Week of Plans

My week has quickly filled up with plans. I’ve got something going everyday this week. 

Today’s task was to catch up on laundry.  Clean out the freezer, deep freezer and cabinets.  Wow what a task!  I threw away so much food, it made me feel really bad.  There is was easily enough for a month if not two months of suppers for me.  However, it was all freezer burnt and way beyond expiration.  I am happy to report that I did uncover a bunch of goodies from Omaha Steak and they vacuum pack their food so it’s all still good!

The canned goods wow I didn’t know I had so many expired things.  From packet gravy to pudding.  There was a lot that went by the way side.  The only upside is I found an unopened bottle of Burbon.  I’ve got that plus rum, wine and something else.  With the exception of the Rum, I think the rest will be collectors items. 

I remember purchasing a lot of the food together, so memories came with the cleaning and it was pretty intense. 

Yesterday I went to get the oil changed in his truck and the bill was $42 for a simple oil change.  Glad I brought the coupon in the mail because it saved me $23.  I got to look at a hottie work.  When I first pulled up they said uh you were here less than 1,000 miles ago. I said yes but that was last summer.  Oh, geez I have to tell them how to do their job.  Holy cow.

Saturday I went to an auction to get rid of some of his stuff.  It was unfortunately sold for pennies on the dollar.  Without saying too much this was specialty equipment that he paid a premium price for.  I should have walked away with a lot more money than the $170 that I did.  However, it was $170 that I didn’t have before.  It’s pretty much all gone.  Eating out, oil change, eating out, Target.  Money just doesn’t stretch as far as it should. 

There you have it my weekend plus Monday.  I was bothered by work this morning, this afternoon and this evening.  Paranoid that I can’t be reachable by cell phone, what a bunch of hooey.  This is the first place that I worked that when your on vacation, your still working.  I can’t wait to get the fuck away from these crazy people – I might just take a week off in between jobs for the hell of it so that I can truly relax.  However, that could be costly. 

Still looking for that new job.  Firmed up plans for Friday with friends.  Going to take my car in to the dealer in the morning, then going to take me into the doctor in the afternoon.  Then after that I am free!  Thinking about stopping for some Potato soup after the Dr.  Depends upon how I feel. 

I’ve got ravioli that I believe I am fixing tomorrow night for supper.  Tonight I had some rising crust pizza, pretty good.  There are actually a couple of large slices left over.  Breakfast. 

I do think that this week will fly by – I am trying to prevent that from happening but I know that I can’t stop time.  I just have to get busy and not take so many naps.  Well I need to put away laundry and try to get ready for bed.  Car appointment is early in the morning and lord knows I need my beauty sleep!

Talk with you peeps later.

Nervous

Yesterday everything was going great and then boss man rang.  He is paranoid that something is going to go wrong while I am out of the office.  He wanted to know who to use as a backup.  I told him that I will have my cell phone and be reachable.  That didn’t appease him, so I had to provide a list of contacts.  Now that causes some concern on my part.  I have taken vacation in the past and he hasn’t asked that question.  So I am thinking that I might be replaced.  Maybe not while I am on vacation but when I come back or perhaps down the road a bit.  His actions make me paranoid.

I had some plans for my time off and now I am questioning if I should go through with them.  I mean once the money is spent I can’t unspend it.  It’s like unrinning a bell, it simply can not be done.  I tried to talk to my bosses son who is the majority owner of the company.  He pushed me away and said we can talk next week, he is too busy now.  I told him I won’t he here and he said well when you get back.  That was the approach he took last time.  He is the one who told me not to run from my problems.  Wow, now he is running from his.  I mean he won’t approach me he will talk with a 3rd party in the office and they will approach me – at least that is how it worked last time.  I am just tired of living in fear.  I can’t make any long term commitments, enter into contracts or even buy a new car – all because of fear.  However, sooner or later I will be forced to do something with the house and then I will be accountable – I just hope that I have a stable and steady job by then. 

If I am still here at the same place that won’t be a bad thing, so long as I get the assurance I need.  I would rather they offer me a contract but I don’t see that happening.  At least if I had something written I could rely on it.

So today is the last working day for me before vacation.  I am eager to go but also on edge because of his actions.  I look forward to getting home and just collapsing.  Catching up on TV as the cats position themselves to see who can get the most attention and best seat in the house.  That by the way is usually my lap.  If you land there chances are your going to be happy. 

Jumper was mad at me last night so he decided to boycott sleeping with me.  Of course this morning he is all over me.  I am not offended, I understand we all need a break. 

I had a crazy dream last night.  I met someone. He was a taxi cab driver who owned an airplane and we were working our way back to my office.  Never made it.  However, we did some talking along the way and of course had to stop for food.  Eventually we got seperated and then I found myself asking for a ride and was picked up by this guy who just stole a car.  Now all of a sudden I became a criminal because I got in.  He was very rude and well then I woke up.  Very strange. 

I would certainly like to meet someone but have suspended my search because of a couple reasons, one of which is my job. No one wants someone who isn’t employed or gets fired.  Two I haven’t been sucessful in even being able to get a first date.  Oh the day that happens I will be a huge mess.  Talk about nervous.  I can almost feel the butterflies.  However, it will be good to break the ice.  Sort of like the first interview for a job, if you don’t get it at least you broke the ice. 

Got a text this morning from a friend who told me at my old job they are getting rid of management and by May they expect to have all new management in place.  The company that bought them is gutting the place and putting in their people.  It started at the bottom and is now working it’s way up to the top.  Some people have stuck around or simply been overlooked but it’s truly a whole new place now and I am very happy I am not there.  Although it is better than being here. 

My prayer is that I get to do what I want, and this all works out sooner rather than later.  Well here is hoping, wishing and praying for the best.  Talk with you peeps later.life

T minus 1 day

All of my appointments are made – car, vet and dr.  I can already tell you that this will be an expensive week away from work.  It’s a week that I’ve earned and hope to accomplish a lot but we shall see how it goes.

Yesterday on the way home listening to Dirty Pop with Lance Bass I learned that Jason Dottley is the latest celeb to have sext and gotten the photo leaked to the media.  He was smart in that he confirmed it was him right away.  I was curious so I went looking last night and I found the photo.  Not bad!

Supper last night was Beef Enchilada's, which was a meal for 2 and I ate it all by myself.  I put some extra cheese on it and some sour cream – yeah it was okay. 

Had a calm restful but boring evening.  I am ready already to scream, I am tired of the routine – eat, work, sleep.  Plus there wasn’t anything on TV last night so that didn’t help matters.  My Roku box and Hulu were not getting along.  I did catch the premier of Hot In Cleveland last night.  It was a live performance and not bad.  It is a shame that live TV doesn’t happen much any more, unless you watch the local news.  I like the mistakes, the humor – there is just something about all of that, which makes it enjoyable for me.  Now if I was on the other side of the camera I would be petrified that I would make a mistake, but I suppose once you have acted long enough, like anything else you get used to it.

On the work front, no more phone calls yet.  Boss man isn’t here, he didn’t come in at all.  Makes me think he took off and left early.  Which is fine by me.  I had to send him an e-mail to alert him to something and he took his time with the response, but I got the response I expected.  I was helping one of the girls and saw a note that the boss will take calls from xyz company.  That is the same firm that I replaced when I was brought on board.  They still do some work for us, but I thought that it was rather odd to see the note.  No one has ever posted anything like that before.  That vendor is slow to give me a quote and really in general slow to deal with me in general.  I just smell something in the water.  Perhaps I am paranoid but the day I stop being paranoid is probably the day I am replaced. 

