather has turned wicked cold.  Were actually supposed to have some negative numbers.  However, in order to pay the bills and continue to be able to afford the life style that I have become accustomed to I shall shuffle off to work in the AM.

Friday I really was lazy for the most part for the morning.  When it was getting closer to leaving I got a shower and got ready to head out.  First stop was therapy.  I had my session and it was okay.  I wanted to prepare an outline or a list of topics that I wanted to talk about but I kept putting it off that there was really no point.  I scheduled the next session in a couple weeks.  Second stop was at my friends house.  They took us to Outback Steakhouse.  I used my gift card and my meal because I ordered desert cost me $5, which honestly isn’t bad at all.  Then we shuffled back to their house and talked.  I wanted to leave but I just couldn’t manage to stop the conversation until the hour was growing late.  My Third & Final stop was home.  Where the children were waiting for me and were upset because I was late, the house was dark and they didn’t get supper.  I fed them and then retreated to the basement for a bit.

Earlier in the day I got the mail and it brought me an unexpected check from my present escrow account.  The bank did their calculations and figured that they were holding on to too much money.  I honestly think they will be asking for it back, but only time will tell.  In any event I will be able to draw interest on it, so I was quick to deposit it.  Then I had to log on to the phone company’s website.  I got a call while I was out that thanked me for my recent order.  The only problem is I didn’t place an order.  When I logged in I saw an order placed on New Years Day and we all know they were closed.  The order removed everything from my home phone from the line charge all the way down to the custom calling features.  So the first thing I did was pick up the phone to see if I had a dial tone and indeed I did.  Then I called myself from my cell and wow it worked.  I checked my voice mail and it worked.  I checked a couple other features and they worked.  The order showed as completed.  I am really perplexed as to why an order was generated but who knows maybe my home phone will be free now.  I think not but one can dream.  I am very interested in seeing the next couple of bills. 

Then it was back upstairs and I watched TV for a couple hours and then went to bed.  I slept in on Saturday.  When I got up I fed the children their breakfast.  I had sweets that were not good for me, but tasted good.  I bought them and wasn’t about to throw them away.  Then I sat in front of the TV and waited for my ink to arrive.  The FedEx driver rang the door bell and everyone's ears perked up.  I wasn’t too quick but did manage to get to the door and as soon as Bear heard the first click of the dead bolt he scrambled to my room as fast as he could.  I just stepped outside and picked up the packages.  Opened everything up to make sure it was there.  Gave Bear some comfort and made sure he was okay.  Then it was time for a nap.  I wasn’t permitted to sleep that long, the children had other ideas on what I should be doing – like paying attention to them.  So I got dressed and went out.  Got the mail, stopped in to Office Max and got a rubber stamp printed (failed to use the $10 coupon in my wallet – would have saved me money) hit up the Cat Food Store, where I ran into the guy who said hi and have a good day.  Nothing more about calling me.  Well tomorrow is the 5th and that is the day he said he would be calling.  Personally, I think he is stringing me along and I don’t have high hopes for him to follow through, but time will tell.  From the cat food store I went to eat Mexican Food that I have been craving.  Holy crap I ordered up 2 Burritos, 2 Hard Tacos, Rice & Beans.  Rather than putting some of the items in a combo they charged me ala carte which ran the bill up.  What should have been $12 was $30.  So I got back by not leaving a tip.  I was seriously stuffed and sorry that I ordered so much food because of how it was feeling in my belly and also because of the small chunk it took out of my wallet.  Then I moved on to Target where I scored!  I got cat litter and a $5 target gift card, I got treats there were two more $5 gift cards.  I dropped $50 but considering that they gave me $15 I could use on future purchases I think it was totally worth it. 

I wanted to stop in at the local Chef store to pick up a new pizza cutter and a pizza stone but I talked myself out of it saying, you have spent too much already – go home.  So that is what I did.  I unloaded everything at home and then got involved with taking care of the printer.  I loaded it full of ink and emptied the waste tray.  I had to fight to get the maintenance kit back in.  I found reporting and printed out some stats on the printer.  My late partner purchased this some 7 years ago, he printed 57 thousand pages and used an ungodly amount of ink.  He replaced the maintenance kit in March of 2012 and he passed away in April of 2012.  The kit says that it’s at the 78% mark.  I printed out a few things.  One of the items I wanted to print was a screen grab that I got from a porn movie.  It was really HOT – I had printed it out on my ink jet and it’s on the wall.  I wanted to see how much better it would look if it was printed with wax ink.  However, I apparently didn’t save the file which was kind of disappointing and I don’t feel like regenerating it so I moved on.  This printer is really awesome but I still don’t know that I will be printing a whole lot on it due to the cost.  I am squared away on supplies every ink level is between 75% and 100% full.  I have a great supply of black, which is what I think I will be printing the most of.  It’s super quick once it’s warmed up and totally beats my ink jet.

