Noise

I woke up this morning and all I heard was noise.  I thought it sounded like the sump pump was stuck.  I talked myself out of checking on it.  Went about my day and when it was time to continue laundry the damn thing [sump pump] kicked on and scared the living crap out of me.  It didn’t want to shut off.  I figured for sure I would be spending my day trying to replace it.  Thankfully I took a logical approach and after some testing realized that the float needed to be relocated.  I also learned that there are 3 drains into the pump and up until today I always only thought there was 1.  It’s been raining here and the pump does get a work out when that happens.  Otherwise, it’s silent.  I proved that it still works and tested it twice.  If that thing stops working my basement will be a mess.  This old house has been around for 25 years and I have lived here for around 20 years.  That is a long time to be in one place.  No wonder I have the desire to move but it’s just not practice.  If anything I would downsize and move to a condo, town house or smaller house.  There shall be no apartment living for me.  Close neighbors suck.  I don’t want to hear them and I don’t want anyone to hear me.  Although there have been several times when I orgasm I though for sure the police were going to be called.  Yeah, I’m that loud.  I blame it on too much porn.  TMI.

Still watching Shitts Creek.  Spent time with the kids today and trimmed Marv’s nails.  He wasn’t happy about that.

The weekend has only been 2 days long but it feels more like an eternity.  I was able to relax and just forget about work in general and worry about me, my future and the kids.  My back even stopped bothering me, but now that I am back in front of the computer it hurts. 

Had breakfast at Steak N Shake.  Tried their new Cinnamon Crunch Breakfast Milkshake in the small version.  It’s not something that  I would order again.  Lots of things go good in a shake but cereal isn’t one of those things.  Neither is a hamburger, hot dog or bowl of chili.  Fruit, Birthday Cake, Pumpkin Pie, Hot Fudge those things are perfect for a shake just not all of those ingredients in one shake. 

I am tardy for my evening wind down routine and I am sure I will catch hell for it when I climb the stairs.  I took some time yesterday and went down Memory Lane it brought back all sorts of memories.  I really like looking at kitten picture from when the kids were first born.  They were so tiny and extra cute.  Life was so perfect then and I felt a bliss that I have never experienced before and I am not sure if I will ever experience again.  I miss my life or what it used to be.  I am happy to have freedom and independence but I would cash it all in if only I could go back in time and live the good times again and they would never end. 

Ah well time to shove off and climb the stairs, watch a little more TV with the kids and then get ready for bed.  Here’s hoping Gator doesn’t have one of her fur ball attacks on the bed or at all for that matter.  That little girl has made me wash my bed clothes for the past 3 weeks, she is driving me crazy, but then again so are a lot of things. 

Once again here’s to the week ahead may it be a good one for all of us.  Thanks for stopping by.  How you doin’?

How You Doin?

Thanks for stopping by for another glimpse into my world. 

The week was not as productive as I was hoping it would be.  I made yet another discovery about my fraud of a co-worker and how he is failing to do his job, I found plenty of examples and shared them all with the boss.  I also started a spreadsheet to document every incident, it’s extra work but well worth it.  In the end that could be of help to me.  Of course I am a little paranoid that because I am complaining they are going to let me go instead of him.  I do the job of at least 2 people and only collect 1 paycheck.  It’s not a complaint but rather a fact.  I like my job but having to baby sit is wearing on my last nerve.

On the way home Friday night I decided to treat myself to Wendy’s.  It was really good and I didn’t get a Frosty.  I’ve got plenty of sweets at home to consume.  Thursday nights dinner was pie and water.  I had to pay bills and had an urgent on-call issue to deal with.  After feeding and cleaning up after the kids, putting out the trash and dealing with everything there was no time for supper.  It was way close to bed time.  I wasn’t hungry but decided a little sugar couldn’t hurt.  Besides that the pie will go bad if I leave it for too long and stale pie is horrible.

Speaking of pie, I went for pizza tonight.  Saw the cute boy and he waited on me.  Problem was that my pizza was only half baked, the bottom crust was still slightly raw.  I ate a little bit opted for a box and figured I would finish their job for them at home with my own oven.  Yeah I should have sent it back but I didn’t.  I was in and out in a flash, even back home way sooner than I realized.  Day dreaming and driving are great until you almost miss your exit. 

I spent the bulk of Saturday in bed, sleeping.  I have found a new series on NetFlix called Schitts Creek and it’s damn funny.  I don’t know how I managed to almost miss this but it’s got me hook line an sinker.  Plenty of cute guys, not a lot of sex but it’s funny. 

Stumbled across some music by Nick Jonas.  Wow where have I been.  He’s a really good artist and he’s got a nice body to go with his amazing voice.  Levels is the first song, it sounded strange at first but I love the beat.  The other song is Getting under you.  It’s really good in my opinion. 

The kids are all doing okay.  I got a call about Marv’s follow up blood work but until my $ situation settles a bit there will be no blood work.  Besides that it’s not actually been a full month that he has been on the medicine, we still have a couple weeks to go.  His diarrhea / loose stool is still going on.  I felt so bad for him I skipped 1 pill and things changed a little.  He still longs for my attention and I spend as much time with him as possible.  I have this on-going debate in my mind if it’s time to part ways or if we should keep going on.  I think but don’t know for certain that he is in some pain.  I can tell you for sure that he is feeling discomfort, going to the bathroom as often isn’t fun for him.  It’s not fun for me because I have to clean it up and he is going through more pee pads than his brother.  He still wants to play and he still messes with his brother and sometimes his sisters.  I don’t want to break up the happy family but at the same time I don’t want any of them to be in pain or suffer, not even for a second.  It’s my job to take care of them and not bragging but I think I do a stellar job, all things considered.  Just think of all of the money I have poured in to them over the years, it’s a poor choice if your looking for an investment but the love and good times we have, well those you can’t put a price tag on.  I still miss #1 son, Taz and Blu.  Unless it’s obvious that there is something terminal going on, it feels so wrong for me to play God.  So I think Marv is safe for now.  I still can’t get over the feeling that I am going to lose him.  We did have a great time today as I watched TV and sat on the floor of my room to keep him company while he licked my arm like a spare rib and fell asleep.  We even cuddled in bed for a few minutes.  They all know that I love them and I know they love me and depend upon me so very much.  With out them I would fail and with out me they would fail – so were tailor made for each other.  There was a reason why 13 years ago I picked up their pregnant mother and took her in, little did I know I was saving so many lives, my own included. 

Looking forward to breakfast not sure where I am going to go.  I have a thought of facing my fear and going back to the place where I accidentally asked a 16 y/o guy on a date.  It will be awkward to walk in and I don’t know if I am ready yet.  I imagine that everything will be okay but if he’s told a bunch of his co-workers it could be uncomfortable to me.  Not to mention what may be done to my food.  So I’ll probably stick with my standby of Steak N Shake where I am well known and it feels good to walk in. 

