What does it mean?

Took the vehicle into the shop yesterday.  It took a couple hours to get back home with the whole rental car rigmarole.  I of course couldn’t work from home but I called my boss to let him know that I was available and he said just take the day but we will talk later.  Fuck if I am taking the day off why are you going to bother me later?  I charged the company for the 2 conversations we had.  My boss claims to have my back but it’s times like this that I know it’s not the first lie he has ever told and it won’t be the last one.  He is loyal to the company and fuck everyone else.  I bend over backwards and pour in my heart and soul but it matters not.  I am just not happy with him right now.  

So I’m sitting around with the kids and watching tv.  I hear this crash like someone just threw rocks on the deck.  I looked around and no one was there, there was no rocks.  A couple hours later I hear the same thing.  I wondered could it be the ice maker?  Yes, the damn thing hasn’t worked in several years but the lever was just right that it turned on.  Previously it would just drip water into the ice cube tray but now all of a sudden I have ice.  I’m not a fan of it but hey I have it.  I thought that was very strange.  I keep wondering what it means besides the obvious that I have ice. 

Got the call to get the vehicle at 2:30 and I took off in sheer joy.  The rental sucked ass, no backup camera but they did give it to me at no charge – that’s no charge to me but my insurance picked up the tab.  I drove a whopping 2 miles.  1 mile to take it home and 1 mile to take it back.  I was nervous as fuck but nothing happened.  I just feel weird in another vehicle, unless it’s going to be mine.  I saw a Dodge Charger on the lot and really wanted that but it wasn’t until I was returning that it caught my eye.  I want to sit in one and drive one and if I make it to that point I will probably buy one.  They look so good but do they drive good?  I’d be abandoning my manufacturer discount so I would be silly to get one new, perhaps used I could strike a good deal but I really don’t need a 2nd vehicle right now. 

Fast forward to pickup and I checked out my baby and the work was phenomenal as I expected.  I saw a guy working on a FedEx truck.  Fuck he could bring his package to my bed any day of the week.  Younger say 30ish skinny blond guy with a rockin’ body.  I almost said something but resisted.  That was a nice surprise.

Got my hairs cut on the way home, washed my vehicle and filled up the tank.  Backed it in to the garage and called it a day.  I was so pleased that this worked out well.  The car wash helped clean up some of the left overs from my weekend glass repair adventure. 

I saw a 2019 model and it’s loaded with everything I wanted in what I have now but the price tag is steep and it’s green, if you look at it in the wrong light you’d say it was black.  I will always look but buying is another story.  Next step is to get my paint & fabric protection 2nd application applied.  I will be calling the dealer to schedule that in September.  It will be difficult to take PTO but I am taking a day. Until my promotion goes through I won’t ever ask to work from home again because it’s clear to me that isn’t allowed unless it’s advantageous to the company like in an on-call situation.  Fuckers!

I had some digging to do to unbury myself at work but only 68 emails, one more and it would have been my favorite number.  It was good to be back in the swing of things even if it was chaos this morning.  Far too many useless meetings and tasks but what can I say, I like the money. 

Going to enjoy the rest of the evening with the kids, trying to find something on TV and hoping that there are no on-call needs.  I did get woke up last night for the first time in several years.  I wasn’t terribly happy about it but I took enough sleeping medicine that it didn’t matter.  I had a conversation, remember part of it and we agreed the issue could wait until morning.  Come to find out the person who put in the request wasn’t even on the network so I couldn’t have helped them even if I wanted to. 

I’m pleased as punch to be home with my Marv and the girls.  On to the furry family!  Happy Tuesday.  We get a holiday weekend so I have two four day weeks in a row.  Two Monday’s off not too shabby but I will still be on-call until next Tuesday.  Plus I will be turning a year older over the weekend, not terribly happy about that but not much I can do about it either.  It just keeps me wondering, if and when I will find a guy, much less the right guy.  I had a Chicken Pot Pie for supper.  Yes, I said pie.  Bye for now. 

Stress & Chaos, just another routine week!

So the note from my doctor wasn’t good news but it wasn’t bad either.  He is giving me 3 more months to try to get my sugar under control and if I can’t or won’t then he will adjust my medicine.  I’ve been forewarned lots of times but every documentary I see about sugar says that it’s more addictive than heroin.  If sugar isn’t a huge part of your diet when your young then it won’t be a problem for you as an adult.  However, we lived next door to the owners of a bakery shop – so we always had pastry, donuts, coffee cake, stolen, etc.  It was awesome and I can’t say that I would change it if I could.  I’d like to change how addicted I am to it.

Marv didn’t react well to the first dose of his probiotic.  I realize these things take time but I am not patient and am looking for immediate results.  So I went to the pill form of the antibiotic Metronidazole.  It isn’t cheap but they vet sold it, kind of wish they would have told me about it years ago.  Anyway he responded pretty good to the first dose but now it is like he isn’t taking it at all.  However, it has helped control some of his problem.  I bought some different dry cat food yesterday.  It’s a real hit here but the girls are hogging it and not letting Marv get the most of it.  I can’t say it’s changed anything.  I was also very surprised when you get into specialty types of dry cat food that is where the money is.  1 company had a small bag that was $34.  Now I’d try it if I knew it would work but there are no guarantees here.  Overall Marv is doing well and is his usual clingy self, which makes me happy.  We have even played a little this past week which was nice.  I hate to see him always in the litter box I know it’s no fun but the alternative is either try the topical cream for his thyroid or just give up and not treat the thyroid at all.  While the latter is the easiest and cheapest option at the moment, over all it would mean possible additional health problems and certainly an early death.  So it’s really not an option in my book at this point.  I would rather 1/2 ass his treatment and give him somewhat of a chance than just to give up.  Giving up isn’t something that I do, it’s tempting but often the reward and fight are worth it in the end.  Funny thing is the vet just called and asked for an update, Deja vu.

