Clean Sunday

I managed to delay myself enough this morning that I should have run in to the cute waiter.  However, he wasn’t scheduled.  I arrived at that conclusion when he never showed up.  I still had a decent breakfast which was actually lunch for breakfast.  Chili, Burger, Fries, Soda and a Shake to cool off. 

Made my way through the grocery store, picked up a delicious pizza not realizing that I already had one at home.  So as planned it was pizza for supper.  It was okay, nothing terribly special.  I spent $77 and that was me trying to take it easy.  I didn’t get any soda, which always drives the price up. 

Got gas and a car wash.  Came home and parked in the driveway.  Had to sweep the garage floor.  Last night I went to change a light bulb (florescent) and it looked like it just wiggled loose, so I screwed it back in.  It lit up and then promptly blew up.  As soon as I heard the pop I looked down and thankfully no glass fell into my eyes.  I vacuumed up what I could find and feel that I did a decent job.  Just in case there were any fine shards left I opted to sweep the floor.  Then backed in to the garage so that I could unload the groceries. 

Played Auto Body repair person again today.  I realize I am just not helping and only making things worse so I cut my loses before I did any real damage and walked away.  It looks like someone dropped a small blob of painted gum on my hood.  I had a few of these when I traded in the lemon car and it was solid black, plus a little dirty when I traded it so they didn’t see that the paint wasn’t perfect.  I got full value because it was in excellent shape.  Yeah, just you wash it and you’ll see otherwise.  Anyway I want to preserve my present vehicle in the hopes that I can get a decent amount of money out of it whenever it is that I trade.  Plus it’s still new in my eyes, I haven’t had it a year and there are only 7,600 miles on it.  I still am amazed that I bought it.  A very nice ride but something that I probably shouldn’t have done. 

Got my nap in and slept with Marv.  It was just as relaxing as sleeping with his brother yesterday only better because Marv and I used to sleep together every night no matter what.  That stopped a while back when his IBS got the best of him.  I miss him at night he was the perfect sleeping buddy. 

Went on a cleaning spree.  First it was the table in the kitchen.  Then I put it off long enough so I went to my office.  Man I shouldn’t have waited so long.  Everything is nice and clean, makes me want to be down here more.  Then I went to purge my contacts.  People that I just don’t talk with anymore, I saved their information on my PC but they are out of my contacts.  You never know when you might need to reach someone so I don’t get rid of #’s forever, just archive them to error on the side of caution. 

Tonight is the season finale of Shameless.  I love that show and don’t know what I will watch on Sunday’s.  I’m sure there will be a cliff hanger in there.  Months will go by everyone will have forgotten what happened and then they will be back with another season.  I hope it comes back in the summer, I don’t want to wait until next Winter to see the show again. 

So my last day not being tied to my phone for a solid week.  I turned it off last night.  Today I set it down and went about the house doing what I wanted to without a care in the world.  It was so relaxing and nice.  I wish I could set it on a shelf and just walk away for a much longer period of time.  However, I am addicted to social media.  I love to see what people are up to, what’s in the news, if I can possibly get a date and of course photos of hot guys and the latest in the gay porn industry.  There are of course a few phone calls that I get.  Text messaging well it’s not my favorite thing in the world but I do it on occasion. 

I’m headed up to grab an ice cream and some water.  Sitting waiting patiently on the couch until 8p when Shameless comes on.  Then at 9p I will be rushing to get ready for the morning.  At least my lunch is ready to go.  Still have to pick out cat food and I hate that because I don’t know what they are all going to be in the mood for.  They sure have played me like a fiddle today but I can’t say no, especially when 3 of them have thyroid problems so they are hungry all the damn time. 

Hope it’s a great week ahead for everyone.  I will talk with you peeps later.    

Nightmare Week

It’s not that it was necessarily a bad week but I did have nightmares all week long and woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t go back to sleep.  I’m proud to say that I didn’t call in one day, I went to work [even thought I didn’t want to] each and every day.  Much to my surprise I was also highly productive.  I got stuck on a problem on Friday that was a huge time suck.  I was just about to be all caught up, ah well there is still something to strive for next week.

Nightmares.  Tuesday’s was that I was arrested for shoplifting but I didn’t take anything.  Wednesday’s was that my family had an intervention and was trying to send me to Fat Camp.  Thursday and Friday I don’t recall those details.  Friday was the worst because I woke up at 3a and tried but couldn’t fall back to sleep.  I moved from my bed to the chair in my room and that disturbed Mr. Big Boy who thought it might be time to get up but I assured him it was still far too early.  He wasn’t happy but he didn’t give me much more grief.  I did get slightly drowsy but every time I was just about out my mind would start racing.  I’d go from one thought to another. Oddly enough I have been concerned about getting my sleeping medicine refilled.  My doc had taken care of the refills but they didn’t show up until Thursday night.  Then on Friday I get an email that tells me they can’t fill one of the drugs because I have exceeded the maximum my plan allows.  WTF I have a legal prescription give me my medicine.  I had to fight to get 64 bills instead of the normal 90 I am entitled to.  Insurance Companies suck.  So the medicine should be cheap enough that I can just pay cash.  I am going to talk with the Pharmacist at work and if I can get it filled there w/o using my insurance and it’s cheap enough then I will ask the doc to send them a script.  I’d sooner pay cash and have my medicine than let an insurance company tell me when I can sleep and when I can’t.  Fucking nonsense.  Perhaps this is what my brain was concerned with, I don’t know.  I mean my life otherwise is ho-hum quiet and normal. 

The pain for my vehicle arrived and it might be Blue Jeans but it matches my vehicle perfectly.  I bought entirely way too much but better to have excess than not enough to take care of the job.  Plus it’s sort of insurance for down the road in case something else happens.  This whole mess got me looking at vehicles again.  I saw a really nice BMW SUV but the only problem is BMW doesn’t list MPG on their website.  You have to build your vehicle and then I think you get the information.  I didn’t want to devote that much time to it.  I do however long to own a BMW someday.  It’s actually within the range of what I paid for my present SUV but there would be no discount.  What killed me was the fact that I had to roll over the balance of the loan on the lemon car, otherwise I would be sitting pretty.  The folks at Credit Karma tell me I am paying way too much in interest and should look for another lender.  Yeah, I agree and I will explore some options.  Ideally I’d like to stay where I am and get a lower rate.  The problem is they already told me up front if you want to refinance with them to get a lower rate they charge a $200 fee.  That’s bullshit and I am not paying a fee, if you want to keep me as a customer do the right thing and lower the rate at no charge.  Your still making a killing off of me. 

