Dude Soup–Large Bowl for Friday–enjoy :)

Friyay

We did it again, it’s Friday!  Hello & welcome back to another post. 

My leg was really bothering me last night, felt cold and I felt the tingling sensation like when you sit on your leg/foot for too long.  I got out the massager and ran it for a bit.  I did some walking around the house.  Wound up taking a shower which is where I got the most relief. 

Had Fish with Mac & Cheese for supper.  The cats basked in the wind looking out the backdoor that I opened for them.  They were memorized and constantly watching for something moving.  One of the kids next door ruined it for us because he started up the mower.  Tiny kid, large push lawn mower.  He can barley start the thing.  He made a couple of passes and the engine was making sounds, I knew what was going to happen and it did.  The engine died.  We had fun watching him try to fill it with gas, he inhaled the fumes and began coughing and then he had a hell of a time starting the mower. Meanwhile a lawn guy showed up and was mowing a neighbors lawn.  I wanted to go help the poor kid but with a little bit of time he was able to get it started again.  That’s when I closed up shop and called it a day. 

The cats were interested in sunning and watching out the windows.  I was able to retreat to my room to finish up NYC Emergency and it was really good.  I hope they do a second season. 

Skimmed social media and took in some Network TV.  It was an ok night, nothing great but nothing horribly bad either, other than my leg bothering me. 

Slept mostly decent.  Rudy had to climb all over me.  I found him sleeping on top of me on a couple of occasions.  I like it but when I need to move I need to move and it matters not that he is on top of me.  The march of the trash trucks woke me up and that’s when I gave up.  Got out of bed a 1/2 hour early. 

Went to the kitchen for breakfast for me and the cats.  I ate a bit too much but then again I do love breakfast and I had time on my hands.  We have severe weather forecast for today (possible tornados) so I used the early wake up call to my advantage and grabbed the trash barrel. 

I’m wearing a short sleeve shirt that I swore off a while back.  Every time I wear this shirt something bad happens.  I didn’t think about it but the tornadoes that are possible, perhaps I should switch shirts.  The one thing I thought is that I’d have no problem getting these cats to the basement.  Since I keep them out they always want to come in.  Whereas with Gator the door was wide open and it just didn’t matter her and her family were born in the basement and it was just another place in the house so it’s like there was no attraction.  Morea & Rudy have only been down here a few times and it’s like pulling teeth to get them back up stairs.  I suppose that is to my advantage at the moment. 

I’ve got all of my morning tasks and other work out of the way.  My day is wide open until 4:30p and then that is when it pickup.  I hope to be done by 5:30p but it wouldn’t surprise me if it was 6p.  The good news is that when I am done I can shut everything off and walk away.  I don’t have to go back until Wednesday and then I will be on-call, which will suck but hey it’s only 3 days. 

I am probably going to head up in a bit to just lounge.  I know that will anger the gods and work will rain down or maybe not.  It’s a risk I am willing to take.  The cats will be beyond pleased with my decision. 

I have walked about a mile on the treadmill this morning using the incline in the all uphill position and then slowly working my way back to ground level.  That got the blood pumping but my leg is still bothering me a little bit.  I didn’t leak a drop of sweat but boy I was a little winded.  I’m out of shape and I know it.  Pass the pie, cake, candy, pasta and chips please. 

I might be depressed and unhappy but I am not keeping myself from eating good food.  Like I told my doctor.  I’ve got two loves in this world that’s men and food.  If I can’t have one I am damn sure going to have the other. 

Speaking of men, I am slowly starting to run out of guys to choose from on the app.  I’ve got nothing back thus far.  I have expressed interest in guys young and even a bit older but thus far it’s all crickets.  I even found a local famous person that I had no idea was gay.  The app did show me a straight man last night.  Maybe he wants to experiment but I say no to straight guys just because I think it’s the app made a mistake.  I mean I suppose I will never know but better safe than sorry. 

No real plans for tomorrow or Sunday.  Monday I need to hit up the 2 local places where I might be able to obtain a new hose/washer for the water softener.  I hope that pays off and I don’t have to call a plumber.  That would be a great win for me.  Of course right now I hope the severe weather for today doesn’t affect my home or my need will be greater than a stupid hose or washer.  I’ve got my eyes & ears open and the scanner is on.  Glad I’ve got 2 of them 1 for the desk and the other portable.  I recently found a Uniden model on Amazon that goes for $600 but it’s wicked smart and way more modern.  It along with a writing instrument I want that is going for close to $500 and I could easily afford to order both and it wouldn’t impact me in the least.  However, I have become a hoarder of cash and I like to hang on to my money. 

Speaking of money I looked at my 401k and man I got a nice surprise there.  It’s worth more now than it ever has been.  Not exactly sure what happened but I hope the bottom doesn’t fall out.  If things continue to grow there is hope that I could maybe partially retire someday.  I mean after working for years I think everyone should be able to retire and enjoy life but it just doesn’t work that way. 

One thing is for sure time stops for no one and the weekend is ticking closer and closer with every second on the clock.  I also know that my 4 days will be over in a flash but I am going to try to savor them as best as I can.  Get in some time with the cats as well as do things that I want to do.  Thinking of hitting up a new restaurant.  It’s a cousin restaurant to the place I was at a few weeks back.  They have Lasagna and I can only imagine it’s phenomenal.  Time will tell it also appears to be a little bit closer to home but still a little bit of a jaunt.  I’m okay with that as long as it’s nice weather. 

I hope that you have a relaxing and fulfilling weekend.  Take care and I will talk with you all again soon.  Be well. 

Ramblings

Morning and Happy Friday Eve! 

Welcome back and I hope all is well in your world.  I went up yesterday afternoon for the day only to find out one of the cats (probably Morea) got sick.  She had it bad over the weekend, she was jumping all around kind of reminded me a bit of one of Momma’s kids.  This time wasn’t quite that bad it was just multiple sites to clean up.  Cleaning up after a cat regardless of what that means is just not fun and not something I enjoy and I never have.  I made a point to brush both of them last night.  Morea was really furry and Rudy hardly had anything come off of him.  He’s just a small guy and honestly between his efforts and those of Morea I think that is why he doesn’t have much fur to come off of him.  She is like a vacuum for fur but they are both obsessive bathers of themselves and each other.  It’s cute but it’s also annoying after a while. 

I had a Stouffer’s Chicken, Bacon and Ranch bowl for supper.  I added a couple dashes of hot sauce for a little kick.  I had a Magnum mini double caramel Ice Cream Bar for desert.  Not the worst meal but not the best either. 

Started watching Emergency NYC on Netflix.  It’s interesting but it’s also real life so there is a bit of a fear factor there.  I’ve always liked reality medical shows.  I can watch on TV but to be there in real life no thanks. 

Got to bed with the bed hogs.  I noticed this morning when I woke up Morea was taking up a tiny part of the edge of the bed, but then again she was awake.  That was no doubt thanks to Rudy.  I had gotten up a couple times for the bathroom and Rudy was right by my side.  The last time he decided it was play time for him and his sister.  She didn’t want any part of it and I tried my best to stay out of it and concentrate on getting back to sleep.  I didn’t get a whole lot of sleep but did get some rest. 

I heard back from my doctor this morning, finally.  The lab results that were late to publish, finally published overnight.  Looks like my A1C dropped a few more points and I am at 5.5 now it was at 5.8.  It is all the work of the medicine because my diet sucks.  Anyway, the doc wrote me about my concerns and told me my leg wasn’t anything that serious but that more activity would be a good thing.  As for why I’m exhausted since my Testosterone levels came back normal he thinks it might be sleep apnea.  I however don’t doubt that I have sleep apnea but I don’t think that is the culprit.  The urine sample they took returned with something growing in it but the lab indicated that it was sent to them improperly so I don’t know if I actually have a bug or if it was due to someone’s mishandling of the sample.  I asked the doc about the possibility of me having a bug and I am waiting to hear back on that. 

I don’t really feel anything yet from the new supplements but after taking the extra fish oil I will be interested to have a look at my cholesterol and see if it’s better, worse or the same. 

I’ve got a call to make in a few minutes.  Then a meeting this afternoon and my day is done.  Two oranges left in the fridge and I plan to polish both of them off.  Then wrangle the trash and get that out.  I’ve got network TV to catchup on and the Netflix series to finish. 

