Fluster Cuck

Good Afternoon

Happy Monday, if there is such a thing.  The day I dreaded is here.  I’ve played catch up all day long, got a little bit of work done but mostly sorting through emails.  465 to be exact.  A good portion was junk but there were about 200 emails that required some form of attention from me. 

Things didn’t go completely to hell while I was out but there were a few things that fell apart. 

I also spent part of my day ramping up for the project tomorrow.  I’ve interacted with the vendor multiple times today.  I do not have a comfort feel for this at all, especially after a call I got early this morning.  I am glad that I will be there in person so that I can clarify with the folks doing the work as to what needs to happen.  So long as we have an understanding then I think that this will be okay.  I won’t fully exhale until they are done and everything has been tested.  I don’t see how it will take them 4 long ass days, I think this is a 2 day project at best.  I think the other 2 days were insurance in case something goes wrong to allow them time to fix it.  I will have all of my answers soon enough and we will see if this is going to be a complete disaster or a shining success. 

I started the new medicine this morning.  Had a moderate sugar level at lunch time.  Been to the bathroom twice thus far.  I thought it would be much worse.  Thus far not the case the day isn’t over yet.  I think the objective is take the pill in the morning so you don’t have to get up during the night to use the bathroom.  I’m good with that.  I hope this pill does it’s thing and keeps my sugar levels in check. 

Mora & Rudy seem to be adjusting with me switching back to work mode.  Rudy was ready to get up at 6a.  I had a bad dream and wound up laying in bed awake and once we got close enough to 7a I just threw in the towel and got up. 

Managed to do some porn surfing when things calmed down a bit.  I was not in the mood last night for porn or much of anything other than sleeping.  My sleeping medicine kicked in pretty fast.  Perhaps tonight will be different or so I hope. 

Today is my vehicles birthday, officially 6 years old.  Bought it on this day 6 long years ago.  Life was sure different then.  No pandemic, I believe I still had the 3 cats (Gator, Marv & Momma).  Doing the same job but I think in a junior level position and I was making far less.  I didn’t know how I would make the payments but magically it’s all come together.  It’s about paid off.  I had the option to skip payments and tempting as that was I never did that.  It just prolongs the loan, adds interest and you have to pay a fee for skipping.  I could easily pay the balance off today but I’m not paying much in interest and since I have come this far I am just letting it trickle out until the bitter end.  I figure that as long as I am making payments that will keep Murphy away or so I hope.  I do look forward to saving that money in a couple more months when it’s paid for. 

I would be remiss if I didn’t post about 9/11.  I remember being home with my late spouse, he had just had surgery.  We still had pagers and a news alert came in that set off both of our pagers.  We were both sleeping.  He thought it was me playing a joke but I joined him in bed and we flipped on the TV to watch in horror at what was unfolding.  He had a follow up appointment later that afternoon with the surgeon and we were both nervous about leaving the house but he made his appointment.  I took it all in and probably a bit too much but I watched every news program that I could.  That day touched us all regardless if we were in NYC or not.  It changed the world and altered many lives, not to mention taking many lives way too soon.  I feel nothing but sorrow for those that lost a loved one on that day.  This is something I will never forget, where I was as this unfolded. 

I wanted to work this post in before I head up for the day.  I have no idea if I will be able to post tomorrow or not.  I still have a mountain of work to work through plus the project.  I am beat already and that’s just getting up at normal time.  Add getting up an hour early, travel to and from work and there is no doubt in my mind I won’t need a sleeping pill I will be wiped out.  Take care and I will talk with you all again soon. Be well.