Home Again

I had plans to make it to the office today, especially since the super stud I have a crush on is leaving today.  However, 5a came around and I was wide awake.  I had been waking up knowing I needed to use the restroom but too lazy to get out of bed and falling back asleep.  My body woke me up at 5a and said it’s now or never.  So I gave in and when I came back to bed despite the best efforts of my fat little girl (Gator) I was unable to return to my slumber.  Instead we watched some Facts of Life and then I fell back asleep around 6.  Needless to say that was my excuse for working from home again. 

I got to talk with the super stud and we said our goodbyes.  He chose his words carefully and never once said keep in touch, then again neither did I.  I know that since we won’t be working together that he won’t keep in touch.  We had an argument about this a couple years back.  He’s still in my phone’s contacts even though I will never make it in to his.  I just think more of him than I should.  It’s one of those upside down things, if I could kill my attraction to him then he would be just like any other person I used to work with and presto gone.  Maybe with the absence that will happen. 

Two days left in the week and I think I am going to finish out the week here.  It’s kind of nice and grows on me.  Sleeping in, being able to run to the fridge or in the case of yesterday when I had downtime I was busy doing chores like changing air filters and taking out trash. 

The odor in the basement from the mold was driving me nuts.  It would come and go.  I had an air freshener in place but even though it had a great smell to it I just didn’t like it.  I wanted to knock things down at the source and not cover them up.  I mean were not in Washington DC (how’s that for humor).  In any case I saw a tip the other day that said fill a dish with vinegar and take it to the area where the odor is.  The vinegar will evaporate but it knocks down the odor as it does so.  Seems to be working.  I also saw a video last night that purchasing an O3 Air Purifying system would do it.  But you have to treat it a few times before it goes away.  That’s what the pros use.  I found on on Amazon (they sell damn near everything you could ever need or want) for $79.  I haven’t given in just yet but I am close.  Once the vinegar goes away if the smell comes back then that is where I am headed. 

We have been cold here at night getting into the lower 40’s and that makes for great sleeping weather.  I haven’t turned on the furnace yet but were getting closer.  I hate that fresh furnace smell but after that is gone, the heat feels so good.  Gator will be loving it as well. 

Last night as I was watching TV I had a moment where I just took a step back and thought of how blessed I am to have 3 wonderful cats that care for me.  I also thought about life for a moment when they are gone but that quickly washed away and I just kept thinking of how much I love them.  There was an emotional scene on 9-1-1 and that is what caused all of this.  I had a tear or two in my eye.  Those cats know me better than anyone. 

Almost time to climb back up and have my turkey & cheese sandwich.  Of course I will have to pass out cat food and some attention to go with it.  The cats are so confused but they are enjoying every moment they can with me.  When things go back to normal I think we will both be lost. 

Outside of the benefit of no commute, sleeping in, being with the kids, being able to take a quick nap and goof off.  The other benefit is that since I spend all day in front of my computer, my evening is spent with the kids and we both like and enjoy that.  I’m sure lots of people think I am on vacation or out sick but I’m slaving away.  If you call my desk it rings here and that throws people off as well.  It’s been a long time since I had a full tank of gas on a Wednesday and haven’t traveled a single mile since Sunday.  Laundry will be quicker, dishes will be about the same and the best part is I will get to avoid driving in the rain.  How’s that for poetry. 

Hope all is well in your world.  Talk with you all again soon.  Take care!

Tuesday

What a wicked dream I had.  Not exactly sure why I went to the hospital they had to give me a bunch of shots and then I remember waking up.  I had some bar sticking out of my left arm and a plate inside of my hand.  The nurses kept trying to talk me into keeping it in place and they were ready to send me home when I started screaming at them to get it out.  They put me in a twilight state where I could still feel what was going on but couldn’t see a damn thing and they took it out.  It hurt like hell.  Yeah that was my dream.  Kind of freaky.  Especially considering that I hate needles. 

I woke up and saw that it was early in the morning and the air was cold in the house.  That’s when I knew I was working from home today.  I moved up the alarm and closed the door.  The kids were staring at me like aren’t you going to feed us.  I said give me a couple hours and I will be up.  True to my word I was up before the alarm went off and they got fed.  They aren’t eating much, being picky.  Part of that I think is to see what they can worm out of me.  Since I am home they will expect lunch.   I’ll be the first to admit they had a crappy selection at the pet food store this week.  The week before that it was much better and everything I bought was consumed.  I like those weeks.  I hate throwing away food be it mine or theirs. 

So another fall day working at home.  Had my Blueberry Chex this morning and they were great.  I finished up the Cinnamon Toast Crunch.  I’ve got a little bit of Blueberry left and then a full box of Cinnamon Chex.  Once that is all gone it’s back to Oatmeal/hot cereal.

I kind of like this choice I get to make go to work or stay home and work.  Staying home saves me money on gas, time on the commute and gives me more time to sleep in.  It also causes the walls to close in on me and makes me want to jump out of here.  However, it’s great to have the choice and I plan to chose wisely.  I think a day or two each week at home will be a good thing. 