No real plans for the weekend at the moment.  Hope you have a great day and I will talk with you all again soon.  Be well. 

Middle of the week

Welcome to the middle of the week.  Glad were here but I would much prefer Friday.  I know hang on and be patient it will be here soon enough.  I’ve got some work to do late in the day on Friday but I am more looking forward to when I am done and can shut off work email on my phone for 4 days.  Nothing like taking a break – it’s refreshing.  Sad part is that I have to go back and that sucks. 

Yesterday I tried to leave early and people kept pestering me.  I finally just put my foot down and took off.  I heard the phone chirping the entire way home.  I looked and there was plenty of things to take care of but I made all of them wait until this morning, even my boss and I usually jump when he writes.  I’ve learned that he will often forget about things once he hits send and he counts on you to reply to remind or refresh his memory.  I use that more than once to my advantage. 

I was so happy to get home.  I brought home 4 of my pens from work.  I left a couple there and who knows when I go back in a couple weeks they might come home as well.  I’m buying a pouch to store all of them in.  That’s the thing to do to keep them safe.  I want to expand my collection but at the same time I like hanging on to cash so it’s a bit of a struggle. 

Found out that my Thanksgiving friends are doing carry out from the same place we do Thanksgiving at.  I looked at the dine in menu and they have Cannelloni I would love to try that.  It’s not in the take out package.  You just get basic stuff, which is okay.  I’m sure I won’t leave hungry since it’s good food and I’m very happy about that.

Morea & Rudy were all over me yesterday when I got home.  They wanted to play and I just wanted to plop.  I got them to settle down.  I tried a new soda Strawberry & Crème flavored Doctor Pepper.  Very good.  Not something I think I would drink with a meal but alone it tastes fine.  I am also very fond of the newly formulated Pepsi Zero, it’s a bit sweeter and appeals to me more.  New can be better.  I’d just love to go back to the Original Coke before they monkeyed with the formula.  That was the real good stuff but then again I am dating myself. 

Speaking of dating, I browsed through my selection of guys in the dating app.  No nibbles yet but I’ve sent a few messages off.  Lots of what seem to be decent guys but there are many that I pass on.  Thus far I have yet to pay for this app but I do think that will happen, at least a 1 month subscription.  They aren’t cheap but if it yields results then I am okay with paying.  I am reluctant to give in just based on past results.  

Saw a few good You Tube videos and finished up watching Razzle Dazzle – Bert Kreischer's newest special.  It made me laugh so much a second time and hey I needed that. 

I had the overwhelming desire to get in bed and sleep but I managed to have some supper, desert and last for a couple hours before I called it quits.  Had a slight nightmare, woke up with my feet off the bed again, Rudy tried to get me up early more than once and that failed.  Finally got up and got going.  Now I’m ready for a snack and a nap.  Kind of feels like I am regressing to when I was a child and needed a nap. 

Work is calling again so I need to answer.  Got a dumb meeting in a bit and then unless something comes up I am free for the rest of the day.  Looking forward to the end of this day as it’s a step closer to the weekend.  Hope that your having a good day and all is well.  Talk with you all again soon.  Take care!

Disobey GPS

Morning … Rudy had me up a couple times during the night.  I wasn’t terribly happy about it but managed to fall back asleep.  He tried his best to get me up.  I can only surmise that he either wanted to play or food.  However, it’s something that I won’t ever know since I didn’t give in.  Funny thing is that when it was really time to get up he was sound asleep so I got to wake him up for a change. 

Damn it’s really dark at 6a.  I got the cats fed and then myself fed.  Off to the shower and then finally to get dressed.  I was doing really good from a time standpoint.  I checked GPS and it said 30 minutes.  That was going the normal new way to work.  I use Waze and then the built in Navigation in my vehicle.  They compete pretty good together and arrival times are usually 3 minutes apart.  However, Waze said to go the way I talked about.  The car said to go the normal way.  Sadly I gave into the car.  There was a major crash and I had to take a different route at the last minute.  The route I went on today I refer to as the raceway.  The lanes are super thin and everyone drives like it’s the Indy 500 and they are competing for first prize.  I had a couple of close calls but thankfully I put enough distance when I drive that it really wasn’t an issue.  I can’t do a whole lot when someone decides to occupy that space at the last minute and swerves into my lane.  I made it to work but was about 10 minutes later than I wanted it to be. 

It’s not like things are bustling this morning.  I think that is mostly because I am here.  I’ve knocked out my morning work just waiting for the mid-morning meeting in a couple hours.  Then after lunch there is another meeting.  Then unless something pops I am done.  I don’t plan on leaving until later in the afternoon but my goal is to get out before rush hour starts.  usually 3 to 3:30p is best.  Traffic is still jumping but the volume is a bit lighter than if you wait until 4 or 5. 

I was able to get a discount on my TV again for 12 more months.  The lady I spoke with forgot all about the phone and I have a message in about that, not sure if she will be able to find anything for me but if push comes to shove I can always change the phone plan I am on.  This is my home phone and the only reason why I have it is for the alarm.  It comes in handy now and then especially if I need to keep my cell open for say a work call but I still need to make a personal call.  If I set my cell phone down and it blends in and I can’t find it I can call from the landline to the cell to find it.  I don’t use it enough to justify keeping it but I hang on to it for the alarm, if I disconnected it and threw cation to the wind something would happen and I would wish that I had it, so therefore I just keep it. 

I polished off the Rotisserie Chicken last night.  The cats were going nuts over the smell.  Since Rudy like to get into the bathroom trash for Q-Tips I figured that I would throw everything away in the kitchen and then for safety sake just take the trash out.  This way there is no chance either of them would get a bone or get into any trouble with the carcass.  Wow it was really good and I even dabbed some hot sauce on here and there to give it a kick.  For $5 and to get 2 meals out of it I think that is a bargain amongst bargains.  I will for sure do it again. 

I’ve wanted to try a new app for dating called Guys Only Dating.  Damn security on that app is impossible.  It thinks that I have an account but I don’t recall using it.  I am using the dating cell # that I have had for a bit.  I guess the last person that had the # had an account.  Anyway I gave up on that.  I found something else and jumped in last night.  I haven’t purchased any subscriptions yet but I can foresee that happening.  I found several guys that I liked and expressed interest in.  Not sure if I will get any hits but my chances are better on an app than just hoping and asking out a random guy. 

My Thanksgiving friends just invited me to Easter Dinner.  Wow that is next weekend already.  It’s going to be an emotional week.  I said yes they wanted to do 4 or 5, I told them better at 4.  Not sure if that will happen but we shall see.  I will be on-call but I don’t expect anything to pop.  I will bring my laptop along just in case.  That should ward off Murphy or so I hope. 

There was no The Neighborhood on last night and I wasn’t happy about it..  However, it looks like Young Sheldon will be on this week so there is something to look forward to.  I expect the week to fly by after we get through tomorrow.  I am looking forward to being done with this week and enjoying a 4 day weekend again, that will be nice or so I hope. 

Here’s hoping that your having a great day.  Posting this and then scouring around to see if I can find something to do or someone to chat with for a bit.  Take care and I will talk with you all again soon. 

Chat with the boss

Nothing major.  Found out that all of the changes/promotions on our team are done.  Not everything that he submitted was approved but he said that he would try again next year.  Also he told me that we have a Quarterly Bonus program but you can only submit someone for a bonus 1 time per year.  I told him that it was deceptive and flat out dumb to call it Quarterly if it’s actually Annually.  I was supposed to get a bonus for work I did in Q4 last year but that isn’t going to happen. 

Apparently both him and I have health challenges.  He’s really fatigued and gets exhausted quite easily.  This has been going on for a while now.  He’s got more tests to do next week so he will be out some himself. 

My time off for next week was approved.  He told me not to stress over anything at work.  That’s not happening it’s more frustration both with him and my co-worker but I just kept my big fat mouth shut.  I got the usual your doing a good job keep it up speech that I am valued and my work/efforts are noticed by many.  Duh!  It’s stuff I already knew. 

I did take a quick break got a snack for Morea & Rudy.  Rudy ate it Morea was too busy looking out the back window.  No one on my team knows about them.  I actually only have told 2 people at work that physically work in the same office that I got them.  I don’t plan on making it widely public.  I grabbed a couple of small oranges and ate them.  They were really good. 

