More Drama

Today’s mail brought a letter from the Bankruptcy Attorney.  I figured that it would be a motion to withdraw but I was wrong.  It was a copy of a response to my complaint against him.  It is filled with more lies.  I thought long and hard about writing a rebuttal to him and to the agency that I filed the complaint with.  However, the deck is stacked against me.  Lawyers will believe other lawyers before they will believe me.  It’s one of those battles that I don’t want to but need to let go.  Otherwise, in the end I will wind up loosing and having to pay more money to hire a different attorney to represent my late partner in his Bankruptcy case.  I am really pretty steamed about this and it’s not easy to walk away.

Remember how I said I wanted a big tax refund.  Well my memory kicked in today.  Turns out if my partner gets a huge refund, it all goes to Bankruptcy.  It may however put us closer to the mark where we need to be to apply for a hardship discharge.  That would be nice and save me some money in the process, however it will be my luck the income tax refund would not go towards the amount that has been paid in. 

Tonight I had dinner with some friends.  They were telling me how they see all of this term oil with the house and Bankruptcy eating away at me.  They see how miserable I am.  They told me that I would be better off selling the house and walking away.  Find new homes for the cats and call it a day.  They understand that the cats are my life and how difficult that would be.  However, if things worked out as we planned I would have around $37,000.00 to walk away with that would be a hell of a down payment on a new home and I wouldn’t need a big place.  It’s tempting but right now I am going to see how things work out.  If I can get a loan in August in my name and then transfer the house into my name I will be a happy camper – provided that I earn enough money to make the house payment because then I will be legally liable for the loan.  Continue paying on the Bankruptcy and just hope things work out for the best.  It’s going to be a rocky year, not quite as bad as last year but it won’t be smooth sailing for a while. 

All I want is closure to be done with the BS so that I can concentrate on my life and moving on.  Everything is up in the air and I really can’t make any solid plans until the dust settles.  Walking away would be the quickest and easiest thing to do.  However, there is a lot at stake here and I want this place because it was given to me.

If this year could bring me a better paying job where I worked for a structured company and there was a chance for advancement that would be awesome and would go a long way in improving my self esteem as well as my world in general.  It would be one less worry that I had.  That plus a loan in my name with a reasonable payment for the house would be great.  Now I am sure there will be more things that I want but right now those are the top two.

Everything in life is temporary and this too shall pass.  Right now going through it feels like hell on earth.  Why people in my family are faced with great struggles is beyond my understanding.  I am just ready for a resolution.  This all boils down to a simple matter of money and nothing more. 

In other news Winter is still here.  Were getting hit with ice and rain changing to snow.  Plus snow is in the forecast for Monday and Tuesday.  Should be interesting.  Tomorrow is the Super Bowl and I have to get to the store early before everyone buys up all of the groceries.  In years past we would always wait until the game was on because you could cruise through the store because it was empty but not just of people but of items to buy as well.  Example if you are thinking of getting chips, think again they will sell out.  Maybe not in your neck of the woods but here they are like gold and gone in a flash. 

Hopefully you all are having a great weekend, being safe and staying warm.  Thanks for sticking with me and reading about my troubles.  I know they are depressing but this is my outlet to air my emotions and I think I am taking full advantage of that. 

Moving on to laundry and other weekend chores.  Talk with you peeps later.