I got put in an odd position with a task from a co-worker but thankfully he called and cancelled.  I was happy that occurred.  I’ve really got not a lot going on today.  There is a report I can work on but right now have decided to let it wait.  See I don’t just procrastinate in my personal life I do it at work as well.  No on read the damn report anyway it’s a waste of my time but yet I have to do it.  So outside of a conference call later this afternoon my day is essentially wide open.

What better to do with my time than blog?  I know I could nap but that is kind of dangerous.  Gator has my bed right now and Momma has the chair.  Marv crawled under the couch to hide from the world.  I’m so happy to have them!  Just wish we could agree on what they like and don’t like to eat as well as being able to communicate better.  However, none of that will happen so they take me for who I am and I take them for who they are.  Each one unique from the other. 

I put the celling tiles back in place last night.  The musty smell went away for a while but has returned.  I think it’s probably the rotting wood.  So I may be forced into removing it sooner than I want.  I have plugged in an air freshener that helps.  I plan to open a couple windows upstairs to air out the place during lunch.  That will cause the cats to come alive. 

Finished off the pizza last night and looking forward to something different for supper.  Variety is the spice of life.  Well back to it.  Talk with you again soon.  

Ugh

It took forever for me to fall asleep last night, which translated into a groggy morning for me.  I also downed most of the box of Cinnamon Toast Crunch which further added to my misery, but it was so good.  Got a shower and then made the final decision I was going back to bed and working from home.  I got dressed and then went back to bed, only to be joined by my furry family. 

They weren’t too happy when I got up but my phone was going nuts and email was pouring in with requests so I had to scoot.  Momma gave me a little bit of time to myself before she came down and crowed loudly at me.  I gave her some attention and then went back to work.  She started up again and I told her that she has to be a good girl and let daddy work, she was quiet for about 30 minutes and we had to go through it all over again.  Eventually the routine wore thing on me and we were edging closer to lunch so I opted to go up and pass out an early lunch for them.  That helped then I figured while I am up here why not eat, so I did.  I took an extended lunch break, which only you me and the cats know about.  I planned to stay on the couch for the rest of the afternoon but watch email but a couple messages came in when it was close to my normal time to go back so I did just that. 

For a day when I had nothing going on it sure was busy.  All sorts of things came out of the wood work today.  The best thing that happened is the fact Monday started so I am no longer on-call.  2 weeks of freedom or so I think.  I tend to keep an eye out regardless.  This week won’t be bad at all.  Next week when the boss is back and on-call I am right there with him because he is busy doing his own thing he can’t always shift focus during the day.  At night he’s on his own. 

Tomorrow could go either way I can stay here another day OR I can return.  It’s nice having the option and it’s also nice being able to save gas and not having to ask permission.

Well now upstairs to deal with the furry family, pass out food and watch TV.  Until it’s time for bed.  Hope you had a great Monday!

Sore Sunday

I was a little surprised at how sore I was this morning when I got out of bed.  I was up in the middle of the night to change beds and use the restroom and I felt it then but thought it would shake off.  My back and my feet are the worst.  Good thing that I sit on my ass to make my living or I’d be in trouble. 

Not surprisingly I was exhausted when I got up.  I went through the motions of a typical Sunday morning.  I thought I was going to loop in a trip to check out some shoes but realized I was wearing crocs and no socks, so I nixed that.  I also thought about going to make a Target run but by the time I was done with the grocery store I had it and just wanted to go home.  That’s exactly what I did.

I know there were plenty of tasks ahead of me but I honestly didn’t want to do any of them.  I brought down some water and soda to the basement and tossed the receipts on my desk, then headed back upstairs.  I wound up watching TV with the kids.  It’s an overcast colder day and that made for optimal sleeping weather.  By 11:45a I was back in bed and napping.  I didn’t want to sleep for long and my body knew that so I was awake by 12:30p.  Kind of a waste of a good nap but so be it. 

A couple of years ago there was a drug commercial for Enbrel and they said “a body in motion stays in motion”.  Perfect slogan for an NSAID.  Anyway that slogan applied I started with laundry, then went on to mold duty and after that I wanted to vacuum, then took out the trash and wow I knocked out most of my chores. 

On the mold front … I was really pleased with how well the one section I scrubbed to death turned out.  The dark stain of mold is gone, there is a light haze and I’m okay with that.  The other side I didn’t have great access to so I had to go over it again today.  It’s dry now and turned out pretty good.  I put in the foam sealer.  Jesus that stuff is so messy and you have zero control unless you go for the commercial setup with a gun.  Everything I read said go with a gun it’s a bit much of an investment but it will pay off.  I didn’t listen to that.  So things got a little out of control and I did manage to get some of it on my fingers.  A little nail polish remover (thank God I’m gay or I would have never had this in my house) and I got my skin back.  I’m on the fence about chopping off the excess foam.  It’s made to be trimmed with a knife or razor but it kind of looks neat in place the way it is.  I used an encapsulant to crush and kill the mold.  That’s what a pro would do.  I plugged up the holes I saw where bugs could get in.  Cleaned up the area.  The only thing I haven’t done is remove the rotten part of the floor.  That is something a pro would do and then replace it.  I covered that in my post yesterday so I’m not going to bore you with it again.  Long story short I think I saved myself a bunch of money.  For added peace of mind I could paint it with mold resistant paint but right now I want to leave the wood as is and continue to monitor to ensure that I am not fooling myself.  I mean if I have to I will call a pro but if I can save the money, keep people out of my house and wallet why not.  I truly think God helped me … I saw this as a hopeless situation where I was doomed and with time came answers, quotes and ultimately a web search last weekend that lead me to the encapsulant that was readily available for purchase.  I pray with all of my heart and soul that I am done with mold now and forever.  It’s nasty and it’s soul crushing to look at when it’s your property and your problem.  Thanks God.  I also think my late spouse helped me a little bit.  I give him the credit but it might just be my own intuition and knowledge that kicked in.  I don’t give myself enough credit.  I’m smarter than I think.  Problem is I was force fed when I was younger the idea that I was stupid and it’s taken years to shake that.  I can’t say I am 100% free of it but 90% of it is gone.  I just doubt myself way too much. 

