I was going nuts with a huge lull and trying to limit what I did online. Finally, around 2:30p my home internet connection came back to life. I stayed off of it for a bit longer due to meetings and work, but I just jumped back on and all appears to be well. Here’s hoping that they won’t mess up the rest of my week.
Here’s hoping it’s a good evening. Take care!
Good Morning! I was looking at my phone last night and in my text messages I randomly check the junk folder. I was surprised I had a message and turns out it was sent yesterday. Turns out the cable company is working on “improving their infrastructure to provide a better experience” and they are doing maintenance all week long during normal business hours. They said that service might be impacted.
My insomnia kicked in and I was up at 2a. I just wanted to watch a little TV and go back to bed. I got started with something and the internet went belly up and I had to go to regular TV and find something else to capture my interest. 2a is not normal business hours. I was not surprised when I woke up that there is no internet connection.
I am hot spotting it most likely all day long. That sucks but I have 2 carriers that I can switch between. I got Visible last year due to connection issues and the fact I wanted to jump into the dating scene. It’s an unlimited plan for $30 and I have had it ever since. The one guy at Cracker Barrel that I gave my number to never has called or texted. However, I figure eventually I will give that # to some guy who will actually call me. Today I use the line for business so I can tell work from personal calls, not that I get many personal calls. My personal cell line has mad spam protection so unless your in my contacts your going to voice mail. My personal line has a data cap of 4GB and of course as luck would have it today is the 2nd day in my billing cycle. I wanted to switch to suck up a good portion of the data as my allotment as is goes unused since I have unlimited data on Visible. In any case it’s nice to have a backup plan in place otherwise I would have had to throw on clothes and go to the office, being late and not having time to take a shower. So long as the cellular connections don’t fail me I should be okay. If I can’t get connected to either carrier then I am sunk and I think the odds of that are about as great as me winning the lottery. What do you think?
It was a peaceful evening here. I had a Hot Pocket Philly Cheese Steak and it wasn’t the best. That does NOT solve my craving for a Cheese Steak but it will do for the moment. Then I had two cold crunchy beef tacos left over from Sunday at Taco Bell. They weren’t bad. Had some popsicles for desert. I think that at some point Mora & Rudy both had contact with a popsicle because they are both very interested when I eat one. They look at me like when do I get a lick? If they did get a lick it would either be their popsicle or it hit the trash. No way am I eating after either one of them, too much bacteria live in their mouths and I am sure I would catch something unpleasant, especially given the black cloud that seems to follow me through life. It’s funny to watch them but I tell them both no. They are also obsessed with smelling what I am drinking most of the time it’s soda. I have a water bottle that has a finger loop on it and it’s made from some rubber like material. They love to chew on it and I have to police that so they don’t do any damage.
I got to brush both of the furry monsters last night. Morea was being a bit extra for attention. She loves for me to hold her while she lays close to my chest and just relaxes. That is more weight than I can handle for a long time. I don’t exactly workout or go to the gym. My upper body strength is in good shape but I am no weight lifter. I hold her for as long as I can and then I either get her to change positions or she wants down. The 3 of us have our share of fun. The two of them have more fun together without me. I see it after they eat or just before bed. Their energy levels peak and then drop. They get some energy at different times and wind up playing with a ball, they both make noise when they play so it’s easy to tell. Neither of them are loud unless they are fighting. Even their purr motors are soft. Mora’s you can hear just barely. Rudy you have to really listen. I could put my phone up to Gator and record her, people would always comment when I was on the phone what is that noise. I will never have that problem with Mora or Rudy and their purrs don’t sound nearly as good as Gator’s when I have tried to record them. It’s all good though, were all different.
Confession time. I didn’t use the heating pad last night. I used an ice pack while I was watching TV. My back feels way better but I am still very sore. I plan to go at it again tonight targeting a couple different spots. Massage Therapists always say use heat. A sports medicine doctor that I had as my internist always told me to use ice. It’s a pain but you will heal quicker he said. I am always conflicted on which to use but I do like heat more than ice just because it’s a bit more comfortable.
Since today is Tuesday it’s back to meeting time since the Stupidvisor is back. 1st one is just before lunch. 2nd one is after lunch. Last one is a couple hours later with a vendor. I hope they all go really fast and the fuckery is kept to a minimum but I know that probably won’t be the case. Calgon take me away!
Finally, you might be asking who’s that guy at the top. He is none other than teen heartthrob Steve Burton. He is known for his role on General Hospital but I saw him in other things and we grew up together. Meaning that were about the same age. I don’t know him. I have always had a crush on him, but I know he is straight. Still doesn’t stop me from admiring his body.
