The Rainbow

The building I work in has a rainbow covered walk way, it looks nice when the sun is out.  At night it’s much better because it’s lighted and all of the colors reflect on to the side walk.  We also have a firepit, that is controlled electronically as well as a wall where water flows down and the lights change colors.  Last night it was beautiful because it was a rainbow of colors.  I’m not sure that the place is trying to display diversity or that they are gay friendly or for gay rights.  However, it’s nice to see the rainbow of color instead of the usual drab colors that fill my daily life.  It was rather uplifting.  Plus it was a crisp night out and just the right amount of wind and chill in the air, perfect night for sitting outside – all though I didn’t do that.

I raced home anxious to see what my bow tie looked like and shoot it’s perfect.  I put it on my polo shirt, like Darin Criss (from Glee) would.  I took a selfie and sent it to a friend.  She said the only thing missing was a smile from my face.  I told her it’s not in my make up to naturally smile.  Plus I was in pain, my back was killing me and the kids didn’t help chirping because they wanted more food.  I didn’t even have my supper yet.  I’ve been told by many people that I should make a conscious effort to smile more.  I find that when I fake it, you can tell 100% that it is fake and not real.  Some people can fake smile their hearts out and you’d never know.  However, I am not one of those people. 

So I am all set for Turkey day.  Got my blue shirt, my red bow tie and probably tan pants that I will wear with my daily shoes and socks.  Hopefully I can get a photo of me smiling.  I’d love to use that for a profile photo – thinking that it just might be the thing to reel in the guys. 

Big Boy came into sleep with me last night and I noticed that he smelled.  He did it again.  Peed on the floor then he sought refuge in my room because he knew once I figured it out I would clean him up.  Which is exactly what happened.  I will be breaking out the steam cleaner this weekend and I am going to look to see if there are bargain pee pads at the store.  I just can’t keep this up, it’s killing me.  I wonder if he is suffering or if this truly is him being lazy?  I mean he moves around the house and seems okay, I don’t hear him crying.  While I know that chances are pretty high that I will have to make the call on when to end his life, that really isn’t a call that I am in any hurry to make.  Losing one just last month is still very fresh.

I wasn’t too happy with TV last night, the Country Music Awards (CMA) were on and that derailed all of the regular programming.  I went through on-demand and found Fluffy the movie.  Now that was worth my time, it was just a little longer than I anticipated and there were 3 minutes at the end that are extra footage that I didn’t get to see.  Still I got a couple of good chuckles out of it and was able to spend time with the furry family.  I did have a little bit of an obsession with my phone but quickly caught it and put it down. 

As I was nearing my house last night I saw flashing lights and it was the police, they stopped someone.  Those lights are so bright that you need to wear sunglasses in order to drive past them.  I try not to focus on them and keep looking straight but it’s not easy.  I get mesmerized by them. 

Today started off really boring and turned really fast paced and interesting.  I am doing some testing with a Samsung Galaxy Note 4.  Oh my gosh that thing is huge.  I really like it for an Android phone.  I went to watch my you tube videos at lunch and man my iPhone screen is small compared to the Note.  I am rushing through the testing in the hopes of returning it to it’s owner so he can get his work email added.  It has to pass out security inspection and I honestly don’t think he will have a problem.  I haven’t been able to strong arm my way through anything, all of the protective measures we put in place work flawlessly.  Now I don’t know how anyone carries around a phone of that size.  I mean it’s like an iPhone 6+.  I understand the need for larger displays but making them easy to carry seems to be left out of the equation.  This device comes with its very own stylus, which is pretty cool.  The screen senses where the device is at and you see a little bubble for a cursor that moves wherever you move the stylus.  Kind of takes me back to the days of a Palm Pilot.  Yeah, that is dating myself – seems as if it was only yesterday.

Very excited that we are once again approaching the weekend.  I have my therapy session, the date with the steam cleaner and hopefully a nap can be squeezed in some where, along with all of my other normal running to do.  I kind of hope that lawn boy shows up this weekend to trim the bushes, he told me it would be 2 to 3 weeks and we are going on a month.  It’s like dude, c’mon.  He is set to mow the grass next week and I honestly don’t see that much growth.  I will take another look at it over the weekend, but I think that this will be his last time mowing for the year, I see no reason to mow, but he would disagree with me.  In that the leaves need to be taken care of.  I tell him the same thing when he brings that up, that is God invented wind and it will take care of the leaves.  It hasn’t failed us yet, year after year this is my approach and it allows me to save money, albeit $60 but it’s better than nothing.  Right now I need to make all of my balances go down as much as possible. 

Tonight is a mail night, perhaps something good will be waiting for me but I suspect it will be junk mail along with bills.  The only real thing I am waiting on is Big Boy’s OTC medicine, outside of that all of my goodies have come in and I have the bills to prove it.  The debt thing is kind of a double edge sword.  I mean I needed the desktop machine and could have done fine with my iPad but since I purchased the laptop I figure I might as well use it.  It’s what I wanted and there were many months worth of scrimping and saving.  I guess if I am back in debt, I did it in style.  Speaking of which on the way in this morning I saw this black Audi sitting on a dealers lot just calling my name out.  My late partner would not be pleased with me because it’s not an American purchase.  I am not buying it just remarking how nice it looked.  I’m sure it’s way out of my price range, even if it is used. 

I’ve got another laptop to configure here at work and I was going to do that today but this phone thing got in the way.  I have a vendor coming to look at a printer and well that pretty well sucks up my time for today.  I will have to try again tomorrow to be able to get this laptop done.  The lease is up soon and I need the old one back.  Thankfully I have a very small number going back, but I am sure as time moves forward the number will increase.  I would like more than a months heads up, 2 months I think is good enough but then again I am not in charge of asset management, I am the worker bee.