It’s about time to stop for lunch.  Just a sandwich, soda, some chips.  Then probably resting and watching TV where I will likely take a nap from just being bored.  I don’t feel tired.  The dryer just went off a few minutes ago so I need to lug up the laundry. 

On my plumbing project I got a couple of specialty stores that are in the area that cater to plumbers.  They are only open during the week.  So next Monday I will venture to them to see if they can match the hose or find me a washer.  If no luck then when I feel like it I will call the plumber.  I am more about trying to solve this myself and minimizing costs.  I’d like to be successful and not need the plumber but I’ve got them in my back pocket just in case.  It’s not a major requirement to get back to the softener but it’s something that I would like to do. 

That’s it for now.  Off to tend to the meows, grab a bite and take a break.  Then there is 1 BS meeting later this afternoon.  After that I can call it a day if I want, it will kind of depend upon what is going on. 

Take care, talk again soon.

Back 2 Fun

Morning!  The subject has to do with my return to work and it’s anything but fun.  My co-worker who got a promotion has suddenly managed to radically improve certain parts of his job that he was lacking in before.  Imagine that more money and a title change could do all of that.  There were things that he could have also taken care of while I was out but he left for me.  He did the bare minimum to cover for me while I was out.  It’s pathetic but not a whole lot I can do about it.  Except return the favor when he is out but it’s just not in me to do a 1/2 ass job. 

It took me a bit but I am finally caught up and now more work is arriving.  I don’t plan on breaking my back today but I will get my job done.  I’ve got a mid-morning touch point with my boss.  This was a meeting that was supposed to happen on Monday but since I was out we normally skip it but apparently he felt the need to reschedule.  Hopefully this is just a formality and nothing of significance is pending. 

I’ve got laundry going so that I can go in tomorrow.  Need to get up and throw that in the dryer.  Plus take a break and go see the cats.

I got some decent sleep last night with just my normal dose of medicine.  I had a bizarre dream that I was watching a TV show and it is something mainstream that I’ve seen before but this was like a different version.  The main character was on a murdering spree with a gun.  Not exactly sure what that is about.

It was a little hard to believe that my time off and the weekend had flown by so fast.  However, that tends to happen.  We got to watch the neighbor kids play some catch yesterday afternoon.  It was semi-enjoyable.

I reheat the Rotisserie Chicken.  It was still mostly cold because I got nervous that it would dry out so I took it out after about a minute and 30 seconds.  Still it was pretty good.  The spice wasn’t anything special no real flavor that I noticed.  I plan to have another go at it tonight.  It will probably be here for a couple days.  I have my Stouffers Casserole since I made a Target run yesterday.  It was on sale which was nice, who doesn’t love a bargain or some form of a price break. 

Rudy tried to get me up at 3a and my bladder is the only thing that actually made me get out of bed.  I was out like a light by 10p.  After that interruption it was right back to sleep and then he started up closer to normal time.  Funny thing is when I wanted to get up he wanted to keep me trapped in bed.  My bladder was about to explode so that didn’t work out terribly well for Rudy.  Morea just stayed put until she saw that I was really up and it was time to eat. 

We all ventured to the kitchen and had breakfast.  I turned on work email and had like 250 messages a lot of which were junk.  Morea had to have her attention time before I was able to start my day.  I am not eager to talk with my boss but it’s going to happen at some point.  Also not looking forward to waking up super early and heading in tomorrow but I do need to be scene, it’s been a bit and people are probably wondering.  I won’t be in next week since I am both on-call and out for Mon & Tues.  I scheduled my next doctors appointment yesterday for 3 months from now and damn if I didn’t choose a week that I am on-call.  I could change it but I am not going to.  They can cover for me like they will have to do next week.  Stuff happens and while I try to work around my on-call schedule for many things there are times when it’s unavoidable. 

I let both of them in the basement yesterday afternoon and its fun for them but it’s murder for me when I am ready to go back upstairs they want to keep exploring.  I don’t mind now and then letting them come in and nose around.  There is really nothing down there that can hurt them so long as they stay out of the drop ceiling and the laundry room.  I had to get a can of compressed air and squirt it a few times to get them to leave.  Then we all went back up. 

Well I am going to move a bit around here and then get back to the so called fun.  I can only imagine that next week on Wednesday I will be doing the same digging out bit and that is never fun but it’s something that has to be done anytime I take time off.  I don’t quite know everything that took place while I was out nor do I care to know.  I’ve got the gist of things and all of the really important stuff is taken care of. 

I hope you have a great day and a great week ahead.  We will talk again soon.  Be well and take care!

Horny Sunday

Hello and welcome!  I went to bed late and Rudy started my day early for me.  I tried to ignore him and sleep in but that wasn’t permitted for long.  I did get him to jump on my side and lay there for a bit.  He eventually wound up down by my face and turned on his motor so that I could hear it.  He then started to wash my face, which of course will wake anyone up. 

We shuffled off to the kitchen and I got him & his sister breakfast.  Then time to get my meds and get dressed.  It was so cold out and I really wasn’t terribly excited about getting out in it. 

However, I pushed forward.  I had a Carmel Apple Pancake with cream cheese icing, cinnamon a slight drizzle of maple syrup and real apple slices baked in.  Damn it was so good, I think I found a new favorite.  Next time more cream cheese icing  and apple slices.  I polished it all off but it was difficult and a bit dry since I can’t do maple syrup.  I think it took 3 or 4 sodas but it was so good. 

I thought I was going to Target but I wound up coming home.  The old stomach was full and bothering me.  I figured I could use some down time before I started moving.  That lead to me watching TV, taking a brief nap and staying home for 2 hours. 

I got up and got moving.  Hit up Target and it was warmer out so my long sleeve shirt was fine.  This was a very expensive Target run just under $130.  I got everything on my list, got some treats for the cats and some canned food.  They are low again but not enough to hit up the pet food store.  That’s next weekends fun.  There was a couple of cute guy workers out and that’s always nice to look at. 

Next stop the grocery store.  Where I saw more hunky guys and they made me think so many impure thoughts.  I’m surprised that I was able to keep my hands to myself.  I bought a Rotisserie Chicken it’s got some spice mix on it but I’m unclear if it’s super spicy or just mild for flavor.  I suppose I will find out soon enough.  It’s cooked and was refrigerated.  The store I used to visit years ago had them cooked and sold them warm so it was a take n eat or bring it home and keep it warm until you want to eat it.

Next and final stop before home.  The gas station.  No hot guys there.  That was also an expensive fill up for me, just under $30 for 8.917 gallons of fuel.  I still had plenty left to make it to work and back home but that would have come close to draining the tank and I don’t do that terribly often as it makes me nervous. 

Back home to unload and Morea & Rudy were waiting for me.  Morea got in my way and I almost fell, thankfully I was close to the fridge and I landed on that but never lost my footing, she was able to dart out of the way so she was unharmed.  I was pissed but no one got hurt.  I opened the back window and let them smell outside.  The kids next door were playing on their deck and then decided to start mowing their yard.  The door went closed shortly after the mower started.  I don’t need to sneeze anymore than I am already.  The curtain is open if they want to look out. 

Took my first larger dose of Fish Oil and feel okay.  Sent a note off to the doctor to see what he has to say about the blood flow thing.  My leg was bothering me last night.  I had a cramp this morning but was able to stop it just as it was starting.  I hate those but don’t get them often. 

Bills are paid, porn has been surfed & updated.  Personal email has been sifted through.  Working on laundry.  Going to head up to grab another load and then go back up and work on setting pills out for the week ahead.  I am not fond of that task and now that I have added to the list it will take a bit longer.  Need to clean the place up a bit, watch some TV relax and enjoy my last day of freedom for at least 5 days. 

Next weekend will also be a long one for me, which will make for a short week and what’s not to love about that because it will be over with and I will be back to a weekend before I know it.  So difficult to comprehend that were going into April already.  Feels like it’s February still.  Time marches on though.  Were close to getting into busy season which brings some added stresses and I am sure this week won’t exactly be a picnic, considering that I have to play catchup and then deal with what ever fun is on deck for this week.  Yeah, back to meetings and BS.  It pays the bills and that is the only reason why I continue to stick with it and why most people do the same thing.  If money grew on trees we would be planting those things everywhere and taking such good care of them. 

