Last Day 2019

I had a bumpy evening last night.  Momma decided to stop eating.  I opened about 5 cans of food and no matter the flavor she would sniff it and turn up her nose.  She was drinking water though and quite frequently.  I knew something was up.  I wound up giving her a small amount of fluids.  I let her rest for a couple hours and then went at her with some Ham baby food.  That did the trick.  She ate a couple spoons of that.  To supplement I gave her an appetite stimulant so that we keep the progress moving forward. 

As you can well imagine I was worried sick.  I kind of feel like she keeps trying to check out on me and thus far I have been successful in preventing it but eventually it is going to happen.  I hope that eventually means a couple years from now but I have a feeling were talking much shorter term. 

My phone battery had a mishap in the middle of the night and was making noise.  I got up to fix that and that woke Momma up.  She was at me for food.  I gave in and opened a can and she did a reasonable job on cleaning the plate. 

Of course I was up for an hour and had some cookies & milk then I was finally able to go back to sleep.  This knot in my back is slowly working it’s way out but it is sure a pain. 

Woke up this morning and fed them, then went back to bed or tried to because I am working from home today.  They ate.  I got up an hour later and had to feed her again as well as get breakfast for me.  Seems that appetite stimulant is working overtime. 

I made it through the morning, not exactly sure how.  Take away or interrupt my sleep and I sure to feel it.  I also don’t want to function. 

Thought conversation I came out to my co-worker this morning.  He was asking some questions and I just opened the door.  His reaction was as I expected.  It didn’t phase him at all.  He also said he never suspected.  So that kind of felt good being able to open up a bit more.  Cats out of the bag now and there is no going back. 

Time for lunch.  Looks like all of the people that are quitting today are leaving well before the clock strikes 5p and I am so thankful for that.  It will make my job easier.  However, I got a laundry list of title changes that were submitted today.  I will be working tomorrow or late tonight, haven’t quite made a final decision yet.  It will depend upon how I feel and what I want to do.  So long as on the 2nd everyone’s title is correct no one will care either way. 

I hope it’s a great last day of the year for you. I also hope that 2020 is the year of positive change not only for you and me but for the world as a whole.  May there be great joy and happiness and that it far outweighs the negative.  Take care and be well.  Talk with you again next year!

Last Sunday of 2019

Here we are at the last Sunday of 2019.  Nothing terribly different about today than any other Sunday.  I am tired, thinking that I don’t want to go back to work and catering to the cats.  We had 2 Amazon drivers in the neighborhood and neither one had my package.  It’s still out for delivery and supposed to be here before 9p.  Here’s hoping they make it. 

I got a nap in with the cats.  Gator was in my lap and woke me for her lunch.  I watched a movie on Amazon yesterday called The Lion In your Living Room.  It’s all about cats and quite interesting.  I learned that cats don’t lap up water like dogs, rather there tongue corkscrews when the retract it to suck up the water.  It looks like they are lapping up water to me. 

Tuesday will be pay day but I will know all about my money tomorrow morning so I will pay bills on Monday night.  Need to get that out of the way before I started on my flurry of New Years Eve work.  This will be the 1st year that I have stayed at home and worked.  I don’t promise that I will make it to the stroke of midnight nor that I will get all of my work done on Tuesday but that’s what Wednesday is for.  Not that I want to spend my day off working. 

I got 2 Tombstone Pizza’s one I am having tonight and the other thinking of having on Wednesday.  I also picked up another holiday turkey dinner for 1 which was really good.  All of the Christmas dinner leftovers are gone.  So it will be back to the cardboard boxes for dinner.  It’s not the end of the world but a home cooked meal sure does taste very good. 

Shameless is on tonight and I will be looking forward to that.  Outside of that nothing else going on.  Still need to shave and prepare for the morning but not until I have my dinner. 

Momma has been by me for part of the day pacing back and forth.  She rises to greet me when I enter my room and is ready to start following me around.  She is being picky on what she will eat.  They have all learned if they turn their nose up at the first thing daddy will get them something else.  I am throwing away cans of food more than I want to.  I really wish they would snap out of this.  With me going back to work that will help some in that they won’t be begging for lunch.  I did get 2 boxes of gravy food for them because I know they will be going through it or so I hope.. 

Going to grab the laundry and head up stairs to put it away, as I wait for the Amazon driver to show up.  How exciting.  Just heard a shoplifting call on the scanner they said the person hit the loss prevention officer with a chicken.  Inquiring minds want to know is that a rubber chicken, a dead chicken, cut up chicken or a toy chicken?  You can sure hear something interesting things once and a while.  Sort of like a blooper on TV, you have to be there.

Take care and enjoy the last Monday & Tuesday of 2019.  I’m sure I will be back before the year is done to spew forth more of what is going on.  Talk with you again soon.

Electronic Hell

Today me and electronics are not having a good day.  I went out to breakfast and had to stop off at the bank.  When I came back out my remote didn’t want to work to unlock and/or start the car.  I had to use the door unlock code and then place the remote in a special location so the car would see it present and start.  That worked.  This isn’t the work of a hacker but rather I think either a faulty remote or a faulty battery. 

Then I came home and needed to print a document.  The computer took a super long time to see the printer.  I think this is a warning sign to stay away from anything electronic. 

I am switching car remotes and I have placed an order for a new battery via Amazon.  It will be here tomorrow.  Funny thing is once I got home the remote started working fine.  I’m still not taking any chances and think that changing remote controls is my best option.  Things like this have happened before and I checked the battery with a volt meter and it said it was fine.  I no longer think that despite that fact that it’s working again. 

I did make it to the post office last night.  My important letter was there and that is what required me to go to the bank.  I had to have a document notarized.  It’s for the $40 that the state has for my late spouse.  Despite the fact that I included everything they could possibly need they came up with one more thing, which I knew they would.  They wanted me to sign an affidavit saying that I had the right to claim the money.  Jesus State Law says that the spouse is entitled to the money and so does all of the supporting documentation I submitted.  However, it’s the government so don’t you know they don’t make anything easy.  I’m probably going to piss them off because they had a 3 page document that I retyped and condensed down to 1 page in very small print.  It says exactly the same thing their document does but removes big text boxes that I think look gaudy.  I guess I will know soon enough if I get another letter then I’ve made them mad and they will need me to jump more hurdles or if I get a check they aren’t going to sweat it.  Probably another month or two easy.  It’s not like it’s a large sum of money so I am not losing sleep over it but I won’t give up on it. 

Ah I am awake now but don’t really want to be so I will go lounge with the cats and probably take a nap.  I need to go back out for cat food.  They are all out of gravy type food and that will cause a problem if they don’t have it.  Momma is already putting me to the test.  I can’t afford for any of them to stop eating, if only out of spite.  The body does bad things to a cat if they skip more than one meal.  I am on the fence but will probably give Momma more fluids because she has slight shakes, which is a sign of a low thyroid level.  She is doing her best to keep on a brave face.  I don’t think she feels horrible just slightly off.  I kind of feel the same way.  My body is trying to get sick but something is fighting against it so I am on the borderline.  I think it’s coming and then nothing happens, been that way for a couple weeks now  That’s why I am so adamant about stocking up on sleep.  Besides that it’s hard to be depressed when your asleep. 

3 more days left in this year.  Then I get to hang up my new men calendars, which I always look forward to.  That will be short lived because it will be back to the daily grind.  But we do get a 3 days weekend in a few weeks because of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Day.  I am also going to take a day off because I have a dentist appointment.  I was going to ask to work from home but have since decided against that given the way my boss has reacted to the whole work at home thing. 

Well upstairs and to find something on TV to amuse myself until I get sleepy or decide that I should leave for the cat food store.  I’m having the last of the Christmas Day left overs tonight instead of going out.  I’ll get my breakfast out tomorrow, that is enough of a treat.