Someone asked me yesterday how much I like the phones and I said I could lose them and it wouldn’t bother me.  I do get to talk to a wide variety of people with various issues but I have done my time in customer service and phone queues sitting on a help desk.  I am much more of a Desktop Support Person.  My job has a nice mix in that it’s 1/2 of help desk and 1/2 of desktop support.  You take the good with the bad and there you have the fact of life.  Overall I am very pleased with my decision to become apart of this firm.  The benefits are outstanding and my pay is really good as well.  Now I just pray that it keeps getting better.  Oh speaking of which I did get confirmation that I am approved for PTO the day after Christmas.  No word on the day after New Years but I am hoping for it.  I figure this place will be a ghost town and there really won’t be much going on.  In many companies not much gets done between Thanksgiving and the start of the New Year.  I suspect that will be true here but time will tell.

Okay so time to get ready to hit the bricks and get back to my fun times with computers and cell phones.  Talk with you peeps later. 

TV Night :-)

Last night was good.  I got my 2 ups’ and got them unpacked and setup.  Everyone was watching me thinking that it was something for them.  My railroad calendars came as well, which was good.  They have such amazing photos each and every year, it’s worth paying for that calendar.  Trains & Boys… the only two types of calendars I will pay for. 

In hooking up the ups in the basement I strained my back because of all of the crap in my way that I was too lazy to take the time to move.  I didn’t feel it at first but this morning man, it’s hurting.  I also got a huge wake up call by stepping on the scale last night, man I have gotten fat.  I suppose that will happen when you eat what you want to, when you want to.  I know my diet isn’t healthy but it does keep me from starving.  I will try to make a conscious effort to try to cut back and eat less.  Of course Thanksgiving will come along and that will blow it out of the water. Maybe I should wait but who knows how big I will get.  I can put weight on by just looking at food.

My mom called last night to tell me that surgery went okay.  She had her cornea transplant.  She was babbling on and I was so happy to hang up the phone.  She was trying to get me to say that tomorrow (meaning today) is my brothers birthday.  I said everything but that.  She said you forgot your brothers birthday.  I replied, oh that’s why I sent him a card.  Then she told me he really liked the card.  His girlfriend is taking the family out to eat tonight in celebration of my brothers big day.  Whoopee!

Before I left last night I got a call from our IT Security Department.  They told me that a virus made it’s way on to a laptop here in my office.  I swapped out machines and have to work to get the new machine configured.  It didn’t help that I went to lunch late and it also didn’t help that it took forever to image.  However, I will be starting on it in just a bit.

I have managed to comb through the document that is my book.  I have done a lot of editing and adding.  It was an interesting journey to read and relive.  I changed some names, took out mentions of specific organizations for fear of retaliation and viola I think it’s ready for press.  I need to make a table of contents and then decide if I really want to move forward with publishing it.  No doubt this will make conversation on Saturday when I am at my next therapy session. 

Tonight is TV night, flip on ABC and sit back and relax with the kids.  I told them all about it so we can all spend time together.  Plus it will give them an extra opportunity to beg for food.  I will still have all of my nightly chores to take care of but being able to relax and hopefully distance myself from technology will be refreshing and enjoyable.  That is if I can keep my mitts off of my phone. 

Yesterday I got a message from one of the apps that someone said they wanted to meet me.  Okay, so I looked at it and well the guy has some appeal to me.  I messaged him to say thanks for the request and wanted to know where exactly his town was at.  I did a Google ahead of time and found out but I wanted him to tell me so I was sure that I was speaking of the same place.  He never bothered to answer me.  He read my message and just moved on.  I guess he really doesn’t want to meet me after all.

I got a notification a while ago that someone messaged me and unlocked his private photos.  Well I will be you can guess what those private photos were of.  Yeah, he was okay but not my type.  I didn’t answer him.  I mean starting off a conversation is one thing but sending me a dick pic well that just makes it awkward.  Speaking of which I was talking with a co-worker a few days ago and showed her a photo of BLU on my phone.  Don’t ask me why but I just handed over my phone she started to adjust the photo and my heart literally skipped a beat.  The photo behind and after were of shirtless guys, that would be a little awkward to explain but I would do it if I had to.  Thankfully nothing changed.  I haven’t aired my sexuality here and have no plans to unless I am backed into a corner and compelled to do otherwise. 

Back on point, the dating apps still have me questioning if I will ever meet someone off of them.  Each time I interact with them I know that there is a chance that someone is out there but getting someone to take a chance is much like trying to find a job.  At least with the job thing people call and talk with me, it’s not a rejection based on my photo/profile.  Realizing that I have put on some weight doesn’t help the old self esteem.  I am who I am and hopefully I can find someone who will accept me at face value.

The audio book adventure is interesting, I learn a little bit each time but the knowledge doesn’t seem to resonate with me.  I think it’s the general topic of the book and how they go on at nauseam about the least little things.  I mean they make their point and I can tie it all together but don’t exactly know how to apply it to my life.  Still it beats listening to music. 

Well I am going to do what I do best, put others before myself and go to work.  Short lunch but I’ve accomplished what I set out to do.  Now it’s on to configuring a new machine, oh joy!  Have a good evening and I will talk with you peeps later.

German Chocolate

One of my co-workers has a tradition that he sends everyone a German Chocolate Bar, I got mine today and it’s pretty good.  It’s got Hazel nuts in it they could have stayed in Germany.  It’s a nice rainy day here, sort of like German weather.  Kind of chilly but not to the point where you have to wear a jacket, but most people are just because.  Last night I came home to a surprise left for me by Big Boy, thankfully I saw it before I almost stepped in it  I took care of the clean up and taking out the trash.  Then I thought I spotted something on the front porch.  Yep, it’s a small package.  UPS usually sends me notifications when I am going to get something but this one slipped by them.  It was my hat that I ordered from the DEA.  I got it because it’s a one size fits all and it’s got spandex in it so it’s comfy.  I will be sporting it this weekend.  I did wear it around the house and it felt pretty good.

For supper I had a Bertolli Torta.  It’s basically a pot pie filled with cheese and sausage.  It was very good but also very small.  Two or three of them would be a meal for me.  I will be stocking up on them come Sunday.  I have not seem them before and suspect they are new.  Mighty fine. 