Then I went and researched podcasting.  I figured out that would be a great way to get my voice out there without video.  My late partner has a lot of broadcast quality microphones and I really wanted to use one of them but I need to order an adapter.  Rather than spend more money I elected to give it a go with a headset that I got with my Dragon Naturally Speaking.  It works great.  I found myself recording and re-recording the 1st episode.  I was almost to the point where I was ready to call it quits.  I paused and prepped a word document with notes on the points I wanted to cover.  Coming up with content is going to be a little difficult, but some how I think I will manage.  Finally around 10:30p I was able to publish the first episode.  I really want to keep the podcast and the blog separated at this point.  Sorry to tease you with it, but if you really want the address leave me a comment and I will either e-mail it to you or if I get enough responses I will just post it here.  It’s aimed at Gay Guys and ideally I would like to help younger guys or guys in general who are either questioning their sexuality or dealing with coming out.  I think I know a thing or two about both subjects.  Thus far no one has listened to it and I haven’t actually promoted it, but I will be working on that.  My goal is to try to record an episode a week and really to let the audience drive what I talk about – that will take some of the work out of it in trying to think up content.  It feels really good to be able to do this.  Right now I am able to do it for free but the service I am using is after me to pay them and touting extra features. 

Considering that I was really stressed out after I got that published I went to turn in for the night.  I watched a little TV and then hit the bed.  I told the children that it was our last night to sleep together.  That tomorrow night things would be going back to normal and I would be headed back to work on Monday.  I was fortunate in that after I fended them off at 6a they allowed me to sleep until 9a.  It was a combination of LB, Momma and Insty.  When I finally did get up out of bed, Insty was broadcasting out to the world that I was alive and on the move.  Gee she is a loud mouth.  You would think she was the Siamese but nope not the case. 

I got dressed and headed out to breakfast.  I went to Cracker Barrel and yes I did see the cute waiter that I asked out but we had no contact.  I had a cute guy sitting next to me that I wanted to pounce on but he was with his family and I saw that one of his brothers had a knife so there were two good reasons not to broach the subject.  I remained quiet and observed from a distance, just taking in his beauty.  Eventually I was able to take in my food, which was good.  I didn’t get pancakes as usual because I knew that I would be down for the count when the sugar wore off.  I need to keep going all day long w/o any naps.  A break is okay but just don’t fall asleep.  I was stuffed and made my way out to pay and on to the grocery store.  It was sleeting out and it’s really super cold, I was chilly even when I was in store with my coat on, I was still cold.  I picked up enough stuff to be able to make it through the week.  I saw Heet the product that removes water from your gas tank and picked up a couple bottles of that.  I stopped for gas and put in a bottle then it was on to home, where I was finally able to warm up after a few minutes. 

I managed to take care of the litter boxes and did the dreaded claw trimming.  I also got flea medicine on everyone for the first time in a very long time.  My hope is that it will kill anything that is living on or off of any of them and it will give Momma some relief, she needs it bad.

I ventured into cleaning and found that Marv spit up 2 doses of his medicine.  I just picked them up and will reuse them on him.  He is really tricky to pill – you think he’s got it and he walks away and covertly spits it out.  No wonder he pukes.  I managed to keep busy and we are approaching 4pm.  I kind of hate that but well I have managed to accomplish most things on my list.  I still have time to keep on going.

I soaked the shower head in CLR – I actually took it down against my will.  It was really the best way to take care of the task that I had put off for far too long.  I don’t see a huge improvement but I will find out soon if there is in fact any improvement.  A nice HOT shower sounds appealing but first I have to shave and that well it’s a task that I would love to put off but it has to be done before I leave for work so I will take care of it tonight.  The shower I figure will help relax me and aid in a good nights rest, despite the fact that when I get up I will have to have a shower in order to leave the house.  Between that and a can of soda it’s what gets me going in the morning. 