My co-worker did lose her dog yesterday.  I went to a local convenience store this morning and picked up a sympathy card for her.  I wrote some junk on the inside of it and I was kind of at a loss for words.  I started to put down you will soon be reunited, but had to get the white out and cross out soon.  I mean it’s not like I am trying to predict her death.  Now I know when I give it to her she will probably ball up, so I am thinking that I will hit her with it on her way out the door tonight.  I thought about sneaking in and putting it on her desk while she was away but I am afraid of the water works.  My goal is to show sympathy and not cause her more problems.  I just hope that I can accomplish that. 

I did some searching this morning for a poem or something clever to put in the card and it just about sent me over the edge.  So I had to stop.  Plus I thought it would be too artificial and it was better to speak from the heart.  I just hope I made the right call. 

Big decision tonight, what to eat.  I haven’t a clue but I know I will resolve that when I get home.  Today might be a leave early day.  We are in short sleeve weather.  The best thing about warmer weather is eventually some guys won’t be wearing shirts at all.  Now there is something to look forward to seeing.  The worst part is that I will have to start paying lawn boy again.  Plus the bushes need to be trimmed and he always wants $100 to do that job.  I’ve tried to negotiate with him before but he is firm.  He does an okay job but is a little too conservative.  I would be a bit more aggressive, so that I as the homeowner didn’t have to call him back in a few months to do it all over again.  They usually get it about 1 time a year.  Last year was no time. 

Well lunch had ended back to my work computer screen. Talk to you peeps later.

Middle O Week

Survived 2 days and 2 more to go after today.  Then it’s vacation city for me.  Going to be making appointments for my car and Big Boy this afternoon.  One of the ladies at work is having her dog put down and she is a complete mess.  She is bitchy and just speaking her mind.  I told her I understood and she said it’s not quite the same as losing a spouse.  I said yeah I know I have had to go through the same thing you are now.  I do feel bad for her.  Especially because I could easily be walking in her shoes with Big Boy. 

He is waking me up in the middle of the night with coughing or making odd noises.  I check on him and he jus turns on the purr motor.  I think he is suffering a little bit more than he is letting on.  Cats are the masters of deception.  The clinical findings of the vet won’t lie and I know I will get the brutal truth regardless if I want it or not.  Losing him is not what I want to do right now, it’s bad timing not that there is a good time.  I know that it’s coming and there is no way to prepare for it. 

So in other news, I am waiting for my phone to ring and hoping that we can line up an interview while I am out next week.  Outside of the plans I have mentioned, I want to go on a couple road trips for food, do some house cleaning and try to relax.  As well as have dinner with friends.  While I am looking forward to Friday now, come next week I won’t be looking forward to it.  That is the part that sucks coming back after a long stretch of being away.  However, coming back knowing that you will be leaving for good at your doing, well that might just be another feeling entirely.  I just want out so bad that I can taste freedom.  A fresh start is all I am asking for with better circumstances.

Well the clock is ticking so I guess I should wrap this up and get back to fun, I mean work.  It’s a little warmer here today but tomorrow is back to short sleeve weather.  Now that is my kind of weather.  Were going to get rain but that is okay.  So long as we are progressing towards a warm up I am fine.  Looks like the weather will be nice next week.  Take care and I will talk with you peeps later.

Catholic Guilt

If I haven’t mentioned it I was raised Roman Catholic.  I left the church a long time ago. 

So I got a phone call this afternoon, it was a guy talking like a million miles a minute.  He wanted me for an interview but told me the hourly rate and then asked if it would be a problem.  I said no and we moved on from there.  I didn’t have a chance to compute anything and after the fact I ran the numbers and it’s only $800 extra and that is assuming I came in at the top rate.  I would have to stay there for a year.  The place is further than where I work now, so transportation cost would increase.  It’s a decent opportunity but they just don’t want to pay.  We setup an interview for tomorrow evening.  I spent a good part of the day thinking about this and declined the interview moments ago.  I feel guilty for doing so but I just don’t think it would work. 

It feels like I just spit in God’s face for giving me what I asked for.  Hence the guilt.  I don’t mean any disrespect but I need way more money than $800 a year. 

The good news is that I did complete a phone interview that was scheduled with another firm this afternoon.  I should be hearing from them either later this week or early next week if they want to see me in person.  This is a job that I really want.  It will keep me busy and there will be local travel involved but I think the working conditions will be a lot more favorable.  My hope is that we can schedule an interview while I am on vacation next week, so no one will be the wiser.  Otherwise it will have to be one of those after work things. 

I am glad the phone is starting to ring.  At least that way I know it’s still working.  Normally I don’t get many calls.

Also good news, I think that my job is safe at least for the moment.  I don’t know that for sure and well there will always be a next time, so I am not stopping my job search.  It is more than apparent to me that I need to move on before I get thrown out on my ass. 

The commute was easy breezy this morning.  However, some people forgot how to drive and there were some major accidents.  All we got was a small dusting of snow and it was gone by noon. 

I am counting the days until vacation.  Looking forward to hopefully sleeping in and doing things that I want to do.  If it all works out I will be physically and emotionally drained, but will have some sense of accomplishment. 

I’m working wonders on my intranet project at work.  It’s very messy and time consuming but I am getting there.  It’s something that in the end I will be very proud of.  I’ve learned so much along the way.  It’s scary but if you just take it a piece at a time you will do fine.  It’s like eating an elephant.  You do it in small bites, so I am told. 

Going to spend time with the fuzzy family.  Talk with you peeps later.

Money

So how exactly is a deceased person supposed to cash/deposit a check?  Easy they can’t.  I got my late partners refund from the state tonight and the check is made out to him.  What was the whole hub bub about me telling them that he is dead.  It’s like they didn’t bother to read that.  Ah well his our checking account is still open and I have his rubber stamp, so in the bank it goes. 

The Federal Refund is on it’s way as of tomorrow and I am interested to see how they made their check out.

It is official that I will be on vacation next week.  It got approved today, just as I thought it would.  That will leave me with 4 days to take between now and May the 9th, presuming I last that long.  I won’t have any problem picking days at random to take off.  It would be nice if everyone and everything would truly leave me alone while I am on vacation. 

On the way home tonight it was snowing.  The commute tomorrow is supposed to be a little rough.  It feels like Winter is still here.  That’s okay when I am working but when I am off, I’d like Spring to return if only for a week.  :)

Going to scour for jobs to apply for and then try to talk with a friend.  I will spend the remainder of the evening with the furry family and prepare for Tuesday.  Argh!

Hope all is well in your world.  Talk with you peeps later.

Sunday

Another lazy day of lounging.  I ventured out to the store, had thoughts of making Spaghetti and talked myself out of it once I arrived at the store.  Instead I bought frozen TV Dinner Spaghetti and got steam burns when I went to open it to indulge.  That never would have happened if I just did what I originally wanted.  I also thought about Sloppy Joes but passed.

I did venture over to the meat counter something that I haven’t done for quite sometime and well walked away empty handed.  I was looking for pre-formed hamburger patties.

I skated out of the store for $66 and really didn’t get a whole lot.  No booty show of guys today either.  Kind of a bust for a trip but at least there is food to survive yet another week. 

I have been so worried about Shy Girl.  She stopped eating for almost 3 days.  It is the wrong brand of dry food that I bought by mistake.  It’s causing all sorts of problems.  So even though it was $13 for a bag I threw it out.  Changed over to the regular dry food last night.  I got her to eat a little yesterday and today she is pretty well back to normal.  I explained it to her last night that if she doesn’t eat it could easily mean ‘the end’.  I don’t know if it was that talk, my prayers or what exactly but I am thankful she is eating again. 

Big Boy is scaring me with his coughing and being out of breath, but he sought me out to get some attention yesterday.  He chats me up a little too.  See there is just so much life left in him that it’s hard to say it’s time.  I listened to him last night when he was panting away and everything sounded normal.  I know that it’s not a good sign to see a cat panting but he only does it after using the rest room or if he is under stress to escape the vacuum cleaner.