I felt kind of crummy last night, my sinuses were on overdrive.  I wasn’t sure if it was something brewing or if it was allergies.  I popped a couple pills one of which was a Benadryl on top of my regular sleeping medicine.  It solved the problem and I slept like a log.  I remember dreaming I was at the doctor and he was going to have to check my prostate and then I woke up.  Oh thank goodness.  Big Boy had me up in the middle of the night but he was just being obstinate.  I woke up feeling much better which was quite the surprise to me and I had all of this energy.  Then I got out of the house and got in traffic and holy cow it was madding to try to stay awake.  The rain and traffic didn’t help at all.  Once I got to work and had to walk in and get the blood flowing that helped a whole bunch.  Then I just sprang into my day.  Although I will tell you a nap does sound pretty good right about now.

Last night we got a scathing e-mail from the boss about people not updating the schedule when they take time off.  She said she wasn’t approving anymore time off until people got their act together.  I wasn’t one of the offenders but I did submit a request today for 2 days off.  1 being the day after Christmas and the 2nd being the day off after New Years.  She just approved the Christmas one.  Waiting to hear about New Years.  They will both be here before you know it.  But first comes Thanksgiving and I am psyched for it. 

Remember the book I was thinking about writing?  Well I have it in the cloud and am fine tuning it, publishing it for the world well I am still giving it some thought.  Not so much as a revenue generator, because well I have no idea what price to place on my story.  More so to show that love is love and if your committed to each other you can make it against the odds. 

Today is voting day here in the US.  I am so thankful that this day is here because I am tired of robo calls and other political solicitations.  They all will stop and we can talk about the results probably as early as tomorrow.  Wonderful, I think everyone will be happy about the calls.  Probably not about who is elected but if you didn’t vote then you can’t complain. 

So a full hour for lunch today, what will I do with all of this time?  Actually I only have like 15 minutes left.  Looking forward to getting home tonight.  Getting the mail and hopefully there will be money in it.  Getting my 2 UPS’ unboxed, hooked up and installed and finally having some soup and quality time with the children.  Daniel Tosh is on tonight so that will be a good thing, I love him.

Oh I saw Sex Tape over the weekend and paid 4.99 for it.  Don’t waste your money it’s not that funny and I found myself playing with my phone instead of paying attention.  I wish that Amazon and other pay per view sources had a return button for when you didn’t like the movie, you could stop hit the button and get a refund instead of enduring the torture of sitting there watching something that you don’t like.  Maybe someday but that day isn’t today.  Shucks!

Well I am going to get back to it, have to deal with that same ass woman from last week who didn’t want a new monitor.  I so don’t look forward to that.  I would rather do most anything than talk with her or help her with a computer problems.  Fix one thing and then she will bitch about something else.  I hope you have a great rest of the day and I will talk with you peeps again soon.

Yeah it’s Monday again

Nothing really major to report, other than it’s Monday again.  I had some off site support to perform tomorrow night, but thankfully it’s been cancelled.  Later this month I will have to go off site for an event.  I am not a big fan of that part of my job but it comes with the territory.  It’s easy work, as long as you know what your doing.  It’s all audio/visual setting up projectors, presentations and microphones.  Things I used to have to do in a prior job on a bi-weekly basis.  Making sure everything works is as about as difficult as it gets.  Typically everything flows smoothly, except for that one time when you don’t test or run out of time for testing. 

TAZ has been following me all over the house like a lost puppy.  He even tried to talk to me this morning.  I saw his mouth open but didn’t hear anything come out.  He is very soft spoken, but he can make himself heard if necessary.  I remember the days when he was calling for a mate.  Man that was like the most beautiful sound ever, his voice was awesome.  Today he is more about a can of food, some water and a good nap.  He had some of my Ben & Jerrys last night.  That kind of made him stick around for a bit longer.  I love him so much and pray he doesn’t konk out on me.  I don’t want to lose any of them ever but I’ve gone through enough loss for now. 

I am looking forward to going home, seeing the children and eating supper.  I hope for a nice quiet uneventful evening.  Plus it will be the first night of driving in the dark, which I am sure will not be fun but I know I can do it.  My lunch time is rarley my own always setting up for some meeting in the middle of it, or having people walk up and ask for help.  I took it for a while, now I charge for it, meaning that I alter my time card accordingly.  I mean that is why I work so I can make money. 

Well it’s about time that lunch is over and that means time to setup for yet another meeting.  It’s just a crazy circle but it makes the day go by and well I am all for that.  So without further delay I am returning to work.  I hope your Monday was enjoyable and uneventful.  4 more days until the weekend!  Talk with you peeps later.

Weekend Update

Friday night… I came home rested a bit on the couch, remember eating something just not sure what it was.  I got my late partners monitor and hooked it up to my new desktop.  Now I have 2 monitors, just like I am at work.  The only problem is the color temperature is not as bright, but it does serve it’s purpose quite well.  I am amazed at the fact that I made it fit, with some reorganization.  It’s taking some getting used to but I think I will keep it.  I found the receipt for it and I only paid $197, so not bad at all – plus it’s a 2nd screen that was just sitting idle. 

Saturday… I got roped into picking my mom up and taking her to the lab.  I did that and then headed for the buffet.  I had a good meal but the drive to get away just didn’t feel as freeing.  Mostly because I was tired already.  I came back home and had an e-mail, earlier in the day I signed my mom up so she could get her lab results electronically.  Only thing is she didn’t know her e-mail address, so I used mine.  Wouldn’t you know it about the time I wanted to lay down and nap, I had to print out lab results and take them to her.  Well she didn’t know that I was coming, so I got my nap in first and then went to see her.  She was really surprised.  I figured that I would take them to her since she has been chomping at the bit to get them for almost a month.  Her surgery for a cornea transplant is supposed to happen next week.  Hopefully, all goes well.  She told me and my brother that she hopes Santa brings her a car for Christmas.  That isn’t going to happen – besides that I think we both feel the same thing, she need not be driving. 