Well I hope you see some cute guys or gals (whatever tickles your fancy) and enjoy what’s left of the weekend.  Talk with you all again soon.  Be well. 

WHAT A MESS

THURSDAY … I saw the doctor. Minimal wait time and a decent visit. First time w/o a mask in 3 years, that felt so good. I talked about my exhaustion in that if I sit still for any length of time I can fall asleep at the drop of a hat and have no control over it. It doesn’t happen when I am busy or concentrating on anything. I talked about my feet, they turn light purple when I first go to get up and moving in the morning. It’s been that way for a bit and I have neglected to mention it but this time I wrote things down ahead of time. Like an old person who forgets things. It’s very helpful. We talked about Testosterone and I got my level checked. That could account for a lot of symptoms I have and have been having for a while.

I came home to see the cats afterwards. Rested up a bit and then made my trip to the hardware store. They didn’t have an exact match. I got some jerry-rigged thing and dropped a fair amount of money. I got two just in case I got the hot side in and the cold side went out. Then I came back home.

Spent more time with the cats and then I opted to venture out for supper. It was not a very good meal. To top it off it was raining and dark when I left the restaurant. I happened to turn my head as I was driving, it was the wrong time. I hit something metal that was in the roadway. That of course caused concern that I did some damage. Thankfully, I didn’t see anything.

Once I got home, I reviewed my doctors’ notes and my after-care summary. I saw that he noted that I had a 1+ pulse in my leg. The number and plus sign were in red, which caused some concern. I did some research and that’s not the # for a pulse that you want. A 2+ seems to be normal and if you just finished a run or a workout then a 3+. 1+ means that it’s weak and varies. That would explain why my feet turn purple. However, when he felt for a pulse it was mid-afternoon and I was sitting down. My feet have bothered me a little bit but now that I saw this 1+ thing I am hypersensitive. From the Google Machine it sounds like I have PAD (Peripheral Artery Disease). If you fuck with this and let it go you can lose your limbs. My doctor didn’t officially diagnose me with this. From what I see on the net it sounds like I need to see a vascular surgeon and have some testing done and may need a stent placed to fully restore blood flow. As you can imagine it has caused some worry on my part. I don’t want to lose limbs regardless if it's legs or arms. I need what I was born with and prefer that they all stay functional.

I bought a supplement that was delivered to my door on Friday morning. Its L-Arginine and it’s supposed to help with blood flow and vascular function. It’s been used to help treat ED and my hope is that it helps with my feet. I’m using my massager on my waist, legs and feet at night time. Trying to walk a bit more which they say will help, any kind of exercise that involves movement. I’m also going to be adding in some additional krill oil, I’m on an Omega 3 supplement (fish oil) but it hasn’t really helped with my Cholesterol. My hope is that it will help get some of the build up of plaque out of my legs. There’s no question with limited blood flow that it’s from Atherosclerosis. If it’s in my legs it’s in my body and over time it raises your risk factors for heart attack and stroke. The blood doesn’t flow as well, the heart has to work harder and in some cases the heart enlarges. It is just not pretty. Look I know were all dying but I am trying to turn things around and find some happiness, if I fail then fine beam me up otherwise give me a chance to see if I can find love & happiness. 51 going on 52 is not an age that I want to die at.

I do plan on pressing my doctor for his thoughts since he really didn’t say anything to me in person. It’s uncommon if there is/was a concern that he wouldn’t say something. If things get worse I will for sure get to an ER. I’m not looking for emergency surgery, I mean if I am going to have to have a procedure I prefer to schedule it vs having it done on demand because it’s critical.

FRIDAY … It was a very cold and rainy day. The kind of day where you just want to go back to bed. Yep, that’s what I did. It felt so good and the cats of course joined me. We watched TV for the bulk of the day. I ventured out for a haircut and had plans to do other things afterwards but it was so cold I just wanted to get back home. I ventured out a bit later for Wendy’s Chili & a Burger really sounded good and it hit the spot.

I came down and tried to put the water softener back together. I tried the old hose as well as the new jerry-rigged thing I purchased. Both leaked and I gave up and walked away. Time to call a plumber, which is what I didn’t want to have to do but chances are good that I would be back up and running and way less frustrated. All I need is for the hose to be fixed, turn on the water to ensure it doesn’t leak, then I can purchase salt and I will be back in business. I got a recommendation from a friend on who to call and I will be checking in to that during the week. I can only imagine that this is going to cost me easily a couple hundred dollars.

SATURDAY … I was determined to get back to Cracker Barrel just to see if ‘the guy’ was still working there and what if any reaction I’d get from him. Turns out yes, he is still working there and I got a hello but nothing more. He wasn’t my waiter. I was kind of hoping that he would be my waiter so that I could ask him if his phone was broken. I also thought about going off on him. I’m not very pleased with him and he did hurt me. I didn’t expect him to turn out to be a dud/flake/chain yanker but turns out he said yes but never followed through and it’s not going to happen. I’ve given up on him. I don’t plan on going back for a while it was nice to see him but also kind of painful. After that I drove to my friends place to have them check out my car just to be sure there wasn’t anything wrong and thankfully no damage. I stayed much longer than I planned and we had a great time. I made plans to go to lunch on the 10-year anniversary date that is coming up of my spouses passing. Since I got a yes, I took that Monday & Tuesday off. It’s my next turn to be on-call but fuck it, you can work without me for 2 days and then I will come back, dig out and life will go on. Were getting into busy time so after this I don’t have anything else on the books at the moment. Of course, if I have a health need, I will deal with that.

Came home spent more time with the cats. Turns out Rudy is a trash digger. He much like Momma likes Q-Tips. He was playing with one in my bed. The only place they exist are in the bathroom trash can so he had to dig it out. I’m not happy about that but glad that I learned so now I will have to start disposing of my dental floss in the kitchen. I don’t want either one of them getting into that and thinking it’s string and something to play with. Q-Tips don’t bother me at all but I do keep my eye on him when he is playing with it.

I had a mailbox full of election cards, invites to church services and it was all junk mail. I got to throw it all away at the post office. Then hit up a local Mexican place that I haven’t been to in a while. The food was okay but it seems that it is now greasy Mexican. I wanted to stick close to home since I’ve been running around a lot. Hit up the Hallmark Store, my doctor lost his dog and we chatted about that. Then I hit up a car wash and came home.

SUNDAY – plans. Wake up early hit up the new breakfast place, hit up Target and the grocery store. Stop by the gas station to fill up. Then home, laundry & cleaning the house. I’ve not peeked or had the desire to peek at my inbox at work. That will be a complete surprise on Monday morning which I don’t look forward to but hell I knew it was coming, that’s the only part that sucks with taking time off, you have to go back eventually. I plan to venture into the office this week at least 1 day. All of this sitting around and not moving has worked to my detriment with packing on the pounds and now my leg and who knows what else. I need to get active but that requires energy and motivation which I lack. I’ve got a treadmill and I do have intentions of trying to move more be it on that or just getting out on a nice day and going for a walk. I hope that my intentions turn into a reality, I really don’t want surgery or to lose a limb.

This is my first time in front of a computer since I walked away on Wednesday afternoon. There was plenty of porn to download, who knows when I will watch it. I’ve got quite the backlog but it’s nice to know that there is fresh content. After this it will be time to venture back up, wind things down for the night, watch some TV & relax. Sunday morning will be here and Rudy will be making biscuits soon. He tried that this morning to wake me up and when it didn’t quite work, he curled up next to my head but kept his distance and just waited on me. He’s got a quiet motor where you just barley detect a purr. Morea has the loud motor like all of Momma’s family but she is more like gravy in that once she gets comfortable in a spot she doesn’t want to move unless it’s necessary. Once Rudy has done his job of waking me up then she rises and it’s a race to see who can get to the kitchen first.

I hope all is well in your life and that you haven’t missed me too much. Thanks for stopping by. Talk with you all again soon.

The First Cut

Morning again!  Yesterday late in the morning the lawn crew showed up and they made the first cut of the season.  Not that there was a whole lot to cut but the front yard was looking pretty bad.  Things look better.  The forecast has rain and lots of it in store for us for the remainder of the week.  Not exactly great weather to be on vacation but hey I will have time away from work, so I suppose it’s not a complete loss. 