On to work my not so smart co-worker had a family emergency and had to leave mid-morning on Wednesday.  No one heard anything from him until this morning.  Looks like things are going to work out okay and he will be back in the office on Tuesday.  So my vehicle is going in the shop tomorrow.  I had asked my boss about working from home and initially he said it wouldn’t be a problem because you work from home when your on-call.  Oddly enough that was my argument last year when I asked about working from home on occasion.  So we spoke late in the week and now he tells me he didn’t get approval for it so it’s not out of the realm of possibilities but it probably isn’t going to happen.  I was so fucking pissed when he said that but I pushed it off as oh well, like it didn’t matter.  I’m supposed to call him when I am done and let him know where I am at.  Well I will be at home when I make that call and I have no plans to go to work tomorrow.  If I am allowed I will be happy to work from home, otherwise I will be taking the day off and him and my other counterpart can run the show for Monday.  Honestly it would be easier to take PTO but I was trying to be the good employee and look out for the company as well as myself.  Looks like that isn’t what they want me to do.  If he lied to me about working from home, has he also lied about my supposed promotion?  I doubt that but hey I suppose anything is possible.  There are some overtime opportunities coming up and I certainly don’t want to pass them up. 

So for the car repair the rental car company called and told me that my insurance won’t cover state tax so I will be out $3 something per day.  I called the insurance company and they told me the dollar limit for the car, so I am going to push back and tell them to get me in something that is inclusive of all taxes and fees for the limit the insurance company will pay.  This wasn’t my fault and I don’t want to pay out of pocket 1 penny.  It’s bad enough that I may have to use PTO.  My hope in sticking close to home is that I will get a call in the afternoon telling me to come pick it up and that will make me very happy.  I don’t expect it but I would like for that to happen.  Then I wouldn’t be late to work on Tuesday, but time will tell.

I noticed a couple slight chips in my windshield this week, so I ordered a kit from Amazon to fix them.  I hate do it yourself repairs because I am not a do it yourself kind of person.  I wound up with excess amounts of glass resin dried on my windshield and had to scrape it off with a razor blade.  Little did I know I scratched the glass so it looks like shit from the outside.  Inside you can’t tell a thing.  I also managed to cut my finger just under the nail so at the very top and it hurts like hell.  I had a lot of blood for a small cut but managed to control things.  I was talking on the phone and never missed a beat in the conversation and never let on that I was in pain.  Pretty impressive or so I think. 

I’ve got plans to close out my main checking account next Saturday.  That bank decided to start imposing fees and I am not a fee person, I am a free person.  I ordered checks for the account I am going to use last Sunday and they arrived this week.  Pretty impressive when I checked standard shipping and was told they wouldn’t be here until the end of the month.  Very happy with my order.  I wrote a test check to myself for $1 and deposited it today.  I want to make sure they work but I don’t write many manual checks.  I got my direct deposit changed over and I’ll know on Thursday if things are going to go the way I want them to.  Provided everything goes correctly I will be able to close the account and make the switch.  I still have my late partners account which has my name on it and I really need to close that as well.  However, it’s the only  local bank that I have.  The main bank that I plan on using is a virtual bank or at least to me it is because they have no branches.  I have free ATM access to my money but I don’t use cash often I pay for most everything with a square piece of plastic be it credit or debit.  I hope everything goes according to my plan.  If so I will be earning a small amount of interest and that is what makes this a worth while move. 

Momma has come down to inform me it’s time for supper.  I need to grab my laundry and pass out food for them.  I also need to put a frozen pizza in the oven for myself.  No good TV on tonight so it will be a very long night.  It feels odd not planning for work on a Monday, it’s different than the norm and that messes with my long established routine.  Most everything in my life operates via a scheduled routine, which helps keep order and ensures I don’t miss anything.  Ah well I guess changing things up is living a little but I wish I wasn’t being separated from my automobile, even if for a short amount of time. 

Here’s hoping that it’s a great week ahead for all of us!  Oh and I’m on-call this week so that should be fun.  Honestly, this week has been quiet and last week was quiet so hopefully the trend continues.  Cheers for now. 

Sunday

So there is this blond twink that works at Steak N Shake.  Based upon looks I believe he is super young but he’s just got this rocking body and great booty.  I knew he worked Saturday so I saved myself the temptation and stayed away.  Well wouldn’t you know it, he was working today.  I didn’t make any moves but sat quietly admiring from a far as I do with so many guys.  If I think there is even a slight chance I will ask but in this case I don’t want to embarrass myself.  It would ruin a good thing that I have going with breakfast. 

Went hog wild at the grocery store.  I got Fudge covered Twinkies you know Chocodiles.  They just aren’t the same as the original but I had to try them, it’s been eons since I had one. 