Speaking of money I started my taxes.  I dreaded doing them as I do every year but I am actually sitting pretty.  My big fear was that I would wind up owing the state I am living in but that is not the case and like last year thus far I have broken even.  I plugged in all of the information I had but I haven’t pulled the trigger to actually file yet.  I am waiting to see if any more paperwork filters in before I commit.  I will file in the month of February not sure on an exact time frame.  However, I will have enough to pay off a credit card that I took a 0 loan on so that will be nice and I will have a couple hundred dollars left over.  So, while I am getting a refund it’s going to vaporize.  That is pretty much always the case.  I get a little bit of money and something comes along and sucks my bank account dry. 

I got a match on Tindr but it didn’t turn into anything.  We had the basic conversation of Hi how are you and what’s going on.  That’s pretty much where things ended and I waited but nothing more materialized so I unmatched.  I wasn’t terribly excited about the match because until I actually have a date, there is no reason to get all wound up and even then it’s just a meeting.  I still have some hope left even if I was told no by the Steak N Shake guy.  I am going to try to see if I can hold off a bit in the morning and go in closer to when he will be working so that our paths will cross.  While I don’t think deep down anything will change I really hope someone talked some sense into him and told him to at least go out for a bite to eat to see what I am all about. 

Today I was able to sleep in a bit and even get a nap with Mr. Big Boy.  He relaxed me so much I just drifted off while holding on to him.  No good deed goes unpunished because when I went to get him out of bed and put him back on the floor I accidentally lowered him on to my foot and he clawed it up.  That hurt and yes there was blood.  I tried to go back to sleep but my body wasn’t having it.  I had to get up and pass out lunch because it’s the weekend and that’s what I do. 

I went out for my supper and wound up getting charged for someone else's drinking habit to the tune of $77.  I quickly called that to my waiters attention and he said that it would be refunded.  He brought me my proper check.  Once I was home I realized I didn’t have any proof that they were going to refund my money.  I used my debit card and handed it over w/o seeing the check, so that is my fault.  However, that has never ever been a problem for me before.  From now on I am going to look at the bill and then pay it so that I am not in this situation again.  Plus I won’t be going back to where I went tonight for a while. 

Next week will be jumping there are a few departures and employee transfers.  Plus I will be on-call again and my dumb co-worker will be back from his vacation.  Fuck I hope that he is smarter after taking a slight break, but I have serious doubts.  Were also ending the first month of the year and with the start of a new month I will once again have to prepare a report for the big wigs.  I hate doing it but I put in some bogus data one month on purpose, no one said a word to me.  That right there tells me no one really looks at the report, it’s just something they are used to receiving and if they don’t get it they throw a fit.  It’s not my top priority but it’s certainly up there.  I’m doing good if it’s published by the 15th of the month. 

Well off to surf a little bit and then I will be headed up getting ready for bed.  Oddly I am tired again and hopefully I will sleep deep and well all night long.  I don’t even want to wake up to use the bathroom.  I can do that in the morning when I roll out of bed.  Just one night of solid sleep and maybe that will get things back on track. 

I hope that you had an enjoyable week.  Take care and thanks for stopping by to check on me, I do appreciate it. 

Suck it Sunday

In case you can’t tell by the title of this post I am not a fan of Sunday.  I woke up to having Gator throwing up on me.  No it wasn’t a dream, it was the real thing.  That’s the point in the night where I changed beds.  Back to sleep and then awake again a few hours later when it was time to start the day.  I had such high hopes but my energy was tapped out.  I took a new muscle relaxer that the doc prescribed me.  It wasn’t supposed to knock me out but within an hour of taking it I started yawning.  Things got worse after that, I threw in some sleeping medicine and called it a night.

Much to my dismay I was kind of hung over this morning.  I was able to get up and take care of the kids, make my way to breakfast and the grocery store.  Then back home, putting away the groceries and working on laundry and finances.  Then I powered the computer off and went upstairs.  I watched a little TV and the next thing I knew I had to take a nap, I was just zapped.

I woke up a couple hours later and still felt the hung over affect – kind of sluggish.  I got moving and that helped.  Then I was able to accomplish most of my tasks for the day.  I really need to clean my desk but that is the one thing that I crossed off the list.  By the time I got everything else done, I was out of energy and enthusiasm to clean.  Like a lot of other things in life, when it comes to cleaning if I am not in the mood the job just won’t get done right.  So I’ll save something for next weekend or the weekend after that or the weekend after that.  Who says procrastination isn’t a good thing!

At breakfast I talked with the gals and told them I made my move last week.  They already knew about it.  Apparently the guy I asked was really flattered and touched.  He was telling everyone about it and showing them my I Y Q paper I made for him.  I thought to myself if he felt that way then why in the world would he say no.  One of the ladies told me he isn’t hit on and I said I can’t understand why not.  I mean I know how to pick out a good looking man and I am a good judge of character.  The longer I sat there I started thinking to myself that maybe I still have a chance after all.  Maybe someone would have said something to him to the effect of you need to grab him up honey while he is still ripe for the picking.  Well if it’s the case he’s gonna have to wait.  I came in early on purpose so that I wouldn’t see him.  Perhaps next weekend I will bump into him.  I mean we could just be friends and then if there is a spark we agree to go deeper.  Hell it’s probably all in my mind and he’s not going to come rushing after me.  Still it’s a comforting thought to think that there is a possibility.  Then again I have a possibility I could win the lottery but I don’t have a ticket for this week.  Yeah I am a little taken back by this rejection but at least I tried, it beats waiting and wondering. 

My new ride has a scratch on the hood.  Something hit it, not sure when that happened.  The troubling part is trying to find touch up paint for it.  The manufacturer calls the color Midnight Sapphire Blue.  All of the websites that sell paint call it Blue Jeans.  Every car has a paint code, so I grabbed that and it matches the Blue Jeans color.  I sure hope that it’s the right thing, because I ordered it.  I wanted to grab some Dupli-Color but they don’t have a 2017 line out yet at least not in any of the stores I went to and I didn’t see it on their website.  I trust them based on past performance. 

I also drove myself nuts but finally found a performance chip website that I am considering making a purchase from.  I found other chips and was all set to grab one until I started to read the fine print and the site said all sales final no refunds no returns.  Well if you have a decent product and it’s not for show and it really works then why wouldn’t you stand behind it?  So the site I want to buy from has a 30 day guarantee and there is a lifetime warranty on the chip.  This chip is designed to increase performance and improve gas mileage.  I am considering buying it for the improved gas mileage.  It’s not cheap so I am taking my time.  I want to research this out and make sure that I am not buying a Pig in a Polk and that when I plug it in I don’t wind up doing damage.  Some of these chips leave foot prints behind so the dealer can tell you did something.  This one has no foot print, still if the values change in programming foot print or not they will know I did something to cause a change.  I don’t know if it’s the right move to make and considering it’s a couple hundred dollars I think I am wise to be cautious. 