Here’s hoping it’s a great day and that my internet comes backup soon and they don’t take all week. I know some how that their improvements are going to be reflected in a rate hike in my bill eventually so I am even less impressed. Everything was working fine and I was happy. Ever since we have had this last round of storms the connection has been up and down more than it has in a very long time. Normally it’s solid 24x7, perhaps we will get back to that.
Take care, stay hydrated, cool and be well.
Having completed everything that I could, wasting time I eventually opted to step away from my computer. Of course that is when emails start to pour in. I sat in front of the TV and just looked and dismissed what arrived as it could all be dealt with when I went back. I was in no big hurry. I went to check my bank account and the phone rang. It was the boss. The cats were all over me and I had to mute the TV. Thankfully the cats were quiet and didn’t give themselves away. I am keeping them as a secret from as many people at work as possible, although some folks know about them.
Anyway this was my bosses way to see if I was still pissed and to make sure that I was “doing okay”. I handled the call normally and pacified him. However, after we hung up I said I wish you would have never come back. I say things like that all the time. One of these times the phone won’t be hung up and it will bite me in the ass but it’s my way of venting frustration. He wanted to know if I was going on vacation or taking any time off soon? Yeah I have some time scheduled. I told him that I was considering adding on and he was just thrilled to death to hear that. I do think he feels that were out of the woods and all is well. Nothing could be further from the truth. This is something I won’t forget. I may not change jobs in the end but I am looking, not frantically though. Trust me when I tell you that I am looking for a way to fuck him over like he did me, I may not find that remedy today or tomorrow but in the end some opportunity will present its self.
I honestly didn’t want to roll out of bed this morning. My upper back was killing me. I keep telling myself I am going to do this or that for it and I never do. I usually just get drawn into watching porn and well that doesn’t exactly do wonders for my back but I do get a good feeling out of it. Tonight I do think I will break out the heating pad to see if that will help calm things down. Nothing short of a massage by hand will truly remedy my issue. I watch Chiropractic videos and think that would help. I found a doctor that I would need to travel a bit to see but I have the maddest crush on him but that is the wrong reason to see him. There are plenty of Chiropractors around me and I have never been to one. The adjustment I am looking for is where they press on the upper and mid-back and sounds like a box of Rice Krispies. I don’t know if I will ever muster the courage to see one but I can tell you that I am not against finding a massage therapist and scheduling time. Problem with that is the time goes by so fast and well it hurts. I am nothing but a knot factory. I think if I was knotless and lost weight, even to where I was back to pre-pandemic weight I would feel much better and my outlook on everything I think might be different.
From a mental health standpoint I am not seriously depressed like I had been back when I lost Gator. That did take a major toll on me and didn’t help my mental health. It was one of those things that you know someday will happen but when it does, your never ready. I still feel sad and being alone doesn’t help. I am kind of stuck in a rut and looking for someone to help pull me out. However, I realize now no one is coming to save me, that is totally a job for me. I can either work to pull myself out of this or I can sink further in. Not having seriously good friends, especially ones that there isn’t an age gap with doesn’t help me. If I had that I don’t think I would be in as deep as I am. I look at all that I have been through and times where I thought I would fail or die or both and yet I am still here and survived. Somehow the most difficult burden has been to get rid of the loneliness, which is the reason for the depression. Having Mora & Rudy does help and they are the reason why I am still alive, I need a purpose as does everyone to get out of bed. Just having a job isn’t good enough.
I get that a little rain must fall into all of our lives and bad things happen but I don’t understand why sometimes some people get more rain and bad thing happening to them than others, especially when they haven’t done anything to deserve it. I hear it builds character, it makes you stronger, blah, blah. I know life can’t be all rainbows and sunshine but I wish that I could have a couple years with nothing major bad happening. Like everyone I can use all of the good that can come my way.
I think about a school mate who is hella good looking. He got cancer once and we are the same age. He got rid of it and it came back. I think it’s back a third time. His mom died during the pandemic, it was a sudden unexpected thing. I just found out his dad passed last week. He’s got a lot of positive going for him with friends, travel and worldly possessions and a good job. Yet there is still bad things that have happened. I don’t know if he is in good enough health to make the trip back home for his dad’s funeral. I also don’t understand why when I need to go to a funeral it always seems to be a week where I am on-call.
No one persons life is a picnic all the time but sometimes I hear things and it just makes me shake my head. I never would have figured life would have turned out the way it has for me. Here’s hoping that something good happens in all of our lives to make us smile and at least let us experience a win for once.