I think I am going to do some Amazon shopping.  I really want that tire monitor and possibly a couple other things.  My next check will for sure have overtime on it and while I am still scraping by, I am okay.  I just hope that when tax season gets here that I get a windfall of a return and I can sock it to some debt to give me some additional breathing room.  Now that will feel really good.  Until then I think very hard before I spend so much as a penny.

The boss will be back next week and it will be him, me and stupid as our other co-worker has taken the week off.  Holy fuck I hope things go well and it’s a calm week.  I already know it won’t be quiet but calm is what I look forward to.  Busy well that is a given.  Ever since earlier this year when my well seasoned co-worker quit I have very little free time and I work for 8 to 10 hours if not longer each day.  It’s wearing me out but I love the money, plus it helps to like what you do.  I am a problem solver, baby sitter and mess cleaner upper.  Now if I could just do all of those things in my personal life well I’d probably be on a date right now and not typing on a blog. 

I do miss the electronic dating scene and really want the apps back.  It’s more of a craving than anything.  Regardless of how it happens I wish with all of my heart that I would meet my next guy.  I wish I could see into the future for that alone but ah well I guess I will just have to wait and stay tuned like the rest of you.  Life is a soap opera and you have no idea what the writers will pencil in next!

Here’s to the week ahead, may it be all that we want it to and more.  So tell me, how you doin?

1-800-273-8255

Naked

Welcome to Sunday!  Have you ever fallen asleep and woke up, not knowing where you are or how you got there?  That happened to me last night.  I woke up and the surroundings looked unfamiliar at first, I was a little panicked but then my brain kicked in and told me I was in my late partners bedroom.  I often go there on weekends for solace from the cats and to experience a different mattress.  I didn’t remember how I got there until I started typing this post, which is several hours later.  You can safely presume I slept rather well. 

I had a very odd dream that I got a job in records for my hometown police department.  It was a 2nd job.  I remember being interviewed and called a few days later.  I showed up but was a little panicked because this was part time and I didn’t know if they would work around my primary jobs schedule.  Turns out they would.  There was a bunch of people huddled around a card table and we were looking through files, why I don’t remember.  Lunch time came and people were eating at the table, when someone showed me the lunch room.  Wow they had everything in there it was a 1st class setup.  All I needed was a fork.  I wonder if this is the world’s way of telling me it’s time to get a second job?  All I know is once I got my bearings I felt amazing when I woke up.  Oh I wish I could sleep like that every night. 

This morning I continued my tradition of having breakfast at Steak N Shake.  There is a regular guy who comes in, an older gentlemen.  He is always passing out coupons and talking with people.  He brings the paper in and will leave it behind for others to read.  Just a nice guy.  This lady and her gaggle of kids came in.  One of which was really cute, still very young but you could tell he was going to be a heart breaker someday.  This guy walks up to the table and starts talking with them.  He looked like he gave them a coupon, the next thing I know the cute kid had a silver dollar.  He was mesmerized by it.  The look on that kids face was worth way more than a dollar.  That got to me a little bit.  I wound up paying for the guys breakfast.  I walked back to his table and told him he could keep his coupon.  I threw away his check and this gasp came over his face.  I told him I paid for his breakfast and he was really shocked.  I told him your always doing nice things for people and I saw what you did for the kid, it’s time someone did something nice for you.  He was very thankful.

Honestly I probably shouldn’t have bought his breakfast but hey he didn’t order anything super expensive and I still have a little bit of money left.  I have food on my table and enough money to fill the tank later in the week, so it’s all good.  Plus it made me feel good.  I just genuinely love to help people when I can.  I am much more wise to the fact that people will play on your sympathy and it makes you an easy mark, so I am very selective as to who I help and when.  I’m not out to save the world and I look out for myself first.  It might sound like I am bragging but honestly it’s not my intention. 

It’s been a productive day.  I purchased some Goo Gone and took the sticker residue that was left from the dealer sticker which I took off of my new vehicle.  They don’t pay me to advertise for them and until they do, there sticker won’t be on any car I drive.  Besides that I think it looks much more classy w/o a dealer sticker.  Then I took off the Sirius sticker from my window.  There is one sticker left and that shows the plant that built the vehicle.  I am leaving that, it’s a tribute and a reminder of the benefits I get from my late partner.  They could have placed it in a different location but hey it is what it is. 

I am not one to load up my car with stickers and certainly not anything gay.  I looked for a gay license plate frame today for fun on Amazon.  They are out there, some more interesting than others.  I like the one that says I am not gay but my boyfriend is.  I don’t want to have my car screaming there is a gay man driving me.  I like to be subtle and well frankly my vehicle looks too fine to put a sticker on it of any kind.  I am still going back and forth in my mind, it’s torture but eventually I will make a final decision. 

Speaking of which I went to the bargain car wash, they got my car just as clean as the expensive place.  There was no hot wax and no tire shine but I saved $7.  Not terrible.  I filled up the tank for the second time this weekend.  So my pie trip was around $63.00 that’s everything totaled up.  Pretty expensive for a weekend trip but hey it was semi-fun.  This morning the vehicle had extra pep and was hard to control at first.  Not sure where that came from but once I got control it was pretty nice. 

I looked on the dating apps and decided today was the day to call it quits.  I pulled the plug and said it’s official now, time for a break.  There were so many guys that I would have liked to connect with but the problem is I have the balls to reach out, they don’t have the balls to reciprocate.  I feel much better talking to the cats.  At least they can look at me as if they understand what I am saying. 

Speaking of cats.  It was really funny when I came home from the grocery store.  I walked in and woke Big Boy up.  He didn’t know who I was and was preparing to jolt when I started talking to him and he just relaxed.  I apologized for waking him, sometimes they go into a deep sleep but it’s not often that I am a witness.  They think nothing of waking me but when the shoe is on the other foot they aren’t terribly happy about it. 

I let them skip there pills for the weekend, which usually is Friday night and all day Saturday.  We go back to the schedule on Sunday night.  Marv wasn’t feeling well at all this morning.  He ate just a tiny bit.  When I came back from the store there was a mess waiting for me, but at least it was on a pad.  He looked disheveled.  He wasn’t dehydrated but he was well on his way.  I got some medicine on board and while he wasn’t terribly happy, within a couple hours he was much better.  He got his lunch down and attacked his brothers dinner, so I think he is fine.  We have even played a little ball today.  I’ll take another look at him in a few hours and may give him a little bit of fluids for peace of mind.  I am way past the deadline for the blood work recheck on Big Boy and Marv’s blood work is coming due soon.  I hate to put it off but Big Boy is doing fine.  Marv is the one I worry about, so he is likely to go first.

