General Ramblings

Howdy – Hope all is well. 

Yesterday trying to occupy some of my free time I did a search to see if I could get my hands on a new porn scene between Blake Mitchell and Sean Ford.  I found a Russian Gay Porn Torrent Site that has the content.  They are an invite only site and presently there are no invites left.  However, if you want to spend some Bitcoin you can buy an invite.  Sounds like they may have some decent content besides this scene.  However, considering it’s Russia that is a huge red flag for me.  Just because they have the content doesn’t mean that when you download it that is all they will send you.  It could be filled with malware, spyware or a virus.  Just not worth the risk and besides that if I really wanted the content that bad I would join the Only Fans site of the stars and get it that way, it’s safer and cheaper in the long run.  I just thought it was an interesting find and was worth sharing. 

I actually find out about a lot of content that is being released through social media, Twitter is the best source.  If porn is what your seeking go to Twitter there are all sorts of previews, short videos, etc.  Just follow your favorite star or studio and you should get what your looking for. 

Last night to occupy some free time I surfed YouTube for Top Gun Maverick content.  There is all sorts of stuff about how the movie was made, thoughts from real Top Gun Pilots and Instructors.  It was really interesting.  Most everything I saw talked about the plot line of the movie so if you haven’t seen it and don’t mind spoilers then browse away or wait until after you get a chance to see the movie.  Apparently I am not the only person who wants to see it again.  I heard from one pilot that he saw it 4 times.  I mean I like it but if your talking IMAX that is $80 at least where I live.  Last night marked the end of the IMAX showing of the film in my area.  It is still being shown but on a Standard screen.  It was filmed for IMAX so the audience would get the full and best experience possible.  I am still very glad that I went to see it.  Best time I’ve had by myself out in a very long time as well as a very good movie. 

Tuesday night Starz gave me a suggestion on a movie that I would like but I don’t remember the name and went back to browse in the suggested for you section but didn’t see anything that stood out.  Found another Jarhead sequel but have yet to watch it, the preview didn’t look good.  I wound up re-watching an oldie called Stop Loss.  It’s got Ryan Phillipe, Joseph Gordon Levitt and Channing Tatum.  3 hot hunks that do a very good job of acting.  It was a great way to pass some time since there isn’t much that appeals to me on regular TV. 

Gator summoned me upstairs a bit early yesterday afternoon.  It’s like she could sense I was just playing down here and not really working.  I went to see what all of the fuss was about and she just wanted some food.  I fed her while sitting on the couch and logged in on my laptop.  I needed to be available just in case something cropped up, one thing popped at the last minute and gave me something to do for a short bit of time.  Gator worked me for all of the food she could get over the course of the evening.  She did get up and drink some water.  I talked to her and told her that I wasn’t fond of her change in not coming in to be with me at bedtime.  When I was getting ready to watch TV in my room and wind down for the night, she was at the drinking fountain.  I told her to come see me when she was done.  I figured she would but nope, she climbed right back in bed on the couch.  She did wake me twice last night.  The first time she was in her bed in my room and it took me a minute to locate her because I never expected her to be there.  I’m not a big fan of change when it comes to Gator but she doesn’t leave me a huge choice in the matter.  I just have to hope that she shakes loose and goes back to her old normal routine.  She still enjoys the attention that I give her and does demand that I be next to her still so that’s a good sign.  Perhaps my laziness has rubbed off on her. 

As for me I am okay.  Had Chicken Parm. for supper last night, even though it was a TV dinner it was better than left over pizza.  I’ve still got a couple pieces left and need to polish them off just kind of growing tired of it.  Had some Ice Cream for desert which went well with the hot day we had.  It will be left over pizza tonight unless I get brave and decide to have it for lunch.  I’ve got some lunch meat that is Rotisserie Chicken, put some BBQ sauce on that and grab some Italian Bread, it’s a good sandwich. 

Work for me is all caught up the moment.  I knocked out the big tasks pretty quick today.  One of my meetings for this afternoon got rescheduled, which I am very okay with.  I’ve got two more but I only plan right now on going to 1 of them.  Both are later in the afternoon.  For now I have nothing to do that is work related.  That’s when I tend to surf and blog.  Were still waiting on pay raises information which should be rolling in any day now.  There never is a huge hurry to get that communicated but damn they want you to review yourself fairly quickly.  I do think that some people will leave as they won’t be happy with whatever it is they get for a pay raise but overall I think most people will stay put.  The great resignation is still happening.  I heard in the news that a few people have quit their old jobs because they thought they had new ones and as they went to start their new job it vaporized and the job offer they had was rescinded.  That really sucks because then you have to scramble and either beg to get your old job back if you didn’t burn a bridge there or find something different pretty quickly.  As for me I am staying put for the moment, I have a strong desire to leave and it’s been there for a while.  No matter where you go your going to have BS to deal with and that is my main reason for leaving.  Sometimes the devil you know is better than the devil you don’t.  I also think that it would be difficult for me to get paid as well as I am some place else.  Money is a huge motivator for me.  Benefits other than time off mean nothing since my healthcare isn’t tied to my job, so outside of income they really can’t hold me hostage or hold anything over my head.  Granted income is the only reason why I am working and my employer still has the upper hand.  I just try not to think about it as a prison or master/slave relationship but it is very much so if you really think about it.  At the end of the day it’s just a job and I was looking for one when I found this one, I am positive I can find another one if I have to.  It’s just a matter of how long it will take and how much if any pay I would need to sacrifice.

