Stress–it’s back

No post yesterday because it was a very bad day.  Today was a little better but still I am filing it under bad day. 

Yesterday I was scolded because the hardware project I am working on is behind schedule.  I explained that my helper was fired and that I have other things to do besides configure hardware.  I was told those were excuses and not relevant to the conversation.  Now I have to provide weekly updates on all of my projects because my boss things I am poor at time management and that I am not doing my job. WTF!  He is just off his rocker.  A totally bully from the word GO.

Now on to another ludicrous issue.  I configured a machine for the office manager.  I installed it on her time schedule and everything was perfect.  I mean it was a new machine, what could go wrong.  Well apparently there was a PEBCAK issue.  That is an acronym that stands for Problem Exists Between Chair And Keyboard.  The silly goose thought that Office wasn’t installed.  However, she was using her Outlook e-mail.  Hello that’s part of Office.  Anyway, she installed another version of Office.  She called me initially telling me that she needed a product key.  I figured that she just had issues with the software that was on her machine.  Then I went over to her office and she said I need Office 2010.  Okay so like a dummy I gave her a product key.  Well, you can’t have two versions of office installed that way.  Apparently two versions can live on a machine but there are certain steps you have to take, so I learned from a cursory Google Search.  Anyway, I wound up ripping off both versions, rebooting and reinstalling Office 2010.  That worked fine for a couple hours.  Then there was a snag and I had to reboot her machine.  I didn’t hear anything for hours, the day ended and I went home.

Apparently she “tried” to work all night long because there was a mountain of stuff to do.  Her computer was frozen on opening Outlook.  It wouldn’t move.  They “rebooted” but it didn’t fix anything.  Both of them were pissed off at me and my boss said that I dropped the ball.  It’s a GD computer.  Okay, so I rebooted and presto what do you know the thing works.  However, that was short lived only for a couple hours.  So we played a game of reboot the machine for a couple more hours.  Finally I said this is insanity, I need to give you back your old machine to get you working and then I need to wipe and rebuild your new machine.  Okay she was fine with that. 

Then I get an e-mail from my boss asking if we are getting a refund for her computer.  He thought it was defective.  I told him that she installed software that caused it to mess up.  Of course that was all my fault.  Just as if she shoots 3 people dead with a gun and robs a bank that would be my fault too because I didn’t stop her, never mind that she was 1/2 way around the world when it happened.  WTF! 

Now I am told I have no common sense.  I need to configure a machine, put it in place and stand in place to troubleshoot if the person has problems.  However, prior to deployment I am supposed to test everything to make sure it works.  Were supposed to have another discussion next week but he is forgetful and chances are that he will probably not bring it up again, but I am not counting on that. 

Once again I find myself walking on egg shells and living in fear that my job is going to vaporize.  In a way I wish it would then the BS would be over with but I can’t pay all of my bills on Unemployment.  Not to mention finding a job is pretty difficult, this one took 2 years.  That is a long time to wait and a lot of pressure and extra stress. 

I have grown absolutely tired of this, either I am doing a good job or I am doing a horrible job.  He needs to make up his mind.  Then he is either going to keep me or fire me, again he needs to make up his mind.  I am overloaded with work and he has unrealistic timelines and expectations of me.  Everyone knows what a fucking computer is and I’ve been building them for 10 years plus.  I know how to deploy a machine and I can’t prevent stupid from happening.

I have a plan for dealing with all of this, but for obvious reasons I am not posting it on-line.  It involves a discussion and if things go my way this will all be over with and I will still have my job.  Hopefully, it’s a plan that works to resolve my problems and not a plan that blows up in my face.  Legally you can’t be retaliated against for reporting problems, but trust me when I say they will find a way, they always do.  Ultimately I get the drift that my time here is limited at least as of now.  Perhaps my plan will turn that around if not then it will just accelerate my demise.  Regardless I need to be free of this, it’s no way to live.

My plan wont’ get to play out until next week, I hope on Monday but I might have to wait until Tuesday. 

The one thing that he fails to realize is that all of this bitching about my time management skills and the project, well if you’d leave me a lone maybe I could get some work done!

I’ve got to go, need to relax.  One more day I hope it’s better than the last two have been.

Laughing all the way to the bank

Not exactly how I would describe what I was doing when I went to deposit the check this morning, but I can laugh a little now.  I knew they were going to pay me it was just a matter of when and how much.  They took the cheap route, which is a shame for me.  However, it’s done.  I will be filing my motion to dismiss later this week.

In office drama my helper might get to come back.  I honestly pray that she doesn’t.  Just because it was a full time job for me to make sure she was doing her job.  I honestly don’t have time to baby sit.  I’ve got plenty on my plate to keep me busy.  Granted I could use the help but I just got used to being alone, would kind of like to keep it that way.  However, whatever will be will be, the future is not mine to see.

Tuesday the best day of the week for me.  Why?  Because Suits is on.  It’s getting good.  I am hoping that I get to see Mike Ross (Patrick J. Adams) show some skin before too long.  That along with the story line is enough to keep me coming back for more.

Wednesday will be sad, because tomorrow will be the Season Finale of Franklin & Bash.  Such a short run and I have to wait another year to see them again.  Ah, well. 