On a different note.  I reset my main monitor to factory default settings and that seems to have taken the brightness down a bit and I am actually getting used to having my monitor directly in front of me instead of on the side.  I just don’t have a lot of desk real estate to deal with because the biggest part is taken up by 2 monitors.  What I would like to do is get an arm that attaches to the desk and will hold 2 monitors.  I’d need two new monitors that were designed to be mounted on the arm and then I could get back some space.  That is a long term goal and it comes with a nice price tag.  For now I am thankful for what I have and the ability to make it work for me.  My computer is over 5 years old.  I should think about swapping it out but that is the last thing on my mind.

This morning I wore one of my pride shirts to breakfast.  I was chatting up the waitress and telling her a little bit more about me.  I ordered a full size milk shake this week and I got it for free again.  I could get used to this but honestly if she keeps this up sooner or later someone will catch it and she will catch hell for it.  That is the last thing I want.  So next weekend I may opt to skip the shake and just eat my meal and call it a day.  As it is I was in a bit of a fog myself I forgot to get cheese and I’m not happy about that.  I’m also not going back out for it either. 

I picked the worst week for this but I am on sugar cereal this week.  I’ve wanted Cinnamon Toast Crunch for so long and the wait is over.  I also found Blueberry Chex so that will be something to look forward to.  Problem is one bowl is never enough so I have two or three bowls.  A box is gone in 2 days and if I am really hungry I can change that to 1 day.  I say I picked the worst week because the weather is changing and temperatures are cooler.  With oatmeal/hot cereal I at least had the warmth to look forward to.  I just eat that stuff year round and it’s nice to take a break.  There used to be many more flavors on the market and that has changed.  I don’t have a lot of time when I get up between eating, feeding the children, grabbing a shower and getting dressed.  I think I am out the door in 30 to 45 minutes.  I’ve got at least an hour commute and the sooner I get started the sooner I get to work.  I’m typically always at least a 1/2 hour early.  Before I used to start and just give away the time but I saw how that got out of control and I was taken advantage of.  So now I start early and leave early.  This past week is the first time in a very long while where that just wasn’t possible each day.  Since my boss is away I am looking forward to that being the case.  In fact I know I could work from home tomorrow and Tuesday because there isn’t a lot going on but I want to go in.  I actually like sitting in an office.  I can talk to myself and even get a little loud, no one complains at least for now.  I’m not pushing that too far. 

The one thing I don’t look forward to is Wednesday when the guy I have a crush on leaves.  That will really suck for me but I understand he has to do what is best for him and his family.  Sounds like he’s got a great deal.  His commute is much, much shorter and he will be making more money.  It’s not rocket science anyone can tell that it’s a better deal and that they should go for it.  I just know our paths won’t ever cross and I won’t see him again that is the part that I hate to come to terms with.  He’s not a communicator so it’s not like we will stay in touch.  Ah well I guess all good things come to an end. 

Speaking of guys, I have thought about doing a month of premium membership on one of the dating apps.  At one point I had 17 guys interested in me, it’s just we hadn’t matched so I had no idea who they were.  That number dropped down to 5 over the past couple weeks.  Yesterday it spiked at 7 and today it’s back to 5.  Kind of makes me wonder if the app isn’t fucking with me.  I know if I pay my money I will see my matches but the bigger question is will I like them?  I have a type that I am looking for and what looks good to me might not look good to you.  I’m white and want a white guy, I know that sounds prejudice but I think it’s natural.  I want younger but can settle for someone closer to my age if they look hot to me.  The whole dating game is a crap shoot, you never know who or what you will wind up with.  I just want to meet someone but don’t want to invest so much that I get my heart broken.  I think that might push me over the edge and at the end of the day who really wants to be hurt?  Were all looking for acceptance and validation, Oprah said that and it’s true.  I deserve it as much as anyone does but it’s not just going to get up and knock on my door I have to seek it out and that takes time and money.  Funny how most problems in life come down to time, money or both. 

There you have it a wordy Sunday post.  I hope that you enjoyed it.  Thank you for stopping by and reading my blathering.  Life looks so much better right now than it did a month ago.  What changed?  The mold issue and time.  Oh in case your wondering the Beanie Babies are still for sale, she is asking way too much for them and I have been told they won’t sell for that if at all.  I’m keeping an eye out, even though I shouldn’t.  Well on with the evening.  I’m going to try to work in a foot and back massage to hopefully help get me some relief.  I hope that you had a great weekend and that life is treating you well.  We shall talk again.  Bye for now. 