It’s about snack time but Gator is quiet, which probably means she is snoozing.  Her appetite seems to pick up more towards the afternoon and she isn’t eating any less food so it’s all good to me. 

Stay cool and hydrate.  I will try to do the same and with any luck we will meet up back here again soon.  Bye for now. 

It’s Hot Out - You MUST be Thirsty!

 

 

 

 

 

Sleeping Soundly

Yesterday is done and today awaits.  None of the people I wanted to see were in the office yesterday.  I ran into one of the gossips that I have a rapport with and we haven’t seen each other in two years.  It was nice to catch up but I kind of wish I didn’t say some of the things I mentioned.  It didn’t phase me at the time but after the fact, looking back is when I realized it.  Not much I can do about that now. 

Were in another excessive heat warning and it will be here for a few days.  That’s time for me to stay indoors with the AC.  Oddly enough my office wasn’t freezing cold as it has been in weeks past.  It was comfortable but I wasn’t freezing.  I sure felt the difference when I stepped outside though.  Yuk. 

I left a little earlier than normal to get home because I didn’t take a lunch and had nothing to do.  Gator was kind of pleased about that she got an extra half hour of me that she otherwise wouldn’t have had.  She slept the day away, each time I looked in on her she was snoozing on the couch.  She did manage to eat some of the food I left for her.  I gave her a dose of fluids last night because she started going through multiple cans of food when I got home.  It was difficult at best to watch TV or even to try to browse on my phone.  After the fluids she returned to the couch and we had some interaction but she was out.  She also spent the night on the couch, not bothering to come see me in my room.  I’m not a fan of that.  I mean there are times when I would like to be alone but I actually look forward to what is our normal bedtime ritual.  I guess it’s gotten old to her.  I’ve though of carrying her in my room but I really don’t want to get scratched up but I may give that a go tonight. 

I woke up early this morning for some reason.  She let me sleep all night long with out an interruption, which is unusual. I am starting to become slightly concerned with the changes in her behavior.  It’s kind of like the pre show where she is getting ready to check out on me.  I’m not ready for that just yet, nor do I know that I will ever be.  I try to spend as much time with her as I can and give her all of the attention I can muster up.  I know she appreciates it but I am hoping to not only show her that she is loved but to help keep her mood up and give her a reason to keep on keeping on.  Perhaps I am reading too much into it and just on edge because it’s my last greatest fear that I know will eventually materialize.  

3 meetings at work, one will be in a half hour and all involve the boss.  Unless something else unforeseen happens that is the worst thing I have to look forward to.  It’s kind of an easy day but I don’t want to say that too loud.  I was able to put the final touches on my laptop last night.  There was some final customization I wanted.  It was set to power on when the lid was open but I would rather press the power button.  I also like to have the keyboard illuminate, I know that takes battery power but it sure helps if your working in dim lighting which can occasionally be the case when I am on the couch with Gator.  I like the smaller form factor for ease of transport but do wish the screen was much larger because my eyes are old. 

Saw the movie Jarhead over the weekend and last night I found there was a Jarhead 2.  It wasn’t quite the same and not nearly as enjoyable but still I can say I watched it.  I am sure I will find another movie to get interested in tonight.  Nothing on TV but Jeopardy at the moment and I can watch those back to back when I want.  UPS should be dropping off more sleeping meds for me today.  That’s about it at the moment.  Playing catch up on some laundry and plan on taking it as easy as possible today. 

My back is in a little bit better shape.  I am still using the Pure Wave and find that it has helped but I honestly think a good nights sleep and some short time away from the keyboard have aided as well.  Upper Back pain has plagued me since I was in my 20’s it used to come and go but now it comes and never wants to leave for a long period of time.  I am trying to change that because obviously you can do more and feel better when your not in pain. 

Hope your having a great week thus far considering were in the middle of the week and it still feels like Tuesday to me.  Friday isn’t so far away!  Stay cool and be well. 

Weekend recap

Saturday

Got COVID shot. Used massager on arm helped a bit with the soreness. Went to get pizza. Saw hot waiter he took care of me initially but it was shift change and I got handed off to someone else. I heard him talking about his weekend plans. He muttered something about tonight, we are going to. I had almost asked him out but in a way kind of glad that I didn’t. We kind of implies to me that there probably is someone else. I mean it could be him and a friend or it could be something beyond that. Patients can pay off sometimes and I think in this case I’ve got to know a little bit and while my heart still says try my brain says he is taken and give up. Turns out my pizza was crap. There was a layer that hadn’t finished baking yet so I got served raw dough. Not the first time that has happened. I said something but they just couldn’t manage to fix the problem. I filed a complaint with the health department so they are going to have to find a way to fix it. I don’t think that will happen again but hey who knows. All I can say is if it does, I won’t be back, hot waiter or not. I don’t want to risk food poisoning. I got ½ off of my order which I think should have been free considering the circumstances. However, I took what I was given. I will make sure to heat it well before I eat it and even then, I am going slow to make sure I don’t get any raw dough.

The fireworks began at dark and they were pretty loud. I was tired and just wanted to get to bed. As per usual it didn’t seem to bother Gator. I think she has some hearing loss otherwise I think she would have been climbing the walls.

Pet food store had only a couple flavors. I had to switch brands totally and what normally costs me $35 wound up costing me $50 and that’s just for one week to keep my hungry girl happy. I’ve tried the new food on her and she seems to like it, which is good.