In my productivity quest today I opted to replace the faceplate cover for my iPhone.  Some air got in and it’s just not the same.  I’ve been living with it for a while.  I had a second screen to replace it with and I got everything ready and applied it.  Then I realized my aim was off just a hair.  I went to remove it and move it which you can do, but I used a little too much force and it snapped.  So now I am carrying around my phone with a naked screen.  Much like in real life naked is better but it puts you at risk for injury or damage.  I will be extra careful but I am by nature careful when it comes to my phone.  That is a lot of $ tied up and I don’t want to damage it, even if I do have insurance.  The plain screen is a finger print and dust magnet.  Thankfully, a replacement screen will be here on Tuesday.  I could have gone out to buy one but why spend $40 to have it today when you can spend $8 and get it on Tuesday, plus have 2 backups.  Let’s hope my decision was prudent to wait and be frugal. 

Looking forward to spending the remaining hours with the kids.  Having a slice of pie.  As if I really need it.  I’ve wiped out the 2 cinnamon rolls.  Watching some good TV, more specifically Vice Principals and Last Week Tonight with John Oliver.  If I can pair that with some good porn and a decent nights sleep, I think Monday might not be so bad.  One thing is for sure it will be an interesting day!

Here’s to a great week ahead, I’m going to do some music scouring and then make my bed and get on with spending time with the kids.  Charlie Puth has a new song out called How Long, it’s pretty good.  Waiting for his sophomore album to be out in 2018.  He is teasing it really well.  Cheers!

Pie Time

Thanks for stopping by.  Friday was a bit of a busy day but thankfully it’s behind me.  I had to work with ‘stupid’ referring to my colleague who is a fraud.  I chatted with an old boss of mine and was encouraged to keep documentation, that is all I can do at this point.  It may or may not come in handy in the future.  Pouring all of that energy into creating the incidents will be time consuming but totally worth it.  Perhaps there will be time to do this during the week, I am going to try to make it happen.

Saturday morning came all too soon.  I was woken up by my neighbor with a motorcycle who kept revving it up.  8a on a Saturday, come on people wants to sleep in.  What did I do?  I got up and fed the cats.  Then came back to my room and looked to see what hot porn was available.  Found a nice scene with Blake Mitchell, it was hot but not what I was expecting.  Anyway eventually I made my way back to bed while watching TV to get sleepy.  It worked and I fell back to sleep.  Got up at noon. 

Took a shower, which is rare for me on a Saturday.  Used the new shampoo that I got that is supposed to make my hair shine with the very first use.  Yeah maybe there was a little bit of difference but it wasn’t drastic, which is what I was looking for.  I’ll keep using it in the hopes that it builds up over time.  My hair did feel amazing though so it was worth the $. 

Got dressed, put out more food for the children.  Out the door I went.  Headed to get gas, stopped by the post office and then on to Pie City.  It rained part of the way, which made driving a little bit more difficult but I kept forging forward.  By the time I reached the pizza place I wanted to stop in and call the trip off, but it didn’t happen.  I made it and got a nice parking spot close to the door, so I didn’t get soaked walking in. 

I had a traditional Thanksgiving meal minus Cranberries.  They were very generous with the gravy and the whole thing really filled the hole in my stomach.  I could tell I was full, which doesn’t happen often.  I got what I came for Pumpkin, Pecan pie.  It’s topped with some special Cinnamon and Nutmeg.  It was sinfully delicious.  I got a whole pie of that to come home with.  Plus 2 Cinnamon Rolls and 2 Carmel Pecan Rolls.  My oh my I didn’t drop $50 but it was very close. 

Drove home in rain the entire way.  Going up gas mileage was really good.  Coming home in the rain and wind, gas mileage was horrible.  My mind was wondering, I was listening to music from my phone and I wasn’t terribly picky which I normally am.  Everything sounded really good.  I guess that is the sound of freedom and being relaxed, free from work, worry and life in general.  All I had to worry about was keeping my eyes on the road and the others around me.  I wish I had many more of those moments, they are far too seldom. 

Came home, put away the baked goods.  Fed the children and then it was back on the road again.  I went to get my haircut [yes all of them, not just one].  Wound up in a very chatty conversation and my haircut felt much more like a therapy session, lasting around an hour.  The haircut it’s self was done in 15 minutes if that.  There isn’t much to it, you grab a guard and a clipper, buzz away and then it’s time for a head job [no not that kind of a head job] meaning a shampoo.  That along with the hot towel at the end is the best part of the haircut.  After I left I stopped in for cat food and then finally got to come home. 

Unloaded the cat food and of course guess who was hungry.  Yep, all 5 of them.  Had to pass out more food.  Well I didn’t have to I chose to.  Working on laundry and getting ready to pack up for the night.  SNL should be on and I always look forward to that.  Colin Jost is the man I crush on the most from the cast.  He is just so hot!

Speaking of men, I went back on Grindr and the guy I messaged days ago finally read my message.  There was no response to which I take there is no interest.  I quickly went in and cancelled my renewal just days before it’s going to happen.  I’ve decided that unless something magical happens before Tuesday that I will be jumping off all of the apps.  Taking a break is what I think I need.  Holidays will bring college kids home and while I’d love a college hottie, that would be a temporary thing which is not what I am looking for.  I don’t know how long my break will last.  If I am on during the holidays I try to shy away from college guys, unless they go to the college that is practically in my backyard. 

It just makes no sense to me that people are on a site, looking for sex or dating but when you hit them up they can’t give you the time of day.  No wonder they are perpetually on the sites, they don’t respond.  I mean if someone is knocking when your advertising, then you should probably answer the door.  I mean you just never know who you are passing up.  People are weird as well as stupid.  Hopefully my prince charming will come along so I no longer have to worry about dating apps.

Over the summer a lady I used to work with was fired, for no reason at all.  We were pretty good friends or so I thought.  She has one hell of a legal case and is perusing that, which I don’t fault her for.  We kept in touch pretty regularly and there was two weeks when we didn’t talk.  I reached out to her a day after I got my new vehicle and she told me she was headed out of town, that she would catch up soon.  I have no idea what her definition of soon is but were coming up on one month.  How long can a person travel?  Besides that your unemployed why are you traveling when your short on money?  My theory is that she found a job, they sent her out of town for orientation and she is immersed in her new world.  For whatever reason she has shut all of the people that she used to work with and was close with out of her life.  Not sure if that is an on purpose thing and she is moving on or if she is prohibited from talking with us because things went south with her legal case.  I mean it is not the type of thing an employer would want to be brought into court, so these types of things usually settle out of court with an agreement that prohibits one from disclosing terms of the settlement and from talking about what happened.  The employer or in this case former employer is buying their peace.  Well I said all of that to say that I decided to send her a letter just saying hey it’s me, get in touch with me.  That is my last move.  I won’t make any further attempts to reach her, I mean if she doesn’t want to talk to me for whatever reason then all I would be doing is harassing her and that’s not a road that I want to travel.  I mean I am hurt by the lack of communications but hey it’s not the end of the world. 