All of the cat kids are doing okay.  Momma came to see me last night in the basement.  I heard her crowing a little bit this afternoon.  I haven’t actually seen her play but boy can she eat.  I picked her up this morning and gave her a hug.  She also got her medicine.  I let the boys skip this morning.  It’s one of the perks for the weekend for both of us.  Momma lost that perk when she got sick.  I won’t take any chances with her.

Not sure if I mentioned it but I got my blood work results back and a note from the doc, he’s really happy with my A1C and that is much to my surprise because I’m telling you I really went off the rails.  He said that the results are really good.  Not sure how it happened or if it’s a miracle.  We did have a talk about my heart considering my moms sudden passing.  He told me since I am over 40, white, male, overweight and diabetic that I am at a very high risk for having heart problems.  So at age 50 he will start doing regular EKG’s once a year.  If there are changes or if I have problems that is when more diagnostic testing needs to be done.  He mentioned stress test.  Yeah, those scare the crap out of me because they push you until you are either exhausted or you have a heart attack.  No thanks.  Looks like I have to be good and make smarter choices about what I eat. 

Ah Monday it will be calling sooner than I want it to.  The upside is my dumb ass co-worker is on vacation this week and out of the country.  So I will have a little peace and won’t have to baby sit.  However, it will be a busy week.  There is plenty waiting and who knows what else Monday will bring.  I am not cocky or arrogant but I can tell you for sure that if something happens to me that place will fall apart.  They will still operate but it will be a huge fucked up mess.  People rely on me for so much and no one really has a clue about the inner workings of my job and all of the bases I cover in a day.  Part of me feels like they need to experience it so they would appreciate my value more but the other part of me is honored that people depend upon me and that I am the go to guy for somethings.  I can say for sure that I don’t want anything to fuck up this opportunity I have been given, it’s golden.  I may bitch and moan but I think I am pretty well taken care of.  That doesn’t mean that I don’t want and/or deserve more money. Of course I would like 1 more day off, as in a holiday where no one is working.  My problem is that if I take my time I really can’t get away because I do so much and trying to train my dumb ass co-worker is a lost cause.  He may be a nice guy but he can’t find his ass with both hands.  Now you see why I am elated he is gone for a week. 

Well here is to another adventure.  So long as it’s all good I am open to whatever the week has in store for me.  Money, Orgasms, Awesome Food, Sleep and who could forget Fun.  Yeah I know I am dreaming but it’s one thing I can do that doesn’t cost me money. 

I hope that you have a great week, stay warm and be well.  We shall talk again soon. 

No Comment

My weekend began early or so I thought.  I did a lot of work yesterday, there was an unexpected departure that was pushed through and it came out when I was already logged in so that was perfect.  Today was a little bit of the same without any unexpected departures.  So I charged for the time I worked, which is fair and then used my time to cover the balance of the day.  I saved myself from using an entire day of my time, which is a very good thing in my book. 

The doctors office was slow, but their computer systems were updated.  For the first time in years they asked for a co-pay.  Normally they skip that and send me a bill after the fact.  No more waiting for the bill to come, they have their hands out.  Everything is okay so far as I know.  I got medicines filled with some different pharmacies.  The only one that has surfaced thus far is at my local pharmacy.  I have heard nothing from the pharmacy at work and nothing from the mail order pharmacy.  So I think on Monday I will have to make some calls, which I am not looking forward to. 

Today was my vehicles first oil change.  First time is free after that they charge, sounds like a drug dealer.  Anyway, that’s behind me.  I did ask about improving gas mileage and I was told it would get better the more miles I put on it and not to stomp on the gas.  Nothing I didn’t already know.  I’ll give it a little bit more time, if that doesn’t work then I will probably invest in a plug in chip to improve mileage.  I told the guy I know I bought an SUV and you can laugh but I would really like to stop feeling like I am chained to a gas pump.  My gas tank is lower than normal now and that is by design.  I like to empty out the tank once and a while.  Normally it’s half way or slightly below 1/2 way.  I travel a decent distance to work and I see people stranded all the time, I don’t want to be one of those people. 

Ms. Momma is done with her antibiotics.  We stopped a day early and that was two days ago.  She seems to be doing fine.  Still not following me around and she is much more interested in sleeping than worrying about me.  She does stick by my side when I am upstairs and she seeks me out for attention so were partially there.  I mean maybe she won’t go back to following me around but it’s nice to have company in the basement rather than being by myself.

The most fun I have had on my two semi-days off was today.  I treated myself to breakfast and I broke out an old toy and rode it for a little bit.  I forgot how painful that was.  Looks easy and fun in pron but in real life not so easy.  I did have a good time though.  Oh and I got my haircut today.  That is always enjoyable, nothing like a good shampoo and feeling warm towels on your face.  When they are done I always want them to start over. 

The movie Call Me By Your Name is playing at a local theater and I had plans to go see it today, but I talked myself out of it because of the cost.  Yeah really I should save my money for food and gas because I am short.  I have savings but really don’t want to dip into that.  I waffle back and forth but I think I will just wait until the movie comes out on pay per view.  I am eager for March I think when a movie called Love Simon comes out.  It’s about a boy who’s gay and comes out.  Go do some searching for the trailer, you’ll probably fall in love with the movie.  I suspect this one will be a real cash cow and there will probably be some tears to be shed by some.  Being gay isn’t the end of the world but when your young, it sure feels like it.  I see the it gets better version now that I am an adult and the world has changed so much.  It’s still a very big deal to declare your sexuality and come out.  Once you start you will be doing it for the rest of your life.  There is always someone to come out to – a new doctor, a co-worker, a friend, etc. 

In case you can’t tell I am a little stir crazy, I could use a vacation but once again there is the problem of money.  I realized the other day how fortunate I am and reflected where I came from and where I am at.  I really think that if I found the right guy the rest of my life would fall into place on it’s own.  I would probably be more active and have less stress.  I would also probably no longer have a need for pron in my life.  I just wonder how long it will take before I find the right fellow. 

I suspect your wondering about the title of my post.  I’ve been getting an over abundance of comments and it really makes me feel good until I realize they are all nothing but spam.  So I have turned off the ability to comment, so as to escape the spam.  Normally capcha would fix this but apparently there is a workaround for that as well.  I don’t see how since 1/2 of the time I can’t tell what those letters are with my own eyes.  I guess a computer is better at everything. 

I have a little bit of work to do tomorrow, but the bulk of the day is mine.  I will probably spend it just wasting away and sitting on my ass.  It’s relaxing an enjoyable until I realize the entire day is gone.  I do have a certified letter coming to me in the mail and I suspect that won’t be good news.  It’s very rare that good news comes by certified mail.  Not sure if I will accept it or refuse it, kind of depends upon who it’s from. 