Hey I was bored and wanted to throw together a quick post. This has been anything but quick. Now back to the grindstone, it’s almost time to head up and we have more storms in the area. I know that the cats aren’t fond of them.
Have a good evening and we will talk again soon.
Morning, I hope that your weekend was good and you had time to relax. I took Saturday and did nothing. I was on-line in the afternoon for a very brief moment and then again in the evening. I napped, watched TV and spent the bulk of the day in my room. I had all sorts of ideas for plans but I didn’t want to be bothered putting them into motion.
Thus Sunday was a catchup day where I crammed a bunch of things into the day and managed to get all of them done. We had storms in the evening, knocking out the internet and interrupting my sleep because my Echo went off-line and that killed my white noise. Rudy was also all over me because I guess he was afraid of the storms. Needless to say I don’t feel like I got a lot of sleep but I know I got some.
Morea was in bed with me as well but she wasn’t scared, just sticking with the family as per usual. She was like a rock at the end of the bed in her normal spot. If she ever gets scared I hate to see it because I will have my hands full. She is a big girl and not light like her brother.
Speaking of the furry creatures. I went cat food shopping yesterday. I wanted to get them some Science Diet dry food for Hairballs but all I could find was for cats 7+, I grabbed it not thinking and then just before I walked away I saw the age. I put it back and wound up getting their normal food. I got some canned food for hairballs and dropped $70. I wasn’t expecting that but the dry food drove up the cost. I thought food shopping for Gator was expensive every week, thankfully what I got will last for a couple weeks so it’s not like I will need to go back next week.
This morning were playing games with you have an internet connection now and now you don’t. It’s like a yo-yo. I think it’s stabilized but I thought that earlier and was mistaken. I can use my phone as a hot spot but for some reason I can’t be on my VPN on the phone or my computer thinks there is no internet connection. It never used to be like that. I’ll sort that out at some point.
I have some laundry to catchup on, I planned to do that today but we have more storms rolling into the area. My power thus far has been fine and usually is during storms. When we first moved here years ago things were not nearly as stable as they are today. Although the power didn’t go out that much, the internet would go out with a simple rain shower or a minor pickup in the wind.
I am once again on-call and not happy about it but I do hope for quiet. The boss is back from his vacation which is too bad for me. I still have time to use though so it’s not all bad. I just have to settle on when I want to use it. I don’t know that I will actually go anywhere or get anything done around here. Calling for a dumpster and filling it sounds appealing but that is more like work than vacation.
My mind is spinning this morning and I honestly just want to walk away, hope that I am not needed and can skate by Monday. That is not how my luck goes but it did work rather well on Friday. I had a couple emails to answer but I got to take the day off pretty much, while never saying a word about it. That was sweet because last week was very stressful.
Here’s hoping that this week is way better than last (despite the boss being back) and that the weekend comes around faster. May the odds be ever in your favor. Talk with you all again soon!
Good Morning! I hope that your Friday is off to a great start and that you have a swell weekend.
I believe Mora is sick, either that or she ate a bunch of dry food before we got up. She was just outside of my door when I got up with Rudy. Rudy always follows me to the kitchen and gets under my feet while I am trying to feed him. It’s as if he is saying faster, faster, I am hungry.
I called out for Mora as per usual and she moves so quietly and quick I never even knew she was behind me looking out the window. She normally does that, has a bit of water, then ventures over to see what her brother left her to eat. This morning she just looked out into the yard. She followed me to my room. Rudy decided he wanted to play wit her and she retreated to my lap, she just wasn’t having it.
I think she is sick. I am not a betting man but I am guessing that I am going to have a mess to clean up. If she isn’t sick I’d like to see her back to acting normal. Me and sick cats don’t mix well because panic sets in and I am quick to get them to the vet. Right now I am just a little concerned.
My day is wide open with no plans or scheduled tasks/events. I logged in sent an email, checked on a couple systems and that’s it. I am walking away in a bit. Going upstairs to be with the cats. Morea likes to cuddle when she is sick, like I am her security blanket. I don’t know if that will happen but I want to be there for her and even if she isn’t sick, I could use some time away from the screen. I will have my electronic leash (aka cell phone) with me so if something pops I can easily come back. Right now I don’t have plans to come back down here but if the need arises I shall.
This is the last day with out the boss. I could hear his voice in my head last night and I could feel my blood pressure rise and the words I’d love to use forming in my head. Honestly once I am lied to I don’t have much use for a person. If they will do it once they will do it over and over.