While I was there I had some pizza and got to meet my brothers girlfriend.  Her name is Barbie but she looks more like a cow.  No really she is a chunky money, which kind of surprises me.  She had her hands all over my brother at times and we were able to talk for a little bit.  I kind of wish I had a guy I could introduce them to.  My mom asked me so have you started dating yet?  I said yeah I did that and she said so how did it go?  I said not well.  So now she tells me well it was too soon anyway.  That’s nice glad you think that.  Last time I checked it was my life and I was in charge.  It may in fact be too soon and I may be rushing things and I may be anxious but it’s still my life.  I didn’t say all that – those are just thoughts.  I broke the news that I am a homeowner now and it’s all mine!  Then mom starts up how we should all live together.  Okay I think it’s time for me to go on that note.  I have no desire to live with her or my brother and well you all aren’t moving into my place, that is for damn sure. 

Sunday… Ah the extra hour of sleep.  The cats are so confused and don’t know up from down.  All they know is we need food.  I got to sleep in but had to fight for that right.  I had IHOP for breakfast, made it to 2 grocery stores and then home.  I didn’t really single anything out for supper and I spent my money lightly at both stores.  So I treated myself to Steak & Shake for supper.  I wanted a milk shake but instead will have Ben & Jerry’s as I watch a movie.  Thinking of watching Sex Tape, simply because it sounds funny and who doesn’t need a laugh. 

I put BLU’s paw prints on top of his urn and well that was a little emotional and conjured up some feelings.  I still have regrets when I think about him but it’s done and I don’t and won’t get a “do over”.  He will always be alive in my heart.  I wish that he and my late partner were coming back from a long vacation but I know that isn’t going to happen.  Sitting looking through dating apps at different guys and thinking of who will be his replacement well that just makes me think I will never find said replacement.  I am actually starting over, not looking for a replacement – but there are some qualities that are a must and I have to know who ever I decide to hitch my wagon to has my back at all times, at all costs, no matter what that no one or nothing will come between us. 

The truck sure got a workout this weekend.  It never goes anywhere and well it’s got it’s get up and go back.  My mom still wants to buy it but we know that isn’t going to happen.

I did finish up Neil Patrick Harris’ book it was very entertaining and I learned a lot about him.  He has done so many things that I wasn’t aware of as I suspect most of the world wasn’t aware of.  David Burtka is one lucky guy, I say that all the time.  So now I have moved on to How To Win Friends & Influence People in the Digital Age.  I figured that might help me with dating.  I rather enjoy audio books and listening during a commute well it’s better than music to me.  I think Audible might just have there hooks into me. 

Speaking of hooks well I should get upstairs and start on Ben & Jerry’s the night will be over after a movie.  Plus the children await and there are still some wrap up chores that I need to do.  So I will talk with you peeps again soon.  Ugh, back to Monday tomorrow.  Good news is that 2 weeks after this week it will be Turkey day here in the US and that means a very short work week, which I am so looking forward to.  I hope you enjoyed your weekend!

Friday

Well we finally made it again, thank goodness!  I got a confirmation e-mail that the home loan has officially closed, so the place is legally mine now.  Woop Woop! 

Work is yet another busy day.  I’ve been going from the time I got here and probably won’t stop for a while.  At least I hope not I am in the downward spiral of the day.  Looking very forward to quitting time.  Going home to have a can of Steak N Shake Chili and pick up my next Man calendar, which is waiting on my front porch, according to UPS.  Speaking of UPS I need to go buy a replacement (Uninterruptable Power Supply) for the modem and router.  The one I had shot craps.  I can probably get a replacement battery but it’s a very low grade model and I think replacing it, if the price is right would be the way to go.  Plus I’d like to get a 2nd one for the TV in the living room, it will just be peace of min, but again the price has to be right.  Amazon is my friend but I would rather go local if I can.  So will be checking into that.

Last night I am sitting comfortably at the table eating Ben & Jerry's when my mother calls.  Remember my weekend plans, well she tried to wreck them.  I have to take her to the lab because she says they won’t release the results of her blood work that was done over 2 weeks ago to the doctor.  Someone isn’t communicating correctly but okay.  So I am going to pick her up and cart her to and fro … then I am leaving town and going to head for the buffet.  I will be charging up my portable speaker tonight so that I can listen to NPH or music while i am on the way. 

I find it very entertaining to listen to NPH read to me, it’s more like a conversation and it is comforting and enjoyable.  I still want to nod off on the way home but just not as much.  I really wish I had someone to go home to, I mean besides the cats.  Being single and alone has it’s advantages but having company does too, plus if dinner were waiting for me I could be that much more productive with the little time I spend at home during the week.  Ah well, maybe some day that will happen.  Still no luck with online dating but maybe that is for the best, I am just not sure.  I would like to skip the games and just move straight into the relationship part where you can tell if it is or if it isn’t going to work.

All of the children are doing well, sucking up as much attention and food as they can get out of me.  Sleeping is a chore since now more of them want to move in to my room.  I let one of the girls stay plus the two boys and I pretty well have a full house.  Right now I am longing for a nice hot and relaxing shower and then to dry off, watch TV and relax …. slowly falling asleep.  I had no set agenda, but my mother has changed that and now I have to get up early.

The big thing with mom is well I will be driving my late partners vehicle.  It needs some road time, because I never go anywhere with it, other than short around town trips.  That is not what a vehicle was made for.  Get on the open road and fly, that is what it was meant for.  Bringing that vehicle will cause the whole conversation about selling it to her.  I really don’t want to go there.  She also told me that she would take me out to eat afterwards as a thank you.  I told her that I already had plans.  So hopefully things go well and I can move on.

So this is the big time change weekend, Saturday night fall back 1 hour.  Ah, an extra hour of sleep that will be nice.  It will feel odd for a while but I will get used to it.  Sort of like the cold weather, temps have really dropped here.  Time to break out the long sleeve shirts, sweaters and the like.  Ugh, I hate long sleeves.  This year to Thanksgiving I am thinking of wearing a bow tie.  I have always wanted to wear one and my late partner has always talked me out of it.  They are usually reserved for the preppy upper class or the people who are just plain pompus, at least that has been my experience.  I am neither of those, but would like to try one on and see what kind of reaction I get.  Who knows maybe my prince charming will see me and life will fall into place.  I will be wearing blue shirt so I was thinking either pink or red.  What’s your opinion?  Normally I just wear the shirt and some nice pants, like I am going to work.  I leave the tie behind because it is just plain stuffy but I think I may be okay with a bow tie. 