That’s all I know at the moment.  So now you know as much as I do.  I appreciate you stopping by to check on me.  We have a heat wave this weekend back into the 50s but it’s short lived about the time I go back to work we go back in the deep freeze.  One thing I have to have on all of my future vehicles is the ability to remote start the engine via an app on my phone.  That is really nice to get into a warm vehicle on a cold day.  I suspect I will enjoy it equally as well when I am getting into a cold vehicle on a warm day.  Heated and Cooled Seats are also the best!  That’s all folks.  Talk with you again soon.  I hope you have a great weekend!

Tom Dailey Nudes & My Monday

Yesterday I spent way too much time on the web, looking for those explicit photos of Tom Dailey.  They are extremely difficult to find, but I also don’t give up that easily.  I saw them one of which has him shirtless lying on his side, where you see his wedding ring is clearly visible but on his right hand, indicating he is engaged but not yet married.  The other one is an ass shot where he has his ass arched high up in the air just waiting for someone to come plow him.  It’s a nice photo and he has a very beautiful body. 

That said, I can understand why he would want the photos taken down.  One sure fire way to make sure your nudes don’t leak it to not take them.  If you have learned nothing from watching news, learn this.  If you take nude photos, regardless if you send them to someone or just keep them on your phone they are susceptible to getting leaked either on purpose or accident.  I understand the desire to take them and I can see how sending them to someone could be a turn on, but at the same time I think it’s one of the ultimate breaches that serves to embarrass the hell out of you. 

Guys have asked me before for dick pics and they all get the same response, I don’t have them.  Sure I have taken them before but I either delete them or archive them off of my phone.  If you happen to get ahold of my phone and manage to break in you will find photos of a lot of hot guys who are shirtless and maybe some ass shots but that’s it.  I mean it’s obvious to tell that the phone either belongs to a straight woman or a gay man and when you see the rainbow flags, I think that is enough of a tell tale sign. 

Long story short here, my point is if you are going to take the photos then you have to prepare yourself that they could fall into the wrong hands, regardless if your famous or not. 

On a different note, today was a holiday for me.  I’m thankful that my employer celebrates MLK Jr. Day.  It was nice to have an extra long weekend.  I accomplished most of the things I wanted to, even got my pillows washed.  The last one is in the dryer right now.  The kids covers (what I put on the couch & love seat) are in the washer.  Last load of the day! 

I spent the day sleeping in after taking a nice hot shower and a muscle relaxer last night.  I got to bed late and I was very impressed and thankful that the kids allowed me to sleep in for an extra hour.  My pain in my lower back was gone.  Then I started moving and well with a little bit of time it has come back.  I’ll live and probably resort to doing my stretch again to try to get some relief. 

I sat around and watched TV.  Did some cleaning, vacuuming and tangling with the trash.  I was slightly bored but had plenty of time to spend with Momma, Bear, Gator, Marv and Ruth.  I will be going up a little early so we can enjoy what is left of our evening.  Things go back to normal tomorrow.  I’m not ready for that but it’s probably best. 

My reward to myself was dinner at Cracker Barrel, where they managed to hire another hunky good looking waiter.  He’s got a nice set of guns and buns, blond hair and well I’m just getting all worked up.  I had a nice meal of Chicken Fried Chicken, Corn, Carrots and Green Beans.  Corn Muffins, Diet Dr. Pepper and the best part of all Peach Cobbler with Ice Cream.  Now that is a very nice reward to myself.  Then I stopped by the gas station to fill my other tank and came home.  It’s cold now but were headed to sub zero temperatures for the next few days.  Thankfully when I am off on Thursday & Friday, we will have weather back in the 50’s with a little rain.  Then it’s back to the freezer as we progress through the weekend. 

I am looking forward to 2 days off, if I actually get them off without having to tend to anything at work.  I will go out to eat for sure and probably spend way too much time sleeping and spending money.  Then it will be back to the regular bump and grind for the foreseeable future.

Momma is still doing well, eating like a horse.  She is not a fan of her medicine and probably never will be.  She slobbers after the antibiotic and she doesn’t like me trying to clean her up, but I can’t just let her sit there with slobber going everywhere, it’s not right.  I am a little concerned about tomorrow it will be her first day alone and there won’t be any lunch served.  I guess she will be really hungry tomorrow night.  As long as she is truly back to normal then I am happy.  From what I see I would say were there.  I just want the antibiotic to stop and then that will be the true test, if she continues to get better or if she still has an underlying problem.  Whatever was ailing her I hope were done with for her sake and mine as well. 

Stay warm, take care and be well.  We shall talk again soon.  I appreciate you stopping by. 

Improvement

My momma continues to improve, I opted not to give her the narcotic for pain.  She is more alert and oriented.  She has crowed a little bit.  Still eating like a horse.  Passed solid stool.  Still sleeping a little bit, but she climbed up next to me for attention.  I’d say she is on the mend and were near 100%.  I hope her progress continues.  I feel pretty good about her recovery.

I asked the guy on a date, he never saw it coming.  I walked up to him and handed him a piece of paper, I said excuse me could you tell me what this says?  He looked at it and said I Y Q [say it out loud, I like you].  I said I like you too would you like to go out for a bite to eat.  He was blown away and said that was very neat.  He declined, he is focused on college.  I kind of thought I would get turned down but at least I made him smile and laugh.  I thought of it all by myself.  My late husband was into amateur radio and that’s where the I Y Q part came from.  We were at a flea market, which they call a Ham Fest and one of the vendors did custom engraving.  They had a pin that said I Y Q and I said what’s that all about.  The guy said say it out loud and then it clicked.  Feel free to use my idea if your looking to try to pick someone up.  Beats the line from The Ranch.  I could have said hey I think your looking for a new stud.  I have the std, all I need is u.  That made me laugh but it’s not a line I would ever use.  I wasn’t depressed by his reaction, it was just like meh, oh well.  Which I am kind of surprised at. 

I have more pee pads delivered by Amazon today for Mr. Bear.  Plus there is an unopened box in the garage.  I was about to run out of the present box.  I always keep 1 on hand.  Better to be prepared. 

I didn’t get gas today, opted to leave that for tomorrow.  It will force me out of the house and I will get a bite to eat, probably at Cracker Barrel.  Corn Muffins sound really good right about now. 

Supper tonight is an extra large Sausage & Pepperoni Pizza that the grocery store made and had in their refrigerated section.  It was $7 and I figured you can’t pass that up.  I also brought home one of the new Pan Pizza’s from DiGiorno.  It was $12 so I hope when I get around to eating it, that I think it’s the bees knees because it cost more than I am used to spending for a frozen pizza.  Considering that I am only working 2 days this week, I didn’t really need anything but milk.  I managed to grab a few things and get out for under $70.  More food for Momma, Baby Food to keep on hand and I found some new Archway Thin Brownie Bites Cookies that taste like a Fudge Brownie.  They are awesome and something that I should have avoided.  I passed up a lot of sugary stuff that I knew I didn’t need but when I saw these all that will power went south. 

