I was kind of afraid for the weekend, fearing that I would sink into a rut and not want to come back out. I did allow myself time to lounge, watch TV and relax. I did that for the bulk of Saturday. Finally, I got out around 4p and grabbed the mail and some Chinese Food. Then on to the cat food store and finally back home.
My new watch that I ordered came, it’s a little bigger than I thought it would be but I like it. I wish it had a metal band instead of plastic, that just makes it look cheap but I have a dress watch with a metal band. I only wear a watch to work and for some odd reason on Thanksgiving. I really didn’t need this watch but I saw it and it caught my eye, so presto it’s mine.
After I put the cat food away I installed my tire monitoring system. If you don’t tighten the cap all the way, you will hear a hissing sound and air is leaking out of the tire. The anti-theft system makes it a bitch when it comes time to take off the cap to fill the tire with air. You have to remove the cap plus the anti-theft lug nut. Then you can fill the tire with air. I’ve got an air compressor that you set a dial to and it precisely fills the tire, still with that this thing is showing that my tires are under inflated, but in a safe zone. I am going to see what it looks like in the morning and will likely make one more attempt at adding air to them. Then it will be a wait and see thing, if this thing actually works as it proclaims. I like it but I am a little skeptical and could easily see myself returning it. I want to give it a fighting chance.
If you have Amazon Prime, check out the movie called The Patent Scam. It’s really an eye opener, it’s kind of boring when it first starts but stick with it and you’ll be very surprised. If you have Showtime check out a series called Active Shooter. It’s interesting and gives you a different look at various Active Shooter events that have taken place in the US. They have yet to cover Las Vegas but I suspect it’s in the works.
I’ve spoken with my brother off and on during the course of the week. He has failed me on getting together this week to grab a bite to eat. He told me that the funeral home called and wanted him to pickup the death certificates. That is the one piece of paper we are waiting on to cash out the little accounts that she had. He told them to place them in the mail. Great so now we have to wait even longer. They should have surfaced today but I haven’t gotten a phone call from him. Kind of figuring that he might opt to screw me, so I shelled out my money and ordered two copies on my own. It cost me a small amount of money but once I have that document I will have power. I told him that the Small Estate Affidavit is in place and made sure that he was agreeable to 50% of what ever balance she had in any account going to each of us. He was fine with that. He seems friendly enough but I know my family and revenge is a big thing. I am playing nice but I’m not going to be stupid. I could go and close out all of her accounts on my own without him but that would cause problems. I am eager to see what she had in her credit union account and need a certified original death certificate in order to find out. I’m interested to see how this will play out and what is going to happen to our relationship. Thus far I don’t have a lot of confidence. Who knows he might just surprise me. Tomorrow is his birthday and I’ll call or send a text, which is more than he would do for me.
I am still grieving and have my moments, as one would expect. I reached out to one of my mom’s co-workers by letter because I heard that she was particularly upset and feeling guilty. I sent her a letter telling her to let it all go, she has done nothing wrong and shouldn’t feel guilty. I reminded her about when we spoke some years back when my mom’s mental illness was coming to the surface and she affirmed my believes. That was the best thing she could have ever done and she told me that she needs help. I remember telling my brother after I got off the phone with her about what she said. We weren’t terribly close then but mom got us talking. She was the one person who could bring both of us together, even if sometimes it was just to see the argument erupt. I know damn good and well I was baited several times but that’s the past and there isn’t anything I can do about that.
The work situation has gotten some attention, of course it’s a bit late. Thus far nothing is being done it is a waiting game to see how much more he will fuck up before they have enough ammo to cut ties with him. Me and my boss had a very frank conversation and he told me that everyone has a learning curve and there comes a time when you can no longer claim a learning curve, we are at that point. I told him that I think if your going to BS your way into a job, you should be able to back it up or you shouldn’t try if you know you don’t have what it takes to carry out what and who you represented yourself. I mean look I’ve not been the most qualified person for all of the jobs I applied for and I am very thankful for people who took a chance on me. That is the only reason I am where I am today. I may have BS’d a little bit and I think to a certain degree a lot of people do that but I didn’t dig myself a hole that I couldn’t get out of. I have always come through, failure is not an option. I don’t know what type of a game this guy is playing or how long he thinks he can hold on but I can tell you that the clock is ticking and his days are numbered. He called me on Friday morning and left a voice mail asking me how to do a very basic task. I called him back and walked him through it and he was thankful. I also told my boss and forwarded the voice mail. I’ll take every ounce of proof that I can get. I just want him to shape up or ship out and at this point wanting him gone is probably the best thing that can happen to me. That is the only way I can get a promotion, gain some sanity and stop wasting my time to train someone who is a fraud. Also the sooner it happens that he goes, the sooner we can get someone in who cares and is more qualified and that I can train and they will learn instead of spinning my wheels and having a dumb ass who can’t follow simple written instructions to save his own life.
Since I am on the work topic, I learned that we scored in the top standings of diversity places to work, we will be in the results released by the HRC. I was really surprised to see that. I’ve always wanted to work for an employer who ranked high in that regard. It’s making me re-think if I want to come out at work.
So the good news is that there isn’t a lot of laundry to do this weekend, but the bad news is there is laundry to do this weekend. Sunday will be clock adjustment day. I decided I will take care of things after the fact instead of ahead of time, it’s just easier and I can be more calm about it. The cats certainly won’t understand but they will adapt after a couple days. So the sun deprivation begins and I will be driving in the dark for both of my commutes. It’s always dangerous when we first start out because people somehow forget how to drive in the dark. Personally, I hate it because not everything or everyone is well lit and you have to always be on guard. My new fear or phobia is that I am going to hit someone, not as in wreck but injure or kill a pedestrian. I hope it’s just a phobia and/or fear because that is the last thing I want to do. I am all about helping people but this just hit me within the past couple weeks and it’s a nagging that won’t go away, so I am extra careful.
I haven’t shaved since last Saturday. I am entering the itchy stage and people are telling me that my beard looks good and I should continue to grow it out. Yeah well when I reach the point where I want to gnaw off my own face, that is when it’s time to shave. I actually don’t want to get to that point so I will be shaving tomorrow if I can wait that long. It’s going to require a pre-trim and then an actual shave which is double the work for going a day early. I’d like to get back in sync which is why I really want to wait until tomorrow.
Now I am going to hang up my shower curtain since it’s about to be fresh out of the washer. Then I get the joy of putting out pills for me and then medicating the cats. I reach out to my vet asking for sympathy and more medicine. Normally they want you to comply with the monitoring panel of blood work but I explained that I just buried my mom and she didn’t have life insurance. So my finances are a bit tough right now. Sure if they twist my arm I will comply but I’d like to think they will give in and compromise, considering all of the business I have given them over the years. Everyone with a slight exception for Marv is doing fine. He worries me because of his incessant meowing, the slobbering and the fact that he doesn’t appear to be gaining any weight. He is a little bit of a different cat and I still have a bad feeling about him but I’ve shoved it to the back of my mind. Death is the last thing I need another dose of now, especially with the holidays coming.
I hope you enjoy the rest of the weekend, I know that I am going to try. Looking forward to tomorrow nights premier of Shameless. I hope there is some hot gay sex with Ian, I know he will be shirtless a little bit and that in it’s self is a huge turn on. I know it’s only a character but damn the actor is super fine!
Cheers for now.
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