Stressful Week

What a week it’s been. The US Presidential Election was quite the emotional rollercoaster. I figured that I would get several pop-up notifications on my phone once a winner was declared. Nope not one. I found out the results by looking at Twitter. Then I had to double check on the internet and finally turned on the TV. Wow I am thankful that it’s over. I am pleased with the results.

We are still very much in the middle of a Pandemic. The numbers for COVID infections & death is rapidly increasing and this is the race we should be more hyper focused on because it’s consequences I feel are more dire and bound to affect or infect more people. We have to get this under control. We have to have a vaccine and better treatment. We have to all continue to follow what the scientist have told us. I realize wearing a mask/face covering is uncomfortable and aggravating but it helps. My personal opinion is that we need to go back on full lockdown, I know that will affect everyone and cause financial distress but I think it’s our best chance of getting things under better control. I hope that sooner rather than later we will urgently and aggressively focus on mitigation efforts for COVID.

In my area the numbers are up and hospital bed space is starting to be of great concern. Restaurants & Bar’s in my area are locked down again but if you travel a short way to a different state, they are wide open. However, that too may change soon because the spike in cases. That means that Thanksgiving could very well be in jeopardy. I mean eating out at a restaurant, the holiday will still happen and I know that my friends will throw something together if we don’t just convert our order to carry out.

I made it to the dentist this week and finally got my teeth cleaned. I received the usual good results. The exam was less thorough than my previous dentist. She screened more aggressively for oral cancer. I’ve got a follow up appointment for 6 months and hopefully the world at large will be a better place!

I patched a gap in the door jam of the garage. The wood desperately needs to be sanded and painted. I think I will manage to get through this winter or so it’s my hope. Then early next spring it will be sanding and paint. I looked at neighbors houses and most of their trim is painted white. The mold killing paint I have an excess of happens to be white as well. To save money and time, that is what I will be using.

Speaking of the garage I managed to find a large round crack in the floor. It looks like someone dropped something there on purpose to cause the damage. It’s on the exterior of the garage door. I used some concrete caulk to fill it in. Just the bending and stretching from that has me super sore. I did the work on Wednesday afternoon. Thursday mid-day is when I felt like I had been kicked by a horse or something. It’s around my groin area and in my upper legs. Another sign that I am truly allergic to exercise.

Thursday was my brother’s birthday. Our relationship has been estranged for well over a year when he went back to his bimbo girlfriend and she convinced him to marry her since he couldn’t manage to live without her. I never thought I could live without my late spouse, but death made the decision for me and I had no choice but to push forward. In fact, you can live without someone but it’s not necessarily easy. I figured I would be the bigger person as I usually am and extended the olive branch by sending him a text message. I simply said happy birthday, hope you are doing well. That was about mid-day yesterday. I have no response and don’t believe I am going to get one. It’s a tad bit disappointing but she has him so brainwashed it’s not a complete surprise. I just had one of those gut feelings that I couldn’t ignore that I needed to reach out to him. This is one of those situations that is best left alone and that is what I am doing. I originally thought about calling him but figured that a text message would be better. I have to handle this situation with kid gloves because every time I deal with family I get fucked over, walking away is the best possible thing for me to do. I wish that we had a normal brother relationship and we were there for each other, but I knew from a young age that wasn’t going to happen. My brother is to ‘me’ oriented and only thinks of himself and how situations can work in his favor. We are in fact polar opposites. I can’t say that I won’t try at a future date to make contact with him but I don’t feel I will ever be successful or that if I am successful that our relationship will ever recover. While I may not agree with the choice, he made in who he married, as long he is happy that is the best I can hope for. I do think that he will wake up someday and realize he’s been hoodwinked, but then again maybe not.

Ms. Gator has become more comfortable with her surroundings and has managed to make her way into my office multiple times this week. She will sit with me for short periods of time. She gets vocal if she wants food and stays that way until I give in. We are sleeping together more and enjoying each other’s company. We have played a bit as well. I was surprised that she let me take a shower in peace earlier this week, that doesn’t happen very often. I think she realizes that she is alone and going to be spoiled even more rotten than she already was. She won’t come to the couch via the path that is most direct. Instead she now always uses a path that her brother used. She also wants to lay on his couch so she can be next to me. She’s held me hostage a few times and I make sure that at each chance I get I tell her that I love her. Not to be depressing but I do realize whatever time we have is limited, hopefully it will be a couple years.

I started late yesterday afternoon watching an Amazon Original series called Red Oaks. It was very entertaining. I had some sleeplessness last night and opted to take in a few more episodes. This morning I finished the series. There are 3 seasons and the story ends pretty complete. It’s got humor, drama and is just enjoyable. There is also some nudity, a little something for everyone.

On call has been quiet but not totally silent. No real plans for the weekend other than the usual running. I hope that your doing well and staying safe. I’ll talk with you peeps again soon!