Baby Blu

Friday night the vet sent me home with antibiotics and they gave him fluids.  Turns out I find out a day later that the little bastard spit out the pill.  Gee no wonder there has been no improvement!

I have been sick about this all day long.  I stopped in at Banfield which is inside PetsMart and they pretty much told me that I am on the right track.  They would hosptialize him to try to bring the fever down but it could cost between $200 and $400 to reach that point.  They are not staffed 24 hours a day so the poor thing would be left alone.  

That sealed it for me, I went back to my vet and got a health care plan.  I applied and was approved for a line of credit.  The best part is IF I can pay it off in 6 months they won't charge me interest.  The bad part is that if I fail to pay it off in 6 months they will charge me interest from day 1 forwaard.  OUCH.  So he has gotten x-rays and they showed a very small spot on the right lung that looks like it might be Bronchitis but she said it's so small that its actually probably nothing.  That was the only thing that stood out.  He is on IV Fluids and a Catheter to help bring down the fluid.  I said my goodbye to him in case this doesn't work out.  I told him that I am trying my damndest to fix this and get him back to normal but my best might not be good enough.

With a fever of unknown origin you are looking for a needle in the hay stack.  So we may run all of these test and not find a damn thing.  This could simply be a viral thing that has to run it's course.  They did figure out that he has some bad teeth, but they don't think that would cause this.  They  were looking over his body for absesses and I was thinking what about an absess tooth?  I mean it's stretching things, but just a thought.  

I have commited to 24 hours of hosptialization.  I have almost $1,000 into him and that is way beyond my financial limit.  The difference is that some of it is on my credit card and some of it will be on the line of credit.  Ugh.  I could do all of this and still wind up with a dead cat.  FML

So they expect his temp to drop by midnight and they will be checking his temp every 6 hours.  I just hope that he doesn't bite anyone regardless of how he feels.  He doesn't have his shots and well that would put me in quite the financial pickle.  Plus it would be a case of live or die - there is no cheap option plus I suspect I would be subject to a lawsuit which also isn't something that I have planned for, but I dunno if homeowners insurance would help cover that or not.  I would rather not find out.  

As you can see I can easily find little things to worry over.  Right now I am going to watch TV and try to enjoy what is left of this day.  I wanted to get out of the area but that will just have to wait, it's not like I can afford it anyway.  I did treat myself to Olive Garden today - never ending pasta bowl.  Got a bowl of soup to go for free.  It was really good, but I couldn't enjoy it to it's fullest because I was and am worried about blu.  

Come on fever busting drugs, work your magic and turn blu ecstatic.  Fever may you be gone and never return.  Hocus Pocus now Focus!  Abracadabra.   :)  Maybe that will do him some good.  As if I were a warlock.  

Vet

Ran blood wk he has an infection.  Don't know what from.  They wanted to keep him 490 I said no.  They are hydrating him and giving me antibiotics to give him.  We will see where we are in 24hrs.  I talked w the vet about giving up and he said I think u r on a good plan.  I sure hope so I can't afford too much and this is just going to put me deeper in the hole of credit card debt.

Just when u think life is getting better you get kicked in the teeth!

Friday - Blu Update

I tried to take his temprature last night but failed, 3 different times.  I guess there is a trick that I don't know about.  He is still NOT eating.

This morning I got him to drink some water, still not interested in food.  Color appears good so I am hoping that he will start to eat tonight.  He got the last dose of his medicine this morning.

I called a couple friends for advice, but my mind is made up.  1 says let nature take its course.  The other one says take him in get blood work done and see if you can figure out what is going on.  Don't let them keep him I mean when your blood is taken do they put you in the hosptial?  Nope.  Okay so bring him home. 

Called the vet and I can't get either of the docs I want.  Seeing another strange vet but got an appointment for 7pm.  I told them now that I made the appointment Blu will start eating.  They said if that is the case, call and we can cancel.  7p is when they start after hours care but they told me it would be no extra charge.  

What I expect is for them to take blood at the minimum.  Maybe an xray and probably give him some fluids to be on the safe side.  Then package him up and we will go home.  I thought about taking off work early but talked myself out of that one, quickly.  

I hope it's a fast moving but slow day, if that makes sense.  Not looking forward to being on-call next week but right now I am more concerned with Blu than anything.  Almost did a mom and pulled out in front of someone.  My mind is not on what it should be on - it's wondering and worried about my Blu.

I feel a little bit better but still have concerns that I am going to lose him.  It seems like I will be the only one to miss him.  Althought when he went upstairs this morning TAZ met him at the top of the stairs and they brushed by each other, as they normally do.  I just want things back to normal and fast.  

Happy Friday!  Thankful that I have a therapy appointment for tomorrow.  Talk with you peeps later.

Real quick update

Blu did eat when he got home last night.  However, he hibernated in the basement in my office all night long.  I managed to get a pill down him, he wasn't too please about that.  I cleaned his eyes.  I offfered him baby food and cat food but he didn't want either.  He got up when upstairs, walking a little funny.  I suspect it's from the IV I noticed it last night.  He used the litter box and then curled up on the couch.  TAZ loves baby food.  I put the cat food on a plate on the couch and hopfully BLU will eat it.