No news from the vet regarding Momma.  No news from the Bank regarding Cashier’s checks.  Looks like I will have to go on a hunting mission, not exactly what I want to do.  However, if given enough time and no answers then I kind of have no choice.  I need answers and Momma needs relief from her constant itching.  She is quite a trooper for putting up with it. 

Speaking of itching my chest is driving me crazy.  Not sure if I want to put some itch cream on or shave it or do both. 

I promised the children I wouldn’t be too terribly long.  You know they are starving.  Yeah, I fed them when I walked in the door an hour ago, they lap up the food and look at me as if to say, can we please have more.  I am happy to pass it out but not happy to pay for it. 

Speaking of food, I finished off my salad.  Don’t think I will be getting one of those again soon.  Bacon Bits, ick!  Plus it was just a lot of salad.  Two nights meals for $5 can’t go wrong with the price.  Tomorrow will be Chili or Pot Pie – kind of depends upon how I feel.

In the guy department I have really been lusting after the hot guy at work.  I want to approach him but am afraid he 1 isn’t gay 2 will be offended and physically hurt me or 3 tell me he’s already seeing someone.  So it’s rejection and fear mixed together.  I know I sound like a teenager.  I really want to send him an anonymous note so that he knows I am out here but unless I get an answer there really is no point in doing anything.  So I guess I will continue to admire from afar, even though I really don’t want to.  I want his company and to get to know him but also want sex.  I want it all to magically just come together but I don’t think it happens like that.

Well I should go on litter box duty and prepare to veg for the evening as well as feed the children again.  Lucky me.  Hope your Tuesday went well.  Talk with you peeps later.

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Money….Money….Money

Money changes everything!

Yes my check arrived in tonight’s mail and I am just a slight bit happy about it. 

Lots of blood, sweat, tears and money to finally get a pay off.  Wish I could make a legal copy of the check and deposit it twice, w/o going to jail. 

Tomorrow morning it’s going in the bank and then I will wait a couple days before I file my motion to dismiss.  I figure they took their sweet ass time and I am going to take mine. 

 

In guy news… If you’re a Justin Bieber fan or maybe if you just like his body, then you will want to visit The Sword, they have photos from TMZ of Justin surprising his grandma by playing naked.  Now you don’t get to see any penis but you do get a nice photo of his tight little butt.  He is perfectly legal for me to lust after.  However, I’ve heard about some of his antics lately… driving fast through his neighborhood, trying to take out kids.  Spitting in peoples faces and slamming the door and of course peeing in a mop bucket.  I know he’s a kid but he had other kids that look at him as a role model and if they see him doing stupid shit then they too will do stupid shit. 

The other thing that came in the mail today is a catalog from prevailsport I have gotten on their mailing list somehow.  It’s male underwear, swimsuits, etc.  Sort of like International Male.  I’ve never ordered from them but they keep sending catalogs.  I keep each one because it’s got hot shots of Paul Vandervort in them.  Finally, they took a photo of him showing his rocking ass.  You don’t get to see all of it but what is showing is perfectly fine for me.  I’m so horny now!

Time for some fun and then time to relax.  I am so bushed from today.  Lots of work, concentration and mental exhaustion.  Oh yeah, my other file cabinet came in.  Looks like the doofus didn’t understand me when I told her to place the order, she got 2.  So now my office looks like a File Cabinet Museum.  Not that I won’t use them because I will.  Just have to figure out what to put where.  Decisions, that’s what life is all about.

Chilly

My office is down right chilly.  I adjusted the thermostat this morning and it took until the afternoon to cool down.  It’s 70 degrees with 56 % humidity.  The humidity is high, which is why I feel the perception that it’s hot in here, when everyone else comes in and says it’s so cold.  Keeping it cold keeps people away, germs at bay and most important of all me awake.  It’s not always comfortable but when it becomes unbearable I will make an adjustment, until then I will just keep on moving.

Funny story, last night I went to give Big Boy his medicine.  I gathered it and went back to my room which is where I saw him at last.  I couldn’t find him.  I thought oh he is hiding behind my chair.  Nope he was in the pet bed I bought for him.  It’s dark blue and he is all black so he blended very well.  I stepped on him, which is how I knew he was there.  Didn’t bother him, he took his medicine and waited for me to come back to pet him.  He soaks that up like a sponge. 

Another person got fired today.  Not in the office but at one of the remote sites.  I really liked that person but apparently she wasn’t doing her job.  Kind of depressing.

I am working on building desktop machines that I got back logged on and then I will be going back to my other project of hardware fun.

No word from the union yet, which is kind of surprising.  Perhaps the check will show in the mail tonight.  All I can do is sit back and wait.  If nothing shows in the next few days my next step is a phone call.  No doubt they are just holding on to it to get the very last bit of interest out of it as well as trying to make it difficult for me. 

Lawn Boy should be coming this week to mow the forest.  I tried to get my brother to come trim the bushes but he doesn’t want to.  Which I kind of figured.  Lawn Boy will do it but he wants $100 and honestly I am content with letting them grow, it looks bad but it’s not hurting anyone.  I’d rather set them on fire and then I would never have to worry about them again, but my luck I would wind up burning down the house.  So no I won’t be playing with fire.

It’s all dark outside like it’s night time.  There are storms coming and I suspect I will be driving home in the rain.  Not the worst thing in the world.  As long as it’s not like the 3 hour traffic jam I sat in on Saturday.