The children sure are curious about my backpack, they wonder why I am lugging it around everywhere and what is so important in it.  Shy Girl was really giving it the once over this morning.  I warned her that I was headed in her direction because I had to leave.  She ran away from it like it was a bomb.  That is just her personality.  Ah new month, claw trimming will be coming up soon.  Oh joy!

Super excited the house deal is done.  For giggles and something to look forward to I checked on Bankruptcy and looks like the hardship discharge will be able to be requested around April of next year, unless I happen to make a lump sum payment.  Time will tell.  For now it’s play it by ear.  Talk with you peeps later.  Have a great weekend!

Thirsty Thursday

It has been another wild and crazy day!  I scheduled a massage and that took up part of my lunch, but I enjoyed some of it.  I hate it when she finds knots and just works & works them like she is milking a cow.  Pop, pop and ouch, ouch!  I get a happy ending though.  No not that kind of happy ending.  The kind where she places a towel that has been soaked in warm water on my back.  It lays there for a minute.  Then she does some more massaging and wipes off all of the goop she has put on my back.  I ask for and get BioFreeze applied, makes the massage last just a few seconds longer.  Viola, all done!

Late afternoon is in full swing, when I get an Email from the new mortgage company.  They need more documentation.  Are you kidding me?  I mean we closed on the loan last Saturday.  You asked for more crap on Monday and now here we are approaching the end of the week and you still need more stuff.  Holy hell batman, I’d say left isn’t telling right what is going on.  I reluctantly supplied the information, because after all it is to my benefit.  I did include some stern wording like lets make up our mind and assure me you don’t and won’t need another fucking thing from me, except of course on time payments.  Surprise, surprise….all I hear is crickets.  They aren’t going out on a limb like that I know it but I’d love to get them to commit to it.  I suppose I will get my answer if they don’t ask for anything else.  I mean what is the purpose of closing if your still asking for paperwork.  Either we are closed are we aren’t.  This is not a ping pong match and I don’t have the time or energy to keep this up.  I am frustrated, does it show?

My Amazon orders were waiting for me when I arrived home.  I was quick to tear in to the boxes.  I got my DVD drive, my extra power supply and my oven mitts.  That was box #1.  In box #2 we have Corbin Fisher’s All American 2015 Male Calendar.  Oh it’s a thing of sheer beauty.  The other calendar is on it’s way and I’m guessing will be here next week. 

It’s Halloween eve so that means here all of the kids and their parents come out.  They do it a day early and there will be more that show up tomorrow night.  I don’t like it because every place else in the world you get 1 night.  Not this town, you get 2.  Even my home town which isn’t far from here you only get 1 night.  These spoiled brats get 2.  So be it.  This morning was a panic to get out of the house.  I had to tell the timer not to turn on the lights, stop by an ATM to get cash for the massage as well as getting fed, showered and dressed.  Feeding the muffins and medicating Big Boy.  I made it and got to work with an entire 1/2 hour to spare.  Phew, that was just good timing.

There is but one hour left in the day and I see an Email for a presentation tomorrow morning.  The meeting starts at 7a and well I am just about ready to leave the house then.  So I found someone to cover for me.  I don’t mind getting up early but if i can avoid it, I will.  If you have yet to learn anything about me, know that I cherish with every fiber of my being sleep and time to relax and unwind.  It’s the best part of living, outside of orgasms, comedy and good food. 

I’ve paid my bills …easy come….easy go.  I do have several hundred dollars left, so I will be paying for cat/human food on that, plus my trip to the buffet and gasoline.  No doubt it will be spent very quickly, but at least it’s not going on a credit card.  Those have gotten way out of hand and I am seriously over extended but relying on good faith and God to help me get them paid off as quickly as possible.  Most of it will be sound judgment on my part.  I want to save money but first I need to dig myself out of the hole I am in with unsecured debt.  2 more payments and my car will be paid for!  More money to be able to spend and save.

So the buzzards cats are circling and it’s time for food.  I guess I should go before they maul me and have me for their snack.  Thankful that tomorrow is the end of the week.  I am so stoked for Saturday and getting away.  I hope it feels as good as I am hoping it does.  Talk with you peeps later.

Audio Book

I have indulged myself once again and went shopping last night on Amazon, I mean I am already sinking in debt what is a little more?  I have new oven mitts coming and I’m excited about that, what is wrong with me?  I almost bought a pizza stone but I saw a warning about placing it in a hot oven cause it to break (it was made of ceramic) that told me not to waste my money.  I got a USB DVD drive as well as an extra power supply for my laptop.  I’m leaving the extra at work, hooked up so all I have to do is plug in.  Then I placed my usual order for calendars.  Hot Naked Men, oh yeah!  Plus I got 2 Union Pacific Railroad Calendars, but I had to go to the UPSTORE in order to get those.  Shipping is a killer, but the calendars are worth it.  Amazon is a no brainer I am a Prime Member and have saved tons in shipping, it’s like a gimmick, you know your getting free shipping so why not buy from them?  Plus who doesn’t love opening packages and getting stuff in the mail?  No one I know of. 

Today was a very trying day.  I had to really hold back to maintain my composure.  I deployed a new laptop and monitor to a secretary.  She wanted everything just the way she had it before, which I understand.  However, I put the new monitor in – it’s much larger than the old monitor, hooks up with a HDMI cable and provides an outstanding picture.  She was adamant about it and refused it.  I had to go to storage and get a used monitor for her.  The one she had is due back on lease.  I gave up my lunch hour and what should have taken 30 to 45 minutes took 2 hours and 30 minutes to make her happy.  Holy fuck!  Bitch Please!!!  It’s new and you don’t want it, WTF is wrong with you?  I am so glad she is done.  Just remembered that I forgot to make her change her password, so here it is 8p and I had to logon to work and flag her account.  I’ll bet you she calls me in the morning.  Not real bright but very damn picky.  She would make a great cat – more like lioness.