So there you have it my Friday & Saturday.  Sunday will be breakfast out with a coupon, a trip to the grocery store, fueling up the thirsty vehicle and maybe even getting it washed.  Then it will be home for the remainder of the day to surf, clean, watch TV, shave, shower and eventually prepare for Monday.  Yuk!  I know Monday is Columbus Day but my employer doesn’t observe that as a holiday.  We have to wait until Turkey Day for our next 2 days off.  It’s a long time away but it will be here before you know it, just like tax day. 

Stop back by again soon for your next dose of a glimpse into my world.  I know it’s super exciting and keeps you on the edge of your seat.  Yes, friends that is sarcasm!   

Wow it’s huge

My men in a box arrived and I got much more than I thought I was getting.  Apparently I need to pay close attention to dimensions.  I ordered Dylan Rosser’s Wet and it’s Gallery Sized yeah it takes up some real estate.  I saw this extra large box sitting on my front porch and I just knew I was in for a surprise.  Thankfully it’s not like last year where I ordered naked men and got a flower calendar, along with the packing slip of the person who placed the order.  If she got my order I’ll bet she was really surprised, that was a fun conversation to have with an Amazon rep. 

I did make it back to work today.  I didn’t want to go but 3rd day and you need a doctors note so why push it.  Plus I really didn’t want to use all of my time to just take a break.  It’s been a rocky year full of emotions some good and some bad.  We still have 2 more months to go before it’s all over with.  Wow!

I took a leap of faith and talked with a co-worker about our co-worker.  We both see the same picture and pretty well agree that our new guy is nothing but dead weight.  He is going to fuck something up really bad and the hammer will come down.  Until that happens we are stuck with him and have to make an effort.  He’s got a bit of an attitude with me because I turned him in for missing a departure.  That is HUGE, I mean it was a retirement but if it would have been a disgruntled employee just think of all of the things that could go wrong. 

What prompted me to have the conversation was I got an email this morning asking for help.  I talked about Active Directory and you would have thought I was talking another language.  I said you need to remove him from this group and that will fix the problem.  Oh how do I do that?  That’s when I wanted to scream are you fucking stupid.  I already know the answer.  Apparently he came from an abusive work environment, well if you are dumb as stone and treat people like your treating me, it’s no wonder they were abusive.  I have never been in such a pickle like this before.  The problem is his skin color and he uses that to his advantage.  He is just in over his head and why he can’t be a man and say something is beyond me.  I mean it’s fixable but he’s too proud because this is likely the highest paying job he has ever had.  I deserve his money and his title much more than he does.  I really busy my hump!  He is barley qualified to be a help desk person but this is a case of a brother helping a brother out.  Fuck politics be it office or in real life it’s just a huge mess. 

Will & Grace is on tonight and I so look forward to that.  There is some other good Fall TV on as well.  So it should be a good night.  Then off to bed and work one more day.  Then I can do what I want for 2 whole days before I go back on-call again.  Yikes, I know it’s soon but I switched with my boss so he could go on vacation. 

In the dating world I signed on to Grindr tonight and the guy that I have the mad crush on that I thought dropped off the face of the earth, well he signed on.  Holy crap I was excited but he didn’t read my message yet.  I said yesterday I don’t beg but I just might beg him.  I really am hoping for a response and a positive one at that.  I won’t hold my breath but I haven’t given up just yet. 

Time to go be with the fam and play on my phone as the night passes us by.  Like sands through the hour glass so are the Days of Our Lives.  Time to go see All My Children!  Hope you had a great day and that your Friday is awesome!

Hot Men in a box

Interesting title, huh?  It was time to order calendars and no ordinary plain calendar will do for me.  I have to have hot naked or nearly naked men.  One for my office in the basement.  One for my bedroom and one on the fridge in the kitchen.  One thing is for sure if there is ever any kind of an emergency and I need help from fire or police when they come in they will be shocked by all of the naked men in pictures.  I’m gay this is my house and it’s my choice.  I guess it might shock a guy if I ever do get serious into dating.  But I’ll worry about that when it happens.  Sort of like winning the lottery but hopefully with much better odds.

I woke up this morning and had a decent nights sleep but lacked motivation to go in.  I used the one more day won’t hurt.  Christ was I wrong.  It was a busy damn day the phone was driving me nuts and I did take a break from it.  I have a lot of knowledge and certain duties were entrusted to me along with my former co-worker who left.  Since then I have been cross training and it’s not going terribly well.  The new guy on our team is dumb as stone, not sure where they found him but he’s a total fraud and doesn’t know anything about IT Security.  It’s obvious but I believe he was a diversity hire and because of that were stuck with him until he t-totally fucks up royally.  I thought we had him last week when we had to take 4 machines off the network but nope just a slap on the wrist and were back to normal.  Our boss asks him to do things and he doesn’t follow through or if he does it’s half-ass.  I don’t trust him and I don’t like him but since I have to work with him I just muster along.  I have given up complaining because it does no good, I am just letting him hang himself and with enough time he will.  I don’t like to see anyone lose their job but this guy is clearly in over his head, he lacks common sense so I don’t know how he manages to make it to the office but he does.  Thankfully we don’t work in the same office or I probably would have gone off on him already.  It takes a lot of restraint seeing how he is a senior level person and is supposed to know more than me, who is the junior level person – I literally run circles around him and have been carrying our whole team.  Now I think my taking 2 days off will make a little more sense.  It won’t change a thing but it did give me a slight break.

Thank you for the comments, it’s nice to know that I have regular readers.  Mr. Dot I remember you and have thought about you, kind of figured that you were gone, glad that is not the case.  My long time friend Jude, glad your still along for the ride.  You both made my day!

I opted to renew my Grindr subscription for 1 more month, then I will go back to my swearing it off.  I’ve been on Tindr for quite sometime.  I got a match with a hot young guy over a month ago but neither of us has made a move and that is not likely to happen.  The electronic era has made dating more convenient but it’s also made it awkward, I mean what do you say?  People crave attention but you send them a message and never hear from them.  You can clearly see they got the message but chose not to respond.  I don’t beg, I block if you don’t respond with in a few hours of getting a message from me your blocked and I move on.  I don’t want to hit up a bunch of guys at once, with my luck I would start chatting with a bunch of them and get things mixed up.  I am not a player I just need 1 genuine good guy and that will be enough for me.  Maybe someday that will happen, be it from a dating app or from real life.  Either way I wish it would hurry up, because being alone is fun but it gets old and is depressing. 