I had some amazing vibrations from my new toy and wish that I would have used it sooner.  It was truly an amazing experience and one that I hope to have again and again and again.  You get the idea.  I also heard back from the store and they told me to dispose of the item that didn’t work out for me and they have given me store credit.  That will probably sit idle for a while, they will come out with some new whiz bang thing and I will just have to have it and that’s when I’ll buy. 

Marv’s probiotics came and I gave him one.  It’s been several hours but he’s already got diarrhea and I haven’t put him back on his medicine yet.  So I suspect the probiotic isn’t the answer.  I wrote the vet and asked about getting Metronidazole, which is an antibiotic in a pill form for a cat.  He’s taken it in liquid form for his IBS before and it seems to work well with his steroid.  However, the liquid causes him to slobber uncontrollably and he fights me when he knows it’s coming.  It’s hard enough trying to pill him but if you go at him with liquids it’s another ballgame all together.  I am frustrated beyond belief and trying to find the right combination of medicine is worse.  Hopefully, this is the solution that he needs and then all will be well.  If not then I’ll go the transdermal route and see what happens.  Honestly I think it would be better not to treat him for his thyroid but that would mean all sorts of complications and likely a much earlier demise.  I mean I’m looking at death for sure with all of them but I see no reason to speed things up and/or to cause undue suffering.  They are pampered very much and they know it and expect it.  I honestly don’t mind for all of the laughs, love and good times we have it’s worth every penny. 

Ah pressing on, just got a note from my doc.  I hate to look at it because I’m sure he is changing up the meds but it’s something I need to do.  Then it’s upstairs to spend some time with the furry family before heading to bed and getting ready for Mundane Monday. 

Here’s to a great week ahead!

Emotional Week

Marv woke me up out of a sound sleep Monday night.  It was Tuesday but it was 3a.  He was crying his head off.  I smelled that he went to the bathroom but didn’t know what the trouble was.  I sat with him and looked around with a flashlight but I couldn’t find any evidence.  The odor was pretty strong around him but I wasn’t exactly at my brightest moment.  Turns out he had an accident and it was everywhere on him.  He was trying to let me know but considering that all I wanted to do was go back to bed, I didn’t pickup on it until the next morning.  I sat with him for a couple hours until he finally fell back asleep. 

As you probably already guessed I took Tuesday off because I was not in any shape to drive.  Marv took full advantage of being extra needy and I gave him my full attention.  We watched a couple movies, saw the Charlie Puth concert again (thanks to YouTube) and worked out my car accident details.  I also got to leave for a bit to grab my new eye glasses that had just come in.  It was by far the most productive stay home day from work that I have had in quite sometime.  Marv also started eating again and not just wet food but dry food as well.  Once I saw that I knew in my heart he would be okay but I still was cautious.  Here we are on Saturday and he’s still eating.  I hope that he never, ever stops again. 

The car thing, turns out the guy who caused this lovely mess his Insurance Company was being difficult with me.  So I got tired of it, all of this back and forth telling me that I had to go to a specific shop and they couldn’t get me in until next Monday, which means more time off.  Bullshit.  I called my insurance company and they are waiving the deductible since they are going to be reimbursed by the other guys insurance and I got everything all setup from the convenience of my couch in less than 30 minutes.  I had been dealing with his insurance company for 3 or 4 days.  There supposed to be Progressive but I’ll tell you they are anything but Progressive.  Thankfully I have a 1st rate company.  Speaking of auto insurance I nearly stroked out at the post office, I got my next 6 month bill and the cost went up not by much but the overall price tag is one and a half car payments.  Jesus thankfully they allow monthly payments because there is no way I could just fork over that kind of cash without having serious operating problems. 

Back to Marv.  I heard from the vet mid-week that his Thyroid was way out of whack and I needed to increase his medicine.  They seem to think that his IBS is affecting his body’s ability to properly absorb the medicine.  He’s previously been okay but this time, that is not the case.  His liver enzymes are also elevated.  He’s not in liver failure but it is something to be concerned about.  If we can get the Thyroid level back down the liver will values should return to normal.  So I increased his medicine and within a few hours he had severe diarrhea.  I looked at the litter box and said there is no way I can keep doing this to him.  So back to reach out to the vet.  They gave me the same old same old, probiotics or diet change.  If that fails then I could revert back to transdermal medicine.  The cost of his Thyroid pills is pennies because I can get it filled at work.  If I go to the Transdermal medicine then I have to pay a compounding pharmacy $45 a month.  It’s not that I don’t have it but why spend it unless it’s necessary.  I stopped his medicine to give him some relief because he was crapping all over the house and not just in the litter box.  Poor guy I could tell he was miserable.  I did some research and found a probiotic that has a time release factor to it and has 3 strains of bacteria instead of 1.  So it’s supposed to be more wonderful for him.  It’s going to be delivered at my door step tomorrow.  I will start him on it right away and then resume the Thyroid medicine.  It will be probably a matter of a couple hours to a day before I know if it’s going to help.  If not then I will go the transdermal route because I just can’t put him through this.  I know he needs to get his Thyroid under control but he shouldn’t turn into a liquid shitting machine either. 