Speaking of work, I did poke around at several major companies yesterday as well as the local jobs in my area. I found a couple of things that were interesting but when I started reading they either didn’t want to pay or had requirements that I knew I couldn’t meet. I will be keeping an eye out just in case a better opportunity is around I can always throw my name in the hat. Meanwhile short of that happening I have to keep what I have. I’ve got 24 days off per year in vacation, we also get 8 holidays and 1 floating holiday. Next year I will get an extra week of vacation and that isn’t something that most places offer unless they are relatively large companies. Plus I’ve got the ability to come and go as I please (at least for now) and I can work remote. A lot of the positions I saw were either full time in an office or hybrid where you had to go in on certain days of the month but could otherwise work from home. I just hope I can control myself and my mouth, I’ve done pretty good so far and I am quite impressed with myself.
What post wouldn’t be complete with talking about men. There is a post coming this afternoon with some eye candy. I put it together yesterday and schedule it to post this afternoon, so you have something to look forward to.
This is the part where I bid you a good day, great weekend once again and vamoose upstairs to be with the cats. Take care and be well!
Hello again! I hope that things are well and that your Thursday is moving right along. Not sure what happened this morning with the internet. Both at home and work there were issues. My home connection was restored quickly and then I got alerts from work that there was problems, meanwhile at home my connectivity was up and down like… well rather than be dirty, you get the idea. I think things have leveled off as everything seems stable at the moment, I just hope it stays that way. My home internet connection hasn’t been the best and this just as my special pricing expired. I get to make that call and threaten to cancel to get another special price, I wish they would just lower the price so I didn’t have to make those calls but I get it, some people won’t and that is where they make their real money. They are making money from me just not as much as they want.
The market for home internet has opened up with the advancement of 5G and most cellular carriers are competition to the cable company or local ISP. I like what I have I just want it to work full time reliably and pay a fair price without being raked over the coals and paying through the nose. Life isn’t fair and this is just another example of that.
I had an okay evening once I was able to break away from work which was closer to 5p than I wanted it to be. Today unless something goes awry it should be smooth sailing. I have been productive and am ready to take a break, a very long break at that. Got to remember to get the trash out this afternoon and put some pants on before I dash out the door but otherwise I don’t plan on doing much.
Mora got sick again last night after treat time. I brushed her again and eventually she went back to grab a bite to eat before bed. As we got closer to bed time both her and her brother Rudy got their second winds and were racing all through this place. They wanted cat nip but I didn’t give in. That is a once and while thing. However, they know when I crack the jar they come running and chattering, both of them trying to get the first bit from me. It’s a bit fun to see them light up but I don’t like the competition between them.
Had some strange dreams and between the biscuit maker and my bladder I kept getting woken up. Rudy is always ready to get up after midnight. It’s like he just longs for the food but there is dry food out all the time, I know it’s not as good as the wet but it’s still there and if I were a cat I would eat it to tide myself over. This week has gone by way faster than I wanted it to but Monday thru Wednesday were much busier than I had ever anticipated. I earned my money on those days. Speaking of which I got my new pay check with the cheap ass raise on it. I got a couple of extra dollars, whoopie. I am still underpaid from my POV and I should have been given more than what I got. This is the first year that I have been truly disappointed. Well off to break to see what I can see and maybe get in a nap but for sure some cuddle time with the cats. That’s the best part of going back upstairs. Have a good day and I will talk with you all again soon.
Howdy once again. I hope that your Wednesday is off to a good start. Mine was and then I got tied up with a vendor doing a remote control session on one of our systems. It looked to me like he didn’t know what he was doing and now that were in our second remote control session of the day I am starting to think that I am not off base. This is one of those urgent requests and I tried to get it pushed to tomorrow but it seems like the louder I said no, management said it will happen today. This isn’t my boss I am working with but another member of management. The vendor thought originally he had bad hardware but it looks more like he did some bad programming. What a cluster, why me?! Thankfully I got the task I was trying to get accomplished for the last 2 days done. I started early this morning and just finished up before this first call started. That was very good timing!
Last night I heard the sound of a lawn mower and went to look out the back door. Sure enough it was my sexy neighbor but sadly he was wearing a shirt. I got to look at his butt for a quick second, which is never disappointing. I’ve been a little extra horny as of late, must be something in the air besides pollen. It’s also very hot out here. Were supposed to have some storms but no relief from the heat. Just hope for no damage or injuries.
I’ve been trapped here in the basement for the bulk of the day, got a quick bite to eat and used the bathroom, put some lunch down for the cats. Then disappeared. They are probably really confused. I don’t like it anymore than they do but work calls so I have to answer, that’s what keeps the money flowing in. So much for a break while the boss is away. All though unless something changes Thursday & Friday should be smooth sailing, here’s hoping that happens.