I hope that you enjoy Saturday.  It’s unseasonably warm here and we have rain in the forecast for today and tomorrow.  The weather sure has been strange for this time of year.  Not sure if that is an omen or not.  I am not a huge fan of cold weather but it does feel odd to not need a coat when going outside. 

Take care and we will talk again soon.  I appreciate you dropping by. 

Nap Time

Happy Friday.  It doesn’t feel like Friday.  I am sleepy and really want to take a nap.  I think I may indulge myself.  I mean my boss is so worried about perception and that I am not really working when I am home, why not actually be guilty of what your accused of?  Novel idea. 

My co-worker got me out of bed a bit early before I was ready to come downstairs to work.  I was up and watching TV but he called so I just started.  I don’t know why when we talk we both have a horrible yawning problem.  Me because I had a sugar cereal breakfast and him because he had yet to have his coffee. 

I do have to do some work today but it’s not much and I don’t plan on over doing it.  Light as I can get away with.  Boss man working from home today so he isn’t keeping tabs on anyone, he’s focused on going on vacation, which thank the lord he is going. 

Next week will be super busy so I am just taking it easy for now.  I will be back in the office on Monday or maybe since the boss man is out I will be at home, like he is going to know the difference.  He may have a spy so I might just go in to keep my word but I know I won’t want to. 

I’ve got to get to the post office today, there is an important letter waiting for me.  Plus bills and medicine.  I may need to visit the bank tomorrow which is why I am going to grab the mail a day early, kind of depends upon what is in the important letter, I may need to have something notarized.

Left overs were really good last night and I will have them again tonight.  Got to push the trash barrel out to the curb.  It’s really full so I am anxious for them to stop by tomorrow and empty it.  Then we start the cycle all over again. 

Momma had me a little worried last night, pacing around the house.  I’d give her food but she didn’t want that.  She was clingy and just couldn’t seem to get comfortable.  Eventually she settled down and got comfortable.  I was about to give her another dose of fluids but held off.  She wanted her belly rub this morning. Something that I haven’t done in quite a while.  She is such a sweet girl not sure how I got so lucky. 

No special plans for the weekend thinking about going back to the BBQ place I hit up last weekend and this time ordering a burger or a sandwich.  Outside of that it will be the usual nap, lounge, clean and laundry.  It will be nice when the 1st of the year hits because there isn’t anything worth watching right now.  I saw the old National Lampoon’s vacation movies last night.  They took me back in time and were entertaining but eventually I had to flip the channel.  I waited until Christmas Vacation was on and Clark had his break down.  I think that is the best part in the entire Christmas Vacation movie. 

Hope your enjoying the last few days of 2019, they are going fast!  Stay warm and be well. 

1 Holiday Down–1 Holiday to Go

I did go to dinner at my friends house.  They had Beef Tenderloin, Garlic Mashed Potatoes (way too much garlic), Sweet Potatoes, Corn Casserole and Peas.  It was an okay dinner.  No desert this year.  It was a good time and a great distraction & excuse to get out of the house.  I didn’t stay long considering that I have to work today.  They loaded me up with a goody bag and I have left overs that will easily make two if not three meals.  So that holiday is done. 

Momma got her mid week fill up yesterday evening with fluids and I also passed out plenty of food for her.  All in all things are going fairly well, despite my depression.

It was tough to get going this morning.  I was up at 5a my body said it was time to wake up and Gator was the first to alert everyone.  I tossed for a bit but eventually gave up and climbed out of bed.  Passed out breakfast for the furry 4 legged friends.  I grabbed some cereal and then had the desire to go back to bed.  I had plenty of time to kill, so Gator and I curled up in bed and she guided me off to sleep if only for an hour.  Then I got up and got moving. 

Working from home today.  Not much going on at the office, lots of people are smart and took the next two days off.  I would have done the same thing but for my dumb ass co-worker.  I would love nothing more than to kick back for two days and do nothing or whatever I wanted. 

Boss man sent out an email telling us to watch some educational videos and then thought we needed to have a conference call because were too stupid to read.  I mean it’s really simple watch the videos I think we all got it but he loves any excuse for a meeting.  Thank God he will be going on vacation soon.  I need time away from his ass because he is grating on my last nerve and it’s taking all I can to bite my lip and not blow up at him.  I did look for another job over the past couple days and there are openings out there.  It’s always nice to look.  However, I don’t think thigs have gotten nearly bad enough for me to jump ship quite yet.  Hopefully a break from him will calm me down and I will be able to recover from this. 

It’s kind of a crappy time of year anyway and I am not in the best of moods considering that I am alone.  However, it is my hope & desire that this will be the last year alone.  I probably said something like that last year. 

Well Gator is crying so I guess it’s time to pass out lunch.  I still have another boring conference call to sit through.  Then a meeting with the boss later this afternoon.  Otherwise, today is fairly quiet and hopefully will stay that way. 

I’m eager for the weekend just because it means I don’t have to work.  Next week will be a busy one for me with people leaving and being promoted, some how my boss has managed to overlook this.  I will be sure to remind him in our call this afternoon. 

Hope you had a great holiday.  I will talk with you all again soon.  Be well. 

Christmas Eve

Greetings on this the eve of Christmas.  Not much surprise but I didn’t sleep that well last night.  I had problems taking a nap today but I got one in.  I was up early as per usual to feed the furry family.  They were appreciative.  Gator came in after a bit of time passed and started meowing.  I said to her are you here to remind me to pass out medicine.  She meowed.  I think she would have meowed regardless of what I said.  So I got up and passed out medicine.  Momma & Marv were not happy about that. 

Then it was back to checking my phone and watching TV.  I tried to go back to bed and eventually fell asleep but it was several hours later.  I got a later start than I wanted but hey it’s not a big deal, it’s a holiday.  Started my day out at Cracker Barrel.  They have a special menu for breakfast & lunch, which I didn’t know.  Blueberry Pancakes weren’t on the menu but I managed to get them anyway.  Then I purchased a Cinnamon Bead fragrance tumbler.  They were marked 2 for $10 but I only needed 1 and got it for $3, I think something was wrong there but I didn’t argue. 

My next stop was at the Hallmark Store.  I used that $5 coupon.  Since Hallmark came out with their own brand of candles they stopped carrying Yankee.  They only had Cinnamon in the Hallmark Brand but it was a BOGO and at $28 I think that was a good deal plus I got my $5 off. 

Final stop was home.  I lit the candles as soon as I got home.  One upstairs and the other downstairs.  That’s also where I put the tumbler thingy.  I lit a Christmas Eve scented candle in my room.  It’s one of my favorite Yankee scents.  It does get to my nose but I still love it.  I let them burn for a couple hours. 

I’ve been parked in front of the TV all of the day, watching mostly Roseanne.  It’s on Amazon Prime and I started the series a few weeks back.  I’ll watch it all the way through.  It was really funny in it’s day.  I love The Connors it’s a great reboot of the show and I hope it goes on for a while.  John Goodman is a great actor.  I did take a break for an episode of Frontline about the Harvey Weinstein issue.  That was interesting.  It’s been bed, chair, couch – I’ve rotated through all 3 of them.  Marv likes it when I am on the couch because he gets to sit next to me.  Everyone has been whiny today, not sure why. 

I am in fact depressed as I do when the holidays roll around but I know it will pass.  I just have to get through tomorrow and then life goes back to a sense of normal for a while.  On the way to breakfast I got my invite to dinner tomorrow.  They are eating at 4p.  I honestly don’t want to go but I’m thinking it might be healthy for me.  I didn’t respond to the text on purpose.  I think it’s rude to wait until the day before to announce your plans.  Depending upon how I feel tomorrow I will decide if I want to go.  This way I can claim ignorance if I don’t go.  Then maybe they will pick up the fucking phone in the future.  I absolutely hate texting.  It does come in handy now and then but as a general means of communications pick up the phone.  The young hipsters just love it. 

