15 October 2020

End of the road

It is with profound sadness that I inform you of the passing of my Marvin.  He had a second blood clot this morning which rendered him blind and he was also having cardiac issues, I was faced with the tough choice that many pet owners are and made the decision to end his suffering. 

Today has been a very difficult day and I am dealing with the situation as best as I can.  I am much more concerned about how his oldest sister, Gator is taking it.  I feel horrible but watching her and talking with her is gut wrenching.  My hope is that both her and I will get comfortable with the new normal we have been forced into. 

Exactly what I didn’t want to happen, did.  However, I bought my boy an extra week and five days.  He ate good for the last two days.  I now know that the signs I was seeing earlier in the week was his body starting to prepare for the inevitable.  I did inquire that if I didn’t make the decision to part ways today what would have happened and was told that within 24 to 48 hours he would have passed regardless. 

I miss my boy so much and am really numb to what happened as it was quick.  I got to spend time with him and comfort him before he left this world.  I am forever grateful for the extra time as well as the fact that he came into my life.  16 years is a very long time and it feels like I lost a part of me but I know with time this wound will heal. 

4 comments:

Joe said...

I am so sorry for your loss. It was the same with with my precious Victoria, who I also had for 16 years. You're in my thoughts.

Susan said...

Dear Jeremy.
I am profoundly sorry for your loss. Losing a family member is heart wrenching. I had a gorgeous black Persian for 21 years so I understand what you are going through. Please know it will get better. You are fortunate to have Gator to console you. Take care.

Jeremy Ryan said...

Thank you Susan.

Jeremy Ryan said...

Thank you Joe.