Big announcement at work, we made another acquisition and by October 1 there will be about 30 more people joining us.  This is on top of our Fall hires which there are around 13 to 15 and those people start in the next 2 to 3 weeks.  So I will be a busy guy on-boarding a lot of folks.  It will be super stressful and I will want to pull my hair out but I know there will eventually be an end and it’s temporary.  It will make us a larger organization and puts us in a better position to serve our clients.

Speaking of work my boss asked for some documentation about how we deal with people who have elevated access and are going to be leaving or asked to leave.  I wonder if this is just him being curious or if he is actually going to let someone go.  He’s told me that my promotion is still on-track (not in the same conversation) and that they are still working through things.  I’m good with being hourly and with new people starting if I have to put in OT it won’t be a problem.  Salaried and promoted well I won’t get any extra so I just as soon stay hourly for now.  As with anything there is good and bad.

Ever look through what I call Suggested Friends or as FB calls it, People you might know?  Well I do it periodically.  It picks some strange people that I have no idea who they are for the most part.  I have a couple of people that I actually do know but don’t necessarily need to be friends with.  Anyway, there was this amazingly cute guy that just knocked my socks off.  I had to know more about him, turns out we have a mutual friend.  From his profile I make the deduction that he is gay.  Then I did the unthinkable.  I sent a friend request along with a private message telling him how I think he is just the bees knees and asking him out.  He doesn’t look to be on FB frequently so I don’t anticipate a timely reply and with as cute as he is, I wonder if he’s even single.  I keep sticking my neck out and either eventually someone will chop it off or someone will take me up on my offer.  I am very selective and picky.  This guy seems to be well rounded and has a great job, plus our mutual friend well she is cream of the crop (at least in my book).  We used to work together but I haven’t said anything to her, I suspect he will be reaching out to her asking what kind of a person I am.  Regardless if it’s a YES or a NO I’d just like to hear from him to end the suspense.  So maybe I found love, maybe I found a new friend or maybe I’ll just get shutdown.  Stay tuned to find out, as the sands fall through the hourglass so are the days of our lives. 

My new glasses, yeah still on the quest to find bright blue.  What I saw in the eye doctors office and what I got are different.  They don’t seem to pop like the sample pair did.  However, in the right lighting they are really blue.  In other lighting they look black.  So I think this is the very last pair of glasses I will ever get from that doctors office.  They can do my eye exam but from now on it will be written prescription and I will go some place else.  This is my 1st plastic frame.  I had to do several adjustments to get it quite right but they still slip a little bit and irritate my ears.  So on to Amazon and I got some silicone ear cushions.  They arrived today and I tried them out, they seem to do the trick.  The one strange issue I have is the TV looks fine, the computer looks fine, driving and normal day activities look fine.  Pickup my iPhone and it looks blurry, I get more clearer vision if I take the glasses off and look at my phone.  I’ve never had this problem before and I suspect there is an element of the prescription that is off somehow.  I’m going to try my old pair on and test to see how my phone appears, then I will put on the new pair and I’m sure I will have different results.  Provided that is the case then next Saturday it will be back to the eye doctor.  I didn’t just drop $200 not to be able to see my phone. 

Okay this is the part where it gets sexual or semi-sexual.  If you don’t want to read that skip this part.  If you do want to read then here we go.  So I ordered a new toy and it arrived this week.  I’ve had my eye on it for quite sometime.  At the end of the day it’s a fancy vibrator.  It’s advertised as a rimmer, so it vibrates but at the end there is an encase series of beads that rotate to give you the rimming effect.  It even has a remote control.  I haven’t tried it out yet, I kept saying I would but time would get away from me.  I have tested it on my hand just to make sure I am comfortable operating it and holy crap, I expect a mind numbing orgasm from this bad boy.  It’s USB rechargeable so no need for batteries.  I have a lot of toys or so I think but I don’t use them all that often.  It’s a cleanup thing, I know it will feel good but I don’t want to exert the extra effort that is required afterwards.  The other thing I bought is a magnetic ball stretcher.  I have also had my eye on this for a while, my eyes didn’t catch how small the opening was so this was kind of a bust for a hunk of metal.  I can tip it on it’s side and remove the magnetic part to display the letter C but outside of that it’s not good for much.  The company I went through sent me an email today as follow-up and asked if everything was okay.  I told them about the issue I am having.  Since I opened the package I don’t expect a refund because it’s a personal item and well they shouldn’t accept it back and resell it, despite it being unused.  I’m interested to hear what they will do, they are supposed to have great customer service so I guess I am putting that to the test.  It kind of felt strange putting the issue in an email. 

This afternoon I got out to grab some cat litter and food as well as grab lupper for me.  That’s lunch and supper mixed together incase you didn’t know.  I went to Cracker Barrel and Jesus they have hired some great looking help.  I want to ask all of those cute guys out but chances are they are straight or too young or both.  So better to admire from a far.  Well I’m tired so I’m going to head up and spend more time with Marv in my room and then eventually crash for the night. 

Breakfast out, grocery shopping, filling up the car’s tank and emptying my wallet is what is on the agenda for tomorrow.  As well as watching for Marv’s pills, cleaning house and shaving.  Seems that scruff and beards are in now.  They look really good on some guys and I’m kind of tempted, people tell me it looks good on me but I can’t get past the itchy stage.  I’d rather be clean shaven, I personally think it looks better. 