Taking out the trash tonight and getting ready for tomorrow.  That is all the excitement my evening entails and I hope it stays that way.  Big Boy was in my room before I left this morning, so I had to leave my bedroom door open.  As long as Mr. Blu doesn’t come pee in my bed or my chair I should be fine.  I put in a fresh Feliaway Diffuser before I left, hopefully that works.  The little bastard was sitting on the couch looking all pretty like, I will be a good boy daddy.  Yeah, I left and he probably headed straight for my bed. 

I am no stranger to doing laundry but would rather keep a schedule than have to act on the fly. 

Well I should get back to it, there is no shortage of things to do.  I am supposed to set a date this week to talk about my travels, I don’t plan on acting on that unless I am forced into it.  I am comfy right here at home with all of my furry babies.  Travel should be done with until next year in my opinion but I know I will have to give in and jump on a plane.  I really don’t want to part with them but for 10 hours to go to work and even that is tough at times. 

Hope your Monday is going well.  I will talk with you peeps later.

Sunday

You suck because it’s that much closer to Monday.  Not to mention it’s also the day I have to go grocery shopping.  So I wish it could be two Saturday’s in a row and then a Sunday, then you wouldn’t be so bad.

 

Now that I got that out of my system.  I had breakfast at Huddle House.  Saw my favorite cute waiter, he even took my drink order.  Damn he looks so fine but is a bit young for me, if I do say so myself.  That doesn’t mean I can’t look.  I got a coupon for 25% off my next meal – looks like I will be back sooner rather than later. 

Hit up the grocery store.  Purchased some Parrot Bay Pina Colada’s.  It’s a frozen mix, just run some hot water over the pouch, squeeze the pouch to wake up the mix and you can drink from the pouch or pour into a glass.  They were 5 for $5.00.  Not good but not really bad either.  They have other flavors of drinks, which I may be tempted to try.

Found some Home Shopping Club Jewelry that I gave to my partner.  A silver and a Gold Herringbone chain, as well as a gold rope and a Gold Herringbone Bracelet.  I ran them all through my jewelry cleaner, they don’t look bad for being fake.  I am wearing the rope chain and the bracelet tomorrow.  If my skin turns green then I will stop.  Costume jewelry always makes my skin turns colors.  I’m allergic to it because I am worth the price of real gold.  I do have some real white and yellow gold chains.  As well as several rings that are real gold.

I found his High School Graduation ring, man that is gaudy looking thing.  No way in the world would I even attempt to wear it.

Got some sleep on, until I was interrupted 3 times.  First by a text message.  Turned the phone off.  Then got a voice mail, which caused my work phone to alert me.  Tried to go back to sleep, got comfy and momma jumped in my lap – since my eyes were closed she scared the crap out of me and I figured that way the universes way of telling me it’s time to get up. 

I didn’t accomplish everything that I wanted, but what weekend goes by that I don’t say that.  I think I accomplished a lot or at least my body feels that way. 

I dumped all of the cat litter boxes.  Not something that I do.  Normally just scoop them out and replace with fresh litter.  However, everything has an expiration date and when I do this one box holds like 50lbs so it’s a major strain on my back.  Plus the trash man will hate me.  That I can get over, my back pain is what bothers me.  I shouldn’t lift more than 50lbs at one time because I have 4 degenerative herniated discs in my lower back.  I’ve been on NSAID’s for years, which isn’t good but take a pill no problem.  Forget the pill and BIG problem.

Helped a friend with her son’s computer today.  It was loaded up with PUP’s, Spyware & Malware.  Got it all cleaned up but it took me a couple hours.  People should learn not to install toolbars, they are evil and create more problems than they solve.

I went Amazon shopping again.  I got these room thermometers after I walked all over Lowe’s yesterday like 3 times.  I had help but he couldn’t find his own elbow.  So I scoured on my own and found them.  I bought 2 and really should have picked up 3.  The intent was to only get one.  However, they were priced low and I decided one for home, one for work.  Now I want another one for my bedroom.  I have one there but it doesn’t show highs or lows and doesn’t tell me if the humidity is low, ok or high.  So I went on Amazon found something similar and got it in Blue.  Then I remembered all of the other little things I wanted, found them and saw the total.  Revised my cart, see I am saying no to some things.  Then once I got it to an acceptable level I checked out. 

Now if your ever in the mood and curious, look for sex toys on Amazon.  You will find them.  I saw sex machines, toys – all sorts of stuff.  The machines look interesting but if you buy it, try it and don’t like it – you can’t send it back, simply because of health reasons.  Plus it’s something that I really don’t need. I just think they are interesting. 

So the evening is young but time is getting away from me.  I have to face the hungry children, get ready for bed and put out there new Sunday treat.  Cat Nip.  They look for it.  It’s like crack for cats.  They will fight with each other to get to it.  I pass some out for everyone so no cat is left behind.  However, one gets jealous and moves in on another's territory and then the problems start.  So I have to supervise for a while.  I love to see them relax and play, makes me feel good.  Now I wish there was something I could take that made me feel that good that wouldn’t harm my body and was legal.  The closest thing I can think of is a drink.

Back to fun city tomorrow, building machines – solving problems and all that jazz.  I will be glad when we get to Thursday or whatever day it is that my boss leaves.  I love, love, love my job then.  However, now that I am out of his direct line of sight he may just forget about me.  That is until next week when it will be time to do payroll again.

