14 June 2023

New Drug

I tried the new drug my doc gave me and I wound up with a raging headache just before bed.  I figured it would go away but it did not.  I don’t get headaches and when I do sleeping for sure wipes them out.  This was pretty bad and woke me up during the night.  I figured I wouldn’t be going into the office.  I slept in and went through the normal morning routine but something inside of me just said you need to go back to bed today.  I listened to that voice and took the day off. 

I did go back to bed.  I figured I was sleeping too much when the grass guys woke me up.  That was not a great way to wake up but I suppose it did the job.  I moved to the chair and watched TV.  Wouldn’t you know it I fell asleep again.  There is something inside of me that if I am bored my body just shuts down, it’s not like I can control it when it hits it’s all systems down.  I used to fall asleep at work in meetings thankfully that doesn’t happen mostly because I get angry or have a strong desire to reach the end of the meeting. 

I did manage to make it virtually to the funeral of my neighbor.  It was a short service that lasted 30 minutes with only one song.  It was tough to sit through and watch other people breakup but I didn’t shed a tear.  I felt sad but that’s about it.  If I was there in person I think that things might have been different but then again we will never know.  I do hope that this is the last funeral I have to attend for a very long time.  This was a very elderly person that lived a rich, long and fulfilling life.  I’m jealous a little bit but only because if life was to stop for me today – my life is no where as rich or fulfilling as I’d like it to be.  I feel old but in the grand scheme of things I am still young. 

Tonight will be interesting, I do hope that I sleep because I really need to get back tomorrow.  I won’t be making it in the office this week but there is still work that needs to be done.  I wasn’t thrilled about taking today off but I don’t feel guilty.  When I am out everyone else has to work twice as hard, that has to speak volumes for the weight I pull. 

Looking forward to supper I have a very large beef burrito from the grocery store to devour and I have some sour cream to go with it.  I might eat some ice cream afterwards depending on how I feel.  I’ve had my mind set on this meal since Sunday when I spotted this plump masterpiece.  I do hope that it tastes as good as it looks. 

My head is still bothering me a little bit but I hope to manage.  I already know to cut the dose in half of the new medicine when I take it again.  I probably won’t be brave enough for that until Friday night or the weekend.  I am not a fan of pain in any part of my body.  My head feels like a giant watermelon that I just want to hit with a sludge hammer and I know that won’t cure anything.  When I get a bad headache that is my go to thought.  I wish there was a drug that didn’t have any side effects, maybe someday it will exist but I don’t think that will happen in my lifetime. 

Here’s hoping that your day is better than mine and life is treating you well.  2 more days until the weekend is here.  Talk with you soon. 

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