Another long day

I am in STRESS mode.  I really don’t want to eat, not sleeping very well and my stomach is in knots.  I’ve started to gather and bring my stuff home from the office.  I am going at a slow pace on purpose.  I don’t want to freak anyone out, despite the fact that I am freaked out. 

I am not certain of anything other than the fact I am going crazy.  I really don’t want to work when I am at work, why do I want to give when they don’t want to keep me?  Plus it’s difficult to concentrate.  It makes for very long days.  At one point I started nodding off and had to get some sugar to stay awake.  I did work but I didn’t push myself.

I think that I am safe until Friday, perhaps a little longer.  I have had no response to the trump card  played – not sure if I will get a response. 

Plus I happened to look at caller id and a vendor that I deal with has been calling for a couple days.  I’ve been at my desk, so clearly they are talking with someone else.  I spoke with them today and they of course deny it.  I think not only does my boss want to get rid of me, but he wants to get the good deal I was able to arrange on PC’s. 

There is a lot riding on whatever decision he makes.  It will affect both me and the company.  I sure hope that he knows what he is doing.  I do have an awful lot of ammunition to be able to cause problems, just saying. 

Well off to feed the nagging children and try to wind down.  I know good luck with that.  Talk with you peeps later.