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The date is done!  Everything went good.  It started out on a rough foot in that he was a little late and I began to think I was going to get stood up.  We never touched each other – no hand shake, no embrace or anything.  Different!

We ordered our food and spent most of the time talking rather than eating.  I just got home and I was there at 6p and didn’t leave until 8:50p.  They were cleaning tables and trying to give us subtle hints but I couldn’t get jabber box to stop talking so I could conclude the evening.

The photo he sent me does look like him but he had to have a ton of make up on because he is covered in warts.  I mean they are everywhere.  He told me about his health history and wow there is a lot to be concerned with.  He mentioned that he was on Food stamps, which I totally understand but he truly is dirt poor.  I feel desperation crying out like he really wants someone to love him for him.  He has one of those stereotypical effeminate voices, so when he opens his mouth his purse falls out.  Based on our conversation tonight I gleaned that he got married to a woman to make his parents happy.  My opinion is that he is hiding behind a label of bi-sexual.  He has also had numerous sexual partners of both sexes.  He says he is clean, but that factor just scares the hell out of me.  Of course someone will tell you they are clean but once you have slept together you find out days later that wasn’t the truth.  I don’t take him as a liar, but then again I don’t truly know him yet.

Long story short it was a really good time.  There is no love connection on my part.  He might be head over heels in love with me.  He did offer to have me come back to his house, twice.  I refused both times. 

When we parted ways he said that we could chat on-line, I was welcome to come over at any time or we could go back out to eat again if I so desired. 

What I have here at this point is truly a friend.  I’m not pushing him aside. I don’t know if I want to tell him there is no love interest on my part.  At the same time I don’t want to break his heart or cause him to abandon what we have built this far. 

There was truly more jitters & nerves on my part.  I mean I’m meeting a stranger in a public place.  Anything could happen but nothing at all happened. 

I know there is a guy out there for me, to be my next partner.  It’s just a matter of finding him.  It’s a journey and like any journey it will take time, patience and of course money.

Right now I feel emotionally & physically exhausted.  I’ve really gotten nothing accomplished today but it was a different and unique kind of Saturday.  Tomorrow will be very much a working Sunday around here.  Right now I am headed up and will watch TV and enjoy the rest of what has been kind of a lazy day.

There you have it, I am a virgin no more to dating.  My cherry was taken from me tonight and I can’t say that I miss it.  :)