In my shopping adventure I wanted a copy of Neil Patrick Harris’ Autobiography.  I chose to get it for free by trying audible.com, it’s an Amazon company and I get 30 days, plus 2 books.  I got Neil’s and am obsessed with listening to it.  I really want to hear all about his sexuality and sex life.  Thus far I am not disappointed.  He’s talked some about that.  I have learned a little along the way and he keeps your attention.  Plus I guess it helps that I have a wicked hard crush on him.  I’ve said it before and I will say it again, David Burtka you are a very lucky man!

So on my way home it hit me that I didn’t blog today, well that’s because I didn’t really get a lunch.  I got about 20 minutes to cram my lunch in my gut and then had to get back to work.  I was so far behind and things are backing up like a sewer.  No fear of boredom with this job!  It makes the days just fly by.  While soon it will be Friday and I will once again be rejoicing because this weekend I am leaving town, headed for the buffet and some bread pudding.  Come hell or high water, I will be there.

In getting breakfast this morning, I noticed that Big Boy went on the carpet again.  Holy crap, so I had to clean that up tonight.  Plus he was a mess so I had to clean him up.  He wasn’t too happy about that because it involved some fur pulling, but when I was rubbing his belly with a warm paper towel he was just in 7th heaven.  Most people would have given up on him a long time ago and wouldn’t have put the money, time and care that we have poured into him.  However, in return I have a loving animal that just looks at me and gets anything he wants.  I wouldn’t have it any other way.  He knows I love him and I know he loves me – actions truly do speak louder than words.

Today is my mothers birthday.  She hated my card, it was something cheap for 99 cents and said something like your really, really old.  I thought it was hysterical and for the price, well it was a keeper.  Next week is my brothers birthday, have to get him a card.  Then I am done with birthdays for the year so far as I know.  Mom called me tonight and went on and on about this and that.  As per usual I was thrilled to death to get off the phone with her. 

Okay, so your up to speed.  TAZ wants his food and Big Boy is chirping for treats.  So off I go running.  Talk with you peeps later.

You are too old

So I found a good looking guy on Grindr who appealed to me, he told me he was open minded and blah, blah.  He is 34 so I really didn't think that age was an issue.  Turns out I was wrong.  He asked me how old I was and I told him, I could have lied because more than 1 person has told me I look way younger than my actual age.  However, what is a relationship that is not built on honesty?  Answer it's nothing.

Anyway, I didn't hear anything from him and noticed that he had been online since I sent my message.  So I sent another message to him and said something like did I say something wrong.  I was surprised to get a response back that said yes, you are too old.  He did say good luck - I think he needs it more than I do since he is so picky.  Anyway, everyone from friends to my therapist tell me that there is a special guy waiting out there for me.  Yeah, every time I find someone they turn me down for one reason or another.  Age has been the #1 reason thus far.  The rejection honestly hurts but I much prefer honesty to a lie.  I am starting to wonder how will I ever find Mr. Right or will he find me.  I mean I am only going to be on earth for a finite number of years and I am not getting any younger.  I prefer younger guys, simply based on looks.  However, as I have said before it's what is on the inside (as in how they are as a person that matters most).  I am still plugging away but I am so ready to stop.  Everything in my life is getting to a 'perfect' setting, part of me says why mess it up with getting a boyfriend - the other part of me says you are in need of one more thing and that is a boyfriend.  Ugh, finding someone to date seems harder than dating it's self. 

I went to my friends house yesterday.  Turns out she had a bad network cable but I still wound up resetting her router.  While I was there she had me update her iPhone and iPad to the latest version of IOS.  I enabled find my iPhone/iPad for her and also started an iCloud account. She is the person who didn't back up her contacts and lost them one day.  She is well due for a new iPhone but money is so much of an issue right now.  I stayed much longer than I wanted to.  She made Lasagna with Hamburger & Italian Sausage and sent most of it home with me.  She made her husband stop and pick up diet soda for me, I mean it was all about me.  Yesterday would have been my late partners birthday.  She kept me around so I wouldn't be alone.  That is special and sweet but she lives on the other side of the earth and it takes forever to get there and home.  Really sucked the life out of my day of vacation. 

Before I left to head out to her house yesterday, I got a call from the new mortgage company.  They needed even more documentation from me.  Holy crap we closed I signed a contract.  Legally I don't believe I have to provide the with anything.  They were questioning where the funds came from for closing and if I could show proof.  Uh, you got the fucking check, it's certified funds who cares where it came from.  In any case I sent them what they asked for as well as a copy of the cashier's check just to rub it in a little. 

I made it to the Assessors office and signed for an Owner Occupied Exemption and showed them that I paid far less than what the house is assessed at, so they will reassess the house and I should hear about that next year.  Until I get older or God forbid become disabled, I won't qualify for any further exemptions.  As it is with the exemption I signed for I saved $6,000.00 which is a hefty sum of money.  So glad I took the day off.

I also got my phone call into the telephone company.  I did add long distance to my home phone and swung a deal where they will pay for all of the added fees, plus they are giving me non published service for free now instead of me paying $2 per month.  In the end it's going to cost me more money but I just like how things seemed to flow.  When I hung up the change was in effect.  I remember the old days when they told you it's going to be a week from today between the hours of x and 5pm before your service will be upgraded.  Now it's all done with the touch of a couple buttons.  Normally, the system doesn't like me and messes up all of my orders but thankfully this one flowed smoothly.  I can only call within the US but I still have my Magic Jack if I need or want to call Canada (for my blogger friend) for free.  I don't make much in the way of LD but it's nice to have the option instead of relying on my cell phone.

I am just spending money like I actually have it and I don't.  Speaking of which Blu has been gone for like 2 weeks and I already have a bill in the mail from the line of credit I took out.  They want a small monthly payment by the 2nd week of November.  I will have more money on Friday and they will get their payment and then some.  I have plans to pay that off as quickly as I can so that I am not subject to the interest charges.

So I am using my laptop for it's first blog post but I don't have all of the software I need/want loaded on it.  One of those items being Windows Live Writer, which is what I use for blog posts.  I wanted to configure Crash Plan to backup my desktop, but some how I was disconnected this morning and the machine is off line.  I've checked off and on, same result.  So it will have to wait until I get there this evening, hopefully nothing is wrong.  All of the important stuff is on the desktop so it gets backed up.  The laptop well it's kind of a shell machine, with just basic stuff loaded.  I still have encrypted the hard drive and loaded LoJack for laptops, just in case someone decides to help themselves to my equipment.  Why should I make it easy for a thief?  So there is way more protection in place on my laptop because it's portable and more subject to being stolen, lost or misplaced.  I can't envision loosing it nor misplacing it but I did manage to forget to pack the spoon I set aside for lunch, so I suspect anything is possible.