I got a call a couple hours after being home last night for work.  Outside of that it’s been all quiet.  I suspect that will be the case until Thursday.  I do plan to work the remainder of the week from home.  Funny thing now my boss is going to work from home on Friday for part of the day and take the remainder off.  The less I have to deal with him the better.  Time away from him and his voice will do me good and I am looking forward to it. 

So there you have it my Christmas Eve.  It’s not the greatest but it’s also not the worst.  I just wish I had someone to spend it with besides the cats.  I had to come down stairs to get away from them because they were starting to bother me.  I will go back up and watch TV and eventually fall asleep, then a new day will begin. 

I hope that your having a great Christmas Eve and that tomorrow is a great holiday for you.  Stay warm and be well.  Merry Christmas!

Eve of Christmas Eve

It’s been an interesting day.  Had a little bit of a lull after lunch and then a million things came in at once.  I was busy and now it’s 30 minutes until it’s time to leave.  If I was counting correctly it would be an hour but I’ve done my time.  Got in early, had a short lunch and it’s time to reap the reward.  I can’t wait to be home!

Remember last week when the AC was on in my office.  Well my plan of upping the thermostats worked to solve that problem.  Today it is unseasonably warm outside and inside I am sweating to death.  It' was 79 by lunch time and now it’s at 77.  I’ve got a fan on and my door open.  I also turned down the thermostats a few degrees.  I’ve got 3 working days left in this building and then I am done and will be in my new home, which I hope I like.  I will miss having a window but it’s not the end of the world. 

The pizza I made was over cooked and burnt but hey at least it wasn’t cold.  I ate most of two pieces last night.  I plan to eat the left over two pieces tonight and have them cold.  Burnt pizza isn’t an aroma for any house but it’s far better than burnt popcorn.  So I have that going for me. 

Most people are done and have called it a day.  Lots of people were out today but you couldn’t tell that by the morning commute.  I also almost got hit by this clown taking an exit a little too aggressively.  I mean it’s work I’m not going to kill to get in but going home is another story. 

Still no word on my “invite” but I figure if nothing comes tomorrow then it’s not happening.  At least if it is happening and I don’t have 1 day’s notice then I won’t be going.  I think it’s rude.  Sure I have no family and nothing better going but I still deserve respect.  I have mixed emotions about going but I kind of hope it all comes together, beats staying at home even though my furry family would much prefer that. 

I’d like to grab a couple new candles tomorrow, it’s another addition like writing instruments I have.  I’ve got a coupon for $5 off and I’d like to use it.  Mostly it depends upon how I feel when I get up.  I’ll either be motivated or want to go back to bed – there is no in between. 

Here’s hoping it’s a great holiday for you and me as well as the rest of the world.  Take care and be well.  Talk again soon.

Full of Meat

Last night I treated myself and went to a new BBQ place that I have been wanting to eat at for a very long time.  They have a cult like following.  It’s grown so much they had to move to a new location.  Finding that new location proved to be quite a challenge, I drove right by the place two times.  Holy cow.  The important part is I found it and had a great meal.  I ordered a Pork Plate and I got porked pork.  I was so full when I left that place and it was so good that I know I will be back. 

When you walk in you have to stand in a line, place your order at the counter and they collect payment, give you a # and then you get to scramble for your own table.  Your food is brought to you when it’s ready.  Their soda glasses are “to go” plastic and a bit on the flimsy and small side for the price they charge. 

They had a staff member that kind of resembled Josh from Corbin Fisher (a gay porn site).  Josh is one of my long time favorites, who has since retired.  So I had some nice eye candy to observe while I was chowing down.  Something about the salt they use and the smoking of the meat that just makes it so delightful. 

I wobbled out of there and made it to get cat food and through Sam’s.  I always do the self check out because I like it.  Well I had this tray of pastry's that was super plastic wrapped and the bar code wouldn’t scan for the life of me.  I fought with it and then said screw it.  I went to Member Services and they were able to help me.  I did think about leaving w/o paying because I was frustrated.  There was this lady who works there who was on her own time returning a bunch of stuff and she wanted to yack to the person working.  Holy hell Mary some of us have a life, move it along.  I know that security was probably on me thinking I would dash out the door but it’s not worth the risk of going to jail for a $12 item.  Temping but not worth the risk. 

By the time I got home I felt like a large blimp.  I got things put away and then had a hell of a time getting undressed.  That’s when it hit me.  I’ll bet you this new diabetes drug causes weight gain.  Sure enough I looked and that is one of the many side effects.  I’ve going to chat with my doc about that.  I want to get bigger muscles but not fat.  I can’t afford to be so heavy I can’t wipe my own ass or take care of myself and constantly out of breath.  Somethings got to give.  I like the lower A1C benefit but we have to combat the weight gain portion.  My eating habits haven’t changed and I doubt they will.  Of course the large meal last night didn’t help things. 

Welcome to Sunday.  I had problems going to sleep last night but eventually was able to catch a couple hours.  Up at 5 to kick Gator out of my room.  Then Marvin figured out I closed the door and he wanted out but not until I was back in bed.  Ah Cats you got to love them.  Speaking of which there is a new series on Netflix called Don’t F with cats.  Unless you can tolerate animal abuse don’t watch it.  I made it to the part where they were describing what happens to 2 kittens and that’s when I said F this I am NOT watching it. 

I digress after a few more hours of sleep I got going.  I still felt a bit sluggish from yesterday.  I am also sore from the massage I gave myself yesterday.  Going to get another one tonight to hopefully work all of this junk out of my body.  Got my breakfast, grocery store shopping done and then got the car washed and gassed up.  Finally at long last back home to be with the fam.  I worked in a nap, as per usual.  Got the house cleaning done.  Decided to re-open the basement to the cats.  It’s been off limits for a couple months because of the mold remediation I was doing.  Perhaps some air circulating will help things.  Momma like to come down to sleep once and a while.  Gator comes down when the vacuum goes on.  She runs sees the doors closed and the runs back up the stairs hoping the monster machine won’t get her.  It’s kind of funny and she isn’t in any danger but you can’t tell her that. 

So here I sit playing on the PC and getting ready to grab the laundry and head up.  Time to shave and get supper ready.  I picked up a Uno’s Supreme Deep Dish Pizza.  It’s a Chicago thing and they are the best ( I like their Sausage pizza but that wasn’t an option).  Problem is with Deep Dish pizza in my oven I have to turn the heat up and let it cook longer and just when I think it’s done I pull it out and it’s cold.  So I fuss and say I will never buy one again but it’s one of my favorite things so of course I will buy another one.  I need a pizza stone, you’d think I would have procured one by now as much as I love pizza but nope.  I’ll be adding that to my shopping list on Amazon.  I use the shopping list more as a private wish list and add things when I can afford them or to bulk up an otherwise empty order. 

I got a holiday turkey dinner for 1 in the fridge, just in case my friends don’t get around to calling.  I like to celebrate Christmas on Christmas Eve it just seems more fun to me.  That is when there are presents to open and parties to attend.  However, since it will be just me and the cats it really doesn’t matter.  I’ll likely eat it for dinner on Christmas Eve regardless if I get my invite or not. 

This week is kind of crazy only having to physically go in on Monday.  Then off for 2 days and working from home for the other 2.  The weekend will be here before you know it. 

I should get moving.  I hope that your happy, safe, well and that you have a great holiday season.  Merry Christmas!

Delivered

I managed to wake up at 5 this morning after going to bed a little early for a Friday night.  I was just bushed.  At the end of the week it’s all I can do to walk in the house, I am physically & mentally exhausted.  I suppose that is why there is the weekend, so you can recover to go do it all again for 5 days.  Who ever thought of this system of working for a living designed quite the torture technique. 