I am so worried about him, wasn't easy coming to work.  Got to go, work is calling.  Talk again soon.

Blu update

He is home!  They didn't want to send him home but when I told them I wasn't paying for it they produced him.  Then they tell me they gave him a fever reducer in the afternoon.  Seriously!?  He's been there all day u should have done it sooner!

Got him in the door and he raced toward the food.  He's in the basement hiding right now.

I injured myself making supper.  Bad steam burn on my thumb.  It really hurts. Can't wait to fall asleep, forget that today ever happened and start fresh tomorrow!

Got to dig out from the mountain of stuff that piled up today.  Guess it's a good thing that I didn't get chosen for jury duty! 😀

Next update tomorrow if my thumb still works.  Hope that Blu keeps making positive progress.

Not good

Checked on Blu his fever went down a little but it's still there.  He's not going to eat unless the fever breaks.  I just wish I had someone to be beside me now, I feel lonely & scared.  I think there is a very real possibility that I am going to lose him.  It's a simple matter of money, I don't doubt that with time he will get better but I can't afford to sink a lot of money into his healthcare.  Makes me wish I didn't get my Mophie.

No one here misses him, just me.  I think because it's only been hours that he has been at the vet.  Everyone can relax.  He's the hyper wanting to play one and he keeps everyone on their toes including me.

Car is ok but I need my transmission flushed next time. There is something else to save for.

Money I wish I could plant a tree or two that produced it.  There just doesn't seem to be enough to go around.

Blu Flu

Mr Blu is not eating.  It's been 24 hours so I took the day off and carted him to the vet.  They think it's a virus similar to the flu in humans.  He's got a fever and is contagious.  I opted to leave him at the vet and they are treating him as an outpatient, which will cost me less. 

They wanted to keep him and do the million dollar work up.  I said that was out of the question, money is something that I don't have a lot of.  

He is scared and doesn't feel well so he hisses and growls.  I pray he doesn't bite anyone.  He does not have current vaccinations so if he did bite someone I would either have to pay for a 10 day quarinteen or end his life and pay for rabies testing.  That has me quite on edge.  I'm sure somewhere along the line there is a huge fine to pay.  I told him to behave but he doesn't always listen to me.

I said I would go in if I could but that wasn't a true statement.  I need rest plus my oil needs changing and my hairs need cutting. So I'm taking advantage of the time.

I'm actually in the waiting room at the dealer.  I hope to day isn't a mega million spend day!  Credit card debt sucks.  

I also realized that I will probably have to take another day for the closing on my house.  I don't feel 100% my self my body is acting like I am coming down with something hopefully it's not the Blu flu.

Nothing else going on so I will talk with you peeps later.  I will be glad when Blu comes home then at least the immediate worry will be over.

Lunchtime Tuesday

Once again no need to report for Jury Duty.  I am stuck at the office. :(  I woke up early, left early and got to work early.  Surprise!  Now if I could just leave early that would be awesome.

Yesterday I chatted with a co-worker by phone.  He has actually been in the department for the longest and wow he just opened up a flood gate full of stories.  We both think that they are trying to eliminate jobs by having us do these daily reports.  He suspects that he is going to be asked to leave.  Him andd the boss kind of got into it, where she called him stupid and told him to start sending her carbon copies on all of his email.  Wow, does that remind you of anyone?  It does me.  Anyway he went on to tell me that he feels my job is safe because I have a lot of people to take care of.  Yeah 99 is a lot but I have been responsible for a whole lot more.  Besides that why would she hire me only to turn around and fire me months later.  That makes no sense at all.  I am honestly not worried about it.  I mean with the mortgage in the process of becoming mine, there will be a lot riding on maintaining a job.  I have confidence that I will be taken care of.  Anyway, he told me that our boss likes to micro manage.  She takes a week and picks on a person, to the point where you start to question if your even capable of living and breathing w/o her intervention.  Then she moves on to the next person.  I have yet to have been the subject of that but I suspect just like on-call its only a matter of time.

Speaking of on-call I thought about paying somene to take my turn but that would only be a temporary fix.  I mean I will have to do it eventually, so I am going to get it over with next week.  1 week and then I am good until December.  I think it's a totally fair deal.  I don't think I am ready but you would be surprised at what you can do when you don't have options.  Just as long as everyone goes to bed at a decent time and allows me to get my cat & grocery food shopping done I willl be okay.

Last night I left feeling bad.  I gave someone wrong information about how to answer a prompt.  They lost all of there changes to the document and it was ike 5 hours worth of work.  Ugh.  The good news is that I was able to send a recovery file to word processing and they manipulated the file and got it to open, so she really didn't lose everything.  I am sure that one will make it's way back to my boss.  Hey, it's a rookie mistake and I am still new in this job.