Sunday

Woke up feel fine but wasn’t expecting to. I’m glad that there was no after effects from my shot, other than my sore arm which isn’t nearly as bad as the previous times. I was told that in 4 months I could come back to get another booster even though technically it hasn’t been released to the general public. Since I have diabetes that is what qualifies me to opt in early. My doc told me that the shots last for 6 months before they wear off as it stands now. I don’t know how eager I will be to get another one since I don’t like needles. Only time will tell. It also depends on what the infection levels are and how rapidly it's spreading.

Hit up the grocery store late. They didn’t have much Gator food either, considering what I spent yesterday I opted to not get any further food. I am confident that I have will get us through the week. I did pick up a sympathy card for my co-worker who just had a death in the family. I read it and though wow this says everything I want to say, all I need to do is sign it and mail it. As I was walking away, I looked that the price and the damn thing was $5.50. That is a lot of money to spend for a card. I bought it but damn I don’t know if the shoe was on the other foot that he would do the same thing. I had mixed feelings about it but just opted to get the damn card and be done with it. I’m still mad as hell at him but I felt it was the right thing to do.

Came home, did some laundry. Need to work on cleaning up the upstairs. I found that there is a showing of Top Gun 2 in IMAX tonight at 10:30p. There was one last night as well and I could have made it but since I felt so tired. Tonight, however I am not going to pass up the chance to do something that I really have wanted to do for a while. On call be damned it been quiet all weekend long and if my phone goes off well then, I will deal with it but I don’t expect that will happen, especially considering the time. It will be after midnight when I am home and I know that will make Gator a little unhappy but she will probably sleep it away. I know I will probably be ready for bed as well when I get home.

I have plans right now to hit up the car wash tomorrow afternoon on my way to my friend’s place, stop by the mailbox first to drop off my card and then head towards the food. Hopefully it will be a good time and worth it. Gas prices are horrendous. I thought about topping off but I can go another 200 plus miles so I opted to just wait. It will be a shock when I do fill up considering that Tuesday I will be heading back to the office.

Monday

I got home a little after 1a from the movie. It was a great time and a very good movie, so much that I want to see it a second time. I am a huge fan of Miles Teller and he was among several good-looking men in the show. There is a scene where they are all playing beach volleyball and most of the guys have their shirts off. That was pretty enjoyable. The whole flying thing is appealing to me, not to drop bombs or shoot at something, just flying its self. I can imagine that it feels great to jump in a plane and go up above the clouds to get away from everyone. That was one of the things I liked when I flew for business, no one could reach me.

I took my sleeping pills when I got home and tended to Gator. She was a little confused and upset with me for being up so late. She got more food out of the deal so I don’t think it was that bad for her.

However, I was wiped out when I woke up and while I had so many plans, I wound up doing bare basics. Got the trash out, ran the vacuum, Gator of course got fed. I had breakfast and a light lunch. I napped and then managed to get a shower and head out to my friend’s house.

The company was nice and enjoyable. Their house smelled like cat pee and that was a little over whelming especially because they had a fan going and it was circulating the smell. It took a bit to get used to. There was plenty of food but as per usual everything was charred and I am not a fan of burnt food. I gulped it down but didn’t really enjoy my meal. They had Strawberry pie for desert and I was really looking forward to that until it was served and it wasn’t like anything I was used to because it was home made and didn’t look that good. It was okay but I have had better. They tried to get me to take food home but if I did, I’d just throw it in the trash because again it wasn’t that enjoyable. I just as soon someone else eat it.

We had to wait on their neighbor to join us before we started and of course that meant we didn’t eat on time, but that is normal. I asked about the neighbor’s wife because she had been pretty ill. Turns out she passed and no one bothered to tell me in advance. I don’t even know if there was a service but damn it would have been nice to know ahead of time instead of finding out after the fact. They did the same thing when my spouse passed away, they never told their neighbors. I showed up to a holiday get together and they asked where my guy was, which I though was in poor taste because surely, they knew in advance and I flew off the handle not knowing they had no idea. I still feel really bad about that to this day. As you can tell my friend is not much of a communicator and that pisses me off to no end. Not much I can do about it though.

We will all probably next be together on Thanksgiving. They do a block party on Labor Day but it’s all outside in the heat with the bugs and you get the same charred food. I showed up for it one year, didn’t know half of the people there and felt very much out of place. I do still get invites to that event but I always decline them.

I got home way too late to do much of anything but pack lunch, feed gator, brush my teeth and take my sleeping pills. Watched a little TV and then fell asleep. Gator woke me up one time I fed her and then she didn’t bother me for the rest of the evening. I emptied out her litter box before I left and was really surprised when I got home that it was full again. We skipped the probiotic yesterday because Sunday she didn’t seem to be feeling the best. I think it might be a bit strong for her so I am going to try it to switch up to every other day this week and see what kind of results I get.

Back at the office this morning, hated to get up so early and to leave poor Gator. However, I told her we will be together for the rest of the week in the hopes that would cheer her up a little bit and give her something to look forward to. I tried pretty hard last night to get her to come join me in my room but she wanted nothing of it. I miss her. I kind of feel that she is starting to self-isolate a little too much for my liking. Cats do that when they are preparing to die. She is still eating, drinking and has her sunny disposition. In fact, she licked my arm last night which is unusual. She may know that her time is winding down or maybe just feeling her age and being a little lazy. Hopefully, tonight we get lots of time together. I have no plans to go downstairs for any reason and plan to be with her all night.

It does feel odd with Monday having been a holiday the week seems a little odd but it will be a fast mover and I am all for that, never can have too much of a weekend or time off.