As you well know from prior post I am an Amazon a holic.  I get my monies worth of free shipping from my Prime Membership.  I ordered some shampoo & conditioner by Sebastian, I was doing too many things at once and screwed up.  I got a different product than I wanted.  Sure I could return it but it’s just easier to order the right thing.  So I did that and spent $18 more the right stuff arrives on Friday.  Supposed to make my hair shine – I am all about shine, just wish my hair were a little darker like it was when I was younger.  Everything changes with age. Some good and some not so good.

Fall TV is back.  Saw The Middle, Axl looks pretty hot, too bad the network blurred him when he was nude, I wouldn’t mind looking at his buns or anything else he has to display.  I’ve got lots of crushes and look forward to seeing new episodes.  I do get the occasional laugh out of a show as well as subtle reminders about life, so that makes it worth while. 

Before I go scampering off to take in some of that Fall TV.  October is Cyber Security Awareness Month.  How relevant given the Equifax breach.  Attacks are getting more sophisticated and breaches are becoming more common place.  You have to operate with caution just as you would when driving a car.  You never know what is going to happen.  It’s important to prepare ahead of time so that your data is backed up, your passwords are change in regular intervals and you use a password safe, preferably one with a cloud presence like 1Password or LastPass, so that if you do fall victim it’s easy to recover.  Never, ever pay ransom there is no assurance you will get your data back.  I heard the other day where a police department paid ransom they got their files back and 1 month later they were infected again and had to pay all over again.  Their IT people told them it’s best to pay.  I don’t know who they hired but clearly they didn’t know what they were doing.  We all like to think nothing will ever happen to us, but it does.  It’s best to operate with caution and be prepared so that your not operating in total chaos. 

Now upstairs to take in some fall TV, eat a chocolate muffin wash it down with a glass of milk and enjoy time with the cats before it’s time to medicate them and myself, preparing for Thursday.  Not so bad 1 day back, followed by 1 more and then it’s the weekend.  Next week the boss is on vacation so we should all be able to make some progress and maybe I will be able to dig out from all of the crap that is bogging me down.  Here’s hoping. 

Thanks for stopping by, I hope your day was awesome. 

Did ya miss me?

In the middle of a post a short time back I asked if anyone still reads this and if so to leave me a comment.  I didn’t get any comments so I thought about it and decided to close up shop.  However, I could be getting traffic and just have readers who either don’t like to comment or are too shy.  Hey I don’t bite unless you either provoke me or you want me to bite.  Seriously, I’m pretty chill, try me leave a comment. I missed you and have decided to come back.

I made my first payment on my new ride.  Man overtime is what is paying the bills around here, if it wasn’t for that I would be t-totally fucked and not in a good way.  I skip lunch, come in early and some nights stay late.  I am just drowning in a never ending pile of stress that is work.  There is good in that it will generate income, but the bad is the stress effects it has on my body.  I’ve been going in hyper-drive for so long that today I had to take a break.  I woke up exhausted and today was the day I called in.  I went back to bed and just lounged around the house.  I made 1 trip out to grab the mail and came right back home.  I have watched a couple movies and a Netflix comedy special.  Of course I had my phone with me and have been watching email off and on throughout the day.  There was nothing that was pressing, I got one semi-urgent issue towards the end of the day and decided it could wait until morning.  I have every plan to go back tomorrow, I know when I wake up I will feel like I need another day but it’s better for everyone if I just ease back into my routine, life is much better that way.

The new ride is still very nice.  I have had a lot of fun with it but I keep a close eye on MPG and gas use in general.  This thing is hungry for fuel.  I fill up at the start of the week and then towards the end of the week it’s time to do it all over again.  I used to be able to go a full 5 days with back and forth to work on one tank of gas, not now.  I got a larger fuel tank in the new ride but since it uses more fuel there really is no gain here.  It’s got a lot of get up and go – you press the gas and it will take off.  Put it in sport mode and you are driving a rocket.  It’s at 90mph pretty fast and it feels like I am going 50mph.  There is a turbo in it and that my friends is where all of the power is at.  I am very proud of it and all of my accomplishments.  This really feels like the reward that I am entitled to have, it’s like we were meant for each other. 

Now into the dating world.  There has been no change.  I have a message into a guy who is younger than me and of course I decided to send it when he decided to boycott grindr.  Us gays have a love hate relationship with that app.  It seems everyone takes a break or deletes it and starts over.  My luck clearly is not the greatest but I still keep on trying.  I have talked with other guys even a guy who said he was recently widowed.  I figured we would hit it off but nope he wanted nothing to do with me.  I don’t know what it is but I seem to have a repellant that chases all of the guys away.  It is depressing. 

I ran into the snake oil sales woman with her voodoo magic and I bought up a line of cosmetics over the weekend at Sam’s.  It’s not make up but cleansers, scrubs, moisturizers, etc.  It’s a whole routine and all because I gave her my wrist and 10 minutes of my time.  She showed me all of the dead skin cells that were trapped in my wrist – which of course are trapped in the rest of my body.  Why I fell for this is beyond me but it was like a worm in my brain.  I said no, exited the store but it’s all I could think about and I went back.  Dropped over $100 for this and walked out with the de-lux package.  It was a nice pick me up but hey I really would like my money back.  I have used the products so that isn’t going to happen.  They are all popular and expensive by a brand that I never heard of but when I put the name in my browser it knew what I was talking about. 

The kids are all doing okay.  Ruth gave in and let me trim her claws this past weekend.  I used the toenail trimmer on her because they were so long and the regular clipper had the blade in upside down so it just didn’t work.  I had her and wanted to get this over with so I brought back up.  She emptied out her bladder and of course attacked me while voicing her displeasure but a couple hours later we were the best of friends again, because she wanted food.  Funny how that plays into things.  Marv still has his stomach issues and he just rejects the liquid medicine that will help a little with this.  I decided to stop because it’s not worth fighting with him, the cure is worse than the symptoms and fighting with him has caused him to loose a little trust in dear old dad.  I don’t want to hurt him or any of them but if you need medicine, then I want to be responsible and give it to him.  I increased his steroid as the vet recommended and that has helped a little bit.  At least I have him trained to use the pee pads and he goes through them faster than his brother.  I think some days it’s a competition. 

My ultimate worry is that I am in way over my head and yeah I probably am a little bit, but as long as I have my job with overtime then I think I will be okay.  That’s from a financial standpoint.  Mentally and Physically, well that is anyone’s guess. 