Time 4 a Change

Welcome back.  I made some changes.  Not only to the blog but to my computer setup.  I have two monitors.  They used to be at an angle off to my right and I moved both to be in front of me.  This will help me better when I decide or need to work from home.  It’s the most comfortable setup.  My eyes are taking a little bit of time to adjust, plus it’s been a long day.

I spent the morning in bed, was up for breakfast and tinkered around on my phone, watched some TV and then back to bed.  I said I would get moving in a bit but honestly I didn’t want to and well who’s here to push me, no one.  Unless you count the cats and they just wanted to cuddle. 

So I scooped up Marv from the floor and put him in bed and laid down on my side.  Marv was next to me just like the old days.  Gator was at my feet and Momma curled up behind me.  The whole family fit on my twin size bed.  It was crowded but we were comfy.  Marv was in 7th heaven because he hasn’t been in my bed in a very long time.  We fell asleep together and that was nice.  His face burred in my arm while the other arm was resting on his belly.  As he fell asleep his breathing slowed down, I eventually drifted off.  Then Marv woke up and so did everyone else.  I got him to quiet down for a bit longer but eventually he wanted up.  It was nice while it lasted.  I got him on the floor and then I went back to sleep for a little bit longer. 

Finally up and moving at 2p.  Off to grab the mail and then I wanted to try again for pizza.  Wouldn’t you know it another festival was going on and took up parking.  I decided to drive to the location that was over by the office.  It was a long haul for pizza but it was so worth it.  The place wasn’t crowded and my food came up at a reasonable pace.  I finished off my pizza with Pumpkin Cheesecake.  That was some good stuff!  Not worth the price I paid but it was delicious.  I have left over pizza for days.

I came back home, got the pizza in the fridge and threw the mail on the counter.  Then back out to run errands.  Cat food, stopped by the office supply store for a monitor stand.  That cost way more than I planned.  Then on to the home improvement store for mold supplies.  Got some Venom Latex Gloves.  These things are tougher than regular latex and what I think the medical field should switch to.  A brush which proved to be useless and some spray foam.  Then on to Sam’s club for paper products and soda.  Then finally home.  I dropped $180 total including the pizza which isn’t horrible but it could have been worse. 

Fed the cats dinner.  Managed to nick a couple cans of soda and had them explode in the case as I was trying to unload.  I use a pair of very sharp network scissors and they always manage to get 1 can but this time I was talented and got 2 cans.  I was hella pissed but that’s the way it goes.  Fixed that mess and the soda was unloaded. 

Now on to mold remediation.  I remembered I had a shop vac so I got that out and vacuumed up the dust, bugs and spider webs.  Then started to clean.  Sprayed a cleaner and used the brush.  I wiped off some of the mold and it looks better but it’s no where near perfect.  There are some products that claim to make things new again with no effort but that just sounds too good to be true to waste my time or money on.  I put down a barrier of mold control that I got last week, it crushes mold as it dries.  We did have rain today while I was out and things looked wet when I got home but they were not.  I’m letting this stuff dry and might put down one more coat.  I will break out the foam sealer to fill in the gaps and hopefully keep the bugs out.  Since the water problem is solved the mold isn’t going to grow.  That means I shouldn’t get sick and there shouldn’t be any mushrooms growing.  Which is good.

Now that the temperatures are changing, I want to see how things fair.   I am taking the stick your head in the sand method with this and trying to ignore it, considering the source of the problem (water) appears to have been solved.  It’s not going away and I know that.  I don’t want a hole in my floor or my carpet ripped up.  I’ve got the section of flooring that is “the danger zone” covered with a chair and everyone is avoiding it.  That is a good thing.  You can seal mold in foam sealer and that for sure will ensure it won’t grow but if you get a water problem again chances are very good you won’t know about it until serious damage is done.  So I am only sealing cracks and gaps at this point.  If that proves to work then I will put some insulation back in and put the tiles back in the drop ceiling.  Then were good for a while.  When the cats pass away and I some how manage to scrape up the money to have the carpet replaced I will address the floor issue then.  Unless the problem gets worse.  I researched rotting sub floors and you have to replace them from the top, which means peeling back the carpet – cutting out the rotten part and replacing it.  There are other ways to shortcut this and patch it but you really want a perm. fix.  I’m not looking to sell and if I did I would disclose the issue.  Selling is attractive but I know in my heart that I am better staying put. 

It’s highly probable that I will stay here for the long haul.  Provided I live long enough to be old enough I’d love to get a reverse mortgage and let the bank take this place after I am gone.  Meanwhile they pay me to live here until I die, that is my ultimate master plan not sure if it will work but I won’t know unless I try. 

So I am whipped.  Physically worn out.  I got a shower after working with the mold I felt fiberglass on my skin and the last thing you want to do is scratch.  I jumped in the shower and gently washed it off.  Then went full bore with a scrub down.  Jesus my back is killing me.  My feet are killing me.  I am just falling apart. 