As per usual I’ve managed to knock out all of my tasks for the day in the matter of a couple hours.  Now I am in standby mode waiting for something to pop or for a meeting to roll around.  I’ve got 2 back to back meetings this mornings and if nothing else happens the day will be done.  I am not a fan of being in standby mode because when the boredom sets in that is when I get tired, then I go give in and take a nap only to be woken up by the phone.  If it’s not an email it’s a phone call. 

I took another double dose of sleeping medicine last night and man that kicked in and I felt really good & drowsy.  No issues falling asleep at all.  I did wake up in the middle of the night and tried to put off getting up but my bladder had other thoughts so I had to give in.  Rudy of course thought it was time to get up.  I went back to bed and he tried making biscuits to entice me to wake up but that just helped to lull me back to sleep.  He is so light and laying on top of me it’s like a security blanket.  I absolutely love it.  If Morea likes to sit on me but that feels more like a small elephant and it hurts.  I permit it until I just can’t take it and then she has to move. 

Funny how they have adapted to me and they also created some of their own habits & routines.  It’s only been 2 months.  I can tell they are happy to be here and glad that I rescued them.  Rudy was the one who won me over and Morea came out of her shell once she realized that this is now her home and she is all over me, usually in the evening and early morning.  They both love to bite my phone.  They too are no fans of technology.  When the phone rings or an alert fires off it scares them and they are displeased.  They are getting more used to the alerts but phone calls are so rare when the phone rings it still scares them.  I still miss my Gator but these two do a good job of keeping me busy and providing some comfort.

Supper last night was 1/2 of Lasagna from the store and 1 piece of left over pizza.  Then I had a peanut butter cookie and that was it.  It wasn’t until much later in the evening that my allergies were bothering me.  Then it hit me I forgot to take my medicine, no wonder I had issues.  I took my pills and then had a small glass of milk and 3 chocolate caramel filled mini bunnies.  Waited a bit then took my sleeping meds.  Not the worst way to end the evening but I wish I would have remembered to take my allergy meds on time.  I got out of my routine of medicine first then supper.  I went straight to supper because I was hungry. 

I will probably do Pizza & Lasagna for supper again tonight.  I am fairly certain I will be eating out while I am off but not exactly sure how much.  Outside of the trips to the doctor and the hardware place, I don’t really have a whole lot planned.  If I can knock both trips out in the same day that would be great.  However, I know it will get done.  I just hope that I can get the part I need so that I can hook the Water Softener backup and know if it’s okay to resume using it or if I am going to be doing without. 

Looking forward to getting some sleep, forgetting about work even if it’s only for a few days.  I am eager to shut work email off on my phone and get the party started.  Hoping that its a good day and that there isn’t a whole lot of BS in the meetings, I know there will be some just because that is part of work. 

I hope it’s a great day for all of us.  That your doing well and safe.  I will talk with you all again soon. 

 

Let Them Go

I’ve come across this a couple times, the most recent was Sunday.  It speaks to me but I have a nagging feeling that someone else can benefit from it, so I am posting it here.  Give it a watch/listen it’s worth your time.

Snow will stop falling soon

Morning!  Yesterday when my work day was done as I was climbing the stairs I heard an old familiar sound, I made my way to the window and sure enough one of my neighbors was cutting his grass.  Damn so it’s really time.  I called my mowing guy and he told me that he has plans to be out this week to take care of me.  This will be an every week occurrence until November, that’s 7 months from now. 

This morning I woke up and looked at my phone.  I have alert that appear regarding weather and I saw one that said the snow will stop falling soon.  Not exactly sure what that was about because we had no snow.  It must have just been flurries.  It is very cold outside.  I noticed yesterday that the blooms on one of the trees by the house died from the cold weather.  I’m sure the tree will be fine it’s just a matter of this crazy weather making up it’s mind if it’s still Winter or if it’s really Spring. 

I had a nice evening with Morea & Rudy.  They took up napping in my lap.  We watched some TV after supper and it was fun.  That is until I wanted to use my phone to look at social media.  I had to move and they both rearranged like they knew exactly what I needed.  Then they went back to sleep.  Time got away from me a little bit and I was growing tired before I even took any medicine.  Therefore I opted to skip the shower & shave one more night.  I’m not around anyone and so long as I am clean on Thursday when I venture to the doctors office that is all that matters. 

Have you ever heard of sleep paralysis?  It’s something I’ve had before but it’s been years since it hit me.  I never knew exactly what it was until one day I saw a story about it on the news.  What happens?  You wake up and think your awake but your still asleep, you can’t move a muscle in your body no matter how hard you try.  You can talk but it takes a lot of effort and your words come out sounding like your having a stroke.  Yesterday I fell asleep napping in my chair as part of my lunch time break.  I woke up a short time later and this hit me.  I would struggle, then fall back asleep and this went on for about 30 minutes.  Needless to say I didn’t wake up when I wanted to but when I finally did and realized I could move I was quick to get up.  It’s some scary stuff.  The fear is compounded for me because I am alone.  No one really checks on me but if I didn’t show up for work they would be the ones to call my emergency contact. 

I didn’t have Bologna & Cheese for lunch.  I had 2 seedless oranges, which 1 of them had 1 seed, 2 Double Chocolate Chip and 2 Peanut Butter Cookies for lunch and then a couple of mini chocolate bunnies.  Washed that down with a Diet Coke and back to work.  My sugar never dropped or bothered me.  I made it to supper and had 3 pieces of left over pizza.  I was hungry (gee I wonder why) and that hit the spot.  A mini chocolate bunny for desert and another Diet Coke.  That was it for the evening. 

I got a phone call around 7p and saw it was the doctors office.  It always scares me when they call close to when I have an appointment.  I answered and it was a robot calling to confirm my appointment.  I had checked in on line and normally that prevents the phone call.  I suppose it didn’t work this time.  Right now that I have my memory and know how to use a calendar, it t-totally pisses me off when I get reminder phone calls, texts, emails about any appointment.  I don’t care if its for the car, dentist, hair, doctor or vet.  I am a responsible adult and put events on my calendar for a reason, that reason is so I have a reminder and don’t miss anything.  When I get older and can’t remember my asshole from my elbow I will probably appreciate the reminders but right now they do nothing but anger me.  This is not a new thing, I’ve been that way since I was a young adult.  I get it that some people forget or simply don’t show up but I’m not one of those people.  If I don’t show up and I haven’t called then something is wrong and you should send out a search party right away. 

On the work front, we got an urgent request yesterday to take care of something for a vendor.  Last time I jumped and sprang into action my boss was pissed and told me to wait to hear from him next time.  Well were at that next time and he just got back from vacation.  He clearly hasn’t seen the email or is ignoring it.  I’m just doing what he told me and I am sitting by waiting for direction.  This is one of those damned if you do and damned if you don’t situations.  He will be upset when this turns into an 11th hour request.  As it is we had a couple days notice. 

Right now my morning tasks are out of the way and I’m good for a couple hours until we have a regular weekly meeting.  We didn’t have it last week because he was out and damn that was so sweet.  We get together just for the sake of planning to plan just like in Office Space.  Another week more meetings, it’s just one of those things that is part of the job. I’ve got 2 more meetings today and then 2 more tomorrow but it will be my Friday so I am pretty happy about that.  I don’t look forward to coming back on Monday but right now that is like a million miles away that will be here with hyper speed but I do hope that I don’t come back to a huge mess. 

Now it’s time to pass the time away be it with internet surfing, napping or whatever.  I like having some time on my hands and being able to break away but hours upon hours does make for a long day at times, especially when I don’t have any idea of what I am going to do to pass the time. 

Here’s hoping that it’s a great day for all of us.  Stay warm, be well and we will talk again soon.  Take care!

Sunday Evening

Happy Monday again, if there is such a thing.  Last night I was able to go out for pizza.  I got there shortly after the place opened and it was already packed.  I wanted a booth so that I could watch the guys toss the dough but I got sat in a corner.  That meant no show for me.  It didn’t take terribly long and before I knew it was pizza time.  I felt perfectly fine. 

I had plenty of pizza to bring home.  I got the cats water fountain cleaned out.  Replaced the filter and put in fresh water.  I took care of my pills earlier so I was all set there and the other chores were done.  All I had left was the laundry.  I was way too whipped for that so time to watch some TV. 