They ought to call them worries with 4 paws.  I am concerned about each and every one of them – but Big Boy is my primary worry.  The others cause concern.  I am wishing that I could do something for Momma and her itchy skin.  Think of having poison ivy and wanting to scratch but that only makes it worse.  Well that is the best way I can describe her skin.  She is pulling her fur out and her skin feels dry to me.

So here we go ready to head into yet another week of my life.  Asking for vacation and seeing how things go this week.  Looking forward to watching Shameless tonight but that only means it will be closer to bed time.  That I am not looking forward to.  I hope it’s a great week for you and for me!

I watched a couple of movies.  The first one was dumb about some kid who could easily be a professor but decides to enter in a Trivia contest.  It was boring. 

The second one was about the woman who wasn’t.  The lady who pretended to have lost a loved one in the 9 11 tragedy.  I was astounded.  Turns out she was actually from Barcelona Spain.  I just don’t understand why you would want to pretend.  She didn’t make any money but she did get people to trust her and like her based upon her story.  She bonded with people and then once the truth came out they all felt cheated.  That was the most interesting movie I have seen all weekend. 

I finished up The Chicago Code and was amazed at how it ended.  Too bad they only got one season because that would have been a great show.  It makes me want to pack up and move to Chicago.  I love that city a lot.  Only been there a couple times but it holds fond memories.  It is such a melting pot of diversity.  They have boys town, which I haven’t been to.  There is literally a place for everyone there.  You do have to be careful and watch your back.  There are places that you could go in but not come out alive.  It’s rough in certain areas but in others its perfectly calm.  The suburbs are also very nice.  I don’t want to move right now but maybe someday.

Well off to figure out what frozen delight will become supper tonight.  Sounds like quite the thrill.  Talk with you peeps later. 

Sleepy Saturday

Sleeping helps dull the pain.  Some people drink, do drugs, fight – me I’m a sleeper.  Got in some good sleep today and it has helped.  It’s a great way for me to relax.  However, sleeping in my late partners bedroom that congers up memories – some good, some bad.  Mostly makes me wish I would have done more for him, even though I put him 1st in my life I still don’t feel like I did enough.  I also wish that the warning signs that I saw would have been a little bit more obvious to me, so that I could have potentially saved him. 

We are only a couple weeks away from marking the first year.  Holy cow I can’t believe it’s almost here.  Seems like yesterday he was gone.  I’ve been thinking pretty much all month long how he was here last year at this time.  I really wish he was here this year and I had advanced knowledge certainly I would have done things differently. 

Okay so moving on.  I got a mailer from the local car dealer.  I went down today to see if I won a car or cash and as I figured I did not.  However, I did get $20 in gift cards for Target.  Not too shabby for taking about 10 minutes of my time.  They tried to sell me a new car but I told them I wasn’t ready. 

Yesterday I got my cable bill in the mail.  The promotion I signed up for a year ago is expiring and they want to raise my bill by $30.  I think not.  I called and they tried to sell me phone service.  I said I am not interested in ways to increase my bill but ways to lower it.  They don’t have any promotions going on now that would help me, so next month I get to call back and see what they can do for me.  If the people on the phone can’t help then there is a local office to visit.  TV is a BIG part of my life but why pay more when I can pay less.  I mean they should just give everyone the rock bottom price instead of making us go through this BS of seeing what the special is.  I told them I have limited funds.  They have me hook line and sinker for internet – I mean I have to have that.  However in the TV area I don’t necessarily need HBO, SHOWTIME & CINEMAX plus Digital Tier 2.  Which right now would save me $20 per month.  So that is taking it down to basic cable but then I am into them for $12 for converter boxes.  No box = no TV even for basic.  They went all digital but they are supposed to give you a box for the 1st year.  See each person you talk to will give you a different answer.  Sort of like me dealing with the mortgage company.  SUCKS!

On the work front nothing new.  I confirmed my hours of vacation time and they match my records.  I am asking for the first full week of April come Monday.  Regardless of what I do or don’t do, I can’t control what my boss does or doesn’t do, with regards to letting me go or letting me stay.  All I can do is hope and pray for the best, while continuing to look and hope that I get out of harms way before harm has a chance to strike.

I checked in with the IRS and my partners refund is due to be mailed next week.  Meanwhile my refund well they haven’t gotten around to that yet.  They were both mailed on the same day, to the same address.  Makes no sense to me.  I checked with the state and they are still processing his return. 

I got my 2 of my 3 free credit reports and I don’t see any fraud.  The 3rd one will arrive in the mail, I go through this every year where I have to mail them a copy of my ID to prove I am who I say I am.  Then they mail the report to me.  It will be here in a few weeks. 

I broke down and treated myself to some items I wanted from surfing on-line.  The big item that I really want is at Sam’s club but until I have some idea how things are going for me in the job market or until that refund arrives I don’t think I will be making any large purchases.  I also went to McDonald’s this morning for breakfast, it was an emergency because I was out and needed food but was thinking that I could make it to a local restaurant.  It soon became apparent to me that I couldn’t so I ducked in to the drive thru.  It was good!  2 Sausage Egg McMuffins 1 Cinnamon Melt and a Large Diet Coke to wash it all down.  $10 which really wasn’t worth it but considering it was an emergency why not.

This evening I made it to Bob Evans.  I got my Chocolate Bread Pudding and $3 off of my meal.  It wasn’t the Chocolate Bread Pudding that I was used to getting but it wasn’t bad.  It was a very small portion but then again it was a very small price too. 

I think that is all of the eating out that I am going to do this weekend.  I say that now but tomorrow will be calling soon enough. 

I also had a really strange dream last night.  I was having sex with one of the guys from the Pet Food Store.  I know for a fact he is gay but I can’t imagine him giving me the time of day.  It was really messed up.  I was telling my partner all about it and he was happy for me.  He of course was still alive.  It was just a wild dream.  Maybe my body is telling me that I need to ‘get laid’ or work on finding someone.  I don’t know but sex dreams while they sound hot are something that I would rather not dream about.  It just another way I get to see something that I want and at the moment can’t have. 

Well the children are starting to chirp so I guess I should go feed the little beggars and get the dishes started.  Then find out what is new on Netflix this week.  See I told you TV was a big part of my life. 

Talk with you peeps later.

Spring

If you haven’t been to Google today then you should browse on over, really cute art work. 

The pastor who said “God Hates Fags” aka Fred Phelps is dead at age 84.  While I personally don’t care for him, I hope that his soul is at peace so he won’t haunt anyone.  That his family will just quietly go off into the sunset.  That last one is probably not going to happen. 

I am busy working on our Intranet moving files around and changing things.  I just hate it when someone tells you do it this way and you do, then they say oh no you should have done this and this.  That is what happened to me.  I am NOT at all happy because it’s taken a lot of my time and it’s going to take a lot more but hopefully this will be the last time and we can get it done right. 

Big Boy woke me up last night, he was choking.  Then of course I couldn’t go back to sleep.  He wanted out of my room.  Breakfast time came around and he ate but then came over by me at the table.  He acted like he wanted a drink of water.  I think he is scared.  However, he was waiting patiently for more food and I just picked up a plate that TAZ abandoned and gave it to him.  I worry so much about him.  Every little noise, cough, whimper just sets me on edge.  I am eager to see what the vet says but at the same time really don’t want to take him over. 