Hope that you all had a great weekend and were able to relax and enjoy the holiday. Take care and I will talk with you all again soon.

Fire Friday

Today has been nothing short of small fires cropping up everywhere and I feel as if I am using a faucet instead of a fire hose to put them out.  Last minute notifications of people starting on Tuesday.  Yesterday I got last minute notice on a person leaving today.  Then lump in my colleagues issues with his work and people asking me questions about what he did or didn’t do and I have to speak to that since he isn’t around.  I’ve indeed given the boss more content to share when they talk next.  The more I have to deal with his silly bullshit the more unglued and intolerant I become.  Stupidity is one of the quickest ways to raise my blood pressure in a negative way.  I just see red and get mad.  I am hoping that today will calm down a bit and I will get to take a break, like I am now. 

Yesterday the Amazon person finally got to my delivery at 6p.  He sat in his van parked on the street for 15 minutes before he finally walked up to the door.  I also don’t know who did the packaging but they need to learn how to use a tape gun.  This was by no means packaged professionally.  Anyway, I had to charge the massage unit for 1 full hour.  Then I was able to get to work.  I followed instructions and used the air cushion attachment first and the moved on to the others.  There is some get up and go to this thing.  I wouldn’t say it feels amazing but I can see where it can make a difference to break up a knot or help some sore muscles.  I used it off and on for the course of an hour.  I felt the blood moving everywhere I put it – back and arms is what I concentrated on.  I woke up a little sore this morning, but I was expecting that.  I am still very much in an evaluation period but thus far I like what I feel. 

Gator was eager to see me this morning, since she slept by herself and polished off the one can of food that was left out for her.  I heard her in the middle of the night but the white noise helped to filter her out and I was able to get back to sleeping.  Another night of strange dreams and thankfully they are a bit fuzzy to me now.  I woke up feeling okay and started the morning a half hour early.  It was actually an hour but I spent the first half of it in bed relaxing. 

I got to spend some extra time with Gator this morning and she was happy about that but it is never enough time for her.  I wasn’t down stairs for 10 minutes and she started crying for me to come up.  I was dealing with work so my mind was focused on other things.  I eventually was able to take a short break and get her a snack.  Her appetite is pretty healthy today.  It feels much more to me like I am feeding a worm than a cat.  I hope that calms down as the day wears on.  She’s had some water as well.  Not sure how much she drank but she got herself wet. 

Last night I started on Season 2 of The Upshaw's.  It’s a series on Netflix with Wanda Sykes.  It’s mildly entertaining and I needed to fill a content void, which is oddly how I got into the first season of the show.  For me it’s just a way to pass time I can’t say that I totally enjoy it but I also don’t totally hate it. 

Managed to fall asleep pretty quickly.  Heard from my friends and as of now it looks like were getting together but sadly it will be late in the afternoon on Monday and I will have to dine and dash.  I’m sure nothing will be ready on time as it never is but I can still hope.  There is a small chance of a cancellation.  If that happens so be it.  I know I won’t go hungry. 

Got my reminder this morning about my shot tomorrow, I really want to move that out.  I saw an article yesterday that said a lot of people my age or even slightly younger only have 1 shot and not many people are opting in for the 3rd and 4th shots.  I get it’s a personal choice.  For me I’ve been vaxed against so many things as a kid and the same for my brother.  Oddly neither one of us was wild about the second shot.  He didn’t really want the first one but I was all for that.  I do think that as a country we are slowly emerging from the woods on COVID but by no means are we 100% safe and the pandemic is still very much on-going but lots of people have their blinders on and want to play make believe.  As for me I won’t like it but I will take my shot and move on.  It is quite interesting how quickly a vaccine was available for COVID and I think if we had different leadership it would have been available to everyone a bit sooner but hey that’s something we will never truly know for sure. 

Rain is on the way this afternoon and through most of the weekend there is a chance for showers.  No sense in gutter cleaning or house washing this weekend, even though it would be ideal.  I will rest and stay cool on Saturday morning.  Going for the shot in the afternoon and if all goes well Pizza afterwards.  Sunday I have a built in day of rest if I need it.  If I am feeling okay then I will mosey out to the grocery store, if not then it will be a Monday thing.  Monday nothing outside of getting together with my friends is planned.  I will be headed back to the office on Tuesday and really not looking forward to that but am kind of interested in seeing my new laptop. 

That’s all I got for now.  Hope you have a fantastic weekend, get to rest and see some fireworks.  Stay cool and be well. 

A little blue

Turns out one of those silly meetings got cancelled.  I have had a nice break in the afternoon.  Just waiting for the clock to tick the rest of the day away.  I’ve got some additional work to do but it’s not for a while and it’s all time based, meaning that I can’t start until a specific time.  I say that and someone just threw a wrench in my plans meaning I have to work even later now.  Ah, well it all pays the same. 

Last night when I brought up Facebook I saw a post from a former co-worker that indicated heart break.  Her husband passed away.  Not two weeks ago she lost her father.  That’s a lot of death in a very short time.  A lot to deal with.  I truly feel for anyone who loses a spouse.  It’s a special kind of pain and it’s not something anyone understands until they go through it.  Death is the one thing I just don’t totally understand and I have a real tough time dealing with it. 