I have seen it snowing and looked at the weather snow is in the forecast but I can’t see how much or if this is just going to be flurries.  In any case there will probably be enough to screw up the morning commute.  Between the volume of traffic and the volume of calls those are the two things that I really don’t looking forward to dealing with. 

Considering it was cold outside, I stocked up on Soup.  So I can eat a bowl every night to warm me up.  Plus I have a couple cans of Chili.  Soup is a quick meal it satisfies and if it’s hot enough it will eventually make me start to sweat.  However, the menu for tonight is Pizza as usual on Sunday.  Tombstone Supreme to be exact. 

There are many things that I didn’t get to accomplish with my time off.  I feel like parts of it were wasted but today I have managed to kick butt pretty good. 

I hope that the New Year is going really well for you and that your able to stay warm!  If you have an idea or would like for me to talk about something in particular, please leave a comment.  I don’t bite folks and I will even go a step further in that if you don’t want your comment published, say so and I will be sure that I am the only person who sees it. 

Almost forgot, Mr. Bear appears to be doing much better.  I have reduced him back to his normal dose of medicine.  I can see that the extra dose has turned him into a hungry cat.  He is wolfing food down and asking for more and more.  Here’s to hoping he stays better for a very long time!

With it being a return from the holiday break I am expecting an influx in the volume and really am not sure if I will be able to post tomorrow or not.  I will be back as soon as humanly possible.  Until then be kind to each other and try to stay warm.  Talk with you peeps later.

Mopped the table

Happy New Year.  I hope that things are going well for you thus far into the New Year.  I got off work early on New Years Eve.  I went to get my haircut, found out that the waiter I asked out goes to the same place as I for his haircut.  He wasn’t there but in talking with the staff they told me.  I am starving hungry for Mexican food.  I went to the grocery store in the hopes to find Mexican Lasagna, it’s something they prepare.  There was none there.  I did get 2 orders of Spaghetti and had that for supper.  A friend of mine phoned and invited me to come out to a local casino with her and her husband.  They had a room at a motel and were staying the night.  I told her that I just got home and really didn’t want to be out tonight.  She encouraged me and tried but I didn’t budge.  So she had to run, which is understandable.  I would have had a little bit of a drive on my hands and she told me you can go home before midnight.  I said nah.  Probably better that I stay away from a casino.  I have a serious gambling problem in that once I start I don’t want to stop.  I keep telling myself I will win big just one more play.  Since I know that about myself I stay away from the casinos and then I don’t have the problem. 

I sat back and turned on the police scanner, nothing interested happened.  I watched The Interview on pay per view and it was a decent movie.  I would have rather seen it in a theater to get the full experience but home did okay.  There were a lot of laughs to be had.  It takes a bit to get me to laughing.  I just had a chuckle here and there. 

I took some selfies with me and LB.  I took photos of the other cats.  I was up past midnight but not too long and I was in bed.  It was just getting too late and my batteries needed to recharge. 

I have not been out of the house since last year.  I also haven’t had a shower or shaved since last year.  While I wanted to venture out today, I talked myself out of it.  I watched more TV and took it easy.  Then I moved my late partners printer to the basement.  That was a task that killed my back.  I also had to move a small filing cabinet so the printer would have something to sit on.  I got it hooked up, paper loaded and fired it up.  It’s been off for at least a year.  Once it started to warm up, it smelled like something was burning.  I let it keep on going but covered the smoke detector, just in case.  Finally the moment I was waiting for it was all powered up and ready to go.  I printed a couple things to it and of course it started asking for ink right away.  What to do.  I went through his supply and found he had all but one color and of course that is the color that it needs.  Cyan to be exact.  Well I had to decide if it was worth it to keep it going and I did some price shopping.  I found a deal on Amazon and ordered ink, a waste tray, and a maintenance kit and paid $260, which is a huge bargain  The ink is off brand and not genuine Xerox.  I don’t understand how wax ink can be so expensive but in their marketing material Xerox says the supplies are cheaper than a laser printer.  Uh I don’t think so.  I would say they are right at or slightly surpass that of a color laser printer.  Genuine Xerox Ink 3 blocks of each color including black would set me back $450 minimum.  See what I mean.  It really does do a great job.  He has gone through 57 thousand sheets and that is nothing for that printer.  He used it hard and published a newsletter monthly from it for years.  So I will use it considerably less and the amount of money I just shelled out for supplies will last me at least 10 times longer than it would him.  I totally understand why he was always broke – between ink, paper and the maintenance kit that would easily eat up a paycheck.  I am not sure how much use it will see from me but it will be no where near the volume he put it through every month. 