Still busy looking and applying for anything that strikes my fancy.  There are some jobs out there but not too many.  The worst part is if you apply from like a Monster or a Career Builder they take it upon themselves to start emailing you about ever little job that is posted.  I don’t want to be a telemarketer, I don’t want to join the Army and I am not a programmer.  Any job that uses the keywords similar to the job that you applied for they e-mail.  I could post my resume on those sites as well but that only gets you spammed to death.  Plus if my employer was looking they would see my resume and I am sure have some questions or perhaps be more inclined to replace me.  I’m not looking to make waves but I do have to look out for myself and when something comes along that is too good to pass up, I will take it and run.  Same thing is true if I hit the big jackpot on the lottery.

Well my stomach is grumbling and work is calling so I guess it’s time to call this post done and get back to it.  I hope the weather is nice in your area.  Not too bad here sunny and 53.  Rain tomorrow.

Oh I had the strangest dream last night.  I got a Black American Express (black cards are reserved for excellent credit customers, not sure if AMEX does a black card but Mastercard and Visa do).  Anyway I got an old job back, was training some new people.  I was at a mall and bought a Mont Blanc Pen.  It was pretty awesome.  Then I went to another store and bought you guessed it another Mont Blanc pen.  Talked with my guy on the phone about supper and told him I could meet him or he could come to the mall and eat.  I sat down with a bunch of strangers and waited for him and my family to show up.  I showed off my pen and had some good food.  Then the alarm went off.  I wonder if this is God’s way of saying I will be okay and I can buy what I want w/o fear of losing my job.  OR Is it my mind playing tricks on me?  I have no idea how to interpret dreams. 

Talk with you peeps later.

Never Ending

Yesterday evening I received a response from the mortgage company regarding one of the many complaints that I filed against them.  They of course found no wrong doing on their part.  They talk out of both sides of their mouth saying that I did apply a myriad of times but they only have 1 written denial letter.  That is a violation of the Fair Credit Act.  You have to issue a written denial if your denying someone.  Then they go on to say if I fall behind they will help me.  Then further into the letter they say that I can assume the loan, when they previously have told me that the loan is not assumable.  I hate mortgage companies!  They also show that I have made on-time payments so they don’t seem to understand why I need payment modification.  I guess they haven’t read through all of the many letters and e-mails that I have sent telling them I am running out of money.

So I forwarded all of their BS to my attorney and told her that my job might be on the line.  Her advise is lets try to assume the loan.  Uh, did you skip the part where I said I may be unemployed soon?  If I assume it and lose my job then I am screwed because it will count against me.  With the way things are right now, if I fall behind or something goes awry it won’t count against me.  I am going to talk this over with a friend but for right now I think I would be a fool to assume the loan because I am only asking for more trouble.  Once I know I have stable employment then it’s another story.  I think it would be safer to wait until August and try for a loan on my own at that time, depending upon my employment situation. 

Work is still here, I can’t believe it’s only Wednesday.  I am, was and always will be ready for Friday.  The weekends are my best time.  I have mixed feelings about applying for a week of vacation but I think I am going to go through with it.  I mean if I am going to get kicked out it doesn’t matter if I take my vacation or not, if I wear a blue shirt or a pink shirt.  Point is if it’s going to happen, it will and there is nothing I can do about it.  It’s like being on an airplane that is about to crash.  There isn’t a damn thing you can do to stop the crash.  All you can do is hold on for dear life and hope that you live. 

Seems that life is a never ending bowl of chaos and stress for me.  I think I need that vacation.  To just take a break from it all.

Well back to the salt mine.  Lunch is over.  Talk with you peeps later.

Treading Tuesday

So today was a little busier than yesterday.  I had some interaction with boss man.  I don’t know that I will ever figure him out, he is truly a strange person.  I am still on pins and needles and probably will be for a while. 

Had a good Monday night.  Watched a few episodes of Chicago Code with the kids.  Sunday night I managed to rip off part of my lip with a pineapple bar, now I run some water on them so that won’t happen again.  I am okay but it was very unpleasant. 

Tonight I am not sure what is for supper, that is like the mystery of the day.  Kids are all behaving and life is moving along. 

Understandably I am nervous.  Plus next week is when I put in my request for vacation.  He is the type of person who would let you take your vacation and then surprise when you come back poof no job.  So I am not sure about taking time off, even though it’s owed to me.  I hope that all of this job tension ends soon and we can all go back to our ‘normal’ lives. 

My stomach is still a mess.  Talk with you peeps later.

Monday

Happy St. Patrick’s Day!  Thinking about that this time last year someone was making Corned Beef & Cabbage.  I used to not look forward to the smell.  The meal well it’s okay but I am really not a Corned Beef fan.  I will eat a good Ruben though!  Now this year all I will smell is the cats.  I’d rather be smelling CB&C.  Just another holiday (f if you want to call it that) where I am reminded that I am alone. 

It’s a dull and boring day.  I had some volume today but mostly boring project work.  Still keeping on, keeping on.  No word yet.

Looking forward to going home and having left over pizza for supper, setting out the trash and relaxing.  Until I have to do it all over again tomorrow. 

I hope that traffic isn’t as messy as it was on Friday or it will take me an hour to get home, when normally it’s about 45 minutes, 30 if I am really lucky. 

Well I have an hour and a half and it just can’t go by fast enough.  Back to it.  Talk with you peeps later.

My Sunday

I went to bed late, so I got up late.  Fed the children, wiped out my eyes and headed out of the house.  I went to Denny’s for breakfast. They remodeled and I wanted to see what they did to the place.  Looks pretty good.  However, service sucked!  The breakfast menu didn’t give me enough to choose from.  I wound up with the Sausage Skillet, which given the state of my stomach was a slight mistake.  It had Chorizo, which is a spicy Mexican sausage.  It was good just took forever to get it.  Then I ended my meal with Blueberry Pancake Puppies, those too took forever to get to me.  It was like 10am when I went in and it was 11:15 when I got out of there. 

Headed on down to the grocery store.  I felt my stomach grumbling but just kept on driving.  Got through the store.  Deciding on what is for dinner each night is such a chore, especially when your cooking for 1.  It is just as easy to go out or run through a drive up.  However, you don’t get healthy food that way.  Then again I’m not eating healthy buy purchasing frozen food.  I switched off to a different brand of TV Dinners.  They contain a very small sized serving so I think it might take two of them to fill me up.  Plus I still have soup, way too many pot pies and some frozen Mexican food. 

I had myself all psyched up, I was going to make Spaghetti for supper.  As usual I chickened out.  I opted for frozen pizza instead. 

My stomach has done a pretty good job of keeping it together.  I took some prescription diarrhea pills so that has to also aid in the process.  I am throwing the peanut butter out tomorrow night.  Probably safer that way. 

I laid down with Big Boy but he is a manly cat so he took so much of my attention and then he left me.  I wasn’t too happy about it, but it forced me to get in gear. 

The house is pretty well done, I just need to set out cat food and my breakfast for tomorrow.  Then we are all set.  Oh yeah and sleeping pills.  Can’t forget those. 

I am excited to see Shameless tonight.  Sadly Looking is done for now.  Speaking of done the weekend is almost done as well.  I love the time I am able to sit with the kids not a care in the world, just watching them snuggle, play and sleep.  They are a handful and inevitably there is always someone at my feet.  I hate that because it’s like you can’t move.  We do this little dance when it’s time for food.  I say kitchen and they just stand in front of me.  I go to move and they stand still or inch forward.  Eventually we make it and then it’s a struggle to grab food, plate it and serve it.  Once I’ve done that they are as good as out of my way, if only for a few minutes. 

Since Spring is in the air, we have a nest of birds in the front evergreen by the window.  The cats all watch the babies.  Last night the window was open and Big Boy heard them, his ears perked up and he looked at me to say I wish I could see them.  I would have picked him up but there wasn’t anything to see.  All of the children want to tear through the screen to get a bird.  Hopefully that will never happen.