I am looking forward to a relaxing evening with the cats. Winding down from the day and being able to ignore my phone, one of the best parts of the day. Although I usually get curious when email comes in. Take care, be well and stay cool. Talk with you all again soon.
Hey there, I hope all is well. It’s been another day of me chasing my tail. I keep trying to accomplish a large task at work and interruptions seemed to be never ending today. I need this report, this doesn’t work, help me with this. Damn feels like I got nothing done but I in fact got a bunch done, just not what I needed to take care of.
I didn’t have any success at the task that I needed to go in for. It was a hardware problem and I need parts to fix it. Who knows when they will arrive but they have been ordered. I could have made them deal with a technician and then let the tech order the parts and come back but it’s easier for me to just make the repair on my own. If the part that I had ordered doesn’t fix it then I will have to call a tech but I am confident I am on the right track.
I did get to spend time last night with the cats. We enjoyed each others company. Morea was extra needy and I knew that meant she didn’t feel good. Sure enough there was a minor mess this morning and she wasn’t interested in eating breakfast. I just got home about a 1/2 hour ago and she has gotten sick again. She has these left over foam balls that Momma’s family used to play with. They all loved them. Morea is trying to eat the damn thing and I find bits and pieces, she is just rougher and they are falling apart. I caught her trying to eat some of the pieces to clean up after herself and I told her no. Looks like I am taking those balls away from her. I hate to because I know how much she likes them but I think that is the root of this particular problem. I’ve got her coat brushing under control and continue to do maintenance brushings, which she loves.
Last night I said that on my way home I would pick up a cheesesteak because I am craving it badly. However, I just wanted to come home and thus no cheesesteak. I am fairly certain I will have one either by or on Saturday, kind of depends on how I feel.
I wrote the erotic story I was talking about yesterday. I did it the old fashioned way putting pen to paper. I have to have the right pen and be in a decent enough mood for my writing to look really good, needless to say I have some scratching to transcribe into typed format. I had to get the thought out of my head and that was the best way I could think about it. I remember when I was younger and figuring things out. I ordered a book full of erotic stories, I thought there would be pictures. There were a few but it was mostly reading. That was hot stuff and today I think I am decent at putting out a good story, being graphic enough but it’s all in what you imagine that excites one or so I have found. I am not trying to tease you, I’d love to publish one here but I know that it would get flagged and there is probably a TOS (Terms Of Service) violation. I don’t want to loose my blog/platform just because I got excited. I’ve been down that path before and still regret it to this day but it was over photos, so that’s why I am extra careful about what I post. I had quite the following and made a few friends but when the rug was pulled out I had no way to reach people and just had to hope that people would find me again. I think that there might be 1 or 2 people from back in the day that still follow me here. The whole stats page impresses me with how many people read what I write as well as the countries in which they view it from.
Well Morea is getting restless and wants my lap. I have a mess to clean up and then need to work on my supper. Tomorrow will be another day, here’s hoping that I can tackle my large project, I blocked my calendar so hopefully that happens. There won’t be a shortage of things to talk about when the boss gets back but I don’t know if I will remember all of them, but I guess I can try.
Hope you had a great day and that your evening is even better. I am going to try to have a better evening and relax. I didn’t sleep the best last night but I hope that tonight will be better. Take care.
Any plans that I had to play today were quickly interrupted. It’s been busy all damn day. I have had to push some things that I planned for today to tomorrow. You’d think because the boss was away it would be a bit more calm but that is not the case. I had no plans to play but I didn’t honestly plan on working quite as hard as I did.
I spent the bulk of the weekend at home watching TV with the cats in my room, sleeping. I did venture out for a bite to eat on Saturday and again on Sunday. Went to the grocery store in the afternoon. I don’t recommend that the bananas all had spots on them and looked horrible. I got the best of what was there. The cashier I got was upset that she was trapped at work on a Sunday.
All in all I didn’t spend nearly as much money as I would have if I had gotten up early on both days and gotten moving early. So that is the plus side. I had to venture out today because I had a package waiting at the post office. I thought that was the case by the notification I got on Friday but since I didn’t get out until the afternoon I had to come back today because they were closed. I knew what the package was but didn’t understand why it was so large. I found out today I got sent a wrong item that I didn’t order, ah well.
I didn’t spend anytime in front of a computer at all for 2 days. That was quite odd and I have had to play catchup when I could today on my porn surfing. I am still not quite done but I plan to fix that after I post this.
