I find reminders of my late partner everywhere. Today I was at the grocery store and waiting my turn in line to checkout. I saw the candy, which seems innocuous. I saw the Altoids and remembered the time he bought them, had a couple and then went down on me. It was refreshingly cool. Good times! It seems no matter where I go I can find something that reminds me of him or think of a memory that we shared together. I suppose that is what happens when you are together for 20 plus years and he becomes part of you and you part of him.
Normally I would tell you how much of an unlucky guy I am, have won very few things in my life. However, I was a lucky guy the day I met my late partner. I had no idea of the road ahead and what triumphs it would bring and what challenges we would have to face. I never would have ever though I was building a life with him, it was like we were best friends. Time quickly got away from me and here I am in my 40’s looking back on what was.
I am not exactly sure what I would say but I would like to write a book about our life together, thinking that it would touch someone and maybe move someone to not be afraid of love. In general to get my story out there but also to hopefully help people appreciate life. Then I think well there isn’t anything too special that the public would want to read I mean it’s no Bridegroom but there are things that we have in common. Trying to get funding and getting a publisher would be a challenge as well. The funding part I know I could start a kick starter but have no idea how much money it would cost.
In normal news… I woke up around 8, left the house around 9 and went to breakfast. I have a few coupons for 20% off at Denny’s. They were full and their parking lot was still quite a mess from the snow storm. Apparently they don’t pay their contractor that well or they just have a lousy contractor to remove snow and ice. So I skipped that and went to Steak N Shake. I ordered a bunch of food and was surprised when it came to $9. Breakfast is one of my favorite meals and it’s cheap!
From there I went to the grocery store. Where I returned the touch up polisher that I got in the wrong color. They gave me cash for it instead of crediting it to my card. I picked up lottery tickets and then did regular shopping. I really want to make Spaghetti but chickened out and didn’t get anything for it. My premade snack sandwiches that I take for lunch were not made so I had to buy a large sub that I will cut down. I hate to improvise but you do what you have to. I did pickup some Hot Dog Buns and Hot Dogs so I can have chili dogs. The Old ElPaso frozen items I usually buy fell in price by $2, which is really good news. I dropped $70 and didn’t get a whole lot. Just enough for basic survival. Supper tonight is frozen pizza. I am looking forward to it.
From there I came home and put everything away. I threw my clothes into the dryer and am waiting on them. Took care of charting my expenses and then decided to fag up my office. I am 42 and still feel like a 16 year old. I have photos of guys up all over down here. Back then it would have just been clothed pictures of teen heartthrobs but now it’s naked photos of porn stars. I do have a recent photo of NPH sipping on a drink by the pool on what was the last day of his vacation. He’s got no shirt on and a pair of swim trunks. I got the photo from his Instagram. It sounds silly but it makes me feel good so that is why I do it. My late partner didn’t like it but since it was my space (before there was a myspace) he let me do as I please.
The best invention ever would be if someone could create a time machine where it would let us travel back in time, like in Back to the Future. I could at least go back and live a care free life instead of having to worry about the problems of today. Wishful thinking and I know I am not alone, lots of people would or could use it for different things. Perhaps to even change what the future brings. I just plain miss him and today is an okay day but I still feel like a good cry.
Need to go upstairs and straighten up my closet. Shave my whiskers and get a shower. I can tell you that it will be a while before most of that happens. I will go upstairs, sit on the couch resume a movie I started watching last night before bed and then probably wind up taking a nap. At least I am predictable if nothing else.
Yesterday I saw this pork flatbread sandwich they had at the pie place. Makes me want to drive back up just for that. However, I picked up some chicken that is done, just heat it up and put some sauce on it. That is probably as close as I will get to that sandwich for a while. Although the truck could use a little bit of a work out. I will stay home and enjoy the day with the children.
Ron White recently posted on FB that a dishwasher full of clean dishes is referred to as a cabinet. I like his thinking, but need to empty my dishwasher anyway.
Enjoy your Sunday and I will talk with you peeps later.
2 comments:
You said pie! :-)
If you have the desire in you to write a book, you should do it. A good friend of mine wanted to write a book of his poetry and after years of encouraging him, he did it! Doesn't have to be expensive, here's where he did it. Check it out....
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Thanks for the information. Looks like it might be viable. So many other questions I have but it's all decisions that I have to make. Not sure if I will proceed but might be a way to make a little money, that is if anyone would actually buy it and read it.
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