Hope all is well in your world.  Each day brings us closer to fall and cooler weather.  So I guess we all have something to look forward to.  Talk with you again soon. 

Vet Visit

I passed out lunch and Marv turned his nose up at his food and walked away.  He had problems getting comfortable.  I made the call to take him in, rather than deal with the unknown.  I also tried to play with him and he had little interest. 

Good news is that his weight is up, given that he has hyperthyroidism that is a good thing.  Bad thing is that there is muscle wasting going on.  He doesn’t get much exercise, I mean he’s a cat and loves to just lounge.  That is what cats do. 

So one of his knees is what they think is the problem.  His joint wasn’t big enough so the knee slips around.  He has always walked with a hitch in his giddy up but this is much worse.  They gave me gabapentin to give to him.  It’s a super low dose and 2 weeks worth was $32.  That is some expensive medicine but hey if it works and fixes his problem I will be more than happy to find a way to make it work. 

It’s obviously over apparent to me that Marv very much misses his brother and because of that he may have decided to give up.  All I can say for certain at this point is that I know he doesn’t feel good and I am very concerned.  They did blood work for his thyroid and those results could help provide some insight as to what is going on with him.  My biggest concern here is that I am going to lose him and that is not something I am prepared for – emotionally or financially.  Granted if push comes to shove and it’s necessary to go down that road I will find a way to make it work, that is just my nature. 

Today’s visit cost about as much as my glasses so now the card I just got paid off is back to what it was at the time of Bear’s loss.  The good news is that there is no interest so long as the balance is paid within 6 months and I think I can make that work. 

While I am not anxious to become a salaried employee I kind of wish the process would speed up so that I had the extra money because the bills pile up pretty quick. 

Poor Marv, he hates pills and prior to this he had to take 2 twice a day, now were up to 3 twice a day.  He won’t like it very much but we will make it somehow.  I will start him on his first dose tonight and see what happens.  He will be more sleepier but outside of that there shouldn’t be any noticeable side effects.  I hope that he feels better soon, he’s my buddy and I need him.  The vet did say he will probably never jump again and hey I’m okay with that.  So long as he can navigate around for food, litter and chasing after his sisters all is well. 

This just sucks but hopefully it’s a short lived issue and we will work past it and life will go back to normal.  Let’s hope so and hope that I don’t turn into a smurf from holding my breath. 

Oh Marv

I’ve enjoyed my time away but still wish for more, which is always the case.  It will be nice to get back to the ‘groove’ of things.  Still have yet to see how many emails I have and I won’t embark on that until I’m in the office tomorrow.  Playing catchup will not be fun but weeding out all of the junk emails will be. 

Marv hasn’t been eating like he normally does.  His dry food is normally gone and replenished several times in the week.  He’s still working on a bowl from mid week.  Everyone eats from it but I’m not why it’s still there.  His wet food he nibbles at but turns away from it.  He wants attention and lots of it.  I think were gearing up for a trip to the vet.  I am trying to avoid that but I think it’s futile.  Still I will do my best to try to avoid it.  He’s got me worried, if he stops eating all together were in serious trouble.  Nibbling here and there is okay but as long as he doesn’t get dehydrated were doing okay.  I’m head up in a bit to spend time with him. I just don’t want to be put in a position where I have to make a choice.  Loosing 1 this year is bad enough but loosing 2 would be devastating.

The accident fiasco is slowly turning into a mess.  I spoke with the insurance company of the guy who caused the accident.  He said he was going to send me an email, I would put some codes from the email into an app on my phone, take some photos and videos and presto they would be back in touch with me with an estimate and I could make a decision from there.  Now that email didn’t come and I figured something like that would happen.  The adjuster said they are only allowed to go from in person estimates or app estimates from their people and not from a 3rd party estimate like I had.  I’m a little taken back by that.  I’m not going to give this guy much room if he starts fucking with me, I will lawyer up and then he will be fucked.  Honestly I wasn’t going to get my vehicle repaired but since he is fucking with me I am hell bent on getting it fixed now.  Especially since there could be (but probably isn’t) damage underneath.  I doubt that I will see any money for my “inconvenience” and there are no medical bills.  So this is a very simple thing but if the insurance company wants to turn it into complicated then I can play that game.  I just don’t want to be in a position where I hire an attorney and wind up owing money, sort of like with the Lemon Car thing.  So for that reason alone I am hesitant to engage an attorney but there are plenty of them in the area that I can reach out to if need be.  I’m not looking to be a millionaire or make money from this, I simply want them to do the right thing and pay for all of the repairs to my vehicle allowing me to take it where I want it to go and not where they want me to go.  It’s not even a full year old and for that reason alone I am picky about where I want to go. 

I went through a car wash today because I saw what looked like scratches on the front of the car where something hit me, but it looked to be on the surface.  Yeah, not so.  They were actually scratches not sure what from but I tried my goo gone technique and that didn’t fair well.  So I grabbed the touch up paint and made some adjustments.  It doesn’t look the best but it does look better than what it was.  A little problem here and a little problem there, I am starting to get new car fever again and am slowly ready to trade.  It’s not a good time for that from a value standpoint so I am trying to be patient.  However, it’s tough since looking at cars is about the same as looking at hot guys.  I’m not sure why I am obsessed but I’ve got a new addiction and I am trying to be a good boy and not fuck up my world. 

