10 April 2014

Don’t Care Anymore

Sounds like a line from a Genesis song.  Myself and many others no longer care about work.  We just go to occupy a space and pick up a paycheck.  People are already starting to take personal belongings home.  One of the people that I thought for sure would be kept approached one of the owners and was told, don’t wait for me start looking for a job.  Well how much more blunt can you be.  Hearing that made me change my mind about having a similar conversation about me and where I stood.  I figure that if I don’t find something, I will be approached and given an exit date.  While people at the remote places liked me, my boss and many others in the office have a different opinion of me, even though they really don’t know me or my work. 

I had my phone interview today.  It went okay.  I am not sure if I will be called back for an in person interview but I would go.  It would mean that I would have to travel a different direction to work and there wouldn’t be all of the hustle and bustle like there is with traffic at my present job. 

I am chatting up everyone I know to see if I can find a job BEFORE the hammer falls.  Every contact is a good contact, even if they can’t help me.  They at least know my need.  People talk and who knows.  I would like my next employer to be my absolute last employer – I am so sick of changing jobs and looking for a job.  It brings back feelings from my 2 years of unemployment. 

Facing unemployment when you have a partner/spouse is a little easier.  However, it still sucks.  Going at this all alone well that is a complete nightmare.  I pulled in the driveway tonight and saw my partners truck and thought to myself oh good he is finally home and then reality sank in again.  God I miss him so much. 

His presence, his advice, just him being here with me.  It just really sucks.  I hope that there is no where to go from here but up, because I am pretty low.  However, I know that things could always be worse. 

Well time to take care of the children and chat up a couple more people.  Talk with you peeps later.  TGTIF – Thank God Tomorrow Is Friday :).

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