This is the birth month of my late spouse and it’s already messing with me.  It’s been 4 long years and I miss him so much, instead of time healing the wound it’s like it makes it worse.  It doesn’t help that I am still in the same house with most of his possessions around me.  I think I would be doing a little better if I got rid of all of that stuff and moved.  That isn’t going to happen anytime soon. 

Well upstairs to be with the children and wind down the day, so that I can get back to business tomorrow.  Hope all is well in your world.  Tell me all about it, honestly I’d love to hear about it.  Human interaction is something that I crave, probably more than I should.  Be well. 

Guys, Food and Travel

The end to another crazy week and Friday seemed to bring all of the crazy people to my desk.  There were some obvious things that people didn’t need to say or ask, but people are who they are.  It keeps things interesting for sure!

Saturday morning … I got woke up by Gator singing to me, she doesn’t give up for a long time.  I fed the kids and spent a little time walking around the house and being with them.  Played on my phone as well.  I was killing time on purpose as I had a plan in mind.  I figured grab breakfast, get my hair cut, grab the mail and come back and spruce up the new vehicle a bit.  Nah, a bunch of people got in line at the haircut place and were on the list long before I ever tried to check in.  I opted that my luck may change and decided to wait patiently in case there was an opening.  It looked like there would be an opening but each and every time that happened more people would just show up.  I did get in the chair 15 minutes early but after spending close to an hour and a half there, big deal. 

There was a college kid that came in, he had to wait to get his name on the list and he was super cute.  He also had a VPL, I could see his underwear and how it hugged his nice little ass so very well.  He rattled off his phone number and I could have easily written it down and now wish I would have.  I tried to remember his name but that didn’t work out so well for me.  Ah well he was cute. 

I checked on my Grinder while I was waiting and no word from the cute guy, but I did get a message from someone else.  I went to engage in conversation and turns out they were looking for cyber chat sex, even though his profile said otherwise.  I don’t get it, be honest it doesn’t matter to me what your looking for, we all have different tastes.  However, if you say your interested in dating and I am interested in dating well then if I find you attractive I will reach out … then if I learn your only interested in a cyber hookup well it was a waste of both of our times because that is not what I am looking for. 

I got my paperwork for the new car, called and got my on-line access all setup so that I can see when payments post and I can watch the balance go from large to small with a lot of time.  I grabbed a nap and then worked on the vehicle for a bit.  I got in some new Armor All Glossy Shine wipes and went over what I wanted to along with some leather wipes.  I also took out the head rest for the 3 back seat passengers.  I kept them in the vehicle in case I happen to get a car load of people but don’t expect that to happen.  It really opens up the back and I have a full not a partial window to look out of, very nice. 

Wanting to improve gas mileage I filled up the tank and headed down to the buffet.  It was later in the day than I wanted but I got to go and had some really delicious food.  I figured dinner would cost more than lunch but that was not the case.  Then took my time and drove back.  I got up to 28 mpg which was really awesome to see.  As I figured the more I drive long distances the better the gas mileage will be.  Even though the sales and service people both say new cars today don’t have a break in period, they do.  I’ve proven it twice.  It was a very good day!

Sunday … I woke up a bit late and went to IHOP for breakfast.  That sucked away and hour and a half of my time, much more than I have to dedicate just to eating.  It took forever to get my food, my waiter finally came to tell me and all he offered me was ketchup or hot sauce while I waited.  I wonder was that supposed to make up for the delay?  There was no tip given, he kept my glass full but I had to ask.

The grocery store wasn’t packed which is very good.  I made it in an our in my usual quick manor and dropped a little bit of money.  I bought a bag of suckers and took them back to the hair cut store to donate.  The corporate office is stopping giving out suckers, the store had their last batch and when they are gone suckers officially stop.  Suckers were always something to look forward to when I was a kid and I don’t see why anyone would want to stop that.  A small bag set me back a whopping $3 but think of how much happiness that $3 bought and how many smiles it will broker as well as how happy so many kids will be.  I mean it’s worth it.  This despite the fact that I don’t like kids at all.  We all start as children and grow from there why not do the right thing? 

Back on point – after dropping off the suckers I came home.  Got the groceries put away and cleaned the garage up.  I have things rearranged so that I can now back in and open the lift gate w/o any problem.  Backing in will be hard to adjust to but it’s nice to have options especially since the weather will be changing soon. 

Then I went back out and got gas and paid for my first car wash.  I was told I had automatic wipers but it was a lie.  Came back home and backed in to the garage.  The heat was sweltering and I am sure it dried off my new ride quickly.  I like starting the week on a fresh step – clean car, full tank of gas.  Backing in will let me leave a little easier in the morning.  No doubt there will be plenty to do this week but at least Friday is payday.  Something to look forward to and I will be able to make my first car payment way earlier than the due date, which will hopefully start my relationship out the right way with the new lienholder. 

I got a nap in and now it’s time to get busy with cleaning the place up, taking out trash and figuring out what to eat for dinner.  As well as my usual shower and shave.  Then it’s just a matter of time for bed and waking up to start a new week.  Ugh, Mondays!

Not quite full

My boss asked me to cover his on-call for a few hours tonight.  It’s not an unusual request and I am always happy to help.  He let me leave early and that served as quite the blessing to me.  I was able to run a few errands and get Marv’s medicine.  I was home by 5:15p and that is uncommon on a week night.  When I get to leave early like that I wish that I could do it every day but there is a price to pay and that price means waking up earlier.  I could do it but I am used to ‘my shift’ and would rather not disrupt things. 

One of the places I stopped at was the gas station.  The pump shutoff and I did my usual thing, grabbed my receipt and hopped back in behind the wheel.  Started the vehicle and reset all of the trip monitors and fuel economy meters.  Then I pulled away.  I happened to glance down at the gas gauge and noticed that I didn’t have a full tank.  It’s just a little over half full.  What in the world?  I am totally confused by that, it’s never happened to me before.  I guess the pump was overly sensitive.  I am driving myself nuts because I really want a full tank of gas but I am home and out of my work clothes.  I don’t want to get dressed just to stop for gas.  I’ve got enough for the 2 days left in the week, unless I drive like Mario Andretti.  Then I will fill up again.

I’m thinking about the weekend and a visit to the buffet sounds really nice.  I’d like to go for pie but it’s more expensive and rather than tempt myself to spend oodles of money I don’t have.  I always drop a minimum of $50 that includes a meal, a whole pie and caramel pecan rolls.  My mouth is watering thinking about the rolls.  They are a dressed up version of a cinnamon roll, which they sell.  However, spending $15 total for a couple trips through the buffet sounds pretty good as well and I can finish with their famous bread pudding.  Ah I am making myself hungry and I already ate supper.  If anyone still reads this leave me a comment letting me know your out there.  I have thought about potentially closing shop.  The weekend is so close but yet so far away.  2 days fly by extra quick.  