I had myself a Diet Coke and managed and watched a little TV.  Managed to fall back to sleep.  Woke up at 8:30a and got a shower, fed the cats their 2nd breakfast.  Then went out for breakfast of my own.  It was like my lucky day or something.  I remembered before I left that I needed to refill a prescription, so I got that request in.  After eating I stopped by the post office to gather my weeks worth of mail, there wasn’t anything good.  Then I got an alert on my phone that my medicine was ready.  The pharmacy was on my way home.  I went inside and the hot guy I like waited on me.  I got home and my Amazon package with my massager was delivered.  Wow!

I got myself a massage, I was a little disappointed in that you can’t vary the speed but it should do the job, if I use it on a regular basis.  Then I went to watch some TV and take a nap. 

Nap over with I decided to start on laundry and take care of a task at work that needed to be done today.  Knocked that out pretty quick.  Then updated my finances and presto here I am.

The mold smell has returned to the basement.  I can do all of the air treatments I want to but I think until the wood is replaced it’s going to smell.  I have treated the inside but the other 1/2 is the outside and that smell eventually comes in, hence why I have the moldy smell.  It’s an aggravation/annoyance but that’s it.  So I will work on finding something to cover it up.  Perhaps a nice candle or some scented air freshener beads.  There has to be something that will resolve this even if only temporary.  The air treatments last a couple days and then the odor starts to faintly come back and after a couple more days it’s like square one.  Ugh is all I can say.  Mold has consumed a lot of my time, cost me a lot of money and worry and I am at the point where I short of rip out and replace there isn’t much more that I can do on my own. 

Momma is still a food eating machine.  She is up my ass all the time for food.  Were out of the gravy everyone seems to like.  It’s packets of food with gravy and they lap up the gravy and leave the pieces of food.  They all beg but Momma has extra strong power and she knows I can tell her no.  I have some food that goes to waste because they decide to get picky on me.  At least she is back to as normal as I believe she will be.  The end goal is to keep her hydrated, which means all of the food she wants, plenty of water and of course intermittent fluids.  I was going to get blood work done but based on how well she has recovered I am in a holding pattern for now.  The others seem to be doing reasonably well.  I just hope it continues to stay that way.  

The days of the year of 2019 are limited.  This hasn’t been one of my better years but thus far at least there is no death.  I do hope that 2020 is a full on delightful year with lots of positive experiences in store.  I suppose only time will tell.

Speaking of time I need to get going to get some cat food and grab dinner.  Then it will be back here to relax.  Monday starts a week of on-call for me.  I only plan to go in on Monday.  Were off on Tuesday & Wednesday.  I will work from home on Thursday & Friday.  Still waiting on Christmas dinner details but I will be buying enough food at the store so that if I don’t get info I won’t be starving.  I may not have a gourmet meal but I won’t be hungry.  Boy Scout motto … always be prepared!

Frustrated

Yesterday I read that Brendan Dassey (who is the juvenile from Making A Murder) was denied clemency.  If there has ever been a case of a wrongful conviction this is it.  The system is supposed to be fair but somehow there was a huge miscarriage of justice done here in my opinion.  My heart sank when I learned the news.  This poor kid who is now 30 is stuck to life in prison without the possibility of parole until 2048 for a crime he didn’t commit and a confession that was coaxed out of him.  As I understand it his legal avenues have been exhausted and the Governor and a request for commutation of his sentence or Clemency is his only option.  I’m sure you can ask multiple times but much like a conviction at trial I would think that once you get a no your chances of ever hearing a yes are limited. 

I learned today that there were several interrogations that took place but the one that stands out is the last one in which he was coxed to confess.  Apparently they asked him 1500 questions over the course of 3 hours.  Keep in mind he was a juvenile, alone with no parent or attorney and he is intellectually disabled (meaning he doesn’t have full comprehension and understanding).  I think this was a form of torture designed to break him down and they had no plans on letting him out until he said what they wanted him to say, so eventually he broke and just said what they wanted to hear.  I think even an innocent and fully competent adult would eventually breakdown and confess to something they didn’t do given similar circumstances. 

This case echo’s what I learned a few years back.  Never ever under any circumstances talk to the police.  Especially if they read you your Miranda Rights.  You need to have an attorney present.  The more you talk and think you can “explain things” the bigger of a grave your digging for yourself.  When they tell you anything you say can and will be used against you, they aren’t kidding around.  They will flip your words around quick.  Bottom line, keep your mouth shut until you talk with an attorney.  There are NO exceptions.

I pray that there is some relief instore for this kid who is now an adult.  This just breaks my heart.  I feel compelled to write a letter.  I actually had something pretty good worked up but threw it out when I thought you might do more harm than good, which is the last thing I would want.  I feel so helpless and I realize this isn’t my problem but it’s my nature to want to help people.  So instead of doing nothing I figured making a post about it to get it out of my system would be helpful, so here you go. 

Air Conditioning in the Winter

Yesterday I was working along making good progress and about 3:30p the AC kicked on in my office.  I checked with the person sitting in the next office over and they too reported chilly conditions.  Finally by 5p I had enough and decided to go home.  I came back this morning thinking that the issue would be resolved.  Nope.  AC still running full blast.  I looked at the thermostats in the office and they were all set low, I kicked them up and pressed the override button.  I fired up the space heater and the radiator heater in my office.  Finally after a couple hours were at 75 which is better than the 60 degrees when I walked in the door.  Now I am so sleepy and ready for a nap.  If only I didn’t have a window I would actually try to fall asleep.

I’ve worked on all of the stuff I normally do on Friday’s plus played catch up from a couple things yesterday.  Here we are at 10:30a and I am bored.  It’s going to be a long day. 

I need to talk with our new guy but I feel like I have been bothering him so I am waiting to see how long it takes him to reach out to me.  We have some work to do, but my guess is that he won’t call me, which is fine it can all wait until Monday.

There is a meeting and call this afternoon that we both need to be on it shouldn’t take more than an hour if that.  Not looking forward to it but it is what it is. 

Yesterday I asked boss man about working 5 days split up around the holidays at home.  He shot the idea down telling me I could have 3 days but that I needed to pick 2 and come in to the office.  What a Motherfucker.  He tells me I can work from home but when I take him up on it he gets all worried about “perception” and back peddles.  Spineless coward.  I mean over all he is an okay boss but it’s times likes these that he really pisses me off.  I also got my Christmas gift from him.  He thought it was wonderful but I think it’s lousy.  It’s a door dash gift card and not for a lot of money, like less than I have received in past years.  I would have much rather had a movie gift card but hey at least he thought of me.  I’ll think of him when shove it in the shredder.  Seriously, I probably won’t use it and will wind up giving it away or putting it in a drawer and letting it collect dust. 

It will be time to move back home, looks like they plan on doing it on the 1st Sunday of January.  I am not excited about that but I also don’t plan to come in.  If you want to move all of my stuff over well knock your self out.  I will miss the security guards, they are so nice, pleasant and friendly.  It something I look forward to coming in and going home.  The security in our building isn’t polite they are just there and they act like big brother.  I get they have a large facility and lots of people they are responsible for but geez at least being friendly goes a long way.  I won’t miss the poor climate control or the long walk to and from.  Secretly I don’t want to go back but I have no control over it. 

Ah so that is work. 

On the home front.  Amazon has disappointed me I was supposed to get my vitamins several days ago and they just showed up today.  I am expecting a neck/shoulder massager today and it shows that it will be delivered by 8p but it’s not even shipped yet.  I don’t think it will arrive today.  I really need it.  This knot in my back is driving me nuts and I would like nothing more than to get rid of it.  Maybe I will luck out and they will get it to me on Saturday or so I hope. 

I gave Ms. Momma some fluids on Wednesday.  She didn’t get much just a tiny dose.  She is still eating like a horse but she is holding her own and slowly returning to her old self.  She did some jumping and has sought me out for more than a meal. 

There wasn’t anything on last night so I found myself watching a full episode of Dr. Pimple Popper and I don’t know how I made it through the entire hour.  Marv had fallen asleep on my hand so I was immobile.  He looked so cute.  I took his picture and that woke him up for a second.  I got a dirty look and then he fell back asleep.  He is really something. 