In moving the file cabinet I found a bunch of crap paperwork – bills and other items that he had saved.  Plus a very large supply of Pendaflex folders and regular colored file folders.  There are more there than I will ever use in my lifetime.  That was my guy – go big or go home.  I did find information about the house, homeowners association, various owners manuals and legal documents like birth certificates and his divorce papers.  Jeez he really did save everything.  I threw most of his credit card statements in the trash.  The accounts are closed because he entered into Bankruptcy so anyone who wants to try to commit fraud will certainly have picked the wrong persons account and the wrong identity to steal.  I don’t think there will be a problem but honestly really could care less at this point.  I am giving away some of the extra folders.  I mean there is no reason for them to sit here and collect dust.  He spent a small fortune on office supplies and someone might as well get use out of them.

Oh my back is killing me and I can imagine tomorrow won’t be fun.  My therapist called and moved my appointment to the afternoon, which will work out better.  Then I don’t have to make 2 trips – 1 to see her and 1 to dine with my friends.  I will simply go to my friends after therapy and that should put me there with a few minutes to spare.  I need to get out tomorrow in the morning.  I found a local office of the title company and figured I might try to stop by to see if they can help me  I am sure they are involved in the transaction some how, even if it is to walk paper work to the courthouse.  I really don’t want to enter in to a legal battle with them.  I just want them to do their damn job that I paid for. 

In cleaning up I found a external hard drive  - plugged it in and it contains a backup of his pc back in like 2007.  I also found some porn pictures on CD.  I was really surprised when I popped it in and saw pictures of me on the disc.  Thank God that it fell into my hands.  We did make an amateur porn video on one of our trips – he really had to work to talk me into it.  I have found copies of that all over the house.  Not really happy about that.  I mean if that fell into the wrong hands it would be very embarrassing for me.  Which is why I was against it from the start.  Things like that fall into the wrong hands all the time and it causes nothing but embarrassment and pain.  I will say that it was a little bit of a turn on to make it but I would never do something like that again.  There is such a thing as Revenge Porn where a former lover/partner posts photos of their ex on-line to humiliate them and try to cause them pain.  That in many states is a crime.  Still you have to be caught and then you are prosecuted.  The law can’t prevent someone from acting on their emotions and posting photos. 

I was thinking the table is wood.  The steam mop works on wooden surfaces  The table is made of wood.  So I grabbed a fresh pad and mopped the table.  Its super clean.  LB lays on it during the day.  He used to lay down at my side but now he lays at the opposite end.  I see him on the camera and have caught him a couple times in person.  He is quick to abandon the table.  I wish I had the camera when BLU was alive, he would have provided endless entertainment plus I could have caught him being mischievous.

I am going to watch a little more TV, surf the net.  I have to work on my finances.  I have paid bills already but I have monthly sheets where I account for every penny.  I prepare them on an annual basis and they also contain the gotcha expenses like insurance and other services that I have that come due on an annual basis.  Last year a lot of things caught me off guard.  This year it’s my mission to be more financial aware of what is coming due and plan accordingly for it.  I need more financial discipline so that I can continue to make a go of it.  It is easy to spin out of control and I want to avoid that if at all possible.  I know that my big expense this year will be a new roof for the house.  I figure between 5 and 7 thousand dollars.  I would like to pay cash instead of financing it but honestly right now I would have to finance it.  I don’t want to sign up to take on more than I can afford, which is also very easy to do. 

Heck I am way behind here I haven’t even put up the new calendars.  Just something about wanting to be lazy appeals to me.  That to me is what a holiday is all about.  Being lazy and enjoying your time.  Be it napping, surfing the net or watching TV.  I did play with Bear today.  He seems a little better, but I am still concerned about him.  Cats are after all the masters of disguise.   

Well off to do something before I just give up and collapse.  Talk with you peeps later.