Oh, I sent the union and e-mail asking where my money was.  I am very interested if I will get a response.  My guess is that it will show up in the mail.  However, I want them to know that if you promise something you need to deliver.  Don’t tell me it will be here late next week and then it doesn’t show and you expect me to be patient.  It’s cost me a small fortune to get this and all I can say is Bitch Better Have My Money!

Okay, I need to take care of getting ready for tomorrow and push away from the computer.  Here’s to a quick moving and painless Monday.

Supper tomorrow will be a huge Chef Salad that I got from the grocery store.  Just pop the top, put on the dressing and go to town.  I may be able to get 2 meals out of it but will have to see. 

Have a great evening and I will talk with you peeps later.

Change O Plans

So I changed my plans.  I went out for cat food.  Saw a pet bed for a dog but thought it would be perfect for Big Boy, plus it might help save the carpet.  So I bought it.  I dropped nearly $100 at the pet food store.  I guess it’s a good thing I decided to eat at home tonight. 

I will take Momma to the vet tomorrow.  Afterwards, I will be headed to the office.  I want to unload my laptop and get it back in my office where it belongs.  Then I am going to a place close by the office to have something I have wanted to try, Sicilian Pan Pizza.  It sounds good and I sure hope it is.  It won’t be a trip for you know what but it will help me check something off my bucket list.  I just wish I had someone to take with me.  Eating alone all of the time sucks.  Plus you can only play on your phone so much.

I am dead tired and looking forward to what I hope is a good nights sleep.  A nap in my partners bed sounds good too, maybe I will be able to squeeze that in to my tight weekend schedule.  I may even go to the grocery store tomorrow to get it out of the way and to give me a day that I can stay home or do whatever I want.  I like a routine but changing it up once and a while sure is nice.

Spent part of the day organizing my office and labeling my files.  I have taken over the Brother Label Maker, since no one was really using it.  I needed it for a project that I am still working on but I am giving serious thoughts to just keeping it in my office.  It’s a handy thing.  I’ve got two of them at home.

I’ve got to visit Target this weekend as well.  Forgot cat treats (it’s our secret, they don’t need to know).  So I will pick them up plus some litter.  I am sure I will want to get other things but resisting will be difficult.

The other night I watched a documentary on NetFlix about Barney Frank.  Wow, totally amazing.  I wanted to write to him after I saw it but he is no longer in office.  He’s got a great sense of humor as well as a cute guy  for a boyfriend!

How boring has my life become that I am blogging when I should be out having a good time or at the very least watching a movie.  I guess I am going to go watch a movie, that is provided I can stay awake.

BTW, no money yet from the union.  I am started to get a little upset.  However, there is always hope for tomorrow.  If it’s a no show tomorrow I will be sending an e-mail asking for an update.

Enjoy your weekend!

Finally it’s Friday

So glad that I don’t have to wake up early tomorrow, but I will be up early it’s just how my body works.  I will be taking momma to visit the vet.  She won’t be happy about it at all and neither will my wallet.  I am going to ask them to do something about her itching.  She has scabs on her neck and chin.  Plus she is chewing on herself all the time.  You’d think there is something out there for that, besides a steroid. 

I’ve been having super busy days and just exhausted at night.  Between work & home I am ready for a vacation. 

Right now I am tired and ready for an afternoon nap.  However, that won’t happen because there is work to be done.  Plus the fact that I am actually at work. 

My Birchbox came and it was uncanny that the apparel item inside was a chefs bib.  Like I am actually going to cook!  I will be giving that away.  There was some moisturizer, shaving cream, face oil and cologne.  All sample size.  I am totally in love with the mosturizer.  It’s by Billy Jealously and called Sake Bomb.  Smells good!  I was woried that this would aggravate my allergies but nope.  I am not sure how long I will keep my subscription going $20 for samples seems like a lot.  Maybe next month they will send me a Polo Shirt and we can call it even. 

I’ve paid all of my bills, have a little money left.  Going to try to stretch it and live off of it instead of credit cards.  Treating myself tonight by going out.  I’ve got my mind set on a new place that I have been to once.  They are still new and probably will have one hell of a waiting line, that is the point that I want to avoid.  I will still give it a go.  If it doesn’t work there is more than one restaurant in the world.

The children need food so I will be stopping off for that and hopefully the mail will bring me my check.  I am still waiting for the union to get their ass in gear.  I am thankful that I filed a motion for a continuance so the case is still very much alive.  If they decided to screw me then we will go to trial.  I don’t have much doubt that they will pay, but I do think they want to get every last cent of interest they can before they send the check.  They are dragging their feet on purpose. 

My friend that works in the same building as me, got fired earlier this week.  I’ve spent hours on the phone with her.  Oddly enough she isn’t broken up over it.  She has a side business that should keep her afloat.  She is interviewing but I honestly think she will wind up working for herself and being her own boss.  That would probably be the best thing for her. 

Oh a very sexy man brought me my file cabinet yesterday.  I’ve got one more on order and I hope he delivers it too.  I was drooling and wanting to make a move but didn’t.  He was very in shape and also very nice.  I held the door for him to be polite and to get a good look at that ass.  He didn’t disappoint! 

Speaking of men, I deleted my account from the gay dating site.  I was hit on by a couple people but they were cheesy lines.  There was the possibility of making a connection but I decided to bail. 