I got some bad news on Monday.  A lady that I worked with a little bit, had a heart attack over the weekend and died.  She worked remote from her home in Vegas.  I went looking today on-line and apparently she was a little bit of a celebrity.  I just exchanged an email with her last week and poof that’s it.  What a sobering reminder that at any age we can just drop dead at any moment.  Kind of brings life into perspective.  It’s still a big secret at work and I can’t do anything with her account until the official word comes out.  Not sure why it’s taking so long.  I am sad that she passed, but hopefully she is in a better place. 

Funny cat story.  Big Boy has decided to start doing some of his bathroom business on the couch.  I have a cover that I put on the couch for that reason and it’s been there for a very long time.  I got tired of coming home and doing laundry.  So I washed it on Monday and got it in place for him late Monday evening.  Then I thought I would outsmart him.  I put two pee pads on top of the cover.  Now he thinks he is barred from the couch and he won’t jump up there.  It’s funny but it’s not.  I know that he loves his couch almost as much as he loves food and belly rubs.  So I guess I will be removing the pads and of course that means I will probably wind up doing laundry again soon.  Not a fan but hey these cats rule this house and don’t let me tell you differently. 

Still no word from the guy I messaged.  I think I must have picked the week to send the message when he decided to take a break form the app.  The message is waiting for him and hopefully he signs back on over the weekend.  I’ve got a couple weeks left in my subscription, hopefully he gets the message before that time.  Not a lot of guys are interested in me, not sure why.  Plenty of people tell me I am handsome but I don’t buy it, I don’t like my looks – however I am comfortable with who I am and the way I look.  Sure a few pounds shed would be nice but I won’t transform into Magic Mike.  I think a lot of guys feel the same way.  It kind of sucks being attracted to younger guys because in the gay community it’s all about vanity and age.  Some younger guys want and older guy or a daddy.  I’m not looking for a son, I’m looking for a boyfriend who will hopefully develop into a partner.  The quest of dating really sucks.  I never knew I had it so good until it was all gone.  That is the case for many people but then it’s too late. 

Moral of this entire post.  Life for today and be happy with who you are and what you have.  It can all be gone way too soon.  Appreciate those in your life because they too can be gone way too soon. 

Happy Hump Day!

New Ride & A Guy

My new ride is really enjoyable but I really hate the fact that the gas gauge is headed towards empty much quicker than it would have been in my car.  A tank of gas would last me an entire week of doing nothing but commuting to work with a stop at the post office twice a week.  I started on Monday with a full tank of gas and now I have 53% left. 

Yesterday I got stuck in traffic because of a police pursuit and they closed two lanes on one of the freeways I use to come home on.  It was a mess.  Funny thing the message boards said it was a vehicle fire, but I knew that was BS when I didn’t see any fire equipment.  The local news app on my phone had preliminary details about it and then it just vanished.  Okay, whatever. 

Thinking that I could out smart the man, I paid for a chip for my new ride.  I thought it would simply plug into the ODBC connector inside the car, but nope.  They want me to cut wires on the air flow sensor and attach their device.  They promise it won’t do any damage or void my factory warranty.  I just shelled out more money than I have ever spent in my entire life on a car.  This gadget might well work fine, but I am not a gambling man. 

I went through the on line return through Amazon and this is the first time I had to pay to return something.  It’s only $6.95 but it pisses me off.  I told Amazon all about it but I don’t know that I will ever get that part of my money back.  I’m shipping it back tomorrow from work.  I’d rather pay for gas than take a chance and fuck everything up – that would really send me through the roof.  No need to take chances.  Hopefully, once I break in the new ride the MPG will be more stable.

Since I shelled out money for a Grinder Subscription I figured I might as well use it.  I’ve had my eye on a couple guys.  I took a chance on a local college kid, he seems to want the same thing as I do and neither of us are interested in hookups.  There is a huge age difference and I told him about it up front.  I didn’t say how old I am but told him that I was older than he is.  Thankfully, I don’t look my age.  He was on over the weekend but I sent my message last night.  Now he hasn’t signed back on to see it.  I keep checking off and on.  It would be nice to chat and maybe get a date.  Outside of the age difference since he is in college once he graduates he might move away so if things work out it could be short term.  However, I have nothing to lose in this situation because I have nothing.  Worst case scenario I wasted my time.  Next best case scenario we become friends.  Best case we hit it off and become boyfriends.  I’ll keep you posted.  Keep your fingers, eyes, arms, toes, legs and anything else you can cross for good luck.  I could sure use it!

Now it’s time to go on clean up patrol for the cats.  Poor Marv he’s still got some diarrhea.  The vet didn’t call in his script for his IBS so I have to wait another day or two before it will be ready.  I want to get him started on that for a couple days, then I will start him back on thyroid medicine, hopefully this situation works out well.  He’s on my mind and I can’t help but think about losing him.  I know I should be more positive.  I don’t want him to be miserable and lose confidence in himself.  I want the same happy go lucky pal I have had for the past 13 years. 

Winding up Tuesday and preparing for Wednesday.  Holy cow! 

Luxury Ride

Another week is behind us and it was the most expensive week of my life, other than when I took on the mortgage.  I bought a new vehicle.  I spent the most money ever on an SUV that I like.  This happened out of the blue and wasn’t planned. 

I had a thumping noise in my right front tire.  I took it to the dealer on Monday and they said it had slight feathering, meaning there was some wear and a slight bald spot.  They said drive it, you will be fine.  Okay so I drove out and was planning on going home.  As soon as I pulled off their lot I got a warning light, I pulled over and took a minute to comb through the menu and found out it was a parking system fault.  I drove back they told me it was a parking sensor.  I pulled it out of the service bay and I went inside and asked who I could talk to about potentially buying something new.

Then we began the dance.  I was shown a vehicle that I asked to see with only part of the options that I wanted.  We test drove it and I liked it but I really needed a sun roof.  So then I went up in price, I had my eye on something else but it had a dead battery.  Which is a sign not to buy it.  So I found a different model and I was very happy.  Only problem is it was like driving a boat, very large.  I didn’t want to have a vehicle that large.  For $2 thousand dollars more I could have what I really had my eye on, so I got it. 

I took a loss of $3 thousand dollars and that is rolled into my new auto loan.  Then I cashed in my old warranty which got me $1,500 back.  Then I added GAP Coverage and a Warranty and right back up the price went.  It’s financed for 6 years and payments are over $600 per month.  That is a lot of fucking money for a car but this is a luxury SUV, still a lot of money. 

