Mental Health Day

I took a stronger dose of sleeping medication as I do every Sunday night because Sunday’s usually have a nap in them.  Yesterday was no exception.  I went to bed late around 11pm, which is normal.

When I woke up I had 2 dreams.  The first one I was arrested for a DUI and no one got hurt.  The second dream was that after the first DUI I was arrested again for the same thing, but this time I collided with a bus and managed to kill 4 people.  It was surreal. 

I was pretty shaken up when I got up and I felt hung over from the effects of the extra sleeping pill.  Totally normal.  However, given the dreams I was a little apprehensive to get behind the wheel of a car.  Even though I am sure everything would have been just fine.  So I decided to take a mental health day.  I plan on going back tomorrow.

As with any day I take off be it sick or vacation, I never get rest.  I was bothered off and on all day long.  So it was like I was working from home.  Now I have good reason to go back tomorrow since work is stacking up.  Plus my regular work with the intranet redesign that I hate so much, because it’s meticulous and takes forever to complete. 

The children were thrilled that I was home.  Big Boy and I spent some time together.  He got his ears and his belly rubbed, so he was a pretty happy camper.  Not to mention they got an extra breakfast and lunch.  That might explain why TAZ has diarrhea. 

I ventured out around 3:30 to get the mail and came back home put the trash out.  Last week I got a letter from the trash company about syringe disposal and it just made no sense.  When I took the trash out today I found one of the kids syringes on the ground.  Something had gotten into our trash and ripped one of them out.  That apparently caused the trash man to freak.  Okay, I understand they don’t know what was in the syringe and they are deathly afraid.  However, these medications are for pets and there is no medication left in the syringe, so there is no harm.  Plus they are always capped so there is no risk of anything going wrong.  There are no needles involved.  I’ve been putting them in the trash for a long time w/o any problems.  Looks like now I have to be careful.  I think will start disposing of them with their litter box scooping's, nothing ever gets into that.  So there shouldn’t be a problem.  

I got an e-mail today of a job offer but it’s part time work at two places and they told me that the hours would be low.  Sorry but I need a full time income I am not leaving a sure thing for a part time gig. 

Speaking of work, when I told my boss I wouldn’t be in today I normally get a response back.  Today it was radio silence.  He just continues to hammer home that he is mad or upset about something.  I just think he is an ass because he continues to prove it to me.  As long as he continues to leave me a lone I think we will get along wonderfully.  I know he isn’t happy about the Migration from XP to Windows 7 and I am sure that is stuck in his craw.  I didn’t make the rules.  The whole thing about not being in compliance was announced in late December and I didn’t hear about it until January.  I did what I was paid to do and told him about it.  That was the right thing.  Even though I knew it would upset him because it means he has to part with cash.  Hey it takes money to stay in business and I don’t make up the rules about compliance. 

I am really concerned about what I tell him with regards to prices for Guest WIFI he is going to really be upset there.  I am sure there will be a we told you to setup WIFI with guest service in mind.  That is totally false.  I was told to setup WIFI because of the new system we were going to and the staff needed access in order to make it work.  I mean if you want to nail me to the cross so be it, but don’t think I will go quietly because I won’t. 

I have kind of mixed feelings about my employment.  On one hand I see where I make a difference and am needed.  Everyone seems to be in love with me because I am always there to help when they call upon me.  However, I see that he wants to get rid of me because I am costing him money – that is his perception.  Regardless of who is in IT when your in business IT costs money and there is no getting around that.  You may be able to get deals but you will still have to spend money.  I have mixed feelings as to if he will actually fire me, I mean I am pretty certain he wants to but I haven’t done anything wrong.  Plus if he would fire me, I know all sorts of secrets that could get him in a world of trouble.  Don’t think I would make waves.  I mean you mess with someone’s money / livelihood and they will turn on you like a rabid dog. 

I can’t say that I am not worried because I am.  Which is why I really want away from that place.  It’s just a toxic environment and I don’t have time for their petty BS.  However, it’s not like I can afford to quit.  If he screws with my income and I don’t bounce back quickly I will be in serious trouble.  That alone scares me.  I need an emergency fund but building one takes money and money is something that I am short on right now. 

Is it any wonder why I needed a day to myself?

Supper was pretty good tonight.  I had left over pulled pork and I found single serve mash potatoes made with real milk and butter.  Damn that was really good.  I will be buying more of those single serve mash potatoes.  That is one thing that I love.  I don’t need gravy just potatoes.

Tomorrow night is up in the air, I have no idea what I am going to eat.  There is plenty of food here from soup to frozen, I just have to make a decision.  Picking out the cat food is even difficult because I don’t know what their pallets will be in the mood for.  As an example I can’t give them canned Salmon Pate because they won’t eat it.  If it was the real fresh fish they would devourer it.  I guess I am a lot like the cats.  Picky.  It’s all about variety and trying to spice it up. 

Well off to empty litter boxes, wash my hands and make my lunch for tomorrow.  Then back to TV land.  Boring!  Being trapped at home is nice for about a day and then I have to escape.  So going back tomorrow will be good for me in more ways than one.  I only hope that I sleep well tonight and don’t have anymore strange dreams involving DUI or anything else that will rattle me. 

Talk with you peeps later.