The perfect post

I had composed what I believe was the perfect post.  I did this on my personal laptop at work.  I went to publish and Google threw up a flag because they didn’t recognize the device.  I asked for a security code to be sent and one didn’t instantly appear.  I wound up shutting the machine down, the post wasn’t saved.  Now authentication codes are pouring into my email like crazy.  Thanks Google but your a day late and a $1 short.  So now I will try to recreate a new version of that post. 

I really got to thinking about my promotion and all that I have been through and the working conditions that I have to put up with (i.e. shit for brains) and I really feel it’s an unfair offer.  I asked for more money and was refuted with the argument of how much my salary has grown in a short period of time, it’s excessive.  It’s not impossible to get more money but it would take approval from the Chief.  While I could have gone on and said move forward go ask, I told my boss that I was begrudgingly accepting the offer.  I voiced my displeasure and hope that my working conditions will improve as we move through 2019.  If nothing else they have given me a leg up and something to decorate my resume with.  I don’t believe that I can find a higher paying job where I can easily shine and out perform others.  So while I will be polishing up my resume, I won’t necessarily be actively looking.  I really like where I am but not necessarily the politics that are played and when I try to play, I always wind up getting hurt.  So it’s best to keep my mouth shut, take what they are giving me and call it a day.  I’m happy about the promotion but not as happy as I would have been provided the raise I was getting was more money.  Some think that I am in this for friends or a social life.  They are sorely mistaken, I am in it for one reason only and that is the money.  If I didn’t need the money then I know I could find other things to occupy my time. 

I did find out that my efforts to save the company $2,000 was rewarded with $300 which will be on my next check but is subject to taxes.  Wow I expected more like $500 but hey I’ll take what your giving. 

So no word at all from my friends that usually invite me over for Christmas.  Were at Christmas Eve, Eve and not a word.  My other friend and I got together yesterday at Maggiano’s.  So I have some complimentary pasta and 1/2 of a slice of cherry chocolate cake to polish off.  I find it odd that there is no invitation.  My other friend was told at Thanksgiving they would be doing the usual Christmas thing and we were both invited but that didn’t provide any details as to what day and what time.  I hope nothing bad has happened but something is awry for them not to be in contact by now with a plan.  I could reach out and ask what about Christmas but I kind of think that is a bit pushy and rude.  So I am just letting it lye. They aren’t exactly flowing with money.  All of that entertaining while fun does cost them a pretty penny and I certainly understand if you don’t have the money.  It just would have been nice to communicate.  I am big on communications and keeping people informed. 

Unless I get a phone call that says they are doing something tomorrow I am locked away in my house with my furry children for the next 2 days.  There is plenty to do here but I have to muster the energy and some courage to do it.  Right now I am behind schedule due to nap time and getting together yesterday. 

Some good news is that with the help of Nestle I found the Stouffers casserole I like so much.  It was at Target.  I picked up two of them yesterday.  I plan on having 1/2 of one of them for dinner tonight just because I have been craving it for so long. 

Maggiano’s is always good food and the complimentary pasta is the best but I really liked the eye candy from yesterday the best.  There is a food runner that kind of flirted with me and my favorite waiter was working.  I didn’t make any moves but sure wanted to.  I will have to muster the courage up to do that.  I have no idea if either of them is gay but I can tell you that neither one of them has a ring on their finger.  I know that doesn’t mean anything but nothing ventured, nothing gained. 

With the new year approaching that means that benefits will be changing.  I got my new vision card and benefit details in the mail.  I elected to go with what I am provided with from my late spouse vs buying coverage through work.  Turns out my employer offers better benefits for a small price of $120 per year.  I am stuck with the decision I made for the next year.  Then again I don’t plan on getting new glasses so I should come out okay, provided there isn’t much change to my eyes.  I will need to find a new eye doctor because of the billing screw up, I just don’t trust them any longer as they have compromised the integrity that I thought was there.  Kind of sad.   I also got a new insurance card in the mail, the benefits are a little better starting in 2019 so that is something to look forward to. 