I took Tuesday off because I had to come back for interior and exterior protection coatings.  I really only wanted to protect the inside but that wasn’t an option it was both or nothing.  The interior is 100% leather.  I’ve got Air Conditioned and Heated Seats.  It rides like a Cadillac but it’s not one. 

So I did cause an emotional breakdown for myself and I was in panic mode thinking of how I would be able to make the payments.  Well I applied the Elephant theory to it.  If your going to eat an Elephant how do you start?  1 piece at a time.  I took the payment and divided it in 1/2 and figured that it would take $300 plus dollars from each check.  So long as I keep raking in the overtime I will be fine.  If overtime stops then I will be cutting it close.  I still have a little in reserve for savings but really don’t want to tap that unless I have to. 

Payday was Friday and that was the true test.  I’ve marked that I took the money out, so it’s reserved.  I can only spend the balance in the account.  I’ve got close to $200 left and that should last me for the next 2 weeks, until we do it all over again. 

It’s odd that there were some signs in place that I took as telling me to do this.  First, the code to enter on the keypad if I don’t have a remote to get in was a mash up of the last 4 digits of my late partners social security number.  The other sign was the 1st payment is due 1 day before his birthday.  I’ll be prepared at the end of the month to make the payment and if the payment details are here by then I will send it off.  Nothing like getting it out of the way!

I have been all over the place and a total mess.  I figured the weekend would help with that but nope.  I took a muscle relaxer on Friday night and spent a good portion of the day on Saturday sleeping.  It was 3p before I got up and was moving.  I went out for pizza and the gay waiter was kind of flirting with me a little bit.  I had on my pride flag shirt so he knew we had something in common.  I’m telling you that man is fine!

Marv has had diarrhea really bad since I started him on the Thyroid medicine.  I’ve stopped and put him on a Probiotic which has helped a little bit.  Poor Guy.  I feel so bad for him.  He spent at least 1/2 of his day running around the house going to the bathroom.  Thankfully he went in all the right places with pads or litter so were good.  I am considering not putting him back on the Thyroid medicine, but I need to know what my options are and if I go that route how it will affect him.  I know for sure it will shorten his life but will he be miserable?  I don’t want him suffering for any reason.  The reason for the reaction is he has IBS on top of the Thyroid problem.  So if we can find something that won’t break the bank to treat the IBS then he could potentially go back on the medicine and all will be well. 

One thing is for sure it’s going to be a lot tighter for me now financially.  Not that it was exactly easy before but I felt a lot more breathing room.  If I stop paying my credit cards in full each month and cut back on eating out I’ll be more than fine.  However, that is a recipe for disaster.  I am just watching my spending.  Car Insurance went up $169 as well.  Part of my motivation for buying an SUV was that my insurance would go down, but sadly I think the luxury part is what made it go back up.  I also added new car replacement.  I am very well insured and covered no matter what happens, with the exception of job loss or death.  My boss told me to quell those feelings it’s not going to happen.  Death, well odds are pretty low at this point but if I die I honestly don’t care what happens.

I am way behind on my weekend chores.  I am still trying to recover from the big event of the week.  Next week should hopefully be better. 

As for stupid at work, my boss is going to talk with HR about him.  Not sure if that means he is on his way out or if they will just set a very tight goal for him and talk with him.  I can’t work with stupid – I did some digging and found out that he is a communications and organizations major.  How is that?  He can’t compose an email with proper grammar to save his own life.  He may be smarter than me, but it’s only a piece of paper, which is worthless in the grand scheme of things.  I am not saying I am uber smart but damn I am very well versed in my writing and if I need or have to be professional I am more than capable.  I’ve given him examples and told him he can use it as a template to modify it for what ever he needs, but he won’t do that.  He wants to be original.  WTF. 

I know this isn’t a confessional but I do feel the need to say that I had to buy a couple of things for my new ride.  The first of which is a programmer, that will get me 5mpg more.  Right now I am at 25 mpg and if I can get that to 30mpg I will be doing much better but I was seeing 35 to 40 out of my car, that was one thing it did right.  It didn’t come with all weather floor mats, so I bought some but only for the front.  I want to keep this thing looking sharp for a very long time.  Not only for me but for when it comes time to trade. 

Best part of all it’s dark blue.  Not the shade of blue that I wanted but at least I am no longer driving a black cloud.  Thinking that it might be my time I got a couple lottery tickets as well.  I don’t have high hopes but it never hurts to dream and it was only $3.  I went out to breakfast this morning, changed up my order and used a coupon – got essentially the usual without Bacon and it only cost me $5.  I love saving money, I think that is going to be my new hobby. 

Hope you had a great week.  I need to get my fat ass in gear around here as the day is getting away from me and Monday morning will be calling sooner than I want.  I also had to get a new tag for the parking garage at work there went another $15.  That was a scam but the benefits are well worth not having to roll down my window to get in and out of the garage regardless of the weather.  Oh and I was talking about a sun roof.  I now have a Panoramic Vista Roof.  Practically the entire top of the vehicle is glass.  It’s nice to let the sunshine in, makes me feel so good and I am proud each time I get behind the wheel.  I just look in the mirror and smile, I keep telling myself it’s going to be okay.  This is truly the reward I have been waiting for not that it makes up for all of the shit I have been through but hey it’s a start.  Now phase 2 is finding a boyfriend. 

Have a great week ahead and I will try to do the same.  Talk with you peeps later. 

Better

Last night I took a muscle relaxer in place of a sleeping pill.  That was a bad decision and I didn’t get to sleep until close to 3am.  Of course that threw my entire day off.  I got up to feed the cats and then promptly went back to bed.  I didn’t get up and going until 10:30a.  I was ready to leave the house and then work called.  I had to deal with an issue, minor but my boss likes to over react but he calls me the dramatic one.  Go figure!

Having dealt with the issue I went to the store and stopped for gasoline.  I still managed to spend more money than I wanted to at the grocery store and I just got a few items, no where close to my regular shopping.  Still it all adds up.

I am still a bit shaken from the event of yesterday.  It is over and done.  I am ready to walk away from the whole dating thing and even asking guys out in person.  It just doesn’t seem like it’s paying off. 

Not thrilled that I have to go back to work tomorrow and deal with stupid.  It’s not fair to place that burden on me.  I don’t mind training someone to get them up to speed.  They might as well have hired an infant because I feel like I am just a professional baby sitter and I have to double check everything he touches to make sure it’s done right.  I sure hope that I don’t explode with diarrhea of the mouth, I do a pretty good job restraining myself but there are times where it’s really difficult.

Ah well time to go upstairs and prepare for the big even that is Monday morning.  Have a great week!