Well back to the grindstone.  I've got 3 machines to crank out in less than 2 weeks.  1 of which is defective, brand new but still defective.  Dell is coming out tomorrow to fix that.  Time is not on my side here.  The lease is up and the equipment has to go back.  I am going to do everything in my power to make sure that it happens. 

Talk with you peeps again soon.  Hope your week is off to a good start.  I can't seem to wake up but I also can't complain, things are well and quiet  -which is the way I'd like to keep them for a very long, long, long, time.  :)

Fortune Cookie

So I just got back from eating out and going to the grocery store.  My fortune cookie fortune said “ You shouldn’t overspend at the moment.  Frugality is important.”  Uh I think it’s a little too late for that!  Here’s hoping the future is as bright as it looks!

Homo the Homeowner

The closing went off without any problems.  The lady was on time, didn’t have much in the way of a sense of humor but did listen to me ramble on about my life and recent happenings.  She couldn’t believe that I made it through essentially what one would call ‘hell’ and back.  Plus she said that she hasn’t seen someone reduce there mortgage payment by $500 so she said I did really well.

Now I know what it takes to buy a house – paperwork and lots of it.  Not to mention money for closing costs and escrow accounts.  I was told I could actually use my signature stamp but decided to go with traditional pen.  I broke out my 2 favorites and had them at the table.  I had a bottle of water for each of us.  The house didn’t smell bad, which I was thankful for.  Friday night I whipped the place in to some presentable shape.  I broke out the table cloth which hasn’t seen the light of day for probably more than 5 years.  We only used it at Thanksgiving back when we ate at home. 

So I am officially Homo the Homeowner!  I came up with that all by myself.  I have also completed 2 home improvements this weekend.  First, the garage I bought motion detectors for the lights.  Now I can leave the lights on all the time and won’t come home to a dark garage.  The garage opener has a light bulb on it but it quits a day or two after I get it working again.  This solution cost me $70 but it works.  The lights stay on for 10 minutes when it’s dark and detects motion, then they turn off.  That is plenty of time.  I wish it was adjustable down to 5 minutes but so be it.  Secondly, I replaced the flapper in my toilet, it’s been leaking for months and I haven’t wanted to deal with it.  Since I own the place I figure might as well spent that $5 in parts to take care of it. 

The think I am dying to blog about is my interaction with the waiter at Cracker Barrel.  I was up late last night and slept in this morning, but thankfully it paid off.  So I asked to be seated in his section again and this time he was actually there.  Holy shit, I was nervous.  I kept thinking about how I was going to do it.  He was very nice, seemingly to give me extra attention and provided great service.  I decided to wait until the meal was over.  He came out of no where and I just stood up and asked him if he would like to get a bite to eat or a drink sometime.  He shook my hand and said no thanks.  Holy fuck.  I was disappointed, but went into it thinking that he would say no.  No more nerves and well I am proud of myself that I actually went through with it.  Now I won’t be going back to Cracker Barrel anytime soon.  It will just be awkward to see him.

Figuring that I was already committed to a boat load of debt by purchasing the house, I decided to make a trip back to Office Depot before the closing on Saturday morning.  I was looking for ink they didn’t have what I needed, so I had to stop at Office Max.  I did however, purchase a cordless mouse and laptop.  Yeah, I didn’t get the laptop that I wanted but I am happy with what I chose.  I wanted a wider one with a 10 key touchpad , it’s more of a full keyboard experience.  In any case it’s also an HP – I seem to be gravitating to them.  I have 2 printers, a desktop and a laptop that are all made by HP. 

I stayed up very late last night working on my desktop and trying to recover from the crash.  It’s like a project.  I sit down and get sucked in and before you know it, afternoon is gone.  Then it’s evening and finally it’s bed time.  I had plans to go out last night for pizza.  I talked myself out of it because of spending so much time here.  I am however going out for Chinese tonight and then hitting up the grocery store afterwards.  I have started to setup my laptop.  It’s not going to take nearly as long to complete as the desktop.  Plus if you hate Windows 8.1 I found a free overlay called Classic Shell it does a pretty good job for being a free program. 

So tomorrow I have a call into my therapist to see if she has any morning appointments, I am dying to dish and get it out on the table about my progress.  I need to talk with someone about the property taxes to see what I qualify for in the way of exemptions, if anything.  I have to hit up the bank to put away the mortgage papers in the safe deposit box.  I am also going to try to call the phone company about possibly adding long distance to my home phone, I really don’t need it but it would come in handy once and a while.  Moreover I really would like to get the cost down – so add more features but drive down the cost.  The only way I know for sure to do that is switching to telephone through my cable provider, but I really don’t want to go that route if I can avoid it. 

Tomorrow afternoon I will be driving to the other side of the earth, visiting a friend who has some technology problems.  In exchange for fixing her issues, she is making lasagna.  So food for service, I can deal with that.  I just hope it’s good.  Her problems are all with her router and she was told she needs to upgrade.  I told her it may just be a firmware upgrade, since all of her devices used to work with the router.  They all just stopped one day.  I personally think the router is dead and that she will have to buy a new one, but time will tell.  I did confirm that she was close to a Best Buy just in case.  I almost want to pick one up before I go out there but I won’t.  I can’t stay too terribly long because I have to get back home in order to prepare for Tuesday which will be my Monday.  4 days this week is pretty nice, I kind of wish I would have taken Tuesday as well.  Next weekend unless something unforeseen comes up, I will be getting out of town on Saturday and going to the buffet.  I could go today but I figure do Chinese I have been super hungry for it for a long time. 

