As per usual, what a week! I am falling behind at work, which is no surprise to me. I feel the pressure to catch up but the more I try the further behind I get. Interruptions are a common theme if it’s not in person then it’s by phone. Seems like everyone knows my name and while normally that is a good thing and should make me feel proud, at the moment it’s causing me a little bit of pain.
Thursday night I was so excited for Friday as I normally am. I had a bitch of a day but getting home with the kids and relaxing is what makes it worth while for me. I went to bed at normal time. I woke up at 3am wrapped up in blankets as if they were a straight jacket. I had a Charlie Horse in my left calf and I had to get out of bed and stand up to make it go away. I finally was able to get out of bed and as soon as I stood up I saw stars. My blood pressure dropped, I got cold and clammy – felt horrible. The pain in my leg stopped but now I had a greater problem. I felt like I was about to pass out and that my sugar tanked. I didn’t pass out but it was very scary and to be all alone was even worse. I was able to get back to sleep but it wasn’t restful sleep. I woke up at normal time and thought about forging forward, I mean I could have made it if I wanted to. I felt nauseated and a little bit tired. My neck was killing me. Then I thought why should I kill myself for work, I am taking the day off and I’m not looking back. I sent an email, turned on my out of office, recorded an absence greeting and then turned off mail on my phone. I put my phone on do not disturb and that was it. There were plenty of things that went wrong but I will deal with that on Monday. I didn’t have much interaction with my phone. I watched TV and slept the bulk of the day. I also took a stronger muscle relaxer which I knew would knock me out. It probably wasn’t the best use of my time, considering that it would have probably allowed me to catch up but it is what it is. They don’t want to pay overtime so I’m not working it unless it’s for on-call related issues or some urgent departure. Yes I am bitter but that is wearing down. Overall I do feel better but I still am dealing with nausea. It’s not nearly as intense as it was when this first hit. I thought for sure I would puke but thankfully that didn’t happen.
As for the early morning wake up call on Friday, I think I may have over done it when I was watching porn the night before. Helix released an awesome scene with Blake Mitchell and Cole Claire, it was wicked hot and I was really into it. I knew the scene was released early in the morning and looked forward to watching it. Normally, if I skip a night or two that will generate Charlie Horses. I did skip Wednesday night but that was because I got a phone call. I didn’t have any side effects Wednesday night or Thursday morning, except that I woke up horny. I thought about taking care of things in the morning but got side tracked with cat issues.
Today I kept true to my word and I have filed my taxes. Way to go me. Well not exactly. The Lemon Car settlement really fucked things up. So my federal refund was lower, I owed my state more money and it also impacted the state I work in so I got less of a refund over all. It was like domino’s falling because it’s income and that affects everything. As far as the government is concerned I was self employed and was declaring that now that it’s tax time. The only good news is that I don’t have to pay my state until April 17th. I will get a check in the mail to them long before that date. I feel like I should have cheated and kept my mouth shut. Chances are pretty good that I would have flew under the radar but I did the right thing because sweating it out is no fun and I don’t want to do battle with the IRS, it’s daunting and costly. It’s a headache I really don’t need. My fear is that I will have raised a red flag by being honest. I sure hope that is not the case.
Now I feel like the walls of debt are closing in on me. I have renewal expenses in February and March that really suck the money. There is the post office box and my car insurance just to name two. The car insurance bill was waiting for me in the mail. I was not happy to see it but knew that it would be there. I really feel like I am being robbed by my insurance company but when I got to check rates no one can beat them. I am tired of trying to fight it, I could change my deductibles but that wouldn’t be a smart move. I just pay them all be it monthly because I can’t pay it in 1 lump sum like I used to. There is and always will be someone wanting to take my money. I just have to get used to it, I don’t know that I ever will. I’d like to build a nest egg that I could pull from.
I made a bold move today. There is a guy on social media that I think is really hot. The problem is that he is into pot and that’s not my thing. I know he’s gay and I know he is in my area. This morning he posted a new selfie and was going on about how he was depressed and trying to work on bulking up. He is a twink, young and still in college. I’m telling you the camera doesn’t do him justice, he is way hotter in person. Today I reached out and left a comment on his post. He commented back and said how sweet I was. Yeah that is me Mr. Sweet and lonely. I could probably push and get a date out of the situation and maybe a boyfriend. However, the drugs are a deal breaker. I know it’s just pot. However, I am vehemently opposed to illegal drugs. I saw what it did to my mom and how it messed up my family, if I only learned one thing in school it was to say no to drugs. I’ve done a good job at that.
Tomorrow it will be time to hit up the grocery store again and fill my tank to prepare for the week ahead. I think I am seeing better gas mileage. It might just be a fluke, I am hyper sensitive to it since it relates to money coming out of my wallet. I got gas cheaper on Wednesday night and a car wash. Of course Thursday it rained and fucked up my ride. Dirty windows are a pet peeve of mine and if they get dirty enough I can’t see which makes driving more difficult The back window on this SUV is everything and it’s the one window that I can’t seem to keep clean. It’s supposed to rain the majority of next week and we have a heat wave coming supposed to be in the 60’s. I know it’s still Winter but were edging closer and closer to spring.
Pandora now has a premium service to make them more like Spotify. Since I am a grandfathered subscriber, it wouldn’t cost terribly much to upgrade but I am happy with what I have and unless they force the issue I am staying put. It’s just that when I launch the app on my phone I get a nag screen that asks me if I want to upgrade. Asking once is fine, twice is even okay but beyond that I think is harassment. Each time I open the app I get the same question. They are trying to tempt me by offering it free for a period of time but thus far I have resisted. I wish there was a way to turn off this nag screen. I have Spotify Premium and it’s nice, picked it up at Christmas for 99 cents per month for 3 months. It’s not all that and a bag of chips. I like Pandora even if they do repeat songs several times per hour. I don’t see me keeping Spotify past the 3 months. Funny thing is I pay annually for Spotify and that renews in April.
When I woke up this morning it was snowing. I stayed home instead of going out to breakfast. I didn’t get out until this afternoon. I hit up Cracker Barrel and got their Meatloaf. I started eating it and got the burps long before my body had any time to digest those green peppers that were in the Meatloaf. It was a good meal that didn’t last long enough. I wanted Olive Garden but settled due to being on-call and the fact that it is a little bit of a hike for me.
The kids are all doing good. They are keeping me on my toes. Momma has been crowing and under my feet, she really wants to go upstairs. I am content to stay down here but she must think it’s a normal night and if that is the case I am down here way past time. She is a great time management boss. She knows my routine and makes sure that I stick to it, including her belly rub club time. I had everyone in my room last night. 3 of them were on my bed, 1 was on the cedar chest at the end of the bed and of course Bear was on the floor. I was thinking it would be a great time for a family portrait, something we always wanted but never managed to do. Getting them all together as adults is next to impossible. I really wished we would have done that when they were younger, cuter and more cuddly. Ah well, off to see what I can find to peak my interest on the net and then it will be upstairs and back to bed.
I hope all is well in your world. Thanks for your visit.
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