Not exactly sure what but something I ate didn’t quite agree with me and this morning didn’t start off nearly like I had planned. I feel much better now but I didn’t think I would make it through the day the way I felt after breakfast.
The cats really enjoyed spending time with me this weekend. Lots of cuddle time and naps for all of us. Just a bit of depression and lack of desire to do much is what kept me in. I had a thought of a summer day in High School and a crush that I had on this blond hair blue eyed hunk that was 1 year behind me. I keep thinking about writing an erotic story. My mind won’t let go of it. I do wonder what happened to him, so far as I know he was straight. It’s also odd how some people were really good looking in High School but you see them today and it’s like what the hell happened. I think I look pretty much the same just a bit less hair on my head (by my choice) and I got fatter (part of that is COVID and the other part is all me).
I am eager to get away from the computer so I am going to publish this, do my surfing and then head up to be with the cats. I have a 6a wake up call to look forward to and then I have to travel in. I have something waiting for me that only I can fix and it requires me being in the office. I hope that I don’t have to engage the help of a vendor, I have a pretty good feeling it’s one of those reboot it situations but this is something that has to be taken apart to reboot. It’s a bit involved. I wish the office wasn’t so far away I would just make the trip tonight so I could stay home tomorrow but I suppose getting out will be good for me.
I hope all is well in your world. Talk with you when I can. Tomorrow will be just as busy as today because of things that I had to shuffle around. Odd how I am busier now than when the boss is around but I guess that is just the way it works. Take care!
Happy Friday everyone. I hope that your ready for the weekend. I’ve got to remember to get the trash out today, the holiday pushed the pickup schedule by 1 day. It feels odd but then again this whole week has felt odd.
I had my call with my boss yesterday, it was just another lie telling event. He told me that he was only allocated a certain percentage but in a meeting he disclosed that he submitted requests for pay raises and what he submitted for was approved. It’s hard to tell when he is lying and when he is telling the truth because his lips keep moving. He tried to shift the conversation and said that he has noticed over the past year I have become frustrated. Wow, what a shocker. He tried to get me to talk about that and I wouldn’t even acknowledge what he was talking about. I said very little which I am sure will cause him concern. I don’t like being lied to that is the easiest way to kill a relationship with me be it personal or professional. This isn’t the first time and there is no point in calling it out. HR gave him a speech to read and that is pretty much what he did. I am not getting any more money than what he allocated and that is not a complete surprise. I think if I was to give my notice that I would or could easily get more but I am not going that route. If that is what it takes to get more money then I am better off elsewhere. Besides that if you ever take an offer like that it usually doesn’t work out well for you in the long term and you still wind up leaving. My job is safe/secure at this point and I don’t have the feeling that it will vanish but then again anything is possible.
As for frustration yeah I am tired of all of the bullshit meetings, how he doesn’t listen to me, how he constantly praises me and tells me how much I am appreciated, it’s all patronization and it rings hollow with me. I don’t like the way he handled things with trying to get me a permanent work from home position, he led me to believe that I would be getting a promotion this year and that didn’t happen and there are other things that have been building but honestly they happened so long ago I can’t even tell you what they were. Then add in my riff with one of my co-workers over how he treated me when Gator died and presto there you have my frustration in a nut shell. Despite all of this I still do my job to the best of my ability, my work is done on-time (often early) and I continue to work with all levels of management. I have paved my own path and am well respected and highly thought of by all. The greatest way I can fuck my boss and the company over is to just walk away with no notice they will be lost and things will quickly turn to shit. It happened when I was out with COVID and it happens when I am on vacation or take time, I always come back to a mess. I am tired of being the cleanup person, I am not a maid or a janitor but yet it seems to be a part of my job that I get no credit for. I am not the same cheery person I once was but between life beating me down along with the shit I have to put up with at work, I think it’s only proper that I am not still the same cheery person. It’s hard to maintain or even fake happiness.
How to fix it all? Well the fact that my boss is on vacation now helps knowing that there won’t be any of his bullshit meetings next week, I don’t have to hear his voice is also highly rated in my book. A vacation for me will also help. This is one of those get over it type situations and given how life in general keeps crapping on me I don’t know if I will get over it or if it will get over me. Honestly if I didn’t need the money I would just walk away from all of it and even though I need the money I have been very close to doing that for a while. I know that if I walk away that life will become worse for me and not better. Yeah I still want to check out and get away from work and life in general. Then a cat walks by me or comes and sits with me because they feel my pain and that makes me feel bad that I would leave them behind.