While I was waiting to recover and relaxing.  The damn phone rang again and it was work.  This time someone lost their phone like a couple days ago but just reported it.  I don’t get why lost stuff like access cards, phones and the like are not reported right away per policy.  The phone especially because the organization doesn’t own it, the person does.  Well he got a new phone and wanted to get it setup and that is how the loss was reported.  I got that taken care of but the lost phone is off line, service was already removed so I really don’t think there is an issue but if it ever does come back on line it will self destruct. 

One I was done with work I resumed an obsession for searching for a scene from a vintage porn movie.  There were 2 versions of the scene I wanted and that’s due to the content.  I was able to find the edited scene for free but wound up paying for the scene I wanted after scouring to try to find it for free.  Stumble onto the wrong site and you could easily infect your machine so I just gave up.  Once that was done I was finally free of computers for the rest of the evening. 

I ventured down to grab the laundry and get it brought up and put away.  The cats of course tried to help.  I had to pass out some treats to get the away from me so I could work but that was short lived.  They gobble those things down and then want to play.  I was for sure not in the mood to play.

We settled down and I was able to watch some YouTube videos.  Then caught up on social media.  I was supposed to shave & shower but honestly wasn’t in the mood for that.  Just got ready for bed and called it a night.  I went lights out at a decent hour and the cats permitted me to sleep most of the night.  Rudy woke me up and it was cold so I threw on the covers and flipped over.  I know he wanted me to get up but that just wasn’t happening. 

Rudy woke me up again closer to time to get up and I gave in.  Beat the alarm clock by 2 minutes.  Man that was a really good nights sleep.  I could use more of those.  It was caused by a double dose of sleeping medicine because I had napped a little bit during the day.  I was a little hung over when I woke up but that passed after a short time. 

Checked the phone nothing much going on this morning.  Then I got to sit with Morea for a bit and it was soon time to head down to start the day.  It was a bit of a busy morning for a couple hours. 

The guy that is on-call this week isn’t watching things and work is starting to build up.  Me and the other guy (that I’m mad at) usually pick up the slack but this morning I think we both have the same idea and were just letting things sit.  He will get to it eventually or someone will complain and then he will get to it.  I honestly don’t know what he does and don’t much care.  Just wish he was a bit more prompt with dealing with the trouble tickets that have come up. 

Boss man is back today and he’s playing catchup so if we hear from him it will be late in the day but honestly I don’t expect anything from him until tomorrow.

2 more days for me and then this work week is done.  I am looking forward to that.  I know that cats will enjoy having me around.  I hope that I can acquire this silly hose for the water softener, perhaps make another run through Sam’s, hit up Target and get a few tasks done around the house.  Along with some sleep, naps and movie/tv watching.  Throw in some good food and it should hopefully be a good time. 

Looking forward to lunch a Bologna & Cheese sandwich with an orange or maybe 2 oranges.  Then supper will be left over pizza.   I got some mini chocolate bunnies that are milk chocolate filled with Carmel.  That and Peanut Butter cups are my favorite candies. 

Now that all of the big rush is done, I’ve done some personal web surfing and this post is about done, I am sleepy.  My upper back is bothering me and a nap sounds really good about now.  However, I am trying to not give in because that will for sure mean trouble sleeping tonight. 

The perfect nap is a totally quiet house.  The cats sleeping and me watching them for a few minutes then soon were all sleeping.  There is just nothing better.  I use a White Noise machine at night.  We have some stupid people with loud mufflers or that want to race driving through the neighborhood and there is a stop sign just outside of my bedroom window then throw in the people who blast their music.  It does make for a noisy evening.  Oddly enough most weekend and daylight time is pretty quiet.  Delivery trucks are a little loud and have some squeaky breaks but other than that it’s all silent. 

Today appears to be the pick day of the week, spring will be here this afternoon officially.  However, it still feels very much like Winter outside and will for most of the day.  The rest of the week as of now has rain in the forecast for most everyday.  I’m not a fan of driving in the rain much less shopping in the rain.  However I know the world goes on and it won’t stop me. 

Here’s hoping that the rest of the day and week are great and that I can really enjoy the few days that I have off.  I also hope that it’s a great week ahead for you.  Shower & Shave time tonight, looking forward to that a bit.  Not so much the shave as the shower.  My stomach appears to have leveled out at the moment hopefully it stays that way.  Talk with you all again soon. 

Spoiler Alert–Emotional

Hi there, hope all is well.  To pass time last night I opted to rent Spoiler Alert.  It was a good movie indeed.  There were some parallels from the movie that I experienced with my spouse.  As sure as I thought one of the characters does wind up dying and it was a lot for me to take in.  It opened some old wounds.  I paused the movie at one point to take a short break from it and then resumed to finish it.  I don’t want to wreck the movie if your thinking of seeing it. 

I surfed social media afterwards, then wound things down to enter bedtime.  I felt okay.  I woke up this morning more than once thanks to Rudy.  I got going early and had breakfast.  I opted for the burger with an egg.  It wasn’t bad.  The fries were okay as well.  Afterwards I pressed on to the grocery store and then gassed up the vehicle and came home.  I kept reminding myself that there are only 3 work days this week and man I look forward to that.  I kind of wish I would have taken the whole week but a couple days is enough of a break to make a difference provided that it’s truly a break and trust & believe it will indeed be a clean break.  No work for 4 days. 

I came back home, put away the groceries, the cat food from yesterday and then stocked the fridge with soda.  Rudy tried to help me by getting in the way.  He loves to stand in front of the fridge or freezer and his sister is the same way.  At some point I think they are going to climb in but they never do. 

We went back to my room where I watched a little TV and relaxed.  Took a morning nap.  Damn if the phone didn’t wake me up 3 times and 2 of them were for work.  I was not happy about it but I am on-call so it comes with the territory.  They were easy things to deal with that didn’t require me leaving the comfort of my chair but I did get jarred out of my sleep state, which I hate with a passion.

Finally I convinced myself to wake up.  Rudy tried to make some biscuits on my shirt and I knew he wanted lunch.  I passed that out, grabbed up the laundry and receipts, here I am in the basement.  Laundry from 2 weeks ago is in the dryer.  I should be washing the bed stuff but I am saving that until later this week. 

So long as I feel okay and get through a couple of tasks I plan to go back out for pizza to a local place that hand tosses the dough.  They don’t open until 4p so I’ve got plenty of time to kill.  I am looking forward to it so I hope that my stomach manages to stay intact and I feel well enough to venture back out into the cold weather.

That is as exciting as it gets here on a Sunday!  Back to work tomorrow for more fun.  I am still planning on working from home, I mean I could go in for one day it wouldn’t kill me but when I think about it, it’s like why bother.  The work gets done from here and I avoid the commute.  If I was working the entire week I’d go in for one day.  I’ve got commuting to do this week but it’s to the doctors office and that hardware store.  I’m sure there are other places I will go but for now that is all that is on the docket. 

I hope that your enjoying the weekend, that your well & safe.  Take care and we will talk again soon. 

Uh my stomach

Hello!  Work is leaving me alone but I can’t say the same for my stomach.  It’s all kinds of messed up.  I’ve had issues for the past week and I honestly thought they were over with this past Monday but sadly that is not the case.  I didn’t want to eat lunch and as a result my sugar dropped, it was 52 and I was really feeling it. 

Rudy woke me up during the night.  I think he wanted food but I didn’t give in.  He was on me making biscuits at 6a sharp this morning.  I got up and passed out breakfast and then came back to bed.  However, I couldn’t go back to sleep.  My phone would be coming off of do not disturb and I knew that about the time I fell asleep it would be waking me up.  I elected to grab some breakfast myself.  Pancakes & Sausage on a stick.  I used cinnamon butter & sugar as syrup and my they were good.  Wish I would have had some eggs to go with them.  Then back to bed to warm up and I watched an episode of Mayiam Bialik’s Breakdown with Connor Franta.  That was so enjoyable.  Then I went back to sleep and was up by 10a. 

I took an 18 minute shower, which is really quick but I didn’t rush.  Got dressed and headed to give my friends their gifts.  I was too much in my head about it and glad that I followed through with it.  They were well received and I got the reaction I was looking for.  We spent some time chatting and then it was lunch time, we all went our separate ways. 