So as the night draws to a close, I can’t help but think about work and what may or may not happen.  The uncertainty is what is killing me.  However, all I can do is wait.  It’s not like I can rush the decision.  Just let it play out and soon too this shall pass.  I just keep praying that it all works out to my benefit.  I have to keep on keeping on until I am told to do otherwise. 

Rest assured I am not asking about the large purchase of hardware and software that needs to be made.  I will just let that lay low.  It’s probably better that way.  I am also not busting my ass, I will work but only doing the bare minimum that is required. It’s clear that I am not appreciated.  Why things are like this is beyond my understanding.  I am doing the right thing and like every other time there I have done the right thing, it comes to bite me in the ass.  It makes no sense. 

Sort of like our weather.  Yesterday was spring, today it’s back to winter.  Snow is in the forecast but I don’t think we will see anything, just low temps.  Thursday is the start of Spring, which hopefully will be a good thing.  I don’t want to go straight into summer, I would like a spring.

I am headed up to see what I can find on the tele and hoping that the evening passes slowly and is enjoyable.  I do see a couple of pineapple bars in my future, my mouth will love that.  So will my stomach. 

Be good to each other and I will keep you posted on how things are going.  Here’s to giving thanks for what you have today because it might be gone tomorrow. 

Demon Inside Me

Your average Saturday for me.  I decided to try something I heard about in a You Tube Video.  Peanut Butter in Oatmeal.  So I broke out the plain Oatmeal and put in a scoop of Peanut Butter.  The PB said best if used by some date late in 2013.  I figured it should be okay it’s PB.  Plus it’s been refrigerated, which I don’t think is required for PB.

It was different but not something that I would repeat.  I am more of a Cinnamon or Apples kind of guy.  I love the smell of Maple & Brown Sugar, but I am allergic to Maple so I avoid it as much as possible.  If I can’t avoid it then I pop a Claritin in addition to all of the other allergy meds I am on. 

After a bit of catching up on Television with the children and talking with a friend.  I decided it was time to go back to sleep.  We all settled in.  Snug as a bug in a rug.  Then I woke up and it was 2:30pm. 

It was a very nice day, temps in the 70s and the sun was out.  Great day for a road trip, but considering my potential impending doom I opted out of that. 

I went out for the mail, then decided what to eat and went to Red Lobster.  Had Lobster Stuffed Tilapia with Rice & Broccoli.  It was very good.  Then I felt my stomach grumble.  I didn’t think anything of it. Paid the bill and left.

I was on my way home when it was pretty clear to me that I had to stop at home first before I went cat food shopping.  Turns out there was a demon in my stomach.  I am not sure what it was from but I didn’t make it home in time.  So now I have to waddle inside, get in the shower and get cleaned up.  That was so NOT fun.  I had a Sprite and watched some more TV with the kids.  Then I threw on some clothes to go get their food. 

I stopped at the car wash first.  I went to a cheap place and there are water beads all over my car.  I am not very happy because I don’t think I got my $12 worth.  However, it is what it is.  Then I stopped for cat food.  Then stopped at Sam’s. 

That is where I saw a very cute and ditzy young man.  He acted like he never pumped gas before.  He had a drivers license and a atm or credit card.  I’m thinking maybe in his 20’s.  Possible college student.  Anyway, I watched him while pumping my own gas.  He unscrewed the gas cap and the whole damn thing came off.  Then he squatted down to look inside the gas tank like it was looking for the hole where the pump goes.  It was a great move because it showed off his bottom and we all know how much I love a nice butt.  Anyway, then he removed the pump handle and wasn’t squeezing the trigger.  Gas poured all over his car.  At that point I wanted to go up to him and ask him if he wanted some help.  However, I didn’t.  I stayed back and he selected the fuel grade and then held the trigger.  He didn’t use the lever to make the pump run automatically like most people he held on to the trigger.  By this time I was done, in my car and leaving.  I felt sorry for him but kind of glad I stayed away.  Chances are if he never pumped gas before he probably hasn’t had sex before either and if he was gay I would probably have had to teach him everything.  Holy shit what kind of opportunity did I pass up! 

 

The mail brought me the latest edition of OUT and NPH is on the cover.  Awesome!  I was very eager to read the story.  Out has been promoting it on social networking.  I saw a video of behind the scenes photo shoot and all of the photographs that are in the magazine.  Pretty impressive.  NPH like a porn star said that eating Pineapple makes your semen tasty.  I’ve been heavy on the Pineapple lately, something I might try.  Anyway it was a very good article.

Now moving on to work.  What I have learned is that my job is still on the line.  It’s about cutting costs.  I believe the truth isn’t too far from what I thought.  My opinion is that my boss wants to get rid of me because he thinks I am out to spend all of his money.  It’s not my fault that he is running older equipment that will soon have no support.  He is a cheap bastard, I mean when I hired in we talked about replacing all of this equipment.  Regardless if I am there or not, he still has to replace the equipment or he is putting his company at risk.  The thing is that IT is a need for his business, as in most businesses.  So how much would he really be saving?  5 or 10 thousand dollars.  Really is that worth it to give up a seasoned professional who has your best interest at heart?  I think not.  However, the decision isn’t mine to make. 

Now that I know this I think he will make the right choice so I am a little more relaxed and think that he will keep me around.  I could very well be wrong.  I am NOT counting my chickens before they are hatched.  I am still about keeping my expenses down, doing my job and looking as fast and hard as I can to get the hell out of that place.  That old bastard is a crazy MOFO.  I know I can do better, the thing is I need someone to take a chance on me. 

Jobs have been appearing more so now than they did in the 1st of the year.  I think that is kind of strange but whatever.  The company I called to work on my furnace last year is hiring but HVAC Techs.  I am not one of those.  However, I sent them my resume because well you just never know.  They seem like a good company and I know if I worked there eye candy wouldn’t be a problem.  Seriously, it’s all about moving on to a good, better paying and much more secure job where I am appreciated and rewarded.  If I get eye candy to look at so be it, call it an added benefit.  Right now it’s about putting cash in the bank and food on the table.  If I can’t do that then I have serious problems and don’t know how I will survive for very long. 

I am still hoping and praying.  It’s not easy but I have to trust in God that this will all work out.  That I will be taken care of, no matter what happens. 

Okay so my stomach is still topsy turvey.  I am headed upstairs to find something to watch on TV, prepare for bed I guess and take some medicine.  I really haven’t had supper but eating isn’t something I am eager to do right now.  I just hope things calm down by tomorrow.  I don’t want to take any time off unless I have to.  I am not looking to give him any reason to let me go.  Besides that not this Monday but next Monday, if I am still there I will be putting my vacation request in for 5 days off.  It will be a time to rest, reflect and remember.  As well as an opportunity to keep moving forward. 

I hope that you all enjoy what is left of the weekend.  I will talk with you peeps later.

Made it–Friday

So one more week under my belt.  Not sure what is going down regarding my job.  I have a feeling though I will know sooner or later.  I mean you can’t get rid of someone unless you tell them. 

I am still very concerned.  The waiting is a killer.  However, this has forced me to look each and every day harder and harder.  I have applied for some pretty decent jobs this week.  The one thing about starting a new job, is that you are starting over – get to know your co-workers, you have to figure out who is a rat and who you can potentially trust, new office politics, etc.  I am there for the money and that is it.  If it’s meant to be that I get a new job then I figure a door will open.  Otherwise, I guess I am stuck working for the crab ass a little while longer. 

Honestly I like what I have – just wish I had more respect and more money.  I am doing a damn good job, but I am also bias but it is my opinion. 

We got free lunch today.  Guess I am going home and eating fried chicken.  I was thinking about going out, but that is spending money.  Besides that I will probably go out tomorrow.  At least for one meal. 

