More Bad News Bears

As of 4pm today I am unemployed.  I was told that there was no need for an IT Person since they are shutting down.  There is more to shoving me out the door than meets the eye.

This is NOT what I wanted to happen, but it’s done.  So now I have to pick up the pieces and move on. 

I have filed for unemployment and now I am back to having to check in every week and make a minimum of 3 contacts.  Then there will be the reporting in person every 4 weeks.  What a mess.  I just hope the money is way more than what I got before, but I am sure that will not be the case.

I am consulting with an attorney, but first I have to find one and imagine that will cost me some money.  Basically they are going to give me a very small severance package but in return I have to sign away all of my rights.  I am not going to do that out of duress.  Once you sign and mail, there is no taking it back. 

I managed to forget my train calendar but told a former co-worker to take it and do something nice with it.  It cost me several dollars.  It wasn’t worth quibbling about to get back.  I also forgot to turn in my company credit card, I am sure it’s no longer active but just the same I am cutting it in two and mailing it back. 

This all seems so surreal right now.  I’ve only told a handful of people.  I am NOT telling my brother or mother unless I absolutely have to.  That will put me at their beck and call and I will wind up running my mother all over the countryside when I should be looking for work.  Plus they will be calling nagging me to see if I got a job.  I just don’t want that.

The worst part of this whole thing is there is no one here to talk with, no one to lean on so to speak.  Not to mention no one to help pay for the mortgage or for food or anything.  I am going this all alone and that is very, very scary.  I mean it’s bad enough to be put in this position but it’s even worse to be all alone. 

I’m not sure that I will have the daily blog updates, it kind of depends upon how things go and if I feel like posting.  Personally with all of the rain falling in my life I am ready to end it.  However, I think if I do I would miss out on a better opportunity so I am curious to see where I land and how it goes. 

The part that sucks is no one else is being let go.  They actually still need an IT Department.  I got a phone call today about a messed up computer.  I was actually working on a problem and he lets me go.  So it’s not my worry anymore, I’ve done all I could do and put my best foot forward. 

I take great pride and satisfaction in the fact that I have helped so many people.  The sites that were sold still called me and told me how much they miss me.  I got frequent calls for help.

I hope that another door opens and very soon or I will be toast.  I am going ahead and making the June mortgage payment.  I am also giving the Bankruptcy people their part of my late partners Income Tax money.  Outside of that I don’t know that I will be parting with any large sums of money, short of paying my credit cards off.  My hope is that for whatever time I am home I can keep my expenses down and manage to actually save some money.  Time will tell. 

Okay so it’s getting late and I need to go to bed.  I am tired both mentally and physically.  I hope I get a good nights sleep but suspect that I won’t given the circumstances.  Talk with you peeps later.