Speaking of rookie, I got a call today from the guy I was in training with.  Seeing him on the phone (we have video phones) was awesome.  He was still as good looking on the screen as he was in person.  We chatteed a bit after I resolved the issue he was calling about.  Kind of a nice start to the day.

I've had a high volume of calls today, lots of people bail when it is their phone time.  I know it's just a matter of time before we all get another lecture about that.  Whatever.  I do what I am told to keep the peace, so I have nothing to worry about.  

Keeping track of what I am doing in my off phone time is actually eye opening for me.  I still don't like it but I'm doing it.  

Oh I got my absentee ballot by mail and voted over the weekend.  That was kind of awesome, no lines and you can sit in your home, research and make an informed decision instead of going into a booth and rushing the process.  I didn't research anything, I already knew who I wanted to vote for and now it's a done deal.

Big Boy & his brother (Jumper) are sure sticking close together latley.  I had a perfect photo and then they moved when I went to grab the phone.  Big Boy was resting his head against Jumper's belly.  They were all cuddle up.  It was super cute.  Big Boy is back to using the liter box again.  He really gets worn out and I swear he has to hold his urine all day long.  He puts out what looks like a gallon, he is in the box forever.  He jumps out, lays down to catch his breath.  Then its time to do #2.  Last night he did it in shifts, part of it in the hall.  The rest of it in my room in the middle of the night.  I can deal with that it's the urine that drives me nuts.

I stopped to mail a letter last night and picked up the mail, got an EOB from Medicare for my late partner for last year when he was taken by ambulance to the first hosptial.  The figures on there were astronomical.  His balance wasnt small either.  I am not worried about it in the least.  

Wow the after lunch yawns are starting.  I see that I have about 10 minutes left and then it will be back to work.  Anxioius to get home to the children.  Last night we spent time together.  I had some Chocolate Gelato and watched Mulaney.  He is cute for a straight guy! :) 

Well time to get this published and get back on the dusty trail.  Take care, be well and I will talk with you peeps again soon.

Monday again

Yeppers its that day of the week everyone loves to hate.  It's been kind of a busy day here, which is a good thing because it means that I will be going home before I know it.  That is provided busy keeps up this afternoon.

I have been writing down all of the tasks that I have preformed today so that I can submit my precious report tonight.  Not  really looking forward to it and very tempted to "forget" to do it, but I know it will catch up with me sooner rather than later - - so I will just comply.

On the dating front not sure if I mentioned about the older guy that noticed I looked at his profile.  He was very polite upon first contact.  I told him my situation and that I didn't want to sign up to bury another partner.  His response was who knows you could die before me.  Yeah, unlikley.  So then he shoots me his phone number and says how about we talk on the phone.  Yeah, how about we not talk on the phone Grandpa.  I blocked him.  Felt a little bad in doing it but I honestly don't want another 25 year + difference in age where my partner is way older than me.  If he is younger well then I don't mind that at all. :)  I have another guy who kept calling me bud, which I hate.  He didn't have a face picture and when I asked he sent one, but he was ugly and had a sour puss on his face.  Sorrry not intersted in that.  Another one blocked!  

This whole experience of interacting with other guys is kind of a crap shoot.  You see someone you like and well they turn out to be an ass or worse they don't like you.  Then you get someone who likes you but they are older, don't look good, etc.  I am wondering if this is actually going to work out.  Maybe I am pushing things a little too hard.  Speaking of which I have yet to reply to Mr. I want to get together again.  I am just not up for it - at least not now. 

So there is a host turned server at Cracker Barrel that I really have been crushing on for a while.  I was determined to find out his last name and it's taken me well over a year but I finally cracked the case last night.  I learned that he is a Frreshman in College, loves and plays the Sax.  I found him on FB and thought about friending him but he doesn't know me so chances of him accepting are probably nill.  then I thought about emailing him but I'm afraid that I would be laughed at or that some how that would backfire.  I am eager to get into his pants, in case that is not obvious.  However, like with anyone else I want to take it slow.  Plus I can't find any evidence that says he is gay, so this could all turn out to be a huge waste of my time.  I really want to at least make contact with him but I am also scared at the same time.  Ugh, what to do??

Friday one of the guys I have a crush on here at work was in the kitchen when I was and he had to bend over to pick up something he dropped.  He caught me kind of checking out his ass and he didn't look too happy afterwards.  I just kept it moving like nothing ever happened.  Maybe he didn't notice but I honestly think that he did.

So it's anyones guess as to what will happen tomorrow with Jury Duty.  I think they will say go to work, I wont know until later this afternoon.  My boss is out today, sounds like something serious is going on because normally she will tell us.  Another manager sent an e-mail out telling us that she was out and might be for the entire day but the morning was for sure.  

After eating breakfast this morning, I felt the jitters kicking in as if my body was saying need more food.  i didn't need more food.  I didn't think I would make it to lunch time but here I am.  Tonight I am thinking of Chili it will be canned but hey it's a quick meal.  If I don't do that then Chicken Pot Pie.  Got to put the trash out tonight, don't really care for that job either but it's not like anyone will do it for me.  Sure wish today was Sunday espcially now because I am ready for a nap.