Now that I got rid of my helper the pressure is back on to perform.  No one is nagging at me but I know it’s just a matter of time before people start asking for stuff.  I’m supposed to iron out travel plans next week for the compliance junk I have to do, not looking forward to that.  No way we will meet our deadline.

Thinking of taking a trip this weekend, kind of depends upon how I feel.  The money is there the bigger question is do I really want to make the drive.  I have thought about it off and on all week.  Will just wait and see how things pan out.  I would rather be free and do my own thing than live by a strict schedule. 

Unless I get some energy soon, I may just go straight home and take a nap.  In any case I have to get back to work, I am truly buried here and I am the only one who can dig myself out.  I should put in some weekend hours and even stay late but no effing way that will happen, when I am treated like crap.  I’m dedicated but to a point.  I mean if I have to work the weekend I will but since I have a choice in the matter at the moment, no effing way.

Foot cushions arrived.  The gel pad one slipped off my foot yesterday.  I’ve got the one that attaches to your toe on right now.  It’s okay but my foot still hurts.  Giving serious consideration to visiting a foot doctor.  If I go it will be the same one that my late partner went to.  They developed a friendship and he would remember me, for sure.  Plus he is a very good doctor.  I’m just afraid that whom ever I go to will want to shove a needle in my foot and shoot it full of steroids or some other medicine.  So that is why I am putting it off.

I know I jumped around a lot my mind is doing that lately.  If I skipped something you want to know about, ask.  Otherwise I will talk with you peeps later.  I hope you all have an awesome, productive and relaxing weekend.  I know I will be trying for all 3. 

Wednesday

Suits had some Mike Ross but nothing shirtless or skinless.  Boo Hiss.  Maybe some day he will have to do a nude scene, one can dream.

I found out that my little helper did in fact realize that I fired her.  The shit hit the fan about that today.  Nothing came my way, thankfully.  However, I am waiting to find out what is cooking and if she is coming back.  My guess is she is done.  Besides that if I was her I wouldn’t want to come back.  Life is about moving forward, or so I have been told.

Today was an ass kicking day and not in a good way.  Everyone had problems and was calling me.  It wasn’t until around 2pm that things were quiet.  It’s 10 to 5 now and I am looking forward to leaving.

My junk order from Amazon is sitting on my front porch. My Birchbox is waiting for me at the Post Office.  I can only hope that the big check is in.

Speaking of checks my boss did remember to do payroll.  However, he forgot to give me my raise but also forgot to deduct for my vision insurance.  So I am hopeful that on the next check things will even out, if not I will say something.  Right now easier to just lay low and that way hopefully I won’t get hit in the head.

I asked the stupid girl in the office, she really is stupid.  Nice but useless.  Anyway I asked her about having maintenance come to my office for the 3rd day in a row.  Nothing.  Tomorrow I will be throwing a fit and I am sure they will come then.  It’s just a couple of simple tasks and I’d like to have them completed before my boss is back next week.  It’s bad enough that I don’t have all of my furniture but I am hopeful that will arrive sooner than next week.  Only time will tell.

Time to pack up and get the hell out of dodge.  Looking forward to going home and giving my money away by paying bills.  Not really I was being a smart ass.  You all take care and I will talk with you peeps later. 

Doochebagerry

My boss is a dick and he reminded me of that again today.  They were going to pay the temp in cash, as in under the table (illegally).  I tried to get them to cut her a check but they said no.  So I dropped it.  Today they decided to pay her, which is fine by me. 

The office manager tried to goad me into protesting this today.  She said I will have x dollar of cash for you to give to the temp this afternoon.  I asked if that was 2 weeks pay and was told yes.  Fine, I dropped it.  I went back to work.

The next thing I know the dick is sending me emails spouting off how I went behind his back and now they have to do things above board.  He didn’t get a rise out of me.  I want them to do the right thing but I can’t beat them into submission, after all they are my employer not the other way around.  I believe the office manager put words in my mouth and lied to him telling him I went behind his back.

I explained that I did nothing of the sort and that perhaps the temp had a conversation with her mom, who just so happens to be our general counsels sister.  Maybe they hatched a plan.  I have no idea.  He said well that could be.  However, you have to fire her today I don’t want her back.  Seriously all because you have to cut a check you are taking your frustration out on a teenage girl who was doing a kick ass job.

As you all well know I am no stranger to being fired.  That shit sticks with you for the rest of your life.  So I used words that my last boss used with me when he let me go, but I did it in a positive way so that she had no idea she was fired.  I simply said that it wasn’t my choice but I was told that I had to inform her today was her last day.  She was all bubbly and cheerful and left w/o a problem.  It was short direct and to the point.  That is the type of conversation you look to have when your letting someone go.  I’ve always been trained that way and unfortunately today I had to use that training. 

Now I hope the dick is happy.  However, if he should decide to pursue matters and terminate my employment well I’ve got him by the balls.  All of those e-mails I printed and have the entire conversation here at home, safe and sound far, far away from work.  Fuck with me and I will make sure that the IRS gets a copy, plus you will be sued for retaliation and that will just unleash a mountain of shit in his world.  Not something that he wants.  I took on one of the largest unions in the USA and I’m not afraid of a little jew.  It’s like my late partner used to say…. you fuck me, I fuck you and we all go fucking crazy. 

