Emotional

Last night I watched Bridegroom again.  It was the only thing that came to mind since I couldn’t find anything else on.  In the middle of the movie my mom called.  She asked me to sit down, I of course was standing and said okay.  I never bothered to sit down.  She said I had a stroke.  This was the result of some testing that was done a few weeks ago.  Apparently it was some time back, it’s very old.  It is in the middle of the brain and was a dry stroke, meaning it was caused by a blood clot.  She is now on baby Aspirin to thin her blood.  So her speech issues are related to the stroke.  Based on looking at her and the little experience I have with strokes I couldn’t pick anything up.  Then again I am not a doctor.  The results don’t really affect me, it kind of rings hollow.  I mean I am sorry she had a stroke but she walked away with minimal impact.  Not everyone can say that.  The chances are good that she will have another one.  That is true for anyone who has a stroke, but if you take your medicine and eat right then those chances go down.  It’s all about living a healthy lifestyle. 

I hope that I never suffer a stroke, they are debilitating and you never quite get back to normal.  I hope instead that I go quietly in my sleep.  Until then little aches and pains will be quite fine.

So I am emotional over the movie and how it struck home with me again.  The financial woes or worries that I am dealing with do not help. 

Today’s mail brought my auto insurance bill which is $481 for 2 vehicles.  Of which I only drive 1.  I really need to get rid of the truck it’s killing me, one of the many things that are taking my money.  There is sentimental value but I am willing to part with that if only it saves my money.  My way of getting rid of it is to trade both vehicles in and get a new one.  However, since the house matter is still up in the air there is no point in committing myself. 

I also received a copy of the complete response that the Bankruptcy Attorney filed with the Regulatory Agency in response to the complaint I lodged.  He sent them every e-mail I sent him and then some.  He sent case notes, which I have not ever seen.  He sent an e-mail from my partner asking about a Civil Union.  He was told that it’s not the same as a marriage, however it is in fact in our state the same as a marriage, that is how I won my case against the union.  So now I have 14 days in which to formulate a response if I wish for them to consider anything further.  I always said that I would leave it alone unless they solicited my opinion well they have so now I am going to blast him again.  That will probably get him to withdraw from the case.  However, I am not going to let him walk all over me and threaten me w/o any repercussions.  He is a lawyer and is conducting himself as if he were a bully.

Speaking of bullies, I bit the bullet today and ordered a few computers.  They are needed for a solution that we are implementing and there is no getting around it.  Besides that I’ve ordered equipment before w/o getting clearance and the boss never said a word.  This time I have a feeling things may be different.  I mean 4 or 5 machines is one thing.  If we were talking more than that I would certainly ask permission because it just seems proper.  Anything less than that is just the part of doing business. 

The Office Manager came in my office whining about her computer and telling me that she rebooted 7 times but it still stalls.  I know her well enough that most of the time when she speaks it’s all bullshit coming out of her mouth.  This time was no different.  I told her we need to shutdown and then start up fresh.  Oh, well I didn’t do that.  Well do you want me to or can you handle it?  She elected to handle it and after that not another word.  See what I mean all bullshit.  If she had rebooted it would have fixed the problem.  Most of her problems come from the fact that she surfs the net for any and everything, installs random software, looks for coupons and doesn’t reboot on a regular basis.  I wish we had Feronics (not sure if I spelled that correctly) but they make a program called Deep Freeze.  Basically it freezes an image of your PC, if you want to install something you have to unfreeze and refreeze.  Otherwise when you reboot everything goes back to the way it originally was.  It’s the easiest way to deal with spyware, viruses and malware.  However it’s not cheap.  I learned about it while I was unemployed, very neat product.

Well Big Boy made a mess in his bed last night.  I cleaned that up and came home to another mess in his bed and the hallway.  Plus he needs a bath.  I spent part of my evening dealing with that, it was NOT fun.  I don’t know what I am going to do with him.  What a silly boy!  I love him though.

BLU was glued to the window this morning.  Something got into our trash and he was keeping guard. It was funny because not even breakfast got him away from the window. I had to really get on him to make him eat.  It was a couple of quick bites, back to the window because he was afraid he would miss something.  Then he would eat a little bit and go back to the window.  He did that a couple times but I’ll bet you he was at the window for over an hour after I left.  He’s a good cat and very nosy, like cats are. 

Well my night is getting away from me.  I am all psyched up for Tosh.0 which is back on tonight.  They have put out some teaser video promoting  the shows return and Daniel keeps asking “are you moist yet.” I’ve been moist for Daniel Tosh for years.  He is hot.  I really wish he would disclose his sexuality he does a good job of playing the fence and catering to both gays and straights.  I’d just like to know.

Talk with you peeps later.