I’ve been doing laundry, grabbing up tax forms from the web for a couple accounts.  Checking on my retirement, reallocating my asset mix and just surfing away.  I have been on my phone as well looking at social media and Tindr.  Tindr keeps sending me messages that I am on fire and a bunch of people like me.  I got one the other day that said someone super liked me.  I am not a paying member so it’s all a mystery to me.  I could pay and match, but who’s to say if anything would come from it.  I have matched with guys before on my own.  I got excited the first few times it happened but I send a note and don’t get a reply or we both are waiting for the other person to say something.  So it’s a gamble.  I don’t know that I want to throw more money at dating right now.

Looking forward to Shameless tonight.  Ian is really rocking the gay role and trying to help gay youth.  He’s my favorite character on the show, but I am a fan of the show in general.

My lower back is killing me, sciatica from sitting all damn day at a computer.  I have an exercise/stretch to do but I am not doing it.  Thinking about taking a muscle relaxer after my afternoon shower and calling it a day.  It’s presently snowing outside, looks nice and it’s coming down heavy.  Were supposed to get less than an inch so they say but they have been wrong in the past.  Looks nice so long as you don’t have to travel in it and I am comfortable with staying in.  Furnace is on and I really have no motivation to do anything, so it can wait until tomorrow. 

There you have it, the good and bad.  Hope there is more good than bad in your world and that your staying warm in this very cold winter weather.  Talk with you all again soon.

Big Day Tomorrow

I spent the bulk of today in bed, so that I would stay up tonight.  All in a plan to time my waking tomorrow just so that I run into the waiter I like that works at Steak N Shake.  I have been thinking about him all week, when I wasn’t focused on momma. 

I did some additional research and see that a couple years ago he declared on social media that he was in a relationship.  I looked up his then boyfriend and found that he has moved.  I remember one of the waitresses last week saying that he might not be single.  Yeah, okay he’s really cute and he has youth on his side so if he is taken it won’t be a huge shocker for me. 

Asking someone out is a risk, because you don’t know their reaction that is part of the thrill of it.  It is kind of fun but mostly nerve wracking.  I’ve got a set of balls and I am not afraid to use them.  This is clearly a BOLD and out of character move for me.  However, it’s not the first time I have done this.  Provided I go through with this as I plan to, I will be proud of myself no matter the outcome.  Plus it will help take the edge off if there is a next time. 

I have thought about my plan and have it worked out in my mind.  I hope he finds it cute and witty – then says yes and follows through.  I’m going to ask if we can exchange numbers instead of just giving him mine.  That hopefully will result in a better outcome, provided of course that he says yes.  He won’t get my real phone number just because while he is cute and attractive I don’t know that he’s not a psychopath.  If we have chemistry and this works out into something long term well then that changes things but no matter who it is, until we get to know each other you won’t get my real number.  I am all a flutter waiting to get this over with but at the same time cringing because I don’t know the outcome. 

In other news, I changed the comments back to only registered users.  I started to get spammed and thankfully Google caught it but still it’s a change that I should have made a while ago and just put it off. 

We are back in the freezer for weather and the furnace is running practically non-stop.  The power company just loves me.  I looked at my bill and my gas usage has really spiked.  Normally I would let the temperature fall during the day so the house was cold but not to where it was uninhabitable.  The animals have their fur coats.  However, this time I have decided to just keep it at a set temperature that is comfortable all day long.  Once the temps rise into the 30’s or 40’s I will reconsider but right now it’s 20’s and below.  Plus I don’t get bitched at by them so that makes it easier. 

So were in a 3 day weekend.  Then I go to work for 2 days and get 4 days off.  Two of those days are work days so I don’t know how much off time I will have but here’s hoping that it’s quiet.  That is all of the time I have scheduled off at the moment.  I have a nice little bank now that we are in a new year.  I just have to make sure to budget so that it lasts me all year long.  Plus now we can carry over 80 hours instead of our previous 40.  I’ll never have 80 spare hours but it’s nice to know the limit went up. 

My income has gone down.  I elected to bump up my contribution towards retirement so I will see a little bit less money but that’s okay.  I am no where near contributing what I should and I know that if I live long enough to actually retire and drawn this money out that I will be sorry I didn’t contribute more.  I’m no where near done working so there is still plenty of time, but the sooner you can start with a larger or max out your contribution the more you will have in the end.  That is unless the stock market goes belly up. 

Nothing else noteworthy is going on.  I think I have my hands full between work, momma and asking this guy out.  No shortage of drama in my life.  I just wish it were more of the positive drama if there is such a thing. 

Oh my gift cards aren’t listed yet.  I called and found out that there is a 45 day hold places on them before they are listed.  I guess they think I am going to try to scam them, which is totally not the case.  I don’t have proof of purchase so I have to wait out the 45 days, which will be the 21st of February.  Seems like a long time but hey I want money instead of cards, so there really is no choice.  Patience is not one of my stronger suites but the universe is trying to teach it to me all the time and I rebel. 

I’m going to do a little surfing and then prep for bed.  It’s 10p here and normally by now it would be lights out.  Considering I don’t have to get up early I will enjoy the sleeping in.  Unless Gator decides I need to get up.  She has been a pest all day long, but I love her. 

Hope your all warm and safe.  Take care and we shall talk again soon. 

Teflon Woman

Wednesday night I went to medicate my girl and I think I just overwhelmed her.  She threw up shortly after all of her meds were on board.  That frustrated me to no end as well as scaring me a little bit.  I knew deep down that if she was to get better she needed to be hospitalized sooner rather than later.  The longer this drags on the worse her chances are for recovery. 

I called the vet and got an idea of what it would cost me, roughly.  The kicker was they wanted to charge me another office visit despite the fact I was just there.  That pissed me off to no end.  I opted to make an appointment and wait.  Then I let my fingers let off some steam by sending an email to the vet.  Within 30 minutes I got a return call and the fee was waived, plus since it was later in the evening they waived the emergency fee.  I had to get dressed and drive her over. 

When we got there I told them I had taken my sleeping pill so my time was limited.  That apparently didn’t seem to matter despite all of the acknowledgements I got.  They kept me there for an hour.  I was amped up so there was no way my pills would have an effect on me.  They gave me a written rough estimate between $482 and $882.  They wanted $882 and said they would refund what wasn’t used.  I balked at that as normally I just put 1/2 down now and pay the balance when I pick her up.  After some dancing around they agreed to that and took $650 from me.  I left her and knew that this was her best chance at kicking this. 

Funny thing is no one here seemed to miss Momma, life went on as if nothing was wrong.  I was missing her horribly.  I got off work early on Thursday and before I came home, I stopped in to see her and have a quick chat with the vet.  They got her eating baby food, which was a good sign.  They changed all of her medications to IV and they worked faster & better that way.  They wanted to keep her for another day, sure why not were making progress. 