Oh I noticed this morning the outside temprature gadget stopped working.  Not sure if it got too cold or what.  If it's not working tonight then I will check on it again.  So a couple more hours to go, then back to the phones and the day will be done.  I am on the phones at 3 and don't logoff until 5.  Then there is a 1/2 hour to wrap everything up and call it a day.  

That is all I have for now.  Signing off....talk with you peeps later.

3 Grocery Stores–1 Weekend!

JURY DUTY

So I checked in on Friday afternoon, turns out that they don’t want to see me on Monday.  I have to check back Monday afternoon to see what is in store for Tuesday.  I suspect that this will draw on like this all week until Thursday afternoon, when I can breathe a sigh of relief in that I didn’t have to go at all.  Now that is totally a supposition on my part, stay tuned to find out what actually happens!

MEMORIES

This weekend one of my big things on my list of to do’s was to clean up my late partners office a little bit.  I managed to accomplish that.  Then while I was cleaning a flood of memories came back to me.  I really miss that guy.  Big Boy came in the room and he wouldn’t leave for hours.  He misses him too.  Big Boy was his favorite because all you have to do is say his name and he looks at you with those pretty eyes and that just stole his heart.  Plus all that he had been through, its no wonder he was his favorite. 

He (my late partner) had this self setting clock on the wall.  He built a special bracket so that he could look up and see it.  It had to be titled at an angle because it’s digital and there is an attachment that goes outside and communicates with the clock to tell you the temperature outside.  We both often looked at it before heading out – winter or summer.  The batteries lasted 2 years and had to be replaced.  It’s a little bit of a hassle to get it to set, until it updates.  I managed.  Then realized there was no outside temperature.  I ran to get the outside gadget and noticed there was corrosion inside of it.  I filed that away with an Emory board because I couldn’t find a pencil eraser (who uses pencils today).  Put the batteries back in and set it on the counter.  Within a few minutes presto it’s reading again.  I took it back outside and all is well.  Then instead of sticking it back in his office where I’d never see it, I mounted it just outside the kitchen.  It looks awesome and now I will get some use out of it. 

The door to his office is open today and I will close it tonight.  There is still stuff in there that I don’t want destroyed so I will close the door tonight.  I am far from having the office clean but I am slowly working on it.  It’s in much better shape today than when he left it, but it’s still quite the shambles.  I am also unclear on what I am going to do with the room once it’s cleaned up.  It’s not like I have a time table to make a decision on, so we shall just wait and see what happens.

THE MOTHER LOAD

Saturday I had to take my mother to get her blood drawn.  We went to the place where she thought it was and I told her they were closed.  Turns out the lab actually moved.  She got directions and was told oh it’s down the street behind Target.  Yeah, it was 2 towns away and about 10 miles later, then I found it.  Thanks to my iPhone & my GPS.  We finished up there and got a bite to eat.  Then I had to take her to the grocery store to get her medicine.  It was just a comedy of errors but it was an okay time.  She never asked me about the truck.  She told me that she is getting $6k for her old car and wants to buy something for 2k.  I honestly don’t think she will find a used car for 2k and if she does it will no doubt be something that is full of problems.  I think she should have kept the car, taken the money and not gotten it fixed, she would have been better off.  Then in the next breath she tells me that she wishes my brother wasn’t her guardian.  I said why is that?  She replied I want to take him to court.  I said is he spending your money wrong?  Is he hurting you?  No he just wouldn’t take me to get my medicine the other day, we got into a huge fight.  Oh so in other words your pissed at him, yeah that is what I am saying.  Oh okay.  Wow, here I thought something was seriously wrong.  You just never know with her.  We parted ways and I came home to take a nap from all of the sugar I ingested during breakfast, plus the lack of sleep didn’t do me any favors. 

THE HEAT IS ON

I had to turn on the furnace, we had a cold front move through and this place has been down right chilly.  Saturday morning it was 69 degrees.  My favorite number, but that is too cold.  I didn’t have a stich of clothing on and I was freezing.  I can only imagine how the children felt.  Ah, that fresh furnace smell after you run it the first time – that was awesome.  I think the days of AC are pretty well done, but I could be wrong.

MOPHIE CLAIMS MY CASH

So I have been so fixated on getting a Mophie for my iPhone.  I just had to have it.  Never mind that I have already invested in a Lifeproof case and a dock to charge the iPhone.  Mophie just seemed like something I couldn’t live without and the portable Mophie is well and good but I want the extra battery on my phone.  I drove myself batty.  Yesterday I finally gave in I got 2 Mophies plus Tempered Glass put on my phone.  I got a huge discount so this didn’t cost me all that much.  Then I had to hit up Best Buy because I needed a Mophie holster and AT&T didn’t carry those.  I also wanted a dock, I just love a dock for every phone that I have, I hate having to actually plug in a cable, it drives me nutz.  So anyway, I got the holster.  Saw a handsome guy while I was waiting in line to pay.  Then I came home and got on Amazon and paid for 1 day shipping for the dock.  It will be here on Tuesday.  Yes, friends I am in credit card debt and I seem to keep getting myself in deeper.  At least I have been able to stave off the need for a laptop. 