Since I had a break this afternoon, there was a specific guy who popped in my head and I know I’ve got a photo of him and wanted to see it.  Of course I can’t find it.  I managed to stumble on a lot of old memories.  I found videos of the cats playing with each other when they were younger.  Lots of photos of all of them.  Gator included, the smaller and larger version of her.  I just sat here and was talking to all of them then I just repeated over and over again, my family is all dead.  That’s something I have said more than once.  It crushes me to think about it.  I look back to happier times, different cars, younger cats, younger me and think of how great life used to be and how some how I had it all but never fully realized it until of course it was too late.

The plan was always that I would take over and I would out live my spouse.  We never really gave much thought to the cats.  Thinking about it all and how it’s most likely to be that I will out live everyone that is kind of a tough pill to swallow.  It would be really grand if Gator and I could just fall asleep together and both not wake up one day.  Not that I want that to happen today but whenever our time is up.  That way neither one of us will have to live without the other and neither one of us will know that pain or suffer.  Sure we all have our own ideas about how we would like to go out but it just doesn’t always work out quite like that. 

I could sure use a laugh or two about now.  Also thinking of the holiday and the fact that most likely (not 100% yet) that I will be alone doesn’t bode well.  Holidays now serve as nothing but constant reminders that I am all alone.  My spouse used to hate holidays kind of for the same reason.  He had a different life before we found each other.  He missed that despite the fact he wasn’t happy.  I didn’t get it at the time but I sure do now. 

Fifty years on this planet that is difficult to fathom.  Inside I still feel like a little kid, the kid that I’ve known all my life.  I don’t feel grown up or adult.  My body on the other hand says differently and reminds me often of my age.  I remember when my spouse was this same exact age.  It was like life was perfect.  My how time passes by and one day you wake up and your Sixty and then Seventy.  The older you get the faster the clock seems to go.  However, were all wishing our lives away for the weekend.  It sure would be nice if I could live comfortably the rest of my life, not have to work and just go sailing, traveling – something besides continuing to live the same old dull and depressing life that I feel trapped in.  Yeah I know I’ve got the power to change it all and perhaps I will do something that will make a positive change or maybe I will meet someone who has the same affect. 

Photos, old videos – memories they are a double edge sword.  They can bring back a lot of great feelings but then when you realize your all alone the bottom seems to fall out. 

Okay my rant is done time to do some work, take a short break and hope that the damn Amazon person gets here sooner rather than later.  Looking forward to the massager if it truly is what its hyped up to be.  

Semi-stressful Day Ahead

Looks like were almost to the finish line! One more day after today. I’ve got a few things going at work today so perhaps that will mean it will be a quick moving day. I suppose only time will tell.

Yesterday morning after I made my initial post, work was dead so I just went backup stairs to be with Gator. Got her a snack and watched a YouTube video and managed to fall asleep. My phone kept waking me up with stupid emails from work. It was stuff that I didn’t need to know or frankly just didn’t care about.

Finally woke up after a short bit. By then Gator had left me and moved on to the living room where she was all curled up in her bed and sound asleep. I grabbed a sandwich and a soda for an early lunch. Then went out in the garage. It was actually quite nice. I had a peck in my windshield and went to fix that. I didn’t quite have enough resin but I gave it a go. It didn’t turn out that well. I ordered another glass kit from Amazon and it should be here today. When I have another minute, I will try the repair over again.

Since I was out there, I opted to pop the hood and check on the air filter. It was fine and didn’t need to be replaced. I at least have a spare on hand when it’s needed so long as I keep the same vehicle. Getting the assembly apart was easy but putting it all back together is always a pain and I wind up straining my back each time. I sensed by the way the hood closed that the strut that holds the hood open is going. Over the winter it wouldn’t stay up when it was cold and I went to charge the battery. Now that it’s warmer weather it stays up but who knows how long that will last? The hood doesn’t get opened but for oil changes and if I need to charge up the battery, but since I have been going in once-a-week charging isn’t really something I do anymore.

As luck would have it, I got a couple of emails that I needed to tend to while I was doing all of this work. Quiet all morning and the second I go to try to be personally productive suddenly work needs me. Infuriating but that’s my luck.

When I got back to sitting in front of the computer after lunch, I did some clean up work and found some more mistakes that my colleague had made. I’ve been so patient and tolerant with him. It’s been 3 fucking years and were still no further ahead. He makes the same stupid mistakes over and over again. I had it. I sent him an email and looped in the boss. That will give those two something to talk about. I hated to do it but at the same time I hate cleaning up someone else’s mess constantly and it’s not like he hasn’t had plenty of chances to learn from his mistakes. I’ve been beyond patient and nice with him, time to pull the gloves off. My goal isn’t to get him fired or in trouble, my goal is to get him to stop fucking up and leaving something for me to clean up. I wasn’t hired to be a maid or janitor. My experience has taught me that Millennials aren’t the brightest people. They tend to forget easily. While I want a younger man if it means he’s going to be a dummy then I would just as soon stay single as frustration on a personal level would probably drive me to blow a couple blood vessels. I hope that my action doesn’t cause him to turn on me but for my own sanity I’m going to keep this process up when I continue to uncover his mistakes. It might just motivate him to stop making them. I wasn’t perfect when I was learning this job but at the same time it didn’t take me 3 years. We all have our strengths and weaknesses and this part of the job just doesn’t seem to be well suited for him, yet it’s pretty straightforward and simple. There are lots of moving parts and things change but overall, it’s simple, at least to me. I don’t give myself all of the credit I am due but I can tell you for sure beyond a shadow of a doubt that if I can do it, then for sure he can too.

My evening was pretty calm, I got a little bit of work stuff to do for about an hour and then I was left alone. Watched a couple episodes of Jeopardy then switched over to find something on You Tube. Got a shower and here we are again today to essentially do it all over again.