I headed to the post office, almost got side swiped again by a dummy who tried to invent a lane when there wasn’t one.  Then I came home to be with the cats, open the junk mail and rest. 

Went out a few hours later.  Stopped at the local hardware store they of course didn’t have the hose I needed.  I had a suspicion that would be the case so now I have to hit up the specialty hardware store I was at last week.  That will be a job for Friday.  I headed to Cracker Barrel for supper which turned out to be breakfast.  They have a new guy working there and he has an ass you could spring a quarter off of .  So cute, tight pants and wow I just started thinking about all of the things I’d like to do to him.  The food wasn’t that enjoyable but at least I didn’t run into the guy who I asked out.  That was by design.  I know he doesn’t work late afternoon/evenings.  I’d kind of like to see him again just to spout off but honestly what good would it do me?  Oddly enough the hostess that sat me had a tattoo on her hand that said “Let it go…”.  I couldn’t help thinking that was a message meant for me both about the waiter there and about my co-worker that I am angry at. 

Last stop of the day was the Cat Food Store.  Damn dropped $60 there and that was a surprise to me.  I got wet and dry food which is why it was so expensive.  I am kind of bored, kind of don’t feel the best and am opting to spend the evening in my room with the cats. 

All of the movies I am interested in seeing are early access and are going for $20 per rental and while I want to see them, I can wait until the price drops.  There is Spoiler Alert but I think it had a sad ending with one of the guys dying and while I want to see it I don’t know if emotionally I am up for that but I might just throw caution to the wind and rent it.  I mean I’ve got nothing else going at the moment. 

If my stomach settles down and I can get enough sleep tonight I am thinking about a burger with a fried egg on top and some fries for breakfast.  It’s either that or Chicken Strips but they honestly don’t sound good for breakfast, unless you cover them in sausage gravy and serve them with some eggs then it’s a different story.  Got to hit up the grocery store and make that Target run.  However, if i need to I can put Target off until Friday. 

It’s wicked cold here and it’s miserable to be out.  My grass really looks taller overnight and I think that I am going to have to call the mowing guys which I do not look forward to but also don’t want to deal with another complaint from the city, I suspect that they won’t be friendly if our paths cross a second time and I’d like to avoid that.  Meanwhile it looks like my neighbor put up a camera in his backyard.  He enclosed his deck with some screens and put a TV out there.  I suppose he thinks that someone is going to walk in the door and steal the TV.  He’s always throwing some kind of a party.  I have thought about putting up cameras outside as well but it’s just a thought at this point.  If I do it there will be another subscription because why have them if you don’t have the footage recorded and available to review. 

Well that is a wrap on Saturday at the moment.  I am off to find something of interest to view and to try to relax.  I hope that your weekend is going well and you are having fun.  Take care and we will talk again later. 

Luck of the Irish

Turns out it was my lucky day.  The project that my colleague dumped on me had some issues with a couple people so there really wasn’t much for me to do.  I am very thankful for that!

I watched some old Falcon porn and thought about days when I was younger.  That was really a good time.

Had lunch with Morea & Rudy.  We spent time on the couch and they were basking in the sun.  It’s cold as balls outside but warm if your in the sunshine.  We all had a nice time.  They ate some food and I had a couple of hot dogs, no bread just Ketchup & Mustard.  It was a quick lunch. 

I would like a nice meal for supper but I’m too lazy to go out and being on-call I don’t want to press my luck since it’s been a calm day ever since I got the morning out of the way.  I will either have some soup or find something in the freezer that will tide me. 

Looked at the breakfast places’ menu and I’m out of dishes to try.  Now it will be going back through the menu and resampling my favorites.  I’ve thought about going back to Cracker Barrell the food is good there and I have some favorite food breakfast items for sure.  My only fear is seeing the cute waiter.  If I think I can ignore my feelings I may give it a try on Saturday.  Although it will be my luck that I get sat in his section and that would be difficult because I’d have to make conversation.  While I want to be nice and polite I hate the fact he’s strung me along and gave a false vibe.  That hurt more than he probably knows or perhaps he did it on purpose. 

Hoping that I can find some good things to watch both on recorded TV and streaming.  That the weekend is relaxing but productive and I can have a few laughs along the way without spending much money. 

Looking out the window the grass in my yard is really growing in the front.  One side of my yard is still dead but the remainder is alive.  It won’t be long and it will be time to mow or someone will complain I’m sure of it.  Oddly the lawn guys haven’t reached out to me and I didn’t call the other place that I was interested in having do the work.  So long as I get someone to take care of the task and it doesn’t break the bank I’m okay with it.  I do want the job done right the first time, I don’t thin that is unreasonable.  My neighbors lawns aren’t growing nearly as fast as mine.  It’s like my lawn is on speed or something.  I don’t do anything to it but cut it.  I know others who spend a small fortune with all kinds of maintenance but that’s not me.  I’d be comfortable with green painted concrete blocks the lawn doesn’t do much for me other than drain my wallet. 

It is rapidly approaching quitting time so I will be headed up soon.  The cats will be very happy to see me.  I will be happy to see them and hope that we can make it without being bothered by my pesky phone. 

Hope your having a great St. Patrick’s Day and that your weekend is safe but fun.  Take care and we will talk again soon!

Dick Move

Morning … Happy Friday & Happy St. Patrick’s Day! 

Yesterday afternoon the phone rang and it was my ass of a co-worker.  He called to tell me that he was off today and that I would need to cover a special project he was working.  He said that he mentioned it in the team meeting, but the fucker knew I wasn’t there.  He said that he put it on a calendar but not the shared time off calendar we all look at on a regular basis.  If he didn’t call me I would have not known and that would have created all sorts of problems.  Not that the short advanced notice helped me much, I was really pissed off and he was quick to say what he needed to say and hang up the phone.  The fucker knew he was dropping a bomb shell and that I would not be happy.  This just further helps to build the wall that is already up.  He knows he is walking on egg shells around me and that I am not pleased with him.  This has got to come to a head and blow so that life can go back to normal.  However, I can’t let go and I can’t forgive him for what he did.  It’s just one dick move after another on his part.  I’ve been nothing but nice to him and if it wasn’t for me he would for sure not be where he is today.

I know it should warm my heart that I did the right thing that I was nice to him but this is just another example to me that nice guys just get taken advantage of or trampled.  I don’t want to go through training a new person and I really don’t want to learn a new job on my own but damn it’s really making it impossible to be professional and keep from screaming at him.  Were no where close in proximity which is a good thing because I would love nothing more than to rip his nuts from their sack.  I don’t get this angry easily but when I do it turns into quite the grudge and I do not let go nor forget.  If there is a way for me to fuck him over then it’s going to happen.  However, there is little chance of that happening as well. 

I’m just not a happy person today.  I’ve done nothing but continue to clean up after him and all of his fuck ups.  No matter what he touches in short order he manages to fuck it up before he figures out how it works.  Then he will forget and something will get screwed up and I’m usually the one who has to fix it.  It just gets so old, so fast. 

Wow I started down this path and forgot about something urgent that I needed to do but thankfully thing got busy for a moment and my memory kicked in once I had a chance to distance myself from the anger.  Anger is no good long term it causes the person who harbors it to fall apart and honestly I think it’s taking it’s tole on me. 

Friday won’t be the entirely relaxing day that it normally is but hopefully it will be fast moving and the problems will be minor.  I am eager to move to the work day being done!

Rudy woke me up in the middle of the night.  I think he was hungry but I didn’t budge.  I did get up and use the bathroom, he followed me because he’s my shadow.  I came back to bed and he just started making biscuits he wasn’t happy about it.  He started up a few hours later but it was much closer to time to get up.  Then Morea jumped on the floor and sounded like she was choking and that got me out of bed.  She was fine.  I think they double teamed me and I walked right into the trap!  I got up and it felt like Rudy beat me up I had sore spots all over my body.  We got the day started and they got their food.  It was early so I was able to move slow and I took my sweet time with my breakfast but eventually that extra time ran out and here I am back to work. 

Last nights supper was Tuna Noodle Casserole.  Rudy smelled the Tuna and was really begging to get some.  His efforts failed but it’s tough to say no to that sweet looking face. 

We watched some recorded network TV and I surfed social media while the cats both managed to fall asleep in my lap.  It was tough for me to stay awake but I managed. 