Gator has a stomach bug.  She is still eating and drinking but I watching her as well.  She climbed up in bed with me earlier in the week and we slept together for a bit.  She also woke me up early this morning because she was hungry.  Funny how that works. 

I am looking forward to relaxing and doing nothing tonight.  Not much planned for tomorrow but I would like to make it to Sam’s to stock up on a couple things.  Plus grab some cat food.  Not sure if I will treat myself to breakfast, kind of depends upon how I feel. 

No word from my friends on Christmas Dinner yet.  My guess is they will wait until the last minute and spring it on me.  I’m holding out on purpose and being stubborn.  I recall they reached out to me a week before Turkey Day to get the details.  To me it’s just another day and it matters not if I go anywhere.  I know I can have a good time there but I can have an okay time with the cats. 

Ah almost 11.  I haven’t moved from my chair since I walked in the door so I guess I should get up and get some blood flowing.  Thinking about maybe crossing the street to check out my new digs.  Not sure if I will be that motivated but hey it will help pass some time.  I may also put that off until later this afternoon. 

Happy Weekend, I hope your warm, safe and having a good time.  Talk with you all again soon.  Be well. 

No travel Tuesday

The great snow storm has finally come to an end.  Road crews look like they have done a decent job.  However, there was still a plea this morning if you could delay your commute or work from home to do so.  Naturally I opted in to that and told my boss I was staying put.  Tomorrow things should be squared away and it will be back to travel, provided I can make it out of my driveway.  That’s the biggest battle for me then out of the subdivision next.  I watched a plow last night as it came through.  He was moving too fast in my opinion and therefore did an okay but not excellent job.  I get they have many roads and subdivisions to plow but if a job is worth doing, it’s worth doing right.  Now I am not going to complain.  I live on a corner lot and they push a good portion of the snow in front of my driveway as it is.  If you complain you’ll get a mountain but the rest of your street will be crystal clear.  I heard that years ago which is why I never, ever complaint about snow plowing. 

It was tough to get going this morning as it was.  The cats were playing games with food to see if they could hold out for better.  Gator wasn’t feeling well and had issues with both ends.  I went backup about an hour ago and she was eating Marv’s breakfast so I suppose she is feeling better.  Momma hangs out in her bed in my room.  She is a little more sociable but I think mostly she is cold.  I got down on the floor with her and it was cold for me.  I turned up the heat but the problem is hot air rises so it’s always going to be colder on the ground.  She has her moments but thus far no fill up of fluid.  I am keeping a close eye and unless there is a problem I plan to give her a 1/2 of a dose tomorrow for good measure. 

I kind of miss the office, something about sitting on my ass at home, filling up on food and not really getting any movement just doesn’t resonate well.  I know that it’s adding pounds on and that is exactly what I don’t want to happen. 

So next week at this time I will have the day off since it will be Christmas Eve.  Not sure what my plans are for that day.  I’m supposed to be going to my friends house for Christmas but as per usual no details just yet.  They will wait until the very last minute to spring them on me, which I think is inconsiderate and rude.  I will most likely go over but last year I didn’t go out of spite because they waited too long and didn’t really tell me at Thanksgiving that they were planning on doing Christmas. 

The snow looks so pretty outside that is until you have to travel in it.  Glad my vehicle is all ready with aired up tires and a full tank of gas.  It’s weather like this that makes me thankful for all wheel drive, otherwise I don’t think I need it.  It’s a full time thing no option to turn it off.  However, I think on the model I am eyeing next there might be an option to turn it off when it’s not needed. 

Nothing else is really popping and I feel relaxed except for the knot in my back which I can’t seem to get rid of.  Even though it’s only Tuesday I am so looking forward to the weekend and being able to disconnect from my phone.  Sleep in and think about nothing.

I hope your having a great day and staying warm.  I will talk with you all again soon. 

Winter’s mess

It truly is a mess outside.  I heard the forecast last night and knew that today would be a work from home day for me.  There isn’t much going on.  I have to jump on a conference call in a bit.  There is another one scheduled for this afternoon.  Outside of that I don’t plan on “working” as if I was in the office.  It’s been hella hectic for a while and I am going to enjoy the break while it lasts.  If something comes up I will certainly jump on it but otherwise I will be in relax mode.  Boss man has a dentist appointment this afternoon so that kind of assures that things will be quiet. 

Many of our other offices got dumped on and it’s the week before Christmas so people are out.  Things are slowing down and I am okay with that.  Doesn’t look like our new guy made it in and based on the weather in his location I get it.  1/2 a foot of snow. 

We will be in the same predicament as it will continue to snow this morning through most of the evening.  Tomorrow morning is a tough call this far out.  I think we will be in the clear but I may choose to milk the system.  Tomorrow will be busier than today as there are plenty of time wasting meetings and bullshit conference calls to attend.  Boring!

Shame were not like Microsoft and just shutdown for the rest of the year, I’d be for that but no such luck.  Glad I have a nice warm house to be in with weather like this.  Great day for sleeping in and just chilling in front of the TV.  If only I could.  I have to stay handy because about the time I nod off is when things will start snapping. 

Happy Monday!

Just talking about it

* This is some random things I need to talk about *

This morning I got some disturbing news on Twitter.  Many moons ago I followed Will & RJ on YouTube.  I remember attending their wedding which was live streamed on YouTube.  It was my first gay wedding and I was more than a bit emotional.  They looked so much like the perfect couple.  Shortly after they were married they stopped daily vlogging which was a tough pill for me and many others to swallow.  I learned that they divorced I believe last year, possibly longer.  I was sad their marriage didn’t last a lifetime.  So you have some back story.  Well they adopted a German Shepard puppy and named him Dobby.  He grew up to be a big dog.  He was in a lot of their videos.  The poor thing had a problem with seizures.  It was pretty traumatic, they filmed one and put it on YouTube.  Well turns out that Dobby passed away 2 months ago from liver failure.  Dobby stayed with Will after the divorce.  I was crushed to learn of his passing.  This was a very difficult thing for Will and experiencing pet loss myself I can relate.  I remember posting when I got bad news about Ruth on FB and I never ever followed up to tell everyone that she passed.  It’s just too difficult.  While I get that Will is entitled to privacy and he no longer is posting videos I really hope that he comes back to YouTube.  I went to check out his page I used to watch old videos from time to time and the next crushing blow hit me.  All of the old videos are gone.  I’ve scoured the internet and unless you downloaded them your pretty much out of luck.  Sad.  I used to write them from time to time and event sent them a gift one time, RJ said my name on camera and I had to rewind that to hear it a couple times.  I liked them both as a couple but when a couple splits everyone that knew them takes sides.  I’m on Team Will.  I wish that we were friends and new each other better to where I could pick up the phone and call him.  I want nothing more than to hug him, I feel his pain.

On a different note last night I got caught up in looking at old photos and videos of my life and memories that I made with my late spouse.  I get a daily dose of past photos via Amazon Photos which is nice to reflect on but it also helps drudge up old feelings.  I really had a great life and made some good memories.  I wish that I could go back to happier times when I seemed to take things for granted and not focus on the fact that some day I would be all alone.  I’m going to survive everyone from my late spouse to all of the cats.  To thing about that is horrifying and scary.  Life will always continue to go on.  I only hope that I can experience true happiness again and soon. 