Really looking forward to the weekend just because it’s one day longer. Not looking forward to getting shot and I’ve thought about putting it off but I can’t benefit from it until I get it so might as well just get the ball rolling. I’m convinced that the 2 shots I got last year is what kept me out of the hospital when I got COVID in January. If I can get that same kind of protection again and for free, why not. I don’t want COVID again but I would like the peace of mind knowing that comes with getting vaxed. Just don’t want any of the side effects like the sore arm or the feeling wiped out the day after. Here’s hoping that things aren’t that severe for me when it comes to being wiped out.

Really looking forward to putting today behind me as the BS meter is on high today. A difficult person to deal with already this morning, two meetings today that won’t really be necessary but I’ve got to be there. It just makes me long for Friday and the weekend.

Hope your having a great day and life is treating you well. I should get back to the fun.

Hump Day–Man Candy

 

 

 

 

 

Hump Day

Good Morning!  I woke up early from a strange dream.  Last night I thought I was smelling another dead mouse and for sure that is the case this morning.  I hope this is the last one.  Smells a little like gasoline but it’s very foul.  Unfortunately, unless I can locate the carcass (which I won’t be trying to) it will take about 2 weeks for the smell to go away.  It bothers my nose/allergies a lot and it is mild to Gator but she does do some sneezing.  The smell is the worst in my bedroom and in my office.  As for the rest of the house you get a mild hint but for the most part its peaceful.  Sadly I spend the day here in my office and at night I am in my room for a good portion of time relaxing and sleeping.  I don’t wish the mouse problem on anyone they are crafty little bastards and difficult to get rid of. 

A colleague of mine that I work close with is taking the rest of the week off due to a death in the family.  He’s got to do some travel.  Not exactly a bad time of year for travel with the Independence Day Holiday near but the price of gas won’t be the best.  This of course means a little bit more work for me.  I’m not thrilled about it but there isn’t exactly much I can do about it either.  I do wish that it was me traveling (not for the same reason) but I could use a vacation and some new scenery for a few days, maybe a dip in an indoor pool – it sounds really nice. 

Today is one of those days where I really don’t want to work at all, I would be happy just being with Gator and lounging.  I am keeping an eye on the work email and jumping in when I need to.  I don’t have a lot scheduled for today but there are a couple of tasks that I need to take care of.  Thankfully no meetings are on the books as of yet and I don’t anticipate anything developing.  Since were at the mid-week point I think a lot of people have or soon will check out and begin to enjoy the extended holiday weekend.  My expectation is that it overall will be quiet but I can’t rule out an emergency here or there. 

I spent the bulk of yesterday configuring my new work laptop.  It wasn’t exactly a fun task.  I did it to help speed along the process as I need to surrender my old laptop and plan to do that next Tuesday when I go in.  Not super excited about the new hardware because there really isn’t a physical dock to snap the machine into, you have to hook up and unhook a bunch of adapters each time you want to go from it being a laptop to more like a desktop.  That apparently is the wave of the future for laptops, not sure what dummy thought that would be a good idea but I personally like a docking station – just a snap and your done. 

I am really looking forward to tomorrow and the arrival of my Pure Wave Massager.  I do hope that this thing is all that is cracked up to be as I am in some pain and it would be nice to make that disappear. 

Bills have all been paid and I am damn near out of money but thankfully pay day will be here tomorrow and I will get a refill on money.  That will only be for a couple weeks then the cycle will begin all over again empty and refill just like a cup of soda. 

Speaking of soda, I have my 3rd COVID shot scheduled for Saturday.  I originally put it late in the day but moved it up because I want pizza.  I figure I will get the shot and then make the hike for pizza.  Hopefully my luck will pay off and I can look at the cute waiter again, that just never gets old.  I do want to ask him out but don’t know if he’s gay and the fear of rejection or the fact that we just might not be compatible (due to the wide age difference) is what is stopping me.  I will have the morning if I want to take care of any tasks and there is plenty of time for cat food shopping.  The question is will there be any cat food on the shelves for purchase?  Last week was the lowest it’s ever been.  I have a thought of going over on Friday afternoon but not sure that will materialize.  The grocery store had food for purchase but just not a lot of what Gator regularly consumes.  Wish she wasn’t so picky then it would be much easier to feed her. 

Saw a movie last night on Starz called Death of a Telemarketer.  It was pretty good and there was a couple of plot twists that I didn’t see coming.  It came out 2 years ago so not that old but not something that was on my radar.  I watched the trailer and that is what caused me to watch the movie.  The trailer is how I determine if I want to see a movie or not.  I kind of wish that I would have played hooky on Monday I could have gone to see Top Gun 2 in IMAX at lunch time.  That was the last showing in my area in the IMAX format. I’m just too honest and dedicated to my job.

Gator seems a little bit better from what little I have seen of her this morning.  Usually we get the most time together in the afternoon and evening hours.  I really wish that she didn’t have kidney disease, I think that is what will be her undoing in the end.  Right now the goal is to keep it under control and hope that it doesn’t advance quickly. 

I don’t have much else to blabber on about.  Kind of in a talkative mood this morning but I don’t want to ramble on too much.  Hope that it’s a great day for you and that you get everything accomplished that you want and need to.  I will of course have some man candy that posts a bit later this afternoon so come back if your reading this in the morning. 

Bye for now.  