Friday morning I was told that her condition continued to improve and she was doing really well but still had a little bit of diarrhea.  They sent that off to be cultured to see if there was a parasite.  It came back clean.  This is either a random GI Issue, Irritable Bowel Disease or Lymphoma.  Of course they had to throw in fucking cancer.  Every time I turn around they are telling me one of my cats might have cancer.  Yeah I may be the lottery jackpot winner as well but odds are I’m not.

So what’s the plan?  They could do biopsy's but given her age they really don’t think she would make it plus given her present health they really didn’t want to take the risk.  Thank God because I know I can’t afford that.  We take the conservative route and just see how she does and if she relapses, if she does relapse then the diagnosis will come from what medication she responds to. 

I picked her up Friday night.  She was ready to come home but not her normal chatty self.  She didn’t even complain when we got in the cold or the ride home, that is abnormal for her.  The first thing she did when she got home and was free is she froze.  Then she ran for the food and started eating.  That’s very good news.  Then it was the litter box, diarrhea is still there but considering that she wasn’t eating a normal amount of regular food.  Then she climbed into one of the pet beds and claimed it as hers. 

Two hours later it was time for medicine.  She took it like a champ.  Did some grazing and drank some water, then it was back to bed. 

Where we are at today is pretty much the same.  She is still clinging to the bed, she sleeps which is to be expected because she is on a narcotic pain medicine.  Then she wakes up, does some grazing, drinks some water.  Uses the bathroom and it’s back to bed.  She is better in that she is eating but I don’t consider her out of the woods yet.  I sent a progress report to the vet and am waiting to hear if she wants to make any changes.  Her stool has improved but is still not solid. 

I cherish every moment I have with all of them, I know that they will all be gone way too soon.  Oh and when I showed up to pick her up they told me that they owed me $7 I said credit it back to my card.  I need all the help I can get.  I have already started throwing extra money at it so when the bills comes next month it won’t be so outrageous.  I plan to pay it off so that I don’t accrue interest, it’s a 30 day 0 percent loan.  That is the way I try to treat all of my credit.  Accrue the points or cash back so I get some minor additional benefit. 

Sure hope that my Momma makes a full recovery and that this is a 1 time event.  I need her back to normal.  She isn’t following me around the house, isn’t vocal, isn’t playing and isn’t sitting in my lap or crawling up by me.  She is glued to that bed.  I am happy she is home and that I can treat her with medicine, I just hope that she starts to turn the corner more than she has already. 

Unlucky day

Monday was busy but okay.  Ms. Momma was eating like a horse.  She kept that up until this morning.  Overnight had to be rough for her because there was another mess in my office.  I also found some in my room.  Now I am not sure how she managed to go in my room with out me noticing because my nose is super sensitive but she kept true to form like a cat and was the master of disguise.  It did have a negative odor when I went to clean it up, so that just adds further to my confusion. 

In any case, I took the day off and she went to the vet.  $200 later were back home.  She had her February blood work done early, so that is $100.  She looks really good for being sick apparently.  They have her on some narcotic pain medicine which does knock her out for a short period.  Plus she is on 2 antibiotics to help with the diarrhea and GI issues.  She was a true lady and while it wasn’t her favorite place to go she went with out a fuss, once we were in the car it was a little bit of a different story.  She behaved the whole time we were at the vet, which is normal for her. 

She camped out by the water fountain when we got home and I didn’t think she would ever leave that thing.  She was really taking in the water.  Thankfully she is not dehydrated.  She has been a little clingy today and she even did her infamous trick where she wiped her butt on my arm.  I can usually tell what she is up to but this came with out any warning.  Not fun. 

To say I am worried is an understatement.  I’m supposed to give her 24 to 48 hours and if she isn’t eating, call and they will adjust her medicine.  I’ve been down this road many times and they will ask me to bring her in so they can hospitalize her and start IV medication, which will be quicker acting but in the long run more expensive.  So my hope is that she will start eating.  Otherwise, it will be like everything else in life where it comes down to making a choice.  Do I spend more money and try to make her well or should I error on the conservative side and try to nurse her back to health at home?  Letting her go, well that is not an option at this point. 

I have seen the other kids and it appears there is some bug that is going around because a couple of them have some diarrhea but they are otherwise acting normal.  If this spreads and everyone gets as bad as she is, well then it might be time to thin the heard but it’s not what I want to happen. 

Of course I blame myself and think that I am being punished for something I did that I knew was wrong.  I guess that is the Catholic Guilt in me.  Funny how I think God is punishing me but when the rubber meets the road I am actually on the fence a little bit about God and if he exists.  I have mixed feelings and I am trying to work through them but it’s really hard to believe in someone that you can’t see.  Sort of like Sheldon on Little Sheldon if I close my eyes and imagine I have a million dollars waiting for me on my kitchen table when I get home, then I’m rich.  Yeah, just don’t ever open your eyes and you won’t be disappointed. 

Work is way too busy right now.  Of course being out a day only attracted more work.  I have no shortage of things to occupy my time.  I have to struggle with what to put first and I do a decent job of that, but usually when I have my plan formulated as is typical in the IT world, something else comes along and you have to readjust.  Not to mention going to boring mindless meetings.  If I didn’t have BS to deal with and interruptions I think I would be just fine.  That’s when working from home sounds really attractive.

It’s been a full day of TV and movies.  I saw The Big Sick on Amazon.  At one point I was ready to cry and at another point I managed to fall asleep.  Momma curled up with me and that was it.  Put a cat near me like that and it won’t be long before the sedative takes affect and I am out like a light.  I just need to get a good nights sleep so that I can return to normal tomorrow. 

Monday night I went to the car wash because I had problems seeing out my windows.  All of the sludge of winter started to build up on them and try as I might I couldn’t keep them clean.  I hate dirty windows, not to mention it’s a little bit of a safety hazard.  Not nearly as bad as those people who like to drive with their lights off in the dark or think their daytime running lights will do the trick.  That is a huge pet peeve of mine. 

Well I am going to surf the web for a little bit, then empty litter boxes.  Afterwards, I will return to my state of worry and sit with the little fur balls until it’s time to prepare for bed.  Were going into a heat wave here tomorrow it will be in the 50’s but it’s short lived for 2 days only and then Winter and it’s mix comes knocking on the door again.  Just in time for you guessed it, the weekend. 

I am thinking a lot about Sunday and if I really want to ask this guy out.  I have thought of the good and the bad.  The worst he can say is no and that will hurt a bit but it could be doing me a huge favor.  Then again he could say yes and I would have a chance.  I mean just because he says yes doesn’t mean were going to click.  There is a serious age gap here.  I’m not looking to jump into bed, I’m looking for a companion and maybe he’s not the right guy for that.  However, unless I ask I will never know.  I also think that his co-workers may have tipped him off and he will be expecting me to make a move.  I am just a ball of knots about this but my primary focus right now is on Momma, who’s name is Lucky.  Hence the title of the post. 

