The Weekend

Not much to report from here.  I slept away Saturday.  I had a friend try to get me to go out but I refused.  I just wanted to be left alone in my little cocoon. 

Today I got up around 9 and fed the animals.  Ate some breakfast and watched a little TV.  Reruns of Roseanne.  That sure was a great show.  I love their quick wit and comebacks.  Of course that might be part of the reason I am such a smart ass today.  Then it was back to bed.  I thought I was going to sleep with BLU because he was curled up in my bed.  However, I laid down and it wasn’t much longer he took off.  He waited until I was asleep and then came back.  I woke up and was surrounded by cats wanting lunch.  I tried to fake staying asleep in the hopes I would fall back asleep but that didn’t work out so well for me.  It was 1:30 so I got up and fed them.  Had a piece of left over pizza and a soda for lunch.

Not much on the agenda today.  I feel lazy and I see no reason to get all excited about things.  I would like to get a few things done but hey I’ve got all week.  Tomorrow will spring me into action because I have to get ready for therapy.  I am also thinking of going out to shop for a new shirt for interviewing.  I hope that the phone rings tomorrow and brings more interviews my way.  Right now the race is on, if I don’t have a job by the end of July then I won’t be able to make the mortgage payment for August.  I have the money for it, but since I don’t know how long this unemployment will go on I have to hold on to what little bit of money I have.  Hopefully, everything comes together and I will be back to work soon.

Being rejected a few times leads me to examine myself and wonder what is that I am doing wrong that seems to be scaring everyone off.  I’ve taken a pretty hard look at myself and replayed the interviews in my head.  I can think of a couple answers I would change but I honestly can’t find anything that would cause someone to say I really don’t want to hire him.  The last time I was unemployed it lasted for 2 years.  I thought it was a bad reference that kept me from getting jobs.  I know for a fact that it was a factor in at least 3 jobs that I had interviewed for.  However, I’m wondering if maybe some of that delay wasn’t because of something that I am doing wrong. 

I’ve read books on interviewing, but honestly I’ve done it so much I pretty well know how the game is played.  I am not overly bubbly and I don’t give answers like I am a princess.  I just sit down and talk to the people, keeping an up beat tone and trying to remember to smile a lot.  Smiling goes very far and it’s something that I don’t do enough of.  I am conscious of that, even before all of this bad luck happened to me I was that way.  I mean now that you know my full situation with everything that has transpired your probably saying to yourself if that happened to me I wouldn’t be smiling either.  When I am in an interview I don’t think of anything else but the interview, what questions to ask and constantly being aware of my surroundings and how things are going.  I send thank you letters and do all of the necessary steps, but still in the end I get rejected.  I ask for feedback but it’s seldom provided, mostly because company’s think you will sue them.  If I had enough money to sue everyone that turned me down for a job then I don’t think I would need a job.  The rejection was easily wiped away when I had a job but now that I am desperate and have no job, I kind of take it a little more personal.

I am not sure of what steps to take other than what I am doing, in order to land a job.  The in person interview I have this week requires multiple approvals before one is awarded the job.  I can only hope and pray I am their guy, the pay is right and that we can move the process along as quickly as possible.  It really sucks being in this fight all alone with no partner.  He would try to cheer me up, take me out for the occasional meal and/or sweet treat.  Perhaps we would just go for a drive.  He was concerned about my feelings and trying to keep me on the positive side of things, despite the fact that negativity has been bread into me.  Times like this make that negativity all the more worse. 

The good news is that the bills for the first part of the month of July are paid.  I have a savings account that has $100 held hostage.  Meaning that if the balance falls below that amount a service charge is automatic.  I am so highly allergic to service fees and those fees seem to be making a come back.  I want to close the account but I have had it for such a long time that I am having some reservations. 

Shy Girl has some knots in her fur.  She is slowly letting me work them out with a brush.  She doesn’t like brushing all that much.  Once I get the knots worked out it will be time to trim her claws again.  That is something neither her or I look forward to.  She has warmed up to me a bit since my partners death, because she knows I am the source of the food.  However, she is a picky little girl and thinks that she should have her own special food.  I only give that to her on occasion because it’s expensive and I don’t want to form a habit.  Big Boy is starting to become picky as well.  He turns his nose up frequently at what I serve him.  He will wedge his way in to the buffet pushing aside whomever to try a different can of food.  He doesn’t seem to mind all of the growling, hissing and fighting that goes on when that happens.  I on the other hand hate to hear hissing, it’s just a sign that trouble is on the way.  The females are the primary source for hissing (imagine that).  The males usually remain quiet and look at them like they are crazy bitches.  BLU will push his boundaries until a fight starts, he thinks he is a super cat or something. 

Well I have filed my unemployment claim for the week.  Off to see what other chores I can accomplish before it’s once again time for bed.  Take care and I will talk with you peeps later.