At work we run VMWare.  It allows you to deploy Virtual Machines via a Thin Client/dumb terminal.  That is my computer.  There is a super awesome client that you can install on your iPad and iPhone that will allow you to connect from anywhere.  With my iPad since I have a Bluetooth Keyboard it is just as good as having a laptop.  Completely and totally functional just as if I were sitting at my desk, minus 1 monitor.  I am thinking of using the iPad when I am on call instead of traipsing down to the basement.  I still have to ask the question about on-call since we were 2 groups and now we are 1.  I am not exactly sure how on-call is working and no one seems to be voluntarily forthcoming with information. 

THE BIG GAME

So Friday morning I was watching the news and learned that the big football game was happening that night.  Note to self don’t go home by the high school.  What did I do?  Yup forgot all about it.  I actually was able to turn around.  Then today I read the paper.  It was a combination of the football game and a fatal accident involving a high school student that backed traffic up for miles and miles in all different directions.  So sad.

3 GROCERY STORES 1 WEEKEND

I went to the store with my mom, so that is #1.  Then I went to the grocery store today as I normally would, that is #2.  Then I had to go to the super expensive store because they carry the oatmeal I like and when the weather turns cold, I start eating hot cereal, that is #3.  All in the same weekend.  It’s a wonder that I am still able to function as much disdain that I have for grocery stores.  :)

THE DATING FRONT

So I am still out there looking for a guy to call my own.  I got a message from the guy that I saw a few weeks back.  He wants to know when we are getting back together. I am actually not eager to do that at all.  I think he is still super pushy and I am ready to block him, but haven’t yet.  I just ignored his message, which isn’t normal for me.  I reached out to another guy and we have chatted a little bit, but nothing serious.  I was doing all of the question asking and now turned the tables and asked him if he had questions for me.  I mean I want to know that he is interested and not just responding to my questions like a robot.  I also saw a 68 yo guy who had a cute dog.  I just had to look at the profile.  Damn if the guy didn’t reach out to me.  I wrote him back and told him basically that I just buried my long time partner and I wanted someone more age appropriate because I didn’t want to sign up to bury/lose another partner.  I haven’t heard back from him, but I realized that I kind of implied that he was in ill health.  That is it at all he is 25 years older than I am and just by the numbers it’s obvious that he would go before me.  I have had enough battle with death and am not looking to go around that way again. 

Tinder has been kind to me and I have made a couple matches there.  Younger guys, which I am not sure why they are interested in me when I am clearly older but hey.  I’ve reached out to them and am waiting on a response.

Grindr well that is like the least useful service of them all.  Just a hook up site.  I can take care of getting off by myself, I don’t need another guy for that.  The desire is certainly there to touch hot flesh, but sex is only 1 part of a relationship.  There is so much more that goes into it.  If we can’t hit it off w/o sex then what makes you think it’s going to be better w/sex?  Lots of fake people and people who don’t have profile photos.  I learned by the 1st 2 guys that I have made contact with, never chat with a guy unless he has a headshot and it’s of him and not some super star.  I understand anonymity but if your so afraid to show your face on a dating site then your not ready to find someone, just my 2 cents. 

So another week of work, waiting and seeing what happens.  Plus we start the reporting thingy tomorrow and that won’t be any fun, at least not for me.  So that is it in my world.  Off to finish up laundry, clean the house, feed the children and prep for Monday.  Ugh, I can’t believe the weekend is coming to an end.  I so hate Sunday afternoons, they are so depressing.  I wish every day was Friday at 5pm, at least for a week.  Plus I wish that Friday’s would hurry up and rebuild in my area because I am so hungry for their food!  Meanwhile a piece of German Chocolate Cake and a tall glass of Milk is in my future.  Yup I said cake, not PIE. 

Have an awesome week….talk with you peeps later.

Back to Micro Management

One of the many things that I enjoy about my job is the fact that I am NOT micro managed.  That is all going to change starting on Monday.  Now at the end of our day, each and every day we have to submit a report listing what we are doing during our non-phone time.  I guess this is to make sure that were not sleeping on the job.  It was touted as a way to help find process improvements.  I don't see anything positive about it.  It is a vehicle for spying and if you don't put down enough work, you may be showing them that they don't need you.  There are a few avenues this could be used for.  When our boss sent it, it was sent with a read receipt and she copied in her boss.  In case it's not painfully obvious I am not happy about this at all.  I want to be able to do my job w/o having to account for every waking moment.  My only hope is that enough people will complain and we can be done with this in a short amount of time.  I would like to voice my displeasure but I am sure I will be told this is the way it is.  Since I am dependant upon the money I comply with the rules, even if I don't like them.