Tonight’s plan is to watch TV.  There should be plenty for me to catch up on.  It’s a nice way to wind down.  Although I sit there and think about what I could be doing instead of wasting time.  However, I think it’s important to take me time.  That is all I really want to do after a week of work.  Getting more tired as the days go by. 

I hope you all have a good weekend.  It’s almost time to leave here.  Waiting for the snitches to leave and then I am out of here.  Everyone usually bails early on a Friday.  I don’t see why I should be any different, I mean it doesn’t seem to benefit me staying until 5 or going the extra mile.  It just means I get crapped on more.

Ciao!

Still Here

No changes as of now.  I believe that I am safe for the rest of the week.  Just trying to take one day at a time.  My hope is that I find something and can leave, then he can do whatever he wants.  In the mean time I am gathering evidence so that if things go south here I can stir up plenty of trouble.  I may not be successful but that doesn’t mean I won’t try.  I mean last year I sued one of the most powerful unions in the USA .  If I can take them on, I am not afraid of stirring the pot.  However, you have to provoke me first – which he has kind of done.  However, once I move forward there is no going back and the ramifications of my action may potentially close the company.  No point in putting myself out of a job.

The waiting and wondering what his move will be is what is killing me.  We all know that I don’t have much in the way of patients.  I am an instant results kind of guy.  It will be nice when this passes, so that I can not be so amped up. 

Looking forward to the weekend and maybe I can get some rest.  Had an amazing nights sleep – think I almost had a wet dream.  Unfortunately several things kept waking me up.  It’s odd how stress affects the body and the mind. 

I am applying all over the place, if it’s something that I am interested in, I could care less about the qualifications.  I just apply.  That tactic has gotten me most of my jobs and I see no reason to stop.  Just applied at a place that is a couple blocks away from where I work.  There is travel with the job, but it’s all local so no worries. 

I just keep praying and shuffling along.  Hoping for the very best!  Talk with you peeps later.

Another long day

I am in STRESS mode.  I really don’t want to eat, not sleeping very well and my stomach is in knots.  I’ve started to gather and bring my stuff home from the office.  I am going at a slow pace on purpose.  I don’t want to freak anyone out, despite the fact that I am freaked out. 

I am not certain of anything other than the fact I am going crazy.  I really don’t want to work when I am at work, why do I want to give when they don’t want to keep me?  Plus it’s difficult to concentrate.  It makes for very long days.  At one point I started nodding off and had to get some sugar to stay awake.  I did work but I didn’t push myself.

I think that I am safe until Friday, perhaps a little longer.  I have had no response to the trump card  played – not sure if I will get a response. 

Plus I happened to look at caller id and a vendor that I deal with has been calling for a couple days.  I’ve been at my desk, so clearly they are talking with someone else.  I spoke with them today and they of course deny it.  I think not only does my boss want to get rid of me, but he wants to get the good deal I was able to arrange on PC’s. 

There is a lot riding on whatever decision he makes.  It will affect both me and the company.  I sure hope that he knows what he is doing.  I do have an awful lot of ammunition to be able to cause problems, just saying. 

Well off to feed the nagging children and try to wind down.  I know good luck with that.  Talk with you peeps later. 

Munday–Monday

I played my trump card today, not exactly sure if it will work but since I really have nothing to lose I figure it couldn’t hurt.  It was a very quiet Monday.  I can’t tell you when it was last this silent. 

One of the ladies in the office that I am sure knows what is going on, just looks at me like I am a piece of trash.  She will no longer speak to me.  I’m not worried about it, I can’t stand her either!

I have done my research for a labor employment attorney.  There are a few that I am considering.  1 that is at the top of the list and the others towards the bottom.  If I can get a free consult from the others then I would be much more inclined to go with them.  However, I want a rabid pit bull for an attorney so I get zealous aggressive representation, if I am in fact let go. 

Today was overly HOT.  I should turn on the AC the house is so warm but I won’t do it yet.  I got a nice surprise in the mail.  The cute furnace man that was here last year well he sent me a card.  It’s got his name and photo on it.  It’s nothing more than advertisement and he didn’t sent it but it looks like he did.  I did my research and of course he is straight.  Darn!

Well up to the cats and TV.  I’m trying to stay calm and level headed.  Not exactly easy when you know people are out to take away your income. 

Talk with you peeps later.

Alone

It’s no secret that I don’t have a lot of friends.  Right now I sure could use one of them to talk to.  I feel very scared, alone and just afraid of what the future holds.  I know that if I survived my partners death that odds are pretty great I can survive anything. 

However, being faced with the loss of my income is very scary.  IF this happens on one hand it will be a relief to finally be free of the tyrant.  While that will make me feel good, my eyes will be fixed on the fact that there is no money coming in.  Unemployment doesn’t pay.  I think I will get a severance package but honestly as cheap as they are I don’t think it will be much.

Thinking about things I have hatched a plan that may very well save my job.  It could also turn and bite me in the ass.  Either way it’s a card that I have to play.  It may help me in the end if things do turn south. 

I have documentation out the wazoo but I honestly don’t know if it will aid me in a legal battle or not.  I much prefer to keep my information hidden and keep my job. 

I was hired to do a job, I was hired to protect the company and for doing that I am rewarded by being kicked to the curb.  Something sounds fishy there.  I had thoughts in the beginning that perhaps this was a temporary thing that I would be used to install WIFI and then sent packing.  They have kept me on so far past that I honestly stopped thinking that.

I did start the year out by saying I have to be free of this place, this year.  Well I may very well get my wish.  There is much more to this story but I just don’t want to put it in to words.

I am tired of living my life in constant fear.  What if this, what if that.  It seems that I was beat up as a child a lot and now I am going through being beat up as an adult.  I am ready to get happy and stay happy. 

You know I have heard this voice saying you will be okay, I will take care of you.  I wonder if that is God or if that is just my imagination playing tricks on ne.  I know that I have been okay for a while, despite the fact my finances include a deficit each month.  If it wasn’t for taxes and insurance I would have extra money that I could tuck away.  However, I had to pay those bills.  It feels good to pay cash for things but at the same time I see my nest egg dwindling. 

Right now I could use my rock for a hug, some sage advice and well a shoulder to cry on.  All I have are the cats and they listen to me babble but I don’t think they grasp the entire issue. 

Thus far I am still employed and will be going back tomorrow for another day of fun.  It’s hard to concentrate.  I know the HR person is out tomorrow so chances are I will survive Monday.  I am not exactly certain when the plan is to kick me out, but I know it’s imminent.  I only hope that I can thwart the efforts to get rid of me.  I know that it is supposed to pass through many channels before it’s ever etched in stone.  I think that I have a couple people on my side but I am not sure how hard they will fight for me, if at all.  That is kind of the problem working for a smaller family business.

If I get called for an interview anywhere, I don’t care the date or time time.  I will go against my moral code and use sick time.  I was on Linked In earlier today knowing that they have implemented a blocking system.  I looked up my bad reference, only to find that she has moved on to another company and is now a VP in IT.  She clawed her way to the top and crapped on many people to get where she is today.  I just couldn’t believe it when I saw that VP.  I blocked her.  I also blocked my so called friend that I referred at work.  I don’t think that she has helped my continued employment, especially since she is fighting pretty hard for her unemployment. 

Well I can babble on but it’s not going to change anything.  I have to face the music and just pray and hope for the best.  What a mountain of stress.  No wonder all I want to do is sleep. 

I am going to retire for the evening.  Shameless and Looking are on.  I just hope that I can get some sleep tonight.  I did lay down with Big Boy for an hour.  He purred up a storm.  I am fairly certain that I made his day in a very big way.  That makes me proud.  I am also equally scared about parting ways with him. 

My life just seems like one great big pile of crap, with tiny bits of good mixed in.  I hope that somehow someway this all works out to my benefit and that I am happy in the end. 