The extra walking I have to do since the office moved is taking it’s tole on me but my hope is that eventually my body will get used to it.  It’s the closest thing my fat ass has gotten to exercise in a long time.  I need some better cushioned shoes and might go shopping tomorrow to see if I can find something.  Outside of that it will be a normal Sunday provided that I can move when I get out of bed tomorrow.  Popping some ibuprofen and going to hit the hay. 

I hope all is well in your world.  Take care.    

2020 Transportation

I stumbled upon the Lincoln Corsair which is a new model replacing what I am presently driving.  They have the bright blue color that I have wanted for so long as well as an optional cool blue interior.  It’s nice out of the box but you can also add on bells and whistles.

Like a good looking guy, it’s easy for me to fall for a good looking vehicle.  This one however has captured my attention and if I do make a move in 2020 like I’d like to, my hope would be to upgrade to this. 

Since this is a new model they aren’t even in local dealerships around me but that will change in the weeks to come.  Take a gander at Lincolns website and let me know what you think.  I know it’s a lot of money for an automobile but I also plan to do things differently on whatever it is I buy next.  No extended warranty or extra coverage like paint & fabric protection, road hazard warranty … it’s all added BS designed to take your money.  The chances that you will need it are slim to none.  The only thing I plan to get is GAP coverage that is actually useful if you wreck and total your vehicle. 

Well back to the grindstone, thankfully the day is almost done!  Momma’s been down here twice to yell at me.  1st time was for lunch.  2nd time was just to make sure I was alive.  Sweet lady she really loves me!

Out of shape

So my big move was yesterday.  Ye old jail cell  My new office is nice.  I thought it was quite small at first and compared to where I came from the space is in fact smaller.  It was hot as balls yesterday from crossing the street to trying to get things put in place.  Eventually I started to cool off but I had a series of interruptions when I was trying to get back to work.  I also found that I like sitting in a dark office where there is either no or very little light.  I think that will become my new normal, which I will miss because in my old space it’s lights on all the time.

Last night I elected to take a more direct route to the parking garage elevators and that required walking up hill to reach an elevator.  Wow was that a mistake I realized it as soon as I did it.  However as much as it hurt I kept going because I needed to reach my car so that I could finally get home. 

I was wiped out last night.  I woke up in the middle of the night and my hip and thigh were hurting.  I put some Ben Gay on them and tried to go back to sleep.  The Ben Gay helped but I couldn’t get back to sleep.  So I opted to start eating.  2 Blueberry Donuts heated, 2 fruit cups, several Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups and Snickers Peanut Butter squares.  Washed it all down with milk.  Then I was wide awake.  I laid down on the couch and started to dose off eventually when Momma came to see what I was up to.  That woke me up and I got her to lay down but she wanted to groom herself and she was bothering me.  So I went back to my bed.  Got comfy and then Gator decided to puke, I chased her out of bed and she finished the job all over my chair.  Well I wasn’t happy but I went back to sleep with the comforter on the floor. 

I woke up as it was getting closer to normal time and opted to work from home.  So I slept in a bit.  Then a bit more and presto finally up.  I did a dash and got everyone fed and had breakfast.  Scurried to the basement with the laundry from Gators adventure in my hand and my cell phone and a soda in the other.  The day has started. 

I’ve got a long ass conference call to jump on in a 1/2 hour where we will be unproductive as ever.  I dread that.  Then lunch and my day is done, unless something comes in.  I can’t honestly say that I will be sitting in front of my computer the whole day I could be lounging on the couch with the phone on standby.  I am hot, my neck hurts and I could use a hot shower and a nap.  I honestly want to go back tomorrow. 

Oddly enough today is the day the gutter guy is supposed to be dropping by but he couldn’t give me a time.  Now I am here if he should actually decided to drop by.  I think he was blowing smoke and has no intention of coming back.  I’ve crafted a plan in my mind on how to deal with this mold.  Most of it involves leaving things alone but I am going to try to scrub some of it to see if I can clean it.  Then I need to get some type of sealer to keep the bugs out of the small crack they are getting in from.  Part of me wants to just foam seal a large area but I have some reservations.  If there isn’t water and oxygen mold can’t grow, so the other part of me thinks there won’t be any harm.  Need to talk it over with someone who is handier than me. 

Well my 1/2 hour is about up and almost time to jump on this long ass dreaded call.  Happy Wild Wednesday!

Let’s get physical

Lord have mercy on me.  I’m moved into my new office but my knees and legs really got a work out.  I’m tired and should sleep real good tonight. 

Initially when I saw my office I thought of a jail cell, I mean it’s small.  However, once I got moved in I realized that it’s going to be okay.  Small is okay and I have about 12 boxes of crap that I really don’t need.  The shit you collect over the years.  I did some purging but clearly not enough.  I am limping by with what I need and the rest is staying packed.  That way when it’s time to move back it won’t be so involved. 

I don’t like crossing the street, that sucks.  It will get worse when the weather changes.  The elevators aren’t automatic where you swipe your badge and just jump on.  The bathroom doesn’t have automatic sinks but they have automatic flushing, automatic soap and automatic towels along with an automatic door.  It’s also a public bathroom and I despise those.  However you do what you have to when you don’t have a choice. 

I came down to work on a request I got and figured why not blog a bit. So I am still alive.  Need to get ready for bed and call it a day.  Tomorrow will be calling soon enough.  Talk with you again soon.  Cheers for now. 

