3 months to live

Think about it, if you were told you have 3 months at best to live, after the shock wore off, what would you do?  Thankfully I am not in this position.

I got a phone call on Monday at work from my old boss who is out on medical leave.  Turns out she has 3 months to live and she is not coming back to work.  Hey I don’t blame her on not coming back to work.  The whole 3 months thing sucks.  She has Liver Cancer.  I can navigate my way through difficult conversations and that I did but unfortunately after we hung up and I did some research I said all of the wrong things to her.  She will leave behind a huge void at work, she was the glue that held everything together.  You had a problem, you went to her to fix it.  You need a favor, you went to her and she would help if she could. 

This news has t-totally ruined my week.  She said her goodbyes to me and it was nice to hear most of what she said, even though I really didn’t like the circumstances it was under. 

I sat down and wrote her a letter, edited the hell out of it and then scrapped the whole idea.  What exactly do you say to someone that may only have 3 months to live?  It’s a difficult subject to talk around.  It’s as if there is a huge spotlight on every word you utter.  I am going to look to Hallmark to help me and I will be sending a card to her. 

She has a family with a few kids, one of which is gay.  I’ve chatted with him before and thinking of giving him a call but again I don’t exactly know what to say.  I’ve been down the road before of having a terminally ill family member, it’s no fun. 

Outside of getting back my guy and Big Boy, if I had the power to solve only one problem right now I’d use it to heal her.  Think about that I could make myself a millionaire, bring back those that I care about from the dead, I mean it’s infinite power I am speaking of and to think that I would use that power on her, that should say a lot and I think it does.  She doesn’t deserve this, but I know we all check out of here sooner or later. 

What I don’t understand is why those that I care about are all suddenly dying.  Kind of makes me want to stop liking people but I know that is impractical.

Okay that’s out of my system now.  I’m headed up to wrangle the litter boxes and trash.  Then to sit down and watch TV.  I’m really hoping the lawn guy shows up tomorrow because it looks like my grass hasn’t been cut in a month and it’s only been 3 weeks.  We have had a lot of rain.  I want to avoid any complaints and/or fines, plus it just looks really bad.  Thankfully we have a contract that is enforceable but I honestly think this was a simple mistake, but I am giving him the benefit of the doubt. 

I hope all is well in your world.  2 more days until the weekend and then I get to see the Dentist and maybe trim Ruth’s claws.  Cheers!