I hope that the rest of the week isn’t too bad and that everything comes together the way I want it to and the way it’s supposed to.  I haven’t spoken with a friend by phone all year, granted it’s only been 9 days.  I just feel like a little bit of a mess right now. 

Here’s hoping your world is better and brighter than mine.  I remind myself that this too shall pass.  I’d like to have good problems for once instead of bad ones but then again I think that is why they are called problems, because they are not good.  Take care and stop by again to find out how things are progressing or have turned out in my next post.  Cheers!

? Home on Monday ?

I have two factors that may very well keep me home on Monday. 

#1 – Sick momma.  She isn’t feeling well as evidence of her bathroom issue last night.  I got her to nibble a little bit this morning.  I gave her some fluids this morning.  She wasn’t terribly happy about that.  She has had some water on her own and has been sleeping part of the day.  She is back to following me around the house.  I am impatient so I broke out the appetite stimulant.  I hope that kicks in soon.  I would like to see her back to eating normal again.  I think she is going to be okay but when a cat stops eating it can turn critical in a short time.  So I’ll give her today but if she isn’t eating by breakfast then were probably going to the vet.  She is just like her kids, once she stops eating it take some coaxing to get her back to eating.  She has been hospitalized for that in the past.  I just don’t know what in the world caused this.  I know she was behind my TV where she shouldn’t have been, there could have been a bug or spider back there.  I don’t see an obvious signs of trauma, so it’s probably something she ingested.  If that is the case with what she has been through it’s out of her, I just hope that will be the end of the damage.  No pun intended.  

#2 – Ice storm.  The weather people are just on hyper drive about impending doom, rain is coming and it’s cold out so that means freezing rain.  Originally it wasn’t supposed to impact the morning commute.  Now that were getting later in the day and nothing has happened, it’s probably that the morning commute will be impacted.  My office has only closed twice in the 3 years that I have been there.  First time was because of a water main break.  Second was because of ice/snow.  So who knows, it’s anyone guess at this point as to what will happen.

While I’d love to stay home I would much rather it be because of the weather.  Regardless if the office is closed or I chicken out and call in.  I don’t like a sick cat, especially one of mine. 

In other news, I went out for breakfast this morning.  I wanted to go to a different place but my gut said go to Steak N Shake.  Turns out the hottie I have a crush on came strolling in.  Holy shit, he just got his hair cut as did I.  He looked really good.  We exchanged eye contact a couple times.  He looked mad and something didn’t feel right.  I asked one of the waitresses and she confirmed that he is gay but wasn’t sure if he was single.  Okay, so 1/2 of the battle is over were on the same team.  The only other part is if he’s single and interested.  He will be working next weekend so that could be the perfect opportunity.  Fingers crossed, I hope it works if I ask him.  I mean I’ll never know until I ask.  There is a serious age difference between us but hopefully he can see past that.  Stay tuned we will find out together. 

Typical normal Sunday around here.  Looking forward to next Monday because I am off due to the holiday (Martin Luther King Jr Day).  I should take off Tuesday & Wednesday because those are the only days I am working that week.  I haven’t had a solid week off since I was sick a couple years ago and that was no vacation. 

It’s about time to grab my electric blanket out of the dryer and head upstairs.  Pop the pizza in the over.  Pop myself in the bathroom for a shave and shower.  Then back to the PC for a bit and upstairs to watch Shameless.  Morning will be calling soon after that so hopefully Monday will be a good day regardless if I go to work or stay home. 

Not a good week

From a work perspective it hasn’t been a good week.  Lots of overtime which will look very nice on my check.  Thus far I am up to 10 hours.  There were last minute moves that had to take place after hours.  Plus a few other issues that came up.  Friday started off the evening with a bunch of alerts that just nag us.  I was told to stop and restart a service, but no one knew the name of the service, so that task didn’t get done.  The alerts continued throughout the day on Saturday and I finally had enough.  I decided to start rebooting servers.  I knew it wouldn’t sit well, which is why I didn’t ask permission first.  I just did it.  I was asked afterwards to ask for permission.  No one would have known what I did if it wasn’t for the informational email I sent.

From a sexual standpoint it’s been a great week.  No I didn’t get lucky or meet someone.  However, I did get confirmation that two guys I thought were gay are in fact gay.  So my Gaydar is getting better.  One of these guys works in a different office.  Figured out with the help of social media that he’s 25 and yes, gay.  However, he has a boyfriend.  I don’t want to out anyone, because that is just not a proper thing to do.  So the other guy is in the same age range and has some fame to him.  He posted a video saying his boyfriend was in town and that is how I solved the mystery.  I’m just a regular Sherlock Holmes. 

Continuing with the sexual theme.  I also have a particular sexual kink fetish.  Something I admire from a far but it’s never been done to me.  I’d like to experience it before I die.  Anyway, my late partner was in the dream and it was happening.  I was so fucking happy and then the alarm clock went off.  That quickly killed that mood but I thought about the dream all day long and manage to arouse myself over and over. 

On to the home standpoint.  I was able with some help from tech support to resolve an issue with a particular program that was causing me issues.  That made me very happy because I had been struggling with this over the holiday weekend and I was baffled that I wasn’t able to solve it.  Turns out they had a hotfix for it.  Run a batch file, reboot and then your all set.  I kept the file just in case the issue comes back.  Kids are all doing okay, other than momma who’s stomach was giving her problems so she went to the bathroom in my office, then walked out the door and threw up.  Poor girl.  She was embarrassed but hey were family, I understand.  I suspected it was because I was being generous by skipping her medicine.  So I passed out medicine and then a snack.  That perked them all right up.  I didn’t get a good nights sleep last night but wasn’t terribly worried about it because I had the option of taking a nap today.  Only problem with that is I was on-call and as per usual my phone knew when I was just about to nod off and it would go off.  I tried twice to doze off but no luck.  Here’s hoping I crash tonight.  I bought me some O’Keeffe’s Working Hands Hand Cream.  It came with a bonus lip moisturizer.  Something that both me and my late partner always wanted to try.  Well I have only applied it twice and it seems to be working.  Winter has just killed my hands and I’m not a glove person so that doesn’t help.  I got my winnings today, it turns out it was 5 flight gift cards for $100 each.  I have them listed on-line for sale already.  I’m taking a $50 hit but once they sell it will be money I didn’t have in the first place.  The gas card is for a local brand station, so I stopped there on the way back from the bank and filled up Mr. Thirsty.  Boy does he drink, I think he’s got a problem, but if I sent him to a meeting that would only make him drink more. 