Screwed again

You know how life goes along and everything is a mess, then it comes together and then it falls apart again.  Well last night I was in a blissful state until I decided to check up on my brothers bride.  I saw that she is selling my mom’s Beanie Baby Collection.  The dummy has then clumped together listing in several different groups of 4 5 and 6 all of which she wants $1,200 for each group.  I spoke with a couple ladies here at work and learned that is an unreasonable asking price.  The market is flooded with them and there is no way she gets that.  She is however willing for someone to make her an offer I want to give her $5 to be an ass about it but I am steering clear.  I saw that she is also selling a couple pieces of furniture that I know belong to my brother.  Heck for all I know they hit splits Ville and she is being a witch and selling all of his stuff. 

Oddly enough back when me and my brother were on speaking terms I asked him about the Beanie Baby’s and he said they were “gone”.  I didn’t give it any more thought until last night when I saw them.  I’m entitled to 1/2 of whatever profit they make from these.  I would have one hell of a time proving that they were my mom’s, so this is one of those times where I just have to walk away.  Besides that every time I get involved with him I wind up with a knife in my back.  Sure I could sue him and the bimbo he married but proving my case would be next to impossible.  I would need help from a 3rd party and at the end of the day it’s just not worth it.  I suspect she is selling anything she can to help bail her ass out of debt and why not let my brother help her with that because he did it once before so he will keep on doing it.  I’m pissed but I have to let this go. 

I got a text this morning from the gutter guy he wants his money but was too busy to come by last week.  I told him I would mail it tomorrow and I will.  However, he wants to come by on Wednesday to take a look at the basement.  If your coming by then why should I mail your money to you, can’t you pick it up when you stop by?  He is probably going to be a no show.  If that is the case then I will just sign with the demo guy and let them leave a gaping hole in the floor.  The mold has to go and this can’t linger any longer than absolutely necessary it’s a health hazard.  I guess time will tell.

Tomorrow is moving day and the 1st of the month so work will be busy.  I will get a short day out of it because I have to be done packing by 5p and I plan to leave around 4p.  It will take time to pack things away and I just can’t sit here twiddling my thumbs until the last possible second.  This should be interesting.  I will be glad when it’s done. 

Okay so there you have it.  I’ve got a little bit of time to kill and then I will be headed home to see Momma and her children.  Looking forward to that!  Cheers for now. 

Seal it

I was thinking last night, what if you spray foam sealer on mold/wood.  That would fix the crack and also seal the mold in so it couldn’t grow.  I mean there would be no water source and no oxygen so in theory it sounded great.  I took to Google and found a product that claimed to put down an antimicrobial barrier.  It’s not foam sealer but rather a spray on liquid.  I found it at Lowe’s and jotted over and picked up a bottle, dropped $11.  Came home sprayed down the wood and got it wet.  It’s dry now, the second step is to go in with a brush and loosen up all of the mold and then put down another coating to further protect the wood.  Step 2 will take a while before I get to it.  That doesn’t sound like something I personally want to it.  I mean if I am forced to then I will. 

I still have yet to hear from the gutter repair guy, so I will have to give him a ring.  I’d like to give him his money but also get his pricing for what he thinks the job will cost to fix it his way.  I am inclined to lean towards him.  I had a chat with the boss about the demo guy and he said they drink your money and destroy your home.  It’s a lot of hooey.  That maybe and it sounds like truth.  I just hope I don’t make a mistake here. 

The house is clean, I chased Marv out of my room with the vacuum.  Not something I want to do but I told him I had to get my room done this weekend.  I skipped it last weekend and since all of the cats hang out in there I need to sweep. 

Lit some candles.  The basement has Yankee #5, Bedroom has Yankee Stress Relief and the Living Room has Yankee Strawberry Ice.  It’s just something to liven things up.  I stopped at the wall of scent in the grocery store this morning and considered buy Febreze plugs but I talked myself out of it.  I have a small fortune invested in candles and I love them.  Problem is I don’t want to part with them, I just want to acquire more.  That’s how you wind up with a bunch of candles and no place to put them. 

I stopped off for breakfast and was talking with one of the regulars.  He was concerned because I was a little late.  I was up early enough to be on time but I opted for a morning orgasm and that put me behind.  He said something like I thought you ran off with a wild woman.  I told him that will never happen.  He said why, I said I don’t like women.  He didn’t get the fact that I am gay but I just rolled with it.  He is an older guy and friendly but I don’t know if he has an open mind and I really don’t want to find out.  I was telling the waitress about it and I guess she didn’t realize I was gay either but I wound up getting a free milkshake for coming out.  Hell if I knew that I would have made it a large instead of a small shake.  It was damn good too, it was the Oreo Double Stuff.  Momma the best shake I have had in a long time. 

Since I felt pretty good about my milkshake I have been holding something in for the grocery store.  Today I let it out.  The checker I usually go to was on and she had someone who just laid out a flurry of items.  I mean the belt was full.  She was concentrating and I just walked up and said can we speed it up here in a loud voice and I said it like I was angry.  I got her attention and she said hi.  The lady who’s order she was working on didn’t know what to make of it.  Hell what’s life if you can’t have some fun once and a while. 