I went out for Pizza last night.  I’ve got a ton of it in the fridge.  That will be supper tonight and probably tomorrow night.  I never thought I would say I am getting sick of Italian food but I am slowly tiring of it. 

I got some cleaning done yesterday.  Nothing major but it’s a small step towards the bigger picture.  The best thing in the world for me to do is call for a dumpster and a portable storage unit – just rip off the band-aid and get it done but there is no pressure and no reason to be that drastic right now.  I mean it’s not like I am moving tomorrow.

Oh I logged in and saw my blood work results, I was right the results are not good.  My A1C is 8.1, which is very high and exactly what I got 3 months ago.  So I know medication changes are coming.  Bring it on, he may give me 3 more month and then make changes but I seriously doubt that.

I hope that you all have a great week ahead, I am going to try to.  Now on to my time with Marv.  and generally relaxing for a couple hours.  I am ahead of schedule which is a very good thing.  Still have to break out the vacuum and that is not something I or the cats look forward to.  Especially Marv because he has to hide from the scary noisy machine that he is convinced is going to hurt him.  It hasn’t yet and it never will but he just doesn’t know that.  

Very productive day off

Last night Charlie Puth live streamed his concert from Minneapolis.  I hooked up my laptop to the “nice tv” in the living room and watched the whole thing from the comfort of my couch.  It was amazing and yes he took his shirt off.  I fell in love with him because of his voice and just had a great appreciation for his sheer talent.  As he has aged he has registered on my radar and I am highly attracted to him.  I know he’s straight but I’m telling you 1 night with me and he would be batting for a different team.  Hey, a guy can dream, right!  I took a bunch of photos and it looks like I was front row at the concert, you’d be hard pressed to tell otherwise.  The screen was watermarked for a portion of the show but hey once he took off his shirt I lost my mind.  Out of all of the photos I kept there is a total of 95.  How’s that for an obsession?  Even with a kick ass internet connection there was buffering and I cringed every single time.  They had a lot of people on last night.  So glad I didn’t buy tickets to his show, since he did this I got to see him for free. I’m not opposed to seeing him live but it depends upon when and where he is playing at in my venue.

While I went to bed late, it wasn’t as late as I thought it would be.  So I slept in.  The insurance company has been blowing up my phone over this accident.  They waited a week to contact me and they called yesterday when I was at work and couldn’t talk.  Then twice this morning while I was trying to sleep.  They don’t leave voice mail messages which is mildly irritating as I don’t tend to call people back that don’t leave messages.  If you really want to talk with me leave a message.  If they don’t call back tomorrow morning I will be reaching out to them. I’m kind of surprised the guy actually has insurance just based on how things went down at the scene.  Sadly he is with a high risk but well known company.  I can tell you for certain without a doubt his rates are going to go up and/or he will get cancelled. 

So I got an estimate for my vehicle.  It’s pretty cool the print out I got lists every option that my car has, looks similar to the window sticker at the time of purchase.  Anyway right now it look like there is $410 worth of damage.  That is just based on what they could see.  It’s possible they could tear into it and there be more damage underneath.  As it stands right now were looking at a morning or an afternoon repair.  Factor in a rental car and your looking at probably $450 or slightly less.  My temptation is to pocket the money and not do the repair because you have to really be looking to see the damage, it’s that minor.

Went to the doctor today, told him about the wreck and my neck.  I think most of the pain I have now is from stress and looking at my iPhone all day long.  Between Social Media and Dating Sites I am glued to the damn thing.  He increased my blood pressure medicine to help with the tremors, not sure if that will work but it’s worth a try.  He took blood and I told him that there are 2 things I enjoy in this world.  One of them is dick and the other one is Sugar.  Since I can’t have dick right now I am eating Sugar.  We chuckled over that and I told him he wasn’t going to be pleased with the numbers, but hey who knows we both might get a surprise. 

While I was waiting to see the doctor I saw a message on Social Media that my former boss and friend passed away last night.  She had a 10 year fight with cancer.  She has been out of the office for most of the year.  I missed her then and I miss her now.  She was semi like a mom to me.  I’m glad that she isn’t suffering anymore but I feel really bad for her family.  Her poor husband has been a rock.  I can only imagine the weight that is lifted off his shoulders.  I don’t know any funeral arrangements but they are 4/5 hours away from me.  I’d really like to go but it’s semi expensive driving or flying.  I was stunned that no one from work reached out to me.  I found out later that it was public knowledge as of this morning and one of my co-workers texted me after work.  Same guy who saw I was in an accident but didn’t stop to see if I was okay, instead he sent a text message.  I’m not terribly happy with him.  I care more than that for people and I would have stopped and I would have sent the text earlier in the day.  It proves to me that he just doesn’t care as much about me as I did for him, so be it. 

After the doctor I headed to the police department to get a copy of the crash report.  I was prepared to pay but since I had to wait so long they gave it to me for free.  I still offered to pay but was told it wasn’t necessary.  Hey what a bargain. 

By now it was 3:30 and I was getting hungry.  So I stopped at the Applebee’s across the street from my house.  I had the Chicken Parm.  There was a ton of Chicken and Cheese, which was good.  The tomato sauce and noodles were not that good.  I left stuffed and came home and eventually got to take a nap. 