Needless to say the dick is back at home from his vacation.  There is talk that he might come in tomorrow.  If not then we won’t see him until next week.  I am all for putting off seeing him for a very long time.  I seriously pray that I win the lottery and I can tell him what I think of him and where to shove his job.  Until then I need that crummy job, sad to say.

I should have known that something was going to go wrong today.  It’s been too perfect for far too long.  I had a nightmare last night.  My partner was telling me to purchase life insurance for him.  I started crying and said I don’t want to do that because I did it for my grandfather and shortly there after he died.  I said I don’t want you to die.  When I woke up I realized that it was in fact a nightmare.  I purchased a policy for my partner and several months later he did in fact die.  I never had life insurance on my grandfather.  Odd how that worked out. 

I miss my grandfather but not nearly as much as I miss my partner.  I will miss him for a very long time, actually forever.  I will just get used to the fact that he passed away.  Thankfully his memory and the memories we made together will live on inside of me, until I loose my mind.

Now I am off to end this crappy day by preparing for tomorrow and hope that it’s a better day.  I will be taking in a fresh episode of Suits tonight.  Looking forward to seeing Mike Ross (Patrick J. Adams) and his sexiness on screen.  I’m cleaning my TV so there isn’t a spec of dust between me and his body!  Yeah I’m hot for him, what was your first clue?

Talk with you peeps later.  Night!

Solid Day of Work

No play time today, it was all work all day long.  I even put off going to the bathroom until my bladder was about to explode.  Not once but twice.  It was the only way I could see myself getting rid of my bosses machine, which was holding me up from doing other things.  I got his machine done and installed.  I still have one more piece of software but it’s banking software and I need someone with credentials to login to the bank’s site.  I’m trusted but not to that degree and I wouldn’t have it any other way.  The less I know the better off I am and it’s something else that I can’t get blamed for.

Tomorrow I start on the office managers machine.  That won’t be a picnic either but it will be a little easier.  I can’t wait until I am done with it so I can get to the people who have really been waiting a long time for machines. 

I froze my helper out today, the AC in my new office is really serious and I had it down to 70 and it felt like 65.  Yes, cool.  I turned it up to accommodate her but then I was miserable.  So after she left I made a minor adjustment, hopefully it’s middle ground for both of us.  She really cranks through machines like water.  She is up to doing 2 at a time, which is really good.  There is a ton of stuff for her to do over the course of the next couple weeks.  I don’t suspect that she will get it all done but as long as she helps put a dent in machines and gets a project done for me, I will be thrilled. 

So I asked the person who orders our furniture and office supplies to cancel the order for my file cabinet that is on backorder and place an order for a different item.  She told me that she would get on it in a bit, not once but twice.  She decided to do it 5 minutes before it was time to leave.  Then she tells me if I order this one it will be here about the same time as the other one.  Should I order it ?  Yeah, place an order I need a small file cabinet in my office.  Now I will have 2 – I just hope one shows up sooner rather than later.  Damn she is dumb!

I asked about boss man today and when he is coming back.  He isn’t supposed to be back until next week.  However, there is the possibility that he will come in on Wednesday.  I sure hope not, stay away for as long as possible.  That way I can relax a bit and maybe get something done.

That’s about it for now.  I am home and the children want more food.  I had 1/2 of Lasagna for supper and will eat the other 1/2 tomorrow night.  Nice way to stretch a dollar.

Honestly I am so whipped from working all day, it’s been a while since I gave them a full day.  I even stayed late, which is nothing new for me.  I want to leave a little early or at the very least on time.  I hate staying late, it’s like giving my time away and I get nothing in return.

Wednesday is payday and we shall see if someone figured out how to give me a raise or not.  I’ve got my fingers crossed because I could sure use extra money even if it’s only 50 cents.  I know the government will have their hand out.  Plus my vision insurance will be taken out of this check, I am actually hoping that I break even, which wouldn’t be a bad thing. 

Have a wonderful evening.  I am headed to take care of the children and collapse in front of the TV.  Talk with you peeps later.

Bleh Sunday

I pretty well wasted today.  I woke up at 8:30 fed the children.  Watched TV.  Decided that I wanted to lay down at 10:30.  Laid down and didn’t get up until 12:30.  Had breakfast at home, sorry Waffle House I will make it eventually.

Got shaved, showered and headed to the dreadful grocery store.  I didn’t need that much and it felt like I was forgetting something.  However, I checked out.  Spent close to $50.  Frozen food, Mac & Cheese, Yogurt, Milk and Breakfast Sandwiches.  Yeah really adds up fast.

My foot is killing me.  It looks like a callus is trying to form over the ball of my foot.  So I went in search of relief via the internet.  I found a pad that covers the ball of the foot and is secured by a loop that you put on one of your toes.  So I went Amazoning and bought that and a bunch of other crap that I really don’t need.  Dropped $70.  I also found gel pads that are resusable and you stick them on the ball of your foot, so I got them as well.

Went to Red Lobster had my favorite waitress take care of me.  Not sure who was on duty at the bar but they knew what they were doing when they made my Pina Colada.  Damn that was tasty and I could go for another one right about now.  Shame that won’t happen.

Have to get medicine in the children and trim a few claws.  Pack and prepare my lunch for tomorrow.  I am going to soak my foot and try to ice it as well to see if that will help.  Wednesday is when the package arrives so that means I will have to go most of the week on my own.  This foot pain is enough to drive you crazy and it’s been going on for months now. 