The best part was my fasting blood sugar was at 95 this morning.  That’s damn low for me.  I was surprised I was still able to walk.  I felt really good so I rewarded myself with a milk shake.  I know not the smartest thing to do. 

I got the leaf guards in the gutters in the back.  Need one more pack of 4 that will give me one for each gutter.  Need that leaf blower attachment and then I can go to town.  Another job I really don’t want to do but need to.  I haven’t ordered either item but will be doing so soon.  I was surprised at the amount of leaves that had fallen already.  It’s only going to get worse with time. 

I got a car wash and opted for the deluxe version.  My car once again smells like someone crapped in it.  It’s the bug remover.  It does a great job but it smells to high heaven.  I should be burning a Yankee Candle in the garage and then another once inside of my car but that just doesn’t sound safe and things would probably go sideways.  I don’t need that.  I still have some packing to do at the office. 

I started watching this movie on Cyber Security last night on Amazon.  I am really interested in it but it lulled me to sleep.  I figured oh I was just wore out.  Nope I tried to finish it and the same results.  Holy crap I’ll have to keep this handy for those nights when I just can’t sleep.  Actually it’s kind of funny because there is a show I watch on occasion when I want to fall asleep and it’s all about Cyber Security.  The guy who does it just gets on a tangent like one of my co-workers and it puts me to sleep because I get bored. 

Need to shave, fix some dinner, prep for Monday and relax and take in more TV.  It’s only 4:30 and I have lots of time on my hands.  I’ve been piddling around with ye old computer and have managed to pass away a couple hours.  I am going to pry myself away before I loose track of time and wind up spending my evening here. 

Here’s to a great week ahead, I hope that everything goes well for everyone.  Low stress, quick moving days and plenty of good food and time to relax.  Talk with you folks again soon. 

Remembering Ruth

Today marks the 1 year anniversary when I had to say goodbye to Ruth.  I remember the day like it was yesterday and I can’t believe it’s only been a year.  It feels like it was a lifetime ago. 

Things that I miss about her are her meow and the little dance she used to do when I said special food.  I miss seeing her face in the morning and evening looking forward to meal time.  Her playful meow and cry when she was playing.  Seeing her in the basement when I come to my office.  I have mixed feelings about the nail trims part of me misses it and the other part of me doesn’t. 

She was only 14 years old and she lived every day of her life here in my home until she passed.  Her personality was truly unique.  She wanted attention but on her terms.  I miss petting her and scratching her, she really loved that.  Her mom and her older sister the 3 females were extra close and now that it’s down to just 2 females things aren’t quite the same. 

We have all managed to move on but she is missed.  I pray she is at peace and I know the cancer she had can’t harm her anymore and she isn’t suffering.  Reflecting back it was about 2 weeks from diagnosis to death.  That’s pretty quick.  I do remember the day after the diagnosis they had given her a long acting antibiotic and a steroid to reduce the inflammation.  The day after she was so thankful and appreciative.  It was like she bounced back to her old self even if only temporarily.  She was eating again and started to play.  I know that there was no doubt in her mind that daddy did all he could and he loved her very much.  Even though she wasn’t the happiest cat in the world when I needed to trim her nails she knew that it was done out of love. 

Six months prior to this day is about when I lost Big Boy and it feels like he’s been gone for a couple years now.  So not true.  I miss him equally as much.  The strange thing is I was much closer with Big Boy and it doesn’t hurt nearly as much as losing Ruth did.  Both were tough losses and to have to go through them both in the same year my God that was heart wrenching. 

Looking back each day on Amazon Photos pictures of both Ruth and Big Boy come up and I wish that I had more time with each of them.  I long to kiss them, pet them and feel their presence.  It hurts but with time it seems to get easier.  For some strange reason the loss of Ruth still hurts.  This something that I haven’t experienced with losing any other pet.  I suppose it’s the circumstances and the fact that she went quickly. 

I appreciate each and every day I have with the 3 that are left behind.  I tell them every chance I get that I love them and yes I cater to them a little more than normal, because I know that the end could be around the corner.  They are all older cats and their age is against them but they all know that they have a daddy that loves them very much and they all love me and show it in their own way. 

Ruth I’m so sorry for the raw deal you got, life isn’t fair.  You were much braver than I could ever be and I miss you so very much.  Rest easy sweetheart. 

Sleepy Saturday

Good Day and welcome to Saturday!  I got through Friday, wound up having to come home and process one departure.  I also interjected myself into another issue and when it was all said and done I worked an hour of overtime, at least I was at home.  I elected to have pizza for dinner, it was 8p before I ate.  Caught up on TV there are some good new shows.  I caught Bob hearts Abishola and Carol’s Second Chance.  As well as my old favorites Modern Family and Chicago PD.  It was a nice Friday evening.

I spent Saturday in bed.  I was just exhausted from the week and didn’t feel like doing a damn thing.  I saw the day passing me by.  I got up at 3p and grabbed a shower because I looked horrible.  That helped wake me up and make me more presentable.  I got some BBQ for supper, grabbed the mail and picked up food for the cats.  What an exciting day I know.  I started laundry and my web surfing. 