My lawn guy has lost his mind.  He sent me a bill for 4 cuts in the month of July when he was only here 1 time.  I’m sending him a not so nice note and a check for the 1 time he was here.  I even phoned and called him.  He waited several days before sending a crew out to address the situation.  I don’t understand why bi-weekly is such a hard concept for him to adopt.  Unless something drastic happens when were done with this year, I don’t have plans to hire him next year.  That’s not saying I absolutely won’t but I will get my fair share of bids before I even consider him. 

I took a heavy muscle relaxer so I will be sleeping in tomorrow.  No big plans.  Might get into some serious house cleaning.  Otherwise a nice meal out and a trip to the upscale grocery store.  Relaxing is the goal.  No plans for the weekend either.  Wow, it feels great not to be in the grind.  However, this time will pass so fast and I will be back in pea soup.  I already checked on my email and 1 day yielded me 83 emails.  2 days will be bad and I will be playing some serious catchup on Monday.  Hopefully, things won’t be super stressful but I’ve already planned that they will be so it won’t be a complete surprise if that is how the day turns out. 

Thanks for stopping by.  Feel free to tell me how things are in your world if you so desire.  I honestly don’t bite, unless you want me to.  :-)

Sick Momma

Poor Momma she had it coming out of both ends this morning.  Funny thing is after it was all done, she went back to the food.  They all worry me, but right now she is more on my mind than the others. 

I left a little later than I wanted to but still managed to make it to work with 1/2 hour to spare.  As we get closer to back to school that will change.  The commute is going to become painful and I do not look forward to that, but like the seasons change around here so does everything else. 

Work has been steady but oddly light.  Figured out last night that I ran out of Sudafed.  I picked some up this morning, were still waiting on the doctor to call in a script.  Since Sudafed is used to make Meth, it’s highly controlled.  You can purchase a package of 20 tablets but it’s like 1 time a month.  So I have to have a prescription in order to get around that.  I am certainly not going to make Meth.  A few bad apples ruin it for the rest of us. 

Right now I’ve got about an hour to go and am bored as hell.  There isn’t anything going on and boss man left.  He’s got a sick kid.  I could easily get up and walk out but I’ll be a good boy and stay. 

I did hear back from the on-line accident report people.  They said to give it more time.  Yeah, they have until Thursday.  At which point I will be going to the police department and picking up my own copy.  It will actually cost less.  Still no communication from an insurance company.  I’m really starting to doubt if this guy actually had insurance.  Normally it doesn’t take this long for a company to reach out.  I really feel bad for the lady in the middle and maybe the insurance company is working with her first since she has the most damage, but typically they touch base with everyone.  I should be contacted.  I think that the police report will be eye opening. 

So that’s all I know, which doesn’t say much.  Looking forward to going home, having left over pizza and spending time with the kids.  I sure hope Momma is feeling better. 

Hope you had a great day for a Monday.  This is my last week of peace and quiet, next week I will be on-call.  Take care. 

The Bimbo Saga

My weekend over all was fairly normal.  The only major thing that happened is around 8p last night my brother called and asked for a ride.  He told me he was on foot and headed to a fast food restaurant, to meet him there.  I did that and of course it’s more Bimbo Drama.  She got drunk and they got into a fight. 

While we were riding together he kept texting her.  I told him he is dumping gas on an open fire.  Stop texting her.  He says yeah your right.  But then like a dumb ass keeps on texting.  I told him that if I could afford it, I would take his phone from him now and throw it out the window.  After that he decided to power it off. 

Driving to his house took forever.  Like 45 minutes to an hour.  Some of it is open “country roads” and it was dark as dark can be.  Unfamiliar roads, roundabouts and of course he couldn’t go home without a trip to the liquor store. 

I came in to see his house, it’s actually pretty nice.  The dog is a hyper mess and he’s got fleas or something.  I itched last night and woke up that way today.  Took a shower and it subsided for a while but then came back.  I don’t know that I want to go back to his house until after the 1st frost.

Anyway, I told him once again that he would be better off alone.  It’s not the end of the world and you can find someone else, probably easier than I can.  I mean considering he’s a straight man – he can approach virtually any woman and his odds I feel are higher than mine of getting a new friend. 

I’m not sure what is going to happen but I told him from the get go that this is going to escalate and before it’s all said and done, someone will wind up in jail.  He’s not listening to me.  I guess he’s thinking about his dick instead of himself over all.  This has gone from a normal stable relationship to an abusive one.  I also told him if he thinks that surgery is going to change her as a person, it won’t.  He said yeah I told her it won’t fix bitch. 

Honestly, I don’t know what he sees in her or her kids that he allows all of them to live there free.  He is the only one who earns a decent living and therefore he gets to pay for everything.  While the others can use their money as they see fit, not once thinking of him and how much he is shelling out each month.  It’s not fair and I told him I would have kicked her to the curb a long time ago if I were straight. 

Our mom didn’t have a good knack for picking men.  I guess that rubbed off on him for picking women.  I on the other hand think I am a pretty decent judge of character for the few dates that I have been on.  Maybe Mr. Right will finally come along. 

3 days to work this week.  1 day at the doctor and the other day is mine.  I think I am going to get my car checked out at a body shop just to get an estimate.  My brother said that the damage probably came from her license plate hitting me and sure enough when you look at the photos it all adds up.  I don’t know that I will make any moves to get it fixed but it’s more for peace of mind to know that everything really is okay and that I am not overlooking something that will come to haunt me.  I really think I am fine but better safe than sorry.  Besides that estimates are free.  Hopefully, some insurance company will be reaching out to me next week. 