Honestly I think a major change of things from where I live, where I work, what I drive and getting a companion would all go a great way in helping me. Things would be all new, there would be some excitement but if everything changed at once I think it might be a bit overwhelming. I’ve got control over most everything but a companion and that is kind of the frustrating part. I’ve done some looking for a new job and I will be keeping my eye out, despite not wanting to start over you never know when an opportunity that is too good to pass up might come along. I really don’t want to start my job over but for my own happiness it would probably help. I just think of all of the perks I have now like time off and the fact I can pretty well come and go as I please, that’s the part of starting over I don’t like and the fact that I may have to go into a physical office but I have found a good mix of hybrid and fully remote positions advertised. I’ve applied for nothing as of yet.
I had to play catchup this morning because yesterday afternoon I checked out at 2p but I never told a sole. I just watched the work stack up and I pushed everything to today. That made for quite the busy morning. Then more stuff came in and I’ve put even more off until Monday. I am current as of now and watching just in case anything should pop. However, I plan to sit on my ass the bulk of today unless there is something that has to be done. I will kind of turn my bosses vacation into a vacation of my own when I can. There is a day or two next week that won’t be possible. It’s one of those things where you take advantage of it when you can and while it lasts. Here is hoping that things get better and that I can find some peace and enjoyment even if it is short term.
I didn’t sleep the best last night and kind of figured that would happen. However, I am about to go up and take a nap, relax with the cats. There isn’t a whole lot going on today and that helps.
As for my weekend I do plan on eating good, sleeping and hopefully stumbling on something good to watch as well as spending time with the cats. They have a new routine once I fall asleep they leave the room and I get the bed to myself. I am only guessing but I think they may have been kicked or hit or just don’t like the fact that I am not a silent sleeper. It may also be cooler elsewhere in the house. I just think it’s kind of odd that they leave me when before I couldn’t escape them. I wonder if when it turns Winter time if they will be more clingy. It’s only a twin bed so I really need the whole thing to myself but I do accommodate them as we all start out sleeping together.
Well enough of my troubles. I wish you all the best for today and the weekend. Thanks for stopping by and reading this, if you made it all the way to here. Stay cool, hydrated and we will talk again.
Morning and happy Thursday. One more day and we will be looking at the weekend, what a pleasant thought. This has to be the week that has moved by the fastest in a while.
Had an average but decent night. Had a BBQ Dinner from the store it wasn’t bad. I thought I grabbed something with potatoes but turns out it was Mac & Cheese, different but not bad. Had a couple of sugar free Bomb Pops for dessert. I got one box of those and then 1 box of regular Chocolate Banana. Both are equally as good but there is just something about the original that keeps calling me back. They are not nearly as big as I remember when I was a kid but two of them would equal the normal size I was used to as a kid. Rudy tried to steal a lick last night but I didn’t let that happen. He was cute about it and it was a nice moment but I don’t eat after cats and if they some how touch what I am drinking or eating to the trash it goes.
Speaking of Rudy, seems that he has the throw up bug now. He was eating breakfast, saved some for his sister and then went in to polish off what she didn’t eat and promptly threw up out of the blue. I brushed her last night but he got a pass since he was sleeping. I will be working him over tonight with the brush. Hopefully that will stop this. I hate it when a cat is sick, mostly because of the mess that I get to clean up. My carpet is already in bad shape but it could use a touch up steam cleaning. I am not a fan of that because I usually wind up getting sick with all of the crap it stirs up.
I’ve gotten in the habit of walking around here in my underwear and a shirt. Last night that backfired on me because Morea wanted to cuddle she dug her back claws into the top of my leg as she was trying to get up and push off of me. Not once but twice. Damn that hurt and yes it drew blood. Fortunately for me I was headed to the shower. That was so much fun to get wet and apply soap to. I am not a fan of claw injuries. However, I typically mostly only trim the front unless I see that they aren’t taking care of the back claws. That’s where they get there traction from and boy they both do some jumping and hopping around here. Even light Rudy can sound like Mora at times if he wants to.
I am passing time this morning waiting for about a half hour from now when I get to take this wonderful call with my boss to talk about my complaint. I really think he is going to play dumb and want me to spell it all out for him again. That’s when I will say didn’t you read the email? The details are in the email, please refer to it. I am not going to reinvent the wheel. Plus it’s all being recorded, I have no trust for him. I am not expecting a bigger raise or anything for that matter, that way I can’t be disappointed but I kind of am already disappointed in having to have this kind of conversation. If I am so valued and highly thought of then you’d think they would take care of me like they have in years past. I’m positive that I really don’t want to start over at a new job even if it means more money out of the gate, it’s just a huge risk. However, I have no qualms about placing the idea in his head that it is a possibility or something that I am considering. While I hope this goes well I think it will mostly be a lot of gum flapping for nothing and a huge waste of time. However, I have to play the game and I am kind of interested in what he has to say. He’s taking a 1/2 day today and will be on vacation for the next week so that’s another reason why I don’t think anything good will come from this.