Talk with you peeps later.

Clear & Immediate Jeopardy

As the title implies there is trouble brewing.  This time it’s work trouble.  I have been informed that my job is on the line and odds are I am going by the way side.  Mind you that I have done nothing wrong.  Never, been written up or received any formal discipline. 

I believe this is all in retaliation to the fact that we have so much old equipment and it’s going to cost the company a small fortune to replace it all.  This is the Windows XP and Office 2003.  I kind of figured that something was up when my boss has kept me at bay.  He’s not yelling at me, which is not normal.  He is also not responding to any e-mails that I send.  He is just leaving me all alone in my own little world.  I like the fact that he is leaving me alone.  However, that tells me he is up to something!

I just pray that something or someone causes him to come to his senses before it’s too late.  He hired me to do a job and he wants to micro-mange me and stifle my productivity by telling me how to do my job.  Instead of letting me do the job I was hired for.  IT is a cost center not a revenue generator.  However, if he doesn’t spend the money then the company is left swaying in the wind and chances are good they will lose everything. 

Right now I am more worried about me than them.  This is an absolute awful time for me to lose my job.  I’ve got serious bills to pay and creditors won’t take a I’m sorry I lost my job as payment.  They want their money or they are going to kick me out of my house.  That is actually more scary than losing my job. 

The bigger question is, if I fall how soon can I recover?  That is unknown and with that in mind I am scared out of my mind.  I need serious prayer and the hope that this all works out for the best. 

It’s bad enough that I lost the love of my life last year.  I don’t want to lose my job this year.  Every year isn’t supposed to be filled with loss.  There is supposed to be some good times in there.  I haven’t had many of those.  You’d think that I could get a break. 

Talk with you peeps later.

XP Woes

So it’s been a bit since my last update.  I had a sleepless night, not exactly sure why all sorts of things going through my head.  I have serious worries about Big Boy and his departure.  As of this moment he is okay, but he scares the crap out of me.  He woke up coughing the other night.  This morning he decided to munch on some dried up food and that woke me up.  I love him to death!

Traffic has been pretty bad in the AM rush, lots of accidents.  I have left early and even though the media is saying avoid the area, I cruise right on through w/o a problem.  I think they just like to stir panic. 

One of the ladies in the office was let go today.  She just started less than 2 weeks ago.  I don’t think they gave her a fair chance, but not my area.  I just do what I am told.  Found out yesterday that someone had been gone for a month at one of the remote offices and if I hadn’t asked that person’s access would still be in place.  I don’t get what is so hard to tell IT that someone is no longer here.  Big companies have communication breaks downs, we are fairly small and you’d think we were a household name or something with the issues we have. 

One of the supervisors came to me today and said how hard is it to upgrade from XP to Windows 7.  I said it’s easy I have to build you a new machine.  Well, that is what I am doing.  I checked into upgrading and well it’s a pain and a HUGE risk of data loss.  So better to build a new machine.  One of our vendors that this person interacts with will not allow an XP machine on their network.  Even though it’s not been phased out by Microsoft yet.  A friend of mine told me that certain banks are going to do the same thing, so the walls are closing in and if you have XP you will be very limited in what you can access from a secure site standpoint.  Sure would be nice if I would get the green light to order equipment for the upgrade. 

The way I see it is I will be on vacation, he will call to yell because no one will be able to do a damn thing.  NMP (Not My Problem) I told you and you chose to ignore me.  I also wonder if he will allow me to take my time given the fact that the upgrade needs to happen.  I mean I can’t carry it over and would much rather use it.  Only time will tell.  He is still not communicating with me at all, unless it’s absolutely necessary.  I am perfectly okay with it, even though it does feel a bit strange. 

Got my Sam’s club renewal notice.  It’s not due until May but they give you plenty of advance warning.  Only $45 and considering they are my neighbor, I might as well renew.  I will save so much by using them.  The only thing I don’t like is buying in bulk unless we are talking paper products.  Otherwise it really is a bit much for a single guy to handle. 

I deleted my profile for on-line dating.  I was getting silly messages and people were in other countries just wanting to reach out.  That is all well and good but I am not looking for a pen pal.  I am looking for a companion, someone that I can reach out and physically touch and interact with live and in person.  I really don’t think that on-line dating will afford me that opportunity.  I haven’t given up and will be going back just haven’t decided when. 

Our weather is in warm up mode and right now I am in sweating mode.  I can’t wait to go home and get comfortable.  Enjoying watching Rookie Blue with the children.  It occupies an hour and then it’s time for bed.  Tonight Suits and Scandal are on.  I will be all amped up.  However, my hope is that my sleeping medicine will kick in.  I would take a double dose but I am afraid that the hangover effect would cause me to stay home and I don’t want to use my time off that way.

Well off to prepare for getting ready to go home.  Tomorrow has plenty in store for me.  I hope everyone has a good weekend.  I am looking forward to rest and doing nothing.  Maybe opening a window and watching the children go nuts. 

Mr. Blu has started giving me kisses, in addition to biting me.  I think I have won him over.  All it took was chopping off his balls and scratching his back.  Nothing too dramatic, right!

Talk with you peeps later.  I am so hungry for a good meal.  Not sure if I should head to Cracker Barrel or McDonald’s!

Rookie Blue

Last night I came across a TV show called Rookie Blue.  I watched it because I didn’t see anything else appealing to me.  I noticed one of the many actors I have a crush on was in this series.  That would be none other than Gregory Smith.  Oh, I really have it bad for him.  So bad in fact I searched on-line and found an episode that he was in where he was shirtless.  I looked and purchased the episode from Amazon.  He was shirtless at the end of the episode for a very short time.  My oh my, totally worth the $1.99 I paid.

Today out of the blue the Bankruptcy attorney called me.  He got word that I lost and he was perfectly fine.  So his call was more to gloat than anything, but we essentially buried the hatchet.  I also learned that the money I have to turn over to the Bankruptcy Court does NOT count against the $ amount that I am needing to pay in.  Which really sucks.  Its like I am giving money away.  He understands my position and that it’s financially difficult but he told me that I can always stop paying.  He can’t predict the actions of the creditors but there is a possibility I could make them go away by showing them a death certificate but then again they may want to come after the house.  I think it’s better to be safe than sorry.  Plus I also think that it’s what is helping keep the mortgage company at bay.  I was very surprised to hear from the attorney but it at least gets us back to a good working relationship and the air has been cleared.  That doesn’t mean I like him, it just means we can talk civilly to him.  He also point blank asked me if I wanted him to withdraw and I told him no.  That was the right answer because otherwise it will cost me more money.

What a day.  I was told about a month ago that some folks here needed free remote access. I chose Team Viewer for them.  Well the people at Team Viewer figured out that we were a business and not individual home users, so they want money or else we can’t use the product.  I have switched everyone over to Go To My PC Pro.  It’s the way things should have been done from the get go.  This way I have full control over their access.  I can suspend or revoke access as well as add additional people.  I can pull reports to show how the usage of the product.  I was told that I could do this for 30 days and then pay for 1 month.  After that they are hoping that I will have a better solution.  Well this will work fine, time to pony up some money.  Plus by going PRO I am saving them money, because they offer business users discounts.  It works out to $9.95 a person and normally it’s $19.95 a person.  That right there speaks volumes to me.  Will this be remembered when they go to calculate my pay raise?  Probably not.  Of course the boss man doesn’t know about it yet because it involves spending money and his underling told me to do it. 

Nothing good in the mail last night, maybe there will be something good there tonight.  Supper was pretty good.  TAZ sat and watched me eat and he wanted some Sour Cream so bad but I wouldn’t give in. 

I am starting to feel like things are moving in the right direction, but it’s a very slow process.