We got a memo yesterday from our office manager that is telling us not to use the company phones for personal phone calls, use our cell phones on our break or at lunch and for God sake go into a conference room or an empty office.  Don't air your business where everyone can hear it.  I make personal calls at work on occasion and I use the company phone, because cell reception in here is margianal at best.  I don't make a personal call every day so, I really don't consider it a problem.

I called the place that is helping me with the house and the payment went up $62 the figure I saw on the form was correct.  So I am close to $1,000.00 per month.  Still it will save me about $400 per month.  I explained that I didn't want to back myself into a corner where I am back at a $1,500 payment per month that would just be unacceptable.  If the payment would be that high, I could just as easily leave things as they are and keep paying.  Then if something happened I would have to find a new place to live but my credit would be in tact.  So we are on track to close.  They are waiting for a couple more peices of information to come in and then I suspect a date will be set.  The property taxes are what kicked things up.  I explained that he had all sorts of exemptions and due to his age there was even a tax freeze at one point.  However, as soon as we change the name on the title then that will all go away.  I expect that taxes will go up even more, which means that my payment will be affected.  I can swing $1k per month but really would prefer to pay less.  The whole idea is to be able to save money and get ahead.  I anticipate that this will not be the last loan I take out on the property.  The sad part is that there is some of his credit card debt baked into the mortgage already so I am still paying for his debt, the only difference is once it's in my name it will become my debt.  He wouldn't be too happy about that but that is the way the dice rolled.

Call me crazy but I think that what I pereseve as negative things that happened.  My boss and the house payment wouldn't have happened if I left that darn pen behind.  Then  again maybe they would have.  It's just my Catholic Guilty Consence bugging me.

The house still smells and I have treated everything that showed up with a black light.  I am not sure exactly where else the odor could be coming from but my house will look like CSI tonight because I will be searching all over with the black light.  I have plans to clean part of the carpet over the weekend.  Hopefully the smell goes away.  It appears as if Big Boy is back to using the box, but I am no 100% on that yet.

The massage lady worked me over but good yesterday.  She found all kinds of knots and was working them pretty hard.  I am sore but not as bad as I thought I would be.  My waist/back is still bothering me.  I am hoping with some extra rest and muscle relaxers that I can make it feel better.

I get to make a personal call later today to check in with the Jury Commission to find out if I am supposed to report in person on Monday.  I'm doing that one from the company phone because well it's kind of related to company business.  :)  I have worked out some alternate people to help cover some of the simple things that I deal with on a daily basis.  So I am actually all set to get this going, so long as there is no rain.  Pick me for a jury it won't bother me, just as long as you don' bore me to death because if you do I will fall asleep and I am sure that will cause problems for me as well as for the case I am on.  

Still picking away at on-line dating.  No nibbles yet but I am out there and trying.  That I think has surprised more people than anything.  I miss having companionship and talking with a human.  Plus everyone wants to be loved and needed.  Maybe I will be single for a long time, when I find the right guy it will all have been worth it.  Of course if I could have old faithful back I'd take him.  I was really missing him this morning.  I looked at photos of him on my phone while I was sitting at my desk.  I almost started to cry and figured that I should put the darn phone away, before I did start up.  That would be difficult to explain and I honestly don't want to have to explain or tell anyone here about it.  The less they know of my personal business, the better off I am.  I would be great to make a true friend here but I don't forsee that happening.  Well it's about time to head back.

I've got 4 machines to deploy, so I have to read up on how they do that here.  Every place is different and they have a procedure to follow.  This will be the first time I have actually replaced someones machine so its super important that I get everything right the first time so they don't come yelling afterwards.  I will hold the old machine for a bit until I know for sure they are happy and have everything.  Then it's wipe time and once I do that there is no turning back.  Oops I forgot, oh well sorry the data is gone and it's not coming back.  They have a whole process where I have to sit down with the end user and interview them, from the documention it looks like the interview could be an hour long with all of the questions I have to ask plus places to check for settings & data on their machines.  I hope I do it right.  I'm starting with someone that I have worked with a bit.  She will be my gineau pig and once I make her happy then I can move on to the others.  This all has to be done by the 1st of next month so I have to get cracking because with being out for a week, that puts me behind the gun already.

Have a good weekend and I will try to do the same.  Talk with you peeps later.  

Throat Punch Thursday

You've heard of TBT - Throw Back Thursday, well this is my version.  I call it Throat Punch Thursday anything you say or do that is stupid you get punched in the throat.  Sounds like some people will be busy all day long!

Today we had rain, well actually it started last night.  A good night to have a wet t-shirt contest.  Anyway, that meant that traffic would be all effed up and sure enough it was.  I didn't count on it affecting our network at work, but it did.  No one on my team could login to take phone calls.  Sweet it worked out to my advantage because I got to my desk with a minute to spare.  Once I learned of the trouble I relaxed went to the bathroom and got water.  Then tried.  My boss called me with the fix and I tested it and it worked, so I sent out a note to everyone telling them what to do.  All sorts of strange things are happening today.  Apparently we are short staffed so no meeting today and we are supposed to keep an extra close eye on the phones.  I don't ofically log back on until this afternoon, which I am happy about.  I may jump on early to help out.  Meanwhile its just watching my 6 and staying busy.

