The Day After

No Black Friday shopping for me.  I stayed home and enjoyed the fuzzies and had left overs for lunch and supper. 

Thanksgiving it’s self was okay.  It felt rather odd not having my partner there with us.  I didn’t get as much stuffing as I wanted.  I deprived myself of breakfast in order to have plenty of room.  However, we were surrounded by food.  We accidentally got  an extra dish of pasta which helped out a lot.  My friends thanked me for putting this together and they paid the bill.  I totally didn’t expect that but it sure was a nice gift. 

I did go cyber shopping.  I had purchased them a Roku box the evening before.  I got an e-mail and they are 20% off but it was for a couple days and then it’s done.  I bought 2 with the intent of putting one in the living room and giving the other as a gift.  It’s not what they want for Christmas but I think they will enjoy it.  Especially if they add Netflix or Hulu Plus then your pretty well set.  Even w/o a subscription based service there is Crackle and they have some good stuff but you have to put up with advertisement. 

Work did let us go early and I came home and took a nap.  I got my Bluetooth speaker and well it’s not portable unless you have AC to power it.  No wonder it was so cheap.  It sounds great but I just can’t use it in the truck.  I will have to look into something that is portable with a battery in it.

Speaking of which I have tons of batteries here.  I found even more when I went cleaning my guys office.  I managed to get most of the stuff off of the floor.  There were just piles of crap.  Now I have to clean off his desk and the small pile in front of the closet and then we are done.  Right now I am pretty wore out. 

I love to clean on my days off especially this time of the year.  It is normal for me to go crazy and want to boil, sterilize and beautify the house today was focused on his office.  I wanted to get to the basement but the office was a full days worth of work just to get where I am at and I am still NOT done.  There was plenty of trash and I found all of his missing tools.  They were in boxes or buried under the piles. 

I found a box of photos today and had to go through them.  Wow I was so much younger and it was a trip down memory lane.  Then I caught myself and said boy we sure did have fun.  Yeah we really did.  There were several trips in there mostly of Branson, MO and a few photos of Oklahoma.  We stopped at the world’s Largest McDonald’s.  I had forgotten all about that.  When I was younger and didn’t have a care in the world he would take time off and we would go driving cross country.  It was fun.  There was the boring drive but after that got out of the way we had shows to visit, places to see during the day, food to eat.  We had our share of bedtime fun as well but mostly we were worn out and just wanted to rest for the next day.  I remember he wanted to go to sleep early so he could get up early and I didn’t want to rise before noon.  That didn’t work real well and he had to yell a lot to get me going but we worked it out.  Ah to have those days back again that would be fun. 

He sure had a lot of crap.  The one thing I am certain of is once it’s cleaned up no one will be here to mess it up, except me.  I honestly don’t know what I want to do with the room.  His computer, printer and other office items.  Right now I want to keep them as is but perhaps eventually I will want to sell them.  No need to rush into a decision I’ve got all the time in the world.  Unless I don’t get to keep the place.  In which case I will have to find storage for all of this crap and that could be a challenge.  Deciding what to keep and what to leave behind. 

I sure do miss him, life would be a lot easier if he were here.  Who knows we could perhaps add my name to the mortgage and that would make things easier.  I could be saving some serious money!  Ah well, no sense in living in what if land.  I have to move forward.  Doesn’t mean I can’t think about him though.  Next month with Christmas and our Anniversary as well as January and starting a New Year w/o him that will all feel odd.  I really was looking forward to marking our 1 year anniversary together as a “legal” couple in the eyes of State law.  We were a couple for over 20 years, which is a long damn time.  That’s the part that most people miss.  They think we were together for a short time – not so.  I like having a constant in my life – developing a routine.  Now I am starting all over and it’s simply not fun.

Tomorrow I have to venture out and get cat food, mail and maybe cat litter.  I want to go for pie because I can get a free slice but that is a far drive for a meal and a slice of pie. Something about getting away and being free is what appeals to me.  It’s just me and my music that’s it.  No one to bother me, phones are on but remain silent w/ nothing earth shattering other than a spam e-mail now and then.  I want to drive around the city and check into a motel – spend the night and then drive back the next day.  The kids would be fine but my wallet wouldn’t be.  So that is why I drive up and back.  It’s fun going up and sad coming back.  Sort of like fun starting a long holiday weekend but sad come Sunday afternoon when you realize Monday is around the corner. 

Right now I’ve got 2 days ahead of me so I plan on enjoying them and trying to get the most out of them.  Even if that means taking a couple naps along the way.  There is plenty for me to do right here at home and that way I can take my focus off of money and just work to make things better for me.  Tackling the basement will be quite the challenge and I honestly want to start but just don’t know where to begin.  So much crap!

Well for now it’s time to take the kids their blanket from the dryer and cover the couch.  Then I plan on getting ready for bed.  Watching TV until I fall asleep and when I get up I will start my Saturday.  Momma is pacing waiting for me to get away from the box and pay attention to her. 

Off I go.  Talk with you peeps later.