I’ve got 2 phone interviews this afternoon. Around 11:30 this sense of overwhelming came over me. I feel like I am in a panic and just can’t slow down. My stomach is in knots. It’s not over the interviews. I think it’s generalized anxiety from being here at work.
I went to bed early last night and that means I was up and down all night long. The hardest part for me was climbing out of bed this morning. Once I am up everything is usually okay. I will be glad when all of this infection is gone and out of my body so I can feel normal all of the time.
Severe weather was in the area for part of the evening, when it stopped I took the trash out and then was able to relax. I just watched old stuff on TV – Monday there really isn’t anything on. Tuesday is the same except for Tosh.O, there is something to look forward to.
My gut is telling me that my days here are very close to over with. I think that after Thursday there really won’t be much of a need for me. I could be wrong but only time will tell. I really want to throw up my hands and walk away from it all. However, since I don’t have a crystal ball and can’t see into the future I will just hang out here until they tell me not to come back or until I find something else.
I’ve been thinking about the past and how really simple life was and how it got complicated last year and the pressure continues to mount. No wonder I want to blow my brains out. I think I need a good long vacation that is truly a vacation. However money and cats will prevent that from happening.
Ugh, running out of thoughts. Anxious to be able to call it a day and go home. Only 4 and a 1/2 hours away. Hopefully my phone interviews help occupy my time this afternoon.
Talk with you peeps later.
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