Sick

So I have been out of commission for a while.  Seems like a month has gone by but it’s only been 4 working days.  All I want to do is sleep.  I know that won’t help me get better so I force myself to eat.  I feel okay at the moment.  However, there are periods where I break out in a sweat.  I feel like total crap.  Rain or Shine I have to go back tomorrow if it doesn’t work out I can always leave but I at least have to try to brave it in. 

I found out that I didn’t get the job I interviewed for a couple weeks ago.  It would have been nice but they chose someone else.  That was not a major surprise to me.  I have an interview this week on Thursday afternoon, I feel a little guilty in taking the time to go to it but since my employer has shown no loyalty to me and has pretty well said pack your bags … I am going to go to the interview.  I don’t plan on making it known until very late in the week and it will be a last minute thing.  It’s close to where I work so I can walk, which is good.  Who knows 3rd time might just be the charm.

I am so depressed and missing my late partner.  I ventured out to the grocery store and spent $120 which is the most I have spent there in a long while.  I have a few things to do around here but no desire to do them. 

Getting back to a routine will be good for me mentally and physically.  I just hope and pray that things get better sooner rather than later.  I am in need of a serous break.

So I guess it’s off to do my house work, ho hum.  Hope all is well in your world.