I am working on you guessed it laundry.  Big Boy developed diarrhea but thankfully it was after the meeting was over with on Saturday. He didn’t tell me about it until late last night which I wasn’t too happy about but, I did clean him up.  I dealt with the rest of the mess today.  I managed to also watch Season 2 of Alpha House.  I am so pissed the way that it ended I would love to know if Robert Bettencourt got re-elected but I guess they have to give you a reason to tune in for Season 3 and well that probably won’t come out until next October.  Halloween is on Friday.  I don’t do the whole candy thing so it will be lights out here, sorry kids.  Well I need to get back to it otherwise time will be slipping away once again. 

Thankfully I did finally write my letter to the hospital and I think they will get the point to resubmit the claim.  I engaged someone else higher up the food chain in their organization so I think the wheels will be turning long before the letter goes in the mail tomorrow morning.  My mom called me and told me that my brother bought a bigger bed and he has a girl friend.  She sleeps over so they can do the nasty.  He is not in love with her but in lust with her.  All I can say is well good for him.  If what she is telling me is true sounds like the bed has been broken in very well.  I just sit back and say why can’t that be me?  I mean I am happy for him but at the same time I want someone…. not just to have sex with but to be a companion.  Actually the companion part is what I miss most.  Mom is afraid that he is going to move out and move in with her so she will have to sell the house.  I told her cross that bridge when you get to it.  Then she started up about my late partners vehicle.  I told her it wasn’t for sale.  I’m going to trade it in but it will be a little while before that happens.  I need to let the dust settle, hopefully pay off some bills and be able to start saving money like it’s going out of style.  I need a large nest egg to take care of me in case something happens, in case I decide I want to buy something or if I decide that I want to move.  I told the lady that I would love to relocate to CA but the cats are keeping me here.  I’d also like to get a passport and be able to travel to Canada, I have a feeling that I might not want to come back home once I cross the border but well that is a very long way in the future and best laid plains, etc. 

My life is still very much day by day, moment by moment.  Well talk with you peeps later.  Hope you enjoyed the weekend!

Busy Day

Here we are at the end of the day.  It's been very busy and I just now actually have a moment to myself before I head out.  So the big day is tomorrow.  I am going to start cleaning tonight, the children won't know why but they will soon figure it out.  Shy Girl is eating on her schedule but she is eating, so that is a good thing.  Something bit her on the back of the neck and she doesn't like me to touch it.  

Last night I worked on my home pc some more, still not quite there yet.  I am having some issues with Outlook but hope to resolve them and get the machine finished up over the weekend.  Despite being worked to death at work and home, I managed to wake up at 2am and I didn't get back to sleep until 4am.  I watched the 1st episode of Season 2 of Alpha House.  I will be binge watching it this weekend, as much as I can.  

Got to get up early tomorrow so that I can get to the bank for the cashier's check.  I am not too happy about it but I have never heard of a loan with no closing costs or where the cost is baked in, so it sounded too good to be true.  This is a start of things stepping in the right direction.  If the payment gets too much or rates drop, I can always re-fi again.  I am just very nervous about the whole thing, but I am pretty certain it will be okay.  It's just now that responsibility will offically be on my shoulders, it's been there all along but the weight didn't quite seem as heavy until my name goes on the title.

Well I am posting this and wrapping things up.  I've done quite a bit of overtime this week and am very thankful and greatful to have Monday off.  Hopefully, the next post will be from my new home pc.  

Hope you all have a nice weekend.  Talk with you peeps later.  

Closing

I didn't know why but I felt drawn to Office Max to buy my pc.  Turns out we have a Office Depot & Max.  Since they merged we will only have Office Max, so the Depot is closing and they are having a moving sale.  They were practically giving merchandise away.  I got a new desktop last night for $600 including taxes.  They tried to sell me a warranty but I declined.  So now I am on Windows 8.1 and I hate it like everyone else.  I will purchase an overlay or download a free one.  I have begun the setup process - it's up and running.  I even have my old hard drive attached and as I suspected data is all in tact.  

So I get home pop in some White Castle to the Microwave and the phone rings.  I have been getting election calls like crazy but I answered this one.  Turns out it was the Loan Officer and he told me that we are good to close.  Once again things have changed.  I will get to skip my November payment but will have to make a December Payment.  I am still saving $500 per month, which is a good thing.  The interest rate is 4.25% which is pretty common these days.  He needs some additional documentation from me, but of course with my PC down it's going to take me a bit.  Then he hit me with what I dreaded cash to close.  Holy crap.  I hate parting with money.  I need a little over $1,300 to close.  So thankfully I have held on to my savings and will be able to make this happen.  We close on Saturday at 11am.  That will give me time to get to the bank to get a cashiers check, which is required.  Makee sure the carpet is clean, might be wet but at least it will be clean.  Tidy up the house a wee bit.  I mean the deal is done so it really doesn't matter what the house looks like.  Plus I will be able to grab a couple of my favorite pens to sign my life away.

I am very nervous about doing this, but I know it's the right thing to do so that the muffins and I can stay there.  Plus I will get away from the present lender and my name will be on the loan and the house will oficially be mine.  Given the fact that negative seems to follow me, that is a big reason why I am nervous plus I am commiting to a 30 year loan - who knows if I will live that long?  I just pray this all works out for the greater good.

Since I have so much going, I took off Monday which oddly is also my late partners birthday.  I would like to take care of getting a new vehicle as well but I think I am going to put that off.  That is an awful lot of change and right now my brain is going haywire -- no partner -- dead cat -- dead computer and now a house in my name.  Woah!  Slow down, save a little make sure that this all comes together and then maybe I will be able to take care of the car.  I don't know what the home loan will do to my FICO score, when I took out the line of credit for BLU it killed my score and I lost like 20 points.  Not happy about that but I figure in time I will be able to recover.  Plus with a lower house payment that line of credit will be paid for in no time.

I hope that Lawn Boy shows up over the weekend to trim the bushes, they are really bushy.  Then all I have to do is pray nothing else goes wrong.  I do have a toilet to fix, just a flapper to replace ... how hard can that be?  Good question, I will find out soon enough.

Lots going on here at work and I am taking a short lunch.  Plenty to do.  Looking forward to getting home on Friday night so I can start the weekend.  Meanwhile I just have to try to stay out of trouble.  Talk with you peeps later.