So last night I got so nervous on the way home I decided NOT to eat supper. I waited patiently for 7p to roll around and then made the call. The phone rings off the hook, then there is heavy breathing. So I hung up and called back. I got a person Hello who is this? Uh duh we arrange a call dude. Oh are you from the dating site? Uh yeah that’s why I’m calling. We talked for about a minute and then his cell dropped the call.
He waited until he got home with better service to call me. We talked for about an hour. Kind of all over the board but mostly about technology. Then he said he would call me back today.
I get a message from him that he is calling in 10 minutes. No problem I was going to take a nap but now I will wait. He calls we talk. First question what are you wearing? Uh well I was actually in my underwear but I told him t-shirt & jeans. He tells me he is in bed thinking about me. Uh yeah like were going to have phone sex and I’m going to get you off, not happening. So I quickly changed the subject. We made idle chit cat and then he asked me if I wanted to go apple picking next Sunday. Uh that is not my idea of a good time. I said well maybe. We talked for a little over an hour. He said he would call me tomorrow.
He was up front with me to tell me he wasn’t white and he was mixed. I am thinking Black/White. Nope it’s White/Chinese. I was constantly asking him to repeat himself. It took serous effort to understand every word he was saying in between the oh my god’s which spewed out of his mouth like every other word.
I can see this isn’t going to work. I feel very bad and thought about it after we hung up. I wanted to reach out and tell him but I thought nah, just be a dick and disappear. So I had to actually pay money to join this site in order to block him. I had to pay more money to change my Magic Jack Phone Number. If you call the old number it goes straight to voice mail you can talk until your heart desires but I will never get the message. It’s such a douche move on my part but it’s the easiest way to make the point. I feel very guilty for doing it. I know he is going to be upset and probably heart broken. Here comes my justification….He was in love with a photo but never shared his photo with me. He told me his last BF slept around and who knows what I would be walking into. I got hints that he was kind of controlling. Plus there is that language barrier.
I’m no casanova and I don’t know that I can juggle multiple guys at one time. It would be nice but well it’s a lot of freaking work keeping Sam from Jim from John and Fred. Get where I’m going.
I am going to have to get ready for my date. I pray that karma doesn’t come back and slap me – so that he stands me up. I am not sure if there will be a spark, which is why I am nervous. I also think he may invite me back to his place, but I will decline that offer. I’m also wondering about a parting kiss at the end of the date, if he will try that or if we can just part ways for now with a simple hand shake. Maybe a hug. I will let the evening take me where it does but I do have limits. I can tell you that I know he is horny, lonely and desperate. 3 qualities that I can relate to but they don’t appeal to me. I’m looking to make a choice for a partner for what I hope is the rest of my life. I know he wants an LTR but I am not sure how long that term is. I will probe to find out tonight. It’s better not to make moves like picking out a partner out of desperation, that sounds like it might have the potential to end very badly. I’m not looking to break his heart or to have mine broken. I just want someone to love.
Well here it goes. Talk with you later.
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