Riding on tomorrow

Ruth’s appetite has gone south and I don’t know if it’s coming back.  She is still interested in food and up until this morning I could at least get her to nibble on some baby food.  Now she won’t even do that.  She just wants attention.  She seems way too perky to be dying.  I think what ever is in her mouth is in the way enough that it’s either uncomfortable or she lacks confidence that she can eat.  I certainly hope that whatever it is hasn’t grown because that wouldn’t be good. 

I made an appointment to see the vet that I want to see bright and early in the morning.  I figure that if I get bad news and she passes I will at least have the rest of the day to cope and come to terms with it.  If however, she can be fixed then I will happily go to work for the afternoon.  It sounds silly but I am short on PTO and honestly I would rather be at work than home. 

I find that my mind has turned to mush.  I paid the wrong credit card at the bank, thankfully I just called them and they transferred the payment from one account to the other.  I caught that this morning when I got a payment confirmation.  I wonder what other mistakes I have made?  Thus far I haven’t come across any and hopefully I won’t.  Stress and lack of concentration on what I am doing is why things like this happen. 

I really wish I had someone to hug.  Still my so called friends have yet to call and check on how my girl is doing or for that matter how I am doing.  I am not happy about that.  When their animals were sick I called them. 

Fingers crossed for good news tomorrow.  Based on how she is acting tonight I am not ready to give up but hey if it’s time then so be it.  I know I need this to end for both her sake and my sake.  I can’t keep riding the rollercoaster I am getting too nauseated and I want off.  I want my cat back to normal but we don’t always get what we want in life.