Some of those past memories were of my brother.  I can’t help but wonder how things are going for him and if he is truly as happy as he was when he got married.  Of course I’d love nothing more than to slap him for marrying that witch but it’s his life and he can make poor decisions if he wants to.  I can’t help but think the bottom is going to fall out and he thought he was depressed before well if I am right he will be even more depressed if that happens.  I doubt seriously if he will ever reach back out to me again.  While I want to hear from him, I don’t want to get caught up in his life again and invest because in the end it will hurt me.  He’s toxic but he’s also the only living blood family I have left.  I really wish that we were true brothers and there for each other in good times and in bad.  However, it’s better in many ways that we are apart.  Our lives are polar opposites he likes women and I like men.  He likes physical labor and I like office work.  He likes to smoke and drink and I like to eat and drink soda.  However, we each have the ability to make the other one laugh or be mad.  I looked at our last text message conversation from earlier this year.  It’s like I am trapped in a nightmare and can’t seem to wake up.  I just can’t believe that after all of the crap she put him through he was dumb enough to take her back.  We each saw our mom make horrible decisions and she had really bad taste in men.  Meaning none of them were LTR material.  We saw her marry one guy two times.  She was quick to forgive and forget (not sure if she actually forgot) and my brother appears to be following in her footsteps.  I on the other hand am not like that. 

Ah okay so now that I have let my hair down I think I should get away from this machine and go spend time with my furry family.  Snow is adding up and I have serious doubts if I will be leaving the house tomorrow.  Things will be icing up overnight and ice & I don’t get along well.  Once you fall you don’t tend to forget it. 

Amazon got me again.  I had to order vitamins so I bought a shoulder/neck massager I have had my eye on.  It can’t get here fast enough.  There is this knot in my back that no matter what I do I can’t seem to work out.  I need a massage to get beaten up and get this worked out.  Moving back to our permeant location at work next month will put me in a better position to get massages it’s just a matter of affording them.  In case you care I found that the next pen I want is dropping in price, it’s actually almost below $100 once that happens I will pounce like a cat on fresh salmon. 

Thanks for listening to my rant.  Stop by again to find out what else is new in my life.

Slippery when wet

We are in the middle of a winter storm.  It started snowing around 9:30a this morning and it’s supposed to continue for the bulk of the day.  We are expected to have more tomorrow.  I think the Monday morning commute will be interesting at best.  I’ll make sure to get up a little early and see if I’ll be going in or working from home.  I don’t want to break my neck but I also don’t want to be all holed up because of a few flakes of snow.  I do realize that people lose their minds and forget how to drive in weather like this, which is the only reason why I would stay home.  If your careful, drive slow and watch your surroundings then chances are really good you will be fine. 

I am listening to the scanner and there are all sorts of accidents.  I heard a foot pursuit and hear about the snow plows & tow trucks.  It’s a true mess out there but it sure looks pretty from inside my nice warm home. 

I woke up at 7a and fed the kids.  Then poked around on my phone to see what was going on in the world.  I got medicine passed out and then went off to breakfast.  Then hit up the grocery store.  I waited in my car for a bit until the haircut store opened up and then got my ears lowered.  When that was done it was off to the pet food store and then to the gas station and finally home.  I am in for the day and so very thankful for it.  I’m giving the car a chance to cool off then will go out a bit later and check tire pressure and clean up the back window. 

I am working on laundry and will be headed up in a bit to start on vacuuming and trash.  I am so ready for a nap.  Got a Sausage & Pepperoni Tombstone Pizza for supper.  Some cookies & ice cream for desert.  The next episode of Shameless will be on tonight and I always look forward to that. 

Ms. Momma is doing okay.  She has her moments when her walking isn’t 100% but she is 99% back to being okay.  Her personality is still way different and that has me thinking that her thyroid is probably off.  I’m monitoring her.  I will probably wind up getting blood work done on her, which is another $100 but the insight into what is going on internally is invaluable.  I don’t want to do it unnecessarily but if her personality doesn’t change up a bit I am more likely to dig and find out why.  This whole walking drunk thing has taken quite the toll on both her and I. 

Last full week before the Holidays begin.  Wow time is flying by.  I guess the good news is that it will be Spring before you know it.  Warmer weather will be nice but that is more than a few month off.  It’s cold out but this is only scratching the surface there is much colder weather ahead.  So glad the furnace was fixed last year.  I still remember coming home to a 52 degree house and Momma staring at me from inside my stereo cabinet with that face of help me.  I left her nose prints on the glass as a reminder. 

Well stay safe, keep warm and be well.  I will try to do the same.  Here’s to a great week ahead for one and all.  Talk with you all again soon. 

Bumpy week

So glad that today is Friday.  It’s been a bumpy week.  Wednesday I woke up and felt fine until I got out of the shower.  Then I just didn’t feel right.  I debated on what to do and decided to take the day off.  Whatever it was got worse and then went away.  Not sure if it was a blood sugar thing but I just felt bad.  I did a lot of sleeping on Wednesday so you know Thursday was a mess and I took that day as well.  I slept a little bit but made sure to stay awake for the bulk of the day. 

I feel so so now.  I made it in.  Today is our holiday party and I’m not going.  Just food in conference rooms and people mingling.  Nothing that is worth crossing the street for.  Any prizes we win are taxable and you have to be present to win so that solves that little problem.  I did wake up to a $25 gift card which is something that we do here most years.  I was told last year that it had to stop but apparently somebody didn’t get that memo so we get to enjoy another year.  It’s nice and Amazon sucks my money up faster than the vet but the difference is I like Amazon. 

Speaking of vet, Momma got some fluids on Wednesday night just because I couldn’t not give them to her.  Last night she was acting a little bit more like herself.  She is still eating a lot and that tells me that something is wrong with her.  She isn’t like that normally.  It’s like she is trying to make up for something that her body is losing or not making.  I don’t want to lose her ever but I know that eventually we will part ways.  Right now I am taking a wait & see approach.  She maybe able to hold her own for a while or she may need some help with fluids.  I got her to sleep with me for a little bit last night.  She was purring up a storm.  I look forward to seeing her and the others when I walk in the door.  I know everyone will be hungry.  Because they will have missed out on lunch. 

That’s all I know at the moment, which isn’t much.  Hope your having a great Friday.  One more full week before we work our way to the holidays.  Not a fun time for me but I will enjoy the warmth and comfort of my furry family.  Cheers for now. 

Horrible surprise

I stopped off at the vets office last night to get Momma’s fluids.  I got them and one hell of a bill to go with them.  Turns out they weren’t the $30 I thought they were they were $55 and then it’s another $20 something for the Potassium additive, so all together it was $85.  I really wish they would have given them to me on Saturday as the total bill would have been around $200 and that is the magic number for 1 card I have that offers zero percent financing if paid in 6 months.  It’s way to help me not part with all of my money at once.  I can pay for it but it’s just parting with all of the cash up front that I object to.  I must have had one hell of a look on my face when the lady told me the total last night.  She was like do you not want them now?  I said no I need them it’s a life support thing but I’d like to understand how the cost breaks down.  Once she gave me that it helped but didn’t make me feel a whole lot better. 

Momma got her dose of fluids last night and she was strutting her stuff around the house.  Her gait still isn’t 100% but it’s more like 98% there.  She didn’t seem totally like herself last night but she was clingy so I am guessing she didn’t feel 100%.  She is still eating like a horse, I can’t seem to give her enough food.  I believe she has some diarrhea but hopefully that will clear up. 

I’ve got an email into the vet to find out how I should move forward.  I’m super scared that if I follow the plan that was given to me and don’t give her fluids tonight that she will have more problems in the next few days.  I don’t want that but I also really don’t want to have to fill her up every night.  I know she will get tired of it, but if that is what keeps her around I’m more than willing to do it.  My worst fear is that this is a band-aid and there is a larger issue lying in wait that will cause her demise. 

I thought she was 18 but turns out the vets record says she is 16 and 6 months.  I’d like to see her make it many more years but I’m not totally in control here which is the problem.  I can end her life prematurely but I can’t make it go past whatever expiration date is written in the sky that is unknown to me.  That is the date I worry most about.  

On a different note I have spent the afternoon in documentation hell and updating documentation.  I was so engrossed I didn’t realize how much time went by.  It won’t be too much longer and I will be packing up and going home to see the old woman.  I hope to find her in the window waiting for my arrival that will put me at ease. 