The better news is that after this wonderful call I have nothing on the agenda for the rest of the day and I can retire to watching TV and taking a nap, all while getting paid for it. Unless something comes up I plan to take full advantage of that. The cats like it because they occupy my lap and keep me from getting up, so I reach over to the bed and grab a pillow and it’s not long before were all in dream land.
I hope that your having a great day, life is treating you well and that your looking forward to the weekend like I am. Take care and if anything of substance comes from my talk with the boss I will be back to post an update. Be safe, stay cool & hydrated.
Morning! I hope that you had a great weekend & holiday. I finally got nachos and they were “just okay”. I tried to get a Philly Cheesesteak but we had some storms and that caused a lot of power problems. The place where I went on Monday was only taking cash and no cards so that canceled that out. I will go back to try again perhaps over the weekend.
All 4 days went by way too fast. Speaking of 4 the cats are now 4 years old. They celebrated their birthday’s yesterday and it was just another day. I did a good amount of sleeping yesterday and even turned into bed early as the fireworks started. I turned on some extra white noise but that did something but it didn’t drown them out entirely.
Went to my friends house and had a meal, it wasn’t the usual dried out burgers they had a little bit of flavor but weren’t done to my satisfaction. There were a ton of sides and they started the meal with salad but I opted out of that. Who eats salad on the 4th of July? They always wait about an hour after everyone is done before they serve desert, I hate that practice but I waited. For the first time ever I left shortly after I was done with desert. They were talking about church, ancestry, travel and those topics were causing me to yawn they were so boring. I might see them around the time of my birthday but the next time were all together will likely be Thanksgiving. They do have a Labor Day block party but that is an outdoor thing and I am not a outdoor person when it comes to food and fun. Between the heat and the bugs I don’t have a good time.
As you might well imagine I came back to a mess in my inbox. I peeked on Monday night and shuttered to think about coming back this morning. I am caught up and now it’s just meeting city today. I’ve been to two already and have 2 more to go, which are back to back. Then unless something comes in I am pretty well free for the rest of the day. We have today and tomorrow with the boss and then his ass is on vacation for a week and a couple days. I look forward to the silence. I have no plans to go in to the office this week but I do plan to go in next week. This week is only 3 days and it just seems a bit much.
Just got a call from the boss, we have to meet tomorrow about the email I sent him. He wants to resolve whatever my concern is and try to get me feeling better about work. It’s like he never read my letter and I can easily see me flying off the handle and telling him to go fuck himself but I will listen to whatever it is he has to say. I don’t know that I will have much to contribute. I think this is an exercise to try to brain wash me or help me to forget what my concern was in the first place. I can’t or won’t forget how my review and pay raise were less than what I truly deserved. Either he can fix this or he can’t. If he can then fix it and if he can’t then tell me so. I tried to get him to spit it all out now but he told me he wasn’t fully prepared. He acted like he had no idea what my concern even was. I fucking hate games that makes me go bananas. I’m very close to my breaking point so I have to try to restrain myself as best as I can.
Speaking of games. I had a former boss come to town and put it out that he was up to see old friends. I threw out multiple suggestions on getting together but rather than come out and say that he would prefer not to catch up with me, he played games. It got to a point where I just stopped responding because I got the message he was sending without saying the actual words. I will never interact with him again, come back or don’t come back I don’t care. This is the same boss/friend that I traveled hours to see his mom’s wake during COVID. I have had enough of the cold shoulder and games I know when it’s time to walk away.
I didn’t accomplish all of the tasks I had planned but I got a good portion of them done. Really the only two things were hitting up a store to look at new shoes and to hit up Sam’s club. I am overloaded on Bakery items now so it really made no sense to go to Sam’s for just soda. I plan to hit up Target this weekend and I will grab some soda there and that will give me the chance to eat some of this bakery stuff but I can easily tell you there will be something left. I’m surrounded by chocolate cake & muffins. Me and my memory aren’t exactly what they used to be.
On that happy note, I see there is some more work headed down the pike and I am going to jump on that. I am not exactly depressed today but I am not exactly happy. I am much better when I am away from work. Suddenly a week of vacation doesn’t sound like a bad thing to me.
Take care and I hope that all is well and you are staying hydrated, cool and life is treating you well.