More Found Money

I heard back from the State about the found money claim. Turns out that they have even more money for us. There was a second item that didn’t show up in my initial search and it’s worth a whopping seventy-eight cents. This of course caused them to ask for more information. They wanted to know if I wanted to just claim my portion or if I wanted to take it all and then make distribution to my brother. He wouldn’t go after any of this if it was totally up to him. Given that I just told them send me all the money. He told me once that I could keep it all anyway but that was verbal. I sent him an email to let him know and that I had to complete some additional paperwork and send it back, so were back to playing the waiting game again. This will probably take another month or two before the money is actually sent. I told him that I would send him his portion and told him what that worked out to be. If he replies in writing that I can just keep it all well then that is what I will do. I don’t have a lot of trust there mostly because of his wife and fear that if I didn’t have anything in writing that it probably would come back to bite me. Still rather than relying on an email I should probably get him to sign a release but honestly it is such a small amount of money, if it ever was an issue (presuming that he says to keep it) and he changed his mind I could easily cough it up without a problem. It sure was nice of the State to tell me about the additional money, even though it is really not worth writing a check over.

When I was at the grocery store on Sunday, I stopped to look for Sharpie pens. I had seen a commercial that they came out with a better version of them. The initial version was more like a felt tip pen and this is an actual gel pen. As luck would have it they had a 2 pack. I had to search for Blue Ink and it just so happens they had it in medium point. My favorite things. They were priced at $3.98 for the pack. Opening up the package and taking out a pen, I saw a wax ball on the bottom. This damn thing was super stubborn to remove but it finally came off. I started writing with it for testing and it turned out to be okay. It’s no Pilot G2 but it’s not bad. For an OTC quick pick pen Pilot G2’s is my favorite. Although my personal taste is to write with more expensive pens like Waterman, Mont Blanc, Pelican, etc. Pilot & Sharpie both aren’t bad and both are refillable so you don’t constantly have to buy a new pen, but most people throw them away when they run out of ink. Gel pens are all the rage now mostly because they offer such a smooth writing experience. They don’t always complete forms properly if you have to write once to make one or more copies at the same time but then again that is so rare today. Back when I was growing up it was more common and we also had carbon paper younger people don’t know what that is. Just thought if you were into writing instruments that you would appreciate the quick review.

Gator is a little dehydrated and her limp is more noticeable but she isn’t letting it stop her from moving. She just chugs along and there isn’t a whimper or any noise. She takes breaks to rest but she will eventually make it to her destination. The farthest places she has to walk is to the water fountain and to my bedroom. I tried to massage her a little last night but she didn’t want that. She was content just laying between my legs while I sat in the chair. It didn’t last terribly long as she started meowing and I figured that meant it was time for food. She ate some and then jumped back in her bed. I went to my bed and turned the lights off, ready to settle in. She kept making noise and eventually she left. I walked with her to the fountain and while she was drinking, I set her food out for her. I told her I was going to bed and I closed the door. I slept really good despite having some strange dreams. I woke up an hour ahead of schedule and went back to sleep only to wake up 15 minutes before it was time to get out of bed, so I just got up. Gator was grateful for that because she was hungry. I let her eat while I got my own breakfast and she got a drink then retired to the couch. Once I was dressed, I sat next to her and handfed her a little bit more. She is suddenly big on thanking me with a kiss, she makes it look like she is trying to lick food off of my fingers but there is and was no food there. I am more than okay with it. I think she is truly appreciative for all that I’ve done at least that is my take on it.  Right now I am just a little worried about her, more so than normal.  So long as she bounces back after some fluids I will feel better.  I think I am always going to worry about her until she checks out. 

Work was so great yesterday; no meetings and I was pretty well left alone. Today is so not the case. I’ve been bothered multiple times and I’ve got an afternoon of meetings. A colleague of mine called to let me know that he is going out of town for a few days because a relative passed so that means a little more work for me.

Had a BBQ Burger and Mashed Potatoes for dinner last night. Cake and Ice Cream for dessert. I just can’t take going without sweets for so long. I’m being bad this week but will be back on track come next week or so I am telling myself. Not sure what I will consume for dinner tonight. I am looking forward to lunch which will be just a sandwich but I got some Salami and that always spices things up a little bit. I am finishing off some Brown Sugar Ham and the Salami pairs pretty well with it.

It's about snack time so I am going to check on Gator and take a little break while I can as things appear to be calm at the moment. I know that won’t last long. I am sure glad there is a 3-day weekend around the corner.

Happy Tuesday, talk with you all again soon!

Men on Monday

Now I know that this is what a lot of you came here looking for.  I have seen my stats for my site increase a lot when I started posting photos of guys.  A long time ago I had this theme where I would post photos of Men on Monday and even some music.  It didn’t really seem to go over that well at the time but I also didn’t have any complaints.  I may bring this theme back but then again I don’t know that I like the idea of only posting photos once a week.  Let me know your thoughts if you’d like.  

Hey I like looking at guys just as much as any other gay guy or woman does.  There is just something about a good shirtless man.  I personally am a butt guy something about a nice set of buns that just does it for me.  Never really understood why (other than I am gay) that was the case but just like I know a good looking woman when I see one, I am more apt to take notice of a good looking guy and my eyes are always open and on the prowl. 

Here’s today’s dose of guys, enjoy!  Make sure you wipe up the drool when your done.   