It is in the 20’s here and that is very cold.  I so didn’t want to get out this morning but I made it.  Welcome to almost Winter. 

Hope you had a great day.  Talk again soon. 

Fill’er up

15 minutes left in my lunch break and then it’s back to work.  Been an okay day thus far.  I got our new guy some $ turns out he wasn’t getting the stipend for his mobile device and we talked about it.  I said something to the boss and now HR is looking into it.  I want him to get everything he is entitled to.  While the mobile device credit isn’t much it’s better than nothing. 

Boss man shot down my proposed on-call calendar so now I have to go back to the drawing board.  We also have people coming and going and my regular job.  So to say I am a little busy is kind of an understatement.  I thought today I would have some extra time to get caught up on other things but looks like that won’t happen.

I can’t even believe it’s lunch time that is how fast the day is moving.  It will be time to go home and I look forward to that.  Need to stop by the vet and give them some more money.  They are giving me more fluids for momma.  She got her dose last night.  This morning she was doing pretty good.  I opened some extra food and she would go to chow down and then gator would but in.  Momma did get to eat but that daughter of hers is quite the hog.

I look forward to spending time with them tonight and filling momma up with more fluids.  Today is supposed to be the last day.  I hope that she does well over the next few days so we can taper back on this fill up stuff.  I know she hates it and I’m not the biggest fan of it but once you do it a couple times it’s not hard at all.  The 2 big problems are making sure you don’t stick yourself with the needle and getting the needle in so the fluid goes into the cat instead of all over the floor.

Today’s weather isn’t horrible but over night that will change and temperatures will drop seriously low.  Were not getting any winter weather just the low temperatures.  Tomorrow is supposed to be bone chilling cold and I so don’t look forward to that but it’s part of the game.  Funny thing is it’s not officially winter yet.  I would like a White Christmas, not too white where you can’t or shouldn’t travel but a couple inches will be fine. 

Happy Monday, hope your day is going well.  Talk with you all again soon.  Back to ye old bump and grind. 

Military Funeral

I went to my former co-worker/friends funeral, which was described as a celebration of life.  They even said when the service started that if we were there for a funeral we were in the wrong room.  I was impressed when I pulled up the parking lot of the funeral home was full.  I had to get creative with my parking.  I thought for sure there would be at least a hand full of people from work but surprisingly I only saw the lady that sits next to me.  I was very disappointed that there were not more people from work there. 

The service its self was very short.  Apparently he had planned things in advance, which I think is a great thing to do because it removes the burden from your family.  Plus you know what’s supposed to happen even though you won’t be there.  So a preacher spoke a little bit, music played, his daughter spoke and then the preacher again.  It was about 45 minutes if that.  At the end there was a presentation by the US Air Force with rifles and the whole flag ceremony.  I was misty eyed through out the “civilian” portion of the service.  By the time the military part rolled in I was really emotional.  So glad I came with a clean handkerchief.  The military portion is emotional, even the military type ceremony at a policy officers funeral will get me to tear up.  Most every funeral I go to I think back to my loss and feel sorry for the family.  This man knew a lot of people and was very personable.  I will so miss being able to pick up the phone and talk with him, not that I called on a regular basis.  He was more interested in what was going on at the office and how i was rather than talking about his situation.  He did give me an update when I called and that’s what I was most interested in.  He tried to keep the spotlight off of himself and today I learned that he never liked to be in the spotlight.  They had food at a nearby church but I didn’t go to that.  Unfortunately there was no guest/memory book.  I would have really loved to talk with his family.

Most of all I was thankful that my boss helped cover my on-call for the day to allow me to go.  Nothing is going on and it’s been quiet, which is usually the case on a Sunday. 

On a more personal note, Ms. Momma is still doing really well.  We have moved out of my room and are occupying the living room/kitchen area which is more normal for all of us.  Right now I’m typing on the couch.  Marv is passed out next to me.  Momma is by the back door and Gator is sleeping in her bed.  I was able to get some fluids in Momma early this afternoon. She became fussy so I stopped short of what would be a normal dose.  I will be giving her more here in a bit.  I want to do my part so she gets back on a full normal path and we can get away from daily fluids.  She is very happy and grateful as well as clingily.  I know that she worships me for being her hero and now helping her out when she is sick only further endears me to her.  I’ve never felt so appreciated by an animal. 

Well on with my evening, at least I can rest a bit before it’s back to the normal bump and grind of the work week.  At least I won’t be on call and we should be back to a normal staffing level.  Ah, fun!

I hope all is well in your world and that your staying warm.  I will talk with you all again soon.  Have a great week!

Update on Lucky

It appears her name still holds true in that she is Lucky.  This has all appearances of being metabolic and her potassium level was the lowest possible range under normal, one number lower and she would have been considered low.  The vet feels that because I acted and gave her fluids that contain potassium this is what has the level where it’s at. 

I gave her another dose when we got home and she wasn’t happy about it.  I have to give her another dose tomorrow and then again on Monday.  Hopefully, she will spring back to normal.  She is walking slightly better so hopefully we are going in the right direction. 

I got the neurological signs of a stroke and they aren’t pretty.  Hopefully I will never ever see them.  Her kidneys are the culprit here.  Long term she will have to get fluids at least once per week when she recovers from this. 

I’m catering to her and giving her anything she wants from attention to a can of food.  She can’t feel the greatest and getting her back to a healthy state or some state of normal is my goal. 

Her weight is at 5 pounds which is solid for her.  Last time we went through this she was down to 3 pounds.  So it sounds like the symptoms presented early enough that I was able to react quickly. 

Wow this girl I’m telling you she is tougher than a Timex watch.  I am so proud of her and want her to keep on going for many years to come. 

Since were talking cats here.  Gator has been all up in my grill and longing for attention, she interjects herself at feeding time to try to steal food from momma.  Marv is just being a jerk longing for attention and when he doesn’t get it he tips over his dry food bowl and makes a big mess for me to clean up. 

These cats have it so good and I am glad that I am able to keep them comfortable in the lifestyle they have become accustom to. 

As for me I am an emotional wreck from last night.  Plus my upper back is killing me I have had some serious knots and muscle spams.  I had taken a stronger muscle relaxer and then a couple hours later is when the issues with Lucky unfolded.  It’s been up and down all night long.  I even got in a nap. 

I am working on laundry.  Got my Cyber Monday sheets and found an old mattress cover that appears to have some better cushion.   My plan is to change out the bed tonight and flip the mattress.  Let’s just hope the cats will permit that minor inconvenience.  I have to wash my comforter again because Gator got sick.

It’s been a bumpy week and the events of yesterday evening didn’t help things.  I was actually relaxed and ready to dose off when I sprung into gear.  I think all of the cats know deep down how much I love them and that I would do anything for them. 

Hope things are going good for you.  I am headed to clean up email from this past week and then will grab some dinner and go buy cat food.  Then I’m home until tomorrow morning when it’s time to get breakfast and people food.  Then go out in the afternoon for the memorial service.  Take care and swing by again for another update. 

Not so Lucky

When I arrived home last night Lucky (momma) was fast asleep in my bed.  I startled her awake and she came out to dinner.  A couple hours later she started walking funny like she was drunk.  Her back legs are the issue.  I think it’s just one.  Last time this happened she was dehydrated but she also wasn’t eating.  She is eating and drinking, in fact her drinking has increased over the past couple weeks.  I had to fight with her last night but she took her medicine.  I also gave her some fluids, which her body gobbled up quickly. 

I was up and down all night long with her.  She did vomit but she ate a early morning meal and also her breakfast.  She wants to be close to me because she knows something is wrong.  I too know something is wrong but am just unsure of what. 

The leg that is affected is the same one she had the wart removed from last month.  She could be dehydrated but I am not putting my money on that.  I think there is either another tumor that is affecting her walking or she had a stroke.  Her personality is intact other than being extra clingy. 