I joined Meet Up a social club that is designed to pair people together with like minded interests.  There are tons of groups to join and many interests.  You have to complete a profile and there is an option for a photo.  I opted only to list my first name and not my full name.  You just never know who is looking at your profile and it’s there for the public to view so why not be cautious.  I found a gay guy who runs a skinny dipping club for gay guys out of his home.  He’s got a hot tub.  Funny thing is the cute guy at work that is leaving, he’s a friend of his.  We were almost setup.  I’m glad I dodged that bullet.  This guy sounds super sexual and he’s running a fucking club under the guise of it being a Skinny Dipping Club for guys.  I mean just reading the description told me all I needed to know. 

I did join a gay dudes only dining club.  They have an event tomorrow and then next weekend, both are at places I am not interested in.  I’ve been there and the food is horrible.  Your expected to order something and I don’t want to be rude so I will just stay tuned for future events.  There are also some professional groups that seem interesting.  I’m taking it slow.  Perhaps this is my ticket out of the loneliness and depression, I sure hope so. 

Not much else going on  I will get back to my normal routine tomorrow or so I think.  I’m on-call next week and I also move next week.  To add to that it’s also the start of a new month so it should be crazy.  I’m interested to see my new office.  We will be on the 13th floor so there should at least be a nice view.  Here’s hoping it will be a great week and there won’t be any disasters. 

Long night ahead and I’m bored.  That’s not good but I’ll survive.  Talk with you peeps again soon.     

Friday Eve

Good Evening and thanks for stopping by.  Another week almost done!  I haven’t heard from the gutter guy.  From what I can tell the basement is dry and we have had a couple storms.  I think the source of my problem has been remediated.  Now to get rid of the problem.  I am starting to sneeze and the basement and part of the kitchen are starting to smell odd.  I’m sure it’s the mold and we need to get it out.  If the gutter guy doesn’t show up tomorrow I will be calling him, maybe we can get together over the weekend or hopefully soon.

The guy who recommended the gutter guy and who I have a crush on has turned in his notice.  I knew this was coming for a long time but never thought I would actually see it.  I’m glad that this is by his choice and not him being forced out.  I can’t express enough how much I’d love to have a guy like him.  He’s straight, married and has kids.  He’s also younger than me and that along with his figure are what attract me to him.  However, I got close to him and I got hurt from it.  So while I love to admire him it’s best that I keep my distance.  He got me to open up and come out, plus he knows my suicidal thoughts.  That scares him because someone close to him committed the act after talking with him and he whishes he could have done something different.  Not his fault but I can see where that kind of thing would haunt a person. Kind of sad loosing a piece of eye candy. 

A female that I thought I was pretty tight with turned in her notice and she leaves tomorrow.  I have seen another side of her and how fake she is.  I got plaid and I am not happy about it.  She has promised for 2 weeks to go to lunch with me and that never materialized.  She reached out to me over the weekend by email and I answered her back.  I shut her up when I started pushing about a lunch day and time, that’s when I knew the true situation.  Yesterday on the way home I got 2 texts from her the first was asking about how the house is and the second was a work related question.  I just answered the work question and that was it.  She is now avoiding me.  I fucking hate it when I realize people are 2 faced.  Don’t be fake, plastic on me, be yourself.  I really trusted her and opened up a little bit to her.  I guess better to find out now than never at all.  I’ll be sure to block her after she leaves.  I don’t want to “keep in touch” with someone like that. 

Well since I am talking about work, I opted to start packing my desk up today.  I’m moving next Tuesday evening.  Shit is in boxes and it’s not organized I just wanted to get through it.  I am not done but the bulk of my stuff is packed up.  I have 5 small boxes and there will probably be at least 2 or three more.  I’m excited to get to have my own office but I wish it was permanent and not temporary.  I will be back in my old space in a couple months, that will be strange.  I heard another perk today, I will miss all of the kids for Halloween.  That just made my day.  Last year I hugged someone’s kid by accident thinking it was a co-worker.  Very awkward.  Like the packing I am looking forward to just getting on with this so we can put it in the rear view.  I will continue my quest for an office on a permanent basis but I know the odds are not in my favor. 

Going up to catch up on TV with the kids and enjoy some ice cream.  They are looking forward to their treat time.  We watched the finale of Suits last night.  It was emotional but very well done and I think it ended on a positive note.  No one died and that was something I thought might happen.  Glad I was wrong.  I sure will miss that show it was something to look forward to, but it’s not the only thing on TV. 

Oh before I go.  The eye candy guy at work that is leaving told me about this site called Meet Up.  Not sure that it’s worldwide but just give it a google.  You sign up for free, join groups that interest you and they meet in real life.  There is a group for gay dudes who enjoy dining out.  I am considering joining and going to at least 1 event.  It will be a way to socialize and meet other gay guys and maybe I will be able to make a friend, find a date or both.  It’s something new and I am glad I heard about it.  There are plenty of categories … yoga, cars, cooking, etc.  it’s open to everyone it’s not a gay or straight thing, it’s more about meeting people who have similar interests as you.  I am going to dive in a bit more over the weekend and sign up.  Stay tuned to find out what happens. 

Hope you have a fantastic Friday and a great weekend.  Tomorrow will be a busy day 4 departures.  It will all come together organized chaos.  Cheers for now.