Last night I made my stops and everything worked out.  Had Lasagna and finished an entire pint of Cherrys Garcia while watching The Middle, The Goldbergs and Modern Famiily.  Luke is really looking good.  So I am wrapping up to go to bed, I hear a noise by the liter box.  Its big boy and there he is laying on the floor just peeing away.  I yelled at him a couple times but that didn't do anything other than make him hold his head down.  He knew I wasn't happy at all.  Good thing I stocked up on Urine Remover.  Here's the thing about that I put it down it does the trick and the carpet turns brown.  I can run the steam cleaner and fix that but I am afraid if I do he will start peeing again.  I allso added more litter to the box, it was lower than it normally is and I thought that might be the cause.  Nope not yet.  So we shall see how today goes.  He is really taking after his brother in drinking from the water bowl in the morning.  I told him the same thing please when you have to pee use the litter box.  You can do anything else you want on the carpet but no pee, it's the worst to clean up.

I got some closing paperwork to lock in the rate, apparently the present lender complyed with my release form becuase I used one of my favorite legal terms forthwith.  That means move your ass, do it now!  Problem is the payment they are quoting me now is $62 high than what I was quoted and I was told it would be fixed before we closed.  Well I didn't sign anything instead I kicked it back and said you need to resubmit the paperwork with the correct payment amount, then I will be happy to sign and we can move forward.  If they are quick with the turn around after I sign I believe the next step is to schedule the closing, which means someone is coming to my house.  Maybe I should put lawn chairs out and not let them inside, it's a thought!  I just want to sign and move on with it.  No need to make a big deal out of it.  I am excited about it from the savings perspective, so if I would lose my job I could afford to take a cut in pay and still be able to make my bills.  Of course I don't want that to happen but I also want the opportunity to save up my money so that I have a nest egg in case more rain falls in my life.

My back is not getting any better.  Holy crap.  I feel like I am 100 years old when I go to stand up.  That is when it really hurts.  I am getting a massage today but I only do upper back and shoulders.  I've got a kink there from popping my neck earlier today.  Hopefully she will be able to work it all out.  Then once the upper half is relaxed the lower 1/2 will follow suite.  I took some ibuprofen today and it really hasn't done much.  Next step is to resort to a muscle relaxer, which I am sure will do the trick.  However, I may try some Ben Gay before I resort to another pill.

Tonight one of my favorite Detectives (retired) returns to TV on A&E.  I am talking about Joe Schallaci who used to be on The First 48 back when the series was starting up.  I really like him.  I've made contact with him via phone and he is a great guy.  He takes every case personally and looks to figure out the mystery and bring those to justice that comit the horrible crime of murder/homicide.  The compassion and empathy he shows it's just remarkable.  You can feel and see that he really does care and he isn't bumping his gums.  I wish all dectives were like him, the world would be a better place.

I'm all excited like today is Friday but I have one more day.  Really wish I had the day off tomorrow, I could make that happen but I won't.  I am saving my time for when I need it.  Like the closing and around the holidays, when I want to take off.  The weather here is changing a cold front is moving in and it's going to feel like fall.  That's good but I still wouldn't mind seeing guys with their shirts off.  It's also going to mean that people are going to get sick.  I really hope that I don't get it.  I kind of feel it a little bit in the morning.  This morning I was coughing but it went away as fast as it came on.  

Mr. Pee Pot and his brother slept with me.  I had a silly nightmare that my late partner was arrested, but I don't remember what for.  My brother was driving his truck and I was the passenger.  We came across this police checkpoint and my brother got flagged to stop.  He did but the truck kept inching forward.  The officer went to run his information and the next thing you know we were like a block away.  I said drive it back and wait for him.  He did that and was charged for fleeing and aluding.  I took  over the truck and went to McDonalds for breakfeast plus I had to pee.  Finding a restroom proved to be the real challenge.  Then I woke up and I really had to pee.  Good Morning!  Gang way daddy is coming through.  BLU loves to greet me and tell me to hurry up while I am in the bathroom.  TAZ tries to follow suit but BLU pushes him out of the way.  It's a comedy affection show to see those two.  They really do love each other and me too.  I just wished BLU didn't aggravate everyone so much.  

Well time to publish this and go get massaged.  Oh I kept the pen and no one has said anything.  I suspect it will be a non issue.  Talked with Mr. Date last night, all is well.  Can't get anyone else to talk with me.  Hey maybe it's for the best right now.  Doesn't mean I won't keep trying.  Talk with you peeps later!

Wacky Wednesday

I was a little late in getting home last night, thanks to traffic.  However, I managed to get everything done that I needed to.  The house actually smells worse now that I have run the carpet cleaner.  If you go into my bathroom, that is where it is at it's worst.  Kind of odd because Big Boy never goes in my bathroom for any reason.  Him and his brother (Jumper) have started me on a new routine where instead of dumping the water from the dish in the tub, I give it to them to drink.  Then I take my shower.  When I am done, I can dump, rinse and re-fill the bowl and put it back in the tub.  Big Boy isnt a drinker but he was this morning.  I told him to make sure that it all gets into the litter box when it comes out the other end.  