Have a great week ahead and I will try to do the same. 

Very scary week

Hi, I know it’s been a while.  Life has gotten away from me and the more I reminded myself to post something the more it didn’t happen.  So I’m taking time out of my lunch to make it happen.

This week has been an emotional rollercoaster.  So if you remember a few posts back I mentioned that I was trying to come off of my anti-depression medicine.  Well that seriously fucked with my mind and my body.  I was doing okay at first taking a pill every other day.  I did that for a couple weeks, then changed it up to 1 pill every 2 days.  I also started the same thing with the evening pill I take. 

Mentally:  My dreams were psychotic at best.  Always very off the wall and abnormal.  I never knew what would happen and some of them were extremely real.  I doubted things that I said or did, I had to double check actions and work to make sure I didn’t mess up. My depression seemed under control at first but the longer this played out the worse things got. 

Physically My bowel habits changed.  To the point where I was stuck at work for an hour after my shift because I was in the bathroom.  It was pain like I haven’t felt before and the time ticked by slowly.  The more I tried to rush the process the further behind I got.  My tremor got a little better but never went away.  That was the whole reason behind this little adventure.So Tuesday morning I woke up from what was a strange dream.

My childhood dog came in the house and took off his fur coat.  He was covered in tattoos.  Then once I got going things got worse for me.  I was actually afraid of myself, it was as if I was looking at myself and I was a stranger.  I had no emotional my face was blank and more than ever all I wanted was to die.  I pushed ahead and made it to work with no issues.  I almost sought out a friend just to have some company because I was still scared.  Instead I chose to immerse myself in my work and by lunch time things were back to normal.  That was the turning point for me.  I don’t want the medicine but I need the medicine in order to be able to live.  I’m back to normal dosing and it will take my body a little time to normalize but I already feel better. 

Thursday on my way to work I was involved in a 3 car chain reaction collision.  I was the last car in the chain and I was dead stopped.  I felt a bump and knew that I was hit.  For some reason unknown to me I had nothing more than a minor scratch, which I have already fixed.  My neck and shoulders are sore but outside of that I walked away from this one very lucky person.  No one was injured.  I tried to turn in a claim to my insurance company but they turned me away not evening taking my name or policy number.  I was told that the person who caused it, their insurance company would be reaching out to me.  Yeah well the thing is the guy claimed to have insurance but he didn’t have a current card.  So the cops made him stay behind and me and the other person were told to leave.

I can certainly tell you that if the accident would have happened on Tuesday I would most probably be seriously injured or dead.  When all I want to do is either die or find happiness, I am spared.  It’s just perplexing to me as to why I am still here.  So I’m going to go forward and try to make the best of things.  Maybe I will actually meet a guy.  I am still thinking of moving and maybe that is just the kick in the ass that I need to turn my life around. 

As for the furry family, momma is full of energy in the morning and she runs through the house as if Blu was chasing after her.  She is that way in the evening a little bit.  Last week she tried to crap in my chair and I yelled at her, she just froze.  I had to physically move her before it was too late.  Little did I know she had already gone on the floor.  Marv is still walking a little funny and he won’t jump up but he will jump down.  The sisters are doing okay.  Something got a hold of Ruth and she has scabs on both of her sides.  She wasn’t letting me touch them but now they itch so I can touch and scratch.  I’d love to give her a bath but we all know that I would wind up in the Emergency Room. 

My primary bank decided to mail me a surprise with my latest statement.  They are going to start charging a monthly maintenance fee and charging to issue statements each month, even if you don’t get a paper statement.  I wrote them a nice fuck you letter and mailed it.  I am having to shift my money around but I will be breaking away from them within the next 2 months.  We have been together for 22 years and this is the thanks I get.  It was a good run but I wish they didn’t fuck it up.  I don’t pay anyone to house my money and never will, it’s total BS.

My lawn guy decided to skip me last week, so I had to deal with that.  2 times in 1 year.  I don’t get how you can’t read a calendar.  I’m interested to see what the bill shows when he sends it for last month.  I’ll bet he tries to screw me and bills for 2 cuts even though he only did 1.  Next year’s headache will be finding a new company.  We only have 3 more months and then the contracts up. 

Work is exactly that work.  My promotion is on the fast track and should hopefully be complete in 1 to 3 months.  I am eager to see my new title and the compensation that comes with it.  I hope I don’t get fucked.  I know what I made last year hourly and I expect that is what they will say is my new compensation.  If so I won’t be upset but if it’s less than that I’ll have a problem with it.  I know the number I want and I know the number they are likely to throw out.  If it’s fair I won’t squawk but otherwise I will be mother goosing them. 

So there you have it.  Lunch is over and it’s back to the grindstone.  Looking forward to the weekend.  The new “blue” frames are in so I will be checking them out at the eye doc tomorrow.  I hope I am not disappointed.  I’d like to get that show on the road.  Maybe a road trip to the buffet or just to a local restaurant.  Nap time will factor in there some place and wow I could sure use that today. 

Happy Friday!  Have a nice weekend.  Thanks for stopping by.