I’ve been meaning to pull a hard drive from my late partners computer.  Last night I did it and I found some e-mail addresses of people that I chose to notify.  Plus he saved every message that he sent to me and that I sent to him.  There are a lot of messages to sift through and the more I read last night the more I realized once again that he is gone.  I also saw that time was getting away from me and I chose to break it off.  I have the drive safe and sound.  It will be good to review at a later date.  The whole process just made me miss him that much more. 

I focused my attention on porn instead and watched the Forza Brothers work over a guy pretty good.  It was a HOT scene.  Then upstairs and that is when I found Rookie Blue. 

Last night was a pretty good night.  As for tonight well I am torn on what to eat, but I am sure I won’t go hungry.  I am addicted to Pineapple Bars.  They are frozen popsicles on a stick just made with 100% pineapple.  Not cheap but good. 

I told Big Boy before I went to bed last night that next month he will be going back to the vet.  This look of horror washed over his face and he just looked at me as if to say, really so your getting rid of me next month.  I felt bad.  I told him it was just a checkup to see how he was progressing and maybe they will be able to drain some fluid to help him be more comfortable.  I told him that we will be parting ways but if it’s left up to me it won’t be until there isn’t an alternative left.  If I make it through this year and he is still alive I will be very surprised.  Then again he has surprised us all along by outliving each ‘sentence’ that he has been pronounced with.  That is just one strong cat that is truly blessed by God.  What I don’t understand is why God won’t heal him or allow him to live without a death sentence hanging over his head. 

Well it’s time to start wrapping things up and get ready to go home.  Back tomorrow for more chaos.  Fun.  Plus snow is in the forecast.  No wonder I had to find a solution for remote access, because those fair weather workers are probably all going to telecommute tomorrow.  While I am slaving away at my desk.  Then again if we get a foot of snow no one is going anywhere no matter what.  I have no idea what is in the forecast but I am going to check now.

Talk with you peeps later.  Stay warm.

Noting Going On

Average Monday.  I spent my day working with our websites.  It’s enough to drive a man to drink.  Lucky for me I don’t drink, but I do drive. 

We got some snow, ice and winter weather.  It’s brutally cold out and the temperature is the worst thing we have to deal with.  Snow and Ice are very minimal.  Very surprised everyone made it in the office today.  Normally they are a bunch of pansies and they all skip out and stay home, ewe a snow flake.  I am scared and staying home.  Most everyone is over Winter.  I am starting to say I am sick of it but I remember how much snow meant to my late partner, so it can snow from now until Christmas it really won’t bother me.  Winter is only temporary and I know that eventually Spring and Summer will come. 

Tonight it’s off to check the mail, put the trash out and then in for the evening with the children.  They sure are a fussy bunch.  Morning always seems to come around way too soon. 

I am over the daily grind.  Next month at this time if all goes well I should be on vacation.  It won’t exactly be a good week for me but anytime away from work is time well spent.  I won’t jump at every e-mail I get and I know by being out it will create some backlog for me, all the more items to keep me busy. 

I tried out Symantec’s Cloud Small Business Antivirus today, because that will be the next thing we need to deploy.  It is pretty simple, just takes forever to install.  You can even restrict people from touching the USB ports, which is a good thing for us because we worry about people stealing information via USB drives. 

So I worked all day on Friday and most of last week with a time clock issue.  Turns out the clock was perfectly fine.  Someone dropped a POE Switch twice from a filing cabinet and it damaged the switch and caused all sorts of chaos at that office.  I was not happy when I found that out – basically they wasted my time and energy.  Problem solved. 

Tonight’s supper will be canned chili topped with Con Queso and some Tortilla Chips.  Sounds good.  Then some ice cream to cool off my stomach.  I also still have 1/2 of a sandwich left from lunch so I will probably polish that off with the chili. 

Here is hoping for something good in the mail.  I am going back to website fixing.  Ugh, I hate it. 

Talk with you peeps later.

Winter Storm

I know it’s been a few days since I have posted anything.  Some of that is because I have been busy.  Some of that is because I think my life is boring. 

We have another Winter Storm upon us.  I was supposed to wake up to a mountain of snow and ice.  Turns out there was only a dusting.  The forecast now says that it will snow from now until tomorrow.  So the commute in tomorrow should be real interesting. 

Out of panic and also wanting a bit of a change, I went to the grocery store yesterday evening.  It was pretty well filled up with people but I got a decent parking spot.  I was in and out in average time.  I spent way too much money but that is nothing new for me.  I picked up some comfort food items, which will taste good. 

On the legal fight avenue.  The mortgage company has reached out to tell me they have received the complaint that I filed and they are looking to respond to it within the next 60 days.  That is very disconcerting because part of the basis of my complaint is they are stringing me a long and they impose these delays.  Well, they are once again helping me prove my case.  The part that really upset me is that they sent a letter to the Bankruptcy Attorney and marked it to my attention.  I have given them my mailing address why they chose not to use it is beyond my understanding.  Consequently I reached out and yelled at them and told them where they should be sending correspondence to. 

Speaking of the Bankruptcy attorney he is pissed at me and him getting that letter certainly won’t help things.  I made him aware that it’s coming and told him that he can just file it, since I have an electronic copy.  I apologized  to him for any inconvenience that it causes him or his staff. 

The complaint I had against him, I was informed by yesterdays mail has been closed because I failed to show that there was any clear and convincing evidence that he did anything wrong.  In other words Lawyers back each other and I had not a snow balls chance in hell of winning.  All I did was ruffle his feathers.  Now he is sitting back and laughing at me.  At least I have the satisfaction of knowing that I tried.   I hope that he keeps the case and doesn’t withdraw but my expectation is that he will in fact now withdraw complaint that I made a frivols complaint against him.  All I can do is sit back wait, hope and pray.  Sounds like the story of my life 

I have ventured out to eat this weekend.  I treated myself to Breakfast yesterday at Cracker Barrel.  Mostly because I wanted to see a certain host.  He was working and I didn’t get disappointed.  Plus I had some good food as well. 

I had to make a run to Sam’s Club for some household stuff.  I found this cordless phone arrangement from AT&T that I am trying to justify purchasing.  It would be perfect but I am trying to talk myself out of it because I honestly don’t spend that much time on the phone.  However, I have a feeling that I will be giving in eventually and getting it.  I wanted to go over today but because of the weather I have chosen to stay home. 

My new love on Television is a show in NBC called Chicago P.D.  There are a few cute guys on there.  Plus I am inherently attracted and interested in police work.  I would have pursued a career in Law Enforcement if there wasn’t so much reading and the fact that I could get shot.  Then again today you can be walking down the street and just at the wrong place at the wrong time and get shot.  Ah well it probably saved me from a lifetime of free doughnuts. 

I cleaned the carpets this morning.  Big Boy had a couple of accidents and that complied with the other accidents from others – it just made sense to do it.  Now the other cat task I have is my date with Shy Girl.  I have to get her claws trimmed today.  Plus she has knots in her fur that I have to get out because they bug the crap out of me, I can only imagine how she feels.  She will not like all of the added attention but I have been prepping her for two weeks.  I don’t think it will make any difference but I am willing to try anything to calm her down.  No need to get that upset about just a claw trimming.  I mean if I was chopping off her head that would be something to be upset about. 

I am ready for a nap.  Instead I will go upstairs and feed the children lunch.  I will turn on the TV for a while and probably wind up taking a nap that I don’t need.  I have laundry, trash and the claw trim.  Then I am done. 

I have also been working on the book.  I have chapter titles and think it won’t be too much longer before I call it a finished product and send it to a friend to proof read.  Then I will have to make a decision regarding publishing and if I want to move down that path.

Well off to go upstairs and away from the computer for a while.  Stay warm and be safe.  I will talk you peeps later.