I remembered that I had some instant odor killing product, so I got out the black light and put it down.  I have to pick up some more of that plus get some litter.  So that will be tonights project, in addition to going to the bank for money to pay for my massage tomorrow. 

I found a guy who openly says he is HIV Positive, which I think is awesome that he is up front.  There are a few guys that will tell you this up front  In any case he is younger than I am, very cute and he explained how he acquired HIV.  He's on disability but wants to go back to work.  I would be interested in him but for the disease I would just as soon be a friend and not be a sexual partner.  Anyway, I passed on some job tips.  He isn't the first guy that I have hit up with job tips on a dating/hook up site. He probably won't be the last.  It feels good to give back and help.  While I didn't like being unemployed I can use that experience to hopefully help others find a job and stay motivated. 

On the way home last night I called up a my friend who suffered a stroke last year.  She told me that things are getting worse for her (medically speaking) and that the doctors are about to the point where they are going to give up.  She told me that she won't give up, which is a good thing.  Then she tellsnig me that she is going to try to drive in a couple weeks.  Her vision is bad.  I mean between her and my mom I wouldn't let either one drive and if I was dumb enough to get into a car with one of them as the driver I would make sure my life insurance was paid, plus take out some AFLAC.  I don't mean to sound negative but there is a reason why blind people don't drive, it's because they can see.  I really feel bad for her.  Plus she is stuck at home with her husband -- they get into verbal arguments all the time and someone is always yelling.  They both talk so loud.  They are only in their 60s and to me that isnt old but I guess parts start failing depending upon wear.

Last night Jumper and I called it a night a 1/2 hour early than we normally would.  The girls were not happy about that but I sure was.  The extra sleep helped me, but I also woke up a couple times in the middle of the night.  My back is a little better but I still feel it.  I think tonight I will just sit and watch ABC all of my favorite shows are on.  We caught Tosh.O last night, funny as usual.  I think staying away from technology will be a good thing, but I still have my phone.  So I will be checking in on the dating sites.  Nothing from Mr. Date.  He hasn't been on line since Sunday.  He told me that this would be a busy week for him.  I suspect I will hear from him over the weekend.

Thinking of doing some work in my late partners office and getting it straighted up.  Then I could leave the door open.  Maybe if I am lucky I will be able to tackle his bedroom as well, but I think that is asking a lot.  Plus it all depends upon how I feel on Saturday.  I have to take my mom to get her blood drawn and I am not looking forward to that.  She will no doubt bring up the truck again.  I would be happy if she just gave up driving all together.  I understand that is a big step to take but given her vision and the recent accident I kind of think that it's for the best.  Better to quit while your ahead than to do serious injury or kill someone.  I don't think she would be able to live with that but she doesn't see that part of the picture right now.  She just sees that it is time to get back on the horse and ride again.  Not always the best plan.

So I was in an office yesterday talking with a guy who was leaving.  He ran me ragged.  I noticed a siliver pen on his desk, it was very nice.  We all know that I have a pen fetish and just can't get enough of them.  I was thinking boy I wish I could have that, it looks nice.  Heck even picking it up and writing with it would have told me if I really wanted it or not.  In any case I went back to pickup his computer stuff today and I opened one of his desk drawers.  He left the pen.  He isn't coming back and no one will know that it was there.  So I took it.  I feel guilty because there was no one to ask.  At the same time if someone does ask did you take it or did you see it and if I say yes, here it is then that could cause problems for me.  I feel the risk is low, so that is why I did what I did.  I never expressed any interest in the pen to anyone and no one here really knows me that well yet.  Curious, what do you think?

Oh boy it's Wednesday.  I signed up for a massage tomorrow.  I hope that she doesn't go digging and that it's something enjoyable and not something that I say oh why did I do this.  It's been 3 weeks so I am long over due.  Thankfully my new schedule allows me some flexability, so I am able to do things like this.  I actually rather like it.  Start off on the phones for 2 hours in the morning.  Do 2 hours in the afternoon then kill a 1/2 hour with prepping for the next day and it's time to go home.  I can pass the time pretty quickly.  In fact when I am on the phones that is all my boss wants us to do is answer the phone, so I surf for guys on my iPhone and have found a couple to reach out to.  It helps pass the time  quickly.  I just hate it when I get interupted by work but the interuption is to be expected.  

Wow I am sleepy all of a sudden.  I guess it's because I had lunch.  I read an articlel this morning that said it's productive to take a 15 minute nap everyday.  That could be true but my employer doesnt pay people for sleeping.  I suppose I could get away with it now because I am at lunch but it just doesn't look good if I were to get caught.  Well I guess back to work before I lull myself into a coma.  I am bulding a machine for a new hire that starts next week.  Should be done with it today, deploy it tomorrow and then presto were done.  

Okay I will talk with you peeps later.