I was up bright and early at 7a to make an appointment with the vet.  We go over in a couple hours and hopefully I will know more then.  I really hope we can get her to bounce back from this.  If not then as long as she isn’t in any pain and doesn’t hurt herself I am content to leave things as they are.  I need the assurance there isn’t an emergent issue that needs to be dealt with.  I don’t want to have her spiral out of control and then be forced to make a decision. 

That little girl is tough and she has been through some crap in her lifetime.  I know she is old but I am not now nor will I ever be ready to lose her.  I’m very scared and all alone.  All I can do is hope and pray.  Well Gator is crowing and I have errands to tend to.  So I’ll be back with an update later on today.  Keep us in your thoughts and prayers. 

Krazy Week

Each day has presented me with stressful busy tasks at work.  I have a little breathing room today and figured I would squeeze in a few words here before I head out for the day. 

Sunday is the Memorial Service for my former co-worker, it’s an hour away from my house (1 way).  It will disrupt my routine but I plan on going.  I got coverage for my on-call shift for a couple hours.  I think there will be a lot of people there both that I work with now and that have left.  There is no message about burial so I am guessing he was cremated.  I’m not quite sure what to expect other than some music and probably people telling stories about the good memories they have. 

Speaking of work, I found out that we will be moving back in January to our normal home.  I am in fact getting an office.  It used to be a broom closet but it’s been converted.  I was hoping for a window office but no such luck.  I guess it’s time for me to go back in the closet.  Probably just as well because I would have the tendency to day dream.  It will be nice to be back but at the same time I wish I could stay where I am despite the climate issues and having to cross the street.  Last night I got a look from a cop as I was trying to jay walk and cross the street.  I’m not in it for the exercise or I would cross at the cross walk which is a ways up the street.  

On the home front the kids are all picky eating and I am a little concerned but at least they are still eating.  Everyone is drinking lots of water which is abnormal.  Something is going on but I just can’t put my finger on it.  I have a watchful eye on all of them at all times regardless.  Those 3 little balls of fur are my world. 

My Cyber Monday sheets are waiting for me at home.  I plan to wash and put them on over the weekend.  This weekend will be stressful in that I have to scramble and shift things around but hopefully there will be some “me” time in there.  My muscles are cramping and I am really worn out.  Ah well at least tomorrow is Friday. 

Hopefully, all is well in your world.  I will talk with you again soon. 

Sad news

So my old co-worker that I just talked with on Wednesday , I got word today that he passed away last night.  I am glad that I listened to the nagging feeling I had to call him.  I did deliver his message to the one person here (who oddly sits next to me) to call him.  I logged in and sent an email but sadly she never got the opportunity.  She was in tears when word spread.  I felt really bad for her, it put me in an awkward position and sucked the life right out of today.  Hey we all get busy and I understand that.  However, you can’t loose sight of your friends and family, they are important and no one lives forever.  As I am too frequently reminded. 

I am back in the office after having a rough night.  I woke up at 2a from a nightmare that someone was trying to kill me.  I felt the urge to grab a soda and start eating.  Before I knew it I went through 3 sodas, a bunch of candy and 2 cookies.  I remember thinking there is no way I will remember this when I wake up and sadly I remember it all.  I just couldn’t get enough to drink.  I went back to bed and Gator knew I was having a rough time so she came and cuddled up with me and let me hang on to her paw which always help me fall back asleep.  I laid awake for the longest time but eventually I fell asleep because I woke up at 5a and had to use the bathroom, probably all that soda.  Needless to say I had to really push hard this morning but I made it. 

I always mentally freak out before going back to work after having had time off regardless if it’s authorized time or sick time.  I had some horrible jobs and horrible bosses that kind of put fear into me about taking time off.  Happy vacation. 

It’s been a really crazy busy morning and I am trying to keep our new guy busy, which is proving to be challenging.  He still doesn’t have the same access as me and I am eager to get him going but I am waiting on word from the boss and purposely not asking about it.  I think were having a stalemate and each one of us is waiting for the other one to ask about it.  I will eventually cave but right now it’s just business as usual.  Speaking of which I found that I will be moving back to the original building sometime between now and the end of January.  The longer the better my chances that I will actually move into an office instead of my old digs.  Crossing my fingers. 

Marv isn’t feeling the best.  Some stomach thing has been making it’s rounds with all of the kids.  I stopped Momma and Marv from their meds because Momma had issues.  I just started back up the meds this morning but before I could pass them out Marv got sick.  I feel really bad.  I know stopping their meds causes appetite issues and he’s been extra picky.  I hope he is feeling better by the time I get home.  I peeked in by camera a few moments ago and everyone is in hiding.  It’s cold outside so they are probably all huddled up in my room, which is the warmest place in the whole house (year round).  I look forward to spending time with him tonight and unless I get a call there is no reason why I need to go to the basement, so here’s hoping it will be quiet. 

Well I’ve got about 5 minutes to wrap things up and get back to the old bump and grind.  Traffic to work wasn’t that bad a lot of people I think are either still off or took extended vacations.  So hopefully that will be a trending thing so the commutes for a little while will be easier and maybe quicker than normal. 

Stay warm and be well.  We will talk again soon.  Cheers for now. 

Last day of vacation

Happy December everyone!  I hope that your having a great day.  It’s a rainy, windy and chilly day here.  Somewhere out there the sun is shining but you’d be hard pressed to prove that if you were here. 

My day started off super early at 5a when I woke up out of the blue.  I knew I wouldn’t want to get moving when 8a rolled around.  Sure enough I was right.  I had climbed back into bed and Gator joined me after eating some breakfast.  I was really tired and like I predicted I didn’t want to get moving.  I put it off for 30 minutes but eventually had to shove off to get the day started. 

Stopped off at Steak N Shake to grab my typical Sunday breakfast.  Of course this hot young High School kid walks in with what I gathered was his Aunt & Grandma.  Damn he was so fine.  Not sure if he knew I was checking him out.  I can’t help myself I love younger legal guys.  However legal or not there is no harm in looking and dreaming.  He ordered a shake and I waited for that to be delivered before I left.  We practically had the same meal except for the shake.  I wanted one but it’s not like I actually need it. 

Headed off the grocery store didn’t spend that much.  They didn’t have the chocolate peanut butter cookies I wanted but instead they had blueberry oatmeal, that sounded interesting so I grabbed them.  When I checked out of there it was off to the gas station and then my final destination of home.  I’ll be here for the remainder of the day. 

With the groceries all put away I turned up the heat by 1 degree and grabbed a cold bottle of water.  Then camped out in my recliner and Gator being clingy joined me.  I eventually napped for a bit.  Now that I am awake it’s off to household chores.  Finishing up laundry.  Headed up to vacuum in a bit, the cats hate that. 

I got a surprise from Amazon my ink that was supposed to be delivered tomorrow is out for delivery today.  So once that gets here I have 1 item left that isn’t scheduled to be delivered until Friday.

Last night I turned off all of the air purifiers, except for the one unit in my bedroom.  I am very pleased to report at the moment the mold smell is gone from the basement.  I am cautiously optimistic that this will remain.  I need to give it a couple more days to find out if this will be a true success. 

My last tasks that I’d like to accomplish today is draining the water heater.  I’ve heard some knocking nothing like it was last year but still it was a subtle reminder that the darn thing needs to be drained. 

So the holiday road ends today for me.  Back to normal tomorrow.  Hopefully it will be a productive Monday and the weekend will be here quickly.  See I’m not even back yet and I am ready for more time off.  Having the rest of the Turkey and dressing tonight.  I look forward to that  Sadly the store didn’t have any freshly made burritos so it’s will be something frozen for dinner tomorrow night unless I get a wild hair and make and refrigerate a frozen pizza. 

Hope you have a great day.  Now on with my tasks!  Take care.