Today I joined an LGBT Support Group on social media. I found that there are a lot of other people who are just like me. I read and understand the pain they are each going through. I try to put my wisdom in words and help them as much as I can. It’s really sad, some of these people haven’t given themselves permission to move on. Until you reach that point you will struggle. Just because you give yourself permission doesn’t mean you will have someone next to you, but you can be open to someone new coming into your life. I see several things that I have done wrong, I should have moved and I should have gotten rid of a lot of crap that I am surrounded by. There are far too many memories here and it’s like I am keeping myself in some state of pain. However, finances dictate what I can do and I can tell you for a fact there is absolutely no way in the world I can afford 2 mortgage payments. If I could I would fix this place up with the repairs it needs and put it on the market sooner rather than later.
It was a briskly cold day here. I hauled myself out of bed way too early considering I was up way too late last night. I made my way to Steak N Shake and there was a most handsome guy cooking so I had that going for me. One of the waiters that is hot came in and I decided for whatever reason to play detective. It didn’t take long to find out his full name and locate him on social media. He’s 21 which is a wee bit young but hey at least he is legal. I didn’t ask him and his profile indicates he might be gay. Just from what I see I think we could hit it off but then again it could all be a fantasy in my own mind. I also don’t know that someone who is 21 would be interested in someone who is in his 40’s. I may ask just to see what he will say but for now I remain silent.
Powered through the laundry and a nap. Placed yet another Amazon order. I tried to clean up a laser printer that I have and wound up with toner on the carpet. I was torn on how to clean that up. Thankfully I made the right choice and got out the vacuum. That worked like a charm. I still went over the area with a cold water rag for good measure. No sign left behind. Toner will ruin fabric in a heartbeat and there is no cure once the damage is done, at least that has been my experience. I wound up pitching the cartridge which was still full of toner and putting in a new one. Then I researched on line and decided to stop buying name brand toner when there is cheaper alternatives. A laser cartridge of toner will last me for years, I don’t do that much printing. However, I do like to use it for envelopes and some letters. It was also handy when I was looking for a job.
I picked up a hose for the vacuum which has torn, that will be here on Friday. So now I know part of what I will be doing on Friday. I also got a massager for one of my friends who has had a hell of a time with her muscles. In looking I found a personal massager for me and while it’s marketed for aches and pains, it’s a sex toy straight up. I didn’t buy anything else terribly exciting but it will all be here with the exception of the toner by the end of the week. I will be giving my friend her gift, this week just because I want her to have some comfort and plus she won’t be expecting it. I like to throw people off, there is some joy in a total surprise.
Well Shameless is on and Momma is crowing so I guess that means I am going. Here’s to a short and quiet week. I hope the majority of people decide to stay home so those of us that have to work can have an easy breezy commute. Stay warm!
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