 

 

 

 

Pure Wave Massager

I’ve heard some rumblings about this thing called a Pure Wave Massager.  It’s supposed to work wonders and is recommended by lots of different professionals like : massage therapists, athletes, chiropractors, physical therapists and just every day people.  I’ve been thinking about it for a few days and after watching some YouTube videos I see many different uses and how the handle allows you to get a greater reach and it’s cordless.  It’s supposed to help with lots of different pain and it breaks up knots.  I think I am a knot factory or at least my upper back is.  I’ve tried a few things and nothing short of several massages in a series will break them up. 

Well I bit the bullet and bought the sports version it’s supposed to be the most intense and intensity is exactly what I need.  They have this attachment called a pointed stick that looks like what I need to target these knots without having to get on the floor and try to use a foam roller.  It’s $149 with tax and Amazon should be dropping mine off on Thursday sometime.  I could have gotten the base model tomorrow so I don’t quite understand why the sports version takes a few days longer.  However, a few more days in pain isn’t going to kill me I mean I have been suffering for a while now. 

I bought a massage gun a while back but it doesn’t allow me to reach where I need to go.  The corded massager I have allows me to reach where I want to go but it doesn’t really do a whole lot for me in the way of relief.  My tens unit does help some but I don’t always have the ability to target exactly where the pads need to go.  Ice does help some but it’s temporary and the pain comes back in a short while. 

I need (or should I say knead) to break up the knots like the FCC broke up Ma Bell.  Based on what I have seen and read it looks like this tool should do exactly that.  The key of course is regular use.  It’s not going to replace a massage therapist but with COVID still lurking I am not exactly eager to go get a massage.  Here’s hoping this is exactly what I have been looking for and that what I have read and seen isn’t all hype.  If it is I will box this thing up and return it.  I’ve got 30 days so that should be plenty of time to tell me if this is or isn’t going to work for me. 

Fingers crossed.  Below is a photo of what I am speaking of.  They say it’s also good for things like TMJ and Migraines.  I don’t have either of those but I know there are lots of people who do.  There is even an attachment that allows you to place your favorite pain relief cream on it and apply it exactly where you need it, that is kind of nifty.  You never have to get it on your hands.  It really just sounds like a God send.  Fingers crossed!

I am no athlete but I got this model because it’s the most intense, otherwise I would have just tried the base model.  In this case the intensity should hopefully serve to get me out of pain quicker.

Deep Sleep

Good Morning!  To ensure a good nights sleep I doubled up on my sleeping meds last night.  Gator happened to be out of my room at the time I was going to bed so for extra good measure I closed the door and turned the white noise machine up to high.  It wasn’t log after my head hit the pillow that I was out like a light.  I woke up at 6a and was freezing and of course needed to use the restroom.  Reluctantly I got out of bed for a trip to the bathroom.  Gator was waiting for me.  She managed to get up off the couch a little rough and moved her bed so she was relegated to the floor.  Of course she was noisy and wanting food.  After taking care of my self, I went to fix her bed and then opened her breakfast  I got that in front of her and she seemed happy.  I was ready to get that last hour of sleep that I so needed.  This is one of the few times that I rely on an alarm clock and if not then I have no idea when I would have woken up.  However, it went off promptly at 7a and I of course didn’t want to get out of bed.  I really wish that I slept this well every night or even some what close to it.  I think that I would have a lot less complaints with my body and the world as a whole. 

This time Gator was all nestled asleep in her bed.  I of course had to use the restroom again.  It’s times like this that I wonder where does all of that fluid come from considering that I didn’t drink anything when I was up an hour ago.  You’d think that my bladder would be empty. 

I made my way to the kitchen and everything was all quiet until shortly after I turned on the TV to listen to the news.  That is when the monster woke up from her sleep.  She started crying but I managed to get her to stop.  I was able to finish my so called breakfast (a couple bowls of cereal & a banana) and then shuffle off to the bathroom.  Take my meds and then get dressed.  When I was done with that I went back to hand feed Gator her left overs from breakfast.  It just so happened to be duck and she was crazy about it.  She gobbled up a good portion of what was left.  Then I grabbed my water bottle and phone and shuffled off to the basement. 

Logged on to the work computer and got logged into all of the systems I am going to need.  Went through my morning tasks what I remembered to do.  Then just realized what I forgot and went through that quickly.  I am so ready to climb back into bed.  That’s the problem with a double dose it makes me just want to sleep for hours and hours and hours.  I wake up with what I am told is the hang over affect and it’s difficult to get moving. 

My hope is that breakfast will kick in soon and wake me up.  If not I may just fall back asleep.  According to my work calendar I am essentially done for the day except for lunch that is until some problem crops up and I need to deal with it.  If it’s all quiet all day long (that’s too good to be true on a Monday) then I really will be done.  I need to stay awake or at least alert so if anything fires off I can deal with it.  Otherwise I would be back asleep.  It’s no comfort to me now but next Monday at this hour I will be sleeping and not have to worry about work. 

I have scheduled my 3rd COVID booster for Saturday.  I plan to do that and then go for pizza so long as my blood sugar allows.  It’s an afternoon appointment.  I chose Saturday because I will probably be out of commission on Sunday if this has the same affect the other shots had and that way I can hit up the grocery store on Monday or so I hope.  I may just try to incorporate shopping into my Saturday routine to be safe. 

That is really all I have at the moment.  Hoping for a quiet week that is BS free but I know that is asking for a lot since my boss is still around.  Maybe with any luck we will hear about pay raises but I don’t anticipate that to happen until mid to late July. 

Wishing you all the best for the week ahead.  May it be fast moving and the weekend be extra slow.  Take care, stay hydrated and cool.