I’ve switched vitamins starting this week.  Something I picked up from the local health food store.  24 pills $30.  Yeah they come in a glass bottle and there was more cotton in the bottle than anything.  I wasn’t too happy about that but we shall see how I feel.  I don’t want to poison myself but I do need a slight kick of energy, these should accomplish that.

I am so dreading tomorrow it will be back to the land of chaos.  No boss man but it’s slowly winding down to his return.  I heard a rumor that he was supposed to be gone for 2 weeks, I really don’t think that is the case.  However, if it is well that would be a very good thing.  I work so much better when he is gone.  Payday is Wednesday and there are all sorts of bills that are waiting for me to pay them.  The biggest of which is my credit card bill.  I love paying it off each month but I say to myself I won’t go hog wild and then I do.  Shelling out about $2k a month to take care of eating out, impulse purchases, gasoline, amazon and whatever else I get myself into.  Retail therapy is how I try to sooth the pain and it works for about 5 minutes and then well the pain is back.

So before the rest of my evening passes me by I should really get myself upstairs and get busy.  I’m waiting for the kids laundry to be done.  I put a cover on one couch and a towel on the other.  Both of which were donated by the vet when Big Boy was in the hospital.  We never bothered to take them back.  For $10k they should let us have something.  Kind of feels like stealing but on the other hand it’s like they owed us.  The kids are used to them, so I keep them around.

Speaking of Big Boy I did put him in my bed the other day.  Boy was that a mistake.  Last night he was crying and I couldn’t figure out what he wanted.  I kept calling him but he wouldn’t come.  He just sat there staring at me.  I got down on the floor and rubbed his belly.  That calmed him down for about 10 minutes.  Then he started up again.  I finally got  a clue when he got up and sat at the end of my chair.  I knew he wanted to go in bed. So I lifted him up and put him in bed again with his brother.  He really likes it up there.  He used to jump in my bed all the time.  Now there is no way he will jump on any type of furniture.  He is limited in walking short distances, he gets winded easily and has to rest.  So what the others do normally takes him twice or three times as long.  As he gets worse so will his ability to move around.  However, I pray that God keeps him with me for another few years.  I’m just not ready to mourn any more deaths right now. 

Okay, I’m going, really.  Talk with you peeps later.

Saturday

Surprise I stayed home today.  I called my brother early this morning and asked if he and my mom wanted to meet up for lunch or supper.  There is a new restaurant and I figured I could expose them to a nice place.  It worked.  We all ordered way too much food.  The total bill was $49.99 that’s never happened before. 

I tried to sleep a couple times today but got interrupted, so I guess that was a subtle way of telling me time to get up.

I did get my hair cut.  I thought about going into work to tidy up my new office but decided against it.  Weekends are meant for relaxing NOT for working.  I guess someone should tell that to the Big Box Home Improvement stores.  :)

Friday night I heard that my old boss, the one I am supposed to meet in a couple weeks has taken a new job and is going to move out of state.  That was kind of sad.  I asked if we were still on and right now it’s tentative but I think that he will wind up cancelling.  I honestly don’t think I am that important to him.  I kind of want to say well let’s cancel but I want to see what happens.

The mail brought me a free ink cartridge for my printer and a bottle of medicine.  Nothing else.  I scrambled to make it to the post office before they closed.  Just in case there is something to sign for, that is one of my fears that they will drop something in the box saying I have to sign and then they are closed so I am screwed. 

I broke out my guy’s old steam cleaner and worked on the rug in the basement.  I like it much better than the one I bought but the problem is it doesn’t suck enough.  It takes forever to get stains out and you use lots of water but most of it sits in the carpet.  So I guess I have two cleaners one for upstairs and one for downstairs.  I knew there was a reason why we stopped using it but I forgot, it’s been that long ago that it was used like years.

I put an auto reply on my guy’s e-mail telling people he’s dead.  I gave them a real address if they need to reach a human but most of what I have been getting for the past couple months is junk.  I need to delete his account but can’t bring myself to part with much of anything that was his.  I am paralyzed.  I had intentions of going through his clothes but I’ve managed to talk myself out of it. 

Having aspirations, desires or making plans is all great.  However, the follow through is what counts. Normally it’s not a problem but when it comes to the matter of my guy I procrastinate.  It’s like if I do X then he will come back.  I know that is not the case.  Plus there is all of the emotions that I really don’t want to deal with.  I am starting to grow tired of having his doors closed all the time but eventually I will do what I have to do.  I thought pulling the plug was the hardest thing to do, in retrospect that was easy compared to what I am dealing with now.

I have completed and gathered all of the paperwork necessary to retitle and register his vehicle into my name.  The best news of all is that there is no sales tax to pay because it’s an estate gift from a spouse to a spouse.  However, the fee to take care of the transfer, registration and issue new plates is $200.  Yikes!  Right now I don’t have that much money to part with but come Wednesday I will.  So I am going to issue payment Wednesday and get the show on the road.  It will suck taking off his license plates and putting on new ones but it’s something that needs to happen.