Something funny I did at work.  I saw a co-worker who had Hershey’s Kisses and I asked for a couple of them.  I went to see the straight guy who knows I have a thing for him.  I told him that I really didn’t want to do this in front of to many people but that I had a holiday kiss for him.  I was rather close to his face when I said this and he had a slight look of what is going to happen on his face.  I pulled out a kiss and gave it to him and then stepped back and we were both laughing.  There was another person close by so I gave them one too.  We chatted for a bit and then all of a sudden he turned on his fan.  I said what’s a matter does my kiss have you all hot and bothered.  He said boy and how.  We laughed again.  Then I got serious for a moment and said that I knew we were all laughing but that didn’t necessarily mean that they accepted what I was doing, so I said it was all done in humor and I apologized if anyone was offended.  I knew no one was but wanted to put it out there just in case.  it’s funny but it could easily be turned into a claim for sexual harassment.  As if that wasn’t enough I went to another co-worker who I had come out to earlier this year.  He is going to get married next year and is straight.  I sense some questioning in his sexuality, but knew I could get a laugh from him.  So I went to him and closed his cube door behind me (which I rarely do) and told him that I didn’t want to get in trouble with his fiancé but that I had a holiday kiss for him.  I was also really close to his face when I said it.  He actually anticipated that I was going to kiss him and when I didn’t and gave him a piece of candy he said words to the effect of were not married yet, what I do is my business.  Holy shit I didn’t really want to kiss him and never ever expected that for a response.  He followed up with not that I want you to kiss me but just saying it wouldn’t hurt anything if you did.  Fuck yes it would hurt something.  I was just joking and made that perfectly clear.  So all is well.  if I was his fiancé and heard that story I would be deeply upset.  I am lonely, horny and wanting companionship so I joke around.

There is a cute twink with blond hair and blue eyes that works in one of our other offices.  Every time I have worked with him I never ever hear a thank you and it pisses me off.  He lost his access card so I treated him like everyone else and sent the usual emails and got him a replacement card.  I melt inside when I have to work with him.  I have liked him from the day I saw his photo and while he is younger, I just can’t turn off my feelings for him.  I just can’t act on them.  He is openly gay.  I thought for sure this time I would get a thank you but fuck no, he said nothing.  I could have been a nice guy and accidentally forgot to submit a charge to accounting for his replacement card but now I’d love to submit a double charge.  Fucking ass hat. 

Right now my wish is to go a full 24 hours without smelling any unpleasant bodily odors.  Momma & Marvin both have some upset stomachs and it’s been like a contest that started Friday night.  I went out to Steak N Shake for breakfast this morning and there was a guy who walked in that had just had a personal accident or it smelled that way.  Jesus give my poor nose a break. 

Not much else going on here.  I need to do some serious cleaning but do lack the motivation.  It sounds like a good idea until I go to actually do it and then it’s like nah, I would rather just be lazy.  Well that worked last weekend but it won’t work this weekend.  It might not all get done today but it will get done before I have to go back on Tuesday. 

The mail brought me a surprise.  I apparently managed to over pay my auto insurance and they refunded a small some of money to me.  I figured it was bad news or a bill for $0 showing my account was paid in full but not the case it was a live check.  It’s been deposited already.  That I think is as close as I am going to get to a Christmas present. 

I’m on-call this weekend and had something yesterday and again today, so that will be nice when I get paid for it  My ability to earn overtime officially ends on the 1st of the year, so I am milking it for everything that it’s worth until the end.  I want to churn out every last drop of cash that I can possibly get before the terms of my employment change.  We had power issues on Friday so I got to start early so that helped.  There was another blip just before I headed out on Friday so I hope whatever it was has been fixed otherwise next week will suck bad. 

Well time to shove myself away from the keyboard so that I can get some work accomplished here at home.  I hope that everyone has a great Christmas.  Talk with you all again soon.  Be well!