I was placed in an odd position this week.  I stopped on Wednesday to fill up the tank and notice there was a car sitting by the opposite pump.  The engine wasn’t running and there were two people inside.  They were trying to stay warm.  It was bone chilling dangerously cold outside.  We weren’t in the best neighborhood so I thought for sure it was a drug deal going down.  I filled my tank and minded my own business.  I was done and about to get back in my vehicle and the window from the passenger side rolled down, a man said can you help us with some gas?  I said your out of gas?  Yep.  Okay sure I said without any hesitation.  WTF was going through my head.  The guy opened the door and got out and that’s when I figured I was going to get robbed, see a gun or something bad was going to happen.  He was thankful and polite.  I gave them a small amount of gas.  This was an older car so I knew it had a very large tank, which would have done some serious damage to my wallet.  I told him when I was done, he thanked me again and I went about my way.  I saw him running around and headed inside the gas station.  That is the point where I wondered if I had just been conned.  I hope he was going in to use the bathroom.  You know me and my luck if I try to help someone I usually have some negative repercussion.  Not this time, thank God.  I don’t know that I will be stopping there for gas again anytime soon. 

Now on to the weather, as I said it’s been cold in the negative digits.  Kind of makes me want to fly to a place that is warmer but I’d miss my kids.  Were in for freezing rain tomorrow afternoon.  It starts at 2 and ends around 5 by which time the sun will be down.  No worries for me, all of my running will be done in the morning.  However, it could be a day home for me on Monday.  I saw a bunch of car pile up videos with a co-worker and it was nuts.  That made me a little more aware and cautious.  Our office probably won’t close and I suspect the roads will all be in decent shape, since the road crews will have the evening to plow, treat and make things better.  If things happen like they are predicted then I’ll make a judgement call.  Our old office manager used to reward the few people that would make it in with free lunch, that sounds good as well. 

Today I watched the documentary about the Branch Davidian and David Koresh.  Wow that was a colossal fuck up.  Since law enforcement lost the element of surprise they should have rescheduled their raid but that didn’t happen.  There are conspiracy theory's that it was law enforcement who started the fire as revenge.  I don’t believe that but I can tell you that you shouldn’t fuck with law enforcement in anyway, shape or form.  They always win because there is strength in numbers.  David Koresh did an amazing brain washing of so many people.  My personal opinion is that he had a mental problem.  The whole thing was a very unfortunate event and it could have ended on a more positive note without the loss of life for so many people.  I can’t imagine being burned alive, that has to be fucking horrible beyond comprehension.  Hopefully, nothing like this will happen again in my lifetime.  It’s hard to believe that was 25 years ago.  I remember that’s all you heard about on TV for days and like everyone else I wanted to know the latest.  I didn’t figure it would end well but I also didn’t think there would be a mass fire. 

So that’s the 1st week of January, oh I forgot to mention this week there was a full moon.  When I saw that I knew I was fucked from the get go.  All of the bizarre bat shit crazy stuff always happens when there is a full moon.  Now I am making my way upstairs, taking some sleeping pills, watching some TV with the kids and going to bed while my phone & body recharge.  Hip Hip Hooray!  Tomorrow is another day. 

I hope you all managed to stay warm and that your doing well.  Talk with you peeps again soon.  Be well.     

The First Day

I made it past midnight to welcome in the nude new year.  The police scanner and the cats kept me company.  Lots of interesting thing going on but after midnight the shots fired and fireworks calls start pouring in to 9-1-1.  I feel sorry for them but they have to check it out.  I didn’t hear of anything serious.  One lady went to a bar, they were closing and so she said that she would rather commit suicide than to be kicked out onto the street.  The bar called the cops and I suppose the drama began at that point.  That’s when I turned it off.

I wanted to see Charlie Puth on Dick Clark’s Rockin’ New Years Eve.  As per usual I recorded the show and then fast forwarded through it.  I got a bonus because I also got to see Shawn Mendes.  Charlie was saved for last, I suppose that is because he is the best.  I don’t know.  All I can tell you is that kid has some pipes on him.  He’s good looking and I am sure there is no shortage of guys or girls who want to sleep with him.  Hell if I had his looks I’d have a boyfriend by now.  Shawn Mendes isn’t bad on the eyes either.  There is also Ryan Seacrest, who hosted the show.  I think he’s totally gay but it’s my opinion. 

2018 will be interesting to see who comes out.  However, closer in my reach is my taxes and the refund I hope to receive.  Paying off credit card debt is my plan, I hope that there is plenty of money to accomplish that.  I don’t plan on having any left but hey if I did that would be nice too.  I won’t be filing until February and a small part of me dreads it but hey it’s got to be done. 

I went to bed a little after 2a.  Woke up at 6a, switched beds and back to sleep I went.  Got out of bed for real at 9a.  I was going to go out for breakfast but opted to just stay home, it’s way too cold to go out for anything.  Were going into the negative digits tonight and that is never fun.  My poor furnace is running all the time and the electric/gas company probably love me but only for my money. 

Spent the day with the kids.  Eating junk food all day long, drinking diet soda as if that is going to wash away my sins.  Took a nap around noon and woke up an hour later.  Decided to get busy and clean the house and get the garbage out.  Cleaned off my back window so I can see what is behind me. 

I had an invite to be with friends for a very delicious meal but I opted to not go.  My time off passes so fast and I feel like I never really spend quality time with the kids.  So I opted to just loaf and it’s been fun.  I had a period of loneliness and some depression in being all alone.  That’s what I get for watching two gay drama/romantic movies back to back. 

Been thinking about getting out an adult toy and going for a ride but it honestly sounds like far too much work.  So I am sticking to my usual routine.  Been surfing and there is plenty of content for consumption.

I am interested in a show on Showtime about spies and the CIA.  It’s a little over 2 hours long so I am going to break away soon and go watch.  Hopefully it will keep my interest, otherwise there is always Young Sheldon. 

Momma is after me telling me it’s getting close to get upstairs and get ready for Monday on a Tuesday.  Fuck it’s going to suck going back tomorrow.  Cold, traffic and that work thing.  I have my PTO but in a couple weeks I will get to use some and we will have yet another holiday. 

Best part of the new year is hanging up all of my new male calendars.  I have Falcon’s 2018 Calendar in my office and Brent Corrigan is staring at me.  Naked Sword’s calendar is in my bedroom and that giant gallery size calendar by Dylan Rosser is hanging in my living room.  Nothing like a little eye candy to help keep me going.  Wish I could hang some up at work but that wouldn’t bode well in a professional environment. 

Up to be with the kids, break out the cocoa butter and moisturize my dry winter hands.  I’m not a lotion guy but I am not a fan of dry skin either. 

Here’s hoping your warm, safe and had a great first day.  Let’s try to keep that theme going.  Cheers!