I priced his vehicle on-line and selling it to another person it’s worth about $4,000.  I then got curious and looked at mine, it’s worth $11,000.00 which is more than I owe on it.  I’m tempted to sell them both outright and be able to pocket the cash, buy something new and call it a day.  However, finding buyers and getting around w/o a vehicle would be a challenge.  I did ask at the dealership the other day if I could trade in multiple vehicles and they said yes.  I’ve got new car fever and changing the name on his vehicle is only temptation calling me.  Right now I have the rest of this year and all of next and then I will be car payment free.  Not exactly sure what to do but right now I am doing nothing because that seems like the safest bet.

My head itches, always gets that way after a haircut.  I always let them shampoo my hair and that takes care of it for a while but then it kicks in when I am at home.  I really hate that but it’s the price I pay for looking sharp all the time.  Every two weeks like clock work it’s hair cut time. 

Oh Vitamin withdrawal is hitting me.  I am super tired now.  My foot still hurts, feels better w/o shoes on.  I suppose I have to give my body time to flush things out and then hopefully things will go back to normal.

The odd thing is my brother has problems with the same leg.  His issue is varicose veins that are bulging and a huge rash that I think is a fungal infection.  His doctor & surgeon think that it’s lack of blood flow to the leg.  Hello his foot would turn colors and eventually gang green would set in.  I think he needs a Dermatologist and told him to see one of them.  They could probably do more help for the rash.  As for the veins well they look horrible and he needs to get them fixed because it will only lead to problems in the future.  If that was my body I would have already been in and out of surgery.  I don’t play!  Of course I have health insurance and he doesn’t.  He told me that the surgeons office told him that the office visit could be as high as $300 for what was 5 minutes with the doctor.  Seriously?  He was appalled.  I told him oh yeah that is the way they play the game.  They all milk it be the insurance company or the patient, your going to part with some cash so be prepared.

I am thinking of Lasagna for lunch/supper tomorrow.  It will be an afternoon meal not two separate meals.  Breakfast is a little more challenging I can go out but that costs money or I can stay home and eat cereal.  My craving right now is Eggs along with Biscuits & Gravy.  Maybe Waffle House.  I will have to see how I feel in the morning.  I try to talk myself out of things all the time, sometimes it works and other times well I just give in.

I try to pamper myself as best as I can but within a reasonable limit.  Eating out or buying things on line – those are my vices along with hair care products.  So stay away from the Big Box Office Stores and the Hair Care Stores and I’m good.  When I eat out I try to go cheap but other times I want what I want and give in.  I’ve got friends that will be wanting to go out in 2 weeks and I am sure it will be a Maggiano’s event but we haven’t set anything in stone yet.  If we do go there I will certainly look forward to it. 

My plan today would have been to go to the office and then for lunch visit a place close by and order a Scillian Pizza.  It takes 30 minutes to make and normally at lunch I don’t have that kind of time.  I have always wanted to try it but that hasn’t happened yet.  The other thing I thought of was to go to Maggiano’s after I was done at work.  Never been there by myself but that doesn’t mean I can’t go. 

I had someone that is like minded with the same interested and in the same profession look at my profile on the dating site.  We live close by and maybe it would work but I’m not sure.  From his photo there isn’t any real chemistry but his profile is like what is on the inside and it screams YES ask me out.  I passed and didn’t do anything.  If I am correct I will be done with that site this week.  I have to say I will miss looking but I think it’s for the best.

So since it’s coming up on 11pm here I think I will post this ramble and call it a night.  Time to get in front of the TV and maybe find a movie or some standup.  Talk with you peeps later.

Working

I am still drowning in work.  Plus I was told today that I have to start moving into my new office.  So I dropped everything and started that.  My present office looks so much nicer now, I’d really like to stay where I am.  However, the advantages are greater to move plus I already agreed to it. 

My little helper is doing pretty good with configuring machines now.  She is working faster than I can keep up with.  I am dealing with day to day stuff, plus trying to build desktops.  I am working on a replacement machine for my boss and that has me a little nervous.  I hate working on stuff for him because he is picky and the first error message he gets, his blood pressure skyrockets and he screams at me.  When in reality all he needs to do is learn to reboot more than once every 3 months and that will solve most if not all of his problems. 

After I am done with him, I have to build a new machine for our Office Manager and I am NOT looking forward to that either.  She too is picky and has a ton of crap on her machine.  I know why she is having problems with her present machine because it’s full of games and shopping – that attracts spyware and malware if you aren’t careful about where you go.  Viola one messed up machine.  I could potentially fix it but building a machine for her is a little more of a challenge and when I am done I will feel so much better.  It’s like a confidence booster. 

I got word from the union that my check will be in my hands late next week.  So now I have to file a motion with the court asking for a continuance because I don’t see them meeting their deadline.  It won’t cost me anything but time, paper, ink, and postage. 

I am so drowning in work, everyone wants or needs something.  If that isn’t the case they want to know why I haven’t delivered yet.  My word is my bond but when things beyond my control take over, you got to give me space.  

Right now it feels like I am going out of my ever loving mind.  So many things on the brain.  Thank the Lord that Saturday is around the corner.  Powerball rolled so all the more reason to take a trip for PI maybe if I buy a lottery ticket up there it will be the winner.  No one in my neck of the woods has won any type of big jackpot.  I don’t mind being the first one.  That would certainly solve ALL of my problems.  What I couldn’t take care of myself I could hire done.  Plus Big Boy might get an airplane ride and get to go see a better vet for treatment.  Ah well nothing but pipe dreams right now. 

I got to run.  Talk with you peeps later.