That’s all I have for this Friday.  Hope that it is a good one for you.  I’m really looking forward to tomorrow and dropping off the gifts.  It’s going to be very cold out but the excitement will probably keep me warm and if that fails I’ve got heated seats and a heater in the car.  They both do a very good job.  Take care, be safe and I will talk with you again soon. 

Thirsty Thursday

 

Thursday babble

Howdy … It’s Friday Eve again. It means that I need to gather and set the trash out. Prepare for the march of the Trash Trucks in the morning to wake me up. I’m hoping I can sleep through it. It’s also a light day typically for me. I’ve already got my morning tasks out of the way and I’m sitting waiting for something to happen. I’ve got a meeting to attend this afternoon if it’s not cancelled and that will be my day. The difficult person I was dreading working with yesterday turned out to not say a word to me so it was a cool, calm and collective day. I also managed to get in a mid-morning nap with the kids. We all passed the hell out. It was difficult to get up and get going. However, that impacted my ability to fall asleep last night as well as being able to stay asleep during the night.

Rudy made a large batch of biscuits this morning and slept on top of me until I gave in and finally got out of bed. He’s all about the food. Morea doesn’t much care about food except for now and then. She lets him pig out and then she goes in after what is left, unless she is super hungry then it’s a contest between both of them as to who’s going to finish the can first. Morea was all about attention yesterday and just couldn’t get enough of it. She was crying, at my feet a lot and in and out of my lap. She got sick and I don’t know if she still didn’t feel good or if she was trying to beg for forgiveness. I don’t yell when they get sick, it’s just something that happens to cats. I clean it up and move on, totally not their fault. However, last night she kept taking my chair when I would get up to check the microwave. I caught her at one point trying to jump on the table and that’s when I lost it. The chair is fine but don’t go getting on the table. There are all sorts of dangers up there and she would be like a running bull in a China shop and lots of stuff would fall on the floor. It’s bad enough she hangs out underneath my chair when I eat, just waiting for a crumb to fall. I really have to watch it when I put my medication out. This morning Rudy smelled the fact that I had milk in a mug and he wanted some. I told him milk wasn’t for cats. He just looked at me funny as if to say, aw come on I love the stuff. Yeah but your insides don’t and I’m not dealing with that. Cats are lactose intolerant in case you didn’t know. Some cats can tolerate small amount of milk but the vast majority wind up with all sorts of gastric issues.

You mind find this as odd but I picked up a habit from my late grandfather in that I look at the obituaries on a regular basis. I have an email alert that fires once a day and I get 2 emails but that doesn’t always catch all of the people I know. Last night I found that one of my late spouses neighbors passed away. She was an amazing lady from the stories I heard about her and she apparently moved away from the area. She lived to a very old age and got to enjoy many years of retirement, which is a goal I think all of us would like to reach at some point. She had a job with an outstanding pension and that helped. Pensions have gone out with high button shoes and now the majority of retirement savings is 401K or Roth IRA’s. You might get a match from your employer but honestly if it was up to me I would much rather have a pension, it’s hidden money that you can’t touch and something that you know you can count on one day. I couldn’t help but think of my late spouse when I saw her name. It’s sad that people pass, usually it’s the nice ones and the people who make life miserable seem to live forever, at least that has been my experience.

With time on my hands yesterday just waiting for the close of the day to roll around, I opted to start brushing up my resume. I’ve got this table in my resume that looks great but it’s a nightmare to update. I copied the format from a former blogger many moons ago. That resume has worked magic to get me interviews or have conversations. People are just blown away and truly impressed by it. I want to rework the table but my word skills with tables sucks. Trying to tell Google what I want to accomplish and getting instructions are next to impossible. I’m keeping an eye out for other jobs and I’d like to be ready if I find something that I am truly interested in. While I will probably stay put, you just never know if there is a great opportunity that comes to light that I won’t let it pass me up. I’d like to either stay local to my area or be able to continue to work remote. I keep hearing my inner voice say it’s time to move on but it’s mostly frustration that I am dealing with over things that I can’t control and that won’t change. Were always going to have plenty of meetings, politics and ass hats to work with. I am sure I will find that most any place that I go. I think that this year I will be celebrating 9 long years and it’s the longest that I have ever stayed at one organization. If I can make it to 10 years I will get a nice bonus and I do look forward to that. However, I’ve put up with a lot of BS in that 9 years and quite frankly I am growing tired. I do think heavily about the pros and cons. I’m comfortable and that’s typically when you get complacent and moving on becomes more of a chore. I like the longevity and the many things that I accomplished on my own with no help. This job is the only job I’ve held since my spouse passed away and it took some miracle working on my part to land here, so while I have wanted to leave for many years I always manage to talk myself off the ledge. I’m positive that he is truly proud of me for landing this, despite not knowing about it. It’s also worked to my advantage to stay put thus far as I am making the most money I’ve ever made in my entire life and if I mess up and lose this, I will truly be in a world of hurt. There has never in my life been so much riding on my employment. It’s scary when I think about it. I am most thankful that I have a job and that they have been understanding during difficult times and when I’ve been seriously ill. I kind of feel like I am looking a gift horse in the mouth but at the same time I want to be happy. I don’t know that I will ever enjoy working for a living, I’d like to trade that in for a winning lottery ticket because I do not now nor do I think I will ever have enough money saved to retire on. I tell everyone that I will be working up until lunch time on the day of my funeral. I really don’t want that to be a true statement but I think it probably is. I don’t think that it’s wrong to look but I do think twice before I go through the task of applying and not having an up to date resume has thus far kept me from doing anything that I will regret. I’ve talked it over with others before and it’s probably best to stay put at least for now. However, I’m the poor SOB that has to deal with all of this and I’ve kept my mouth from spewing my frustrations out but it’s becoming increasingly difficult to stay quiet and not start screaming. Like I said I will probably stay put but I am still looking to see if there is something that might be worthwhile.

It hit me yesterday when I was updating my resume, the calls from my boss I got a few months ago asking about the timing of my promotion wasn’t because I was getting another one it was to time my colleagues promotion and we both spent roughly the same amount of time in the entry level job before being promoted to a senior level role. I feel like I earned my move and went through much more hell than he ever will and that I am smarter and stronger because of that. Yeah I’ve got a personal beef with him but looking at it through a professional lens I still don’t feel that it was right for him to get promoted. I know he wants to have another kid and well I want a Rolls Royce and a Rolex watch but I’ll never have them. People in hell want ice water as the saying goes. I think he got his promotion because the timing was right and the organization didn’t want to lose him but he wasn’t looking to leave. I think unless things get really uncomfortable for him that he will probably be there for a very long time.

Perhaps the cure to my troubles is finding a man and well I haven’t resumed looking. It is on my to do list and I plan to get to it soon.  It’s much like applying for a job but way more awkward. You’re vetting the person, making sure that your compatible and a lot of it’s based on vibes and conversation that you have. Both looking for a man and a job are quite exhausting. Also, the longer I wait the more age is working against me or so I think. I know one thing is that I am not happy and I’m kind of the only one who can change that. There isn’t anyone who can or will do it for me. Finding Mr. Right is quite a challenge and I already have predisposed myself to the fact that I will probably always be alone. Just like with a cat I am not looking for a replacement, I am looking for a new guy. Thinking in terms of replacement there isn’t anyone who will ever measure up so it's like a losing battle. If you look at it as looking for a new that’s a different game and it gives me a much better attitude and outlook. Dating is a game and I’m not a game player. I don’t know that I will ever have the right words but it doesn’t stop me from trying. I much prefer in person contact than relying on an app. Which is kind of why I ask waiters out it’s a bold move and it takes a lot of guts. I’m proud that I have been able to go through that even though the results have been less than promising. I’m never up for rejection or hurt but I know it’s part of the game.

Okay enough babble for one day. I am thinking of going up to sit with the kids and take another one of those mid-morning naps. It’s a cold rainy day and it’s perfect sleeping weather. I know that if I do that my phone will start going bananas just like yesterday. The damn thing has eyes in it. When I want it to alert me or ring it doesn’t but it’s when I don’t want it to bother me that it does.

I am hoping that the quiet theme continues through the weekend and that I am able to enjoy my down time. I also hope that you’re doing well and life is treating you fair. Take care and we will talk again soon. Be well.